Date: Mon, 22 Jan 2001 18:32:30 -0600
From: Danni Bailey <dannibailey@hotmail.com>
Subject: Decisions - Chapter 28

Disclaimer.....Yes there are homosexual themes....No I don't know them

Chapter 28

Eight months later - April 23, 2001

You could have not ordered a more beautiful day, although your frayed
nerves had not given much time to notice.  Justin assured you things would
go off without a hitch.  When necessary, he was a meticulous planner and of
course Danni was there, the consummate romantic, to make sure no detail was
overlooked.  Her wedding to Chris had been one of the most beautiful you
had ever seen.  Nothing flashy, that would never fit either one of them,
but spectacular none the less.  Now, four months pregnant, she had spent
the day making sure every last detail was taken care of.

Looking around at the group assembled on the deck somehow managed to bring
a smile to your face.  Everyone who was important to you and Justin was in
attendance. You and Justin had arranged for your families to fly down,
along with the families of the other band members. Johnny Wright, Lonnie,
Wade and Mark along with Ashton flew down last night.  Danny, who had
pretty much become part of this NSYNC family was there along with Dennis
and Eric who would open up their Orlando club for as less formal reception
when you returned to the states.  Lance had brought Alyssa Milano, whom he
had met at an awards show and who was responsible for the new and improved
Lance. The shy Lance was a thing of the past and you had enjoyed the
transformation.  Carson, of course had arranged for you to have MTV's
island house for the wedding.  You and Justin had started your relationship
here, so what better place to have the wedding.

You were lost in your own world when he quietly slipped up and put his hand
in yours.

"Do you realize that in less than hour, you'll officially be mine forever?"

A huge smile covered your face.  "Do realize in less than a hour, I'm gonna
have to recite vows from memory when right now I'm having a hard time
remember my name?"

"Gary, you'll do fine."  He leaned over and tenderly kissed your cheek.
"Please don't be nervous."

You squeezed his hand.  "Just don't stray too far and I'll be fine."

Suddenly you felt a small pair of arms wrap around your leg.

"How do I look, Gary?  Aunt Danni got me and Jonathan all dressed up for
you guys!"

You looked down to see you younger brother in a miniature version of the
tuxedo you were wearing.  All decked out in white, his green eyes stood out
even more so than usual.

"You look absolutely great!  I've never seen a finer looking best man," you
told him as you swooped him up in your arms.

You looked across the deck and caught your mom's eye, who along with Danni
was taking in the scene.  You mouthed the words 'thank you' to her as you
held Chase in your arms.  The wedding would not have been the same without
him.  It had not been an easy decision for you mom.  She still had some
reservations about explaining your situation with Justin.  As things
turned, out Chase was thrilled at the thought of having Justin being part
of the family and focused his concern on what part he would hold in the
ceremony.  Deciding that was easy. The younger brothers would serve as best
men, as you and Justin both knew that choosing between the members of NSYNC
would have been an impossible task.  Chris, Lance Joey and JC, along with
Britney, Danni, Heather (JC's older sister) and Emily (Chris' younger
sister) would round out the wedding party.

Moments later, the minister's soft voice could be heard.  "If you would all
please be seated, I believe we are ready to begin."

You held Justin's hand tightly as you made your way toward the minister.
You stood before him and as the rest of the wedding party took their
places, Justin whispered "I love you." Your heart melted.

To your immediate left was Chase grinning widely, but standing remarkably
still.  To his left was Danni, then Chris, Emily and Lance.  To Justin's
right was Jonathan, followed by Britney, Joey, Heather and JC.

Once everyone was settled the minister began.  "Ladies and gentlemen, we
are gathered here today before God to witness the joining of these two
young men in a life long commitment to each other.  As family and friends
we share in their happiness as they begin their life together and vow to
stand by them and support them in their union.  Justin and Gary have
decided to forego the traditional vows and would like to share with you now
their commitment to each other."

The minister looked to you and nodded.  You took a deep breath and turned
to Justin taking both of his hands in yours.  Staring into the eyes of the
man you loved so deeply you began.

