Date: Tue, 19 Jan 1999 18:46:54 PST
From: PM
Subject: Backstreet Boys 6th Member Part II

This is the second part. This is fiction, a personal fantasy about Nick
Carter from the Backstreet Boys, which is not meant to imply anything
about their true lives and sexualities.  But that is what we all hope for.
All the standard formalities apply. 
I am in no way intending to make Brian or B-Rok look bad; I admire and
respect him along with all of the BSB.

Backstreet Boys Sixth Member
Part 2

	We quickly got dressed and got our appearance in order.  Nick suggested
that we take separate limos.  I reluctantly agreed knowing that it would
be best for both of our public status.  You never know where the Globe
photographers are he joked.  I was escorted down to one end of the hall
by Bubba and Nick was escorted by another security guard to a different
exist.  I couldn't stand do leave him but I knew that in a matter of
minutes we would finally be together in his room.  I couldn't wait to be
alone with him.  As soon as I was in the limo we took off to the hotel.
I decided to put on the radio and of course there had to be a BSB song
on.  I could not keep my mind off of him.  I tried for the life of me
but every time I saw something it reminded me of Nick.  After what
seemed like hours I finally arrived at the hotel.  The driver drove to
the service door to let me out.  To my surprise there were no fans in
the back.  Bubba led me up to the BSB floor of the hotel were some how
Nick was already waiting for me.

	"How did you get up here so fast" I asked.
	"Well you know that going through the lobby is much faster," he said
with a cocky grin on his face.
	I decided to leave it at that.  He was fumbling around in his wallet
for his key card when Kevin emerged from his room.
	"You looking for this" Kevin asked.
	"If I wasn't why would we be standing out here" Nick snapped back.
Soon after realizing that he gave the key card to Kevin before the
concert.  He snatched it from Kevin's hands and opened the door.
	"Nick I need to talk to you for a few minutes" Kevin said.

	Knowing that Kevin was being serious he looked at me with a smile and
whispered in my ear "I'll be right back, why don't you go make yourself
comfortable."  With that he gave me a kiss on the cheek and went into
Kevin's room.  God, couldn't we have an hour to our selves?  I went in
his room and decided to scope out the room.  It was a fairly big suite.
It had a king size bed and a nice big shower and Jacuzzi in the
bathroom, both we would get a lot of use out of it, well I hope anyway.
The room had all of the usual shit in it, TV a couch few chairs, a desk
and other crap.  Not that any of you really care.  It had a balcony that
had a sweet view of the skyline.  I decided to go out on the balcony
until Nick came back.  As I was standing there I heard someone come into
the room and figured that it was Nick.  He put his hands around my waist
and began to kiss my neck.  Oh did that feel good.  I turned around to
kiss him and there was Brian.

	"What the fuck are you doing?" I asked with an intense anger building
inside me.
	"Relax man, I just wanted to talk to you for a minute.  I saw you
standing there and just wanted to give you a hug" Brian said sincerely.
	"Ok so talk," I said.

	He could tell that I was getting irritated and he got right to the
point.  "I know you have no idea why I'm acting the way I am.  I don't
now if any of the guys have told you but Nick and me used to go out for
a bit when we first started up.  Well I just don't want to see him get
hurt and I--I still have, well never mind.  I just want you to know
that you shouldn't get to attached to him.  Will be out of here tomorrow
night so enjoy it why it lasts."  With that he started to walk out of
the room.  I didn't know what to make of that little talk of ours.  I
could tell that Brian wanted to tell me something more.  Why did he have
to bring up that they were leaving tomorrow night?  I grabbed Brian's
arm and stopped his movement.  He looked at me like he was confused
about something.

	"Look, I didn't mean to sound or be like an ass before.  I'm sorry.  I
know that you came in here to tell me something else than I should enjoy
tonight.  So what is it?  I asked with a hint of sincerity and
curiosity.
	"Hey man that's cool, I know I might have given you a wrong impression
of me too.  I was just a little upset about what happened after the
concert.  What I really wanted to tell you was how special Nick is.  Not
just to me but to all of us.  Did he tell you about any of his past
relationships?
	"No, we really haven't had time to talk much about anything" I said.

