Date: Wed, 24 Jan 2001 23:32:42 EST
From: Angel36745@aol.com
Subject: Gemini3

  Disclaimer: I do not know the BSB nor have I ever met them in person.
This is just a story something I made up in my own little world. In other
words it's not real in anyway. ok now that that's over with on to more
important stuff.

  Warning: Like so many of my other stories I have no clue where I'm going
with this. Ok I've failed but I'm not taking it to the max. But I'm not
making promises so this really is a warning. There might be sex in this
story I don't know yet. You've been warned, oh and it's a little sad. Ok
this chapter is a little sad and may have sex. Just so you know

  Authors note: Ok I love these don't you? And yes I lost my mind, it was
really easy. So if you find it, tell me I could use it. OK these *** mean a
character change in the story. A name will follow the little symbols or
will be in the middle of the symbols. I'll try not to jump around to much,
no promises there either. Ok for those of you that are still upset with me
over Broken, I'm sorry. So please quit yelling at me, I know it was a
little sad. I promise I'll try to give this one a happy ending, notice I
said try. Anyway on with the story, oh and if you feel like it mail me with
your thoughts.

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****Brian*****

  I could feel ever inch of his body pressed against mine. His breath on my
neck, his arms around my waist. I was in heaven and I didn't want to move
and I didn't plan on it. I noticed that his robe was gone and something big
and hard was poking my lower back. I didn't mind at all he could have his
way with me. He pulled me tighter against his body his hand half way under
my shirt. The feel of his skin against mine was amazing, I felt so at
peace. He moaned softly and moved his hand further up my body and let it
rest over my heart. His hand was lightly brushing the scar that I had from
the surgery. I never really liked anyone to see or touch it. But I didn't
mind his touch at all in fact I wanted him to see everything. His lips were
on my neck, it was almost like a kiss. I turned to face him, to watch him
sleeping. He looked like an angel sent from heaven to watch over me. His
hand was now on my upper back between my shoulder blades. He pulled me
against his body again, his lips were now touching mine. I closed my eyes
and let myself just feel him. I wrapped my arms around him, his skin was
like silk. One of his legs slid between mine, which caused me to take a
deep breath. His other leg now slid under my leg, he was wrapping himself
around me. His other hand that had remained around my waist was now just
below that area.

  His hand was lightly resting on my butt check under the sweats I was
wearing. Then his hand moved lower and cupped my left cheek. I was doing
everything in my power to control myself. His arm moved slightly pulling my
sweats down a little. He had a small frown forming slowly, then his hand
that was on my back moved down. Before I knew what was happening my sweats
were past my butt cheeks. My hard on was against his, he pulled me tighter
to his body. I slid my shirt over my head and wiggled out of my sweats. I
wanted to feel every inch of my body pressed against his. I no longer cared
how things would look in when we woke up. His knee was just under my ball
sack and he was pulling me closer still. My chest was now pushed up against
his, our hard on's were against each others six packs. I could feel his pre
cum leaking on me, as I'm sure mine was leaking on him. I knew that my body
was getting hot in more than one way. He started grinding his member
against me in a smooth movement. His arms were pulling me as close as they
could. With his hips moving it was causing my prick to rub against his six
pack. I was so hard that I knew I couldn't last much longer. His lips were
on my chin his tongue was sneaking out every so often. He left little
kisses my chin and moved to my lips.

  One of his hands slid up my back and now rested on my head. His eyes were
closed softly, he had to be dreaming. He kissed me, his tongue slid out and
into mine. The kiss deepened, his hand holding my head to his. He moaned in
my mouth, it sent waves of fire running down my body. I felt my ball sack
start to pull up, I was so close. His hand that was still on my butt cheek
squeezed gently. His fingers started rubbing my butt cheek then his finger
was near my hole. He wasn't pushing in but he was sending chills up my
spine. Our tongues danced around one another in a beautiful dance. I had to
wonder what he could do if he was awake. He was sending me places I had
never been and he wasn't even trying. His finger gently pushed inside of my
and wiggled around slightly. His hand moved away and then went between my
legs pulled my leg up. My leg was now hanging over his waist and his hand
was a better place. His fingers danced around my hole once again and he was
back inside of me. He pulled me tighter pushing his finger in deeper
hitting my prostate. I moaned into his mouth, he was acting like an
animal. His mouth had moved to my neck and he was hitting my weak spot. He
was holding me up sending waves of pleasure threw my body.

