Date: Thu, 12 Dec 2019 17:24:48 -0600 From: Not Given Subject: Discovering Noah Part 3 Discovering Noah Part 3 Chaosmode Preface: Part 3 picks up where part 2 left off mostly. I introduced Sarah towards the end of part 2 but in part 3 she takes a backseat because in part 4 Nathan will take a backseat when he goes back to college and I explore Noah's relationship with Sarah and how it effects his relationship with Nathan. As I said before this is a story about a bisexual boy, he will be doing stuff with both Sarah and Nathan, and eventually more than that as well during the summer.... As always lets help keep Nifty alive: http://donate.nifty.org/donate.html You can reach me at: chaosmode00@gmail.com Chapter Eleven Nathan put the car in park and climbed out as he did Noah climbed out beside him and Nathan said, "this is it, its still the same too. I can't believe that they never built anything out here." That Friday morning Nathan knew that Noah needed to get out of the house and he wanted to as well so it seemed like a great idea to get out and go somewhere. After going to a few places Nathan had decided that he wanted to see if the field behind Baker park was still there and was surprised to find that it was. As he sat down on the hood of the car Noah climbed up beside him and Nathan pointed, "see that fence way in the distance?" He saw Noah nodded as he said, "yeah just barely." Nathan said, "on the other side of that fence is my house, the one I grew up in I mean. Michael, Billy and I used to make all kinds of crazy stories up in this field, play games, chase one another and ride our bikes back here. I always thought that they'd build something out here, but maybe its just far enough away from the rodes that no one bothered to do it." Noah said, "how old were you?" Nathan said, "younger than you, this was where I lived when I was under ten. When I was your age we moved to a different house after my dad got a better job at a fire station in a better part of the city. Actually pretty close to where we live right now." "Does anyone own this field?" Nathan shrugged, "I don't think so, well I mean I think the county does, its probably owned by the parks system, maybe that's why no one ever built anything, but I Knew that dirt path would still be here. I bet kids still play back here too." Noah leaned back on the car and looked up at the sky, Nathan did as well looking up and to his left he could see the moon even though the sun was still out this was one of those rare times when the moon was visible in the setting hours of the sun. "why did you want to come out here?" Nathan slipped off of the car and Noah followed him as they stood Nathan said, "I'm not really sure, I just wanted to see if it was still here." He rested his hand on Noah's shoulder and then pulled the younger boy closer to him. Nathan liked having Noah close to him, he was discovering that it was getting harder and harder to not think about Noah as more than a friend, his own desire to kiss Noah was blending with his knowledge of Noah and also Noah's desire to kiss him. Yesterday he had talked with Karen about it while they walked around the mall separated from Noah and Sarah. Noah looking up at him said, "I've never really had friends who lived close to me, and I've never really been one of those kids that liked to play outside all that much. I like walking and being outside I was just never big on sports or ridding a bike or any of that." Nathan smiled and said, "that's fine, we all have different experiences growing up. You clearly even when you were younger had a creative mind, I bet you made up stories long before you were writing them down." Noah said, "yeah." Nathan pushed his shoulder a bit with his own, "Yeah?" Noah looked up at him and said, "uh ideas I had?" Nathan laughed, "I'm going to give you ideas!" He started to reach for Noah but the boy clearly knew what Nathan was planning as he stepped a few steps away and stuck out his tongue taunting. "I will chase you down." Noah took off and Nathan smiled to himself before chasing after the boy. They ran through the field heading towards the fences at the other end of it. Noah turned at the fences running down the length of them, Nathan pulled up to catch him and as he grabbed Noah the preteen tried to pull away as he did Nathan lost his balance and fell down. Noah turned back looking at him and Nathan grabbed the boy pulling him down too but he miscalculated and Noah fell on top of him, his leg going right between Nathan's thighs. Nathan grunted and Noah said, "sorry." He giggled though as he said it and he fell onto his back next to Nathan. Nathan groaned sitting up a bit and looking over at Noah. "sorry huh?" Noah nodded, "yeah I'm really sorry I know how much that hurts." Nathan said, "oh yeah you do huh?" Noah nodded again and Nathan started tickling him then. The boy hadn't been expecting it and he squirmed trying to get away as he rolled away Nathan grabbed him rolling with him until they were again both flat on the grass this time with Noah on top of Nathan. Noah giggled a little still resting on top of Nathan but they slowly stopped. Nathan could have spent hours looking into the boys eyes, they were that beautiful. When Noah leaned down to kiss him Nathan didn't stop him just like the last time. Noah's lips were soft and gently against his own, smaller, but not tiny. He let the boys tongue slip into his mouth and as their tongues began to twist with one another Nathan ran his hands down Noah's back, gently stroking sliding down further. He slid his hands over the boys jeans, feeling the shape of Noah's round tight bottom in his hands. Noah was breathing heavily breaking their kiss and Nathan could feel something pressing at his lower stomach which took him only a moment to figure out what it was. Noah went back down kissing him again after catching a breath and Nathan didn't stop him. He pulled him though instead so that Noah was laying on his back and Nathan rested on his side, still kissing now as his hand stroked Noah's stomach, slipping under the kids shirt. The boy felt incredible, his skin warm and inviting, his stomach flat, in his chest Nathan could feel the boys heart beating like crazy and knew that his own was as well. The kiss had a sort of desperate quality on the side of the new twelve year old and as the older Nathan knew he should pull back but he didn't want this to end either. He ran his hand down, sliding over the button of Noah's jeans, feeling the different texture of it as the boy continued to dig his tongue into Nathan's mouth, his head was off of the ground, his hand holding the back of Nathan's head as Nathan let his hand slip down further. His hand ran over the middle of the jeans, where the zipper was. He could feel the denim material but underneath it Nathan could make out the shape of Noah's penis, the stiffness of it was hard to deny as he rubbed at it through the jeans. Noah pulled back breaking their kiss and at first Nathan was scared that his touch had scared the boy or made him uncomfortable. Instead Noah had stopped to undo the button on his jeans. Nathan wanted to tell him no, to stop right there but his mind was torn between what was wrong by society standards and how it felt so right being with Noah. The undoing of the button was Noah's way of giving permission without talking, as his mouth again was pressing to Nathan's after he undid the button. It was his way of saying if you want to I give you permission. Nathan wanted to hesitate, he wanted to say that they should slow things down, but he also wanted this and didn't want to deny it anymore. His feelings for Noah were complex and deeply tied into the past two week sand getting to know the kid. There was something here, something beyond just friendship and Nathan no longer cared what society said about his love of Noah, or Noah's love for him. They were both feeling this, both needing it and there was nothing wrong in giving into it. As Noah's tongue hungrily twirled with his own Nathan's hand back down on the jeans, underneath he could still feel the shape as his hand reached the top of the jeans, resting on the boys stomach. He slipped under the undone button, his hand sliding into the jeans over the kids underwear. The jeans were loose enough that the zipper didn't have to be undone as Nathan's hand slipped in. He had promised himself that he wouldn't allow more than kissing but now his own base desire to be with Noah was taking over and the boys desire was clear enough as well. It was warm between the jeans and the boxer-briefs the boy wore. It took Nathan a moment to find it, to feel the shape of it under his fingers. Noah was bigger than he had thought a boy his age could be. He wasn't monstrous in there, just longer than Nathan had thought possible based on Noah's size. Nathan ran his hand over the shape, sliding his fingers around it, gently rubbing through the boxers. Noah stopped kissing him, his eyes looking at Nathan's, watching him as he rubbed the length through the kids underwear. He leaned down but he didn't kiss Noah's lips, no his mouth touched the boys neck softly kissing on it, rubbing gently as Noah gave a small gasping release of breath. Nathan ran his fingers along the length sliding up to the top of the boys underwear and when he slipped under them Noah gave a small intake of breath as Nathan continued to kiss the boys neck. Inside was even warmer, the kid radiated heat down here and Nathan found him. His fingers found it, the boy was a good length, not as big as some older men he had been with, nowhere