Date: Mon, 18 Nov 2002 16:16:28 -0800 (PST) From: JACK BROWN Subject: brian and jack 9 WARNING: the following story contains material that might not be appropriate for all readers. So if you are not allowed to read this, then don't do it!. The following is a fictional story containing guy to guy sex and fantasy's of being with a celebrity, the celebrity being Brian Littrell from the Backstreet Boys. I am a fan of theirs and in no sense is any of this story true. Its just a little fantasy. You must be 18 or of legal age in your state to read this. So read on and I hope you like it, it is my first time writing a story like this so I hope you all like it. ******* well, here we are again. I know I have not posted any chapters in quite a few time, but I had been actually very busy, but it seems like I may have some free time now, so I'll get back to posting, I'll probably post once a week again. Thanks to all of you who took time out of your lives to drop a line and to check on me, that was very sweet, especially Jared and Jake. I think that in this chapter I will try to summarize what has happened to Jack's life in a few months of work, so that in the next few chapters, I can bring the story back to present time. Anyway, enough chat about Jack's life, now onto the story... ******* Without realizing, months had passed by really quickly. September, October, and November went by in a blink. During those months I had been working very hard and had been traveling around a lot. With N*SYNC, I had gone to LA to shoot two videos and I also had the chance to see an old friend of mine Wade Robson. We had met a few years before while I was working for Britney. It was very nice to see him again and to have a nice chat. I had also gone to England to do some promotion for their celebrity album. Unfortunately we spent just a couple of days there and they didn't do as much promotion as the fans wanted, therefore, on the week of release, their album charted at #10 or 9 I think... I had also gotten to know the guys better and I got along with them really well. Lance, Chris and Joey were really friendly and I enjoyed spending time with them, but I loved hanging around with Justin and Jc. They were really friendly and when you were with them you just couldn't stop laughing, it was like joke, joke, joke... I also loved going shopping with Jc, he had the most outrageous taste in clothes. We had such a great time together... On the other hand, with the BSB's I had also spent a lot of time. I had gotten to know them better and I worked very hard with them too. I got along with Nick very well since both of us loved video games, and when we went on tour, we spent quite a lot of time playing video games. I loved going out with AJ and Howie, they always went to the best clubs in town, the three of us loved dancing and we had very good times. With Brian, well...things were fine but not perfect. I did spend a lot of time with him, but I was not exactly "with" him. I would have to be working a lot and running around with designs and outfits, so I couldn't spend quality time with him. Although we shared the same room every time we went on tour or to another place to do some promotion, by the time we arrived late at night, none of us wanted to do anything but sleep. While we were on the bus, we did share a few moments together and we talked a lot, but it just didn't feel the same. I could feel that we were starting to drift apart a little bit and I certainly didn't want that to happen. I hoped that during our Christmas break I would be able to go on holiday somewhere with him so that we could catch up on each other's life. Although in the little time we did have for ourselves I had told him about my life and about Tom. Tom had been my first 'true' love if we could call it that. My brother John set me up in a blind date with him and we immediately clicked. We were so much alike and we had the same taste in clothes. Since both of us were models at the time, we got along really well. Let me tell you a little bit about my life. I was born in England while my parents were there on holidays. My mother always told me it was the most amazing experience she ever had. They were on holidays visiting London, and in the middle of their holidays I was born. Anyway, I was raised there and I studied there until my parents died. It was a huge shock for me, and my brothers, John and Paul, decided to take me and my younger brother Jacob to New York and since then we have been living here. Although my brother Jacob went back to England a few years later... How I became a model...well, that's a different story. It actually happened while I was studying high school. I was just looking through a magazine and found an advert looking for young fresh people to do some modeling. I thought it could be a good idea and I could be able to have some fun; I was going to apply for it, but in the end I chickened out. My brother John, as nosy as he always is, saw the advert and applied for it for me. He sent a picture of me and practically enclosed all the information about me that he could find. Anyway, I was at home one day and then doorbell rang, and when I opened a door I found a great looking guy looking at me and told me that my application had been accepted!. I was dumfounded as I didn't know what he was talking about. He explained briefly and then I assumed that my brother John had applied for it. Well, that's how I started modeling and after a few months I was loving what I did. The only problem was that I didn't have any time for anything else and so I dropped out of school. While I was modeling I met Tom and I guess I had a crush on him but I was afraid to ask him out, and that's