Date: Tue, 17 Dec 2019 22:55:22 -0600 From: Not Given Subject: Discovering Noah Part 5 Discovering Noah Part 5 Chaosmode Opening Notes: Looking over the story and splitting it I have come to realize that this will indeed be 7 parts as I need to introduce a new character close to the end to get to the ending that I want for these characters to have. That diversion ended up adding an extra thirty pages to the story roughly. Part 5 deals more with Sarah and Noah, but also some Nathan and Noah stuff. Part 6 is mainly Noah and Nathan with some Sarah stuff, and then part 7 is an extended Epilouge of how these characters end up in their lives along with a flash forward at the end of it all... As always if you want to reach out to me feel free to do so: chaosmode00@gmail.com Nifty loves donations or so I hear lets keep them going into 2020!: http://donate.nifty.org/donate.html Chapter Eighteen. Sarah studied the other girls that were lining up. She knew a few of them, she had raced against them before, but she was feeling really good today about her chances. Lately she had been feeling really good about a lot of things. The Timer held his stop watch and the Starter held up his flag to indicate when they go. Sarah got on her mark and then it was time to run. As she ran her mind focused on that more than anything else, running was the only thing on her mind in the moment as she went down the track, around it and back up to complete the circuit of her run, coming in second place. It had been a close one but a good one. Sarah took her water bottle from the coach and wiped her face with her towel, there was still one more race that she had to do today. As she looked around the high school track field she saw her date for after track. Three weeks had passed since their first date, they were getting closer to February now and she was getting to know who Noah was, and how he loved learning about her as well. They talked almost nightly, well usually they texted if it was a weeknight because Noah didn't want his step-mom to hear conversations he considered private even if they were just the two of them joking around or watching a movie together and texting about it Sometimes after school she'd sit with him at his house and he'd talk about his dad. Not really sad, just sometimes he needed a friend to listen to him remember his dad. He wasn't always happy or all together feeling good and Sarah knew it, she could at times tell when he'd get an errant sad thought and she'd want to reach over and hug him deeply. Yet she let him get sad, and let him talk about his dad when or if he wanted to. He let her vent as well about her mom or some of the other things going on at school that annoyed her to no end. She knew that he still talked to Nathan too, she had actually picked him up today since he had wanted to come to her meet and he had been talking to Nathan when she showed up. What she had overheard had been a sweet conversation, it was clear that Noah missed Nathan and the other way around as well. Yet when he was with her it was clear that he wasn't using her to replace Nathan either. Before with her previous boyfriends by now three weeks in if they weren't doing more than kissing or holding hands while going to the movies they had probably already moved on from her. The kind of boys that she had always dated had expected you to put out, they were popular and could have any girl they wanted. Or so they thought. Since her breakup with Calvin and it becoming really public three other guys had asked her out on dates, all three she had given a simple no to and when asked why not if she was single she had just said that she was focusing on herself not dating at the moment. She was happy she realized, extremely so and all it had taken was opening her mind up a little bit to the possibility that a younger boy might be more mature than an older one. Oh he wanted to have sex with her, he wanted to do a lot more things than just kissing she could tell but he wasn't the kind of boy that asked for it or said they should be doing it. Sarah knew part of that was the fact that he was younger and inexperienced, but another part of it was that it was who he was. Noah wasn't really shy around her anymore, after three weeks of talking and texting she knew a lot more about the boy, probably more than she had ever known about any boy before him. She even knew what his favorite kind of yogurt was and why did you need to know that really? Sarah could see him just there, sitting at the bottom of the stands, when he saw her looking he waved and Sarah waved back smiling a bit. Natalie one of the girls on her team said, "who's the boy?" Sarah said, "My friend Noah, come on you ready for this one?" Natalie shrugged and they both took their places ready to go. This time she finished in third but that was okay as well, the important thing was that she was doing something she liked doing and she was getting better at doing it, not that she won the race, though she always strives to win the race over loosing it of course. After that the meet was over and she went with the other girls into the home team locker room where the showers were and after washing the sweat off and getting dressed she headed out to meet Noah pulling on her hoodie jacket as it was a little cold out this late Saturday afternoon. Most of the other students had parents here at the meet, her mom though had not been able to get off and Hank rarely wanted to come to one of these really though Sarah was glad that Hank didn't come. She sat down next to Noah who had his hands in the pockets of his own jacket and she said, "want to get out of here or sit in the cold." Noah said, "why do you make me make such hard decisions?" Sarah pushed her shoulder against his, "because you're the man." Noah flushed just a bit she noticed as she said that and he said, "well then I say we just stay in the cold." Sarah laughed and stood up pulling at his arm and he smiled too as they got up and started towards her car. "I say since I drove us here that we're leaving." As they walked Noah said, "why even ask me then?" Sarah looked over at him, "don't be snarky with me Noah Allan Stevens." Noah shrugged, "sorry..." At the car she leaned against the front of it and he leaned next to her, "what's up?" Her hand was still holding his. It was strange how in three weeks she had started to get his mannerism, the way that he talked sometimes, they had gotten on each other's nerves like this before a few times, nothing more than small little pushes of each others buttons, things that you did when learning about someone else. Noah shrugged, "its... it'll sound stupid and you'll probably get angry at me for saying it I'm kind of angry at myself for thinking it." Sarah gently squeezed his fingers and said, "you're safe Noah, come on, just tell me." Noah sighed, "its stupid, because I don't really want it to be another way, but okay... its.." he swallowed a bit and then said, "you have all the power, I mean you're older and a girl and you get to say if we do something because you drive..." he went quiet. Sarah leaned against the front of the car there with him, she didn't know what to say, honestly and truthfully. She stroked his fingers that were entwined with his own, "its not stupid. You're right, and I'm sorry too. If you want to stay out here in the cold we can do that too." Noah shook his head, "I don't want to do that Sarah, I want to go to dinner like we planned. I want you to drive and say what we do, you always ask me if I want to do it too. That's not it, its... I wanted it to be like that one girl you were racing with, when she came out of the changing room some guy came up to her and they held hands and started kissing and..... I can't do that stuff with Nathan in public and I can't do it with you in public either so I just want to stand out in the cold and be miserable so I have some kind of say in our relationship." Sarah slipped her hand out of his, and slowly put her arm around his shoulders instead, "you have all the say in our relationship Noah, just like I do, we're together in this crazy thing right?" He shrugged a bit, "right?" "Yes, but sometimes its just hard and I actually sometimes get a little afraid that you're going to choose something else because its easier. Its like when we...." He stopped trailing off. She waited but nothing came, "come on Noah, out with all of it." Noah was quite for a moment more, she knew inside she knew where he was going with this. It was something she had thought about too of course but she had not been sure he was thinking about it, though based on his stories she should have guessed it. "Its like when we're making out, you know kissing, you always pull back when we get really into it, there's always a reason to stop and I start to think that you like me but you don't want to.... I mean its stupid and selfish and mean of me to think it but I do think that its not because you did all that stuff with other guys and I know you like me more than you like them but I figure that because I'm younger than them that maybe you like me but you don't want to because I'm not mature enough or old enough or big enough or something...." he sighed frustrated and walked a little bit away from her. Sarah walked up to where he was and rested her hands on his shoulders, "Noah...." He leaned back against her a bit so that they stood with her behind him, "I don't even know if I want to do more than just this..." Sarah smiled a bit, resting her head on top of his, "you do, and its not that you're younger or not as big as them or any of that Noah." She slipped her hands down so that they rested over his front draped there holding him. His hair smelled wonderful, his smaller frame felt wonderful, "its that you're something special to me. I've never gotten to know someone as well as I have you Noah, and honestly it scares me a little bit because I'm a little bit worried that I might mess you up, or mess up whatever this is... those other guys, I did stuff with them because it was what I thought you did to get to know someone because its all they were concerned with." He turned slowly looking up at her, "Y-you're special to me too Sarah, without you or Nathan I don't think I would be as okay with my dad dying as I am. I'm not saying that is what makes you special to me." Sarah pulled him in again and gently hugged him, the two of them standing in that parking lot, she rested her head in his hair, holding him tightly. She pulled back gently and took his hand, "come on, lets go somewhere..." Making up her mind was easy now. She pulled out of the school parking lot and they drove back towards her house. She knew that her mom and Hank were both gone until eight or nine tonight. When her mom worked on a Saturday they always went out afterwards for a date. She held Noah's hand the entire way back to her house. Noah was a little surprised when they pulled up there but he didn't complain or question. Molly came running up to them, wanting both of them to pet her and she even went and got her ball but Sarah told her to go lay down and she led Noah up the stairs and back to the back of the house to her bedroom. She definitely did not want Molly bothering them right now. As she closed the bedroom door Noah said, "I thought we were going to get lunch after?" Sarah smiled and almost laughed, the boy did think with his stomach she had learned, despite his skinny frame Noah liked to eat. She reached over and grabbed his arm pulling him closer to her. Sarah gently stroked his cheek with a finger and said, "maybe later..." She leaned down and he turned up his lips meeting hers. It wasn't that she didn't want to do more than kiss with Noah, she did, oh she had already had more than a few thoughts about seeing the boy naked, it was that she didn't want to reduce their relationship down to what her others had been. She undid the zipper on his jacket pulling it off of him and then doing the same to her own tossing the two jackets somewhere behind them as her lips continued to meet his, as his fingers stroked her cheek, sliding up into her hair. As his tongue tangled with hers Sarah pushed Noah towards the bed, the back of his legs hit it and he fell backwards onto the bed, with her climbing up over him so that he was on his back with her over him. Sarah rested her hand on his chest, she could feel Noah's heart beating quickly, a simple thump thump in the twelve year olds chest. She felt his fingers trace along her chin, stroking her cheek as she ran her own hand down one of his arms to his other hand. Her lips touched his again, their tongues gently playing, she took one of his hands that was resting at his side and slowly dragged it up resting it on her chest. Noah's eyes got a little wider as his fingers and palm sort of griped at her breast though the shirt and bra that Sarah wore. Their tongues were still lightly playing as her own hand now went back to his chest, slowly sliding down, feeling the rise and fall of his stomach as she ran her finger down over the cotton shirt he wore sliding slowly underneath it to feel the warm softness of his skin under her fingers. Sarah pulled at Noah's shirt, dragging it up as her hand slipped further up under it sliding over his chest now, feeling his heart beating again. She pulled back breaking their kiss as she said, "go ahead Noah, go under my shirt..." Noah swallowed looking at her as she leaned back down to again play war with his tongue. His hand slipped under her shirt a moment later and a thrill of excitement went through Sarah's body as she felt Noah's hand find her bra and rub over it. She had never actually done this with a boy before, no matter their age that was regardless here. No boy had actually ever been this intimate with her. * The first kiss when Sarah pushed him towards the bed and he fell back on it Noah was a little uncertain. He was stiff of course that had happened almost right away when she had stared kissing him. His mind in the car on the way here had been filled with the moments before. Getting to know Sarah was different than getting to know Nathan, she was somehow different yet similar. It wasn't just her sex, he really was finding that what girls had interested him just as much as what boys had, but in different ways. Sarah responded to his kiss a little differently than Nathan did. Sarah liked him to stroke her hair as well. Nathan really didn't care for that, but Noah liked it when both of them buried their hands in his hair. Briefly when he had told her that stuff back at the track he had been afraid that Sarah would be mad at him for thinking about sex, claim that it was all he thought about. But he should have known that she wouldn't be, that she knew he didn't think only about it. He wanted to do more with Sarah than kiss just like he did with Nathan, but not because his mind was fixated on sex, it was because he wanted to be intimate with them. The feeling of falling back onto the bed with Sarah over him, leaning down, her lips meeting his own as he stroked her cheek was wonderful. Then he felt her hand sliding down, resting on his chest, Noah thought for a moment that she might be going lower, but her hand was gone a moment later taking his other hand, pulling it up to her shirt. Noah could feel the shape of Sarah's breast as his palm an fingers rested on it through the shirt and the bra. He had imagined what it would be like to touch one, to feel them and had briefly felt them a few times but only for a few seconds as Sarah always pulled away close that. This time though after a few minutes her hand was pushing his up under her shirt, telling him to slide up and feel her though just the bra. The material of her bra was different than the shirt, he couldn't tell if it was lace or cotton but it felt different and he could feel the shape of the mound underneath it as well. His fingers actually could feel part of the skin of her breast as the bra only cupped them not covering them fully. Sarah's hand was now under his shirt as well, stroking his stomach, her tongue still tangling with his. They were going further than they ever had before, and Noah was actually a little scared of messing things up. He