Date: Thu, 9 Aug 2001 21:50:46 -0700 (PDT) From: Mel J Subject: Games Of Desire-Chapter 10 Disclaimer! I do not know BSB or NSYNC and this has no reflection on them or thier sexuality. This is FICTION!! Sorry it has been so long with the next chappie.. hope you like it!-Mel Games of Desire-Chapter 10 By Mel 2001 Kevin woke up around 10, stretching. His body bumped up against a body. A warm body. That woke up Kevin in a hurry. Justin. Memories of last night came flooding back. He felt his cock thicken. Shit. He hadn't meant to do that, to give in to what he had been feeling. He tried to ease out of bed, trying not to wake up Justin. It didn't work. "You going someplace?" Justin's voice was husky with sleep and it did nothing to help Kevin's burgeoning erection. "Bathroom" Kevin managed to choke out and practically ran. Justin watched, hurt coloring his blue eyes. Damn. Justin knew that he had taken a chance last night, coming to Kevin's door, but it wasn't until he had finally made love with him that it sunk in. He loved Kevin Richardson. And it was also obvious to Justin that although Kevin's body wanted him, Kevin's heart did not. Justin brushed away a tear. Quickly he found his clothes, just wanting to get away. He was just about to put on his shirt, when Kevin came out of the bathroom, a towel tied firmly around his waist. Kevin didn't say anything, just watched him. Justin met his gaze, daring Kevin to look away. Minutes ticked by. Kevin couldn't seem to find the words. Justin couldn't take it any more. Grabbing his shirt and shoes, he left, closing the door behind him. Kevin stared at the door, then sat on the bed, his head in his hands. Jc woke up next to Lance on the sofa, his head on his friends shoulder. To his surprise, he didn't feel guilty. In fact, it had been the best sleep he had in a long time. Except for his spinning head. He promised himself he would never drink that much again. He was careful not to wake Lance and headed for the bathroom, after he was done, and splashing some cold water on his face, he came out, watching Lance sleep. A wave of lust swept over him so hard, he could hardly breathe. No. He loved Justin.. didn't he? But Justin does not love you anymore, he reminded himself. It still hurt to think of Justin not with him, but it was somehow dulled, as if the time he had spent with Lance had changed something. JC wasn't sure what had happened, but in that moment, he knew he wanted to find out. But first he had to settle things with Justin, for once and for all. Howie woke up, uncurling himself from AJ's body. He slipped on his boxers and stepped on the balcony, squinting against the morning light. He worried about Kevin's reaction to Nick and Chris. What if he reacted that way to him and AJ? He ran a trembling hand through his sleep-tousled hair. "A penny for your thoughts." Howie turned to see Aj slip out of the room and on to the balcony. "I am worried about Kevin's reaction to us." Howie admitted, and Aj slipped an arm around his lover's waist. "I don't think we have too much to worry about." Howie looked at Aj, confused. "I think that his main problem with Nick was the connection to Nsync. Because of his feelings for Justin." Howie's brow cleared. "Do you really think so?" He asked. He loved Aj, but he didn't want to lose Kevin either. He was the only one he was really worried about. Nick was hardly going to be upset, and Brian.. well maybe Brian would be upset, but Kevin...his anger at Nick really surprised Howie. "Yes, D, I really think so. You still want to tell them?" His voice had gotten quiet. Howie ran a hand down Aj's jaw. "Look at me, Alex." Aj met his gaze. "I love you. I may be nervous, but its time. Today." Their lips met in a gentle kiss, that quickly turned passionate. "Prove it." Howie did. "Justin. We need to talk." Jc met his friend in the hall. Jc saw the love bite on Justin's neck, a mark his mouth hadn't made. "After today's recording session." Justin promised, knowing they had to, knowing they didn't have enough time. "Justin." Jc's voice was pleading. "I am not trying to put you off, I promise. I know we need to talk. It's just not working is it?" the sadness in Justin's blue eyes got to Jc like nothing else. "No, it isn't, not when you want someone else." Justin shifted his weight, and sighed. "Jc. Can we please talk about this later?" Jc nodded, a lump in his throat. Even though Justin hadn't admitted it, JC knew. He had lost Justin. He fought to keep the tears out of his eyes. He watched Justin walk down the hall, waiting until he was in their room and then he sank against the wall and let the tears come. That is where Lance found him. "Jc. Are you ok?" Jc looked up at him, desolation in his eyes. "Does it look like I am ok?" he ground out. Lance shook his head slowly and sat down beside him. Immediately Jc threw himself into Lance's arms. "Jc. Its gonna be ok." Lance whispered, a half smile crossing his face as JC hugged him. He didn't like the fact that his friend was hurting, but he was glad that it was obviously over for Jc and Justin. Now he would get his chance. He could taste it.