Date: Sat, 12 Aug 2000 19:22:06 -0400
From: zelgadyss@juno.com
Subject: Brian's Seven Sea's of Loneliness 25&26

OK this is my first time at a story like this, I have read many from the
archive and loved them. This is about ME, MY life, and MY fantasies with
Brian Littrell and the BackStreet Boys. I am in no way implying anything
about the sexuality of the BackStreet boys, and if your not 18 GIT! Enjoy
and please send mail to Zelgadyss@juno.com with good or bad comments on the
story. Just remember its my first time, and any resemblance to other
stories I am sorry it's coincidental and quite on accident.


Part 25: Well here marks the fact that I have 24 other chapters of a saga,
Over a year going. I want to thank all of you whom have written, and the
friendships I have made thru the story. This story has done more than I
could ever have imagined on more levels than I could have even hopped
for. I never honestly thought I'd get past part 3, and I know I'm not
regularly updating as much as I wish I could be, BUT the past is gone, the
present is now, and the future to be told. Life has a funny way of bringing
together old friends, for one reason or another. So among other things I
should thank Gracie (WallPaper Smurf, who I am now submitting an official
change of name form on her behalf to make her drunken flirty smurf..you had
to be there to understand). She was there thru what seemed were going to be
my last hours. She was there to pick the pieces of my life up with me, and
helped me to see a few things in life. Also Em, you gave me a reason to
fight to stay here in Mass, when I was ready to give up and leave for
Georgia, and start over. Had I not stayed I'd have never known what it was
like to be in love. Or I might, but I know now, and even tho the love is
unreturned at this moment in time, I know I would give my life for this
man. I don't know how I fell in love with him, but I did. And one day I
hope he will see it too. For the moment he has what I wished him, and that
was happiness. I always knew he could do better than me as a boyfriend, and
I am thrilled to say he has. He found a very good guy from what I have
heard, with killer looks and a heart of gold. I wish him eternal love, even
if its not with me. I also learned a few friends who weren't really friends
to me, but hurt me in ways no one else ever could. And to you Britney I
wish you maturity. I wish you the ability to grow up and see all the pain
your lies have created, and the life... my life.. Which 3 times now you
almost destroyed with but a few words.

You will never know the heartache, or pain you have given. And I wish you
never have to.  Even if you are using your "gifts" badly to harm others, it
will all come back in time, and I hope you survive it. I also hope you
never run into Sherry or Gracie, for they will not forgive you as easily as
I have. James, you too are a lifesaver. What color I dare not ask, what
flavor I need not know. All I need to know is you were there, and I am
doing a bit better. I am so sorry I scared you and all the people around
you. I don't know how, or if I will make it thru all this, but I know as
alone as I feel, even now I have a place to turn.  Jim, what can I
say...We've seen it all between us, and we will probably see more bad
before good. Just remember the eye's from your dreams, and they will guide
you to the riches in life. Dani.. well you saw part of this already. I can
never stop laughing when I see how closely related our stories are, right
down to the music we've used in the stories, but I have one thing to say
"HA!!! I used "You'll Be In My Heart" first so NAY!" And to anyone reading
this feel free to write me, I love emails.Without further procrastination,
here ya go..



Brian's 7 Sea's of Loneliness
part 25 by Jon


	Jon stepped out of the Limo, and awaited the guys to all step out,
leading them to the elevator. He held the doors open for them and stepped
into the elevator himself. He stared at the doors, as if it were the most
interesting thing in the world at the moment.  Kevin eventually placed his
hand on Jon's shoulder and squeezed it a bit, and Jon craned his neck to
look at Kevin. He saw the pained expression on Brian's face, as well as the
looks of sure bewilderment on the faces of the other guys. "Jon" Kevin
started as Jon turned his head to face Kevin "Are you OK, did you get done
what needed to be done at your place?" Jon half smiled at the concern in
Kevin's voice, as he looked over at Brian a bit then back to Kevin, "Yeah
Kev..Mr. Richardson, I did...or as well as I could.  Besides much of that
doesn't matter any more. Things have changed, as time often does to things,
and" in a sarcastic half mocking way "I don't care anymore so I'm told. And
since I am the hired hand, the boss is always right. Any thing else Sir?" I
could see Brian tense at the statement of my not caring as it hit him that
I heard what he said. My voice was just short of lawyer trying to be
professional, I was after all their employee and now I was trying to act
out the part. Courteous and polite, speaking only when spoken to, and short
to the point answers were the common practice.
