Date: Mon, 19 Jun 2000 17:22:53 -0400 (EDT) From: JT Subject: Fated Love This story is fiction. It doesn't represent the sexuality of any member of N'sync. Please don't read if gay sex offends you. Otherwise, go ahead and read it. I hope you enjoy it. Chapter 4 "I love you TT, heh, heh, heh, I love you so much. Please tell me you love me baby" JC pleaded desperately in the heat of passion as he pushed in and out of me. Then he lifted me up and let me sat on his lap. He was so hot, so turned on that he held my hips and lifted me up, then forced me down quickly on is cock. "I love you JC. I love you. I love you so much" I screamed as I wrapped my arms around his neck. I bit hard into his shoulder as his thrusts got stronger and stronger, faster and faster inside of me. I could feel his cock rubbing against my prostate as my cock rubbed against his stomach every time he pushed me up and down. I shot and shot as JC erupted inside of me at the same time. His arms wrapped tightly around my back when he came. His grip was so strong that I felt like he almost broke my spine. When we finished, we fell down on the beach as our stomachs were glued together by my cum. He bent down and kissed me. I raised my head to kiss him back. When we separated ourselves, I lay down on my back closing my eyes enjoying the wonderful feeling he has just given to my body. He was half lying down and propping himself up by his elbows. He reached for the bottle of champagne and opened it. Then he poured some down on my belly. I quickly raised my head to look at him as my body came into contact with the cold of the golden fluid. He laughed at my reaction and fished his hand into the basket to get a strawberry. Then he dipped it in my belly button and swirled it around. He ate half of the strawberry and fed me the other half. Next he moved back down on my stomach and drank the champagne. He stuck his tounge deep into my belly button as he licked all over the champagne and my cum from our lovemaking. "That tickles baby" I giggled as I tried to control the tingling sensations he gave my body "Isn't it ironic?" I asked. "What's ironic my love?" he asked smiling at me. "Well? Aren't you supposed to do the foreplay before having sex? We did the opposite. We made love first and now we're doing the foreplay" I laughed. He moved up and gave me a quick kiss on the lips before whispering into my ear "That was the foreplay baby. It was just a warm-up. You didn't think we're finished did you? Because I'm ready for another round. I'm gonna make love to you until your body can't take it no more TT. I'm gonna make love to you until you're so exhausted that you have to beg me to stop my love" he nibbled on my ear and began to suck on my neck. I was shivering, my body was trembling the whole time he whispered to me. I got goose bumps all over my body as excitement and chills were sent out through my entire body. I believed I got myself a perfect man, a man who has strength of an ox, and stamina lasts like an energized bunny. Truly to his words, he made love to me a long, long time. This was the second time we made love. The setting wasn't the same but it wasn't less romantic. It wasn't less beautiful. I believed it was even more meaningful and more romantic than our first time. I always dream and fantasize of making love on the beach in open place where Heaven and Earth would be the witnesses for our union, and it finally came true. We were making love under millions of stars, and they were sparkling, shinning and smiling happily for us in the sky. The gentle breezes blew pleasantly around us, circling around our bodies as if they were dancing to the heavenly music made by the sound of the waves that come crashing down at the shore. Everything around us seemed to join together to make up a beautiful song to congratulate us for our immaculate love. When he finished, I was so exhausted that I could barely move a finger. He lifted me up and carried me inside the house to the bathroom. I couldn't do anything as I let JC did everything. He cleaned both of us. Our bodies were covered in sweats and cum. Then he carried me back into the bedroom as he lay me gently down on the bed. I felt so happy that I just wanted to shout it out to the whole world. He let me rest my head on his left arm as he was lying on his side. He brushed away a few strands of hair on my forehead and kissed it. "JC?" "Yes baby!" "I can't sleep. Can you sing to me?" "What do you want me to sing for you my love?" he asked me softly as he caressed my cheeks. "Anything. I just want to listen to your soothing voice" "Ok!" he pondered for a few seconds to come up with a song. I could stay awake just to hear you breathing Watching you smile while you are sleeping While you're far away and dreaming I could spend my life in this sweet surrender I could stay lost in this moment forever Every moment spent with you Is a moment I treasure Don't wanna close my eyes Don't wanna fall asleep 'Cause I'd miss you, baby And I don't wanna miss a thing 'Cause even when I dream of you The sweetest dream would never do I'd still miss you, baby And I don't wanna miss a thing Laying close to you Feeling your heart beating And I'm wondering what you're dreaming Wondering if it's me you're seeing Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together I just wanna stay with you In this moment forever, forever and ever Don't wanna close my eyes Don't wanna fall asleep 'Cause I'd miss you, baby And I don't wanna miss a thing 'Cause even when I dream of you The sweetest dream would never do I'd still miss you, baby And I don't wanna miss a thing I don't wanna miss one smile I don't wanna miss one kiss I just wanna be with you Right here with you, just like this I just wanna hold you close Feel your heart so close to mine And just stay here in this moment For all the rest of time Don't wanna close my eyes Don't wanna fall asleep 'Cause I'd miss you, baby And I don't wanna miss a thing 'Cause even when I dream of you The sweetest dream would never do 'Cause I'd still miss you, baby And I don't wanna miss a thing Don't wanna close my eyes Don't wanna fall asleep 'Cause I'd miss you, baby And I don't wanna miss a thing 'Cause even when I