Date: Mon, 20 Aug 2001 16:20:51 -0700 (PDT) From: Mel J Subject: Games Of Desire-Chapter 11 Disclaimer! This is fiction, and this has no reflection on BSB or Nsync's sexuality or sexual preference. Thanks for all your feedback.. I hope you like this chapter =) Mel Games of Desire-Chapter 11 By Mel 2001 Justin could barely stand to look at Kevin. He felt like such a fool. He should have known that Kevin only wanted a one night stand, nothing else. Hell, before he had fallen in love with Jc, he had a few of those himself. But it hurt, oh god it hurt. On top of that, he knew he had to let Jc go. No matter that things weren't going to work out with Kevin, he knew he didn't love Jc anymore. It began to hurt so much he could barely breathe. The first break they had, he sprinted to the bathroom, shut himself into a stall, and finally cried. He was so loud; he didn't hear the door open. Kevin stopped cold when he heard the sobs coming from the stall. He had seen Justin head toward the bathroom, and had been hoping to talk to him. He hadn't realized how much he had hurt Justin, and himself, until that moment. He stopped worrying about everything, and opened the stall door, pulling the younger man into a hug. Justin didn't think either, he just let Kevin hold him, drowning in his scent. "Shh.. I didn't mean to make you cry." That comment made Justin pull away. "Look, you have done enough, ok. I got it. It was just sex to you, I can deal with it, just leave me alone!" Kevin grabbed Justin's arm as he tried to push past Kevin. "I cant do that." Justin just stared at him. "Why?" Kevin took a deep breath, and took a chance. "Because it's more than just sex for me, I love you." JC had seen Justin, then Kevin leave and sat down on the couch. His heart hurt, but the pain was muted, softer somehow. Jc didn't know why, but he suspected it had something to do with the softness in Lance's green eyes. He didn't know how Lance felt, but as soon as he had that talk with Justin he was going to find out. He leaned back and closed his eyes, trying not to feel. Then he felt the couch dip as someone sat down next to him. "Josh? You ok?" Lance asked, his deep voice soft. JC opened his eyes, and smiled sadly at his friend. "I don't really know how I feel right now, " He said honestly, his heart skipping a beat as he looked into Lance's eyes. Lance hid his elation. It sounded like a chance to him. He desperately hoped so, he had loved Jc for so long. He forced himself not to smile. "I am sorry you are going through all of this. I know how much you love Justin." Jc took Lance's hand. "The truth is, our relationship has been slowly falling apart for a while. It hurts, but .. I dunno, I thought it would hurt more than this when I finally lost him." Lance stroked his thumb over the top of Jc's hand, not even realizing he was doing it, it just came naturally to him. Jc didn't stop him. Howie and Aj stayed close to one another. They were both concerned on how the rest of the group was going to take it, but they knew the time had come. However, they both were distracted from their worries by Chris and Nick who were all over eachother. Now that both bands knew, it was like they couldn't get enough. On the breaks they were downright annoying. Hugging, sometimes making out, oblivious to anyone else. AJ and Howie, watched, amused. And they secretly envied them. AJ tugged on Howie's hand, and they both headed outside. "I have wanted to do this all day" Aj muttered, then pulled down Howie for a demanding kiss. Howie deepened it, pulling AJ closer. They finally had to come up for air, their lips swollen and breathing hard. "I love you." Howie whispered, and AJ pulled him close. They stayed like that, Aj leaning against the wall of the brick building, just enjoying eachother's embrace. Then Aj's watched beeped and they reluctantly separated, knowing it was time to go in. Justin looked at Kevin, shocked. Then he ceased to think at all as Kevin's lips came down on his in a desperate kiss. His mouth opened up and their tongues met, both groaning as their emotions overcame them. "Kevin" Justin gasped, as Kevin's lips left his to nibble at his neck. "Oh god" he managed, his whole body humming. He couldn't seem to get enough of this man. His cock was throbbing relentlessly in his pants, his body arching off the bathroom stall wall. Kevin's hands slipped under his shirt to tweak his nipples and Justin whimpered. "Kev.. oh shit...don't stop.." The sound echoed loudly in the small bathroom. The man coming in tried not to blush. "Kevin, Justin?" Both lovers froze. "I don't mean to interrupt, but breaks over. See you there" and then the door closed. Kevin met Justin's eyes and they both started to laugh. "I think we embarrassed Joey." Justin said, a grin stealing across his face. Kevin smiled, then rubbed his thumb over Justin's lower lip. "We will finish this later" he promised and Justin leaned in for a kiss. "Damn straight."