	Soon the elevator opened and I motioned them out, Getting another
Hug from Nick, and Kevin as they left. Brian went to hug me, and I stepped
away before he could.  Soon the doors closed after all the guys exited and
were off to their rooms. Kevin called back before he closed the door "Jon I
still need to talk to you tomorrow morning after your shift please. It's
important, breakfast is at it's usual time." I shrugged as I heard him and
called back "That's great Sir, when should I grab that meeting before or
after?" I asked, knowing he was hinting joining them for breakfast, but I
couldn't face them all at once with Brian and discuss all this. Kevin was
closing his door automatically thinking I was joining them for breakfast
and turned around with a look of shock...and almost exasperation looking at
me. He really hadn't expected to be turned down that way, but he tried once
more to get me to join them for breakfast "How about during the breakfast
Jon?" The others were watching from their doors, and I saw a few tears
cover Brian's eyes, and he went to his room, and Nick was looking over
Kevin's shoulder to see what was going to happen. "Before or after
breakfast Sir? Shall I assume after so I don't disturb your rest?" I said,
still trying to keep a professional voice. And once more Kevin's look
became that of worried, and almost defeated "Please join us FOR breakfast."
Kevin said it, almost whispered, but I heard him regardless.
	AJ and Howie were amazingly quiet, no doubt due to the fact that
things had changed so drastically in the past hour, to where they weren't
sure quite how to react other than to just be there and see what
happens. "I'm sorry Sir" I said to Kevin "I don't think that would be
appropriate, but if you wish to set up a meeting, or if I have done
something wrong, I would be happy to have a meeting after lunch sometime
when I wake up, or before dinner and before my shift..tho tonight is your
last night here of work, and 3 days till you leave. If you want the meeting
you need to tell me now tho, because if I am coming before dinner, I need
to leave my house early, and if I am staying late I need to plan on what's
going on." Kevin looked defeated, he had no idea what to say or do, and
Nick called over his shoulder "Jon please join us for breakfast..please?" I
closed my eyes, I knew I was about 1 minute from breaking down, and I
refused to let them see my tears, and I spoke, my voice very shaken and
distressed, at a last stitch effort to keep myself together "I'm sorry Sir
I can't it wouldn't be appropriate. Sleep well, and I will see you
tomorrow." With that Nick got a look of rejection on his face, and Kevin
hugged him and escorted him into their room. AJ and Howie closed the door
to their room, and Brian's door was closed throughout most of the
conversation.
	As soon as I heard all the doors shut, my back hit the wall, and I
soon slid down the wall. The tears that were threatening to come out before
were now freely pouring.  While it was true I had the floor checking duty,
that was all I had, I had no watch as I was a personal Body Guard, and not
a floor guard. As I fell down the wall, my arms pulled my knee's to my
face, and I let the tears fall freely. I sobbed lightly as my shoulders
shook, I couldn't get the image of Brian kissing another man out of my
head. As I sat there, I felt the world on my shoulders, I felt myself
diving into a pool, but kept falling as the tears started soaking into my
jeans. My knee's and legs were falling asleep, but still I sat there,
powerless to move. Even if I had the strength, I had not the desire, nor
did I have a place to go except the emptiness. It took a few hours to get
my composer, and I finally got off the ground, Luckily I did when I did, as
I saw Nick exit his and Kevin's room and I made my way towards the
elevator. Nick walked up to me, and I hid my face, by looking at the
wall. I couldn't look at him, not like this. "Jon" Nick said "Please join
us for breakfast, we all missed you, and we all care about you. And Brian
does most of all.. You were all he thought about while you were gone, I
swear." And I just looked at the wall, and after a few minutes "He was so
busy thinking about me he kissed another guy right? He was so busy missing
me he said it didn't matter that I didn't care right?" I said. Knowing my
voice mirrored how crushed I felt the first time he said it, and mirroring
the feelings of pain I had.