knew how his bits worked, to an extent Nathan was easier because he was also a boy, but he had no idea really how to make Sarah feel good. Noah knew that kissing felt good, and that him touching her breast even like this probably felt good as well, but the rest... As Sarah's tongue played with his, now sliding back into his mouth Noah slipped his other hand up under her shirt as well, now both of his hands had found Sarah's bra, sliding over her breasts, feeling the shape of them in the lace material that cupped them from the bottom. He could feel Sarah's skin on his fingers, squeezing on them as he felt her hand sliding down over his stomach again. Her fingers were going lower, her hand running over his belly, downwards further. Sarah's tongue was pulling his out of his mouth, her eyes were looking into his as her fingers undid the button on his jeans. Noah caught his breath as he felt her fingers slide down lower from the button, sliding over him above his jeans. He could feel her fingers pressing the length of him through his jeans and then Noah pulled back breaking their kiss. Sarah stopped stroking above the jeans, leaning over him, one of her hands holding her up, her legs still on either side of his own, his hands still in her shirt. Sarah slowly slipped her hand off of his middle, "what's wrong?" He figured that she saw something in his eyes. "Did you... nut?" Noah flushed red he had read that word before and shook his head, "n-no... I... don't... I'm not sure how to..." he shrugged not sure how to say it without being embarrassed. Sarah's hand rested on his cheek, "know how to cum?" Noah shook his head, "I know how to do that... I don't know how to make you cum." He was surprised when he saw Sarah's cheeks heat a little, he didn't think he'd ever seen her blush before. It added a whole lot more beauty to her he decided. "you don't know how to..." She smiled and leaned down lightly kissing his lips and said again, "you don't know how to make me cum." She sighed. Noah softly said, "Did I say something wrong?" Sarah touched his cheek again and she laughed a bit, "no Noah you said something I've never heard a guy say before." Sarah fell down on the bed beside him laying on her side and she put her hand on his face so that he turned to look at her. Noah decided to move onto his side as well so that they were facing each other. "You're something." Noah flushed, "something?" She shrugged and he got the feeling she was trying to figure it out. He wished he could figure himself out then maybe he wouldn't have stopped this from happening, kept his mouth shut and let her keep going, but he really was worried about it. "You're really interested in knowing how to make me feel good?" He shrugged, "well I mean I figure that putting it in feels good for both otherwise I don't get why people make such a big deal about sex." Sarah nodded and smiled a bit. He smiled back as he continued, "But I know that.. well I mean I've read stories and they're vague about it but I get the sense that girls have places between their legs that can feel really good by touch just like my penis does... but I don't know how..." He trailed off. Sarah said, "where did you come from?" Noah knew that she was being fictitious but he answered anyway, "from my mom and dad making a baby." Sarah laughed a bit and said, "Noah... Noah..." She touched his cheek again. It was nice he decided just laying there next to Sarah, it was like laying next to Nathan, only different because Sarah was a girl and Nathan a boy, but it was still the same in a way because of how he felt about both of them. "What?" "You do realize that you just ended your chance of me giving you hand job right?" Noah flushed red again, "yeah, but you'll do it again eventually, now that I know you don't really mind that I'm younger." She laughed again and he smiled as she pulled his head closer to hers so that they were literally inches away from one another now. "Noah..." She trailed off almost as if she wasn't sure what to say. Noah put his hand on her cheek too, and said, "Sarah...." He trailed off too. She smiled, he smiled, then they started laughing and trying to tickle one another, rolling on her bed until they were a bundle of limbs and both panting a little bit finally stopping trying to tickle one another. Sarah lay on top of him again, but this time she wasn't leaning over him. Her weight was actually on top of his own. He could feel her breasts pressed to his chest, her face inches from his own. He leaned up and kissed her, his hand running through her hair, hers stroking his cheek. They stopped faces inches apart from one another and Noah said, "I think my dad would have really liked you." Sarah smiled, "I don't date older boys, only younger boys now..." Noah smiled too and said, "then I guess its a good thing I'm younger... but he would have." Sarah's fingers stopped gently on his cheek, "I'm sure I would have liked him too Noah, I know I really like his son." Noah pressed his nose to her, his heart was beating so fast now and it had nothing to do with wanting to have sex though that was there. "I.. I love you Sarah." his breath stopped his heart skipped, stopping for a second as his words hung in the air. Sarah softly kissed his lips, "I know..." The implication was there, he could see it in her eyes, he kissed her back again, their tongues gently slowly slipping around one another. After a moment they stopped and she slowly slipped off of him, "come on, I need to get you home." Noah nodded and got up with her, buttoning his jeans and walked with her out of the bedroom. Molly was by the door and she whined up at them until Noah bent down and picked up her ball to throw it for her to chase it happily. In the car on the ride home they didn't really speak, just held hands and Noah could feel the weight of his words still hanging in the air, the way that she had said I know. All of it was right there the entire ride home. At his house, he saw that Beth was already home, it was almost seven now. At the front step as he said, "good night, I'll text you later so we can..." Sarah grabbed his arm and pulled him back to her, kissing his lips suddenly and fully, "I love you too dummy." Noah smiled and said, "I know." He flushed, "I knew the moment you said that earlier...you were just too afraid to say it because I'm younger..." Sarah shook her head, "no I was afraid to say it Noah because I've never wanted to say it before until I met you, I've never felt this before and it does scare me. Doesn't it scare you?" Noah thought for a second then said, "a little, what I feel for you and for Nathan both kinds of scares me but I don't want to stop feeling it." Sarah kissed his cheek, "I don't either, good night cutie." Then she walked away. Noah flushed a bit as he watched her drive away and then he headed into the house. He almost jumped ten feet in the air when he saw Beth standing close to the door, "was that Sarah? She should have come in and said goodnight." Noah said, "Sorry I told her she didn't have to." Beth studied him for a moment then hugged him as she said, "You know your dad would be so proud of how you're handling all of this." Noah nodded, "yeah, I still miss him a lot Beth, but... it gets easier when Sarah, or Nathan, or you are around." Beth smiled, "come on, lets get some dinner and you can tell me about Sarah's race, did she win?" Noah smiled with her and walked into the house to be a kid that was just a kid, not a kid that was falling in love for the first time and second time and trying to figure out what it all meant. * After texting with Noah for a bit Sarah reached out to her sister, a little surprised when Karen actually answered her call on the third ring, "what are you doing calling me at eleven at night on a Saturday?" Sarah sighed, "its nothing dire, I just wanted to talk to someone who might be able to calm me down a little bit." Karen on the other end moved a bit and said, "Okay what's going on there sis, you never call me about stuff unless its serious." Sarah said, "I don't know how to process what I'm feeling." "Oh god not you too." Karen groaned. Sarah said, "what do you mean me too?" "Okay I mean he's cute but come on he's just a boy, there's millions of boys all unattached, I keep telling Nathan that too." Sarah sighed, "its not... he is cute Karen, but he's... its not that he's cute.... I don't know how to explain it. Maybe its because I've never felt this way before, maybe its because he actually talks to me and wants to get to know me. We're not exactly all that alike, I could see us disagreeing on things sometimes already, but..." She trailed off not sure where to go. Karen on the other end said, "but you still love him anyway." Sarah tossed Molly's ball to make the dog go fetch it when she brought it to her, "yes, okay, yes Karen I love him so much I think it hurts a little but I know that's just new love talking, that the sharp desires will wear off eventually and I might find that its not the same kind of love that right now its all new and blah blah blah that you'll tell me." Karen on the other end laughed a bit and said, "I wasn't going to tell you any of that Sarah. I was going to tell you to have fun, enjoy it, but also remember that he has feelings for both you and Nathan and he's still new to all of this and recovering from grief and he might change one day, might realize that he wants one of you over the other. Or you might want to one day not share and he isn't ready for that. If, or when your heart gets broken by the boy I'll help you with that, but I won't tell you that you're wrong for feeling it or that it's just new young love. I say go for it, feel it with all your fucking heart and see what happens." Sarah sighed, "the whole we only live once idea?" Karen laughed, "we do only live once Sarah, unless we don't know about it somehow, and who knows what's after all of this. I never thought any of those other boys were good enough for you, but I think that this one is. Don't worry about what you don't have in common, find what you do have in common and nurture that. Hell sleep with him, take his virginity, let him take yours, be a kid and have fun. You only get to fall in love for the first time once, all the other ones after it will be different but the first one is the first one and if its a good one its one you'll compare all the other ones to." Sarah chuckled and said, "Great, all the other ones are screwed." Karen laughed, "maybe so, but you won't know that and he won't know it either if you two don't just see what happens. What you do about him and Nathan though is up to you." Sarah shrugged on her end even though Karen couldn't see it, "I don't care. I'm not going to tell him he can't be with Nathan too. I don't mind sharing. I think its possible to love two people at once, and as long as he doesn't lie to me about the fact that he's seeing Nathan I'm fine with it. I can't believe I am but I am. I blame you honestly, all those things you put in my head reading those studies out loud all the time." Karen laughed, "or it could be that you care about Noah and know that he's not ready to choose between the two of you. He'll come to it on his own, or he won't. You'll end, or you won't, but you'll never know unless you give it a shot. I told Nathan the same thing. If Noah wants to talk to me about it I'd tell him the same thing too." Sarah said, "and you only get one perverted bisexual older sister once in a lifetime too." Karen sighed, "I'm not the one in love with a seventh grader." Sarah just said, "I bet you wish you could be." "Good night Sarah." "Good night.. and Karen... you are the best sister in th world I knew I could talk to you about this and you'd make me feel better about my decision." "Well Sarah dear thats because I love you, like a sister." Sarah laughed, "wait.. I am your sister..." Karen said, "Exactly. Goodnight." They hung up a second later and Sarah laughed to herself as she hugged Molly and said, "what about you Molly? Do you love Noah too?" Molly barked and it was the only answer that Sarah needed, clearly Molly did too. Chapter Nineteen The sound of the end of fifth period made Noah look up from his notebook. He had been working on writing something new, something different of is own creation for most of the period as their usual teacher was out and the sub had actually just come in sat down and said that they got a free period today as the teacher hadn't left a lesson plan. One of the students had tried to volunteer what they had been working on but one of the other kids had silenced them. Noah had just decided to work in his notebook on the new story idea he had come up with. His goal was to maybe have some kissing in it but to try and avoid it as much as possible. Another reason why the sub hadn't really bothered with a lesson plan was that it was Friday and clearly he had already been ready to go into the weekend. His final class was a little longer since he couldn't write or do his own thing during it, and also since Danny was in there and that was always a little awkward still as Danny was still treating him like they were friends and the other stuff had never happened. He didn't dislike Danny, he just had realized after all these weeks what the difference was between someone who really cared about you and someone who was just pretending to care. The bus ride home was another place to do some writing but it was really hard with the bus bouncing all around. There weren't any other middle school kids that lived on his street, so he had to walk from the end by the stop sign all the way down as the bus didn't go down the street like it did on other streets. There were a few kids from elementary school and some high school kids too and he had learned that the high school he would be going to in ninth grade was actually the same high school that Sarah went to. She would be a senior the year that he was a freshman. After putting his stuff down in his room Noah went back outside and sat down on the front step with his notebook working on his writing some more. He knew that the more he worked on his writing the better that he would get at it but lately there had been a lot of other distractions in his life that kept him from writing. If it wasn't for Nathan and Sarah he might only be writing, playing games, and watching television. Because he was trying to stay close to Nathan though he was all the way up in New York and also getting closer to Sarah most every day his writing had gone to the side a bit. He was young and he was in love and thus that took priority over other stuff. Noah hadn't told Nathan that he loved him, not like how he had said it to Sarah, but he did. That was the real problem he was having lately. He really didn't know how to choose or who he should be with. Sarah was closer, she was always there, and he loved being with her even if she didn't always agree with him on things that actually made it more interesting in a way finding out how Sarah worked was fun. Then there was Nathan, it was different with him than with Sarah, and not just because Nathan was all the way in New York state. The difference wasn't just that Nathan was a boy as opposed to Sarah being a girl. His personality was different than Sarah's too, he was a lot more similar to Noah than she was, but still because he was older he was different as well. Noah couldn't choose. If someone walked in and told him that he had to pick between them Noah wouldn't know what to do. He wanted to be with both Sarah and Nathan, but he knew that one day eventually things would change, they always did. It was like with his dad, it had been almost two months since his dad had passed. Sometimes he woke up in the middle of the night and would just lay there and think that his dad was never coming back. Or he'd be doing something mundane that he did every day and it would just occur to him that his dad would never do that kind of simple stuff again either. Sometimes he still broke down and cried and he knew that Beth did too. A week ago he had asked Nathan if he ever cried about his dad still and Nathan had told him that every now and then he did, he'd see something his dad loved and yes he'd