Date: Sat, 29 Apr 2000 19:45:20 CDT From: Phantom Writer Subject: Reality-of-a-Guardian-Angel-4 "Reality of a Guardian Angel" By: Phantom Writer Legal Stuff: This material is not meant to be read by anyone under 18. If you're offended by literature with homosexual themes, step off! If not, read on. This is a work of FICTION. Therefore, the author makes no claims as to the sexual orientation of any member of *N Sync. Side Note: Sorry to everyone who thought part 3 of "Reality..." was the end. I forgot the "TBC" at the end. Anywho, for those just starting to read this story, please read the previous installments of "Dream of a Guardian Angel" and "Reality of a Guardian Angel." As always, for anyone who would like to send comments or suggestions, please do so. (phantomwriter73@hotmail.com) Special Thanks: I want to thank everyone who has sent feedback. I appreciate the comments. And to my Boo, thank you for keeping me in check! Previously...from "Reality of a Guardian Angel: A New Insight " "Jase, you are my guardian angel. I will love you 'til my dying day for what you've done for me. I would have never known my true love or been able to face my friends or my mom and told them I was gay and still had them in my life. I..." Justin's tears returned. Justin and I held each other and cried. Lance became so upset, that JC, Joey and Chris took him upstairs to Justin's room to lay down. JC returned and walked over to Justin and me. He pulled me from Justin's grasp and hugged me before leading me upstairs to be with Lance. Justin and Lynn talked for hours while JC, Joey, Chris, Lance and I all calmed down, and strangely enough, all fell asleep together on Justin's bed. And now, "Reality of a Guardian Angel: Safely in My Arms" I woke up when the bed moved and suddenly felt the weight of someone on top of me. I opened my eyes to see Justin lying across the five of us with a silly grin on his face. I couldn't help but start to giggle. Everyone was slowly waking up to the sound of my giggles and the added 'presence.' "Justin, I guess this is like a dream for you, Mr. 'Let me see some skin!'" Everyone laughed as Justin grinned slyly and winked. "Jase, this is better than a dream, it's REAL!" Justin smiled widely as I looked into his eyes and realized how happy he was. We all got up and rearranged ourselves on the bed. Justin told us all about how Lynn had opened up and admitted that she had suspected Justin might have been gay from the way he had looked at JC when he thought no one was looking. He also explained to Lynn that he wasn't planning on going public about being gay. Justin then surprised everyone. "Jase, Lance. I didn't tell my mom, but she knows you two are a couple." Justin had a serious expression on his face. Lance and I knew he spoke the truth. "And?" Lance said with some uncertainty. "She thinks it's kinda cute. She promised not to say anything to your family, Scoop. I think my mom realizes how difficult it is to confront being gay, let alone confronting your family." Justin ruffled Lances now bent and misplaced spiky hair. "Good. Now I don't have to hide how I feel when I'm around her!" I looked deeply into Lance's eyes and we both smiled. Eventually, we all went back downstairs and found Lynn sleeping on the couch. I decided to cook dinner for everyone and let the guys get everything sorted out. I gave Lance the keys to my vehicle and he took Joey and Chris back to their apartment so they could drop of their luggage and change clothes. Lance, Joey and Chris stopped off at Lance's so Lance could do the same. Once everyone was back together again, I went into the studio while the guys and Lynn talked in the den. The roast and vegetables would be ready in about thirty minutes, so I had some time to play the piano. I started playing and singing nothing in particular. I was shocked when Lynn touched my back. "My God, Jason. That was beautiful!" Lynn looked at me in amazement. "Please, call me Jase. All my friends do." I smiled at her and continued to play. "Can I ask you something?" Lynn said as she sat in the chair across the room. "Sure, anything!" "Have you ever considered a career in music?" Lynn was serious. "Sure, for about five seconds." I continued playing while we spoke. "Why only five seconds?" "Well, Lynn, music is a very private thing to me. It's my heart and soul. I could never take something so personal and turn it into a career. I even turned down Juilliard!" "Really?" "Yes. Music