Date: Wed, 29 Mar 2000 16:28:02 -0800 (PST)
From: Mike D. <md_life@yahoo.com>
Subject: Coming Back Into Your Heart 4

Disclaimer: This story will contain guy/guy sex between consenting adults.
If this isn't your "cup of tea" then scram. This story is not meant to
imply anything about the sexual preferences of the Backstreet Boys. This
story may be redistributed in other archives as long as I am kept as the
author and you don't charge anyone to read it. So after all that.....Enjoy!
Oh and if you enjoy this, please let me know at md_life@yahoo.com Thanks~
Mike D.

Coming Back Into Your Heart
Chapter 4

     Once in the limo Brian looked at Kevin and Alex, "Alright guys. Now,
what the hell happened in that bathroom?"

Alex looked at Kevin, then at the rest of the guys, "Well, honestly I only
know the very end...after Kevin kicked that guy's ass."

     Nick turned to Kevin and grinned, "Come on Kev. Don't leave us in
suspense...did he hit on you or something?"

Kevin reached over and punched Nick in the arm, "No you asshole."

 "Brian....he hit me!" Nick whined and Brian grinned.
     "You deserved it, Nick"

     Nick sat back and pouted as the others laughed at him, and Kevin said,
"Okay guys...here's the deal. I went to use the restroom, and the guy
attacked me, originally without any weapons, but after a while he pulled a
knife. I heard Alex, here outside the door and it distracted me long enough
to where he sliced my arm. He then felt it necessary to punch the wall and
dropped the knife, when he rolled to get it I bashed him on the head then
let in Alex, who scared the shit out of him, then he left and you guys know
the rest."

The rest of the guys looked at Kevin, "Well, Kev....that seems rather
abbreviated if you ask me." Howie said while looking at the other guys, who
nodded.

     Kevin sighed, "Guys that is basically it. If you want more details you
are going to have to go find that guy."

The guys sat back, accepting it and Alex leaned forward, "Look guys, I
recognized that guy. In the game he is known as the Jackal. I don't know
why...I never cared to ask. A person's code name usually comes from how you
made your first kill, and he has been in the game longer than I have by
about 3 or 4 years. He's pro. They are NOT messing around on this and you
guys need to know that. I suggest that you guys take to wearing
bullet-proof vests unless around people that you know. I mean that while
performing on stage...wear one, while doing public appearances like signing
cds for people, wear them.  I know that you don't want to, but I really do
not want to see one of you guys die okay?"

     At first they looked as though they would argue, but as he went on
they all nodded, including Kevin.

AJ looked at Alex, "Will you be wearing one?"

     Alex nodded, "Yeah, I will. I always do. Even though I have been shot
before I really don't want to see the next occurrence happen real soon."

The limo stopped and they could hear screams, they looked at each other
then Nick moved to get out. Alex's hand on his chest stopped him. "Let me
get out first, okay Nick?"

     Nick nodded and Alex climbed out of the car searching the crowd for
anyone who was not a young, girl or guy. He saw one, there in the back of
the crowd was a tall, dark-haired man probably about 25 or 26. As the guys
got out of the car Alex tried to stay between them and the man, but since
there were 5 guys that he was trying o protect and only one of him it made
it a little difficult, they got inside without any mishaps, except for
Nick's shirt getting half ripped off by a fan and made their way to the
elevators.

"You saw the guy in the back?" Kevin asked Alex and he nodded.

     "What guy?" Nick asked looking sadly at his unsalvageable shirt.

"Tall guy about 25 standing in the back of the crowd." Kevin replied,
massaging Alex's tense shoulders.

The guys stared in shock, "I didn't notice anybody." Howie said.

     "I didn't expect you to." Alex said smiling at the feeling of Kevin
easing the tension in his shoulders.

"Oh." Howie said softly as the elevator came to a stop and Kevin's hands
dropped from Alex's shoulders.

     They all made their way to their separate rooms, agreeing to figure
out what to do for dinner later. As Kevin and Alex entered the room, Alex
felt himself getting tenser. He had to tell Kevin now, he couldn't let
Kevin believe something about him that wasn't true any longer.

Kevin flopped onto the bed and motioned for Alex to come and lay down with
him, but Alex shook his head and sat on the couch, pulling his knees up to
his chest. "Kev....there's something I must tell you before...before I
leave." Alex said just loud enough for Kevin to hear him.

     "Leave? Why would you leave?" Kevin asked sitting up and staring at
Alex.

"You might not want me here after I tell you this." Alex muttered
miserably.

     "That isn't possible sweety. I will want you here no matter what you
have to tell me."  Kevin said, standing and walking towards Alex, but he
held up his hand stopping Kevin.