cry. Noah knew now though what Nathan meant by you learned to live with out them. Life went on and laying around crying his eyes out was not what his dad would have wanted him to do. He didn't know if his dad would have approved of what he was going through with Nathan and Sarah, but it was his thing to go through not his dad's or Beth's. He loved them both but he didn't want their approval he needed to learn who he was and what he wanted and Nathan had told him that the only way to figure that out was to experience it, to let it happen. He was still working on writing trying to figure out how to avoid the kissing stuff, he had figured if he had two girl characters maybe he could avoid that but now he wanted to make them kiss. Which he found funny because he had created two girls in particular to avoid that. He was working on avoiding the kissing when he heard a car pull up in his driveway. He didn't look up, there could only be two people coming here right now and he was pretty sure he knew which one it was. When she sat down next to him on the front porch steps he could smell her very light almost unnoticeable perfume it was called something with rose in it and it smelled nice but she only wore just a small hint. She didn't interrupt or ask him to stop but Noah did anyway, closing the binder because she was a distraction. Not a bad one, not in the least but she was one. One day in the future if say they were still together he might not get distracted this easily, but after only dating Sarah for about a month it was hard not to get distracted when everything with her was still so new and different. As he closed the binder he looked out at the street. Rain clouds had started to move in earlier and they were covering most of the sky now. As he thought about that one errant rain drop landed on his forearm. He looked over at Sarah, she was dressed today in jeans and a tee-shirt that was dark blue and had the high school track team slogan on the front of it. He had watched Sarah's meets more than once now. He liked how good she looked out there, not sexy good though she was that. But how she really seemed to enjoy it. He had been surprised to learn that even though he didn't care at all about track he liked watching Sarah do it because she liked doing it. Kind of like how she liked going to movies he liked. Still it was he knew a little easier with Nathan since they had the same likes in a lot more things. He hated comparing Nathan to Sarah though, they were different people and that was what made him so interested in both. Sarah's reddish blonde hair had been pulled back behind her ears and like her skin it was a blend of her mixed heritage. Noah didn't even notice that anymore, not like how he had the first few times, she was just Sarah to him now. He knew she was pretty, he knew that she was mixed, but the more he was with Sarah the less he saw that stuff and the stuff underneath became more important. Like right now looking at her he could tell that Sarah was not happy. "What's wrong?" He was surprised that he could see her emotions now, at first he had thought that Sarah was always happy, she was good at showing the world she was happy but after spending so much time talking with her over the phone, over face time, over text messages every day. Then also in person at least three out of the seven days a week he was starting to be able to see the real Sarah beneath the false happy she put up. Sarah rested her head on top of his, "they're fighting again, I'm tired of listening to it." "want to go inside?" Sarah stood as he said it and the two of them headed into his house. Beth wouldn't be home till after eight tonight, that used to not be a problem with his dad coming home but now his dad was gone. She was working with her company to get things changed as she was one of the big bosses but it was a slow moving machine. He often wondered what she thought about him doing stuff with Sarah all the time. If she had made the connection that Sarah was more than a friend or not. If she had she wasn't talking about it. And she also had only encouraged him to go out and do stuff with Sarah, and she also clearly liked Sarah because she had more than once had Sarah stay over for dinner. They walked inside and Sarah led him over to the couch where they sat down together. Outside the rain had started to lightly hit the window but it wasn't pouring yet. Sarah's mom and step-dad had been fighting a lot lately. Noah had heard some of the fights when he had been on the phone with Sarah. She didn't particularly like Hank, her step-dad but she also didn't like the way that her mom treated him. They sat on the couch for a bit, Noah didn't know if he should ask about it or not. Sometimes being his age made it hard for him to know what was the right thing to do or say. He knew though that Sarah even though she was four years older had never been this close with someone either so it was new for her too. Sitting quietly seemed to be the right answer though. "You'd leave me if I treated you as bad as my mom does Hank right?" Noah said, "I don't know, I've never been treated badly by you." Sarah leaned back, "Karen always used to tell me when I was younger that our mom was the reason why our dad left. That she wanted to control every minute and moment of his life like it was some kind of... duty of hers to know where he was at all times. I never noticed that she does the same things with Hank. They've been together since I was nine and it just always seemed to me that it was the way that marriage worked, you always knew what the other person was doing..." Noah leaned over putting his head on her shoulder, "I never know what you're doing." Sarah laughed, "you always know what I'm doing." Noah said, "well I mean only because you use twitter like its your own personal blog. Hey I'm going to Baskin Robbins to get twenty-one stranger things flavors! Hey Noah's here with me getting twenty one different flavors!" Sarah pushed him a bit with her shoulder, "hey I killed Noah, oops." Noah leaned back again and she put her arm around him this time, "do any of your friends ever say anything about how much I hang out with you?" Sarah shrugged, "I don't care if they do. You're more important to me than them." "But you're going with them to Florida for spring break in a week not me." Sarah said, "well then in that case yes they are far more important than you are. They're the be all end all and you're just a boy." Noah got up like he was going to leave and looked over at her, "all this time I thought you liked boys..." Sarah reached up and grabbed his hand pulling him down until he was on top of her facing her, "I do like boys, its just that there's one in particular who makes my life a living hell." Noah flushed and said, "you should break up with him and date a younger boy." Sarah stroked his cheek with her fingers, "oh a younger boy huh?" Noah nodded. Sarah pulled his face to hers and they kissed. It was a simple kiss at first, just a light touch of lips to lips, fingers trailing through his hair, his own fingers tracing her cheek. At first Noah hadn't known what to do but the more they did this the better he got at it. Sitting like this with him on her lap facing her they were the same height. Sarah wasn't as big or as tall as Nathan, she was a girl and her form while far more slender than most girls her age was still very female in look and feel. Her tongue touched his between their lips, a light gentle tangle as Noah felt one of her hands under his shirt now, stroking his back as he leaned in more for the kiss. Noah's own hands went down, sliding over Sarah's shoulders, tracing over them, sliding down further over her small breasts that were not big but still more than a handful to the still growing boy. At first he had been afraid that Sarah might not want him to touch her, but the further into their relationship they got the more he found that wasn't true. She wanted him to touch her and she was willing to let him figure out how to. As they continued to kiss he felt one of Sarah's hands between them, sliding over his jeans, finding the center and undoing the button. Last time they had been alone like this his fear of messing up had stopped them, today he wasn't worried about that. He knew that he was younger and less experienced, that Sarah had done almost everything with other boys other than let them put it in her, she had told him as much. Yet she had never had a boy who was interested in making her feel good too so this was new for both of them. Sarah pulled back a bit and put his hands on her shirt, Noah swallowed but got the message. He lifted the shirt, dragging it up and over Sarah's head. He had never seen her without a shirt on, but his eyes danced over her upper body sliding over her flat stomach with its slightly toned abs and her inward belly button. Up over the shape of her breasts, cupped gently in the lace bra she wore that cupped them from the bottom leaving the tops of them exposed, the way that they rose slightly. Her skin was a beautiful coffee creamy color and as she breathed he could see how her breasts rose and fell in the bra. Sarah pulled his head back down to hers, kissing his lips again as her fingers were now sliding the zipper on his jeans down. Noah swallowed but didn't fight it. Whatever happened this afternoon they were both going to be willing partners to it. Outside the rain now pounded on the windows, inside Noah felt Sarah's fingers sliding into his jeans, running over his underwear. Her hand touching him was different than Nathan's. Her fingers were smaller but they were just as deft at handling. He felt it as she stroked over his erection through his boxer-briefs, as his tongue pressed into her mouth, he could taste mint on her breath still. Noah reached over touching Sarah's' breasts again as he sat on her lap, he was slightly taller like this but only because he wasn't flat on top of her, but sitting with his legs on either side of hers. Sarah pulled back breaking their kiss and she put a hand on Noah's chest, sliding it down his chest and stomach as she had him sit up more in front of her. Her hands opened his jeans more, so that the shape of him in his underwear became more obvious. He stood on his knees in front of her so his middle was just a bit below her face. Sarah rubbed her fingers along the length of him in his underwear, tracing the shape again and Noah waited wondering what she was going to do next. When her fingers gripped the elastic band of the top of his briefs Noah breathed in but let her pull them down just enough that he popped out. She pulled the underwear down until it clipped the bottom of his sack, making his small balls look bigger than they were now. Noah just looked down at what she was doing, watching. When her fingers circled around him Noah breathed in. * Her desire to be with Noah amazed Sarah sometimes, she no longer saw him as a younger boy. She knew physically that he was younger, but the lines that defined their age differences had become hazy and cloudy. He was twelve, she new that he was, but he was also Noah and that made up for him being twelve. Kissing him, feeling him in her arms, feeling his hands on her as their tongues warred was always this welcoming inviting sensation. She wanted more of Noah, and she had never wanted more of a boy before. She had done all that stuff because she thought it was what a girlfriend did when she had a boyfriend. All of her friends did it and all of the boys expected it. Now she was seeing the different side, the part where you wanted to make the other person feel good not because you had a duty to do it, but because you were in love with them. She wasn't undoing Noah's jeans, feeling the shape of him through his underwear because it was some duty she had to do, she wasn't letting him touch her breasts or kiss her lips because it was a duty of a girlfriend, she wanted to do this because she wanted to make him feel good and to let him make her feel good because he was hers. He was nothing like Calvin, and while what she felt for Noah still scared her, in this moment she let it also make her feel wonderful. She found him in his underwear, the shape of him. She had felt it before pressed to her, she had touched it briefly the other weekend but this time there was nothing that was going to stop this. The other boys had been bigger, thicker, but this one as she rubbed at it through his boxer-briefs was the best one, its size was immaterial. She broke their kiss, pulling Noah up until he was fully on his knees before her. Her face was about even with his chest now, she ran a hand down over his flat chest and stomach. The boy was so skinny and lanky for his age, she knew he was going to be tall one day, but right now he was smaller than her. She ran her hand down further, sliding over his stomach, down to his jeans, opening them more. His boxer-briefs were a blend of red and black, the red was dark and it was the main color. The outline was done in black. The boxer-briefs were tight enough that she could see the shape of him inside of them. Sarah ran a finger along the length, feeling him, Noah was about four inches, maybe a hair more, while he was kind of long he wasn't as thick as the ones she had seen or felt before. Sarah pulled gently at the underwear, sliding it down and he popped out for her eyes. She had never seen one uncut before, the shape was the same as all others even if it wasn't as thick. The head was unexposed as the skin of his penis was pulled up over it. She could make out the shape of it as it twitched a bit with excitement. She had seen and touched four other boys, but she had never she realized actually desired to just had felt a duty to as a girlfriend. Noah was different, this boy she actually wanted to touch. He sat there up on his knees looking down at her but didn't rush her or even say anything. He let her do what she wanted, and she knew that partly that was because he wasn't sure what to say or do, and partly because he didn't feel the need to tell her she needed to do something. They were sharing a moment here together, not demanding anything from one another. Sarah ran a finger along the length of him, the warmth and softness of this bit of boys always kind of amazed her. Slowly she slipped her fingers around him, feeling the shape of him, the thickness as her fingers circled around. She pulled, drawing the skin down as she realized that she could do that. It was such a different experience pulling the skin back with her fingers instead of it being cut already. The head popped out, this darker pink shape, the small pee-hole obvious in the center. Sarah rubbed him, slowly running her thumb over the head. Noah jumped a bit, his penis twitched and Sarah looked up at him for a second before looking down. She leaned down further as she stroked him with one hand she lifted his shirt and leaned over kissing Noah's stomach. Noah's breathing was deep as she stroked him. Her fingers slipped down the length finding his balls and gently rubbing over them. She scooted on the couch so that she was lower on it now her face was about even with his penis. She slipped her fingers around it again and when the head was fully exposed she ran her tongue over it. Noah breathed in deeply and she realized that she was doing something that had never been done before to the boy by a girl. She ran her tongue over the length, tasting him, there was a slight musky taste from the boy being trapped in underwear all day but the more she licked the more that went away. Instead replaced by other tastes. She gently pressed her lips to the head and Noah breathed in again as she slipped him into her mouth. He was smaller than any other boy she had sucked before, but that didn't bother her in the least. Her first boyfriend honestly at fourteen hadn't been much bigger. She pulled more of him into her mouth and as she did she felt Noah's hand on her head, softly stroking, not demanding just telling her that he was there. She sucked, letting her tongue dance around him, feeling him as she slipped off and then pushed back down again. Noah told her it was going to happen, and she appreciated that. "Its... um