dream of you The sweetest dream would never do I'd still miss you, baby And I don't wanna miss a thing Don't wanna close my eyes Don't wanna fall asleep, yeah I don't wanna miss a thing. My eyelids began to drop as I listened to his powerful, magnificent voice. I fought to keep my eyes open. I tried to resist the sleep that was slowly taking over "Ilovey" I couldn't even finish the last word as I drifted off to dreamland. JC smiled, and gave me a kiss on the lips "I love you too baby. More than anything." He chuckled when he saw the smile on my face in my sleep. "He wasn't this tired the first time we made love. I guess I really wore him out this time" JC thought to himself. He lay down next to me as he nuzzled my neck and pulled me closer to his body. Simultaneously, I snuggled happily in his arms. Soon he joined me in the wonderful dreamland where only two of us exist. I woke up in the morning as the sunlight reflected on my face. I turned my head to look at JC. He looked so peaceful in his sleep that I didn't want to wake him up. I slowly and carefully untangled myself from his body without waking him up. I went to the bathroom to brush my teeth and wash my face. When I got back into the bedroom to look at JC, he was still sleeping soundly on the bed. Somehow he has changed his position. He has rolled over and lay on his stomach. His face was pressed into the pillow. I chuckled wondering how he could sleep and breathe in that state. I walked into the kitchen to make breakfast. After what we did last night, I figured he worked up quite an appetite. I was busy preparing breakfast, I didn't even know it until a pair of arms wrapped around my waist, and a pair of lips soon touched my neck. "Mister, you should leave, my boyfriend will wake up soon. If he finds you here, he'll kill both of us" I joked. "How can he sleep while you are out here doing all the works? You know if you're my boyfriend, I wouldn't let you move a finger, and I would never let you out of my sight" "How can you do that?" I sighed happily. "Do what baby?" "Being so cute and sweet at the same time." "I don't know. Maybe because I'm with you?" he said as he began to kiss and suck on my neck. "Stop it JC! I'm cooking here" I spoke as a moan involuntarily escaped from my mouth. "It can wait or we can skip it" he replied as he started to grind his crotch into my butts. I could feel his cock was getting harder and bigger behind me. "I'm almost done honey bear. Just wait for fifteen minutes" I said as I spread my legs when he nudged my legs with his knees. "I don't think I can wait that long TT" he whispered as he sucked harder on my neck. He knew this is my weak spot, and he knew that i would submit to him totally whenever he does this. His hands moved down and pulled off my boxer as I stepped out it while he removed his own. Then he ground harder into my butts. I could feel his cock rubbing against my crack while his hands ran up and down my body. I pressed my back tightly against his body, enjoying the heat transmitted to me from his body. I managed to turn off the stove before he lifted my up and carried me away. We moved to the dining table, with one arm carrying me, he used the other to swipe everything off the table in a swift movement. His action was so manly so masculine that he made me melt in his arms. He lay me down on the table, grabbed my ankles, spread my legs and situated himself between my legs. I knew what would be happening next, and I was waiting eagerly for his entrance. I was surprised and intrigued at horniness, his insatiable hunger for sex. "Fuck me JC" I said suddenly. "You don't have to tell me baby. I would love to make love to you anytime" "No, I don't want you to make love to me. I want you to fuck me. I want you to fuck me hard and deep. I want you to give me every inch of that big cock" I looked at him lustfully as he smeared his cock at my asshole. My body was burning up with desire. He seemed shocked at my language nevertheless excitingly aroused by it. I wanted it so bad, and I knew he wanted it too. Without warning, in a quick, rough thrust, he pushed it all the way inside of me. I was yelling with pain for I wasn't ready for his intruding. Yet that didn't stop him as he pulled his cock almost all the way out and quickly pushed it back in. In and out, back and forth he began to pull his cock back and thrust into me fully, giving me every inch of his cock with each thrust. I was writhing, biting my lips trying to control myself from screaming. But I was lost by the feeling of his cock inside of me. "Yes, yes JC, fuck me, fuck me harder, harder" I screamed with his every thrust. I spread my legs wider, letting him have more access into me as I began to push my ass back to follow his rhythm. Initially, I was embarrassed, I was ashamed for asking him to fuck me. But all those were gone and I was glad that I did it. I was glad that I had a chance to experience this incredible feeling. "Oh baby, oh! You're so good. Oh Tom! Your ass is so hot, so tight" JC moaned loudly as he continued his assaults on my body. His fingers sank deep into my legs as he tried to pull them apart, almost splitting me in halves. That was it. The moment I heard JC's voice, the moment I heard his moaning, I came and came, and came. I've never come so much in my life. I was submitting myself totally to him. I was giving in to him completely. Seeing me cum excited JC even more as he picked up his speed and fucked me faster and faster. I could feel his balls slapping against my butts with his thrusts as my hands clutched tightly on the table to enjoy the feeling of him inside of me. "Yes, yes! Take it! Take it baby! Take it! Oh shit! I'm gonna cum. I'm gonna cum. Do you want me to cum inside of you baby? Do you want me to cum inside of you my love?" he didn't wait for my answer as he quickly sealed my mouth with his kiss. I couldn't say anything. All I could do was moaned in his mouth as he held my face with his hands to pull me into the kiss. I could feel his cock expanded inside of me, and he crashed down on top of me as he came, holding on to me tightly. For the second time in a short period of time, I cummed together, and at the same time with him. He rolled