EveryTime

by

Craigger

Hey guys it's me again and this is the new chapter of my story and I hope you like it. Don't forget my other stories "Bodyguard" and "Star Struck". And also Check out my Yahoo! Group with stories that aren't post on nifty. Comments go to CraiggersPlace@yahoo.com. L8ter guys...

Oh and though I wish I did, I do not know any of the celebrities mentioned in the story or anything of about their sexual preference. So get off my back ... and read the story. Unless you're too young... Oh and you don't like the idea of two guys together... Or it's illegal in you state or country, or where ever your backwoods home is.... and I can't think of anything else. So READ!!

Chapter Eight

Jeff and I spent the whole day together and we had fun. Though I found myself trying not to act to affectionate towards him for two reasons. One, because of his fame. The last thing I wanted was our picture on new stands everywhere. And two, because I wasn't sure how I felt about him yet. I mean I really liked him yes, but he had already told me he'd loved him and I wasn't about to hurt him.

"What are you thinking about?" Jeff asked me over hot chocolates.

"Nothing." I lied.

"Come on." he said reaching over and putting his hand over mine

Although I loved the gesture and the feel of his hand I slid mines out. "There are people around." I mumbled.

His hand reached out and he intertwined his fingers through mines. I looked up and saw fire burning in sea green eyes. "I don't care. I love you."

I looked around the warming house, there weren't a lot of people milling around. But I still looked to see if any one was paying attention. When came back to Jeff's eyes I saw something I wasn't sure about. "Jeff?"

"Stop being so over cautious. You have nothing to lose. This is my choice." He said softly.

"But I am not letting you make that choice." I said.

"So you're going to leave me like Nick?" he said with a little bit of bite.

I looked at him as I could feel my demeanor change colder than the weather outside. I snatched my hand back. "I am going to the car. if you're not there in when I get ready to leave you can find your way back." I said. Then I stood and walked away.

I was sitting on my fire escape. When we got back to my loft, it was clear that I was pissed at Jeff and I sure he was a little irritated with me. I climbed out on the fire escape and he sat in the living room watching the endless showings of sportscenter.

I had been enjoying the chill of the weather when I felt my cell ring. I took it out and opened it.

"Hello?" I asked.

"Hey Caleb." It was a voice I didn't recognize.

"Who is this?" I asked.

"Nick." He said.

"I sure hope there's a good reason why you're calling." I said my words dripping venom.

"I see you're still pissed with me." he said sighing.

"Oh my God. Who would have thought that I was still pissed with you? You only came back here under the pretense that you were looking for me because you loved me and then you convinced me to come back with you on tour only to find out that you and Jessica were dating.

"I must be out of my mind, what reason would I have to be mad for?" I said through clenched teeth.

"Ok I get it Caleb. I am sorry, but that would have never happened if..." I cut him off.

"We already had this conversation Nick. Now what do you want?" I asked.

"I wanted to know if it's ok if I come by to see Jeff?" he said.

"I can tell him to meet you somewhere?" I said countering.

"He won't meet me somewhere he barely talks to me." Nick said.

"So you're going to corner him in my loft? No way." I said.

"God Caleb, stop being a bitch! Just put Jeff on the phone." Nick almost yelled into the phone.

To say I was shocked was an understatement. "You have a nice evening Nick." I said and then hung up the phone as Nick yelled on the other end. I climbed back into the loft and walked into the living room. I found the remote on Jeff's lap. I reached for it and turned the TV off.

"You need to find a hotel." I said walking away.

"What?" Jeff said as I heard him stand.

"You need to find a hotel and stay there." I said again.

"What about me staying here. What about us?" he asked.

"There is no us. I am done with you guys. I mean all of you. I don't any thing to do with you, Nick, Drew, or Justin. Ever since you guys came into my life I have felt nothing but stress. Stress about my relationship, stress about worrying about if I was going to end up on some magazine cover, or some joke on some stupid show like hard copy. It's not worth it anymore. I just want a normal life and I can't have that with you guys apart of my life.

"I am soo screwed up! The first two guys I have really fallen for are fucking famous! I had to hide any type of relationship I had/have with them to protect their careers. I didn't come out of the closet so I could hide with the man I love. So, you need to find a hotel and forget about me." I said going into my bedroom and closing my door.

An hour later I heard the front door close quietly. I wasn't exactly sure what I did, I knew I'd miss them greatly shit I still miss Nick. But I had to do what was best for me and this was that. I had to keep telling myself that this was good for me. I also had to tell myself that I shouldn't cry over it. Because it wouldn't do me any good.

The next couple days I tried to forget that I knew 98*. I didn't want anything to do with them. I got rid of any that would remind me of the guys. Don't get me wrong, I still thought they were great guys, I just didn't think they were what I needed right now. Part of me kinda also wanted them to beg me to change my mind. But after a few days I slowly figured out that that wasn't going to happen any time soon.

So I decided to live my life with out the famous band members. I worked and went Christmas shopping with my best friend Manuela. It had been awhile I since I had seen her, but I kept her updated and she had felt that I had did the right thing.

Things had been going great until one night there was a knock on my door. I slid the metal heavy door open to find Jessica standing there. I stood there confused for a second. The last time I actually had a conversation with her, it was back in LA and she slapped me. I wonder what she wanted.

"Yes?" I said leaning against the door blocking her view into the loft.

