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Bisexual
love story. Adult. Explicit sex. Four Chapters.
A young
gay man reunited with a long lost high school friend, becomes his
lover, then discovers that the boy has a female lover also; to
resolve the problem, they must define the nature of their sexuality,
their love and their concept of romantic relationships.
Can the situation be resolved?
BI THE WAY
Chapter Three
Broken Hearts and Pieces
After
a mostly sleepless night, Jerry woke the next day tired and achy.
Emotionally, he felt outrage and sadness. At the first sound, he
threw the alarm clock across the room and sat up on the side of the
bed, thoroughly miserable.
Without
thinking twice, he called in sick to the bank. “Well, I am
sick, sick at heart,” he thought. Suddenly, he began to laugh
hysterically at his melodrama. “Shit, I've been hurt worse than
this.” Then, he sighed. “But not by Jay. Fuck!”
Tears welled up in his eyes again. “Oh no you don't Jerry. You
did enough of that crap last night.”
He
staggered into the kitchen and mechanically drank a glass of juice
and ate a piece of toast. His stomach rebelled immediately and he ran
into the bathroom and barfed. He had always hated barfing. Not only
did it feel awful, kneeling in front of the toilet was undignified.
So, he decided to pull himself together. He brushed his teeth,
shaved, showered and dressed. Feeling better physically, he sat in
his favorite chair in the living room to think.
Fragments
of thoughts came pouring into his mind. “How could I have
allowed myself to be duped? Was I duped? Did Jay have sex with me and
then drive over to her house to enjoy another round? Oops, don't go
there. That hurts too much to even consider. No, Jay may be a horn
dog, but that's not his style. I know him too well. He has a good
soul, perhaps one of the few that I know to actually exist.”
Jerry rose and paced the room. “Then what the fuck? How can he
truly be IN love with two people at the same time?”
Not
finding an answer to that question, he decided to go for a ride to
clear his head.
He
was just wheeling his bicycle out the door when the telephone rang.
Hesitating, he heard the answering machine pick up—and Jay's
voice. He closed the door behind him and spent the next two hours
burning off several hundred calories. By focusing on his body, he was
able to shove his confused thoughts and fragile emotions aside. But,
he hadn't resolved anything; at best, he had only exhausted his
muscles and his blood sugar level.
He
took another shower and redressed. Cloying hunger gnawed at him.
Setting aside the memory of his earlier experiment with food, he
prepared a protein shake with vanilla ice cream and laced it with
bananas, orange juice and wheat germ. Taking a deep breath, he took
two experimental swallows and confirmed that it was going to stay
down.
Smiling,
he retired to the recliner in the living room to enjoy the rest of
the drink. However, the incessant beeping of the answering machine
reminded him that he had a decision to make: (1) To forget Jay and
move on, or (2) to forgive Jay and try to retain him only as a
friend. Neither choice appealed to him.
He
listened to the beeping for another five minutes, sighed and pressed
the 'Listen' button. “Jer, I called you at the bank this
morning and they said you were not in the office today. I know that
you're unhappy and confused. Well, so am I. But, please don't think I
played you for a fool. Think about it; I wouldn't be calling you now
if I had.” He paused, and then said in a low voice, “I'd
really like to talk this out with you. Please give me a call. I love
you. Bye.”
Jerry
wiped moisture from his eyes. Damn! He wanted to keep Jay as a
friend; they had a life long connection. But, how could he treat Jay
merely as a friend when in his heart he wanted him as a lover? He
would have to forget Jay. He reached over and pressed the 'Erase'
button on the answering machine.
The
next day, he went to work and actually got a lot of work done, more
than making up for his day off. But, the minute he left the office a
wave of frustration swamped him. Angry at himself, he went to the gym
and indulged in a vigorous workout that ended with him punishing the
punching bag for twenty minutes.
As
he finally took mercy on the poor bag, the gym manager approached.
“If you and Jay don't quit workin' that bag s' hard I'm gonna
have 't buy a new one,” he growled with a smile. At Jerry's
startled look, he continued. “Jay worked on that bag for near
an hour this mornin'. 'Bout bounced it off the hook.”
“ So,”
Jerry thought, “Jay is as frustrated as I am.” He
realized that Jay wasn't going to let the matter go and decided then
that he would have to talk the situation out with him. All he would
have to do is eventually force himself to pick up the telephone. But,
the issue was taken out of his hands the next day.