over on his back and pulled me on top of him, holding in his strong arms. We lay there for a while enjoying the incredible feeling, the wonderful sensation our bodies experienced with him still inside of me. I felt so good, so good that I couldn't even describe it. It was a feeling of being full, being completed, and I would never want him to take his cock out of me. I wish that it could stay there forever, forever inside of me. "Wow! Let's wash up baby! I'm so spent, I don't think I could get my dick up for a long time. Furthermore, with all the sex we had, I'm fucking hungry" he chuckled as his hands smoothly and gently ran up and down my back, caressing me lovingly. "Anything you say stud. Anything you say" We took a quick shower because neither one of us had any energy left to do anything, and we were so hungry. While we sat down and ate the breakfast silently. At one point, I could feel that JC was staring at me. When I looked up, I met his gaze. He was looking at me intensely. I was shaking a little by his stare, and I felt all the blood began to rush to my head. I could feel my face and my ears getting hotter and hotter by the seconds. When he saw me looking at him, he immediately mouthed the words "I love you." I didn't know why but I felt so embarrassed, yet extremely happy at the same time. I quickly casted my eyes down on the table to avoid his gaze. I could hear him chuckle lowly. I raised my head to look at him and saw he was teasing me with his grinning, I raised my hand and gave him the middle finger. "I'm sorry to disappoint you baby but no can't do. We have to wait until tonight so I can recuperate" he said shaking his head. "oooh! What happens? Did I wear you out? Ahh! I thought you're more than that honey bear. We only did it once, and you're finished? Hmm! Somebody is getting old" "Whatever you say baby! Whatever you say! Wait until tonight and see. I show you. I show you who is getting old. You will have to beg me to stop" "Promises, promises. Anybody can say that you know? But I still love you anyway. Even though you're getting old and weak" I chuckled. "I love you too, and it's not a promise. You'll see tonight" We finished the breakfast in silence. Neither one of use said anything. We just sat there eating our breakfast while enjoying the company of the other. Once in a while, we would look at each other and smile. The atmosphere was filled with love and passion. This was the moment I love so much. This was the moment I appreciated more than anything. "Let's take a walk baby!" JC spoke suddenly. "Ok! Let me clean up and then we go" I replied happily. Ten minutes later, we were walking slowly on the beach, holding each other hands. Since it was secluded, we didn't have to worry about JC being recognized. I was kicking the sand, swinging our hands slightly as we walked. I felt so happy, and I'm glad that we had a chance to be together. I was shaking with the excitement as I thought about spending the whole week with him without any disturbances, just the two of us. I sighed happily. Life could never be any better for me. I could never feel any happier than this. I finally found my real love. Suddenly a poem came to my mind as I recited it lowly. Everyday and every night, I think of holding you tight. I love the sight of your face, when you're not with me it's such a disgrace. I love looking through your sparkling eyes, If I ever lost you, I know I'd die! Real love it keeps coming to me, yours is the only one I need. Real love, I hope you stay on my side, when I'm with you there's no reason to hide. Please tell me you'll be with me till the end to time. Please tell me you'll never leave me, Please tell me you'll always need me. Please tell me I'm the only one on your list, You don't know how much I need to hear this. You're the only one in my mind. When you're with me you won't hear the same repeated line. I just want to know that you'll always be mine! Please don't leave me, you'll break my heart. The only thing I'm fearing is that we'll depart. You say you love me, and I can see through your eyes. "That's beautiful baby! What is the name of the poem?" "You like it? It's called Real Love. It belongs to my cousin. Her name is Melissa. She is really talented and romantic, just like you. She writes lots of poem but this is the only one I remember. I used to love this poem, I love it even more now because it describes our relationship perfectly" "Are you happy with me baby?" JC asked suddenly after hearing what I said "What do you mean JC?" I asked surprisingly. "I mean are you happy being with me? Are you happy with the way we live? You'll lose out a lot if you stay with me. We can't do many things that other couples normally do. We can't express out love for each other publicly. We're hiding" "Shhh!" I quickly interrupted him. I brought his hand to my lips and kissed it "Yes, you're right when you say that we can't express our love publicly but it's so trivial, so insignificant compared to your love for me JC. Off course I'm happy being with you. I'm so happy that when I woke up this morning, I told myself that I couldn't ask for anything more. I don't need anything more. I don't see any reason why we have to tell people about us. I don't feel we're hiding anything because what we do is our own business. I don't care if anybody judges me. I don't care if anybody disapproves or approves my relationship with you. I'm not living with them. I live with you, and as long as you love me, that's all matter to me" I finished talking and looked up and him. I shook lightly when I looked into his eyes. A shiver began to spread though out my entire body, up and down my spine. I knew that look. That look was full of passion, trust, loving and lust. He was looking at me intensely. If look could kill, I would have died a happy person. "I love you Tommy. I love you so much. You always know how to make me feel better" his voice sounded so serious and sincere. "I love you too JC. I would do anything just to be with you. I don't know what will happen to me if God forbids someday you'll leave me. I will wither, I will die slowly like a flower in a desert on a midday" I tried to look away from him as I felt my eyes were watering. I