near as thick. Not even as thick as the teenage boys he had been with when he was a teenager. Nathan stroked Noah, his fingers running along the length pulling on the skin drawing it back as he realized the boy was uncut. He had never had one before, all of the guys he had been with had been circumcised just like Nathan himself. As he stroked it Noah breathed in deeply, and said, "its.. I'm going to really soon... Nathan... d-don't stop..." Nathan had no intention of stopping now, he was pretty sure he couldn't even if he wanted to. Which he did not, it was more than the fact that he felt good doing something society said was evil and wrong. It was more than that he was making Noah feel good. Touching Noah, loving on him was making Nathan feel good as well. * The moment that Nathan's hand had slipped under the button of his jeans sliding into them Noah had been lost upon a sea of storms inside of him. He had wanted this moment, wanted this very thing to happen. He wanted Nathan to be the first to touch him and as their kissing had continued and he had felt Nathan's fingers sliding down there, going over his jeans Noah had known the signs. Nathan wanted to do this as well. Now though the hand was sliding down into his jeans as Noah intensified their kissing, his own hand in Nathan's hair holding his head down to Noah's own as his tongue danced around Nathan's own tongue. Noah feeling Nathan's fingers stroking him through his underwear was so amazing and then it got even more so when he broke their kiss and lay his head back on the ground as Nathan kissed his neck Noah felt Nathan's hand slip up and then under his underwear. The feeling of the older Nathan's fingers twirling around his erection, stroking it, rubbing at it was more than Noah had ever imagined. He was so dangerously close to releasing and he told Nathan as much. Nathan kept stroking him though and Noah bitting his bottom lip a bit trying to hold back what was pushing up from his balls said, "Its... I'm going to..." Nathan just stroked him again and it was too much, Noah couldn't take it anymore. He came, he felt it, his penis jerking and that little bit of stuff that he could manage spurted out of the top, it was just two small spurts that barely came out and when Nathan's hand ran over it wetting the tip even more Noah breathed in deeply. Nathan's fingers were no longer there stroking his pole, they were out of his underwear now and Nathan said, "I should have stopped..." Noah shook his head, "no.. it was incredible." Nathan said, "I wouldn't have guessed that you could do that already." Noah flushed, "just for a few months and its barely anything not like um how its described in stories. I-is... does yours do like its described in stories?" Nathan laughed and sat up, "yes Noah it does." Noah sat up slowly as well, "I'd like to see..." Nathan gently kissed his cheek, "maybe one day, but doing this out here... even this little bit was dangerous." He stood and grabbed Noah's hand pulling him up as well. Noah closed his jeans back up again and saw Nathan's eyes linger there for a moment. He was still stiff inside even though that little bit had shot out, the excitement was enough to make him stay big and a part of him wanted to see how big Nathan was. As they were walking back to the car, holding hands Noah thought about what they had just done and decided to see how Nathan was feeling about it, "a-are you.. do you feel bad doing that to me?" He was concerned by what Nathan had talked about with him on that first day. He knew that Nathan was fighting with himself about this because of their age difference. Noah understood, the world said that it was wrong that twelve year olds and twenty year olds couldn't have these kinds of feelings for one another. Well not that they couldn't, just that they couldn't act on them. Nathan threaded his fingers with Noah's squeezing softly, "no, I don't." He chuckled a bit, "after all that debate with myself in the moment when I realized how much you wanted it and how much I wanted to do it, I didn't feel guilty at all." Noah smiled, "fuck their rules!" Nathan laughed and ruffled his hair pulling him into an sideways embrace, "indeed but we've got to do something about your dirty mouth." Noah flushed a bit, "sorry, I just got caught up in the moment." Nathan said, "I'm pretty sure I was cussing just as much as you at your age. If not younger." Noah said, "you were? Did you ever cuss in front of Beth?" Nathan laughed, "no not till I was in college. Even then it still feels strange to do it." Noah could understand, "yeah I don't want to not in front of her, but I think she's heard me before when I got mad at something in my room." Nathan nodded, "yeah I'm pretty sure she heard me a few times too but if there's one thing I'm sure you've already learned she respects your privacy as long as you're not doing something to hurt yourself." Noah agreed as they arrived back at the car. They stood there in front of it, the sun had almost full gone away now, just a bit of sunlight still remained. Noah looked up at Nathan as they stood before the car holding hands. Nathan leaned down and kissed his lips again just a soft gentle kiss and then they got in the car together. As Nathan was starting the car Noah said, "are we uh well dating?" Nathan looked over at him and said, "I'm not sure Noah. In about ten days I go back to school up in New York and you've got your own stuff down here. I like you, and I know you like me too but I don't want to tie you to something." Noah thought about that for a moment as Nathan started driving back down the trail they had used to get here. "but we are together? I mean if I wanted to even though you're older I could say you were my boyfriend?" Nathan said, "do you want to say that I am your boyfriend?" "Yes," he realized that he really did. Nathan touched his hand, "then you can say that, but who are you going to say it to?" Noah shrugged, "myself, I like hearing it. To you also and maybe to one other person." Nathan said, "that's not a good idea, and that is where the danger of this comes in and where I feel guilty and horrible for telling you that." Noah said, "you shouldn't, I'm well aware that I can't let others know that we're together. The other person would be Sarah." Nathan looked over at him and said, "why Sarah?" Noah was a little afraid to speak about Sarah to Nathan, afraid that Nathan would immediately tell him that he had to choose. Still, a part of him needed to be upfront about it. "B-because I like Sarah too and I'm sorry if that makes you not like me anymore because I like two people at the same time and can't choose who I like more..." He trailed off afraid to go on. Nathan though somehow seemed to get what he was going through. He just said, "it doesn't Noah, but what makes you think that Sarah might like you back?" Noah wasn't sure, he had been thinking about that Wednesday off and on both on Thursday and then today on Friday. There were clues there, things that he hadn't picked up on while she had been there. He was too distracted by how pretty she was and also how she had turned his birthday from being sad and depressing thoughts about how his dad wasn't around for it into this wonderful fun day. Later though thinking about it, how things had changed after the part of the mall trip where they had gone to the Christmas shop. At that point he had gotten nothing different from her no signs that she might like him at all really. He had been admiring how pretty she was, and also actually having fun with her dragging him around the mall. It was at the table in the food court where they had talked that he had gotten the first sense that something was happening. He had just been too focused there on other stuff, including how pretty he thought she was, to notice it then either. Then at the house, when she had kissed him under the mistletoe that had been nice. It was easy though to use the excuse that it had been tradition and she had been holding it up above them. It was after she had left that night when it had occurred to him, she hadn't hung it up, she had held it up there as she leaned down and kissed him. Then she had tossed it back into a box not even hanging it up somewhere. Then she had come into his bedroom, talked to him, given him the shirt she had bought, kissed his cheek, given him her number with a heart next to her name and told him that she'd be there in a second if he needed someone. His entire mind had been too fogged with other things to realize that she had essentially without saying it was telling him that she liked him even if he was younger than her. When Nathan said, "well what makes you think that?" Noah realized it had been minutes of his thoughts floating around in his head. Noah finally said, "it was the mistletoe, she hadn't hung it up, she just held it up above us and kissed me before putting it away." Nathan laughed and said, "that's a pretty good sign. She is older than you." Noah smiled, "so are you, and she's not as old as you are. You're just some dirty old man wanting to be with a twelve year old." Nathan looked at him and then said, "fair enough kid." Noah said, "I did..." Nathan found his hand and squeezed it, "I know how you meant it Noah relax, but you might pay for that comment at a later date." Noah smiled and flushed as he said, "I like she's older, just like I like that you're older... maybe I'm just like that always seeking out older to date. I mean Hayley is older too, she's an eighth grader. She says its my type, that I actively seek out to try and be with people older