Sarah if you keep doing that..." Sarah pulled off slightly, "its okay." Then she pushed back down on him. She had sucked boys to completion before, but she had never actually wanted to do it at all and it shocked her how much she wanted to do it now. She sucked harder on him, pushing down until all four inches were in her mouth. Noah's hand on her head stopped moving, her fingers stroking his balls felt it first before her mouth. The little surge that was the sign that he was going to cum. She hadn't been sure he was able to shoot since he was still clearly bald around the base and the balls as well, but it happened. It wasn't like the other boys, there wasn't a huge amount that just spurted into her mouth. It was just a little bit, he came, his stuff shooting out and she felt his penis surge with it in her mouth. She could taste it just those little few drops of spend that he shot. She sucked a bit more before slowly pulling her mouth off of him. * Noah held onto Sarah's head as her mouth plunged back over his penis again and he came, the feeling of cumming, even with just the little bit he had, inside of Sarah's mouth was unlike anything before. He knew she had done this before, but that didn't really matter, her experience only added to his desire to be with her because he knew she would guide him. As he finished he fell back down flat on top of her as she leaned back still on the couch. Sarah pulled his head down to hers, kissing him. That was a new experience, he had never tasted his own stuff, had no real desire to though strangely enough he did desire to taste Nathan's. Her tongue tangled with his and the strange new taste disappeared pretty quickly as it was replaced by other tastes. Outside the rain was pouring still, the sound of thunder dancing across the clouds. Sarah took both of his hands now and rested them on her chest, watching him as he sat there slowly rubbing at her breasts through the bra. "here, feel that.." She guided one of his hands to her back, and he could feel a clasp, "go ahead." Noah nodded and undid the clasp on the bra, between his legs he could feel his penis again throbbing as Sarah's hand guided him back around to the front. She rested her hands on her own shoulders and pulled the straps on the bra down. Noah swallowed as Sarah pulled her bra off, revealing her breasts. When not in the bra they were different, they didn't press up to one another, but they were firm and actually appeared to be a little smaller, the illusion of the bra pressing them up and forming the shape a little more than without it. They were stunning, topped with darker pink nipples, that were erect in the coolness of the living room. Noah touched one, his fingers running over the shape feeling it. Sarah let him touch, she let him explore and feel them. She leaned back a bit more on the couch so that he could feel them better, but Noah leaned down as well and brushed his tongue across one of her nipples. He had read about a guy doing that to a girl in some story and Nathan had done it to him before as well. Sarah breathed in a bit as he licked the nipple again, his other hand still holding her other breast. He liked how the nipple felt under his tongue, hard but soft still as well, he put his lips to it, feeling that was the right thing to do, gently pushing onto it and sucking as he did Sarah's hand stroked his back. Noah doing this, sucking on her nipple was making him throb again. Sarah softly pulled him back from her breast, "lets go back to your room..." Chapter Twenty Noah slipped off of her lap, she gathered her shirt and bra but they didn't talk as they walked to the back of the house and into his bedroom. Sarah closed the door to his room and Noah turned back looking at her. She walked over to where he was, pulling him into an embrace again. They fell back onto the bed with him on top. Their tongues playing, their chests pressed together. He felt Sarah's hands on his shirt, pulling at it, Noah sat up, letting her pull his shirt off as she tossed it to the ground where she had put hers. They kissed again, letting everything flow over them. Her tongue pressed to his as he felt her hands sliding down his back. Noah pulled back a bit and softly said, "how do I... do what you did to me to you..." Sarah studied him, her brow furrowed for a moment before she worked out what he meant. "You want to try that?" Noah flushed a bit he felt it, and he was a little scared to try this, just like he had been scared to try sucking on Nathan that first time. He knew that guys went down on girls, just like girls went down on guys or guys on guys or girls on girls. He just didn't know how to do it. "I- yes you did it for me, shouldn't I do it for you?" It was a simple question and it was the truth though as well. Sarah had made him feel good, he should make her feel good too. She stroked his cheek, "IF you want to yes... its okay if you don't though." Noah said, "I want to try Sarah, I want to make you feel as good as you made me feel." Sarah smiled back at him and said, "well then you start by taking off my jeans." Noah nodded as he sat up and moved down so he could undo the button on Sarah's jeans. Her jeans hugged her nearly flat hips, her long slender legs that his eyes always admired. He undid the button, then pulled the zipper down. Underneath he could just make out her panties, they were a light blue in color with a lace trim along the top. Sarah lifted her bottom for him as Noah pulled at the jeans. It was a different experience taking clothes off of someone else, struggling to pull them down and off of her feet. He had to take her shoes off too to get the jeans off. They fell to the floor with his shirt and her shirt and bra. The panties he noticed were the same color as the bra, and they were these small shear type that hugged to her. Noah's young eyes roamed over the teenage girl's body seeing her almost fully naked. He knew she was beautiful but he still didn't know if he desired her more or Nathan. Sarah put her hands on her panties and Noah reached over putting his where hers were. She moved her hands and he pulled at the panties as well dragging them down. Noah took in Sarah below her waist. Girls looked nothing like boys, and it fascinated him that it looked so different. She had no hair like him but it was clear that Sarah probably shaved. The lips were these two little rising mounds of flesh with a slit between them and with Sarah slowly opening her legs again with the panties off his eyes could see between those lips. There were more folds there, he could see what looked like inner lips beneath the outer ones, it was all blends of pinkish colors, there was a hole that he could make out as well, an entrance that Noah knew he went inside of. Sarah guided him softly, using her fingers to spread the lips open wider, inside Noah saw more, The opening was just part of it, there was more there, inner folds of skin that glistened a bit and there was a little fold of skin at the top that hid something that looked like a little button but it was sticking out now showing more than it had a moment before. Sarah said, "you still want to learn?" Noah nodded and she took his hand in her own. Slowly she slid him around her as she did she explained places between her legs to him, "this is my clitoris, its like your penis only well even more sensitive, your finger, your tongue, your mouth, they can all make it hum and make me feel incredible, if you want to... this is all just skin around it, below it between it and my entrance, you know what that is right?" Noah flushed and said, "that's where my penis would go..." Sarah continued, "the lips, outer, all the skin between, all of it Noah can be touched and sucked on, licked, rubbed, if you're willing to, no boy's ever actually wanted to go down on me, but my own fingers and other things have many times before... I can show you but you're not required to for us to.." He said, "I want to Sarah.. what's the wetness on my fingers... is it like my sperm?" Sarah smiled, "a little yes. When a girl feels good she gets wet just like how a boy gets stiff and the more you make me feel good the more wet I get... sometimes just kissing you is enough to make me wet a little bit because I want to be with you more than I've ever wanted to be with a boy..." Noah said, "me too... well..." He flushed a bit, "you know what I mean." Sarah nodded and he looked back down, his eyes roaming over her breasts again, her flat stomach, down to between her legs. He wanted to try and Sarah was inviting him to. He might not like it, he might not be able to, but he wanted to try. Noah leaned down, sliding between Sarah's legs getting closer to her middle. He used his own fingers to spread her open more, his thumb touched that little bit that was her clit, stroking over it as she watched him, biting her bottom lip. He brought the thumb to his mouth, this close he could smell her, it was slightly invigorating for some reason it made him throb a bit more in his underwear. He licked his thumb tasting that wetness, it wasn't a taste he had ever had before, but while it was different Noah didn't care he found. It was Sarah and he wanted to taste Sarah. He leaned over feeling nervous as he ran his tongue over the same area that his thumb had been at moments before, sliding his tongue along her clit and that made Sarah jerk just a bit as his tongue ran along it. It was different actually touching her clit with his tongue as opposed to with his finger. It was firm but also mailable as he could move it and run his tongue around it as well. Adjusting to the taste and the difference of her as compared to what a boy had was amazing Noah decided. He ran his tongue around the clit, sliding it through the folds, her juices were more and they were coming from somewhere, he realized the entrance was right there, he brushed his tongue over it sliding into it and Sarah said, "put your fingers in.. go ahead.." Noah swallowed but he did as Sarah wanted. HE pushed one finger in but she said, "use two..." He did, slowly pushing two of his fingers into the tightness surprised at how it seemed to stretched around them as his fingers went inside deeper. * The first feeling of Noah's fingers on her outer lips spreading them as he leaned down between her legs was amazing. No one other than Sarah had ever touched Sarah down there. The boys she had dated before all of them had only been interested in her tits or in her giving them blow jobs. This boy, this younger less experienced boy wanted to pleasure her which was something that none before had wanted to do and that made her want him even more. When his thumb brushed over her clit she inhaled, he didn't do it too rough, just exploring and then he tasted her on his thumb, his tongue licking it. A second later his head was down there between her legs. Sarah groaned a bit in the back of her throat as she felt his tongue slide over her clit. The amount of times she had dreamed of someone else doing this to her didn't compare to the reality. He didn't know exactly what he was doing, but that actually added to the thrill of it all. His tongue slipped around her clit, rubbing over it as it also slipped into her inner folds, tasting her. It was darting around, exploring sliding into the opening almost lapping at her juices as she told him to use his fingers too. When the first finger went in Sarah felt it, sliding into her opening, but the second was better. They slipped inside of her together, sliding in and as they did his tongue found her clit again. Sarah said, "put your lips there, suck on me like how I did you. Or how you did Nathan..." Noah was eager and not just because he wanted to learn it was clear that he wanted to make her feel good, that he wanted to show her he loved her as equally as he did Nathan. His lips made contact where before only his tongue had been. They sucked on her drawing her in a bit and his fingers slipped in deeper. She didn't guide him anymore. His lips were doing their job, sliding over her clit, sucking on it, his tongue playing as his fingers pushed in more. She could feel them sliding in deeper, almost until his fingers were fully inside of her. His tongue was pressing on her clit and Sarah put her hand on his head, "slide your fingers out and push back in Noah..." He looked up from between her legs but didn't stop with his tongue. The boy was clearly starting to like his work. * The more he pushed his fingers into Sarah's opening the more wet she seemed to become. She was pulsating around his fingers, he could just imagine how incredible that would feel with his penis in there, but he wasn't in a rush to be there yet. When Sarah was ready for that then he would be too. Right now though he was just trying to reach whatever the end of this moment was, however he made her have an orgasm. His tongue flicked over the clit again as his fingers dove back into that opening, the tightness of it surrounding his fingers was still there but the slick wetness of it all made his fingers slide in despite the tightness. He licked furiously at the clit, his tongue diving over it again and again as his fingers slipped into that opening that was pulsing and squeezing on them now. Sarah was pressing up to meet him, the feeling of her hands in his hair register. The sound of her gasping a bit as she pressed upwards more onto his mouth and his fingers sliding fully inside to the knuckles sent thrills of pleasure through Noah as well. Sarah was pulling at his head now, dragging him out from between her legs. It took him a moment to get the message as he let her pull him up to her. She pushed her mouth onto his, kissing him hard, holding him tightly in her arms. After a moment they lay there with him still on top of her, her hands on his back. Sarah catching her breath still. Noah licked his lips he could still taste her on them. He rested his head against hers, their foreheads touching. Sarah opened her eyes, he loved how the light green and brown mixed together, how sometimes they were more brown than green and other times all green. She smiled, Noah smiled back. Her hand ruffled his hair and he said, "did I do it right?" Sarah laughed and rolled them until they were on their sides facing each other, "yes Noah, you were wonderful. No boy's ever done that before for me..." Noah flushed a bit as he said, "oh well if that's the case then next time I won't either..." Sarah tried to make an angry face but his smile was so big that she couldn't even pretend she was angry. She socked his shoulder instead, "you're a horrible little lair." Noah touched his shoulder, "I'm going to tell your sister that you abuse me...." Sarah said, "oh yeah I'll show you abuse!" She found his ribs and started tickling him, and Noah giggling reached out to find her spots as well tickling her too until they were rolling on the bed trying to find each others spots for tickles. In the living room the sound of, "Noah, Sarah are you to here?" Was enough to stop them from tickling each other. Sarah and Noah looked at one another. They got off of the bed quickly and Sarah handed Noah his shirt which he pulled on and buttoned his jeans. He knew that they would be in trouble and Beth wouldn't let Sarah come over anymore if she caught them with her naked in his bedroom and him almost naked. "Go out there, I'll be out in a moment." Noah nodded and flushed a bit as he headed out of the bedroom. The rain had stopped and it was nearly six so Beth had actually gotten home early. "There you are, I saw that Sarah's car is here, thought you guys would be watching a movie or playing a game." Noah found his notebook on the table in the living room and said, "I was just looking for this, I didn't know I left it out here, I think Sarah went to the bathroom..." That was about as good as he could get. Sarah came out of the back a moment later and said, "I think I should be getting home now that the rain's stopped Noah Oh..." She stopped then started to say, "hi B-" And Beth interrupted her, "sit down, both of you..." She sighed a bit and Noah looked at Sarah who looked back at her but they both sat down on the couch in the living room. Beth stood before them looking at