couldn't help but thinking about that sometime because I always believe that nothing lasts forever. As much as I hate it, but I couldn't help thinking someday our relationship would come to an end. And I dreaded for that day. Call me a fool. Call me crazy but that how I felt, that how I believed. He held my face gently with his hand and turned me around slowly to look at him "Look at me Tom!" My face was only inches away from his but I tried to look away. I tried to avoid looking into his eyes. I couldn't bear to face him at that instant. "Please look at me baby" he pleaded desperately. He sounded so vulnerable at that moment that I couldn't help but turned around and looked at him "You know you really hurt me every time you doubt my love for you. It's killing me every time you do this baby. I don't know what I have to do to make you believe that I love you with all my heart. I don't know what I have to do to make you see that I would never leave you. The day I leave you is the day I'm six feet under." He grabbed my hand and put it in his shirt to pull out his half of the heart pendant "Didn't you tell me that we'll be together as long as we wear this?" Then he pulled out my half and put them together in the shape of a heart "Don't you see that you possess half of my heart as I possess half of yours? I can't live without your half Tom. So if I would ever leave you, which I never will, I would wither and I would die slowly too baby. You're my life, you're my everything TT. So do you believe now when I tell you that I would never leave you?" I could only nod and nod as tears kept rolling down my face "I'm sorry JC. I'm so sorry. I couldn't help it but thinking about that every time I'm with you. I'm so scared JC I..." I couldn't finish what I was trying to say as he leaned in and kissed me. He was so gentle as he took his time and kissed me slowly. The only thing matter to him right now was getting rid of all the doubts in my head, and he tried to do that by showing me how much he loves me through the kiss. It was a pure, tender loving kiss. When he pulled back, he slowly moved back in and gave me soft kisses on my lips over and over again. He didn't stop until he saw the smile on my face. "I love you Joshua Scott Chasez" I mumbled. "I know! I know, and I love you too" his face was beaming with happiness. He grabbed my hand and we continued our walk again. We were walking for a while until he turned around and asked me "Who's Ethan, baby?" I squeezed his hand tightly the second I heard him asking. I knew he would ask about Ethan sooner or later. I knew that the subject would come up eventually but I tried to put it off as long as possible. It's not like I didn't want to tell him. In fact, I have tried to tell him so many times but I couldn't bring myself to do it because I wasn't ready. I wasn't ready before, and I wasn't ready now, especially now. "Can we not talk about this now JC? I mean I'll tell you but not right now. I promise you that I will tell you when I'm ready" "You don't have to tell me if you don't want to Tom. I was just wandering what he did to make you so scared of him. I hate it when the person I care and love so much is hurting, and I can do nothing about it." "No, no, I do want to tell you but not right now" I was quickly put in a defensive mode "Right now, I don't want to think about anything but just the two of us. "K!" was all that he said. The rest of the walk was very silent, awkward and uncomfortable. Somehow, the magical moment we shared a little while ago has died. I tried to come up with something to start a conversation but nothing came to mind my. My head was spinning with millions of thoughts and ideas, yet nothing came out of my mouth. I was frustrated because the longer we stayed in silent, the deeper our relationship would be affected by it. Finally I gave up and said softly "I love you" I could feel his body was shaking a little. His grip was tightened a bit as he replied "I love you too baby. I'm sorry for asking. I'm sorry for ruin a perfect day like this" he sounded so fragile, and guilty. I already felt so bad for not telling him, and he made me feel even worse when he took all the blame on himself. "You don't have to say sorry JC. You didn't do anything wrong. I would have done the same thing if I were you. Let's go home. We can veg out in front of the TV or we can stay in bed and cuddle. Hey, we can even do better. We can try and make some babies, and you can show me what kind of a stud you are. I don't think I can wait until tonight" I grinned mischievously. I got so excited as the image of him and me making hot passionate love on the bed. I didn't even realize that I had formed a tent in my boxers. "Hmm! I like those suggestions. Let's go! Oh baby you need to calm down. It's not really easy and comfortable to walk with that" he said pointing to my crotch "Does that thing ever go down, hornball?" "not when I'm with you. You know how sexy you are. So don't be surprised when you see I have it up all day. You know you have this effect on me babe. If you 're a good boyfriend, you can help me to get rid of this problem you know?" I hinted. "You mean?" he asked squinting his eyebrows together when he looked at me. "Yes, you give good head, and I want you to give me head." I said boldly. I couldn't ever believe I said that myself. "Now?" "No, when I'm dead. Off course now" I laughed. "Ok!" he shrugged. He kneeled down in front of me as he pulled my boxers off. He moved in closer and licked the head of my cock. A moan immediately escaped from my mouth, and I moaned louder as my cock was engulfed by JC's hot mouth. The warmth of his mouth on my cock was incredible. I couldn't stand it as I grabbed his head and pulled it all the way down on my cock. I let out a cry as JC began to suck harder and harder on my cock. With my hands still on his head, I tried to make him go faster and faster on my cock. I could feel his nose rubbing against my pubes every time he took me all the way down. What excited me more was JC let me take control of everything. He let me fuck his face. The image of JC kneeling in front of me sucking my cock pushed me to the edge. "Oh...JC..oh yes...yes" I tried not to moan, I