than me." Nathan laughed, "its possible, you sure its not because older means more mature?" Noah shrugged, "maybe, but Nathan I don't feel like I'm immature..." Nathan looked over at him, "you're not. You have a very level head on you Noah, its clear you think about things a lot and you take responsibility very seriously. Still you are just a kid and I don't want you to forget that because you should be having fun and doing kid things." Noah said, "so should you." "What do you mean?" As they pulled into the house driveway he waited for Nathan to look at him as he said, "well I mean you're an adult but that doesn't mean you can't have fun and do kid things too does it?" Nathan turned off the car and said, "you know what Noah you're right." He got up getting out of the car and Noah followed him. As he got out and started to walk around the car Nathan said, "in fact there's one very kid thing I can do right now..." Noah turned looking at him, "oh what's.... uh no!" He realized what it was when Nathan started to come for him, Noah turned and ran up to the front of the house opening the door and running inside. Beth was sitting on the couch when he came into the house and closed the front door behind him locking it. "What on the earth is going on Noah?" Noah said, "he's coming for me Beth and when he gets me I'm dead!" Beth shook her head and said, "well dear I did leave the back door unlocked..." She just smiled a little bit. Noah sighed and ran towards the back door knowing that Beth was going to be no help at all. Didn't she get it Nathan was going to kill him... well not really... but that made it all the more fun to pretend. He got to the back door and locked it but then he forgot one thing and as he turned around in the kitchen he remembered what that one thing was, Nathan had a key to the house. Noah staring at Nathan said softly, "well fuck." Nathan smiled, "such a dirty mouth... you're going down kid..." He lunged and chased Noah around the center counter of the kitchen. They ran out of the kitchen and into the living room. Beth on the couch said, "boys really! Go run somewhere else!" Nathan said, "Sorry mom I just got to teach this kid a lesson he called me old earlier." Noah said, "well you are!" He stuck his tongue out, Beth rolled her eyes and sighed and Noah took off towards the back of the house. Nathan came after him and though he tried to close is door Nathan got there before he could. He grabbed Noah as he felt his own giggles escape even before Nathan found his sides and started tickling him. Between gasps and giggles, "old... man!" Nathan said, "take it back!" Noah shook his head and Nathan began to tickle him again until he squirmed away and fell onto the bed where Nathan began to assail him with more tickles. "Just admit it!" Noah shook his head giggling loudly as he said, "No way!" He attacked Noah again and this time he did it by lifting the shirt up so that he could get him under the shirt, that just made the tickles even more effective. Noah squirmed and said, "I'm gonna pee if you keep doing this.." Nathan said, "well then admit that I'm not old!" Noah being assailed again said, "Okay..." Between giggles, "You're not old..." Nathan stopped tickling him and standing there breathing heavily said, "that's better!" Noah smiled big scooting across his bed as he said, "you're ancient. You make mummies look young." Nathan studied him across the bed, "so its murder then?" Noah shook his head, "oh yeah... you're done.." Nathan started moving around the bed and Noah jump up and over it going to the side that Nathan had been on before as he did Nathan reached out and grabbed him, pulling him into his arms, tickling his sides and said, "don't make me do you in..." Noah giggling said, "okay, okay fine you're not ancient either!" Nathan was holding him still, but the tickling had stopped, Noah looked up at him and then rested his head on Nathan's shoulder. "I do wish I was just a little older..." Nathan stroked his back, "I know, but I think you're just wonderful the age you are." Noah looked up at Nathan and he leaned down lightly kissing Noah's lips once. After Noah said, "if I did start seeing Sarah, would I have to stop seeing you?" Nathan kissed the top of his head, "no, you're being upfront about it, letting me know and I know that you're trying to figure out who you are still. Maybe you'll never want to be with just one person, and that's okay too." Noah pulled back just a bit looking up at Nathan again, "can we spend as much time as possible together these next few days before we both go back to school?" Nathan stroked his cheek and kissed his lips again, "yes, absolutely Noah, I want to be with you and honestly I'm a little tired of caring what other people say or will think about our age difference." Noah leaned up to kiss him and the two of them stood there in Noah's room just holding each other for a few more minutes before they finally went to get some dinner. Chapter Twelve The Saturday and Sunday before Christmas the three of them went to see some movies, do some last minute Christmas shopping and had some fun around the house decorating the rest not just the living room that Sarah had gotten done. It was getting closer to Christmas which was on Wednesday, and while it was usually two weeks off for public schools this year Noah's school had given two and a half Nathan noticed when looking at the calendar Sunday evening. It made sense as where Christmas feel this year made it a challenge. Nathan could still hear the shower going as Noah was taking his shower when his mom walked into the kitchen. Nathan put down the school calendar and his mom hugged him saying, "I'm glad you and Noah are getting so close." Of course he wondered what she would think of their closeness if she knew just how close they were really getting. "Me too mom. You going to bed?" His mom nodded and he kissed her cheek as she hugged him once more before walking off to bed. He got a cup of water and headed back to his bedroom. He was looking at something on his phone when Noah walked into his bedroom. Nathan couldn't help it, the younger boy looked wonderful just out from a shower. His sandy brown hair looked darker still wet and he was in just his pajama bottoms so that his chest and stomach were fully visible. He was a very handsome twelve year old, it went beyond cute honestly. Nathan also knew that part of his attraction for Noah was the fact that he was youthful, but the bigger part he had discovered was that he was attracted to Noah because he was Noah. Noah closed the door to his bedroom and Nathan didn't tell the boy not to. "I-is... did Beth go to bed?" Nathan nodded a bit and he saw something he hadn't expected as Noah came closer to him, the sign that the boy was growing in his pajama bottoms. Noah flushed when he realized Nathan was looking at it and Nathan said, "what are you thinking about?" Noah didn't respond, instead he walked up to Nathan and reached up to pull Nathan down and he let the boy. Noah tasted of mint toothpaste, as his tongue pushed into Nathan's mouth, in his jeans Nathan could feel his own penis rising as he kissed the boy. He ran his hands down Noah's back softly rubbing the boys warm soft skin. Noah rested his hands on Nathan's shirt as well and slipped under it stroking his stomach, his fingers were on the button of Nathan's jeans. Nathan pulled back from their kiss, "what are you doing?" Noah shrugged, "I wanted to see it." He stopped at the button. "I know that its probably wrong or inappropriate or whatever but I've been thinking a lot about it and how I want to see you. I want you to see me too. You already felt it.. I'm not really all that big.. but... I mean I guess its stupid that I want to see you and its not like I have to... I'm fine if you just want us to keep kissing but..." He stopped talking and Nathan could tell that he wasn't sure how to continue. Nathan stroked his cheek, "we don't have to rush into things Noah, but that said, if you want to I think that makes it okay." Noah smiled up at him and Nathan leaned down again to kiss the boy on the lips again. He knew that he shouldn't be enjoying this so much with Noah, that the boy was just that a kid but being with Noah was easier than being with any other boy he had ever been with before. The age difference seemed to disappear when it was just the two of them and no one else around, and when they kissed and held one another the two of them being together felt right. As his tongue played with Noah's he felt the boy undoing the button again on his jeans, he got it undone, his fingers finding the zipper and pulling it down as well. The boy went slowly, Nathan knew that Noah had seen another penis besides his own before, the boy Danny and if he had to guess he had seen stuff online too as during the early 2000's when Nathan had been Noah's age he had done the same things and that stuff was even easier to find now online as compared to ten years ago. Noah's fingers had finished on the zipper and he pulled back from their kiss, pulling at Nathan's jeans, opening them until they started to fall down a bit on Nathan's waist. He could still see the tent that Noah's own penis was making in his pajama bottoms and wondered if the boy had any underwear on. Noah's eyes Nathan noticed were lower, right where Nathan's boxers had been revealed. The boys eyes were looking at them. Then he was reaching out, pulling at the boxers. Nathan pulled his own tee-shirt up and off as Noah pulled at the boxers. Nathan didn't stop him, he just watched. He was letting Noah guide this