them. She studied both of them walked a bit back and forth and then sighed again before sitting down on the table in front of them. "If I thought for a second that you were taking advantage of Noah I would have you in all kinds of trouble." Sarah said, "I'm not-" Beth interrupted her, "don't. Let me finish, I'm the parent here right?" Sarah nodded and bit back her words. Noah could tell that Beth wasn't angry but she might get that way if Sarah talked more or if he did. "The two of you think you're being sneaky that because you're `friends' that you," she looked at Sarah, "are older than him and able to take him places. That perhaps I didn't see what was going on. And maybe your parents don't see what's going on Sarah, but I do." Noah wanted to defend Sarah because he felt like Beth was attacking her when he was equally to blame for what they were doing, "Beth, Sarah hasn't-" She looked at him and he went quiet. "I know what she has and hasn't Noah, you need to let me finish and not talk for a moment." He gulped, and went quiet. When Sarah's hand touched his own he knew that Beth saw it. She sighed again, anger disappeared, "you clearly have feelings for one another, and I know that you've gotten really close to each other. I know that middle school, high school kids both have all kinds of crazy expectations and desires. I already went through things with one teenager and Noah you're close enough to be considered a teen. I want to say that you're too young," she looked at Noah, "or you're too old to be with him. I know though that this didn't happen because you wanted it to." She breathed in again before continuing, "I know that you helped Noah a lot with what happened with his dad. That the two of you got close without intending this to happen, and that under any other circumstances you might never have met one another." She stopped again and Noah could feel that Beth was trying to get her own thoughts together to get to the point she was trying to make. She looked at both of them again then finally said, "I should pull you apart, not allow you to see each other anymore." Noah softly said, "A-are you... do you want us not to anymore Beth? I..." He trailed off not sure how to continue. Sarah's fingers were entwined with his now he realized. She was scared too. Beth's eyes were on the fingers again he noticed, "No, I don't. Its not like you get to choose at what age you meet someone really important to you. I'm going to tell you what I told Nathan, he was a year older but it still holds true as well. The difference here is that I didn't have to worry about anything other than him getting an STD. With you two I worry more about the other consequence. The age thing I imagine wasn't what made you interested in Noah?" Sarah shook her head and spoke this time, "no, it'd be easier if he was older honestly... but I can't help what I feel its got nothing to do with age though..." Noah got what Beth had been asking. She nodded, "and you Noah, are you with Sarah because she's older and more experienced?" Noah wasn't sure. He swallowed and said, "I don't know, I mean she's older and more experienced but she's also not more experienced because she's never felt this way either right?" Sarah nodded and he said, "so no, I'm with Sarah because she's... Sarah." he shrugged not sure how to finish. Beth smiled and almost laughed a bit, "fuck, out of the mouth of babes..." She studied them again, "you're both kids, you're learning about each other and the world, and you're only young once." She stopped for a second and then said, "okay, three things, first and foremost I do not want any grandchildren." They looked at one another and Sarah started to say something but she said, "let me finish. Secondly, this is the only place, no cars, no movie theaters, no parties. Especially no parties. Last, if this affects school in any way I will restrict you. I won't break you up, if you break up it will be because the two of you decide to." Then after a second she finally said, "oh and last I don't want to come home to it and all three of us will pretend that I don't know its going on. I will let you figure out how to work that out together." Beth went quiet and after a moment Sarah said, "we'll try really hard on the last one, and I don't like parties." Noah said, "yeah unless their Christmas parties." Sarah looked over at him and he said, "what? You like Christmas parties you said that the one your parents throw every year is..." She interrupted him, "come on Noah that's not the kind of party Beth meant." Noah smiled, "I know its not, but I knew you'd give me that look..." Beth stood up ignoring them and said, "now would you like to stay for dinner Sarah?" Sarah said, "no, now that we're found out all the fun has gone out of the relationship and I'm going to leave..." Noah felt his jaw drop, Beth just kept walking as she said, "I'll set three plates..." Sarah started to get up and Noah said, "R-really?" Sarah stopped, turning to look at him and leaned down until her face was inches from his, "if you can mess with me Noah Allen Stevens I can mess with you too." Then she walked off to help Beth set the table. Noah sat there for a moment more realizing that Sarah's playful side could be quite something. After dinner as Beth went to take a shower he walked Sarah to the front door. Outside as they stood on the porch together Sarah found his hand holding it. "You realize what Beth gave us right?" Noah said, "Permission.. and a place to be together safely." Sarah turned looking at him. "More than that Noah, she's saying that we're not wrong to be feeling what we're feeling. My mom would kill me if she had any idea what I had done with any of the boys I've seen. Including you. She has no problem with the idea of me seeing a boy but if she knew I was having sex... well I'd never leave the house again." Noah softly said, "well then we'll wait till you're eighteen before we tell your mom." Sarah laughed and hugged him, "we'll see how it goes Noah, okay don't think ahead to the future, just enjoy now right?" She kissed his cheek, "good night Noah." He squeezed her fingers as her hand slipped from his, "I love you Sarah." She stopped at the car and said, "after today you'd better!" Then she got in and pulled away. About a minute later when she was at a stop sign he got a text that said: I love you too Noah, you know I do. He smiled and texted her back with the same. Back inside the house he sat down next to Beth on the couch and said, "I'm sorry that I'm so much trouble Beth.." Beth put her arm around his shoulders, "sweetie you're not any trouble at all. I was worried a bit but Sarah's not using you and you're not using her. I have a feeling that the two of you know a lot about each other, probably more than you've ever told someone before. I want you to experience that, your dad would have wanted you too as well. I trust that Sarah will keep you safe, because she's the older of the two of you, but I also trust that if you ever feel you need to talk to someone about her, if she makes you do things... I'm here." Noah rested closer to Beth as he said, "I know Beth, but she won't she's not that type of person." She kissed the top of his head and Noah softly said, "I love you Beth." She rested her face in his hair and kissed him again, "I love you too Noah." That was all that needed to be said. Chapter Twenty-One The biggest fight of her life with a boy ever up to this moment, still lingered on Sarah's mind as she lay with that same boy naked on his bed where moments before they had finished the act that sealed the deal, making her no longer a virgin at sixteen. The day had not started out all that wonderfully, and it had only gotten worse when she and Noah had started fighting. People fought, she understood that and her and him having different personalities that sometimes complemented one another, also sometimes drove each other a little batty. IT wasn't anything that couldn't be worked on, and it was doubtful that they ended up spending their lives together in a romantic relationship. If they did though it would be because they always worked it together as a couple. She knew though that Noah was unlike the other boys, that if things ever did really end cutting him out of her life would be near impossible now. Now laying with him, his eyes on her, his face inches from her the fight felt like a needed moment. They had been frustrated with one another, and they had needed to vent. Noah wasn't a docile guy, he wouldn't take someone walking over him, he wasn't Hank. That thrilled a part of Sarah to learn that. It was what she had feared the most that she was with Noah because he was younger and she felt like she could have control of the relationship that way like how her mom wanted to control her relationships. Learning that Noah would and could stand up for himself, hold his ground in their moment of disagreement had actually led to what had come after. It was this revelation that she had never known she needed. Noah was trying to discover what it meant to be him, and Sarah was learning that the relationship with him was her discovering what it meant to actually be with someone else that was more than just for sex. She had known that Noah would be her first, but she had not known that it would be as wonderful or as memorable as it had been. She would never forget that moment, for the rest of her life Noah entering her for the first time would be there. Without the fight though it probably wouldn't have happened.... * Sarah had tried counting to ten, she was in the middle of doing it, but she couldn't let herself stay calm long enough. They had been going around in circles on this argument already for over twenty minutes. "You're basically saying that you don't trust me! You're going to be spending a whole week here with him and I know that the two of you will be doing all kinds of things and you're actually saying that you don't want me to go to some beach resort in Florida with my friends because I might..." She trailed off and groaned as he just walked out of the living room and back into his own bedroom. Sarah followed, he wasn't going to just walk away after what he had just said. The boy was being irrational and she knew that part of it was that he was afraid, but she didn't care at this moment. He wasn't thinking clearly at all, it was fine for him to be with Nathan, she didn't care about that, she wasn't selfish in that regard. It was the fact that he had literally just minutes ago said that he didn't want her to go because she might meet someone else. That was beyond selfish it was like he was saying that he got to explore his feelings with multiple people because he was well... She spoke that out loud as she walked into the bedroom, "you think that because you're bisexual that you get multiple partners to find out what you want in life and you think that just because I'm straight I can only be with you at the moment until I break up with you?" Noah turned looking at her as he said, "I don-" She talked over him, like her mom always did with Hank, figuring that it would make him toe the line and understand that he was not going to tell her what she could or couldn't do, they weren't married, she was tired of the circle they were going in. He would listen and give in to her as he should, "I will Noah, its that simple, if you're going to really dictate to me how I'm supposed to feel in our relationship or not let me go and be my own person then I will just walk out now and end this its that..." He interrupted her, stepping closer to her, "Do it then Sarah, just go then, you don't let me finish and you think that I'm just what some kid that you can walk all over. I'm not like that and you can't treat me like that. I'm not going to let you yell at me or tell me that you're going to leave me just because you're angry at me. GO ahead and be angry at me but don't threaten me, thats not how you get someone to listen to you." She stopped, there was an unshed tear in one of his dark green eyes, she realized there was probably a few in her own too. He was defiant too, standing there looking at her, not walking out of the room, he had purposely led them back to the bedroom, knowing that she would follow him so that if Beth did come home she might not hear them arguing. She stopped, breathing in a bit, "Y-your right. I'm sorry I don't want you to back down..." She wanted to reach out to him now, to hug him, to pull him into her embrace as he embraced her too and kissed her. She knew though that things weren't done just because she had said that. Noah now realizing that she wasn't going to use threats sat down on the bed. She sat next to him and after a moment he said, "its stupid that I'm scared and jealous and I know it is. I know that you're like me, that you're out looking for what you want too. I know that its not fair for you to let me see more than one person and me to not let you. Its just, I don't know why I think its okay that Nathan and I be together and that you cant go off with your friends and maybe meet someone you want to get to know. I'm being selfish and I don't want to be, but I'm also scared of loosing you. I'm scared of loosing Nathan too if I'm honest and if that makes me... I can understand if that's why you want to break up with me, but I don't want you to Sarah." The way he said her name had just a bit of pain to it. She could feel the hurt in his voice there was she knew some in hers as well. "I don't want to break up either Noah, you know how much I love you... its just... I don't know if this is forever and you don't either. If we don't spend time apart from each other, if we don't go out and see the world when its offered to us we will grow to hate each other. Or resent one another. I don't want to be my mom, and seeing you stand up to me, fight back... I've never seen anyone other than Karen do that to my mom. I just always thought that the guy deferred and gave in." Noah found her hand, that surprised her, she hadn't even known that she was looking for him to find it and hold it. "you're right about the whole not always being together stuff I know you are. Not just because you're older either. Nathan said the same thing and it felt true then too. Its just... I start thinking that I might loose you to someone else and well I get afraid of it happening." Sarah threaded her fingers with his, "you're not going to loose me Noah. Look, we're both young like Beth said, we're just kids both of us. We're going to fight and disagree because we don't always have the same tastes or same ideas on things right?" "Yeah." "Okay, so while I can't promise that we won't fight, or even that we won't break up one day I can promise that I will stay your friend. Things are more interesting in my life with you in it. Right?" Noah chuckled a bit, "yeah you're the only reason I watch all those baking competition shows. Without you there'd be no reason for them to exist at all." Sarah pushed her shoulder into his, "shut up, you're the one who forces me to sit through hour after hour of The Expanse." Noah looked at her and the look of offense that passed on his face made her smile, "you said you liked it..." "You said you liked the baking competition shows...." They stared at one another and both started laughing, after a moment their foreheads rested against one another. Eyes looking into eyes. "Listen, I'm not going to make you any promises about being chaste while I'm gone next week. I will make one promise though, I will not sleep with anyone, and I'll text you often to make sure that Nathan's not taking advantage of my boyfriend." Noah flushed a bit, "what if I want him to?" Sarah stroked his cheek, "I think I want to take advantage of you right now..." She felt his hands on her shoulders, stroking them, "you can't take advantage of me if I take advantage of you first." "Oh is that a challenge?" Her finger rubbed his cheek, his one hand was making its way down her front now between them. "What if it is?" Sarah pushed her mouth to his then not waiting for the game that might play out forever if she answered him again. She pulled Noah on top of her as their tongues slowly began to tangle, the feeling of his