After
lunch, Jerry raised his eyes to see a police uniform standing in
front of his desk. He looked up at Jay's impassive face and said, “I
surrender officer.”
Jay
frowned and said, “What?”
Jerry
managed a sardonic smile. “You wanted to talk, right?”
Jay nodded. “Okay, I surrender; let's talk.” He pointed
and led the way to a nearby conference room.
They
sat facing each other. The corner of Jay's mouth twitched up into
what could have eventually been a smile. “Well, at least you're
not yelling at me.”
Jerry
actually did smile. “Jay, no matter how hard I tried to be mad
at you, I couldn't be. God knows I tried. I wound up being more angry
with myself. So, we had to talk; I just couldn't think of a way to
simply walk out of your life. But, at the same time, I couldn't make
myself pick up the phone to call you.” He looked down at his
hands. “I'm glad you came by.”
Relief
showed plainly on Jay's face. “Thanks. I'm glad you're willing
to talk. I've been going through hell too.”
Jerry
chuckled. “Yeah, I know. The gym manager was concerned for the
safety of his punching bag. Seems you and I both took out our
frustration on it.”
“ Better
than each other I guess.”
“ How's
your girlfriend taking this situation?”
“ I
haven't told Lisa about our relationship.” At Jerry's angry
look, he hurried on. “After the way you reacted, I just wasn't
prepared to have her respond the same way. But, I'll eventually have
to figure out a way to tell her.”
“ You
look about as bad as I do. She's bound to know that something is
wrong.”
“ I
haven't seen her. Just talked to her on the phone. And yeah, she's
knows something's wrong. But, I just said that I had some personal
problems to work out.”
Jerry
returned to the subject at hand. “Look Jay, I said I can't just
walk out of your life, but I can't just suddenly turn into your
social friend either. How do we resolve this?”
Jay
put his head in his hands and took a deep breath. “That's
what's been tearing me apart. I want you in my life, as more than a
friend. And I want you to accept my love for Lisa too. I can't choose
between you.”
Jerry
shook his head sadly and looked down. Suddenly inspired, Jay tried
another approach. “Okay Jerry, how about meeting her? Just to
get to know her.”
Jerry
thought a minute. What did he have to loose? “Okay.”
“ Great.
We're having dinner at my place tonight. Come over about seven.”
“ So
soon?”
Jay's
smile was genuine. “Yeah, if I give you time to think about it,
you might chicken out on me.”
They
stood up and Jerry walked around the table smiling. He lightly
punched Jay on the shoulder and said, “Asshole.”
By
six thirty that evening, Jerry was a nervous as a long-tailed cat in
a room full of rocking chairs. He had dressed and redressed three
times. When he could stall no longer, he grabbed his car keys and
drove to Jay's apartment.
Jay
answered the bell smiling, but looking equally as nervous. He led
Jerry into the dining room just as Lisa walked in from the kitchen
drying her hands on a towel. With a whoop, she threw the towel into
the air and yelled, “Jerry!”
An
astonished Jerry said, “Lisa!” He turned and gave Jay a
brief, incredulous look.
Laughing,
Lisa said, “So YOU'RE the long lost Jerry he's been talking
about non-stop.”
Smiling
warmly, Jerry hugged Lisa and gave her a kiss on the cheek.
Jay's
mouth opened and closed like a fish out of water. He was finally able
to croak out, “You two already know each other?”
Lisa
returned Jerry's hug and kiss. With his arm around her waist, Jerry
turned to Jay. “Yes, she's my customer at the bank. I did some
financing for her florist shop.”
Lisa
chimed in, “When I wanted to buy the building next door and
double the size of my shop, Jerry loaned me the money.”
Jerry
continued, “And, she's one of my bicycle buddies. She's the
only one I know who can climb Morgan Hill faster than I can. And,
when she gets to the top, she's not even winded.”
A
range of emotions played across Jay's face, then he just laughed,
shaking his head in disbelief. Jerry observed this with more concern
than amusement.
Moving
smoothly into Hostess Mode, Lisa announced that dinner was ready.
Lisa and Jerry talked animatedly all through the meal. Jay watched
them closely. During the conversation, Jerry managed to keep tabs on
each emotion that Jay displayed.