is my private place, where I can solve my problems and think about everything the troubles me. It's my shelter from the storm, in a way." I stopped playing and walked over to Lynn. "I understand. It's just..." I cut Lynn off. "It's just I'm so talented, right? Now I see where Justin gets his ability to recognize talent." I laughed. "Why do you say that?" Lynn looked puzzled. "Let's just say I've had this conversation before." I escorted Lynn into the kitchen as I checked on the roast. Lynn set the table and asked the guys to come help. After we all ate and talked, Lynn made the guys clean the kitchen while she and I continued talking in the den. Once the kitchen was sorted out, everyone congregated in the den. Lance came and sat in my lap and I kissed his neck softly. Joey and Chris didn't even think when they cuddled together on the love seat. "You too? I never would have put that together!" Lynn said in shock. "Well, such is the life of *N Sync plus one." Joey smiled, as did I when I noticed everyone was looking at me. I then realized I was the 'plus one' Joey had mentioned. "If I didn't know any better, I'd think Red is a sentimental ol' softy at heart! Chris, you must be good for Joey if you've got him sayin' things like that!" I started grinning. "Baby, Chris is OH SO GOOD for me!" Joey kissed Chris passionately and everyone started laughing, including Lynn. "Guys, don't take this the wrong way, but it's going to take me some time to get used to all of the male-male passion stuff. I think I'll head to bed and let you guys do what you do!" With that said, Lynn made her rounds and hugged everyone before returning up stairs. "Hey mom, when are you leaving to meet up with Paul and the kids?" Justin had obviously forgotten to ask earlier. "Oh honey, I'm sorry. I've got to leave tomorrow afternoon. I wish I could stay longer, but I know you guys are leaving on Monday morning to start promoting the release. I didn't expect to have to leave so soon, but the whole Europe thing was last minute, and I didn't have time to re-book my flight out tomorrow. I hope you're not mad?" Lynn was sincere. "No, I'm not mad. I just don't get to see that much of you any more, that's all." Justin hung his head. "Once you start getting ready for the tour, I'll be here for most of that time. It's just a month or so away until we can have some quality time together. Besides, I know someone who can keep you happy until then." Lynn said this as she looked at JC. JC kissed Justin's neck and whispered 'I love you' in his ear. "Good night!" We all said 'good night' and then contemplated watching a movie. Every one decided against it and decided a sleep over in Justin's room would be fun. It was silly in a way, since there was room enough for everyone to have a bed, but I realized the guys knew I needed them, and with the prospect of being gone for a month, they knew I would need to be with them as much as possible now. After everyone settled down on the bed or floor in Justin's room, we quickly fell asleep. The day had been long and with all the emotional tension, we were all exhausted. ...I was standing on the side of a stage, somewhere. I looked up and saw a huge stage light swaying vicariously directly above JC. I caught the glimmer of a metal object falling seconds before the light started to fall. I ran toward JC and pushed him out of the way of the falling light moments before is crashed onto the stage. JC was thrown clear; however, the brackets that should have held the light in place hit my left shoulder. I felt an odd sensation as the metal broke my collarbone and sliced into my flesh, causing blood to flow readily. I collapsed on the stage as I heard Lance scream 'NOOO'...and then I woke up. I was trembling and sweating like mad. "Jase, what's wrong?" Lance asked sleepily. "Nothing, just a dream." I couldn't say anything. I didn't know when or where my dream took place, I just knew I couldn't worry the guys with my nonsense. Morning came too soon. I hadn't been able to go right back to sleep after my dream, so I was exhausted. When I became aware of the world around me, I realized I was alone. Just when I was about to get up, Lance walked in with a large cup of coffee. I smiled at how well he knew me already. I'm a BITCH in the morning until I have my first cup of coffee. "Hey, I brought you somethin' to make your day start a little better." Lance carefully handed me the cup as I sat up and leaded my back