hands sliding over her shirt as he leaned over her, running over her breasts sent shivers through her body. He was becoming good at touching her, his willingness thrilled her and drove her to do more things with him than any boy before. He tasted of bubble gum his tongue warm and sweet pressed to her own. Now his hands were sliding under her shirt, pushing it up as they ran up to her breasts, stroking them through the lace bra she still wore. Her own hands were on his back, one of them resting in his hair holding the back of Noah's head. Her other hand ran down his back, stroking his frame, feeling his strength. He was smaller than her, that wouldn't last for much longer, she was average height for a girl and Noah was clearly going to be over six feet one day. For now though he was shorter, and smaller,though only slightly smaller. Sarah pushed at Noah, twisting with him so that she was on top now, he was between her, her crotch resting almost even with his as she leaned down to kiss him, her hands sliding over his chest now, his own sliding up under her shirt as she sat up on top of him. Sarah lifted her shirt up and off as his hands found her breasts through the bra, stroking them. She leaned down, running her lips across his, sliding down to kiss his neck, pulling at his shirt now too. She got the shirt off and tossed it where her own was on the floor in his room. Her lips met his neck, kissing him there, sliding down, kissing his chest, meeting one of his nipples, sucking hard on it, then the other as her fingers traced down towards his jeans, she could feel his lower stomach, his button, she was almost to the jeans. Then Noah was pushing her, twisting with her so that she was on the bottom again. He leaned over her, his lips meeting hers again, his fingers reaching around her, finding the clasp of her bra, undoing it and pulling at the bra as he sat up a bit to break their kiss. His eyes hungered looking at her breast. It was mysterious to know that this boy desired her as much as he desired Nathan. They had completely different body types, but she knew that he wasn't lying when he said he wanted both. She had seen Noah's taste in men, it was kind of similar to her own. Noah came down her again, his hands gripping and sliding over her breasts, his lips meeting her neck, gently kissing her there, sliding down over her shoulders, sliding down further to find her breasts. The teenage girl breathed in deeply as Noah's lips met her nipple, sucking on it, drawing in more than just that into his mouth. His one hand was stroking her other breast, squeezing on it, sliding around it. His second hand was sliding down her stomach, down to her jeans. When he undid the button Sarah pushed at Noah, dragging his face up from her tits, pushing him flat back onto his back again. * It was like they were in a war with one another, a war of who could bring who to completion first. Noah had never done it like this before with Sarah. No words were being spoken, they were just pleasing one another and taking turns without asking the other to stop. He was in the lead first, kissing her, on top of her, then she was there, pulling him onto his back so that she could be on top of him. Their lips hungered, their tongues tangled, her body felt incredible. At this moment at a time like this their four years of age difference disappeared, they were just after one thing, making each other feel good. He was on his back again, with her on top, he could see her breasts hanging between her arms, the nipples erect and dark pink, but he only saw them for a second, the nipples brushed his lower chest as she kissed his chest, sliding down, he felt them on his stomach, her fingers had found the clasp of his jeans and was undoing them. Noah rested a hand in her hair, feeling her fingers now sliding into his jeans after getting the zipper down. The brushed over his underwear, feeling the shape of him fully grown inside. She pulled his jeans down, sliding them to his ankles, sitting up so she could pull them off along with his shoes. Noah's eyes lingered on Sarah's body, that light brownish color of her skin looked wonderful, the small swells of her breasts as she breathed going up and down. He sat up as she tossed his jeans to the side of the bed. Noah pushed his head between her breasts, kissing the sides of him, his hands sliding up to her back now holding her there as he traced kisses over to one of her nipples, sucking on it. Two weeks of doing stuff like this had made Noah confident in how to please Sarah, he knew what she liked now, learning this kind of stuff had no age barrier. Feeling good like this had no age barrier either. He sucked harder on the nipple, as he did, his other hand stroked her other breast, massaging it, squeezing hard on it as Sarah sat there on the bed on her knees in front of him. Noah started sliding his other hand down her back, feeling her smooth skin under his fingers as he slipped his hand down over her bottom, rubbing it his tongue now flicking her nipple. Sarah leaned back on the bed, holding herself up with her hands as Noah began to suck harder on her second nipple. His hand moved around to Sarah's front finding the button on her jeans. He undid them, pulling the zipper down, sliding the jeans open, his hand sliding inside of them. Through her panties Noah could feel her warmth. As he pressed his fingers across her outer lips he could feel a bit of wetness on her panties. Sarah pulled his mouth off of her breast, pulling his face up to met her own, his lips and hers tangling together, their tongues meeting again as his finger found her through her panties sliding between those lips pushing his finger and the panties together into her open. Sarah pushed at him, making him fall back onto the bed as she pushed her jeans down, sliding them off and down to the floor. Her hands were on his legs now, he watched as she slid them upwards, sliding over his legs, up over his boxer-briefs. Her lips met one of his nipples, sucking on it her fingers playing with him through his underwear. Sarah moved down, her lips sliding over his chest, his stomach, down towards his middle. Her fingers were on the top of his underwear now, sliding them down, letting him out. Sarah pulled his boxer-briefs off the rest of the way, leaving them hanging off of one of his sock covered feet as her tongue slowly slipped over the head of his erection, licking at it. Her one hand found his length, sliding over it, pulling the skin back so the head popped out as her tongue played with his foreskin and her other hand ran back up over his stomach. Noah grabbed her hand pulling her fingers into his mouth, sucking on them as her own mouth pushed down on the head of his penis. He felt her tongue moving around the head, pushing around his foreskin as her other hand slid down cupping and squeezing his balls. Sarah sat up, sliding her mouth off of his penis, a bit of saliva coming with it as she looked at him. Noah sat up as well, pulling her down until she was on top of him. They kissed again, tongues tangled, his hands were on her waist now pulling at her panties, dragging them down to almost her knees. She went onto her back Noah pulling her panties down and off of her long slender legs. The legs of a runner, legs that he had gotten hard just by looking at. Her calves were delicious, the young twelve year old had never known that calves could look so good. His hands ran over them as he spread her legs open, admiring her vagina. He licked his lips, he hungered for that bit of Sarah. He went down, kissing her stomach, sliding his lips down over her smooth flat belly, down between her legs, finding her opening. His tongue pushed between the folds, sliding up, eating out a girl Noah had discovered was an art and Sarah was a great guide, the sixteen year old always let the twelve year old know what he was doing right or what he was doing wrong. Sarah pulled him up from between her legs and she spoke for the first time in their time together, "twist around, let me have you too." Noah got the sense of what she wanted, he had described it once in a story he had tried to write. He had never done it before though. He moved as Sarah pulled him on top of her so that his face was down between her legs and his penis and the area around were up at her face. His legs rested bent at the knees on either side of her head as Sarah's hands stroked him pulling him down into her mouth. The moment that the head of his penis was sucked into her mouth he went down onto Sarah. Upside down it took him a moment to find what he sought, but his tongue found it as if it was guided there like a magnet. His tongue ran along the length, pushing around the clit as he maneuvered to slip his fingers into her as well. Noah pushed his fingers into Sarah's opening, the tightness of it squeezing on them as he pushed them in. Her juices were filling his mouth now as his tongue continued to push hard over her clit. The feeling of her mouth on his penis, taking all of him in as her hands ran over his legs drove Noah on. Her mouth slipped off of his erection, her tongue licking at his balls as her fingers continued to stroke him. Sarah leaned up more and when her tongue went between his cheeks Noah gasped pressing his face down hard on her clit and his fingers pounding into that opening. It was unexpected pleasure, there, but her tongue didn't stay long there, it was again on his penis, licking at the head, her fingers milking him. Noah came, his orgasm sending a groan through his body that vibrated on Sarah's vagina, the teenage girl held his waist with one hand, the other one holding his penis as his small bit of spend shot out, just a few little drops really, she came as well. Noah could tell because her juices just flowed even more and her vagina squeezed his fingers so hard that it hurt a little. Finished he collapsed on the bed beside her catching his breath. * The feeling of Noah's spend even if it was just a little bit landing on her breasts as she milked him with her fingers, her tongue licking his shaft and balls had sent a thrill through Sarah, his finger buried to the knuckle inside of her, his tongue pushing and twisting around her clit, Sarah's own orgasm had arrived with an intensity that she was getting used to. Sometime she still found it hard believe that this boy four years her junior was so willing to pleasure her. She had never known that there were boys out there that wanted to make girls feel as good, hadn't believed that it was possible, but here was one proving it to her. Noah lay beside her on the bed, his head at about her knees, his own feet close to her face. Sarah grabbed one of his feet and ran a finger up the sole just slightly. Noah giggled, and grabbed her foot too. "Noah..." He just smiled and ran a finger up the sole of her foot too. Sarah felt her own laughter escape from her as he tickled her foot. Now it became game of trying to get each other's foot away from the other one. The two of them scrambled trying to pry their feet out of each others hands, Sarah managed to get hers out but she had to sacrifice Noah's foot and let him have freedom as well as she twisted and moved on top of him, trying instead by leaning over him to tickle his arm pits. Noah squirmed and tried to pinch her nipples. Sarah leaned down and pushed her lips to his again, little giggles escaped Noah between the kisses as her arms found his armpits. She stopped tickling him, running her hands over his arms as her tongue began to play with his, the two of them gently twisting around one another. She felt Noah's hands on her breasts again, this time massaging them gently, rubbing his fingers over her nipples, tweaking them slightly with light pinches. Inside Sarah could feel the furnace building again. Her lips inches from him she asked, "do you want to be my first Noah?" She saw Noah's cheeks heat, his eyes meeting hers, "yes." It was all that he needed to say, all that she wanted him to say. Their lips met again and they twisted together, with her holding him, pulling him on top of her. They lay there naked, just both of them in their socks and nothing else as again their tongues began to press to one another. Noah's flat chest pressed to Sarah's small breasts, squishing them on her chest, his hands were in hers now, his eyes meeting hers, their lips touching. She could feel his erection on her lower stomach, somewhere above her entrance. Noah softly said, "s-should we get.... I mean I should probably have a condom..." Sarah stroked his cheek, "I'm on the pill, and my cycle just ended, we'll be fine the first time, but yes Noah ever time after this..." Noah nodded, his hand touched hers on his cheek, "You're sure? About all of it?" Sarah said, "Yes Noah I want you to be my first." Noah flushed, "M-me too, how do I..." "Just guide it in like your fingers..." Noah moved, slipping off of her a bit, Sarah spread her legs wider, resting them up giving Noah a target. The twelve year old looked down at her from where he was on his knees and Sarah reached over, her hand taking him, stroking his pole taking hold of it, guiding him down between her legs. Noah leaned over her, as her fingers stroked him, pulling him down between her legs. The head slipped in, sliding through the folds, she guided it like she had her own fingers, or other tools in the past. This though was a part of Noah, another person and it was going inside of her. The feeling that first moment when the younger boy entered the teenage girl sent thrilling waves of pleasure through Sarah's body. Noah's eyes widened as he was leaning over her, feeling it sliding inside of her. Sarah moved her hand running it up Noah resting it on one of his shoulders the other already on his other shoulder. Noah's eyes were on her, joined like this looking at each other. He pushed in, like he had with his fingers earlier, but this moment this was far more intimate. He was about as thick as his own fingers, the girth of him sliding in sent shivers through her body. It was less about the size and more about the boy doing it. Noah pushed in again and Sarah pulled his head down to meet hers, their lips locking, their tongues tangling. * Noah didn't know it could be like this, the other stuff before, the moments before he entered Sarah were nothing compared to being inside of her. If this was the ultimate final climax of pleasuring Sarah he would suck on her clit her every day if it led to this. At first he was just on the outside sliding along the inner folds, feeling the outer lips press around him as Sarah guided him and then he was in, sliding into that opening, the same one that his fingers had been in only moments before. The warmth of her as she surrounded him, as the head of his penis slipped inside and the more started to slide in was all that Noah had thought it would be and more. He felt it as he slipped in deeper, the twelve year old could feel Sarah surrounding him. Slowly he pushed in, the tunnel pulsating around him, her fingers pulling his head down to meet hers. Their mouths met, their tongues twisted as he slipped further inside. As all of him was buried in that pulsating vibrating tunnel. It cradled his penis, squeezing and enticing him with each push deeper in until he was buried to the hilt. It was about then that they began to move, he wasn't sure who started it but after a few small starts Noah started to get the feeling for what he was doing. How he had to pull out almost all the way before diving back into that warm tunnel that welcomed him and embraced him again. Sarah's eyes were on his, not leaving. Noah put his hands on her chest, using her breasts as a sort of leverage as he dove fully into Sarah again, pulling out and back in once more. She enveloped him, he felt as if he belonged in there. Her hands were on his sides, no now one of them was holding his butt, squeezing as he began to move faster inside of her. They were reaching a crest of pleasure, like they had before, a driving force bringing both of them together. He could feel it when his lower stomach touched hers, when he dove fully inside and his balls rested touching her skin below the opening. Sarah was biting her bottom