tried not to scream but the pleasure JC was giving to my cock was incredible. I shot and shot down in his mouth, and he took it all without spilling a drop. When I finished cumming I felt my knees were weakening. I felt so weak that I couldn't stand as I slowly felt down, kneeling in front of JC. He caught me and both of us were kneeling on the sand. "Are you ok baby?" "Yeah! I'm ok. Wow! You're amazing" I said leaning in and rested my head on his chest. JC pulled both of us up on our feet while still holding me in his arms. It took a little bit before I could stand firmly "Hmm! It will be much easier to walk now without that stick. Thank you babe! I love you heap. Ok! Let's go home and make babies" I grabbed his hand to walk home after I put my boxers on. "It's easier for you but not for me. Now I got the same problem. Will you help me out baby?" he looked a me as he batted his eyes, and looked down at his crotch. Then he looked up and gave me a puppy face. I couldn't help but fell down and laughed at the way he acted. He looked so cute when he did that. I laughed so hard that my face was stained with tears, and my stomach hurt like hell. "It's not that funny baby! And how can you laugh while JC junior is trapped and confined like that? You know he loves you very much, and I thought you love him too" he pouted a little. "Off course I love him. That's why we have to hurry home" I replied as I increased my speed and ran home quickly. Needless to say, we began to tear each other's clothes off the second we got inside of the house. We made love on the floor in the living room, we made love on the sofa. In fact we made love everywhere in the house. The whole week, we spent all the time together, doing everything and anything together. I loved every second, every minute I spent with him. I wished that we could stay here forever, just the two of us. I forgot everything. I didn't remember my family. I didn't remember Amy and Kenny. Only JC was on my mind, him, his sexy body and JC junior. I was in heaven. "How do you like the week we spent together baby?" JC asked me when we were sitting on a plane on our way back home. "I love it. I love it so much JC. I'm glad that we spent this week together here" I said happily as I leaned back against the chair relaxing. "I'm glad that we did too" JC took hold of my hand and squeezed it gently "Baby, can I ask you something?" "You can ask me anything JC, anything" "You don't have to go back to school until September right?" "Eh huh!" I said lowly as my eyes began to close. "I know this is too soon but do you want to come and live with me until then?" he asked shyly. I quickly opened my eyes and looked at him "Off course I do JC. But I have to go home first. I have gone away for a long time. Is that ok?" I asked excitedly. "Sure TT!" "Furthermore I have something to do anyway" I mumbled lowly so that JC couldn't hear me. "What did you say baby?" "Nothing!" I lied. "No, no, I heard you said something. Come on! Tell me" he insisted. "You know that you're my first love right?" "Yeah! I know I'm your first love Tom, and your last, I hope" he said smiling at me. "I love you JC. You make it so easy for me to love you more and more each day. You always know the right thing to say" I sighed. "Same here my love, same here. Ok! What are you trying to tell me?" "The reason I want to go home first because I want to tell my family about my relationship. I want to come out to them. I don't want to hide anymore JC" I stopped looking at him. There was a moment of silence between us. "If that's what you want then go ahead and do it. Do you want me to be there with you?" "Yes, I do want you to be there with me at that moment. I'm really scared JC. I need your support" I was shaking a little as he squeezed my hand gently. "Don't worry babe! Everything's gonna be ok!" he assured me. "I hope so!" I replied still unsure of what would happen. The rest of the time we spent talking about everything else happily. Once in a while, JC would look around to see if the coast is clear, then he would give me a quick kiss. I was so happy and frustrated at the same time. I knew, and I believed that there's nothing wrong with our relationship. I just hated that we have to hide it. I just hated that we have to watch whatever we're doing. "Did you arrange for transportation babe?" I asked him. "Yep! You don't have to worry about that. I already arranged a limo. When you're with me, you travel in style baby" He grinned. We were carrying our luggage and exiting the airport. Soon we got into a waiting limo. Once we were inside the limo, he pulled me in and kissed me. "Wow! I've been waiting to do that forever" "Me too. Me too. Can we do that again JC?" "You don't have to ask baby" we moved slowly towards each other. Our heads tilted a little. Soon our lips touched. We took time and kissed each other slowly. When we stopped, he pused me back gentle as he gave me small kisses on my lips and gradually moved to my ear where he licked my earlobe and whispered seductively "Have you ever thought about making love in a car baby?" JC was lying on top of me when he asked this. The sound of his sexy voice whispering into my ear, his hot breath and licking on my neck were incredible. I was shaking with exciting "Yes, I thought about it sometimes" He began to grind into my leg. I could feel his hardening cock rubbing against my thigh "But not now JC, I'm really tired" I replied regretfully. As much as I wanted to do it with him, I was exhausted. Flying always has this effect on me. "But I need you baby. Please! Please help me out here" his grinding became stronger and faster as he pleaded "I want you. I want you so bad" "Why don't you jerk yourself off?" "But it's not the same. I want to be inside of you. I want to feel your tight ass on my cock right now " he pouted a little as he grabbed my hand and moved it down slowly into his pants toward his cock. My hand immediately wrapped around the erected shaft. It was so big my fingers couldn't wrap fully around it, and it was really hot also. The heat and the soft skin of his cock felt incredible in my hand. I squeezed it tightly and started to move slowly up and down on the long shaft which evoked