	Nick put his hand on my shoulder and turned me around. Much to my
disagreement my body put up no resistance to the motion, and I was easily
turned. He saw my red, puffy eyes and knew I was crying, and he hugged me
close. Soon my arms were around him, and my shoulders were wracked with my
sobs as I cried into his shirt. "You don't have the watch do you Jon?" his
voice seemed to have the "I just figured it out" tone to it. I shook my
head no, as I cried on his shoulder. "I thought not, the personal guards
rarely do, tho it took me awhile to catch on." he said it so soothingly I
could have just turned to a puddle right there, partly from the tears, and
from embarrassment, and from the sweet sentiment. I slowly felt myself
being pulled by Nick to his room, and he opened the door quietly. I saw the
dead lights of the TV on, and heard the volume down low. It was obvious
Kevin was still up as well. And one look at me crying on Nick's shoulder
had him off the bed, and over by me. I just looked up at him, and nodded to
the question I know he has on his mind. Nick had in fact already asked it.
	"Jon" Kevin stated as a father would to a hurt child "Want to talk
about this, it has got to be eating you up to be crying like this." Truth
be known, all I wanted to do was find a bottle of pain pills and watch the
pain go away, but I opted for plan B and sat down on the bed. Since I was
no longer on the clock, I had decided I could call them by their preferred
names. "I guess I have little choice in the situation Kevin, so I
guess. Its just that I come back, finally having my head clear of a lot of
what's been bothering me to see him kissing another guy. I just don't know
how to deal with it. But I know now that me and Brian as a couple are
over. He either moved on, or I am as of this moment. I can't live with
knowing he kissed someone else and thinks I don't care. And if I am going
to be able to stay here and work for you that's just how it has to be." I
said as I felt a few more tears warm my cheeks. Soon after I said it, and
felt the tears, I felt like I was losing the one thing I thought was going
to be there. The emptiness that was my life as a kid and teenager slowly
set back in, I felt myself taking a step forward, and falling 5 steps
behind.  I could feel my shell going back up, my walls were fierce indeed
and I could actually feel them going up. All I wanted was to be alone, no
one in my world meant there was no one there to hurt me, for it can only
hurt you if you loved it in the first place.
	There was nothing more to be said or done. I told them about my
apartment, and what I had been doing, about my conversations with James,
and Kate, and how I had pieced things together. I laughed a bit when I
relayed to them how they had all called and asked me to come to the show,
and I just turned them off knowing I'd be there. Nick and Kevin both winced
when I told them what I had heard in the limo. I guess they were just
hoping that his voice didn't carry over. After a few hours of talking I had
to turn the tables on them just a bit. "So how are things with you two? It
looks kind of cozy in here." I smiled when I said it so they knew I was
saying it in a friendly manner. "Well, things are going great...tho I'm not
sure it was worth all that happened. You lost Brian so we could be
together." Nick said sadly, and Kevin wrapped his arms around Nick. When he
was finished, so did I and I whispered in his ear "Nick, nothing between me
and Brian right now is your fault. And before you say it is and disagree
with me, its not. We didn't make it, maybe it wasn't mean to be, or maybe
it wasn't meant to be right now. That doesn't mean you and Kevin weren't
meant to be here and now. And I don't regret one moment of time I spent
with Brian. I loved him, he loved me, and no matter what, I will always
have the memories of that. And memories Nick are how things are carried
on." I smiled and backed off, so he could cuddle with Kevin, and I saw him
smile. Which in turn made Kevin's face come into a happier look. Somehow I
knew that was what he wanted, no needed to hear from me. Almost like a
child in the middle of a bitter divorce, thinking it's all their fault. I
guess I never realized how my mind worked until that moment. No matter the
amount of pain I was in at any given moment, as soon as I felt someone
needed me, I was there. Almost as if that made me whole. I seemed to know
what to say and how to say, I knew how to make others feel just a bit
better about themselves, and I was learning who I was thru these men.
	I left the room, still in a morbid mood, not really sure what I was
going to do. So I did all I could, I looked up, and started to walk to my
room. As soon as I looked up, I saw Brian's face, also red and puffy
eyed. As soon as he saw me look up, he stared at the wall, as if it were
the most interesting thing in the world. I knew he had been staring at me,
but he didn't want me to know. I also knew that eventually he and I had to
talk things out so we were on the same page, and so that we could work
together. And I also knew I only had a day to do it, as we were only here
for the night and tomorrow, and maybe the Thursday morning. So I walked
over to him, but slowly. My feet and legs decided now would be a good time
to give out and stop moving. I couldn't pinpoint the exact moment it had
happened, but my body was on total mutiny. It decided to do nothing I had
wanted it to do, and now it was starting to get irritating. So I forced my
legs to start moving towards Brian. He just looked up at me, a confused
look in his eyes, not sure of what was happening. He too must have had a
million thoughts coursing through his mind. I put a hand on his shoulder,
and pointed to the door, as if asking silently if we could talk. He opened
the door slowly and lead me into his room. As soon as we were in, he sat
down on his bed and motioned for me to join him. I was a bit hesitant at
first, but eventually I complied with his request.