lip containing the gasps of pleasure that were building inside of her. Noah's hands now gripped hard at her breasts, holding tightly onto them, squeezing them as it escaped Sarah's lips at long last, her cry for him to finish her. Noah moved faster now the pace almost at a record that he didn't know he could maintain. He wasn't even pulling out halfway anymore, he was greedy wanting to stay inside of that tight opening that was pulsating around him, milking his length, all four inches buried fully inside of Sarah. She pulled him down, her hand gripping his butt, her other one pushing at the back of his head. Her mouth met his and she wrapped her legs around him, begging him to ride her harder. They were reaching the point, neither the preteen boy or the teenage girl wanted to stop it now. They were a joined force of each other. Noah pushed into Sarah again one last time as he emptied what little he had inside of her. Sarah held him tightly holding him with her hands and her legs wrapped around him, her mouth pushed onto his own. Noah wasn't sure how much longer after it was as they lay there a joined puddle of drying sweat and need. He slowly slipped off of Sarah, falling onto the bed beside her. He felt worn out as if he had just run a mile or more. Sarah beside him was still breathing a little heavily, her breasts rising with each breath. She twisted onto her side so she was facing him, the two of them looking at one another. Sarah said, "we'll definitely do that again some time..." Noah smiled a bit, "yeah..." he did wonder though if it would be the same with Nathan, he realized that he wanted to feel Nathan doing that to him as well. Sarah stroked his cheek, "you're thinking if it will be the same with Nathan aren't you?" Noah flushed a bit, "S-sorry, I know that I shouldn't..." Sarah put a finger to his lips, "it doesn't bother me, it'll be different by the way, its never the same with different people, it'll probably be as intense but you'll feel differently about it because while you love Nathan and I both you love each of us differently." Noah leaned in closer, kissing her lips, "I still wish I could just choose... one or the other." Sarah smiled and ruffled his hair a bit, "you've got a whole life to choose that in still Noah, lets just love each other right now and have fun huh?" Noah nodded in agreement. They made sure that the room was fully cleaned and they were dressed and on the couch before Beth got home, though Noah got the sense that she might know some of what they may or may not have done. Later as he was walking Sarah to her car Noah said, "w-what if on the outside chance we did..." He didn't finish, afraid to a little. Sarah pulled him in, "we didn't. I have a morning after pill that Karen got me, their not illegal where she lives, its taken care of Noah regardless, I'm not going to let you become a dad at twelve, or me a mom at sixteen I promise." Noah nodded and they kissed again, "I love you too much to ruin your life, and that's why each time from now on you'll wear a condom." Noah smiled at that and they hugged again and kissed one more time. Twenty-One. IN the four years since he had started college Nathan had never gone home for Spring break, well this year he was because for the first time in all of those years he had a real reason to go home, someone to see. Someone he loved and not like a brother, but like a lover. Even if he did have to share Noah with Sarah it didn't stop Nathan's desire to be with the younger boy. If anything he found he wanted to prove to Noah that being intimate with another male was just as good as being intimate with a female. Like it was some kind of competition in Noah choosing one over the other or something. Karen liked seeing her best friend and sister fight over the same boy, she found it funny that both of them had fallen for the same person almost at the same time. She did agree though that Noah was definitely not a typical twelve year old boy, there was something that set him apart from other boys his age and it wasn't only the loss of his parents that made him different. It was part of who Noah was. Still as the Uber driver took him to his moms house Nathan felt nervous all over again. He had talked with Noah at least three times a week during the last two months and some week since last seeing him. Noah didn't like going more than a day or so without calling him. Nathan found it sweet that Noah not only wanted to tell him about his day or week but he also wanted to hear how Nathan was doing in school himself and surprisingly enough he often asked Nathan if he had started seeing someone else or not. During the past two months he had gone with Karen out to a few clubs and a couple of frat parties that she liked to attend. Karen loved to find drunk frat boys for some reason, they were her favorite thing in the world. She didn't drink herself but if she could find a frat boy that was so drunk he could barely walk she would almost always end up banging him. She especially liked nineteen or college freshmen boys who were getting drunk for the first time. Nathan often told her that she was making the trope of all bisexuals being highly sexualized a reality. To which Karen would respond always with the same thing, "I'm twenty, I'm single, and I like drunk guys so lets get you drunk and see what happens." To which Nathan would roll his eyes and push her away. The truth was that Karen wasn't highly sexualized, but she did like going to parties at least once a week and she did like drunk frat boys especially the new pledges. In the last two weeks though before spring break Karen had stopped going to the parties, it was around then that she had gone to a sorority party and there had been a girl there that she had saved from a really drunk boy and well it turned out that the girl was interested in Karen far more than the boy anyway. So Karen was actually dating someone which was something she hadn't done in over a year. It was a little strange to watch Karen go from one to the other, since getting to know her he had seen her seriously date a boy and then a girl, and now another girl. It reminded him of his problem with Noah, as the Uber driver turned into the subdivision Nathan's thoughts went from Karen's way of figuring out who she was to Noah instead. Noah was a boy, Karen was a girl, so that was already a huge difference. Add in Noah's age and the fact that he was just barely discovering what it meant for him to like both boys and girls and it was really no surprise that Noah had found a girl to like as much as there was a boy to like for him. What did surprise Nathan a little bit was that Noah wanted Nathan to be with him but he also didn't mind if Nathan was with someone else. Right now though Nathan was only going to focus on his relationship with Noah, to see what it was to know if it could be more than it had been so far. He didn't mind if Noah saw someone else, well he did actually if Noah had chosen to see another boy Nathan might have been hurt, but he didn't see Sarah as a competition, she was a girl and was giving Noah something different than what Nathan himself was giving. Still as he saw his mom's house Nathan felt nervous again. Would he and Noah have anything to talk about? Would the magic of their relationship be gone after two months apart? Would he be able to resist just taking Noah right then and there? It was all legitimate questions. The one thing he didn't worry about was rather or not Noah was okay with his dad's passing. He knew the answer to that one, they had talked about it recently, most days were better, school, him, Sarah all of that helped Noah realize that life went on and he could make it a good one. Noah slipped out of the car and grabbed his suitcase as he headed up to the house. His mom wasn't home, it was Sunday afternoon and he knew that if things were still as they had been before she would be getting with Janet who had been her friend since college. He wondered if Noah would be at home or not. He didn't have to wonder at all as he started up to the front of the house and the driver pulled away as Noah came out to greet him. They both stopped looking at one another. Nathan knew that he could use a haircut, he just hadn't gotten it done. Noah though was taller, not hugely taller, just a few inches, he was probably five feet now instead of just below it. His sandy brown hair was still long but it had been cut a bit, so that it went to about the middle of his neck instead of brushing his shoulders. He wore a dark green tee-shirt that seemed to bring out the green in his eyes and jeans. He hesitated, and Nathan felt a little hesitant as well but then Noah smiled and came over to him hugging him. Nathan lifted Noah in the hug briefly and kissed the top of his head. The nervousness was still there, he wasn't sure if the magic of the Christmas break was gone or not. He still found Noah attractive, but he wasn't sure where they stood yet. Noah broke the hug and let Nathan carry his bag into the house and down the hall to his bedroom. As he walked back there Noah disappeared for a second. As he walked into the room and put his bag down he turned looking at Noah who stood there studying him. He had his hands behind his back as well which was a little strange. Finally Nathan said, "Okay Noah, what's up?" Noah flushed just a bit, "you're mom said that your birthday is on Wednesday so I wanted to get you something for your birthday but I don't want to save it till Wednesday because it's been so long since I saw you!" Nathan said, "well if you can't wait then I guess lets see it." Noah smiled and pulled a wrapped gift out from behind him and said, "Beth helped me with part of it and Sarah with the other part but I picked it out myself, well other than one part of it." Nathan took the wrapped box and Noah stood next to the bed looking down at him and looking nervous. He pulled the wrapping off of the box which was an amazon box that he had to open up. Inside he was a little surprised. He pulled out the items, the first was a bobble head doll of Dwight Schrute from the office, the second was a coffee mug that said worlds best boss then a pint glass that said Dwight you Ignorant slut on it. In there also was a bottle of crown a signal that Nathan had turned twenty one from his mom probably. Noah looked excited sitting next to him, and Nathan just said, "okay what liquor store in the city let a kid by alcohol?" Noah shook his head, "no one, your mom got that, she said that it was your dad's favorite and well.. I mean its your birthday and I know that you and your dad used to do something special together on your birthday and that you're going to miss him a lot and I'm talking way too much because I'm nervous that you won't like it and also nervous that you're never going to kiss me and tell me that you missed me..." Noah stopped Nathan could see that he was flushed as he finished. Nathan put the box down on the bed and said, "wow Noah that's a lot to take in..." Noah said, "so you don't..." Nathan didn't let him start again. He grabbed Noah by his green shirt and pulled him down until he could kiss him. Noah sort of melted onto him, sitting on his lap facing him as Nathan ran a hand through the boy's hair and their tongues met. It was as before, kissing Noah, giving into his desires for the much younger boy was always worth it. His other hand ran down Noah's back stroking it as he could taste mint on Noah's breath. Noah's own hands were in his hair too,one of them holding Nathan's head as Nathan held his own, his other one on Nathan's shoulder holding it. The boy had gotten much better at kissing, he had already been good but apparently having time to kiss Sarah a lot more than he did Nathan was giving Nathan an unexpected benefit. Maybe Noah dating too people was a really good thing after all. He ran his hand further down Noah's back and the young boy pushed at him, the two of them falling back onto the bed, the kiss still deep and desperate. A kiss of I missed you. He ran his hand over Noah's back down further sliding it over the boy's jeans, rubbing his ass, squeezing it through the jeans. Noah pressed to him and Nathan could feel the boy on his lower stomach as their tongues continued to war with one another. Noah pulled back, breaking their kiss as he sat up on Nathan's lap, he did indeed look taller as he sat up. He was pulling at Nathan's shirt, dragging it up and off, Nathan didn't fight him. The boy went down, his tongue ran over one of Nathan's nipples, his lips slowly sliding around it and then sucking. Nathan gasped, yes Noah learning about things from Sarah was definitely worth it. His tongue darted around the nipple. Nathan pulled Noah up from his nipple, twisting with the boy so that Noah was under him on the bed, "someone's been learning some things I see..." Noah flushed as Nathan stroked his cheek, " A little bit, is that... is it bad?" Nathan laughed and kissed Noah's lips, "no I just can't believe that sweet innocent Noah has been all corrupted by a vile disgusting teenage girl." Noah laughed, "she's not any of that other than the teenage or girl part." Noah kissed his lips again, "I know." "And anyway I sucked your penis before I sucked her clit so I think that you're the one who's really ruined my innocence." Nathan shook his head, "How dare you sir... how dare you!" Noah laughed and when Nathan tried to pull away the boy pulled his face back down to his. "shut up and kiss me... I heard that one from a movie the other day." Nathan laughed and kissed Noah again. The boy tasted wonderful, his hands were on Nathan's chest stroking it with him leaning over Noah. He slipped down between them sliding his fingers over the button on Noah's jeans, unsnapping it. As he did he found Noah's shirt and was pulling it up over his head. The boy was still as skinny as Nathan remembered him being. This time he went after Noah, slowly running kisses down the boy's body, over his flat chest, his stomach, down towards his jeans. Noah's fingers rested in Nathan's hair as he pulled at the jeans, dragging them to Noah's ankles. He ran his fingers along the length of Noah's penis, feeling the shape of it through the boys underwear. Nathan leaned over Noah again, his lips and the boy's meeting as his fingers stroked Noah through his boxer-briefs. He slipped his fingers under the elastic band, sliding into the warmth of the underwear, his fingers seeking and finding the boy's erect penis. He stroked Noah from under the cloth, breaking their kiss again and sliding his lips down a trail along Noah's front feeling the warmth of his skin under his lips. He moved down coming to the boys underwear. The dark blue boxer-briefs were tight around the shape, Nathan could see the erection, he gently ran his lips over it through the underwear kissing the length. His hands slowly pulled at the boxer-briefs sliding them down and revealing Noah to his eyes. Noah's penis ticked, all four inches of it stiff with his desire. Nathan pushed his tongue along the length, tasting the skin, feeling it pulsating with Noah's desire. Two months of not having Noah, of not feeling him and kissing him made Nathan realize just how much he had missed the boy. He stroked Noah's balls, still even if he was bit taller this area of him had not changed at all, his penis was still the same size and there was still no hair around any of it or on his sack. Nathan used his fingers to pull the skin of Noah's uncut penis back revealing the delicate head underneath to Nathan's tongue which he pushed down and around it, slowly drawing the preteen into his mouth. He felt Noah's hand on his head, running through his hair as Nathan pulled the boy's penis fully into his mouth sucking on it. Noah gasped, pushing up off of the bed a bit into Nathan's mouth. Nathan slowly slipped his hand down, sliding below Noah's balls. He had never done this before with Noah but he figured that the boy was probably ready for it. His fingers pushed up between those cheeks with Noah presented below him. Nathan found Noah's bottom, sliding his fingers around the opening, pushing one inside just barely where he could feel the boys hole pulsating around his