"You don't know that. And please stay there until I say this." Alex said
taking a deep breath as Kevin sat on the bed, concerned.

     "I told you before that I did some really stupid things after you
left. I had a new partner, a woman, Thistle. We were staking out a premier
of Russia that had...a taste for young whores. More specifically boys. So I
went posing as one, I refused any offers I got except his. When he finally
picked me up he took me to his, well it wasn't a house, it was more like a
fortress. He started to feel me up in the car, and I didn't put up any
fight, I figured that we would have a drink before we...got down to it and
I could drug him then look around."

Alex took a deep breath, Kevin had a very bad feeling about this, he prayed
that what he imagined was wrong, " When we got to his house I realized that
Thistle would not be able to help me. We had vastly underestimated his
security. He had dozens of guards and an incredible security system. I
still wasn't that worried, I mean I could handle anything that happened. He
took me upstairs and told me to strip. I asked if we could have a drink
first to loosen us both up, and he just gave me this very cold look and
told me he didn't care if I was "loose" or not, he just needed to get
off. So I stripped."

     Alex had tears running down his face by now and Kevin knew that he was
right, he went over to Alex and pulled him into his arms, whispering,
"Shhh...it's alright. You don't have to go on. I know."

Alex didn't even hear Kevin's gentle words or touch, he was reliving the
moment from when the man had told him to strip, he couldn't seem to stop
describing it, "He....he examined my body for a moment as though evaluating
a horse. I was about to grab him and just kill him, when he called in about
a dozen of his guards, I couldn't take them all and I knew it, so...I tried
to leave. I tried the door, but they blocked it, then I tried the window,
but it was nailed shut...I was trapped. I suddenly was picked up by a
couple of the guards and thrown face down on the bed and tied down..."

      Alex's voice trailed off as he relived all those smirking faces,
calling him a whore, telling him in detail what they were all going to do
with him, "The premier raped me first...then one by one, in order of rank
the rest fucked me. Then they started again, they raped me and pissed on
me...over and over, calling me trash and..." Alex was sobbing so hard by
now that he couldn't speak and Kevin had tears streaming down his face as
well.

Alex suddenly began to struggle in Kevin's arms, "I--I have to leave...I
know that you don't love me anymore, and I'm sorry that I was stupid...."
Alex sobbed as he tried to pull away from Kevin.

     "No Alex." Kevin said holding Alex against him, Alex turned to stare
at him in surprise, tears still streaming down his face, "No, you aren't
going, I love you. The only thing I want to know right now is if that
premier is still alive."

Alex nodded, "They dropped me back on the corner where he picked me up and
Thistle was there and took me to the hospital, but we were immediately sent
on another mission, I never got the chance to kill him."

     Kevin nodded, making mental plans to kill the man next time the guys
went on an international tour, or maybe just next time they had a couple of
weeks off of work, then hugged Alex tightly, "Baby, it...it makes me
incredibly angry that you had to go through that. But, it does not make me
love you any less. You didn't choose it. I understand that and I love you
desperately."

Alex hugged Kevin tightly crying hard and soaking Kevin's shirt, "I'll stay
with you Kev. I won't go back to the Agency. I will stay on as your guys'
bodyguard. I just had to know if you could forgive me."

     Kevin smiled, "Babe, there's nothing to forgive. I'll call management
tomorrow and ask them to put you on the payroll. In the meantime...do you
want to take a shower with me?"

Alex nodded against Kevin's chest and they both climbed to their feet and
started to walk towards the bathroom, pulling off each other's clothes as
they went. Together they slid under the water once it was hot enough and
gently washing and exploring each other in the steamy mist. As Kevin washed
Alex, he kissed every scar he found that he knew was from after he had
left, making Alex smile.

     Alex washed Kevin with the same thoroughness that Kevin had washed him
and smiled when he realized how happy he was. He had had this secret
weighing on his soul for so long and now that Kevin knew he felt....free,
and even more important: Kevin still loved him. Life was as perfect as it
could get with the danger still surrounding them.

Silently they rinsed off and climbed out of the shower, drying each other
off. Kevin took Alex's hand and pulled him gently into the bedroom again
and they both curled up against each other on the bed and drifted to sleep.

To Be Continued....

Well?? What did you think? I got some e-mails wondering what was so
horrible that Alex was afraid to tell Kev, but I felt it wasn't fair to
tell until I had this written. So, was everybody really shocked? Let me
know what you think. It should get a little more...lighthearted after this
chapter but I'm not promising ANYTHING. Let me know what you think!!!

~Mike D. md_life@yahoo.com