"Justin, some people say that a dream is just a moment in time that passes
when you wake up.  I disagree.  I believe that a dream is something that
all of us hold near and dear to our hearts.  Something that is ours, that
no one can take away from us.  You are my dream.  My dream for a loving
partner that makes each day an adventure and each night a moment that
captures my heart.  My love for you can't be measured."

You were finding it difficult to speak as the emotions of the moment
overwhelmed you.

"You are the love of my life and my reason for being.  I love you Justin,
now and forever."

You could see Justin's eyes had filled with tears, as had you own.  You had
meant every word.  He was indeed you life.

Justin took a moment before beginning and you could feel his hands tremble.

"Gary, my life could never be complete without you.  Holding your hand,
kissing your cheek, laying by your side and feeling your heartbeat has
opened my eyes.  I know now what love is.  I promise that you'll never walk
alone.  I'll always be by your side. I want my heart to be your shelter and
my arms to be your home."

Tears now fell freely from Justin's eyes and you gently wiped them away
with the back of your hand.  "Today I give you my heart.  Please realize I
have no greater gift to give.  I love you."

You and Justin then exchanged the necklaces you had designed instead of the
traditional wedding rings.  Together, the interlocking halves formed a
circle signifying that each of you was only complete with the other.  The
half you would wear had baby blue stone set in it, while Justin's had one
of emerald green.  When finished, you both turned and faced the minister.

"You have both come here before me today and confirmed your love and
devotion to each other with your vows.  With God's grace, and in front of
the witnesses gathered before me, I am pleased to join the two of you in a
union of love that will endure forever."

He grinned slightly and then added.  "I believe that the one aspect of this
wedding that will remain traditional will be the kiss.

Justin's response of "Damn right!" brought an outburst of laughter from the
crowd with the exception of Lynn Harless, who could only smile and shake
her head as Justin leaned toward you with an all too familiar twinkle in
his eye.

"I've been waiting for this all day," he whispered as his lips finally met
yours.  With his arms wrapped tightly around your waist he kissed you
passionately drawing a round of applause and cheers from the wedding party.

When he finally released you from his grasp, you winked at him and mouthed.
"You'll get yours tonight."

The boyish grin covered his face.  "That's what I'm counting on.  Now let's
go celebrate."

As you and Justin mingled with friends and family his hand rarely left
yours and the twinkle in his eyes was brighter than you had ever seen it.
You still had a hard time comprehending everything that had happened in the
past few years.  Your mind reverted back to that day in November when Danni
has asked you to join she and Chris for a casual lunch.  Danni, was of
course, was playing the matchmaker.  When you walked into the restaurant
and saw Justin sitting there you had a hard time not strangling Danni.  You
hated being set up and unfortunately it was one of her favorite pastimes,
but you had to admit, this time she had outdone herself.  The rest, of
course, was history.  Since that day, you and Justin had only spent a few
days apart and today Danni was enjoying the ultimate victory.

A tender hug around your waist snapped you back to the present.

"You two make such a handsome couple.  I told you so."

You turned to see Danni's smiling face.

"You're really enjoying this aren't you?"

"Of course I am. I had Justin picked out for you when he was 16.  I just
had to wait until the timing was right.  I knew you were both too young
back then."

You were shocked.  "Danni! Are you serious?  You had this planned for three
years before we ever met."

She kissed your cheek.  "Gary, these things have to be planned out
carefully if you want them to work.  You didn't really think that day in
New York was a spur of a moment idea did you?"

You shook you head.  "Danni, you're incredible.  Thank you."  You pulled
her close to you and kissed her gently.

"Hey man!" Chris teased.  "Quit hitting on my wife. You got your own
"spouse" now.

"Yeah, I sure do.  And I've never been happier in my life.  He's everything
I could have asked for."

"And more!" Danni added.  "You got your hands full, Gary."

Justin joined the three of you with yet another glass of champagne in his
hand.

"J, you better go easy on that stuff" Chris joked.  You don't want your
"performance" to be effected now do you?"