At
one point, Jerry patted his lips with a napkin and asked. “Lisa,
how did you and Jay meet?”
“ He
wandered into the shop one day to order a Mother's Day arrangement.”
She smiled prettily at Jay. “The next day, he came in again to
buy another arrangement.” She leaned confidentially toward
Jerry. “He kept this up every couple of days for a week.”
Jay began to blush furiously. “Finally, I suggested that he ask
me for a date before his money ran out.”
Jerry
chucked and looked pointedly at Jay. “Lisa, are you telling me
that Jay was shy?” Jay gave Jerry a death stare, then presented
the middle finger of his right hand. They all laugh.
After
dinner, they pitched in to put away food and wash the dishes.
Eventually, the evening wound down, and Jay walked Jerry and Lisa to
their cars while each declared that a good time was had by all. Lisa
gave them both a hug and a kiss on the lips, and they waved as she
drove off.
Jerry's
demeanor sobered as he turned to Jay. “Well, you certainly do
have good taste. I can't think of a finer woman for you to fall in
love with.” He looked intently into Jay's eyes. “Are you
SURE you want to tell her about us?”
Jay
replied passionately, “Yes! Now that I know that you two like
each other, I want to try to work things out between the three of
us.”
Jerry
rolled his eyes in mock despair. “Well, I hope you've learned
to perform miracles in the last four years. Whatever, she's sweet and
loving, yet I know her to be a strong willed business woman who
thinks things through before she acts. So, there's a really good
chance that she will listen to what you have to say. Whether she will
go along with it is another question.”
“ All
I ask is that you give me some time Jer.”
“ I
guess that's all we've got right now.” He smiled, got in his
car and drove off.
Actually,
it took considerably less time than Jerry anticipated. Jay called him
early Friday morning with some news.
“ Jerry,
can you come over to Lisa's house tonight? We've been talking for
most of the last two days and I think we've got things worked out.”
Jerry's
stomach lurched. “She knows?”
“ Yep.”
“ What
did you do, have a true confession session with her?”
“ Not
hardly. As you said, she's a sharp cookie. As soon as you walked in
the other night she tipped to the fact that something wasn't right
and that my problem had something to do with you. So, she pulled it
out of me.”
“ Jeez,
and she freaked. Right?”
“ Wrong
again Kemo Sabe. After she pulled my confession out of me, she told
me how she feels about you.”
“ Huh?”
“ Look,
we can talk better in person and then all will be revealed. Just come
over to her house about seven tonight.”
Jerry
moved through the rest of the day in a fog punctuated with the most
alarming thoughts. “She knows about me! She will never look at
me the same way again! He said THEY had worked everything out. What
did he mean? Does he plan to shack up with Lisa and me on alternate
weekends? Oh shit, what am I gonna do?”
Six
o'clock came all too soon. Once more he worked himself into a bundle
of nerves. He showered, shaved and dressed. Then changed clothes
again. Finally, he said 'fuck it' and changed into T-shirt, shorts
and sneakers. If he was going to run the gauntlet, he was going to be
comfortable doing it.
Lisa
had a nice house with pretty grounds. He had been there before,
several times, both as banker and bike buddy. He found Jay and Lisa
also dressed in shorts and T-shirts and disturbingly relaxed. He was
only slightly mollified when they each took one of his hands and gave
him a kiss on the cheek. They seated him in the center of the couch
and joined him there, one on either side.
Three
glasses of wine waited on the coffee table. Lisa and Jay each took
one and Lisa presented Jerry with the third. He joined them—for
what reason he knew not—in holding his glass aloft. Jay and
Lisa smiled at each other, then at him.
Lisa
intoned, “Here's to a new, stronger, more loving relationship.”
They each took a sip of their wine. It was not lost on Jerry that she
had used the word 'relationship' in the singular.
So,
he set his glass down and said, “Somebody want to tell me
what's going on here?”
Lisa
smiled lovingly at Jay, then said, “Jerry, Jay has told me that
you two are lovers, and I understand that and accept it.”
Jerry's eyes grew large. She took his hand. “I understand it
because I know you both very well. I know that you are loving men
with good souls.” She gave a small laugh. “Heck, when I
met you and got to know you, I would have asked you for a date myself
if I hadn't already been in love with Jay.”
