Date: Sat, 29 Apr 2000 07:27:36 +0100 (BST) From: Lashrac Subject: destiny's decision chapter 3 Disclaimer, you know the deal, no reading unless you are over the age limit of 21 or whateva it is that your country says it is! blah blah blah! This story does not imply that anyone ('Nsync) mentioned here is gay blah blah, or that I know any of them personally blah blah....... I wish I did know them though, it wouldn't be all that bad. Woh, I actually got this far, I can't believe it. At first I thought I wasn't going to get much response, but all in all, its all been good. Really the only thing that means anything right now is, wow. And btw I can't be bothered with that clue thingo in this chapter. I got one response. AND IT WAS RIGHT! I can't think of anything special as a prize so there isn't one. I just wanted to add a little *something* in, something a little mysterious. **Destiny's Decision** |Previously on *Destiny's Decision*| Justin had noticed Jason's head resting on his shoulder, but didn't look down at him until the movie finished. When he did, he found a peaceful and lovely face sound asleep. He decided not to wake him, so he pulled the blanket over themselves, hesitantly he put his arm around Jason's sleeping form, and lightly kissed Jason's forehead. He lay his head back and thoughts screamed through it. 'Is he the one? Could he be....' His thought never finished as he too drifted into the world of dreams. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Chapter 3 *In the middle of the night, 3am* Justin eyes snapped open, his body was still, a layer of sweat covered his face. The last image of his nightmare replayed over and over in his mind. During the night he had ended up lying horizontally on the couch, his arms around Jason. He looked down at Jason, who was inches from his face and his mind forgot about the nightmare, only the words 'You're special, and I don't ever want to lose you', remained in his mind and a tear, a tear of longing rolled down his face. Finally the urge to sleep overwhelmed him and he drifted back into a peaceful slumber. *9:30am MONDAY* Justin woke up, this time in peace. Jason had not stirred since the previous 'awakening'. Justin decided to get up, and to do that, he had to wake Jason up. He lightly shook Jason, and the only response he got was of Jason turning his to face the otherway. Once more he shook him, this time harder and for a bit longer. Jason, still lost to the fact that his 'pillow' was Justin, buried his face into Justin's chest, which sent Justin into the giggles. Jason opened his sleepy eyes, and looked up. His 'pillow' had stopped laughing, and both were staring into each other's eyes, it seemed many words were exchanged within those seconds without ever being said, but the two looked away, full of confusion. "Um well, now that you're FINALLY awake, can I kinda get up?" Justin hesitated in being the first to speak. "Oh, sorry," Jason was blushing furiously while he got up, "sorry bout falling asleep on you last night." "That's OK, you better call your sister before she really calls the police." "OH SHIT! I forgot to tell her!" He ran and stumbled everywhere, until he found the phone. Justin was laughing all the way up the stairs and towards his room. "Sorry sis......yeah I know, I forgot to call......NO WE WERE NOT," he looked around to see if Justin was around "I fell asleep on his shoulder, and he became my pillow for the night.........NO WE AREN'T......." Justin had gotten changed into something more 'comfortable' and had made his way down into the kitchen where Jason was but didn't say anything as he heard the remainder of the conversation, "yeah, he's all that, and he's really nice, easy to talk to... fine sis, fine, I admit, he's cute......will you shutup about that, I don't know if he's gay......I doubt he is, I hafta go now, I'll be back soon...yes I haven't lost the address, just hangup will you.....bye. He turned around and saw Justin staring at him. "Oh hi Justin, d" before he finished his sentence Justin turned and ran up to his room. "Shit," Jason said to himself, "he must've heard us." He ran after Justin, hoping to catch him, but he was too slow and met face first with the door. 'SLAM' Jason fell backwards onto his back, the world spinning lazzily around him. He saw something moving but then everything blurred into blackness as he passed out from the impact. Justin had bolted up to his room, several tears ran down his face, after he heard Jason talking with his sister. All the time his head repeated 'Isn't this what you wanted? I thought he was special to you? Why do this?'. He reached his room, and slammed the door shut. Before he could even take a step away, he heard a load thud against it, and then a thud onto the floor outside. He turned around, opened the door and saw Jason lying on the floor holding his head. But before Justin could do anything Jason fell unconscious. "Oh shit, I've done it this time." Justin knelt down, picked up Jason and carried him into his room and put him onto his bed. After 15 minutes Jason began stirring. "Uhhhh.......what happened?" Jason couldn't quite remember what was going on. "I think you knocked yourself out when you ran into my door." Justin was relieved. "Oh yeah......" Jason reached up to rub his throbbing head "ouch, now I have a headache, I wonder if I have brain damamge now?" Jason tried lightening up the situation. Justin smiled at him, but didn't say anything. "Uhhhhhhhhhhh, my head is killing me!" Jason moaned out. "Get some rest, I'll get you some aspirin, you should feel better when you wake up." Justin got up to get the aspirin. "Thanx..." Jason was grateful to have met Justin, they had done so much, yet so little at the same time. Justin came back quickly, a glass of water in one hand and 2 aspirins in the other. He gave them to Jason, who devoured it