	"Jon" Brian started, his voice hesitant, and scared, as well as
withdrawn. "I know what you heard." I had to cut him off, I wasn't sure if
I could handle this, and I knew if I wasn't in control of what was being
said, I would never have the will power, or the resolve to say it. "Brian,
I can't go on like this.. I just can't. You may think I don't care, but I
did, and I do, and I always will. BUT I have to work here with you, so I
need to get past things. What happened, it happened. I don't know that I
will ever forget it, nor do I know that I can truly move past it, But I am
going to do my level best to try. I'm going to do all I can to be a friend
to you and the others, but your going to have to be patient cause what
happened hurt, and I don't expect you to care, nor do I expect you to know,
I do expect you to be a bit tolerant tho." With that I shut up, and looked
to his face to register its reaction. He just looked, aware. Aware that I
was there, and that I had spoke, but it looked like he was either in
disbelief of what was said, or he just didn't register it. So I continued
"Do you have anything else you want to say, or is this the end of things?"
He just shook his head no, which I interpreted as he had nothing to add,
and got up, and started to leave. His voice was soft, an almost inaudible
whisper. I almost thought I didn't hear it, but he said my name. I turned
around slowly to look at him. He looked utterly crushed. I imagined that's
what I looked like but a few hours ago, almost lost of all hope,
destitute. He looked like his whole heart, mind and body were about to shut
down. But still I looked on, waiting for what he wanted.
	His mouth started moving, but no words were coming out. Finally he
found his voice, tho weak and shaky " Jon, please don't leave me..  Please"
I closed my eyes, but I still couldn't get his face out of my mind, that
look of utter despair, and yet next to it, burned in my mind was the image
of him kissing that man. My mind was battling over all my emotions, and I
was getting dizzy. I could feel my knee's getting weak, and my head was
pulsating. I felt like I was going to explode from all the things in my
head at just that moment. I did the one thing I knew how to do when I was
in intense pain. I learned how to knock myself out by shutting my body down
when I was a kid, to stop the beatings.  And now, I used it to stop pains
of all sorts. So I shut down. I let my knee's buckle, I let my mind shut
off, and I fell to the floor in a heap of limbs and skin. Limp and
weak. From Brian's mouth came a guttural scream, as he saw me give out. He
just looked on, and saw what was happening as if in a movie, in slow
motion. Yet he was paralyzed and he could do nothing. He willed his body to
move, and catch me, but he couldn't move to do it. As I fell to the floor
with a sickening *Thud* my mind seemed to close off, just like my body. I
entered a world most don't know about, or rather they know its there
subconsciously but never knew how to control it. The world between worlds,
where dreams and reality become one. And I was flying through it. Seeing
what was the most amazing scene in my life unfold...


******Kevin and Nick's room

	Jon was just walking out the door, closing it, as Nick smiled at
Kevin. "Boy your all happy, what exactly did he say?" Kevin looked on at
Nick while asking, quite bewildered at what exactly could have Jon said to
make Nick that happy. Nick just smiled at Kevin, cuddling up closer to him,
and kissed his Neck "That's not important, all that matters is it was
said." With that Kevin backed off, curious, but not about to pry knowing if
it made Nick that happy than it was just good that it was said, besides,
the kissing at his neck was making it insanely hard to concentrate. Nick
kept kissing Kevin's neck and slowly worked his way to Kevin's Adam's
Apple, his tongue making butterfly kisses on it.  Kevin was moaning lightly
from the feel of it. The light brushing kiss on his Adam's Apple was
driving him wild, and Nick took note of this, as he continues, while
inwardly smiling.  Slowly his hand crept over Kevin's back massaging the
tense muscles to a moldable relaxed state. As he was doing this, Kevin
started to relax, and lay down a bit, Nick's lips never stopping their slow
ascent to Kevin's mouth.
