Date: Sun, 10 Jan 2010 17:01:01 -0500
From: Nash Brad <bradfnash@gmail.com>
Subject: Lost control of my life forever       BI/Authoritarian

The following story is true and details how I totally lost control.

I am currently 34 years old and I am Bi. I have a girlfriend who I have
been seeing for a while but she has no clue I am bi. Back when I was 21 I
experienced my 1st guy and loved it. Over the past 13 years I experimented
with different guys usually just J/o, oral, and I would sometimes fuck the
ones who were into it. I was always safe, and as soon as we got off I left,
and months would past before I would hook up again.

Last March I was alone on a Fri night and very Horney, it was months since
I had a cock and I wanted one bad. I met a guy online on CL and after a
couple days of talking we agreed to meet. I met him at a public parking lot
and then followed him home. When I got inside he told me to strip, he then
proceeded to call me names and give me orders to play with myself and
follow his orders. This was very new to me but I loved it. I was told to
follow him in his room and when I did he pointed to the bed and told me to
put these things on now. I looked down and there was panties, stockings,
and a bra, I laughed at it and he yelled and said to put them on now or
else. He scared me and I did as he said. Once done he started to call me a
fag and pussy. He then ordered me to my knees and he started to fuck my
mouth. He then pulled me up bent me over and pulled the panties to the side
and started to finger me, I was getting so excited and feeling great he
grabbed lube and put it on my ass. I was then shocked when he tried pushing
his cock in my ass, I was still a virgin and always practiced safe and here
I was letting this guy try to bareback me, he got the head in and I then
said stop now, and get a rubber. He said he was safe but I pleaded with him
to stop. Finally he pulled the head out pushed me down and said I will pay
for this he then fucked my mouth hard until he came and made me swallow
it. He then told me to strip get my stuff and get the fuck out. I was still
hard from not coming but left fast. On my way out he said to hit him up
tomorrow and he will get rubbers to fuck me.  I got in my car and left
drove home fast got in and jerked off. When I was done I couldn't believe
what happened I felt guilty and proceed to delete his email from my
computer and said I was done.

A couple weeks passed ad I started to think how I loved being ordered and
wanted more, I couldn't find this guys info since I deleted it but I had
the will to try again. I kept thinking about being a sub for months.

In June I met a guy on line for a one nighter, I was so Horney and just
wanted to be with a guy. I met him out and followed him back home. He was
like any other encounter we sucked each other off and I left.  The next day
I was on my computer and this guy hit me up and said he enjoyed last night,
I told him I did also and would love a regular guy for hookups. He said
then if I wanted come over now for a quickie. I drove over we 69 in his
living room until we came and then I left. He and I started to talk every
night and became friends to the point we went to a bar one night just to
hang and watch game. One night we were talking on line and he asked me my
fantasies with a guy. I began to tell him of my encounter with the guy who
ordered me around and wanted to fuck me. I told him that's all I was
thinking about and would love to try it again. We made plans that Fri night
for me to come over and we would try. When I got there he ordered me to
strip and he played it out like I told him what happen with the other
guy. We did just like I experienced before but he wore a rubber and he
fucked me. It hut bad but got use to it. After we both came I just laid
there and he and I got worked up again where he fucked me again, this time
it was great. Afterwards he said he loved it and always wanted to act as a
dom. I finally left went home showered and hoped back on my computer, my GF
was away on a shopping weekend so I was alone.  I then received an IM from
him telling me how he liked this and wants to do it again with me but for
us to even step it up. I asked what was he thinking and he said a little
bondage, he had me so worked up and I told him yes. He said good be here
tomorrow Sat afternoon at 3pm, make sure I was cleaned and to wear my GF
panties, stocking, garter and bra under my clothes. If I didn't show don't
hit him again, he then signed offline. I was so excited and wondering if he
was serious or not.