“ But
Lisa, Jay says he's IN love with both of us. Doesn't that bother
you?”
“ Not
after he explained it to me.”
Jerry
gave Jay an exasperated look. Jay smiled and took Jerry's other hand.
“Jer, I finally figured it out. Just listen and I'll try to
explain. I've admired you all my life, your strength of character,
your drive, your determination and most of all your goodness of
heart. You didn't know it, but through our friendship you brought out
those qualities in me. Even when you were being called names in
school, you never quit. And neither did I, because of you. You kept
me in school Jer.”
As
Jerry started to respond, he continued. “You didn't know it,
but I wanted to quit and run away from home many times. But our
friendship and physical closeness kept me going until we graduated.
Then, I just had to leave, to leave the loveless and abusive home
life I had.” He squeezed Jerry's hand. “And,
unfortunately we lost touch. When I saw you again at the bank that
day, it all came back to me. I suspected that I was in love with you,
then after we were together for a while I knew for sure.”
He
had been leaning close, looking intently into Jerry's eyes. Now, he
paused and looked at Lisa. “I love Lisa for the qualities she
brings out in me too. They're different than yours. It's the gentle,
loving sweetness that she brings out, that I never knew I had. I
certainly never saw any of those qualities in my home life, so I
never had the opportunity to exercise them, until I met her.”
He
turned his attention back to Jerry. “We're lucky Jer. If Lisa
hadn't already awakened true love in me, I might not have recognized
the extent of my love for you, and I would have never been as
intimate with you as I have.”
He
squeezed Jerry's hand hard. “Jer, that's why I'm attracted to
you sexually. The sex we have is just a physical expression of the
love we have in our hearts for each other. And, as for loving both
you and Lisa, love knows no limitations. I don't believe anyone is
completely gay or completely straight. Love is love and I love you
both.”
At
this point, Jerry had not spoken, but his eyes told all, that he
accepted Jay's explanation. Lisa squeezed his hand to get his
attention.
“ So
you see Jerry, Jay has the best from the both of us. That's why I
love him. And I understand why he loves you. And I can love you for
the same reasons.” Jerry's eyes went wide.
In
answer, she leaned in and kissed him lightly on the lips. He stared
at her in wonder. Jay, in turn, kissed him too, but took him into a
deep passionate kiss.
Then,
it was Lisa's turn to claim a passionate kiss while Jay's hands began
to caress his body. Jerry enjoyed it for a moment, but pulled away.
He looked at them helplessly and stammered, “But...but...”
Lisa
leaned close to Jerry's ear and whispered, “Neither Jay nor I
have ever had sex with multiple partners either; but we both want
this. Think about what Jay just said. Please join us.” She
allowed the tip of her tongue to explore the ear into which she had
been whispering, then nipped the lobe lightly with her teeth, and
kissed her way down to explore the soft tissue of his neck.
Meanwhile,
Jay had claimed Jerry's mouth while his hands found their way under
his lover's T-shirt. Jay's fingertips pinched and stroked the large
nipples that crowned Jerry's pectoral muscles. The fingers of his
other hand found their way to Jerry's crotch and squeezed the
erection there. Jerry moaned, surprised, unaware that he had become
excited.
To
reveal his own mounting passion, Jay took Jerry's left hand and
placed it on the font of his shorts. Likewise, Lisa took Jerry's
other hand and placed it on the front of her shorts. Emboldened by
the waves of pleasure coursing through his own body, Jerry's hands
began to squeeze and stroke them in a steady rhythm.
Jay
broke their kiss just long enough to quickly take off Jerry's shirt,
then resume. Lisa placed her face next to theirs and created a
three-way kiss. Soon their tongues were dueling from mouth to mouth.
They
came up for air smiling. Both Jay and Lisa ripped off their shirts
while Jay moved to place Lisa in the center of the activity. He
gently pulled Jerry's head down to her breast and joined him there to
suckle. She groaned with pleasure as her busy hands found their
cock-filled shorts once more. Jerry's hand had not ceased to massage
the crotch of her shorts. A few minutes later, Lisa cried out in
orgasm.
Jay
and Jerry each kissed her, then each other. When her breathing
returned to normal, she took them by the hand and led them into the
bedroom. Eyes shining bright with passion, they finished undressing
each other.