	With a fierceness he attacked Kevin's lips once he got there,
kissing him deeply, passionately, wildly, all the while his hands playing
with Kevin's now hard nipples. In the back of Kevin, Nick had managed to
slip his hands under Kevin's shirt, and now played with his nipples and
kissing him. It was like a new spirit transformed him, Lust and Love mixed
in his eyes, as sweat slowly gathered on the tendrils that were his
hair. It wasn't long before Nick was straddling Kevin's waist, grinding his
ass into Kevin's hard crotch.  Nick knew the effect he was having on Kevin
was enormous, as every time he kissed Kevin, he was kissed back, equally as
forcefully. With what Jon said there was a renewed spark inside Nick, as if
he was just let out of his sexual cage, and Kevin also saw this in his
eyes. It took some maneuvering, but Kevin soon had Nick's shirt and shorts
off. It wasn't too long before Kevin too was shortless.
	Nick was sitting on Kevin's hard bulky crotch with only the
material of his white boxer-briefs and Kevin's silk boxers between them. He
wanted to feel Kevin inside of him so badly, but there were so many other
things he wanted to do as well. He let go of Kevin's nipple long enough to
reach over to the night stand and pull something off, and pop it into his
mouth. "Nick what are you.. OHHHHH" Kevin's deep bass filled voice moaned,
long and loud, as Nick used the ice cube he placed in his mouth to travel
down Kevin's neck. As he slowly slid the frozen water down Kevin's neck,
Kevin's moans increased in volume. His fingers tightly gripped at the
sheets of the bed, the sensations ravaging his body. As the water slid down
his neck, Nick moved lower, till he found the right nipple, and applied the
ice and lips there. He was being encouraged loudly by Kevin's deep moans of
pleasure. He knew he'd hear about this from the guys in the morning but
right now he just didn't care.
	The ice was slowly dissolving, and it was no time till he was
reaching over for another ice cube, as his free hand "accidentally" bumped
Kevin's throbbing penis. As his hand bumped it, he opened his hand to rub
Kevin's hard cock thru the fabric of the boxers.  Slowly he made up and
down motions, and rubbed the penis, a bit ruff, but not painfully as Kevin
was squirming in Nick's grasp. It was only seconds till Nick found the slit
in Kevin's boxers and his hands roamed inside. When his hand encircled
Kevin's penis, Kevin elicited a loud gasp, followed by a tingling sensation
on his back. He knew he was about ready to blow his load just from what
Nick was doing to his body, and he could feel Nick's hard cock pushing thru
the white cotton fabric of his boxer-briefs, aching to get out. In a quick
movement, Kevin flipped an unsuspecting Nick over onto the bed and grinned
evilly. "You my young man were driving me WILD! NOOOOOW its my turn!"
Kevin said with a grin. He wasted no time in taking control of the stunned
Nick who thought he was in control of this. Kevin quickly had the cotton
fabric of Nick's boxer- briefs on the ground, and gasped at his naked
body. With the way the TV glow reflected off his body he saw Nick as a
being of angelic proportions. He was beautiful, and a small tear escape
Kevin's eye. Nick looked up as if to ask what was wrong, and Kevin shook
his head to answer the unasked question.
	And as if to calm Nick, or more so to drive him to the brink of
ecstasy, he licked the head of Nick's pre-cum oozing cock. Lapping at the
salty substance, coating Nick's head in his saliva in the process, as Nick
now moaned from the new sensations. And all in one motion, Kevin took all
of Nick into his mouth, sucking lightly, slowly going up and down on Nick,
all the while Nick was crying in ecstasy. These feelings like nothing he
had experienced before. Almost agonizing ache had filled him, as Kevin
slowly and meticulously climbed his pole with his mouth. Nick whimpered as
the feeling was getting to him, and he needed relief, and Kevin was going
so slow. He wiggled and squirmed under Kevin's lips, attacking his aching
cock. Kevin in the process had kicked off his boxers, and started to speed
up, and add some more suction to Nick's penis feeling the ache in his
partner, speeding up a little more each time. It wasn't long till Kevin
heard Nick scream at the top of his lungs "Oh my GOD KEVIN I LOVE YOU!" and
the thick hot liquid entered Kevin's throat. He pulled back off Nick's cock
so only the head was in his mouth as Nick kept coming, Kevin swallowing it
like it was the nectar of life, tasting it on his mouth. Nick's back was
arched so far off the bed, when he finally stopped coming, he collapsed
onto the bed, his hair drenched in sweat, his limbs heavy.