	"Well your going to find out sooner or later from either him or the
other guys sooner or later.  After we got the band together and really
got to know each other Nick and I found out that we had something in
common.  It's really hard for us to find people to go out with when we
are on the road.  To make a long story short, we started to see each
other for awhile.  Then about a month a go or so our relationship began
to put a strain on ourselves, and the rest of the group.  So we decided
that now was not the time to be seeing each other in that way."

	I just stood there in shock.  I didn't know what to say.  I found that
today more so then in the rest of my life, previously and to come, that
I was at a loss of words.

	"So that is why I have been acting a little bit weird.  Nick and I are
really close friends now and just don't want him to get hurt.  All he
does is talk about you ever since he saw you in USA Today.  He was
thrilled to find out that you were going to be on the show this morning.
This is the happiest I've seen him in a long time.  I have to admit that
I was jealous of him. I sent you the clothes because I wanted you to
make a good impression on him." He said.

	Once again I was at a loss of words.  I managed to say, "I understand."
Then I gave him a hug.  I think that we finally understand each other.
	"Well, I think I better be going now.  See you at breakfast tomorrow
morning?" he asked.
	"Sure I'll be there," I said.
	"Great, be in room 989 at 8.  Good night"
	"Later" I responded.

I am really happy now that Brian and I worked everything out.  Not that
we had problems but now we know where each other is coming from.  I
needed to get a bit more comfortable so I took of my shoes, khakis and
shirt.  I could see my well-defined muscles in the moonlight and I
admired them until I saw Nick.  Nick came in the room quietly and shut
the door and locked it up.  I could sense that he was upset about
something but what I had no clue.

"What's wrong man" I asked him.
"Nothing, never mind I'll tell you tomorrow."  He said gazing off into
space.

	I figured that it would come out in time just as everything else seems
too.  I did not know what to do with Nick now; he seemed really upset.
I causally walked up to him and put my arms around him.  He didn't
flinch so I started to kiss his neck.  He turned around and our mouth
met with such a romantic kiss.  I wanted to savior the moment forever.
As I continued to kiss him, I unbuttoned his shirt and dropped it to the
floor, revealing his well-defined pecs and abs.  I slowly let my hands
once again explore every inch of his upper body.  I knelt down and undid
his pants.  I could tell the minute that his mammoth 8 incher poked
through his boxers that Nick was feeling better.  I removed his boxers
and started to continue where we had previously left off.

	I licked his shaft with the up most care trying to give Nick as much
pleasure as I could.  I swirled my tongue around his head and Nick
started to moan.  I looked up and saw that his eyes were closed and he
had a face of pure pleasure.  What an experience!  I never thought in a
million years that I could give my dream boy as much pleasure as I was
doing at the moment.  It's something that you will never forget in your
whole lifetime.  I started to suck on his nice tool now.  I was getting
into it now, and was sampling the sweet juices of his pre-cum.

	I momentarily let his cock slip out of my mouth to suck on his two
gorgeous balls.  I took one at a time in my mouth giving it a swell bath
in my mouth.  I could tell he was enjoying this by the way his body was
quivering.  I went back to work on his dick.

	"Oh man, I'm--I'm getting...close" Nick tried to say in between his
heavy gasps of breath.

	I continued to suck him with all the force I had left in me.  He was
breathing heavier and he started to tense up.  I knew any second I would
be drinking his cum.  Then he let out the loudest moan of ecstasy that I
thought the whole hotel would hear.  He sent bombardments of his sweet
cum in my mouth.  I tried as best as I could to swallow it all but a few
streams dribbled down from the corners of my mouth.  He looked at me
with those eyes of his and he licked his cum off of my face.  I leaned
over and started to passionately kiss him.  Our tongues were battling,
and it was sending shots of pure pleasure down our bodies.

We continued kissing for what seemed like hours.  Then we resided and
just ended up lying in each other's arms.  I was in heaven.  I can't
even think of words to explain what I'm feeling right now.  All I can
say that this is the best moment in my young life and probably my whole
life.  I never want it to end.

	"Gregg" Nick said timidly.
	"Yeah what is it baby" I replied.
	"Can I make love to you?"
	"I would love that" I whispered

	I knew better then to tell him that he was going into uncharted
territory.  I have some experience in the sucking department but my anal
experiences are lacking behind a bit.  I guess I was saving myself for
the right guy, and I have defiantly found him!  He got up and went in
the bathroom.  I could hear him nock over stuff as he was looking for
something.  Obviously lube or condoms.  I positioned my self on my back
on the bed.  I wanted to see his face while he was fucking me.  He came
back with some lube, which I was relived by.  I could see the excitement
in his eyes, and I could sense that he could see my fear.  He generously
lubed up my hole and his dick.  He slowly entered two fingers up my ass.
He didn't say anything to I thought everything was ok.  Then I felt his
cock head enter my ass.  He worked his way in slowly.

