Date: Sat, 27 May 2000 21:10:12 EDT
From: LissaAGreen@aol.com
Subject: A Love So Blind (Boy-Band)

DISCLAIMER: This is a fictional story that came right out of my own mind. I
have no knowledge if any member of N Sync are gay specially my  Lance=).

And yes I'm girl first attempt to write a fanfic about these beautiful
group of boys So please if I say something that's not quit right let me
know, also if this story contains male/male relationships so if any of that
stuff offends you then why are you here?

Please feel free to email me me with any thoughts comments or ideas.
lissaagreen@aol.com

ch 1    A Love So Blind
        Lissa A. Green

How did I end up here? Why do I feel so stiff? I tried to remember the last
thing that I did. I was at a concert with my sister and her two friends. It
was a contest or something that they won four tickets to see N*Sync that part
I do remember, but other then that everything was a blur.
My Mom came in the hospital room. She had been crying.
"Oh God Jason! I thought I lost you for a moment! You really had us worried
there," "how do you feel son?" "Confused," "sounds normal to me," said my
sister. She had been crying to.
"Do you know where you are Jason?" "The hospital, but how?" "Is the patient
awake?"
In came in a woman wearing a white outfit.
"yes he just this moment opened his eyes," said my mother. "Hello Jason, I'm
Ms. Willings your nurse. I kept an eye on you all through the evening, do you
remember anything?" "I think I would remember you nurse." I tried to smile,
my dad laughed. "Sounds like he's going to be just fine." "Yeah. he does have
some stitches that will be taken out today, and I want to keep him in over
night and keep another eye on him. Maybe to refresh his memory." "When can we
take him home?" "Tomorrow afternoon, is that okay with you Jason?" "Huh? oh
yeah it's fine."
I said trying to sit up but the pain stopped that from happening.
"Sweetheart, do you need anything from home?" "No, Mom, I'll be fine. You
don't have to worry." "Geez Jason, I know you don't like N*SYnc but did you
have to hire someone to shoot you in order to go home early?" "Very funny
Sandra, is that what happened?" "Laura, why don't you take Sandra to the
cafeteria for some hot chocolate, I'll be with you in a few minutes."
My Mom kissed my on the forehead, Sandra did the same and they left the room.
Me? I was still in a dazed. I was shot! and I lived? How did this happen?
"Jason, I know your probably very confused right now, but do you have any
idea what happened?" "Vaguely." "You were taking your sister and her friends
to see a concert they had won tickets for. We sorta forced you to drive them
there. Someone at the arena snuck a gun in how I have no idea, they took a
shoot and the bullet hit you in the back, it's a miracle your alive. I wanted
your Mom and sister to leave the room because you know how sensitive they
are." "My God! I can't believe this happened." "I can't either. I fell so
responsible because I practicaly forced you to take them," "no dad, don't
blame yourself, I don't blame you or Sandra. I'm just still confused, I don't
even remember going there." "You weren't their for long, in fact as soon as
the gun went off the band's bodyguard called the ambulance. I'm just so
grateful your all right Jason."
Did I did what I thought I saw? A tear was slowly coming out of my dad's eye.
Then by shock he leaned over and gave me a hug.
"I'm sorry for getting so emotional like this. Your my only son, I love you,
if anything ever happened to you, I don't know what I'd do!" "Dad, it's
allergist, the nurse said I'm going to be fine, I'm going home tomorrow, then
we can go back to normal, you can still take advantage of my youth."
He looked up at me and I smiled to let him know I was kidding.
"Just what ever you do, don't tell grandma about this, if she found out she
have the whole florist covered this room." "I won't tell her. You just get
better and we'll come first this tomorrow to come and get you."
"I'm sorry sir, but visiting hours are over." "It's okay Ms. Willings, I was
just about to leave. Good night son, if you need anything," "dad, it's only
going to be twelve hours from now, I think I can handle everything." I
smiled. Suddenly realizing what a cool guy my father is.
"Okay, okay, I'll stop mothering you, that's your mother's job. good bye
Jason." "Bye dad, and thanks."
Almost as soon after my dad left my eyes closed and I was asleep.

When I awoke the next morning Nurse Willings was there looking at my IV line.
"Morning Mr. Karrens." "Morning, but what good is it? And what's with the
Mister all of a sudden? I'm Jason, Mister is my dad."
She smiled and fluffed my pillow for me. "I'm sorry." "You know with the good
treatment I'm getting here, I may not want to go home, Specially since I have
a pretty nurse." "Your very naughty. But we have to stop flirting, I could
get in trouble. Your breakfast will be in very shortly, and I think there is
a basket of roses over by the sink, you might want to check those out."
"Thank you."
Oh great I thought to myself. I knew my grandmother would find out what
happened.
I tried to sit up in bed which surpassingly didn't hurt as much as it did
last night, those pain killers they give you must really work.
I hopped over to the sink there on the window was a gorgeous bouquet of
freshly picked roses. I had to smile. Even though I'm a guy, I still love
getting roses. I leaned over to smell them and noticed a card in the basket.
I picked it up and read what it said.