	"Kevin that was the most intense." but before he could finish Kevin
had joined him at the top of the bed, kissing him, letting his tongue slip
into Nick's mouth to share Nick's seed with him. The tongues battled till
Kevin gave in and let Nick explore his mouth, all the while Kevin grinding
their hips together his hard pulsating cock going all over Nick's placid
cock, which was rising little by little for what seemed to be hours of more
fun. But for now, it was Nick's turn to please Kevin, and in one movement
he had Kevin on his back, much as he was just moments before, and started
bobbing on Kevin's head, applying suction while he sped his head up and
down. It wasn't long before Kevin screamed his orgasm as well.
	As Kevin screamed, they thought they heard another scream down the
hall, but they weren't sure, and neither asked the other, chalking it up to
Kevin's scream. Kevin soon went limp, as Nick ate up his cum. He was laying
their, exhausted from the experience, holding Nick in his arms, a peaceful
smile on his face as he felt content where he was, Nick's face mimicked
Kevin's perfectly, as he rested his head on Kevin's chest.  They had the
night, and the next day to just lay in each others arms, and relish in the
events that just passed. "Well Nick" Kevin was the first to speak "I don't
think I've ever" and Nick soon finished his sentence "Felt that way?" Nick
smiled knowing he was going to say that. Kevin saw the smile, and
grinned. "Actually I was going to say I've never been so sexually
disappointed in my life." Still grinning Nick slapped him on the
chest. "Well lets see how disappointed you are when your not getting
anymore over the next couple months." Nick returned and smiled.
	"Well if I have to wait thank God I was given TWO hands!" Kevin
laughed and Nick looked defeated there. And decided to just kiss Kevin's
chest in a cuddly way, and looked up at Kevin with those lethal puppy dog
eyes "Well I guess that settles that. Now we can just lay here in bed and
cuddle all cute like till the guys yank us out tomorrow."  Kevin nodded in
agreement as he started to drift off to sleep, all the while Nick in his
arms, with thoughts of little happy things that have been, and were to be
in the future.

Brian's 7 Sea's of Loneliness part 26 by Jon

********Brian's Room******

	Brian looked on to the sight in horror, and no one came at his
scream, yet he still couldn't move, he was frozen in place in fear. His
knees wobbled, as tears streaked his face. He looked down, and all he saw
was a blank emotionless face on me. He could see my breathing, but he
wasn't sure if I was OK, soon his knee's gave way and he hit the floor
"God, no you can't take him!" He grabbed at his neck, and removed his
cross.  "Every time I looked to you, you answered me, but I can't believe
were not meant to be together, you can't have him. I choose him over
you. No question, if I have to choose, I choose love over god!" He slid the
chain onto his dresser, and looked down at me, and only one thing came to
his mind. He sang. "If every word I said, could make you laugh, I'd talk
forever. Together with love. I asked the sky just what we had, OHHHH, it
shown forever, together with my love. If the song I sing to you, could fill
your heart with joy I'd sing forever, together in my
heart. Forever. Forever. I've been so happy loving you.  Together with
love. Let the love I have for you, live in your heart. And be forever,
together my love. Forever, forever. I've been so happy loving you! Babe!
Babe, babe! Oh oh oh ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. If every word I said, could make you
laugh, I'd talk forever."  The words flew from his mouth faster than he
knew what was happening. He was looking around my body for signs of blood
not totally sure what the thud was. The tears in his eyes, looked like he
had been crying for an eternity, and the look on his face, was as if he
just heard the news his mother was murdered.
	As he sat there looking on, he just hoped that someone would come
and help him.  He didn't know why he couldn't move, and even his voice was
failing him. He just looked on in horror as I laid there on the floor, not
an emotion on my face, and not a care for it.  He saw my breathe was
shallow, as if just enough to sustain me, as my chest rose and fell in
succession. His body ached and his mind was on fire. His body was too
confused on what it was supposed to do, all he wanted to do was scream and
cry till someone heard him, but alas, no one came. Minutes dragged by like
an eternity as he watched over my body. and after what seemed like
lifetimes past, soon sun was shinning in the room, all the while Brian sat
there crying on his knee's. His eyes couldn't see anything, as his vision
was deteriorated to next to nothing hours ago. He tried to scream still,
and could feel the hoarseness in his throat, but still he tried, as if it
were his last chance to save me.