when my brother John stepped in again, and told him about me. We spent quite a few months together until I decided to do something else apart from modeling. I loved dancing and I was looking for a job as a dancer as a consequence I auditioned for a dancer for Britney Spears. Fortunately, I got called back and soon I was with touring all around the US with her. My relationship with Tom started being very distant, I was always on the road with Britney and he was also doing some modeling somewhere else. We never saw each other and I guessed that's what led to what happened later on... Months flew by really quickly and we hardly saw each other. I called him but I couldn't get through to him and he never returned my calls. I was really getting worried about our relationship so I took a couple of days off and flew to where he was staying. I went into the set where he was doing a shoot. The set was quite empty and almost every body was leaving. I asked a woman if she knew where I could find Tom and she told me he was at the dressing room. I walked over to the dressing room and I was shocked as I opened the door. I found Tom kissing man and telling him that he loved him. In that moment my heart broke in two. I just slammed the door behind me and left. Tom tried to explain what had happened that night and although I was really hurt I decided to give him another chance. Deep in my heart I knew that our relationship was not going to last that much, because a relationship is based on trust, commitment, love and respect for one another. You always want what's best for your couple and you'd never do anything to hurt him. But I fooled myself believing that Tom was different, unfortunately he wasn't... Our relationship was never the same after that day. He would flirt with every guy he possibly could and God knows what else he did with those guys... Anyway, one day we went to a bar and he immediately spotted some old friends. He excused himself and went over to them to say hello. I went he went over to say hello to them. I went over to the bartender and asked for a drink, then a guy came up to me and we started chatting. Tom must have noticed because he immediately came over, grabbed me by the arm and then dragged me out of the bar. Once outside, we started arguing about what had happened inside and the fight was starting to heat up, so I decided to walk away, but he must have been very angry, because he just grabbed my arm again and as I turned around, he slapped me. I was as stunned as we was, but I didn't return the hit, that's when I decided that our relationship was completely over. He tried to apologize for it, but that was a thing I couldn't forgive him for. I was completely hurt and bummed, so I decided to focus back on my work. I flew back with Britney to continue working Months passed by and I got more or less over Tom. Britney and I became really good friends and we went out a couple of times just as friends. Of course, the tabloids thought that I was sleeping with her and all that stuff. I cleared up the rumors immediately and told the press that I was gay. One day while we were on tour, Britney's designer came over and asked me for advice, I was not sure why he was asking me and then I gave him a few ideas that came to my mind. Britney loved the new designs and asked the designer where he had gotten those ideas from. He told her about me and she was very surprised. We talked about her outfits and I gave her a few ideas and she totally loved them. In a blink, I was Britney's designer and I was completely loving it. I would design and make her outfits all by myself. I worked with her for a long time until I realized that I preferred designing men's clothes. I made a few trips around the world the world to get new ideas for my designs and also made some galas to show people my designs. Britney and I stayed in touch all of the time and she was very supportive and helped me in everything she could. During one of my trips to a gala, I met Brian and from then on, you know everything...My life has changed in so many ways that I can't hardly believe it, first I was just a common student, then a model, then dancer and finally a designer! I can't believe how much God has blessed me. Anyway, enough of my life, let's get back to what has happened in the past few months... My brothers John and Paul were still living with me and we still had fun together, when I was around. When I accepted this job, I had no idea what I was getting into. I really loved doing it but I was really hard work. I had to be designing and making outfits all the time, which had to be completely different for each band. Daniel helped me a lot and from all the time we had been sharing, we had become really good friends. During the first days of December I was going to go on tour with N*Sync and after that I would have the remaining of the month and the beginning of January left to myself and Brian... "come on Brian, we're gonna be late" I said as I looked at the staircase. I was waiting for him to come down from my room. "I'm almost ready" he yelled I just smiled and walked to the door. I put all my suitcases in the booth of my car and I started the engine. I put my sunglasses on and I waited for Brian in the car, because that was the only thing that I can's be seen without, my sunglasses. After a few minutes he ran out of the house and jumped in the car. "missed me?" he said as he caught his breath "you bet I did" I said as I drove away. We were heading towards the photo shoot that Brian and the guys were doing and after that I was going to go to the airport to go on tour for a week or two with N*Sync. "so have you thought where you want to go for our