The pain was almost unbearable, but I knew that the pain would be
followed by intense pleasure.  Nick was all the way in me.  He began to
move out and in at a leisurely pace, I think he knew that it was my
first time and he wanted to be gentle.  Whatever the reason the pain
subsided and was replaced with pure pleasure.  As I loosened up Nick
began to move in and out a little faster.  I couldn't help my self and
started moaning, I looked up at his face and he eyes were shut.  You
could tell that he was in pure heaven.
	"Your so fucking tight, I think I'm going to blow my load any minute"
Nick said.
	"What ever you do DON'T stop.  I want you to blow your load in my ass
Nick" I replied

	We were both breathing heavily and Nick was especially working up a
sweat.  I have never been hotter in my life then I was there at that
moment.  Soon after I could feel his cock swell in me then it was
followed by waves of hot cum.  That sent me spewing my load all over my
chest.  That's not bad for not even touching your self through the whole
experience.  Nick soon collapsed on me.  I knew he was real tired, after
all he had just done a concert no more then 3 hours ago.

We laid there for 15 minutes totally exhausted.  After I built up enough
energy I rolled Nick over next to me and cuddled in his arms.  He
drifted asleep soon afterward.  I couldn't help myself but watch him
sleep.  I know it sounds weird but he was so peaceful and beautiful just
sleeping there.  I couldn't keep myself awake anymore and was asleep in
minutes.  I had sweet dreams just about Nick.

	I don't know what time it was when a cool fall breeze woke me up gently
flowing over my body and what sounded to be like someone crying.  I was
a bit confused for a moment when I awoke.  I had a hard time remembering
if it was a dream of if it was real.  I looked around the room and saw
the wind blowing the curtains on top of the balcony doors.  I felt on
the floor for my boxers and grabbed the first thing that I could find.
Luckily they were boxers so I slipped them on.  I got up and headed out
onto the balcony.  The sun was rising just as I walked out.

	"How often do you get to watch a sunrise" Nick asked me.
	"Not too often.  But it is really beautiful this morning" I replied.
	"Ya" he said.  I could tell that something was really wrong.  It just
dawned on me that Nick and Kevin must have had a fight or something last
night.  I went over to him and put my arms around him, but he flinched
away.  As he moved to sit in a chair on the balcony I noticed that he
had tears rolling down his face and his eyes were blood shot.
	"What wrong Nick?  You can tell me baby" I said with sincerity and
compassion.  He didn't reply.  He did not even look me in the eyes.
"Please Nick.  Please tell me what wrong damit!"

	He stopped sobbing and said "You know what's wrong.  You really want to
know what's wrong.  We are leaving this afternoon, and I've fallen in
love."  He started to cry again.  No, one in my whole life had ever told
me that they were in love with me.   I tried to hug him but he pushed me
away.  I felt so helpless; I had no idea how to comfort him.  I just sat
in the corner and started crying every time I looked at him.  Finally he
got up.  He had this look of burning anger inside of him, just ready to
be released into the wild.

	"Get the fuck out of here" Nick yelled.
	"What?"
	"You heard me get the fuck out of here, go home, go anywhere.  Just
leave!" his voice was getting louder by the second.
	"Come on Nick, lower your voice before you wake all the guys up.  Just
talk to me man.  You don't want to kick me out." I said very calmly.

	He started to yell at me and he was actually becoming physical trying
to remove me from his room.  I knew I could take him any day, but for
both of our sakes I just let him push me around a bit.  He was crying
and he was in rage.  "Get out of here" he screamed at me.  He pushed me
to the door of the room.  I turned to open the door, and when I got it
open he pushed me out into the hallway and then slammed the door shut.
I was thrown out on to the floor of the hall and hit my head on the wall
with nothing on except for his boxers.  I was stunned and just laid
there sobbing.  I heard a door open but I was too devastated to even
move to see who it was.