	He heard his phone ring somewhere in the back of his mind. Or so he
thought, he wasn't sure anymore if his senses were actually hearing or
seeing things, or if they were imagined. He thought he heard it ring again,
but still it was futile, as even if he had wanted to go to it, and answer
it, he was powerless to do so. In the hall the ringing was heard as
well. His door wasn't closed. But no one had been by his room that
morning. He had drawn the room furthest away from everyone, and closest to
the elevator. Oh how he wished it was any other week he had gotten it. What
he wouldn't give for someone to be nosy and ask him how he was this
morning, like they did most mornings. But he had pushed everyone away, much
like he had pushed me away. He could feel himself being distanced from
life, and he felt his eyes closing. He felt reality's fine line being
crossed and consciousness was slipping away from him. In a desperate
attempt, he let out one more yell, or what he thought was a yell. A call
for help. "Someone... please..help..."  And then he hit the ground lifeless
as well.
	It wasn't long before a guard was there, hearing the pitiful
attempt at asking for help. The guard hearing it wasn't sure if it was a
joke or not, and was half amused till he walked in. He immediately ran over
my body, stepping on my hand in the process. A small cracking noise was
heard as he tripped over my arm. The noise had startled him enough to get
him to look down, and then grab Brian. After he grabbed Brian, he ran to
Kevin's room where he had assumed everyone would be at the moment. He
pounded on the door as if there was a fire, screaming and yelling as he
pounded to get them to answer. A half disturbed Kevin opened the door "MUST
you bang.." when he saw Brian over the mans shoulder. Limp and lifeless,
his jaw dropped. He started frantically searching for blood, or any reason
for it. The guard waited for no invitation, and barged into the room.  The
guys all looked bewildered as the guards were never like that, as he
carried the ghostly white image of Brian on his shoulder taking him to the
bed. Nick gasped in horror as Kevin rushed over there to wake Brian
up. After splashing water on Brian's face he slowly roused, and woke
up. Shaking, violently.
	He grabbed for his knee's, and shook with fresh tears. Kevin
noticed the chain missing on Brian's neck, and looked at the guard. "Brian
was robbed, I want security hear now, and I want the bastard caught!" His
voice was so commanding, and the guard looked at him all funny. Then spoke
"If he was robbed then there's no need to panic, the man is on the floor in
Sir's room unconscious. In fact I tripped over his hand stepping on it to
get to Sir, and broke at the very least a finger or two." The guard smiled
happily, I mean how often does anything happen exciting to hotel security,
and it wasn't often large celebrity types stayed there. The guys all looked
at each other and slowly rose from their breakfast.  Nick stayed with Brian
as the other three went to go find the assailant. AJ was grinding his fists
together, wanting a piece of the robber, one way pr another. Howie too was
preparing for a fight. Kevin just had a look of rage on his face. Utter
rage and ferocity. His eyes were wide, and his face was red. His fist were
clenched in tight balls, and his thick brows were narrowed as if to form an
arrow pointing down. Pure hatred was shown in every feature of his body.
	As they approached the room, the door was still opened, and they
could see what looked like a leg sticking out. This only served to anger
them more. As they walked in, they couldn't see a face. Kevin just pulled
his foot back, and started kicking at the ribs of the man. The body laid
there lifeless, even with the blows. AJ and Howie took this as their
initiative to start beating on the body as well. Howie walked over to the
front of the man, and saw something that looked vaguely familiar around his
neck. He couldn't place it tho.  It looked like a small dragon talon,
holding a small ball, like a clear marble (Clear quartz actually) and an
angel with a large clear crystal (Also clear quartz). He picked the man's
head up by the hair. He looked over the whole body, staring into the
lifeless eyes, his jaw dropped and pure horror in his eyes. "Guy's NO!
STOP!" was all that was heard, but the bloody mess on the ground before
them, almost egged them on to finish it. To take its life so it could never
again rob someone. And so continued the blows to the ribs, legs, and
anywhere else on the lower body that can be kicked, all the while,
obscenities were shouted, and the crunching of bones was heard....


TBC... and what a way to end it eh? LOL. Sorry it's been so long, I know I
need to write more. Lots of problems with AOL, and I live in a new
apartment. Yup dad gave me the boot from his house...and his life. BUT
everything happens for a reason right?