"Funny smart ass.  First of all, NOTHING is gonna be wrong with my
performance tonight and secondly, this is really only my second glass of
champagne.  Every time I talk to someone I set my glass down, get lost in
the conversation and can't remember which glass is mine, so I just get a
new one."

"See what I mean Gary.  Keeping this boy in line is gonna be no easy job."

"Trust me Danni, I don't mind" you assured her.  "The benefits are pretty
good."

Justin pulled you close to him.  "Speaking of benefits, how about you and I
go up to our room.  I'm about ready for some time just for the two of us."

You wondered at times if he could read your mind.  As much as you were
enjoying the company of your family and friends, you wanted some time with
Justin.  The "honeymoon" was already being cut short.  Tomorrow, you were
flying to New York so the guys could make an appearance on the Rosie
O'Donnell before the new album was released.  It was the first of many
appearances promoting the still unnamed album.  Actually, the guys had
named the album, it was the title of the first song to be released, but
they had kept it top secret.  Justin hadn't even given you a clue, other
than to say it was gonna make headlines.  Not much of a clue considering
everything that NSYNC did attracted media attention.  You knew the release
of this album would be no different.

You quickly said your good-byes to family and friends and headed up to your
room.

Before the door was even shut behind him, Justin began taking off his tux.
"I know tuxedos are kind of a requirement for weddings, but I'll be so
happy to get this thing off.  I'm not really a dress up kind of guy."

You had to concur.  "Yeah, I agree, but there was no way we were getting
around it.  We had our moms and Danni involved in this, remember!

"How can I forget," he laughed as he tied on a pair of loose fitting
drawstring pants.  "At times I think they had more to do with this wedding
than we did."

"Well, they definitely weren't shy about giving us input."

You quickly finished changing and joined Justin on that second story
balcony.  It was a beautiful setting; a view of the white sandy beach with
the emerald waves crashing on the shore as the sun prepared to dip down
behind the horizon.  The smell of the sea mist filled the air and reminded
you of your first visit to the island.  Yes, everything was perfect.

You looked at Justin, totally relaxed, lying in the hammock with one leg
draped over the edge so that he could continue the swinging motion that he
was obviously enjoying.  This was your opportunity.

You laid down next to him and he immediately cuddled up next to you resting
his head on your shoulder.

"Does it get any better than this Gary?" he asked sweetly.

"It might, I have a little surprise for you."

As you expected, his eyes lit up.  No matter what you did for him, if it
was a surprise, he thoroughly enjoyed it.  It was the little boy part of
him that you loved.

"Well, you know how we were saying before that our moms can kinda be
"influential?"

A huge grin covered Justin's face.  "That's putting it nicely, try pushy."

"Well, they can be, but I kinda had to agree with them on this one issue."

"And what "issue" are we talking about?" he asked cautiously.

You handed him a velvet box tied with a gold ribbon.

"What the hell is this?" he asked excitedly.

"Just open it.  You'll see."

Tears filled his eyes when he saw the contents.

"Since our moms were kinda insistent, I thought I'd surprise you."

"Gary, they are absolutely beautiful.  Did you design these too?"

You were hoping he liked them and from his reaction, it was obvious that he
did.

"Yeah I did.  I just couldn't see putting an average ring on a man that is
so incredibly special."

It hadn't been easy to find a jeweler who was willing to create what you
had designed, but Britney had provided you with the name of a gentleman in
New York and he had produced exactly what you had wanted.  Like the
necklaces, the rings were interlocking.  They were bands of yellow gold,
engraved with white gold inlay.  The kanji writing said; We are United,
Forever in Love.  On the inside were the initials GM & JT 4-23-01.

You took Justin's ring out of the case and placed it on his finger.  "I
know you won't be able to wear this all the time, but when we're alone I'd
love to see it on your finger."

There was sadness in Justin's eyes.  "Gary, I'm sorry that we haven't been
able to be more open about our relationship.  If it were just you and me, I
would have been shouting it out to the world, but I have other people I
need to think about.  I promise you, it won't always be this way."