against the bed. "Thank you, Boo." I took a sip and closed my eyes. "Are you sure you're OK? You want to tell me about your dream?" Lance was concerned. "No. I need to think about it for a while." Lance knew from my tone that I was serious. "OK. Just remember, when you're ready to talk, I'm here." Lance got up to leave. "I love you!" I looked at Lance as he turned to gaze into my eyes. "I love you too!" Lance walked out and left me to finish my coffee alone. I took a shower and raided Joey's closet again. I walked downstairs and heard laughter coming from the dining room. I stood out of sight for a minute as I heard Justin telling Lynn about how we first met in the MEN'S ROOM in Dallas at the airport. I continued to listen as everyone talked about all the sayings I constantly confused Joey with and how many pranks we had played on each other. I entered the room as Joey tried to use one of my expressions. "That's about as fresh as a dead buzzard!" I walked past everyone as I entered the kitchen to refill my coffee. "SEE WHAT I MEAN! He's always got something crazy to say!" Joey was beside himself. The entire house was filled with hysterical laughter. I returned to the dining room and sat by Lance, never cracking a smile. "You're right, boys. Jase IS a hand full." Lynn started laughing again. That afternoon, I took everyone to the airport to send Lynn on her way to her husband and kids minus Justin. The day was spent goofing off at Justin's and then I took Joey and Chris home. When I returned, Lance, JC and Justin were in a deep discussion, which stopped the minute I entered the room. "What are y'all up to?" I glared jokingly at JC, then Justin, and then Lance. "Nothin' at all, honest!" Lance stated quickly as he avoided my gaze. "Yah, and I'm Queen Elizabeth!" "Well, your Majesty, we humble ourselves in your presence." Justin fell out laughing after he said that. We all joined in the laughter. "You know, Capt'n, I think you're finally getting' the hang of it!" I smiled at Justin and play punched him in the arm. That evening, Lance and I returned to his, our apartment. I took him upstairs and drew a hot bath. I returned to see Lance puttering around the room putting dirty clothes in one pile, and putting the clean clothes from his suitcase back into his dresser. I cleared my throat and got his attention. "Your bath awaits!" I grabbed his arm and drug him into the bathroom. I slowly undressed Lance, taking my time and memorizing every inch of his body all over again. I led him to the bathtub and he got in. I removed my clothes and sat down in the hot water, pulling him down between my legs. I soaped up a washcloth and started washing his back. I washed every inch of him that evening and once the water was getting cool, I got out and dried Lance from head to toe. That night, we made love not twice, but three times. Lance and I fell asleep in each other's arms and never moved until the phone rang the next afternoon. Joey had called Justin and JC and wanted to get together for lunch. The day flew by as we sat around talking about the new album and how busy they would be. I was amazed at how excited they all were about getting to perform with Gloria Estefan at the Oscar Awards Ceremony the end of March. As night fell upon us, I realized that Lance needed to get home and pack since they were leaving early the next morning. Monday's still SUCKED, even though I wasn't working. Bright and early the next morning, I took the guys to the airport and sent them on their way. During the next two weeks, I busied myself looking for a house to call my new home. Lance and I spoke at least once a day, every day. I found a gorgeous two-story home with a huge yard, pool and a large perimeter security fence enclosing the entire property. Once the inspections were made, the papers signed, and the money exchanged, I had a new home just in time to surprise my Boo. It was the weekend of the Oscars and I decided to fly out to LA and surprise Lance and the guys. I knew they had to practice the following day I would arrive, but I didn't care. If only to be with Lance for a moment. I was tired of the phone relationship and needed to see him, to touch him, to be with him, to hold him safely in my arms. So, I flew out to LA and arrived just in time to pull a really good joke. I had contacted Jive and talked with the PR rep that had been at the Press Conference. I didn't go into any detail, but told her I needed to visit with the