Lisa
lay in the center of the bed holding a hard cock in each hand. Jay
and Jerry reclined on either side kissing and exploring her body. Jay
gently took Jerry's hand and lay it over Lisa's pubic mound. Like a
puppet master, he manipulated his lover's fingers, exploring the
folds of swollen tissue. Jay coached him to stroke her clitoris with
his thumb and insert two fingers into her vagina. Then, he encouraged
Jerry's hand to begin a gentle motion that brought Lisa to a second
orgasm.
Jay
moved Jerry into position over Lisa, and, as he settled himself on
his elbows and knees, Jay tenderly inserted his penis into her. Jerry
cried, “Oh God!” as his rock hard cock slowly sank into
the soft tissue of a vagina for the first time. Lisa took Jerry's
face between her hands and pulled him into the most loving, tender
kiss she had ever given.
Jay
was beside himself with desire as he saw his lover mount Lisa. He
raised her legs to allow Jerry deeper penetration. Then, he caressed
and massaged Jerry's buttocks and hips, gently urging him to thrust.
Jay almost reached orgasm as he saw the muscles of Jerry's back,
buttocks and legs begin to flex.
Both
of the lovers began to moan as Jerry's pubic bone ground into Lisa's
clitoris and her vaginal muscles rhythmically gripped and tugged at
Jerry's hard penis. Instinctively, he began to move his hips in a
circle as he stroked, increasing both their pleasure. Their kiss
broke as each gasped for air. Lisa's fingernails raked the muscles of
Jerry's back while he rested his head on her shoulder. They shut
their eyes tightly, concentrating solely on their coupling.
Jay
watched in fascination. His fingers explored, stroking and caressing
the place of their joining. Unable to contain himself, he licked and
kissed his way up Jerry's body from his butt to his neck. He lay down
beside them, watching their faces intently as his fingers stroked
their bodies.
At
length, their passion crested and broke over them in simultaneous
orgasms. Their bodies froze in place as they cried out. Slowly, they
relaxed and Jerry lay full length on his first female lover, tears
pouring down his face. Lisa and Jay wiped them away and drew him into
another three-way kiss. Lisa and Jerry's bodies continued to shudder
in aftershock until Jay tenderly pulled his male love away and
settled him beside Lisa. Then Jay knelt between their legs and
lovingly cleaned them with his mouth.
When
his ablutions were completed, they lay Jay between them and began to
lave his genitals with their lips. (He immediately began to shudder
with anticipation, for his orgasm was too long delayed.) Jerry sucked
his lover's nuts into his mouth while Lisa drew his dick into her
mouth. Their lips met where Jay's cock and ball sack joined and their
tongues began to play. Looking down his body, Jay took in this erotic
sight. Overwhelmed by a tidal wave of lust at the sight of his two
loves, his body began to quake. Jerry felt Jay's nuts roil with
activity, and Lisa felt his cock swell in her mouth. Jay gave a
mighty cry and she felt his cum thundering down its tube into her
mouth.
The
only sounds in the room were Jay's small whimpers as Lisa and Jerry
continued to massage his family jewels with their throats. Finally,
he sat up and pulled them from him. They lay down beside him until he
fully recovered.
Lisa
moved from the bed saying, “I need to freshen up a bit.”
While
they were alone, Jay took the opportunity to study Jerry's happy
face. “I'm glad you're enjoying this. I don't know what I would
have done if you had freaked out and run.”
Jerry
smiled reassuringly. “As long as you're here to inspire me,
I'll enjoy myself.”
Lisa
rejoined them on the bed and gave each boy a kiss on the cheek.
Exhausted, they lay together, Jerry on his back holding a lover on
each side. Lisa and Jay kissed him. Eyes shining, Jay said, “Thank
you Jer. You've made my life complete.”
Lisa
smiled up at Jerry and added, “I thank you too. You belong
here.”
Jerry
signed and replied, “I hope so. If what we shared tonight is an
indication, I'm going to begin to believe it.”
Lisa
turned off the bedside lamp and pulled the covers over them. As they
drifted off to sleep, Jerry thought, “I want this to happen. I
want to be lovers with both of them. But I wonder if I can become
sexually aroused with Lisa alone.”
To
be continued. Chapter Four, Reconciliation, will be posted shortly.
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