Date: Sun, 24 Feb 2013 22:51:43 -0500 (EST) From: Michelle Aguilera Subject: My First Love - Chapter 5 - Bisexual - Adult Youth Chapter 5 Within the next few months, academic classes and swimming continued normal for me and Allison. Allison, Coach Lambert and I would have sex and even have threesomes after hours after school, but it was very late at night when no one was around. We kept hoping we'd never get caught. Then in our summer break, Allison noticed that her belly was getting bigger. She was three months pregnant but she seemed to be six. That's because she was pregnant with fraternal twins. One was mine and one was Shane's. I'd gotten used to calling him Shane. He was just another friend to me. It was Allison's birthday, June 19th. That morning everyone at her house got up. Allison went to the bathroom, but not just to brush her teeth and pee this time. She'd been hiding her pregnancy symptoms from her parents because now that she wasn't coming home earlier than midnight lately, even on school nights, they realized they let her go too far and started paying more attention to her and actually staying home with her in the afternoon and at night instead of taking off. They'd even gotten back together, and Allison's dad had stopped seeing his mistress. Allison's mom, Gabi, went into the bathroom. Allie was still throwing up. Her mom placed her hand on her shoulder. Allie stopped throwing up and looked back at her mother, but it wasn't even a few seconds until she started throwing up again. After giving birth to these babies, Allison would never get pregnant again. She wasn't strong enough to deal with this hell, and she had six more months to go. I prayed that she would survive this. She was too young and immature. "I know what's going on, dear, and it's my fault." "What are you talking about? How can this be your fault? You didn't get me pregnant or bring a man in here to get me pregnant." "I know, but I got caught up in my own problems and forgot that I had a teenage daughter with her hormones gone through the roof." "It wasn't your fault. Even if you had taken care of me, I still would've gone out and gotten pregnant." "Who's the father?" "Arnold is." "Of both babies? Those aren't identical twins, but they are twins. I can tell." "How do you know I'm having twins?" "Because your Aunt Allie was pregnant with your fraternal-twin-cousins and she was experiencing the same symptoms." "Oh, mom..." "Does Arnold know?" "No. He thinks I'm just fat. I can't blame him. I eat even more than any pregnant woman's supposed to." "Don't say that. Is your relationship like formal, or is it just sex?" "Arnold and I are not in love, but we're best friends. It could never be 'just sex'. We've known each other since we started swimming class back in January. We hang out all the time and I'm the one he calls when he needs help with anything. I've helped him pull up his grades. He only has to repeat half of this year." "Why don't you tell him?" "I'm afraid he's gonna freak out and bolt." "Arnold's not like that." "Come on, we're talking about a guy that won't even do his homework." "Why don't you call him and tell him? If he 'bolts', your father and I will help you take care of these babies if you decide to keep them." * * * * Allison armed herself with courage and called me. I was busy cleaning the bathroom and didn't answer the phone. It was probably Saul calling me to complain to me about the problems between him and his girlfriend, and I really didn't want to hear it. Why didn't they just break up already? I wouldn't have stayed with a girl or a boy if he or she made me unhappy. I now realized I'd been fucked in the ass way too many times by a man to call myself straight, so I was bi. I still liked girls more, but if a hot guy like Mr. Lambert prepositioned me, I would give in to him in a heartbeat. I'd been fucked in the ass for a period of six months every single day, and the more it happened the more I enjoyed it. The only reason why it still hurt was because my partner was too big. It seemed he was so big he'd hurt everyone he was with. I imagined that was the reason why his relationships didn't last. Until he met me. And Allison. I panicked and called Allison back. She picked up the phone after it had only rung once. She was crying, thinking this was an act of rejection on my part, like I'd suddenly decided I didn't give a fuck about her. "Why won't you answer the phone?" "I'm sorry, I was cleaning the bathroom. When I stop doing a chore and I'm not done, my mom yells at me like she's being stabbed right in the heart." "Your mom's a bitch. You should just ignore her and pick up your goddamn phone. I have something extremely important to tell you, something that will change our lives forever. I'm pregnant with fraternal twins, and one of them is yours." I felt like a bucket of cold water had just been thrown at me. When I recovered, I said, "How far along?" "You're not questioning your paternity? I've been fucking two men at the same time. How can you just take my word for it?" "Because I'm one of the two guys you've been...sleeping with, so of course one of those babies has to be mine if they're fraternal. After all, most fraternal twins are from different fathers, are they not?" "I don't know why you won't do your homework because you're pretty damn smart." "I'm 15 and sexually active. I have to do research on that kind of thing so it doesn't punch me in the face. OK, I can't talk to my parents about this. They're way too fucking uptight. I'm going to have to figure this out, but you ought to know Coach Lambert is not going to take care of that baby. I mean he's 31 and more than mature enough, but how will he explain to everyone the mother of his child is a 16-year-old?" "My parents told me they'd help me take care of the babies. If worse comes to worse, I'll just ask Mom and Dad to adopt the babies as their own, and I can be their mother in the eyes of the law later, when Shane disappears from our lives." "He won't just disappear." "That's not what I mean. I mean when I stop sleeping with him." "Are you sure you're going to be able to? If you could, you already would've, don't you think?" "I don't think the sex has anything to do with it. The reason why I can't stop seeing him is because I'm in love with him. That's why I can't resist when I'm with him. He can't resist me either. You know I always wanted a guy to really fall in love with me, but I never expected that guy to be 15 years older than me. Holy shit, I know I'm bi, but I can't just go and tell my parents I'm bi. I have to build a life with a nice man, start a family, get married, you know, live my life the traditional way. My parents did steer away from me because they got caught up in their own problems, but that doesn't make them any less conservative and uptight just like your mother, except your mother treats you like shit and she's a bitch. All right, I'm going to talk to Shane and see how we're going to figure this out. God, what a mess. I'll talk to you later." "Bye, Allie. I love you." I hung up, lied down on my bed on my stomach, started crying, and I didn't stop until I had no strength left. Then I fell asleep. Michelle Aguilera michelle.aguilera001@aol.com