The next day I was thinking about it all day, if I should go or not. I
dreamed about this and this was a guy I knew and even went in public with
so in my head I finally agreed and showed up at his house at 3 sharp. When
I got there he opened door and told me to come in and not talk. I was told
to strip and hand him my clothes, he put them in a bag and I was standing
there in a black bra, stocking, garter, and matching panties. He laughs and
said wow I did obey like a fag. He then stood behind me telling me to relax
and this is what I always wanted, to lose control to a master. He kept
talking about how he enjoyed fucking me last night and telling me how he
liked when I sucked his cock. I was so worked up I didn't even notice that
he was cuffing my hands behind my back. He then told me that I have given
him full control of me and I will enjoy this. He then proceeded to put a
bar between my ankles with a little chain enough for me to barely walk. He
then stood up behind me and asked is this what I always wanted, I told him
yes and he said good, I will enjoy this next, he then proceed to put a ball
gag in my mouth and tie it around the back of my head. He then said I was
now fully his and to follow him. He led me through his kitchen to a door
which was his basement. I started to get worried but I had no choice. We
went down 2 stairs and he stopped to close the door and lock it with a
bar. I was now very nervous, what was he doing, was this for show. It was
dark down there and cold. He led me to another room down there and opened
the door. I was shocked as hell when I saw 3 other guys in there. I tried
to move but couldn't and yell out but I had a gag, next thing I knew there
was a hook pulled over my face and tied around my neck. I was helpless,
scared and crying, what did I do, why is he doing this. I was then un
cuffed and dragged over to what seemed like a table and bent over it. My
hands were then somehow chained to it, the bar between my legs was removed,
and my ankles chained to this table. I then heard my new master say my car
keys with in my clothes upstairs. He then put his moth near my ear and said
he picked up that I was a fag cunt when he met me and he put up with being
my friend to get me to submit to him like this. He then untied and pulled
the hood off. He said one last thing, "your life is over as you know it" I
then felt someone put something in my ears to block sound and the hood was
pulled back over me and tied. I was so scared and crying. I then screamed
into my gag as I felt my ass being torn apart, I was being fucked roughly
and can tell he was fucking me bareback, I was praying he pull out and not
cum n me but I was wrong he shot in my ass, he pulled out and I could feel
it dripping out of me. I then felt another cock invade me and did the same
thing; this went on for a while until I passed out. I then awoke have no
clue when, but my arms were tied above my head to the ceiling I
guessed. The hood was pulled off and there were the 3 guys and my
master. The gag was left in and I was told to listen, one of the held up my
cell phone from my car and said if I don't obey all my contacts would hear
about this and get pictures.  My master said that he now owns me and I am
his slave forever, they all then laughed. I was then told I would be
released from the chains and the gag removed and I was to suck off each one
until the shot in my mouth and I swallowed. If I dint obey they would send
pictures of me to my contacts and if I yelled or said anything. I was then
released gag off, I then was thrown down were I sucked all 4 men to the
shot in my mouth. I was then led upstairs to a bathroom where I was pushed
in a tub and all 4 men stood around it and pissed all over me I was then
pulled out thrown my clothes and nothing to dry off and told to get out and
follow my directions when my master called in a couple days. I ran out to
my car and noticed I was there for over 12 hours it was 4 am, I drove home
hoped in the shower hoped in bed and cried myself to sleep.

Over the next couple days I was so scared from what happen and was afraid
someone would find out what I did since they had my cell numbers. A couple
days passed and I never heard from him and I then though maybe he said all
that to scare me and maybe I would never hear from him again. Wed night my
cell phone rang and it was him, I became so scared. He said fag be at my
house Fri night at 6 and plan to stay the whole weekend and to tell anyone
looking for me that I won't be on cell. He then said if I don't believe him
read my email and then hung up. I went and checked my email and the email
from him said the same thing on the phone and it also had pictures of me
dresses in the bra and panties and of me sucking cock and getting
fucked. Also in the email was numbers of people I knew form my phone that
said they will be sent these pictures if I am not there Fri at 6. I was so
scared that night when I went to bed and didn't know what I was going to
do. I thought about it all day on Thursday and that night I told my Girl
that I was going to go with a friend on a fishing trip for the weekend and
won't have cell coverage. She was pissed since we didn't spend the
following weekend together but said ok.