show, not himself. * Noah wasn't sure why he was feeling the need to see Nathan. He hadn't been thinking about it in the shower just moments before and at first when he had walked into Nathan's room all he had been thinking about was a goodnight kiss. But then something inside of him went back to Friday afternoon and his desire to see Nathan returned. It was about then that he also started to really get stiff in his own pajama bottoms. The thought of seeing Nathan excited him honestly, he had never seen an older adult naked, well unless you count things he had stumbled across before online. This though was Nathan and with Nathan's permission he was going to actually be seeing Nathan. He finished with the zipper, slowly pulling the jeans open and as they kind of fell down on Nathan's waist Noah could see the shape of it in his boxers. It was bigger than he had expected from the times that he had felt it when they were kissing. The way that it pushed at the boxers sort of excited him as he took it in. Noah put his hands on the boxers, wanting to actually see it, he felt anticipation growing inside as he pulled the boxers down as well. That bit of Nathan popped out, proud and standing up, not straight but pretty close to it. Like Danny's had been Nathan's was cut, the head this large darkish pink cap on the length, with the skin around the bottom of it as it stood up and throbbed a little bit. The same dark reddish brown hair that topped Nathan's head also surrounded the penis, though it was trimmed and looked maintained. Noah swallowed and realized that he could feel his own desires to feel this penis growing. It was like with Danny, he had wanted to touch Danny so much and he had touched him. But then a day later he had wanted to touch Hayley and she had let him too. Noah reached out, Nathan didn't tell him not to. He slowly circled his hand around it, he could close his fingers around Nathan as he wasn't that thick, but they didn't close fully around. He stroked it like he did his own, it was familiar but not as well as it wasn't his own. As he stroked Nathan he looked up at Nathan, "do you want to see me too?" * The words twirled around in Nathan's head as he felt Noah's hand still on his erection stroking it. This was a different experience than with someone around his own age and it wasn't just because Noah's hand was smaller. He had actually one dated a guy before Timothy who had really small hands and Noah's were about the same size as that. It wasn't about the age difference, it was the fact that this was Noah and he wanted Noah to have the best experience. It was his first time with another guy other than a brief encounter with a boy close to his own age. Nathan could feel the hand circled around him still stroking him as Noah asked the question and Nathan said, "yes, if you want me to." He saw Noah's cheeks flush but that was the indication that Nathan needed to know that Noah did want him to see him. Noah's hand slipped off of around him and Nathan went down on his knees so that he could put his hands on Noah's pajama bottoms. He reached out first, resting a finger at the end of the tent that the penis was making. It jumped a bit and he smiled before pulling at the pajama bottoms and finding out that indeed Noah did not wear underwear under the bottoms. The boy came into his view and Nathan felt his own desires rising. Noah wasn't big, he was longer though than Nathan thought a boy his age would be, as Nathan had realized on Friday and now had full conformation. The length was impressive, and it was even more so as it stood straight up pointing at Noah's chin. IT wasn't thick though, Nathans hand would easily wrap around it and he could stroke it fully. The thought of seeing Noah doing that to himself did excite Nathan a bit as the younger boys hand would fit perfectly around his own pole. Underneath his balls were bigger than Nathan expected as well, just these two little globes of perfection. The boy had no hair anywhere down there and Nathan slowly reached over, stroking Noah's balls first, feeling the shape of the two small globes. He felt the sack constrict a bit and the kid's penis twitched. The head was poking out a bit from the foreskin just barely visible as Nathan slowly slipped his fingers around the length, pulling at the skin dragging it down as the head popped out fully into view. Noah bit his bottom lip and softly said, "its too small..." Nathan stood up his fingers still wrapped around the boy's penis. "its not, why would you think that?" Noah shrugged, "because you've been with older boys and I know there's are bigger." Nathan pulled Noah closer to him again, kissing his lips after saying, "its you Noah, size doesn't matter when its someone you want to be with." Noah flushed but didn't argue as they kissed. He could feel his own penis pressing to Noah's stomach, the head resting there against the smaller boys stomach as Nathan's tongue played with his. He felt the boy's hand circle around him again, stroking him and Nathan led them to the bed. * Noah watched as Nathan sat on the edge of his bed and he pulled Noah to him. Noah came up onto the bed facing Nathan, his legs on either side of Nathan's own bent back at the knees so that his face was now more even with Nathan's. Nathan's penis rested on on is lower stomach as he pressed in closer, and his own rested sort of next to it, pressing to Nathan's stomach now as they started kissing again. It was easier this way to kiss Nathan and to reach between them and find his penis again too. Noah wanted to touch it, he wanted to feel Nathan throbbing in his fingers. This wasn't like with Danny, and not just because it was an older boy, it was because it was more important. Nathan meant more to him than Danny ever did. Their tongues were tangled, he could feel Nathan's fingers in his hair holding his head, his other hand on his back sliding down. When he leaned more in so that they started to fall back onto the bed he felt Nathan's hand slide over his bottom stroking it, rubbing the globes. Now laying on the bed, Noah on top, he could feel Nathan's penis twitching on his lower stomach, his own rested right next to it, smaller and also getting closer to climax. He sat up, breaking their kiss and moved sliding his penis over until the smaller one rested against Nathan's bigger one. Feeling the throbbing of Nathan's penis against his own was amazing. Noah's balls rested nestled to Nathan's own, the hair felt funny as it ran over his bald sack. Nathan touched his cheek as Noah leaned over him again, his penis sort of slipped around Nathan's falling off of it but sliding right next to it between them. They kissed again and Noah rubbed his stomach over the length of Nathan's penis, pushing his stomach down on it which pushed his own down onto Nathan's lower stomach. Nathan said, "you know what's about to happen right?" Noah nodded, "yeah, your stuff is about to come out right?" Nathan nodded and Noah said, "mine too.. though I don't have as much..." Nathan smiled and ruffled his hair, "you're adorable you realize that right?" Noah flushed and said, "that's a compliment right?" Nathan pulled him down until his face was inches away, "it is, do you want to make me cum now Noah?" Noah nodded and then Nathan kissed him again. They started again, the rubbing. Nathan's hands were on his back again, one of them sliding down over Noah's ass, holding it squeezing on the globes. HE felt both hands now resting there squeezing his bottom and he pressed his stomach hard against Nathan's penis , his own rubbing over Nathan's stomach and that was when it happened. The surge that he felt against his own belly surprised Noah but then a wet sticky mess was coating his chest and stomach. He sat up on Nathan, looking down at his own stomach, there were strands of spend on his chest and stomach, and there was more on Nathan's own as well. Seeing it sort of excited Noah, he hadn't finished yet even though Nathan had so Noah started stroking is own penis it only took a few strokes and he felt his release come at last as well, just that little bit coming out of the head as he sat there looking at Nathan. * Nathan watched Noah finish himself off. He had not intended on cumming like that. He had been pretty sure that Noah wanted to see him cum but he had also not been sure if Noah was going to want to stroke him or something else. When the kid had started rubbing their bodies together the feeling of his warm soft stomach rubbing over the length, pressing hard down on it as well was almost enough to make Nathan cum. The final straw was touching Noah's body and feeling him pressed to Nathan. His hands squeezing the boys small tight ass feeling that wonderful smooth skin. Nathan came, and he coated both of their stomachs with his seed. Seeing Noah stroke himself, his hand circled around his own penis stroking it as he sat there on Nathan's lap was a gift that he never expected to see. When the boy came he closed his eyes and bit his bottom lip as he shot that little bit of spend that he had. It just sort of spurted out onto the head a little white but more clear than solid. Then Noah after he finished opened his eyes and looked at Nathan smiling. Nathan laughed, "what are you smiling at?" Noah shrugged and lay down on top of him regardless of the spent mess still there, "that was awesome. When Danny shot stuff after I stroked him two times he got embarrassed and hid it away so I didn't get to see the stuff, he had more stuff than me and you have a lot more stuff than me..." Nathan touched Noah's cheek, "well I