all in one mouthful, and sat down on the chair next to the bed. "Are you going to just sit there and watch me sleep?" there was so much Jason wanted to know about Justin. "Until you fall asleep, otherwise I'll have this feeling all day." Justin was being stubborn again, and Jason let him do as he wanted. "Fine, do what you want." Jason snuggled into the bed buried his face into the pillow. After about half an hour Justin decided that Jason was asleep, he got up and walked over to his sleeping form. Jason looked so peaceful as he slept, his calm face and relaxed body made him look like an angel. Justin so desperately wanted to give Jason a light kiss, but he didn't know if he was asleep yet and so didn't. Jason had rolled over to one end of the bed, and so Justin decided to get a bit of rest too, to stop thinking about what happened this morning. Justin slowly got into the bed, alongside Jason, and stared up at the ceiling, thinking, of things that he had kept to himself for a couple of years now. *11:48am* Jason opened his eyes, to see Justin's face inches from his own. He had been asleep for an hour, but didn't know when Justin had gotten into the bed. Jason reached over and placed his hand on Justin's cheek and ran his fingers over the smooth skin. "I don't deserve this, it's all too good to be true, I don't deserve to be working for such great people...I don't deserve to have Justin as a friend." Jason whispered to himself. A tear slipped out of Jason's eye as he turned stared at the ceiling and so his pesimistic mind went to work again, 'Justin has done so much to welcome me to the group, and then, then I go and hammer him with me being gay. He probably hates me now, and the others would too, there's no point in me staying if I'm not welcomed.' By now, Jason had more tears running down his face. "That's not true, you deserve every bit of it." Justin had woken up when Jason touched his face, but didn't open his eyes. Not until he Jason had turned away. He had heard Jason whisper to himself, and then saw the tears slowly fall down his face as he stared up at the ceiling. "Justin?" Jason was surprised at Justin's sudden 'appearance'. He turned and was met by a pair of blue eyes, they seemed to stare straight through him and into his soul. "Jason, you deserve nothing less, you're a great person. I haven't known you for long, but destiny brought us together, I'm your friend and there's no changing that so you shouldn't think any less of yourself." Justin could just about feel the pain Jason felt. "Why Justin? why are you being so nice to me?" Jason could barely hold back his tears. "If this about you being gay, I don't care, it doesn't shape your whole life, I don't like people for what they are, its WHO they are that counts." Justin knew that this hard, for both of them, but at least there was going to be at least one person that would be there for him when he had to face it, Jason. "Thanx, this means alot to me, YOU mean alot to me. You're the only person apart from my sisters, my mum and Melissa that knows, and understands." Tears began rolling out of his eyes as Jason continued. "About half a year ago, I told my best friend that I was gay. We had been friends for a few years now, and I thought that maybe he would understand. But I was wrong, he didn't accept me as a friend anymore and told a few of my other friends, most of them don't bother talking to me anymore. Melissa was the only one who didn't care. We had never really been close friends, but from that point on, she became my best friend. She was there when I needed her and I was there when she needed me. We were like brother and sister and inseperable, that was until I said I was moving here for a job." "I'm sorry Jason," Justin pulled him into a tight hug, "I'm sorry for running out on you before, I" "Its ok, I never really expect a postive response from anyone anyway." Jason butted in before Justin finished. Justin had thought it through, Jason was willing to let him into his life as a trusted friend, and now he was going to do the same. "Jason, you would expect that from someone who didn't understand the real you, and for me to do that was wrong, especially if I'm in the same position as you." Justin had pulled up all the confidence he could muster to say that. Jason pulled away slightly, and stared deep into Justin's eyes, then hugged him back. "If you're trying to say that you're gay, then all I have to say is I'm glad you can take the courage to take the first step. Its always the hardest." "How'd you know you're the first?" "Lemme see, you gave me kiss on the forehead last night. And I don't think a guy really gives another guy your age a kiss goodnight." Jason started laughing while Justin was still in his arms. "Oh shut up...can you let go before you suffocate me?" Justin started laughing as well, but was more embarasssed that Jason hadn't been completely asleep last night. They let go of each other, and stared into each other's eyes. Justin leaned forward and placed his lips on Jason's. The embrace seemed to last for eternity, it was the first kiss for both of them, and it lasted until Jason ran out of air. They broke the embrace, but they now had a lot more than a mere friendship, their eyes had said everything to each other, and, after all the twists and turns fate has put them through, their destiny was to be in each other's hearts and face the world, together. WOH! sorry about the delay ppl! I didn't get around to finishing this chapter for a long time! but its out finally! I've begun chapter 4 and it is only a matter of time before I'm done! I had a small change of plans for this chapter, it went for a bit longer than I thought so I decided to stop at the GOOD part, and leave the rest for hte next chapter....I'm not a long chapter person, long chapters tire out the eyes. THANX FOR ALL THE EMAILS PPL!