soft moans from him. "Oh..Oh yes! Faster please Tom, faster" his moans were getting louder and louder that I had to move in to kiss him to suppress the noise level. I could hear him moaning in my mouth as I squeezed his cock tighter and jerked him off faster. With the other free hand, I reached for his pants and unbuttoned it. I pulled his pants and his boxers down to expose his beautiful hardening member. My hand began to move feverishly up and down on his now free cock "Oh TT...Oh...I'm gonna cum...Oh" Without thinking, I bent down and took JC's cock in my mouth. I only sucked on his cock a couple times before he came in my mouth. Yet that didn't stop me from sucking his cock. In fact, I began to suck harder and harder, milking him to the last drop. I ignored the cum that spilt from my mouth as I went on sucking his cock until he had to stop me. "It's very sensitive baby" he said as he pulled my up. "Sorry!" I giggled "You feel better now?" I asked. "Much better. Thank you babe! Even though that was not what I have in mind, but thanks anyway." "I'm sorry JC. I'm really tired" "It's ok baby. It's ok. You don't have to say sorry" he quickly assured me and pulled my head on his chest. I pressed my face tightly against his chest as I inhaled heavily to take in the wonderful smell of his body and perfume as I wrapped my arms around his waist. I stayed like that for a few minutes before my eyelids began to close slowly. I didn't know how long I sleep until I was waken up by his beautiful voice. "TT wake up! Wake up baby!" "Hmm? Where are we?" I asked looking around. "We just pulled off in front of your house. Are you always this tired after a flight? You slept the whole time without waking up once" he smiled at me. "I did? I didn't know that. Sorry babe!" "It's ok! Let's go! Do you want to leave the luggage in the limo or you want to carry them inside?" "Is it ok with you if we stay here today and go to your place tomorrow?" I asked. "That would be great" We got off and carried our luggage to my house after JC gave the driver some tips. I reached into my pocket to pull out the key and unlocked the door. I looked out on the driveway to see that my dad and mom's cars were there, so they must be home. "Hello! Mom! Dad! I'm home" I yelled excited, no responses. I walked into the living room "BOO!" somebody jumped in front of me and scared the shit out of me as I clasped on my chest. "Scared ya, didn't I?" my sister was laughing hysterically. "Oh my god! You almost gave me a heart attack Sis. What are you doing here? When did you come here?" I bombarded her with question the second I got over the shock. "I just came a couple days ago. What? Can't I even come and visit my little bro?" we were busy talking to each other, we forgot about JC who stood there watching us silently "Oh I'm sorry! Who's this good-looking hunk here?" "Oh! I'm sorry. I forgot to introduce. JC, this is my sister Jennifer, and Sis this is JC" "Hi! How are you doing?" JC stuck out his hand to shake my sister's hand shyly. I couldn't help but chuckled at his action. Never in my wildest dream I could picture him being shy. A hunk likes him acting shy in front of little girl. Hmm! That's something you don't see everyday. "I would love to stay here and chat with you Sis But I have to go unpack and get something to eat. I'll talk to you later" I gave my sister a hug before going upstairs "JC, you could put your clothes in my room" I motioned for JC to come with me. "Where are mom and dad? How come they are not here?" I turned around and asked my sister. "They just went out with Johnny, and they should be home soon." "Cool! Don't go anywhere ok Sis? I have something to tell you guys later." Once we were inside my bedroom, I immediately flopped down on my bed "Hmm! I miss my bed" I rolled around on the bed, hugging on my pillow. I felt so comfortable relaxing on the bed. I didn't notice anything until JC jumped on top of me. "Hmm! This looks so comfy" he grinned as he lay on top of me "No wonder my boyfriend forgot about me totally. That proves how much he loves me" he said sarcastically. "Oh! I'm sorry babe. I could never forget about you. It's just that I'm so happy that I'm home. I've gone away for so long in my life" I apologized. "I was just kidding baby" he moved down and gave me a quick kiss on the lips. I looked at him when he pulled back. His face was only a few inches away from mine. I was staring into his beautiful blue eyes. Somehow he looked so beautiful to me at that moment. Don't get me wrong. He always looks beautiful, but there was something about him at that moment that captivated me. There was something about him that attracted so much that I couldn't even describe. "I love you" I said lowly, almost inaudible. Somehow, he seemed a little surprised when he heard I said this. "I love you too baby. I love you too" again he moved down and gave me a kiss. But this time, he took out his time to kiss me slowly. I felt his soft, moist lips touched mine as he stuck out his tongue to lick my lips slowly. I found this extremely erotic as I my hands began to rub up and down on his muscular back. I opened my mouth to invite his tongue to enter and my hands began to travel slowly down his long back until they rested on his butts. I grabbed them, squeezed them tightly as I pulled him closer to my body. A low moan escaped from his mouth as our crotches rub against each other. I could feel his cock growing bigger and begin poking mine through the pants. My cock was so hard, and trapped in my brief that it felt painful. I couldn't wait to release my cock from its confinement. I slowly pulled his shirt off. I wanted to feel his naked skin against me so bad. I wanted to run my hand all over his beautiful, muscular body. He raised his hand to help me pull his shirt off. Next I attacked his pants. I was burning with desire, lust that I almost ripped his pants off. As I hastily pulled off his pants, and boxers all the way down to his knees, he reached down and unbuttoned my jeans. Once my jeans were off, I flipped him on his back as I sat on his chest. He seemed a little shock at my action but intrigued at the same time. "So what do you want me to do now?" I asked him. "I don't