am older, generally that's how that happens. Now..." he rolled Noah off of him and the boy fell onto his back on the bed as Nathan grabbed his tee-shirt from the floor and used it to wipe his cum off of both of them. "There.. thats better." Noah moved slipping up onto the bed more laying with his head on one of the pillows and Nathan said, "what are you doing now?" Noah flushed a bit, "d-do you want me to go?" Nathan moved sliding down on the bed next to him, laying length wise as well. "No, I don't want you to go." He leaned over and kissed Noah again. He tried not to start rising again but feeling the boys lips pressed to his own, feeling Noah's hand on his shoulder, it was enough. He pulled back and slipped from the bed again, he could feel Noah's eyes on him, he knew that the boy admired more than just his penis, he had seen Noah's eyes on his chest and stomach more than once, and at least once he had been sure the boy had checked out his butt too. Nathan turned off the light from the ceiling and came back over to the bed. Noah had already pulled the covers back so that they could both slip under them now. Under the covers Nathan reached out and gently found Noah's hand, holding it. The twelve year old moved in closer until they were just a little bit apart from one another. He could hear Noah's soft breathing. "what would Beth do if she caught us?" Nathan said, "I have no idea, lets hope she doesn't." * Noah could feel Nathan's fingers entwined with his own, still in his chest his heart beat quickly, and his mind raced with all kinds of things. The first thing that it connected with was that thought that Beth might find them. Noah said, "I hope she doesn't too. I don't want you to get in trouble Nathan, but I can't..." he paused for a second glad that Nathan didn't interrupt him, "stop wanting to be with you. I know all the trouble you could get into and I Know that you risk a lot just for kissing me and now this..." He indicated them both being naked together under Nathan's sheets. Nathan touched his cheek, he decided to do the same touching Nathan's cheek too. Nathan smiled, "I told myself I wasn't going to go any further than the kisses, but you're... I feel too much for you to not want to be with you if you're willing to be with me too." They were quite for a while, after a bit Noah said, "I wanted to ask you something else, not about this... well its kind of about this but kind of not." Nathan nodded and Noah swallowed, "I was thinking about it earlier, how happy being around you makes me... like I don't forget that my dad died but its easier when I'm with you or Beth maybe even with Sarah if I get to know her more. I feel like I'm betraying my loss of him by being happy... is that... normal?" Nathan's thumb pulled the tear away, "it is perfectly normal, but Noah your dad he wouldn't want you to wallow in sadness, he would want you to be happy. You'll miss him sometimes more than others and get sad sometimes too but he'd want you to be happy and to live right?" Noah nodded and said, "yeah, sorry I made this a little s-" Nathan interrupted him, "you made it perfect, and asking me questions telling me what you're feeling those are things you should be doing. That's what a relationship is." Noah smiled, "I know that, its not the stuff we did earlier, thats just the fun part of it. When, after your dad died did you first you know feel really happy not just a little bit?" Nathan smiled back, "about a month or so, this guy named Jordan that I had really liked asked me out and it was an amazing first date, until I screwed it up saying that I didn't know if I could date so soon after my dad died." Noah said, "and he got mad?" Nathan shook his head, "no he understood, told me about his grandmother passing, who basically had raised him with his dad. We talked a really long time about grief, he had seen a councilor of some kind. Anyway we didn't really have that spark but we were friends for a while after that. If I had at the time of my dad's death had someone that I was close with, like how we are now, I would have felt happy a lot sooner I think." Noah yawned a bit, "we only got close because of my dad..." Nathan said, "yes, but that's not why we're this close Noah. This wasn't my way of trying to make you happy, or get over your dad, this was an accident of us both feeling something for one another that was way more complex than friendship." Noah agreed, "yeah, and who knows maybe this was always supposed to happen, you and me." Nathan laughed and Noah closed his eyes as he realized that Nathan's hands were holding him gently. "maybe so Noah, maybe no matter what we would have some how found out we liked each other like this." Noah really did hope so. He had no idea where this was going, what he and Nathan would mean to each other six months from now or a year, but he knew that he wanted to find out. Of course there was Sarah, he wasn't sure what that was yet either... why did he have to have these complex feelings, why couldn't he just like boys or just like girls. He didn't know if he could handle liking both... It was so confusing. Thirteen Christmas morning Noah lay in his bed watching the fan on his ceiling twirl, he didn't want to get up, move, or anything. It used to be that Christmas was one of those days that Noah loved more than any other. He'd get up early, run out to the living room and eagerly await to open his presents. In all the years since his mom's death every Christmas morning his dad would already be up, sipping a cup of coffee and Noah would have his own hot chocolate waiting for him. Then he'd get to open the presents and his dad would enjoy the pure look of joy on Noah's face as he saw what his dad had gotten him for Christmas. Last Christmas, the first one with Beth in their lives at this time of the year had been similar but different. For the first time ever Noah had been able to pick out something for his dad with her help and that had been amazing watching his dad open that first gift that he had ever picked out. Beth had given him suggestions and he had picked one of them and she had even given him the money to buy it himself. It had been probably the best Christmas of Noah's life really. Seeing his dad like his gift had been so different than getting his own gifts. Noah felt a few tears welling in his eyes, he rolled onto his side and wiped at one of his eyes trying to will the offending tears away. This Christmas had come and arrived just like all of the ones before it, but this year there would be no Dad sitting on the couch watching him open his presents, no hot chocolate, no smell of his dad's coffee. Noah sort of curled up on himself as he lay there in bed. He tried to stop them, really he did but the tears came anyway. He didn't hear the door open, but he did feel it when someone gently pulled him into their arms. It took him a moment to recognize the smell of Beth's lotion as she gently pulled him into her embrace. Noah did sob then as Beth held him in her arms. He could feel her softly stroking his back, softly saying, "shh its okay sweetie let it all out..." It had been days since he had felt really sad about his dad. Playing games with Nathan, going to the movies, kissing, and more had all kind of made him feel good. He hadn't stopped missing his dad or hurting because of his dad being gone but he had found a way to enjoy the new things happening in his life because he knew that life went on. He knew that his dad wouldn't want him to lay in bed crying all the time. Also neither Nathan nor Beth would let him, they were doing their own things each in their own ways to help him get through this moment of his life. After a bit his tears slowly ended, but Beth still held him, softly kissing the top of his head. He was almost certain that she had cried too as his hair felt a little wet. She slowly pulled him back and wiped his eyes, kissing his forehead, "do you want some breakfast or do you want to stay in bed longer?" Was there some mysterious way that parents knew what you needed and when you needed it? He could have stayed in bed, it was better there, but he would have only started thinking about his dad again and then he would have been right back to sobbing. Noah sniffled, "w-what if when I get out there... when I see all the... what if I can't..." Beth gently stroked his cheek, "you want to take the Christmas stuff down?" Noah shook his head, "no... not that. I... I still want it to be Christmas I just don't know if seeing it..." Beth said, "if you cry Noah you cry, there's no one way to be. Today is going to be hard because you and your dad shared this day in a very special way. Its up to you on what you think you can handle and if you cry well I will be there for you." Noah nodded and said, "Okay. I'd like some breakfast." Beth nodded too and slipped off of the bed with him. She ruffled his hair a bit and he did feel better. They had to walk through the living room to get to the kitchen and Noah did stop for a moment looking at where his dad would already have been sitting with his cup of coffee a cup of hot chocolate waiting for Noah himself on the coffee table in front of the couch. This morning though none of that was there and Noah was grateful that it wasn't Beth was making sure that none of that was there and he knew why, it would have been too much. Just seeing his dad's stocking was almost too much, but he was okay. In the kitchen Nathan was up already making them all breakfast. He smiled a bit as they walked in and Noah knew what he needed, he walked over and asked if he could help and Nathan