The next day I couldn't even think at work and was so nervous, after work I
went to my master's house like he said and was there at 6. He let me in and
told me to strip, which I did right away. He then told me to follow him he
led me thru the kitchen and I figured we were going to the basement again,
but we went out another door to the garage.  He then grabbed something and
came over to me and said not to say a fucking word and listen. He then
pulled my hands behind my back and duck taped them together, He then taped
my mouth and put ear plugs in my ears. I then saw him pick up a huge but
plug and he roughly put it in my ass and then put tape over it. I was
screaming into the tape. He then taped my ankles together, and put the hood
from the other day over my head and he taped it tight. I was then pulled
and from what I could tell was getting put into the trunk of the car in the
garage, it was then closed and he started to drive. He was driving for a
while and it was a rough road. The car then stopped and for the next 10 min
I was just in there. Finally I felt someone pulling me out.

The hood was pulled off and I saw the 3 guys from the other night along
with 2 other people. My ankles were let free alone with the tape on my ass
and the plug. The plugs from my ear were removed and them my master
talked. He said we were miles from anyone who could hear so don't even try
to leave or scream. He then said he was going to remove the tape from my
mouth and to listen to them. The tape was finally removed and I was thrown
to the ground in leaves, we were n the woods. Each guy stood around me and
I was told to suck every cock, each guy came in my mouth, face and
hair. After all 6 were done I was then pulled up and bent over on the hood
of a car and each guy fucked me hard and rough and came in my ass. After
the last guy fucked my ass the hood was pulled over my head and I felt my
hands and legs getting taped again. I was then put back in the trunk and
the car started to drive. When the car stopped I was pulled out and led
into a house. The hood was removed and the guy in front of me was not the
master, it was another guy and it was his house. He said he paid to have me
for the night. He then led me a bathroom and told me to clean up and
shower. I cleaned up and when I came out of the room into the bedroom there
were 3 black guys there who I never saw before. My new master for the night
told me to take care of these guys like the fag I was. That night and till
the morning, these guys all fucked me bareback Cuming in my ass and mouth
many times. The next morning when I passed out I was awoken by being tied
and gagged again and put back in a car. I was taken back to my master's
house when I spent the afternoon tied and spread to a bed.

I slept most the afternoon and into the night until I was awoken by my
master. He took me into the shower and made me clean up and get downstairs
naked when I was done. When I got down there had to be 10 guys all naked
standing there. For the next couple hours each man fucked my many
times. Sunday afternoon I finally went home. When I got home I told my GF
that I felt sick and just wanted to go to bed.

Monday morning came and I went to work as normal. Half way thru the day I
received a call from my mater, I picked it up and he asked if it was all
worth it. I asked him what he meant and he asked my fantasy of losing
control. I said it was fun more then I wanted but fun. He then said I would
probably hate it once I sat down and thought of it. He then said he was
done with me and I was no good for him anymore and he then laughed and said
to enjoy my life and hung up.

After work I got home and my GF was sitting on the couch and told me to sit
down. When I did I was shocked she put the TV on and there I was on the
screen getting fucked and sucking cock. My master dropped off a DVD. She
started crying call me a fag and ran out of the house and told me to leave
her alone. I was shocked and sat there and couldn't believe it. After a
while I made it to my computer and there was an email from my master. It
said I was a fag and he wanted to ruin my life so he gave the DVD to my
GF. He then said the attached was sent to everyone on my phone whose email
he got when he took my phone. It was clips of me dressed up getting fucked,
sucking. That night my email and phone went nuts with people hitting me
about what they saw and did.

Over the next week everyone knew about it, family friends, co workers, I
finally had to move away and start my life over. I am in no contact with
anyone from my formal life and I regret everyday of how I got myself in
this mess.