    Dearest fan,
    I'm sooo sorry what happened the other night
    The rest of send our deepest prayers in hopes you
    get better soon.
    We went to see the other night but you we're asleep,
    We all hope you get well soon and hope you aren't seriously
    injured. We want to apologize for our lack of security that was
    representing our concert, I know these roses isn't much but I hope
    they do the trick.
    Please get better soon, sign Justin, Chris, Joey, JC and Lance.

I was in shock! Complete in shock! I received roses from five guys I barely
knew, nevermind liked, I was just so overwhelmed.
That's when the nurse came back into the room.
"Oh good I'm glad you are up and walking." "Can you please tell me who came
in my room last night?" "Well, I was reluctant to let them in, because I knew
you we're sleeping, they we're so sweet though they looked a little unhappy.
I hope that isn't a problem." "No, I'm just shocked." "Well, I'm sure a good
breakfast will help that, now eat up and wash up, you need some X-rays done
in an hour."
I was still in a daze, about everything. The five guys, I couldn't stand or
care less about came and brought me flowers. I had no idea what to think, but
I knew breakfast was the last thing I needed.
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ch 2

    It wasn't soon after I started pulling food into my mouth when my mother
showed up.
"Hi sweetie!" she said kissing me on the head. "Hi mom." "Well it's good to
know a night in the hospital didn't interfere with your eating habits." "Hay
little sister, how you doing." "Better then you, I imagine." she playfully
poked my arm and I smiled at her.
"So I hear you we're trying to get friendly with the nurse, trying to get a
sponge bath?" "Sandra!" "Mom, relax, actually yeah the nurse is kinda cute,
but I think she unavailable." "Too bad, hay who brought you these?" said
Sandra walking over to the roses." "I swear son, grandma doesn't know about
it." "I know dad, they're from someone else," "Excuse me is this Jason
Karren's room?"
My dad suddenly got protective and businesslike and answered, "yes it is who
might," "Oh my God! I can't believe it!"
I was so embarrassed and surprised! "Sandra please don't make a scene!" My
mother said. She held out her hand to shake his.
"I'm sorry if I came at a bad time, I didn't mean to interrupt." "No it's
okay, you didn't interrupt anything, Mr., umm, Mr?" "Bass, Lance Bass." "Duh
mom get with the program, he's from N*SYnc! I'm Sandra Karren's obviously the
one you came here to see."
Sandra was never know for being shy around new people, never mind a famous
pop star who happened to be in the room.
"Actually Sandra, I think he's here to see your brother, come on let's go and
get something to eat and leave them alone."
Sandra reluctantly went my parents, I could tell she didn't want to leave.
"I'm sorry about my sister, she well she's a huge fan of yours." "Hay not a
problem at all. Actually she seems quite nice. I'm sorry the rest of the guys
couldn't make it with me, they are at an interview about what happened, but
they said they would try to stop by tonight." "Actually I'm going home this
afternoon, but I do appreciate it. and the flowers." "Well I'm so happy to
hear that you ok enough to leave today, you have no idea how worried I, we
all were. I just feel so guilty." "Whoa, whoa, whoa, guilty? You guys didn't
do anything." "Yeah, but you got hurt at our concert. We we're all really
nervous after it happened, we canceled the rest of the show and since then
all we thought was you. We feel responsible for this, and we all want to make
it up to you." "Mr. Bass, you really don't have," "Please call me Lance,
Better yet, James, that's what all my friends call me. And believe me, if you
accept what I'm about to offer, you'll take a lot of load off of five guys
minds." "You sound like a salesman."
He smiled for the first time since he walked in the room, and that's when I
noticed, those beautiful green eyes! they sparkled when he smiled. They were
hypnotizing to look at. It was like looking into a beautiful sea green ocean.
"I'm sorry." I shuddered. "I didn't mean to stare." "It's okay. They guys and
I want to treat you and family out to dinner. I know you need time to rest
and get suddled back into your own place, but we really would like to do this
for you and your family."
Again I was at lost for words.
"Really you don't have to." "I know, I want to." "Well I'm sure my mother
would love a night off from cooking and we would love to get away from it." I
laughed and so did he.
"And I'm sure Sandra wouldn't mind hanging out with you guys, I'll have to
talk to them and make sure though." "That's not a problem, we will b in town
for about a week, then it's back o Orlando for a break, but let me give you
my cell phone number and my hotel room number. Please feel free to call at
any time." "Thank you so much for the invite and for coming back." "No thanks
is necessary. If you'd like some company I can stay a while, I mean if you
don't mind." "of course not, I'd love for you to stay."
I buzzed the nurses station to ask her for a deck of cards and for two sodas.
A few moments later my family came trotting back in Sandra was pleased to
find Lance still here even though he was about to loose in badly in crazy
eights.
"Glad to see you again Sandra." He greeted her with a smile. "Same here! Hay
I don't mean to sound rude but is JC here also?" "No I'm sorry they are at an
interview. I know he would be upset to miss meeting you though."
That made her smile. I was glad his feeling weren't hurt when she asked him
that, my sister never thinks before she opens her mouth
"Mom, dad," "What is it dear, are you okay?" 'yes mom I'm fine, I was just
going to tell you that Lance has invited us to have dinner with him and the
rest of the guys when I'm feeling better." "Oh Mr. Bass, I'm really honored
but," "Please ma'am it will be our pleasure and It's Lance. the guy's and I
already talked it over and Jason has my phone number so when he's up to it
we'll be glad to send a limo to have you be picked up." "Wow a limo and
everything!" "You really shouldn't go through so much trouble Mr, I mean
Lance." "No trouble at all sir, I'm just glad your son is feel alright."
We chatted for a little while longer then it was time for me to get ready and
go home, sadly, Lance also had to go and meet with he rest of the guys for
sound check.
"Sandra, I'll be sure and have JC sign a picture for you." "Really?! Oh thank
you, thank you, thank you!" "Anything for a fan. Good-bye Jason, and remember
you can call me anytime." "Good-bye and thank you again."