holidays?" I asked "mm, not really, I can't think of any good place to go" Brian said as he turned to look at me "have you?" "well, I was thinking of going somewhere warm, a beach maybe" I answered "Maybe we can go to...Cancun or Hawaii" "that's such a great idea" I said and smiled "I'd love to go to Cancun" "the guys and I went there a year ago and we had the most amazing time" Brian said and he smiled. I noticed that he was happy about the whole idea of doing a trip abroad. "I'll make all the arrangements ok" I told him "no, don't worry, I'll make them while you're gone and by the time you come back, I'll have everything sorted out" he said and smiled "I love you Brian" I said and leaned over to kiss him "I love you more" he kissed me back "but keep your eyes on the road" I immediately paid attention to the road in front of me and we both laughed. "by the way, when you make the arrangements..."I started "yes?" "well B, could we go on holiday after Christmas" I asked "sure, why?" he asked quizzed "because I always spend Christmas at home with my brothers, and we usually have family and friends coming over to visit us" I said hoping that Brian wouldn't get mad. "it's ok, we can leave for our holidays a few days later " Brian said happily "thanks for understanding Bri" "no problem shaky" he said and laughed "shaky?" I asked "yes" "why shaky?" I asked again "well, it's the way you dance" "oh, I see" I said and laughed too. We arrived at the studio after a few minutes and we stepped out of my car. We went inside and everybody were already waiting for us. I really hated being late, but Brian was sometimes a bit lazy to get up, so I practically had to drag him off bed and into the shower. By the time Brian was ready we were always late. "finally Brian" Nick said relieved as he looked at us. "what took you so long?" Howie said worried "the usual for sure" AJ said "yes, he got up late and Jack had to drag him off bed" Kevin said and we all laughed. "I admit it, that's what happened" he said lowly and everyone were still laughing. He looked at me with puppy eyes and I just hugged him and kissed him. "don't worry, I still love you" I told him "so do I" he said as he kissed my lips. "time to work" Michael said. "ok, I'm dying to see the new outfits" Nick said excited "yes, so am I" Howie said. "bring them here!" AJ said enthusiastically "in a minute you'll see them" I replied as I walked away from them. They went into one of the sets. I went over to where Daniel was and I said hello to him. I asked him if the outfits were ready and he said yes and pointed at them. I looked at all the outfits and felt pleased with my work. I had spent quite a lot of time making them and designing them and the outcome was excellent. I waved at the guys and told them to come over. All of them immediately came over and looked at me "well, here are your outfits" I said as I started to hand them their outfits. From the look in their faces, I could see that they loved the outfits. "I like this white one" Nick said as he pointed at one of Brian's pants. "don't worry Nick" I said as I handed him a pair of white pants "I knew you were going to like them, that's why I made you these" "thanks a lot J" Nick said as he looked at them "you're the best". I just smiled. The photo shoot went smoothly without any complications. It must have been around 4 when the whole thing ended. Daniel and I were just putting all the outfits aside and Daniel was going to send them to dry clean afterwards. Brian was sitting in one corner looking quite tired and he was just resting I guess...All of the other guys had already gone home, but before they came over to me and said goodbye. By the time we finished clearing up, it was 5 o'clock. Daniel left and took the outfits with him. As I watched him go I thought about how lucky I was to have him, he helped me with everything and without his help I'd probably had gone crazy long time before. I turned around and Brian was sleeping already. He looked so cute just sitting there on a chair sleeping. I walked over to him and then I kissed his lips. "wake up sleeping beauty" I said and smiled "hi beautiful" he said as he opened his eyes. "let's get out of here" I said as I helped him up. "ok" We walked out the studio and we walked back to my car. We hopped in and then I drove away. "at what time you've got to be at the airport?" Brian asked as he looked at his watch "I have o be there at 7:30" I said as I noticed that it was only 5 o'clock "do you want to go and get something to eat" Brian asked as he rubbed his stomach. "oh, absolutely" I said I drove around until we found a nice restaurant. It was very crowded, but John always said that the food was really good. We went in and the waiter immediately led us to our table. He gave us the menu and we decided what we were going to eat. "I'm so happy we're here" Brian said as he put his hand on top of mine and rubbed it slightly. "I know, so am I" I answered and smiled "listen Bri..." I started and he looked at me worried "I know that during the last few months we haven't been as close together as I wanted us to be, but I promise you I will make it up to you somehow" I told him and a tear escaped from the corner of my eye. "don't worry shaky, I'm fine" he said and smiled at me. "yes but..." "no buts" he said as he kissed my hand. We had a really great dinner. I was really glad that I could spend a nice dinner with Brian. I looked at Brian while he was talking to me about something, I can't even remember what it was, I was just lost in my thoughts and looking at him. I was really happy that I had finally found the love of my life. I guess me and Brian were meant to be together... "I have to give