know. What do you want to do now? Talking maybe?" "How about I do something better with my tongue? Instead of using it for talking, I'll use on your body. I'm gonna lick every single spot of your body, starting with your nipple. Then I'll move slowly down to your cute little belly button. I will have to stop there for a little while you know? Just to give you a little taste of pleasure that my tongue can give you. Then I'll lick your balls, your JC junior until you can't take anymore. Until you have to tell me to take you in my mouth" I said seductively as I was moving along and doing everything I said to him. He was squirming while I was doing all this. When I got to his balls, and dick he kept bucking his hips and urging me to take him in my mouth. "Oh Tom! Oh! Come on baby! Stop teasing me" he grabbed my head and positioned me right in front of his cock "Please baby!" he urged me to go down on him. "Not yet!" I said shortly "How are you going to repay? I helped you out in the limo the last time already remember?" "I'll do anything you want. Anything, name it and it's yours baby" he pleaded as he ran his fingers through my hair. I totally enjoyed every single second of being in the control. I loved the feeling of making JC submitting himself to me. Most of the time, JC is the one who takes control of everything. He always plays the dominant role, but this time the role reversed. I realized that he has an insatiable hunger for sex. Once you get him starting, he couldn't stop, and he couldn't stand the teasing I did on him. "I don't know babe. I really don't need anything right now, and I'm still kinda of tired you know. Maybe we should stop and rest" "We can't stop now. After what you did to me, and you want to stop. Please baby! I'm begging you. JC's junior really needs to be serviced" he grabbed his cock and waved it in front of me. "Nope! I said I'm still tired. How about we stay in bed and cuddle?" I said still didn't want to give in to him yet. I moved up and lay down on top of him as I leaned down and kissed his lips. His arms wrapped around my waist as he bucked his hips up and down slowly to grind his cock into mine. He tried to pull of my briefs so our cocks could rub against each other freely but I stopped his hands. "Tommy, what do you want to" my sister voice filled the room "What the? What's going on here Tom?" she screamed the second she saw JC lying on top of me butts naked. We quickly sat up and pulled blankets over our naked bodies. I cursed at myself for forgetting to lock the door. "Eh Sis..Eh!" I stuttered. "Eh...Jennifer" JC was stuttering at the same time with me. "I'm not asking you JC. So shut up and put your clothes on. I want to talk to you downstairs right now Tom" she stomped out of the room, slamming the door when she left. "I'm sorry baby! I got you into this mess" he apologized as I could see his eyes were getting moist. "No, no, it's not your fault JC. I planned to tell her anyway, but I didn't expect it to be this way" I said sadly as I put on my clothes. "You want me to go with you baby?" "Yes, I want you to be there with me JC. I want you to be there with me not because I'm scared but I want to show her how wonderful you are. I want her to see how much I love you and how much you love me. This is the reason I decided to come out JC. I'm so happy when I'm with you and I want everybody in my family to share my happiness with me" I smiled at him "Let's go baby!" I held his hand as we slowly walked to the door. I wasn't scared like I thought I would be. Fear wasn't even on my mind. I knew that I was ready. As long as he's by my side, I have nothing to be afraid of. Together we'll be able to take care of any problem. Just as we walked into the living room, the door opened, in walked my parents and Johnny. I was happy that they came back just in time. Furthermore, it would be easier with Johnny here. After all, we are two of a kind right? He has to take care of me too. My sister seemed to calm down a little bit when she saw mom and dad. My mom quickly ran up to hug me and kiss me the second she saw me. "Oh when did you come back baby?" she asked excitedly. "Hi dad! Hi mom! Hi Johnny!" I greeted them "We just came back a little while ago" I turned to JC and said "JC this is my mom June. This is my dad Dan and here's my brother Johnny. Guys this is JC. We met in Hawaii" The next few seconds they spent greeting each other. I waited until the introduction was over and said "mom, dad I have something to tell you" "What is it honey?" my mom asked as we moved into the living room and sat down. JC sat down right next to me. I breathed in heavily and took JC's hand and said "Mom, dad I'm gay, and JC is my boyfriend" The next moment was an awkward, uncomfortable silence. Nobody said anything. When I looked at my father, he didn't look angry or mad or anything. Only sadness was in his eyes. Yes, sadness and disappointment were filled in his eyes. He didn't have this look when Johnny came out. You would think that he would take it easier, he would deal with this better because he has gone through it once. I knew how he felt at that moment. I understood why he had a sad and disappointed look because I believed that he felt it's his fault that Johnny and I turned out this way. "Come here honey!" my mom pulled me into a hug "I told Johnny before, and I'm telling you now. I don't care how you live your life. As long as you're happy, then I'm happy. You two are still my sons, and I still love you the same like before. Nothing would change that" "Thanks mom! I love you too" my dad came over and patted me on my shoulder. "I don't know what to say Tommy. I would have never thought you're gay, but you always know how to surprise me" he said smiling sadly "Look like I have to depend on Sonny for grandchildren" he tried to laugh but failed miserably "But don't worry! I still love you my favorite son" "Hey! I thought I'm your favorite" Johnny joked trying to lighten up the mood. "I love you both the same, but I still think it's wrong" my sister spoke suddenly. "How so Sis?" "You two are my brothers and I love you but I think it's sick, and it's a sin. If you think about it, how can people with the same sex love each