	"Oh Gregg, what happened man" Kevin asked me.  All I could do was
manage to look at his face.  He came over and tried to help me stand up.
But my heart felt so heavy, like it was busted in a million pieces.  My
knees were shaking when I tried to walk, so Kevin just picked me up and
threw me over his shoulders and walked to his room.  He put me on the
bed and then put the covers on me.  I don't know why I didn't get up and
leave; maybe it was something to do with how much I have fallen in love
with Nick.  I knew I should tell Kevin what happened but I couldn't even
talk.  The most I could do was breath.  I just cried my eyes out and
soon drifted into a hazy sleep.  I was stirred from my sleep when I felt
someone running their fingers through my hair.  I opened my eyes and saw
Kevin.  I finally understood why they say Kevin was a father type person
in the BSB.  He wasn't doing anything special but that little show of
affection really made me feel better.

	"Kevin?"
	"You don't have to talk about it now Gregg" Kevin responded sounding
like a father.
	"I know but I have to tell you.  Nick threw me out of his room and told
me never to come back" was all I could muster up to say.  Before balling
my eyes out again.
	"Look, I don't know you two fell for each other.  It really sounds like
you love him.  But it is impossible for any of us, including you, to
maintain any relationship between the six of us other then being
friends.  I think it would benefit everyone here if you just stayed away
from him.  I want you to talk to someone this morning."	"But Kevin" I
replied
	"But nothing.  There are some things are just going to be the way they
are.  You can't do anything to change it.  That's life.  I put some
clothes on the couch for you.  I have to go to our morning meeting now.
I'll have someone come over and take you to see our manager" he mumbled
as he walked out of his room.

	That was real comforting I thought to myself.  I got up and went to the
liquor cabinet in the corner of the room.  I was so depressed that I
pored my self a nice big glass of strait vodka.  After I was done with
that I went and took a hot shower.  I was beginning to fell a little
better.  Mostly because of the alcohol but I felt like shit every time I
thought about him.  I put on the clothes and I decided that I would just
try to sneak out of the hotel and go home.  Well everything did not work
the way I had planned.  As I was waiting for the elevator, someone from
the BSB management came running towards me.  He told me that we should
go to the bar and talk for a bit.  I knew that after I was done with
that I could finally go home.  We didn't really talk that much.  He
ordered me a rum and coke to drink while he talked to me.  I didn't
refuse since I thought it would calm me down.  Actually he ended up
giving me a lot to drink.  I think that he was trying to ease my pain
and get me out of there before anyone else gets upset.  I have to admit
that I had completely forgotten about Nick at that moment.

	We were in the one of the hotel's restaurants that they closed
exclusively for BSB use.  I heard voices of some guys coming from out in
the lobby.  I didn't pay much attention to them even if I wanted to.  I
signed the papers that the guy put in front of me.  I laughed because my
signature looked really sloppy.  Then the door to restaurant opened and
there was Kevin, Howie, AJ, and Brian pulling an emotionally distressed
Nick into the restaurant.  When Kevin's eyes met mine I could tell that
I was not supposed to be in that room.  When Nick saw me he just started
to break down again.  I started to get up knowing that I needed to talk
to him one on one.  He saw me getting up and he turned to walk away

	"Nick, Nick wait up a minute will you," I said calling to him.

	I got up to my feet and tried to go after him.  I was so intoxicated
that I began to fall backward.  All I could say was "Oh shit!"  I saw
Nick look at me and then I felt my head hit something.  I think I
blacked out or at least that is what I saw.  I knew that I fell to the
floor and probably hit my head on the floor or something.  I couldn't
really make out what was happening to me.  I heard all these voices
around me, but I was unable to make out who they were.  I was feeling
really tired and that's all I remember.

	The management guy was going crazy.  He didn't know what to do and
started to hyperventilate.  Kevin yelled to the security to get a path
back up to their rooms.  Everyone was in a state in panic because no one
knew what was going on.  Then Kevin picked me up and everyone followed
us through the kitchen and up the service elevator to the BSB floor of
the hotel.  They didn't really know what happened but hey could
obviously tell from my breath that I had been drinking.

	I was coming in and out of consciousness.  I woke up for I minute and I
was in an elevator.  I tried to look around but I couldn't see anything.
All I could feel was someone holding me in his arms.  Then I was out.
Then I began to see images of the first time I met Nick.  His beautiful
smile, and his gorgeous eyes.  Then total blackness.