Her eyes were looking anywhere but my mines. "This is a nice building you have here." She said trying to cover the wavier in her voice.

"Is there something you wanted?" I said.

She looked at me for a second. "You are impossible. I came here to talk to you about Nick and..." I cut her off.

"What about Nick?"

"He dumped me. We're over." She tried to hold back her tears but she was failing and my heart was breaking for her.

"Come in Jess." I said putting a hand on her shoulder and guiding her into the loft. I sat her down on the couch and got her a glass of water.

"He said he couldn't give me the things I needed and that I deserved more." She stopped for a second. "But I all I kept thinking was, Caleb was right. He was right and I didn't see it. At first I was mad at you but then I wised up and realized that I was just a rebound and I wasn't even a good one too.

"Sometimes we'd be sleeping at night and I'd hear him mumble your name. I was worried about it but then I'd think, if I didn't pay attention to it, it wasn't real. Or we'd be at the mall shopping and he'd say, without thinking, Caleb would like this. And I always felt like I was competing with you. Today I finally lost." She said putting her face in her hands and sobbing.

I sat next to her and rubbed her back, "It'll be ok sweetie. Things will get better."  I said trying to soothe her or at least get her to stop crying.

When she got her emotions under control, she turned to me. "So what are you going to do?" she asked.

"About what?" I asked a little confused.

"About Nick. Are you going back to him?" she asked.

"No, I think that ship has sailed." I said standing and walking over the window.

"Why because you're with Jeff?" she asked.

"No, I am not with Jeff either. I actually told him to forget about me and moving on with his life and if Nick comes knocking on my door I will probably do the same." I said.

"Why?" she gasped.

"Because, my life has just been more complicated then it needs to be with them in my life. So I am just try and live with out them for a while." I said.

She was quiet for a few moments. "I am sorry for slapping you." She said looking up at me.

"It's ok." I gave her a warm smile. "I knew I had pressed my luck with you anyway. I am so very sorry for the things I said anyway." I looked at this girl and I knew that she was a mess. The only way I knew that to get over a break up was to get pissy drunk.  "Hey can get you something a little stronger then a glass of water?"

She turned and looked at me and gave me a big smile through her tears. "I thought you'd never ask." She said handing me the glass of water.

A few shots later and a whole lot of laughing I sat there sitting with and couldn't help but think she was a great person.

"So," she slurred. "Both Jeff and Nick are into you, who are you going to choose?"

"Now listen, are you listening to me?" I slurred myself. "I... they are... I am not choosing them. I am going to leave them where they are at. I... those two very sexy men are making my life..." I tried to think of a word but my mind was a little foggy, "well I don't' know." I said.

"But... wait!" she said waving her hands. "What if they want to share you." She giggled.

My heart stopped and then I blew it off as the rambling of a drunken girl. I wouldn't know how dead on she was until the next day.

I awoke the next morning to a loud banging at my front door. My head was pounding as I fell out of bed. "Fuck!' I yelled. Jess and I didn't get to sleep until after 3am and I had to carry to her bed. Then the knocking at 7am in the morning, I wasn't even sure I was sober yet. I had a lot to drink last night.

I finally made it to the door. I slid it opened it to find Nick and Jeff standing there in very tense poses. I looked at both of them, trying to make sure my drunk, sleep deprived mind wasn't playing tricks on me. I pointed to Jeff, "Jeff?"

"Yes." Jeff said.

"Nick?" I said pointed to him.

"Are you ok?" Nick asked.

"I don't need this bullshit." I said turning and making a move to shut the door, when Nick grabbed the door from me.

"No wait! We, the three of us really need to talk." Nick almost pleaded with me.

"I don't think so. I already told Jeff how I felt on this situation and maybe he should fill you in." I said giving them both a withering look.

"I told you, this wasn't a good idea." Jeff muttered.

Nick turned to him. "Looked with talk about this and we agreed. Now grow some balls stick with it." Nick said in a harsh whisper.

"Yea we agreed but I never thought it was a good idea and you should watch your tone with me or..." I cut him off.

"Well it's nice to see you two talking again, but I am still a little buzzed from last night and I need you to explain what the fuck you two are talking about." I said and at the mention of me being buzzed from last night their faces shoot up.

"What happened last night?" Nick asked.

"And who'd you go out with?" Jeff threw in.

I looked at them both like they had fused at the brain or something. "Not that it's any of your business or anything. But Jess came over last night pretty distraught and I just helped her through some stuff." I said looking at Nick. I thought for a second. "Wait why are you two talking? And why are you two here for that matter?"

"Well it's kinda complicated." Jeff started. "We were thinking and we came up with some options about our situation." He said and then thought about his next words. Nick looked at him for a few seconds and then jumped in.

"Here's the deal, I am not ready to give you up yet and I know Jeff here feels the same. So instead of both of us losing you to some other joker, we came up with this. You can choose him or you can choose me or..." he said losing a little bit of his cocky attitude. "We're willing to put our difference aside and come together as a threesome." Nick said.

I stood there for a second; trying to figure out if I head them correctly. My head started swimming as I thought of the possibility of having these two gorgeous men at my side. I started to answer, not really sure of what I was going to say when a voice behind me yelled.

"I knew it! I told this was going to happen." Jess yelled.

Hey guys.. there it is.. i hope you like it and until the next chapter... you guys have fun.. Laters....