let him work on the eggs this time by himself. It was a good distraction cooking, it helped him forget that today was Christmas morning. They ate breakfast at the kitchen table, the three of them sitting there, not really talking, just acting like it was any other day. After breakfast they cleaned the dishes together and then Beth said she was going to take a shower. Nathan went to change and Noah started to as well but he stopped in the living room again and stood behind the couch looking at the Christmas tree. That was where Nathan still found him a few moments later. Nathans' hands resting on his shoulders shocked Noah a little bit as they brought him back to reality. Nathan didn't hug him or touch him like his dad or Beth did. Somehow having Nathan's hands on his shoulders felt more personal. He looked up at Nathan and turned around resting his head on Nathan's chest as Nathan stroked his hair. He thought he might cry but he didn't. Strangely he felt better, more able to handle looking at it all now, the further the day went on the less painful the Christmas memories were. They were still there, but it was well past the time that he would have opened all of his gifts and been off doing other things now. He stepped back from Nathans' embrace and said, "are you going for a walk?" He knew that Nathan went for walks every morning usually after breakfast. Nathan nodded, "yes, do you want to come?" It was a simple question and Noah nodded. "I'll wait till your ready and let my mom know." Noah walked back to the back of the house and his bedroom. He put on jeans and a tee-shirt, when he put it on he realized that he had put on the shirt that Sarah had given him. He smiled at that, and grabbed his phone. He texted her: Merry Christmas and thanks for the presents. A few moments later she texted him back: Merry Christmas Noah. Then she sent a picture of her wearing a Santa hat and looking very cute. It made Noah smile and he saved it to his phone. He followed Nathan outside, it was colder today so Noah grabbed his jacket, walking beside Nathan as he zipped it up. Nathan didn't wear a jacket, he did have on long sleeves but he was used to it being a little colder than the high fifties with the sun out that it was this morning. Outside some of the younger kids on the street were playing with their new toys. The family next door had two kids that were both probably not even in school yet and one of them had gotten a new bike that he was trying to learn how to ride. The parents waived and Nathan waived back as they continued walking. After a bit Noah said, "do parents have like super powers?" Nathan laughed, "I don't think so, I don't think once you become a parent you get some unknown powers that they're keeping hidden. Why are you thinking that?" Noah shrugged, "I dunno, I'm just trying to figure out how they do all the stuff that they do. Like teaching kids how to ride a bike or tie our shoes or any of the other hundreds of things I know my dad taught me how to do. And somehow being patient about it too when I'd keep getting it wrong or not being able to figure it out. I've only known your mom for a little bit but I can tell that she's able to do the same thing. I don't think I'd be able to teach a kid anything without getting frustrated in ten seconds." Nathan put a hand on Noah's head and sort of jostled it a bit as he said, "Noah you're still a kid, you're not supposed to want to do that kind of stuff yet. One day you'll probably want to do all that stuff like when you're a lot older." Noah looked over at Nathan, "like you do now?" Nathan laughed, "no I'm no where near ready to to even think about kids." "Yeah but you taught me how to do stuff so it has to be an adult thing, wanting to teach kids new things." Nathan reached over and when he took Noah's hand it surprised Noah a little bit, "its also a thing that friends who might be more than friends do for each other too. Lets say that I actually wanted to learn how to beat that game that you play all the time, would you show me how to do stuff to beat it?" Noah shrugged, "sure, that's easy because I know about it." He stopped for a second, "wait... are you telling me that a parent's super power is just knowledge? They did it before you so they know how to do it and want to show you because their your parent?" Nathan laughed, "yes Noah, that's pretty much the trick I think." They stopped at the park, that was the turn around point. They sat together on one of the benches and Nathan again took his hand squeezing it, "how are you doing?" Noah shrugged, "better, it still hurts, but not as bad as it did this morning. Beth just knew I needed her this morning.. thats what made me start thinking about how parents know stuff..." Nathan leaned back on the bench and put his arm around Noah's shoulders, "she knew when I needed her too. You know at sixteen I was already about as tall as I am now, and well my mom isn't the tallest woman, yet somehow she held me like I was a little kid again." It felt nice just sitting there but also talking with Nathan always seemed to make him feel better. Part of it Noah knew was because Nathan had gone through the same things, but another part he knew was because of all the feelings he had for Nathan and that Nathan was returning as well. Being intimate with someone was different than being their friend, it was like a whole new world opening up for Noah and it really did fascinate him even with the feelings of loss. "Was Christmas the worst day for you too?" Noah wasn't sure if Nathan wanted to talk about it or not but he knew it never hurt to ask Nathan a question, he would let Noah know if he didn't want to talk about it. "No. I was sad that my dad was gone, but it wasn't... we didn't have a huge Christmas tradition a lot of times my dad had to work on Christmas day." He smiled a bit as if thinking about it, "it was my birthday actually. My dad and I had a sort of tradition for my birthday, he always got that day off. We'd spend the day together especially when I was younger, but even up to my sixteenth birthday he always found a way for us to do something just the two of us. That first birthday when I turned seventeen was the hardest. Now I look back on the other ones and still feel sad but I feel more happy than sad, the memories make me feel good because I have them. You'll get there too eventually." Noah squeezed Nathan's fingers with his own and rested his head on Nathan's shoulder. Nathan kissed the top of his head and then they started back to the house. That afternoon Noah opened his gifts, there was a game that he had asked for over a month ago, some movies as well, some clothes. IT was all a muted affair, he didn't rush through the gifts and he thanked and held onto Beth for a long time aware that she and his dad had both picked out these gifts for him. That night he did try out the new game, well after it installed all of its updates. * New Years eve wasn't as bad, in fact it actually turned out to be one of the better days of the holidays. Noah had started to learn one thing for sure about being in a relationship that wasn't exactly one that others could know about. It didn't leave a lot of time to be alone together for the two participants. He couldn't just pull Nathan off somewhere and start kissing him. The same went for Nathan though sometimes it was clear that Nathan wanted to kiss him. It wasn't like Noah had always imagined either. For some reason he had always thought that when you were in a relationship you did sex stuff all the time, it made sense you had someone to share that stuff with now so why not do it. Instead he discovered that most days were actually pretty much like every other day. Part of it he knew was that him and Nathan couldn't just go off and do something together as first off they were separated by nine years in age. Then secondly the fact that Nathan's mom would freak out if she saw her son and step-son kissing one another or doing other things. Lastly finding days or ways to be alone together wasn't easy when Beth was home from work most of the week leading up to New Years eve. On the eve of the new year though Beth went into work to solve a crisis that her company was having and she was really the only person that could fix it. So that morning Noah went with Nathan on his walk like he had been doing most mornings. It was more than walking that they were doing. It surprised Noah how much he wanted to know about Nathan, or how much Nathan wanted to know about him. He hadn't even known that he at just twelve had things that someone else would want to know, but apparently his likes, dislikes, even what he thought about things mattered to Nathan. It was this new discovery, this realization that learning about another person was actually interesting. With Danny and Hayley it had been a physical thing, probably because it had never gotten past that moment of initial attraction. He talked with Hayley about other things but he knew that she was so far away now that all they really had was conversations. So that was different as well than what he was experiencing with Nathan. Because of the nature of their age difference a lot of times all they had was the ability to talk with one another and maybe steal a few kisses. That morning though when they arrived at the park Noah felt really alive and different, he hadn't been super happy most days following Christmas, but it had felt nice just being near Nathan and even having Beth there as well. As Nathan sat down on the bench Noah said, "I bet I'm faster than you." They had been talking about