guys about some issues occurring back in Orlando. She said she would call the guys to let them know I was coming, but then I asked her to let me surprise them. Reluctantly, she agreed to play along and called the hotel to inform them to allow me access to the guys' floor. All was set. I lucked out and spotted a young man pushing a food cart up to Lance's door. I tipped him and told him I would deliver the food in person. Since I had given the guy a C-note, he didn't make much of a fuss. Now, the fun could begin. Luckily, when I flew out, I wore black slacks and a white dress shirt, so I 'looked' like one of the hotel staff. I knocked at the door. The door opened and I ducked my head down and pushed the cart into the room. Lance had answered the door and wasn't facing me. As Lance turned around trying to get money out of his pocket for a tip, he looked up to see my smiling face. "I hope I get more than some fuckin' money out of this!" I startled everyone. JC, Justin, Joey and Chris had been sitting around a table not paying any attention. "What...when...how..." Lance couldn't find the words he needed. "Now, if the interview is over, can I at least get a kiss?" I walked toward Lance and kissed him passionately. "JASE! You're here!" Joey jumped up as did everyone else and moved in to hug me. "No, this is a figment of your imagination, Red!" Joey damn near knocked me over when he hugged me. "What are you doing out here? Is something wrong?" JC asked me this and I got an odd sensation. "No, I just missed y'all. Besides, I've got some great news I couldn't tell y'all over the phone." I smiled as a thought entered my mind. "What is it?" Lance asked enthusiastically. "I think y'all better sit down for this one." I walked passed every one and sat down on the couch. "Jase, what's up?" Justin had a worried look on his face. I lowered my head to speak. "Well, I'm pregnant." Silence. Dead silence. "Huh?" Good ol' Joey. I looked up and started laughing uncontrollably. I couldn't help it. Obviously in the time we had been separated, the guys had forgotten how big of a smart-ass I really was. Moments later, we were all laughing. "Seriously, though. I do need to tell y'all somethin' important. But first, here's a little present for each of you." I fished five envelopes out of my carry-on bag and handed each of them an envelope. Each one opened their envelope and looked confused. "What's this?" Chris asked as he scrutinized the key and slip of paper with five numbers on it. "It's your key to my new home. I figured since each of you has been open with me, I would be a real PRICK not to return the favor. So, when I got my key, I had five copies made: one for each of you." Everyone got up and hugged me except Lance. "Boo, what's wrong?" I sat beside him. "You know what this means, don't you?" "What do you mean?" I was a little confused. "It means we'll NEVER have any time to ourselves. These guys will be spyin' on our asses 24/7, especially Mr. 'Let me see some skin' over there!" Lance busted out laughing. "Smart-ass!" I kissed him as we both continued to laugh. "So, you came all the way out to LA just to give us keys to a place we haven't even seen?" Justin looked at me with a silly grin. "Well, no. But I could show you some pictures of my place I got developed before I got on the plane if you're nice to me!" I play pouted. "PLEASE, PLEASE! I'll be nice, I PROMISE!" Justin was going into High Drama mode. "Well, I guess so." I pulled out the pictures and let the guys have a look-see. "DAMN, phat pad!" Chris's eyes bugged out as he looked over the pictures and passed them on. "How much did this place cost?" Lance said, never lifting his eyes from the pictures. "1.2" I stated flatly. "1.2 MILLION DOLLARS!" Lance looked at me with eyes so wide he looked like a barn owl. "Yah, but it's got 6 bedrooms, 4 bathrooms, a huge den, a gourmet kitchen, a study I'm going to put my piano in, and a pool. Best of all, it has a perimeter fence for security since the people I will be having as regular guests are like these big Pop-music stars with some crazy fans who do crazy shit. So, when Kevin, Brian, Howie, AJ and Nick come over, I don't..." I never got to finish what I was saying. All five of the guys tackled me and started tickling me and hitting me with pillows. Finally, we calmed down and the guys decided to eat. Lance kept trying to feed me his food, but I had eaten on the plane and wasn't hungry. (Airplane food will do