The Cost of True Love

Chapter 1

Written by Jayson Vascardi & Joseph Ciurro

Legal Disclaimer: This story is fictional and not meant to imply anything about Kevin Richardson, Nick Carter, or Brian Littrell. If you are under the age of 18, offended by homosexual material, or if it is illegal to view such material in your area, you should be leaving now. Otherwise, please enjoy the story.

Author's Note: This story will feature the Backstreet Boys, as well as Stephen Gately of Boyzone. Don't worry, this story will not be affecting Nick & Brian, nor will it be affecting Never In My Wildest Dreams. So don't worry about that.

Now, I will say that though they will make occasional guest appearances, 'N Sync will never be added as permanent characters in this series. However, 98 Degrees may be added on a permanent basis at some point, as well as the other members of Boyzone. Also, Kristen Willits, Leigh Ann Wallace, and Eloy de Jong will be making appearances in this story.

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The Cost of True Love - Chapter 1

Kevin Scott Richardson stands in the bathroom of his hotel suite in Los Angeles, California. Kevin has just finished with his shower, and is now drying himself off with a large white towel. Kevin has never considered himself to be vain, though he does like to occasionally look himself over in the mirror. Being a Backstreet Boy, he has been able to get into very good shape, what with all of dancing and workouts that Fatima, their choreographer, makes them do.

Kevin finishes drying of his well-toned body, before quickly running a comb through his hair, and taking a razor and removing some of the stubble that's grown since the last shave. Kevin has this suite to himself, so he doesn't bother putting anything on before walking out of the bathroom, though he soon blushes several shades of red and dashes back into the bathroom when he sees the young man sitting on his bed.

The young man is none other than Nickolas Carter, the youngest member of the Backstreet Boys, and the person that Kevin is head over heels in love with, though Nick doesn't know it. In fact, nobody in the group even knows that Kevin is gay. The only person who knows that Kevin is gay is his father, Jerald, and he took that with him to the grave. Kevin had wanted to tell his mom, his brothers, Tim and Jerald, as well as his Uncle Harold and Aunt Jackie and his cousins, Harold and Brian, but he never did, fearing that they would reject him.

Kevin's father wasn't very happy with the revelation at first himself, but he finally told Kevin that all he cares about is that Kevin lives his life in whatever way makes him the happiest, and if being with another man makes him happy, then so be it. Though Jerald also said that he had the feeling that Anna might not be so accepting of it, and that he probably should wait until he was in a solid and strong relationship until he told her. Just in case she disowned him or something, so that Kevin would still have somebody to love him. When it came to telling certain things to Anna, Jerald even though he loved her with all his heart, knew that you sometimes must be prepared for the worst.

Homosexuality is definitely something that Anna is dead-set against, and Jerald knew that she would have a very, very hard time accepting Kevin, once he came out to her.

Anyway, Kevin has a bit of a crush on Nick ever since the Backstreet Boys first got together, but he has been head over heels in love with him for the past two and a half years. Every time that Kevin sees Nick all he wants to do is run over to him, pull him into a hug, and start kissing him passionately. Kevin has fantasies about Nick every night, ranging from mild scenes like falling asleep in Nick's arms, Nick's naked body pressed tightly up against his own, to the much more hot scenes, like passionate, steamy love making.

Lately, it has been getting harder and harder to keep his love for Nick a secret, because his heart is aching, aching for some for someone to reach out to, someone to love him. But, Kevin only wants that to be one person, and that's Nick. Which could be quite harmful in the long run, considering that Nick probably isn't even gay. Kevin quickly pulls on the complementary robe that the hotel hangs in the bathroom, and walks back out into the bedroom, to see that Nick is not there. Kevin quickly checks the rest of the suite, but Nick is nowhere to be found. Kevin is slightly upset about that, but figures that Nick was probably so embarrassed about seeing Kevin naked, that he ran out of the room.

The truth of the matter is that Nick wasn't embarrassed by seeing Kevin naked, but totally turned on by it, even if it was only a glimpse of about a minute. In that one minute, Nick had quickly burned every inch of Kevin's well-toned body into his mind. Especially Kevin's package, which was at least 6 inches long, soft. Nick can only imagine how long it gets when fully hard. "Kevin is certainly well hung," thinks Nick to himself, as he sits down on his bed and quickly removes his t-shirt and jeans, before pulling down his pale green cotton boxers.

Nick's cock stands at attention at its full length of 8.5 inches, as Nick quickly grabs a jar of petroleum jelly to use as a lubricant, and applies some to his cock as he begins to slide his hand up and down his tool, thinking of his one true love, Kevin Scott Richardson.

Nick has known for almost four years now that he was gay, and for almost as long, he has either had a crush on Kevin, or has been passionately in love with him. Again, nobody in the group knows that Nick is gay, though, nobody in his family knows it either. Nick is totally afraid of telling his family because he's afraid that they will disown him and not love him anymore, and he doesn't want to tell the other guys, because he's afraid that they will not only hate him, but kick him out of the group.

The last thing Nick wants to do is be kicked out of the Backstreet Boys, cause it is the best thing that ever happened to him, and he is after all one of it's founding members. So, the Backstreet Boys really do mean a lot to Nick, and he doesn't want to do anything that might jeopardize his future with the group. True, he does occasionally look toward Stephan Gately, thinking to himself that the other members of Boyzone didn't kick him out of the group, just because he was gay. But, then too, they're an Irish band, and people in Europe are more accepting of homosexuality, then here in the United States.

As much as Nick would like to believe that his friends and band mates wouldn't turn their backs on him, he's sure that they would. He's even more so sure that his fans would turn against him, but Nick could handle that. But, the guys, especially Kevin, if they turned against him, Nick would have nothing more to live for. No reason to continue going on, to continue to strive forward through all of life's pain and suffering, and he would most likely end it all, by ending his own life, having lost his will to live.

"Oh, Kevin, I want you so much," thinks Nick, as he begins to shoot a load of cum "I need you so much, but I can't tell you. I can't lose you!"

Nick quickly cleans himself up, before climbing into bed, and falling fast asleep within a matter of only a few minutes. About half an hour later, Nick's roommate, Brian, comes into the room. Nick and Brian have been best friends since the group first started, and for some reason or another, always share a room while on the road. Brian sits down on his own bed, and looks silently over to the other bed, at Nick, as he sleeps peacefully, his chest rising and falling in a soft and peaceful motion.

Brian looks over every last detail of Nick's body, inscribing every last inch into his mind, knowing that he will probably never ever be with Nick, cause Nick is most definitely straighter then a ruler. This really pains Brian, to know that for the rest of his life, he can look at the man he loves with all his heart, but never have him. To spend time with him and talk to him, yet never kiss him, fall asleep in his arms, or show him anything other form of affection other then the occasional friendly hug.

Brian has known that he was gay for several years now, since about the age of sixteen, though he hasn't told anyone. Not a single person in his family knows his secret, and Brian is deathly afraid of telling anyone. Brian knows, being raised as a Southern Baptist, that his faith teaches him that homosexuality is wrong, and his family are very strict Southern Baptists, and as such, firmly believe that homosexuality is one of the gravest of sins, and any practitioners of it are destined to be cast into the fiery, sulfurous caverns of Hell, for all eternity.

To be continued...

Well, I hope that you enjoyed this story. More to come soon.

Please send any and all comments, good or bad, and any suggestions to: or
Please remember to include "True Love" in the email subject line.
You can also contact Jayson via ICQ at 53886549, or stop by the #boybands channel on the Nifty IRC Server, where both Jayson and Joseph are channel ops.