finger. Noah gasped and his little penis spasmed and shot that little bit of load that he had into Nathan's mouth. Nathan slowly pulled off of Noah, sitting up, licking his lips. Noah laying there relaxed and spent said, "so did you like my gift?" Nathan laughed and leaned down kissing Noah, "yes Noah, I loved the gift." Noah smiled and as Nathan sat up again he sat up as well. He did not appear to be embarrassed about being mostly naked with Nathan mostly dressed. Noah said, "I could... make you feel good too." Nathan ruffled his hair, "my mom will be back soon, she texted me about an hour before I got here said she wanted to take us both out to dinner." Noah sighed, "oh, I wanted to make sure that you knew that I didn't prefer one over the other that I like sucking on you as much as I do Sarah." Nathan laughed and said, "I am sure that you do Noah, but you don't have to prove it to me. I shouldn't have jumped you like I did but its been two months and I missed you. I know you're getting it regularly and well I'm not." Noah softly said, "you're jealous of Sarah?" Nathan tossed Noah his shirt, "no, why would I be jealous of Sarah?" As he put his shirt on Noah said, "Because she gets to be with me all the time and we kind of have sort of approval from your mom to be doing stuff..." Nathan stopped, that was a little bit of new material. "What do you mean by that?" Noah shrugged with a small flush as well, "Beth knew that Sarah and I were being more than just friends. I thought she was going to break us up but she said that she could tell how close we were to each other and we promised her that we wouldn't do anything outside of the house and that we'd use protection..." He trailed off and Nathan laughed. Noah looking at him said, "what's so funny?" Nathan stopped and said, "Oh I was just remembering trying to hid my sexual activities from my mom and dad. I think it was about three months after I told them I was gay, and I was seeing this boy named David and we were fooling around all the time, always back at my house because my dad was on and off every seventy-two hours at the time and my mom worked till six like she does now. So it was we thought the perfect place to well... you know." Noah said, "Yeah, that's what Sarah and I thought too... its what you and I do as well.." Nathan smiled, "yes well anyway my mom came home early, walked into my room to ask me what I wanted for dinner and found us in bed together. Thankfully we had the covers on but what we had been doing was painfully obvious." He paused for a second then said, "I thought she was going to be furious, or disgusted, or at least ground me. Instead after David left embarrassed to the point that he never wanted to come to my house again, she sat me down and asked me first if I was being careful, and then she laid down ground rules. NO sex out of the house, if you do something in the house hide it better, and third always use protection, especially if you're going to do penetration stuff." Noah said, "that's basically what she told us too..." Nathan smiled, "yes but I asked my mom why it mattered if I used a condom or not, its not like I could have gotten David pregnant, and she told me that didn't' matter that STD's came from sex rather it was two boys, a boy and a girl, or two girls. I know I'm clean and you were inexperienced before we started doing stuff so I didn't worry about it. Now though I don't know where Sarah's...." Noah interrupted him, "She's good too, I mean she's like really really careful about that stuff, the other boys she was with before me she wouldn't do anything other than a hand job without a condom on them, and she got tested too because she wanted to make sure that she didn't... well she wanted to take care of us and by us I mean all three of us because she knows that you're still going to want to be with me too. That's what she said when I asked her why she told me all that." Nathan kissed the top of Noah's head, "I guess she's taking care of you huh?" Noah shrugged, "we take care of each other, she's not my boss or anything." After a moment Noah said, "its normal for people in relationships to fight right?" Nathan said, "Sure, my mom and dad fought sometimes, I imagine that your parents did too. Do you and Sarah fight?" Noah said, "not really, we've had a couple of fights, a big one about spring break but we worked it out by talking about it. Sarah's not like you, she's different in a lot of ways and different from me too but not in every way. We do like some of the same things. You and I have a lot more things in common but I like that she's different, it makes things... fun?" Nathan laughed, "She can't be all that different if you guys have things in common. You do realize that you're talking about your girlfriend to your older male lover right?" Noah flushed, "you're my boyfriend... I don't know who else I could talk about her with if not you. I... talk about you with her sometimes. She's not jealous of you and me... says that we only live once and I should find out where I want to be and that I can love two people if I want to unless we get serious then I have to stop seeing other people." Nathan shook his head, two months and the boy had grown a lot more than he had expected, "but you love her isn't that serious?" Noah looked over at him, "but I love you too Nathan..." Nathan swallowed, he felt his entire body heat with the love he felt for Noah, "you just realize that you told me something that you've never said before..." Noah said, "yeah, but its the truth just like I love Sarah. I can't choose which I love more, I love both of you differently but the same.." Nathan pulled him in again and kissed his lips, "I love you too Noah, and I don't mind sharing, after all she's here and I'm way up there." Noah moved sliding up onto Nathan's lap now, they were more even this way as they started to kiss again. Nathan wanted to tell him that they needed to stop, that his mom would be home soon but the feeling of Noah's lips on his own, of his tongue sneaking into his mouth was too much for Nathan to not give into. He really had missed feeling Noah, tasting him, loving him. The truth was he hadn't tried dating up in New York because his feelings for Noah were too strong, it felt like a betrayal of what he was feeling. He felt Noah's fingers sliding between them, going down towards his jeans as their tongues continued to war. Noah was serious about wanting him again. He figured that it was possible that Noah had missed this as much as he had. When he left to go back to school they had only just begun to discover what they might be to one another. Noah slid back a bit on Nathan's lap as his fingers found the zipper on his jeans pulling it down as his fingers reached inside. Feeling Noah's hand slide into his jeans, stroking him through his boxers as they sought the opening in the boxers was wonderful. Nathan had missed the intimate touches between him and Noah, the way that the younger boy seemed to hunger for him. His kisses started to become more desperate as his fingers were inside of the boxers. Nathan wondered if Noah was this way with Sarah as well, if he hungered for her bits as much as he did Nathan's. He had a feeling that the boy did. That Noah loved both of them equally did not surprise Nathan. Noah got him out, as he pulled back breaking their kiss a small smile dancing on his lips. Nathan wanted to tell him that he didn't have to, that there was no need but Noah wouldn't have taken no for an answer. The kid actually licked his own lips as he slipped off of Nathan's lap. His fingers were deftly circled around Nathan's shaft, stroking it, feeling the shape of it under his fingers as he leaned over and ran his tongue over the head. Nathan leaned back on the bed as the boy held him in his fingers, his tongue still running over the head. Slowly Noah's lips slipped over the head, drawing Nathan inside of his mouth. The boy leaned over more to do it, resting one of his hands on Nathan's stomach, his other one still holding the shaft as he pushed down. Noah's mouth was incredible and warm surrounding him, driving down on him. The boy clearly wanted this. He pulled back off, sliding his tongue around the head, licking at the skin at the base, running along the length as his fingers sneaked inside the boxers and found Nathan's balls stroking them. Noah learned by feeling what Nathan had done to him, and by experimenting on his own as well. Nathan saw no reason to tell the boy what to do, Noah had a tool smaller but the same and he knew what made himself feel good. He wondered how that had gone with Sarah, but he wasn't going to pry into Noah's other relationship. Noah's lips slipped over the head again, drawing in more than that this time, he could feel the boy's teeth just slightly rub over the head as he drew more inside. Nathan sat up a bit, resting a hand on Noah's head, stroking his hair. He could feel it now, he was close, and the flood wasn't going to stop. He told Noah as much, giving him warning, "I'm going to... soon..." Noah slipped his mouth off a bit, not pulling an inch away as he said, "I know, I can feel it." Then his mouth dove back down over the head and Nathan breathed in just a bit as his penis spasmed and his seed shot out into Noah's mouth. The fact that the boys mouth was still on him as his seed shot out wasn't lost on Nathan. Noah pulled off after the second spasm as more shot out, some of it landed on the boys lips and cheek, but most the rest went on Nathan's shirt as how Noah held his penis that was the only place it could go. Noah swallowed what was in his mouth as he did Nathan said, "you didn't have to..." Noah responded, "I figure I can swallow your stuff, you do know girls have stuff too?" Nathan nodded and Noah said, "I wasn't sure if you did or not cause you don't do stuff with girls because you're not attracted to them." Nathan laughed and Noah smiled before Nathan pulled him in and kissed him again, "I am well aware that girls have stuff too. I'm guessing you've tasted that stuff?" Noah just shrugged and Nathan nodded, "god, I'm hoping you're not becoming a sex addict..." Noah shook his head, "Sarah and I only do stuff once a week sometimes less, we mainly debate on what to watch most afternoons. She comes over most days after school and we work on homework and sometimes we make out a little bit but usually we're watching something or go for a walk or sometimes we'll go to a coffee place or somewhere else to get something to drink or something and sit there and talk. Other times I'll call you and talk when she's got after school stuff usually which is three days a week since she's on track and volleyball." Nathan smiled, "good, its not healthy to want sex all the time or to be doing it all the time." Noah flushed, "but I missed you!" The he touched Nathan's mostly softening penis and said, "I missed that too..." Then he stepped back and let Nathan close up and Noah said, "You should change shirts your mom is going to be home soon." Nathan changed shirts while Noah sat on his bed looking at Nathan, he could feel the boy's eyes on him, aware that Noah wasn't really checking him out, though he was there was also something else going on in Noah. As he finished changing shirts he sat back down beside Noah and said, "what's up?" Noah leaned his head on Nathan's shoulder surprising him as he said, "I was just remembering when we talked over Christmas about how your most important day with your dad was your birthday. About how it was always the worst day for you?" Nathan gently put his arm around Noah's shoulders as he said, "yes, that is true, but why are you thinking about it?" Noah looked up at him, his startling green eyes still shocked Nathan sometimes with their beauty. "Because your birthday fell on spring break this year and we both got the same spring break week and it seems like destiny. I want us to do something for your birthday, just the two of us, like something that you and your dad would have done. We'll make it a new step-brother tradition. We've both lost our dads so we need our own special day and I think your birthday is the best one to do it on since mines so close to Christmas." Nathan kissed the top of the boys head and said, "That would be wonderful Noah, I think its the best idea. A step-brother tradition huh?" Noah smiled up at him, "well its what we are... well other than the other thing that we are.. but no matter what if something did change we'd always still be step-brothers and I'd always still want to be with you on this day." That was profound coming from a twelve year old, but then again Noah did a lot of profound things for a boy his age. Nathan was pretty sure he wasn't as together at twelve as Noah was at twelve. Although at thirteen, just a year older he had fallen in love for the first time with Griffin, just too bad that Griffin hadn't felt the same. "Noah! Nathan?!" She called their names from the living room and after a second of making sure that both of them were dressed they came out of the back as she saw them she smiled and Nathan came over hugging his mom along with Noah who hugged her just as strong. "What's gotten into both of you..." then she hugged them back and everything seemed good. Over dinner out he sat with Noah across from his mom and was not surprised at all when Noah wanted to and sought his hand to hold it. After dinner back at the house as his mom was getting ready for bed and Nathan had finished with his shower he came out to the living room Noah was on his phone texting someone. He was pretty sure he knew who. As he sat down next to Noah he saw that someone had put on the Office and he said, "are you watching this now?" Noah looked up and said, "well I got you all that stuff and I didn't get the inside jokes on some of it so I thought I'd see what it was about, Sarah said that's a really good show if you can get past how mean Michael Scott is to everyone. At first I didn't know if I would like it or not, but I really like the Jim and Pam stuff and well I mean Oscar feels like a real gay person because he's like you not some caricature that I've seen other shows do. There doesn't really seem to be any shows though or characters on any shows that are bisexual, I've tried to find something..." Nathan said, "yeah I don't think there's a lot, I think its kind of hard to make it work on television or even movies so they just don't focus on it. Until you've lived it or been friends with someone who is bisexual its really hard to figure out what it means I think. Knowing Karen first and now you I can see that its really just a different way of seeing people. You'll figure it out for yourself Noah. Its possible that you never can settle on one or the other. Karen has a hard time, she has admitted to me though that she's just using college to have fun more than anything else. You'll find the right answers for yourself." Noah leaned in against him and said, "well as long as the answer isn't that I have to stop being friends with you and Sarah. Besides Beth you're my two favorite people in the world and I don't mean because we have sex." Then he smiled and said, "although that's a lot of fun too." Nathan laughed and ruffled Noah's hair. HE really had missed the boy, and not just because of the sex. He realized he had never been this in love before in his life. Closing Note: Part 6 picks up where this one leaves off. Originally I was going to put them both together but there's too much material and I don't want to under edit. I also need to re-write part of part 7 now since I want the ending to be more focused on a certain theme. Also please let me know any thoughts on this or any other part of the story, I haven't gotten much feed back since part 2 and I don't know if anyone's still reading this but if so I hope that the sadness and over all devastation of part 1 and 2 with very little erotica didn't turn everyone away as parts 3-7 are pretty much relationship and sex, with very little drama... Thanks for reading. Any thoughts of questions as always I can be reached at: choasmode00@gmial.com Donate today and save 50% off on your next story 50% of free is 50% more free!: http://donate.nifty.org/donate.html