The drive home was in silence, which was fine with me. I was starting to get
a headache. I still couldn't figure out why Lance would want to hang out with
me in a hospital no less. Sure he felt bad but I'm sure he had better things
to do. And I was also confused by the way I suddenly looked at him. Those
beautiful eyes and was it me or did I get a hard on just by looking at him?
Did he noticed?
I admit I haven't had many dates, I'm not that good looking, brown hair hazel
eyes my stomach is a little on the heavy side but I wouldn't say fat. But I
never had to question wether or not I was gay, that was just out of the
question all together.
But now I'm suddenly starring right into a face that was so beautiful, so
angelic, the way my sister looks at him! I was so embarrassed! So confused!
I grabbed the bottle of Advil from the bathroom pantry. I poured two out onto
my had and held my hand under the faucet for some water. I used some to
splash on my face and turned it off.
I was so exhausted I just wanted to crawl into bed.
I found myself turning the TV on and herd a familer voice on the screen.
"Actually, we take very serious actions when it comes to gun safety, as you
all may have known an incident had accord at one of our concerts the other
night, and we feel responsible for what happened to the families suffering
and well being. We just thank God that he wasn't hurt serverly  and that he
lived through it. In fact that why Lance isn't here now, he's at the hospital
visiting with him."
I looked at the TV screen. The owner of that voice was JC I was in so
disbelief of what I had just herd. Moments later my sister came rushing into
my room.
"Oh MYGODDIDYOHERWHJCSAD?" "Sandra please talk in English. and next time
knock, I could've been naked.
"Sorry." she blushed "Anyway, did you just hear what JC said?? He practically
mentioned you on TV! I think that is soo cool!" "Yeah it is sorta cool."
"Sorta? God what does it take to get you excited about something?" "Sorry, I
guess I'm still not feeling well." "Are you alright?" "Yeah, I just got a
headache. Would you mind turning the light off? Sorry to cut this short but
I'm really tired." "it's okay, I have friends to brag to anyway. Good night
Jason." "Night Sandra "

That night I had a dream. I was with Lance and we we're eating dinner
together alone. The restaurant was turned down low and were the only people
in there. I was laughing and so was he. He smiled at me and whispered
something, then something happened that never happened before he leaned over
to kiss me and I was leaning over to accept it. We we're interrupt with a
bullet shoot that's when I woke up."
I felt sweat pouring down my face. My God I just had the worse nightmare!
I crawled into the bathroom again to get some more Advil and went downstairs
for breakfast.
"Your famous Jason!" said Sandra "Morning to you to." "She right honey look."
My mom handed me the newspaper and there on the front page was an article
about the shooting.
"A local resident was shot during an N*SYnc concert Saturday April 29th.
policeman say that a security guard let someone in with a gun in armed.
Officer Kevin Lawrence has recently talked to the security guard and had put
him under arrest. He confesses in knowing about the gun when he let him into
the arena he knew his plan was to shoot one of the N*SYnc members but the
plan was interrupted when he accidently shot Jason Kerrens at age twenty-one
in the stomach. Jason was rushed to hospital moments after the bullet was
shoot N*SYnc's bodyguard himself has called the nine-one-one call. The gunman
however is still on the loose. and no trace of knowing who he is.'
"Oh my God! I have to call Lance, I want to make sure he's all right."
"Jason, he's fine, please just relax and have something to eat." "Mom this is
important I need to talk to him."
I couldn't think of anything else but the article and what it had said. He
was aiming for one of the N*SYNc members? but who? and Why?
So many thoughts where running through my head. I just had to call Lance, I
just hoped he was alright.