other? They only use each other for sex, for pleasure" I shook my head "No Sis, is there a time when Terry (her husband) hold you, is there a time when you are in the same bed with him, yet nothing sexual come to your mind? Only the feeling of being close to him matters to you? You just want him to hold you, kiss you and caress you. Nothing more than just some magical moment, some intimacy you two want to share together?" "Yes, I love my husband, and he loves me. There are times when we are just happy being together" my sister replied. "I don't know about other gay people so I can't speak for them. But I can tell you that JC and I are together not because we use each other for sex, for pleasure. We are together because we love each other." "But I knew you my whole life Tom. You've never been interested in guys." "Because I lied. Because I hid my true self Sis. I knew that am gay since I was twelve. I knew for sure that I am gay. I wasn't confused, I didn't go through any phase. I just knew. But why do you think i go through my whole life being single?" My sister shook her head as everybody else turned their heads to look at me. When I looked at JC I could tell that he was wondering in his head also. "Nobody wants to be gay. Nobody wants to be called by names, humiliated and made fun of Sis. I grow up learning that gay is wrong, gay is not acceptable in our society. I don't want to be gay. That's why I don't date because I reason that as long as I don't have a boyfriend then I'm not gay. That's a pretty lame excuse, and pretty stupid hey? But that's not the reason I don't want to be gay Sis. I don't want to be gay because I want to have a family, I want to have children. I tried to go out with girls but it didn't work out because I didn't think it's fair. Because I felt like I was lying to her, and I was lying to myself. You don't know how lonely I feel sometimes Sis. At night, I just wish that I have somebody I can hold or hold me in my sleep. You could never understand the feeling of being lonely, the feeling of emptiness I feel all my life. I could never tell anybody besides Amy and Kenny. But it's not the same Sis. I felt like I already lie to the whole world, I don't want to lie to the people that I live under the same roof. I don't want to lie to the people whom I love so much. Yet I didn't have the courage to tell any of you. Johnny told me that I can be gay and adopt children and have a family of my own." I paused for a few seconds to look at Johnny and smiled "He told me that all it needs is love to raise the kids and to have a family. I know that it's true. I know that if I ever adopt a child, I will love him/her as my own child. But I still don't want that. I want my kid to be conceived by the love, the union of his/her parents. And I know I can never have that as long as I'm gay. That's why I don't want to be gay Sis" When I looked at JC after I poured my heart out, he looked so sad, so sad because he realized that he couldn't give me what I wanted. "But that all changed when I met JC. He shows me the love that I've longed for, the true love that I've been waiting for my whole life. Right now all I want is to be with him. All I want is his love. I don't need anything else as long as I have him by my side. I love him with all my heart and soul Sis" this time when I looked at JC, he had smiled on his face, and he looked at me lovingly. "I never knew it's so hard for you all this time Tommy. Here my little brother is grieving and suffering with all the emotions inside, and I couldn't do anything but judging you. You should have told me Tom. We are family. I would never turn against you. No matter what, you're still my brother, my little brother. I'm really happy that you found JC" my sister came over and hugged me tightly. "Thanks Sis. You don't know how much this means to me. I love you so much, and it will would kill me if my coming out destroys our relationship" That night before we went to sleep, JC hugged me tightly and said "I love you baby. I love you so much more after hearing what you have been through. I'm telling you the same thing, as long as I have you by my side, I don't need anything else. You're my heart and soul TT" "I love you too JC. You don't know how many times I thank God for bringing you in my life. Sometimes when I wake up in the morning, finding you next to me, I have to rub my eyes to see if I'm dreaming" I said as the back of my fingers caressed his chest gently. That night I slept through the whole night in JC's arms without waking up once. I was so happy that my family accepted our relationship easily. That's it for now everybody. I'm sorry for the lateness of this chapter. Too many things have happened, but I'm glad things seemed to calm down a little for me. There are couple things I want to point out in this chapter. First, I want to thank my best friend Melissa's for her beautiful poem "Real Love." She also writes "A Love So Blind." Oh I just have to clarify, Tommy in her story is nothing like Tommy in real life if you read her story. Yes I'm gay but I don't date, and certainly haven't dated anybody over the Internet. Thanks for put me in your story Mel. Even though the character is nowhere close to the real person :P, but I still love you. You better find a way for me to have something with JC soon or I will have to maim you for good j/k. I finished this chapter, you happy now? Second, about my sister, yes it's true that my sister believes that gay people only use each other for sex and pleasure. Once time I talked to her about our brother, she said she loves him but she still thinks it's wrong and sick. She's even in more denial than I am. I was so scared, but amused at the same time when I talked to her about gay issues. She told me that I should hang out less with my brother's gay friends or I would turn gay. I have to tell her that you don't just turn gay by being around gay people. Then out of the blue she just said I'm not gay, and she'll kill me if I am. Cool hey? I knew that she didn't mean what she said but that still scared the shit out of me. Maybe this is one of the reasons why I haven't come out to my family. Take care everybody and see you soon in the next chapter. I hope.