that to you some times!) After the guys finished eating, I asked them what their schedule was like. "Tomorrow, we have rehearsals with Gloria and then we have to get ready for the show. Why?" Lance looked at me lovingly. "Well, I just thought I might tag along, if it's OK with you morons!" Again, I was clobbered with a pillow. "Yah, I think we can arrange that." Lance immediately started making calls. "Hey JC, what's that on your neck! Did you have a run in with a Vampire or somethin'?" Justin blushed as I asked this. "I said I was sorry! How was I to know you would take a hickey so quick?" Justin grabbed JC and pulled him in for a kiss. "So, we have a little Vampire in our midst. Hmm, Boo? If you EVER come home with a hickey anywhere on you, I hope *N Sync could make it as a quartet!" I started laughing at Justin's shocked look. The rest of the evening went by quickly. We all decided to go out clubbin' and didn't get in until after 2AM. Lance and I fell asleep almost instantly, after we made love of course. The morning came and the phone rang with that annoying computer bitch voice from the automated wake-up call system. I rolled over and watched Lance sleep peacefully. I decided to wake him up in a special way. "Umm...oh yessss...JASE, I'm CUMMING!" Lance screamed loudly as he came down my throat. I emerged from the covers and walked to the bathroom. Lance and I showered together before the guys came over for breakfast. When Joey and Chris entered, they both were grinning at Lance and me, but refused to tell us why. JC and Justin pulled the same shit, grinning like a fox in a hen house. "OK. What in the FUCK is wrong with you four? Did you just now realize that I'm so damn cute?" Lance play slapped my face. "Don't be a tease!" Lance smiled and kissed me gently. "No, it's just not every day we wake up to 'Umm...oh yessss...JASE, I'm CUMMING!' being heard next door. Lance turned 9 shades of red. After breakfast, everyone got ready to go to the Staples Center for practice. I was concerned about my presence, with the whole 'TABLOID THANG' and all. But, either everyone was too busy to notice, or no one cared, except one individual. "Gloria, I want you to meet a very special friend of ours. Jase, this is Gloria Estefan. Gloria, this is Jase!" "Jase, is it. I hope these guys haven't been too much to handle! It's a pleasure to meet you. And please accept my condolences on your loss!" Gloria put her hand out as I shook it. "Con mucho gusto, Gloria! Estes muchachos? Claro! Siempre me molestan con las chanzas! A proposito, muchas gracias por su tristeza." I hugged her. "Hablas bien la lengua! De donde eres?" "Soy de Tejas, pero acabo de mover a Orlando y compre' una casa alli'." "Excuse me, but what the hell is goin' on?" Joey looked at me in amazement. "What do you mean? I was just talkin' with Gloria until I was so RUDELY interrupted." I turned to Gloria and saw her smiling widely at me. "Why didn't you tell us you spoke Spanish?" Chris spoke up. "I don't remember anyone askin' me! Now, if you guys don't mind, I was in the middle of a conversation." I turned back to Gloria and was about to speak when Joey started in on me. "Nachos, tacos, burritos, guacamole..." Joey was doing his best Hispanic accent, which SUCKED! "Red, you best get to steppin', 'cause this is fixin' to get UGLY! Gloria, please excuse me for just a moment!" I ran after Joey and chased him until Lance stepped in. "Guys, we really need to get on with practice. Now, don't make me have to sit the both of you in separate corners!" Lance was not joking. "Yes, mother!" Joey and I said in unison. We all moved over to the section of the stage where Gloria and the guys would perform. I stood at the side of the stage against a black curtain. As the music started, I suddenly realized why I had come to LA. I looked up and saw a huge stage light swaying vicariously directly above JC. I caught the glimmer of a metal object falling seconds before the light started to fall. I ran toward JC and pushed him out of the way of the falling light moments before is crashed onto the stage. JC was thrown clear; however, the brackets that should have held the light in place hit my left shoulder. I felt an odd sensation as the metal broke my collarbone and sliced into my flesh, causing blood to flow readily. I collapsed on the stage as I heard Lance scream 'NOOO.' TBC... Jase just can't catch a break, can he! What was his news other than the house? We'll see!