Date: Tue, 10 Sep 2002 21:27:20 -0700
From: jcfan@shaw.ca
Subject: Dejected

Disclaimer and Copyright:
1. This story in no way indicates the sexuality of JC and Lance or any
members of 'NSync. This story is meant for pure enjoyment and entertainment.
2. This story is invloved around Love and relationships not sex.


Josh heard the key in the door.  He grabbed the kettle of hot water and
poured it through the tealeaves.  Josh reached up into the cupboard and
grabbed 2 mugs from the top shelf.  As he added the sugar and cream to the
mugs he heard the sound of Pachelbel's Canon in D Major come floating
upstairs from the den stereo.  Josh quickly added the tea to the mugs and
walked down the back stairs and then down the hallway to the den.

Lance was sitting on the chair leaning on his knees with his head in his
hands.  He didn't heard Josh approach from behind.  Lance began to
mournfully hum along to the music coming from the speakers.  He felt the
hands rubbing his shoulders but it didn't bring him out of his trance.

"Baby, have some tea, it might make you feel better." Josh said while
handing him the steaming mug.  Josh slipped in behind him on the chair and
pulled Lance into a reclining position with Lance leaning his head on
Josh's shoulder.

"Why do they think that it is easier for us?" Lance asked mournfully.

"What's that Pookie?" JC asked softly

"Anything." Lance replied. "Everyone thinks that just because you are rich
and famous everything is easy, it is also annoying that we are never
allowed to be unhappy."

"I know baby doll."  Josh lamented, "But it is the price that we have to
pay for the choices that we made."

"I worked really hard to get into space.  I tried to prove that I wasn't
just another spoiler celebrity that just pays his way in without having to
do any of the work.  It has been a dream of mine for...forever.  And now
that I can't go, I can't even be upset about it because people will just
say that I am just a whiny spoiled brat that didn't get his own way."

Joshua stroked his lover's hair and ran his fingers through James' fingers.
Just being there and letting his soul mate vent was the best thing to do in
times like this.  Trying to rationalize what was happening just made the
whole situation more frustrating.

"They just don't understand that rejection is hard no matter if you are
rich or poor, famous or not, black or white.  At least most other people
can act upset.  Not us we have to be in the spotlight.  I don't know what I
would do if I couldn't come home to your arms and just act the way that I
feel.  As much as they tell you to be real, I am not allowed to be real.  I
am forced to be the person that they want me to be."

Lance sunk deeper into Joshua's arms.

"I know baby, I know."  Josh whispered.

A single tear fell from Lance's eye just as Josh kissed the top of his
head.