racing and Nathan had said that Noah's legs were too short to win a race. Nathan just shook his head and said, "doubtful not with those short legs." Noah looked down at his legs and said, "well you'll just have to catch me to prove that you're right." Then he took off not sure if Nathan was going to chase him or not. It didn't take long for him to figure it out. He ran towards the soccer fields at the other end of the park and Nathan caught up to him as he turned that direction. Nathan started to try and pull in front of Noah but then instead he reached out and grabbed Noah from behind pulling him down to the ground in a sort of tackle as they rolled on the ground until Noah was pinned under Nathan. Both of them breathing heavily Nathan said, "I think its safe to say I got you." Noah smiled a bit and squirmed under him. The way that Nathan had him pinned they were both laying on the ground together faces inches apart. Noah said, "only because I let you." Nathan said, "Oh only because you let me huh? Only because you let me?" Noah nodded. Nathan just shook is head, "you shall pay." He attacked then, his fingers finding Noah's stomach, his sides, tickling him. Noah laughed loudly trying to push at Nathan's hands to stop him from tickling him. Nathan was not relenting, his fingers just kept digging into Noah's sides, as he giggled loudly. Noah managed to squirm away after a moment and he got up running this time back towards the house. Nathan sat up slower and Noah looked back to see him, when he saw Noah looking at him Nathan got up to give chase. Noah turned around just in time to watch himself hit the trash can and go down twisting over it and falling hard onto his back on the concrete sidewalk close to the bench. Nathan came running up, leaning over him, "Hey... you okay?" Noah breathed in, and touched himself for a second feeling his body, his arms felt okay, his legs, he shook his head slowly as Nathan took his hand pulling him up into a sitting position. Then he pulled Noah up until he was standing and Noah said, "I... who put that trash can there..." Nathan laughed and then Noah started laughing too. Nathan pulled him into a sideways embrace as they started back towards the house. "Who put that trash can there? Really? I think the HOA did." Noah said, "I should complain. I run that way all the time and there's never been a trash can before!" Nathan laughed again, "if you run that way all the time then I'm sure that you've run into more than a few trashcans." Noah smiled a bit, "it's their fault they keep getting in my way." "Uh Noah...trashcans don't move." "They do! Its just people don't see it. Its a whole trashcan conspiracy!" "Oh a trashcan conspiracy?" Noah harrumphed and stepped away from Nathan moving in front of him to stop him, his hand on his chest, "You're in on it aren't you? How much are they paying you to hide the truth?" It was silly but it was fun to be silly sometimes. Nathan smiled a smile of conspiracy, "oh yes, I am in on it, and they're paying me to make sure that you never tell anyone ever about their secret ability to move and make twelve year old boys trip and fall over them." Noah said, "wait just twelve year old boys?" Nathan shrugged, "They're very selective about who they trip...and now that you know the truth... well my dear Noah you must die!" Noah shook his head and smiled as Nathan smiled a bit. Noah took off then running towards the house, up the porch and inside. He didn't close the door behind him as he wanted Nathan to catch him. They ran into the house together, one behind the other. Beth still wasn't home so it was just the two of them. Noah ran towards his bedroom but Nathan caught him in the hall pulling him back into his arms as he tickled his sides from behind. Noah laughed loudly squirming and trying to get away, they both fell onto the hallway floor, Noah struggling, trying to get away as Nathan tickled his sides more. They rolled and struggled together in their play until Noah was on top of Nathan. Laughter escaping him a bit, Nathan's own too. He looked at Nathan below him, he moved a bit and when Nathan's fingers brushed his cheek Noah felt something start to rise. He leaned down and the fun turned into a different kind of fun when his lips touched Nathan's. It was slow at first, just their tongues gently playing with one another, their mouths meeting. The feeling of Nathan's fingers in his hair, his own hands running along Nathan's sides. He loved feeling Nathan's body pressed to his own, loved how Nathan held his head in his hand, how his other hand was sliding down Noah's' back stroking it through his shirt. His own hands were now holding Nathan's shoulders, his middle pressed to Nathan's stomach. He wondered if Nathan could feel what was happening in Noah's jeans, because he could feel it. When it grew in his underwear a lot of times it got stuck and that made it a little uncomfortable. He was pretty sure that Nathan knew the same feeling being a boy as well. Noah pulled back from their kiss and when he started to pull at Nathan's shirt the older man didn't argue or stop Noah. He sat up as well to help Noah pull the shirt up and over Nathan's head. His own hand were on Noah's shirt too pulling it up and off as well. Then Nathan stood and pulled Noah up with him holding his hand dragging him towards the closest bedroom which was Nathan's. In there with their shirts off the preteen and adult met again, Nathan leaning down to kiss Noah on the lips as his hands stroked Noah's shoulders. Noah's own hands ran up over Nathan's chest feeling the shape of his small but wonderful muscles. He slowly went down over Nathan's flat stomach, in his jeans Noah could feel his penis starting to throb at touching Nathan. It excited and thrilled him touching another boy, even a much older one, in fact that illicit act just added to the excitement. IT was something he wasn't supposed to do and he wanted to do it so much. His fingers brushed Nathans' jeans, when he undid th button the older Nathan didn't stop him. Instead he seemed to encourage it by kissing Noah harder his one hand now in Noah's hair again. Noah knew about sex, his dad had once told him when he was ten and answered all of his questions, but the internet had helped as well. There was so much information out there and his dad had never restricted his access to most of it. Undoing the button on Nathan's jeans sliding his hand over the front of them as Nathan's own hands stroked Noah's shoulders, his back, rubbing over his shoulder blades now as his tongue tangled sent shivers of thrill through Noah's whole body. HE could feel it in Nathan's jeans, the bulge that was his penis, he rubbed over it through the jeans, Nathan didn't tell him to stop, it would have been pointless Noah had already been fully naked with Nathan before. They had already crossed the line that they shouldn't have, no reason to go back now. Noah found the zipper, pulling at it, dragging it down as his lips and Nathan's continued to meet. The older, grown man kissing him felt wonderful, the thrills that he got from being with Nathan were a combination of so many things now, not just the fact that Nathan was older, no that was too easy. These feelings were earned, they had nothing to do with the age that Nathan was anymore, that was just a budding attraction. This was desire blended with knowledge, blended with perhaps love but it was too early to know if it was really love. Noah got the zipper down, his fingers sliding inside, as he did he felt it, finding Nathan was easy, he was big, not too big, just bigger than Noah himself. His fingers ran along the length, feeling it through the boxers. In his own jeans he could feel his penis throbbing. He wanted Nathan, he wanted to feel Nathan in his hands. He found the opening in the boxers, pulling at them, dragging it out of them. Nathan's penis freed stood up, not a straight up as Noah's own did but it still was clearly up and fully erect. Noah slipped his hand around it, stroking Nathan, feeling the larger penis sliding around in his fingers sent more of those shivers of pleasure and desire through Noah's body. He pulled back from their kiss looking down at Nathan's penis. He put both of his hands on it, stroking it, loving the feeling of it as it surged and moved a bit in his hands. Noah studying it said, "I want to try sucking on it." Nathan said, "you don't have to..." Noah looked up at Nathan, "I want to try." Nathan didn't say anymore. He moved to the bed sitting on the edge of it so that Noah could go down on his knees before Nathan. Like this standing up on his knees his face was about even with Nathan's penis, he could see it twitching a bit still sticking up from where it had been pulled out of the boxers. Noah reached over grabbing at it again, running his hand over it, stroking it like he did his own. He wasn't as thick as Nathan but Nathan wasn't all that much longer than Noah. IT felt right stroking Nathan, just like it had felt right stroking himself or seeing Hayley's breasts. All if it felt right, sex just felt good he decided. He saw a little pearl of white escape from the head and he knew that meant Nathan was close to his stuff coming out. Noah studied it and then he leaned over and ran his tongue over the opening where the little pearl had escaped. The taste was sort of strange, but he didn't find it bad, just different. He licked at the head again and Nathan didn't tell him what to do or to be careful. Having knowledge of what this organ was, of how it worked helped Noah. He just imagined what he would want