"Justin, you don't owe me any explanations.  We both knew from the very
beginning what us being together would entail.  Hopefully, after today you
understand that I have no regrets."

He rolled over on top of you and stared deep into your eyes.  "I love you
Gary, with all my heart and soul."  He took the other ring out of the box
and slid it onto your finger.  While he might not always be able to wear
his, you had no intention of ever taking yours off.

Without saying a word he took you by the hand and led you into the bedroom.
Neither of you spoke.  There was no need to.  What he needed to know could
be said without words.  You laid next to him on the bed, untied the string
on his pants and slowly lowered them over his hips. Although you had seen
him hundreds of time, the sight of Justin naked sent chills through you
body.  Since NSYNC had not been on tour in the past few months Justin had
managed to spend some time relaxing by the pool and his deep tan only
enhanced his sculptured body.  You leaned over and gently pressed your lips
against his.  His body was trembling.

"Justin is something wrong?"

"Gary, I've never been so nervous in my life.  I know its stupid, but I
can't help it.  I've waited for this night since the first day I met you.
When I asked you to come to my hotel room, I knew we had to take things
slow, but from the minute you kissed me I knew that I'd never feel for
anyone what I felt for you at that moment.

A single tear ran down his cheek.  "Will you make love to me and make me
yours forever?"

You returned your lips to his and kissed him passionately amid his soft
moans.  It was obvious that his body was ready for lovemaking, but you had
no intention of rushing this moment.  Everything in your lives seemed
rushed.  Tonight was not going to be one of them.  The rest of the world
could continue with out you.  Justin was yours tonight.  All night.

His sweet kisses began your journey that would last for hours.  Stroking
him gently you would take him to the edge and slowly back off as you moved
your lips lower and lower down his sleek body.  Your tongue teased each
erect nipple as Justin body writhed underneath yours and you were careful
not to push him too far.  As your mouth wandered lower, you moved your hand
from his rock hard dick and massaged his inner thigh, Justin's most
sensitive spot.  As you took him into your mouth, you knew Justin could
hold back no longer.  You held him tightly as his body succumbed to
unwavering orgasm; the first of many he would have before your lovemaking
was through.  Exhausted, he laid in your arms and you tenderly ran your
fingers across his smiling face.

In a voice that was barely louder than a whisper he said, "I owe you one.
Can you give me just a couple of minutes?

"I'll give you all night, and every night, from here on out.  Just relax,
we're in no hurry."

He nestled up next to you, relishing the quiet time in your arms.

Within a few minutes, Justin began to recover and slowly ran his hand down
your chest, past your stomach and began to allow his hands to work their
magic.  His touch sent chills through every inch of you and the sweet taste
of his tongue swirling inside of your mouth made your body respond
immediately.  After several minutes Justin opened a bottle of flavored oils
and ran a thin line from the nape of you neck to his intended target.  He
slowly licked his way down your body and the anticipation of what was to
come was staggering. As his hands gently caressed your balls, he took you
into his waiting mouth sending shock waves through your body.  Finally,
when you thought you could take no more, Justin rolled onto his back
wrapping his arms around you and bringing you on top of him.

He said nothing, but his message was clear.  Still wet from the oils, you
entered him easily, amid his tender voice calling your name.  You paused
only briefly to allow his body time to adjust then passionately made love
to the man who was now yours forever.  Within minutes Justin's body once
again exploded with yet another powerful orgasm and you joined him, pulling
his body close to yours and holding him tightly as sweat drenched both of
your bodies.  It was unlike anything you had experienced before, lasting
for what seemed liked minutes and with an intensity that you had never
felt.  Breathless, you lay on top of Justin as he too struggled to
recuperate.  You lay motionless for several minutes, partly because neither
of you had the strength to move and partly because you both wanted to savor
the moment that you both had waited so long to enjoy.

It was a night of lovemaking that neither of you would ever forget.  Each
taking time to pleasure the other with short periods of soft whispers and
soothing touches intermingled with hours of passionate sex.  Sleep came at
some point, but when exactly, neither of you could remember.

TBC

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