you something" Brian said as he retrieved something from his inner coat pocket. I was just waiting to see what it was. "here" he said as he grabbed my hand and put a ring around my finger. "Oh Brian it's beautiful" I said excited as I looked at the ring. It was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen, it was made out of gold and it had a few diamonds around it. "this is to show you that I love you" Brian said as he leaned over and kissed me on the lips. "so this makes me your official boyfriend?" "well, yes if you want to see it that way" Brian said and smiled. "thanks Brian" I said "I love you so much" Right then, a photographer came over and told us to get closer. Brian happily hugged me and the photographer took a picture of us. "you are Jack Brown aren't you?" he said as he looked at me "yes" I answered "and you are Brian Littrell" the photographer said "yes I am" Brian said "this is going to be on the front page tomorrow, bye" the photographer said excited and left. Brian and I just stayed there looking at each other and then we laughed. We had no idea that it was a man from the press. I just thought it was the restaurant photographer. We finished dinner and then we left the restaurant. At that moment I was so happy about my life, I was deeply in love with Brian and so was he with me. I really felt that we were really getting somewhere. Brian asked me if he could drive this time and I agreed. I looked at my watch and it was already 7:00 so I told Brian if it was ok if he took me to the airport. He just smiled at me and then he drove away. There was a lot of traffic at that time, and we were taking quite a lot of time to get to the airport. The whole time I couldn't stop smiling, it was like a permanent smile or something "why are you smiling so much" Brian asked smiling too "I don't know, I just can't stop smiling, I guess I'm just happy" I told him as I faced him. "you make me so happy Jack" "you make me very happy too Bri" We arrived at the airport at about 7:27 or something like that. Brian parked the car outside and we quickly got out of the car. Brian wanted to come with me and see me take off, so we both grabbed my suitcases and ran inside. We ran across the airport until we reached the gate that we were looking for. The guys had already boarded the plane, the only ones outside were JC and Justin and I was the only one who was missing. "wait for me!" I yelled as I ran across the room. Brian followed me. They turned to see me and I could see that they were relieved that I had made it just on time. A man came over and grabbed my suitcases and took them away. "I thought you were not going to make it" Jc said as he came over and hugged me. "I'm sorry, I lost track of time" I said as I panted "hi Brian" Jc and Justin told him as they gave each other a hand shake. "hi Jc, hi Justin" Brian said as he caught his breath. "we've better get going Jack" Justin said as he started to board the plane. I just nodded. "well, Bri, I'll see you in a few days" I said as I hugged him. "ok, I'll get the holidays sorted out while you're gone, ok?" "sure beautiful" I said as I kissed his lips. He kissed me back. "bye bri" I said as Jc and me boarded the plane. I followed him into the plane. I turned one last time to see Brian and I blew his a kiss and he just smiled. Once inside the plane, I could see that everyone was ready to take off. Joey and Chris were sitting together talking, they looked up to see me and said hello and I did the same. Lance was sitting alone at first, but then Jc went over to sit with him. Justin was sitting alone looking at me, so I figured I would have to sit with him, which I didn't mind at all. "are you ok?" Justin asked "sure, why?, don't I look ok?" I asked "no, I mean yes, no, yes...". I laughed at Justin since I knew he had no idea what he was talking about. "are you laughing at me?" he asked in a serious tone "no" I said but I couldn't control my laughter. He grabbed me and started to tickle me, I started laughing really hard and noticed that I was moving around. I was laughing so hard that I was crying, but Justin didn't stop tickling me. "stop" I said laughing "you give up" "yes I do!" I said laughing. By the time he let me go I was so close to his face that I could feel his breath on my face. He leaned over even more and he kissed me. We kissed for a second or two and then I noticed what we had done and I got up and sat properly on my seat. He must have sensed that I didn't feel comfortable, and he went back to his seat and didn't say a word. The plane took off and we just sat there in silence. After a while I thought I had to talk to Justin about it, maybe he was just mistaking our friendship with something else. "listen Justin, I don't know what happened, but I think we need to talk about it" I said I turned to face him and noticed that he was completely asleep. I just smiled 'maybe later we'll talk about it' I thought. Then I leaned my head back a little and went back to my thoughts...What the hell just happened? I love Brian really much and we're very happy together, why did I let Justin kiss me?, I really need to know what is going on and make things clear to him so that no one gets hurt... ********* Well, that was chapter 9, I hope you liked it as much as I did. I know some of you have sent me some ideas for the plot and as you may have noticed, some were included in this chapter and some other ones will be included in the next few chapters. Keep writing and if you have any ideas for the plot, send them in and I may even include some of them... anyway, bye for now and see you in chapter 10! Remember, enjoy life and always be yourself!!! Bye :) write to: jack_ga_2002@yahoo.com