someone to do to his own penis. He ran his tongue over it again, then slowly pressed his lips to the head, sliding them down over it. Fitting Nathan inside of his mouth was more than he thought it would be, he had to open his mouth wide, sliding down over the head of the pole, as his one hand still circled around it stroking from the lower part of the base. He felt Nathan's hand on his head stroking his hair as Nathan said, "only do what you want Noah..." Noah pulled back a bit sliding off of the head that was in his mouth, sliding his tongue over it again. He was rubbing it like he did his own sometimes, his fingers holding the shaft as his other hand went into the boxers, finding Nathan's balls. He could feel the hairs covering the sack that was unlike his own, he was still bald down there. The feeling of the two balls in his fingers as he pushed his mouth over the head again, dragging it inside one more. He could tell that Nathan was getting closer and he wasn't sure he wanted the stuff in his mouth, honestly he was a little afraid of that so he kept pulling back off and running his tongue over it again instead. Nathan let him know, "its going to happen soon Noah..." Noah nodded, as he stroked with one hand his other hand slipped out of Nathan's boxers and went to his own jeans, he shifted them a bit as he was still erect in there the thrill of touching Nathan, of making him reach his climax kept Noah himself excited as well. His tongue ran over the head again, as his hand stroked Nathan longer and faster. Nathan groaned leaning back on the bed and as Noah was licking the sides of the head it happened. His eye actually saw the first load as it shot out, spurting up from the small opening and then coming back down onto the penis. His hand had been up towards the head and some of the spend rolled down over his fingers and Noah slowly moved his hand off looking at the stuff as a bit more shot out. He licked his finger tasting, trying to determine if he liked it or not, like the small droplet from before it was different, but it wasn't bad. He wiped the rest of it off on his jeans as he stood up. Nathan seeing him stand up grabbed Noah by the hand pulling him up onto the bed, laying him flat on his back, "your turn..." * The moment that Noah had started undressing him Nathan had known he would give into whatever the boy wanted. At first he had wanted to fight his desire for Noah but no longer. He was giving in because he cared so much for the boy. He was giving in because he knew that Noah was able to handle this, that the two of them being together wasn't harming him in any way. So he let Noah do as he wanted. He let the boy slide his hands into his boxers and pull his erection out. The boy stroked him sliding his fingers along the length, and then he put him in his mouth. The feeling of Noah's mouth on him, of his tongue running over the head was almost too much but Nathan held back longer, letting Noah explore and figure it out on his own. The boy had an idea of what he was doing, he knew how to run his tongue over the head, how to drag him into his mouth and when he felt like he was too close he let Noah know. The kid kept at it though, his tongue running over the head, moving in a circle around it, his hand holding tightly stroking and squeezing. Until finally it was enough and he came. Then Nathan knew that he needed to have Noah as well, not that it was only fair, no he desired to take Noah into his mouth, to make the boy cum just as he had made Nathan cum. He lay Noah down on the bed, leaning over him, kissing his lips, on them he could taste what little of his seed the boy had tried. That drove his desire to taste Noah even more. This was his turn to make Noah feel as good as the boy had made him feel. He moved down sliding his mouth down over Noah's chest, his tongue playing with one of the boy's nipples, his lips softly rubbing over the length of it and then sucking on it. Noah breathed in, his hand on Nathan's head as he started moving down more. He ran kisses along Noah's flat stomach, down over his belly button, to the button on his jeans. Nathan undid the jeans, pulling the zipper as well, he didn't hurry but he was surprised by how much he desired to see Noah again. In the back of his head he wondered what this boy would look like when older and he knew that he would still desire Noah even then. Nathan pulled the jeans open, sliding his fingers inside finding Noah through his boxer-briefs. The shape of the boy was in there at an odd angle as he had grown while caught in the briefs. Nathan pulled dragging them down until the elastic band clipped at the bottom of Noah's balls, making the small sack look bigger than it was. He leaned down, kissing the boys soft lower stomach, his lips gently sliding down further on Noah's stomach. He ran a finger along the length of the boy's penis, feeling the shape of it. Then he slowly slipped his hand around it, stroking, pulling the skin back until the head was exposed. The little pinkish head of Noah's penis made Nathan hunger for it. He pushed his tongue along the length, sliding around the head, then pushed lips down onto it. Once when he had been thirteen Griffin his first real boyfriend had been just a hair bigger than Noah. Sucking on Noah brought back that memory, but this was different, this was deeper more personal. He hadn't loved that boy. He sucked, as he did he let his tongue slide along the length while taking it further into his mouth. He rested one hand on Noah's upper chest, stroking on it as he felt one of Noah's hands in his hair. The boy was was breathing heavily and he could feel the boys heart beating like crazy as well as he sucked harder on the penis. Noah gasped as Nathans other hand stroked and squeezed on his balls sliding under the boys underwear to do it. His little penis jerked in Nathan's mouth and those two small pearls of spend shot out landing on Nathan's tongue. He continued to suck even with Noah having cum. The boy was holding tightly onto his head, his little fingers holding the hair as Nathan sucked harder. Noah gasped and pushed up to Nathan his penis vibrating in Nathan's mouth, this time there was no spend but the boy had a second orgasm as Nathan slowly pulled his mouth off of the erection and sat up licking his lips once. He moved on the bed laying down beside Noah and pulled the boy into his arms holding him. They lay there like spoons both with their jeans undone but their underwear still on, no shirts either. He could feel Noah's heart beating as his hand rested on the boys chest while he held him. Softly after a bit Noah said, "I'm going to miss you when you leave in a few days." Nathan kissed the top of his head, "I am too Noah, a lot. These past weeks you've become more important to me than I could have imagined." "You too, to me I mean." Nathan smiled, "yes I know what you mean. You're going to keep looking for what it means to be you though while I'm gone right? WE made a deal, if you find a girl you want to try thing with you will right? I don't want you to miss out on things in your life, you're young and you should be able to experience. everything to figure out what you want. So promise me you won't just sit and pout about me being gone? Noah rested his hand on top of Nathan's that was on his chest, "yes I promise, but we'll talk all the time right and you're going to come visit when you can?" Nathan kissed the top of Noah's' head again, "of course. This isn't going away Noah and even if we find that we don't want to be like this forever, well that's okay we'll still be friends and more." Noah smiled and then rolled so that he was facing him, "We could be step-brothers with benefits. Like every now and then we just give each other blow jobs." Nathan laughed and Noah laughed too then he said, "but no matter what happens in the future you letting this, letting me explore what I feel for you and you feeling it too.. I'm glad it happened." Nathan kissed his lips softly, "me too Noah, me too. We both needed this I think." Noah kissed him back and they laid there together awhile longer just talking about other things, not even about what they had just done. Later when Beth got home the three of them went out and watched the fireworks and Noah kissed both of them for the new year so that it wouldn't look strange to Beth. It was Nathan decided the most amazing month even if it had started with and been filled by such a horrible moment in Noah's life. HE could tell that Noah was going to recover and be stronger than ever. He'd always miss his father, just like Nathan would always miss his, but he'd go on. End Part 3 Part 3 ends here. Part 4 picks up with Nathan back in New York and Noah still at home. The story is called: Discovering Noah and thus we will continue with Noah, the next few chapters deal with Noah and Sarah whom we met in part 2 and is referenced here in part 3. Her and Noah's relationship is the focus of part 4 but Nathan is in there a little bit as well. Parts 5 and 6 will deal with Sarah, Nathan, and Noah all together trying to figure out what it means together in a more joined effort. I believe Part 6 is the last part, but I'm not a 100% sure. Anyway thanks for reading, any comments, or questions or anything else you have is always appreciated. If you're here just for the Nathan and Noah moments, you can skip all of part 4, but hopefully you like me are in it for Noah more than anyone else. As always I can be reached at: chaosmode00@gmail.com A Donation to Nifty helps keep stories like this going: http://donate.nifty.org/donate.html