  My body ached for release, I could see spots in front of my eyes. I blew
my load all over his chest, then I saw stars. Then he blew his load all
over my chest, it was like liquid fire. I relaxed into his chest almost
letting myself slip back to sleep. My mind was returning to normal, what
had I just done? I had just slept with Chris and he most likely wouldn't
remember it. I slowly got out of bed and cleaned everything up, couldn't
have him waking up just yet. I put my clothes in a pile by the bathroom,
once everything looked ok I jumped in the shower. I had wiped Chris chest
off as good as I could, I hoped he wouldn't notice. I could hear someone
knocking on the door to the room, most likely Kevin. I heard someone open
the door to the bathroom, then it closed really quickly. I finished my
shower and got out, wrapped a towel around my waist and walked out. Chris
was sitting up in his bed looking around, Kevin was sitting in a
chair. "Brian? what are you doing here man?" I smiled sweetly at him, he
was pulling out all the stops. He was almost in a suite his hair looked
perfect, well he looked perfect. "I fell asleep in here last night after we
talked." Kevin nodded but I could see the ice in his eyes. "I had the
strangest dream last night." We both looked at Chris who was now standing.

  I tossed him his robe, he caught it and put it on. "Thank you Brian,
sorry about shedding it last night." I just shrugged and smiled at him, I
wasn't sorry at all. "It's cool if I knew you better I would have done the
same." He smiled at me and Kevin decided to interrupt. "We should all be
getting dressed and heading out, come on Bri, I walk you back to your
room." I left with Kevin hot on my trail, I walked to my room and opened
the door. "Did you sleep with him Brian?" I turned around slowly, I had
slept with him, for a little bit at least. "Nothing happened Kevin, we only
slept for a little while. But he did hold me in his arms, he's got an
amazing body." Kevin's face was turning three shades of red when I closed
the door. I went to my bed and fell back, I was in heaven. I had to find a
way to get Chris in my life forever. I was falling for him for all the
wrong reasons, I had to get to know him better. I had to beat Kevin for the
prize, and I would do anything for the prize. Chris was like a Greek God or
something he was perfect. His skin was flawless and his body was like it
was carved from stone. He was beautiful in every way that he could be, his
man hood was big to. It had to be at least nine inches, and cut, what more
could I ask for. I got dressed and headed to meet the rest of the guys.

************Chris

   I had the weirdest dream, I dreamed that I had almost had sex with
Brian. It felt so real, I wanted to go back to sleep and re-dream it
again. Then again it may have just been what I was feeling from Jessie. I
just wish I knew for sure, because nothing I have ever felt before had felt
so good. When I had woke up in the middle of the night I had put myself and
Brian under the covers. I tossed my robe on the chair and just held him in
my arms. I had missed that feeling, it had been something I cherished with
Jake. Jake and I had always just kissed and held one another. It had made
me happy in so many ways, he never pushed me to do anything. We had been
together for a long amount of time before we ever kissed. He always asked
if it was ok to pull me closer to his body. I would agree to anything for
him. He knew that, that's why he never pushed me to have any kind of
sex. He told me that when I was ready, to tell him. I had never told him to
go further I regret that now. I had been so selfish, I didn't need sex,
Jessie had enough for the both of us. Then I lost him, never to know what
it could have been like to have him. He had always been ready to do
whatever I asked of him. I tried to never ask much of him, he meant to much
to me.

  He was like my angel for so long, and I had denied him access. We had
lived together for close to eight months. He had to have been wanting more
than what I was giving. He never said anything about it, but that was his
way. I missed him so much and if hadn't been for the man at the grave yard,
I would be dead. I now knew that Jake would want me to go on. I would
always hold him close to my heart, I could never do any less than that. I
got into my shower and let the water take everything away. I just let
myself get lost in the steam and heat. I closed my eyes and thought about
Brian, he was so kind. He had come to me last night when I needed someone
the most. He had stayed with me and just talked, that had meant so much to
me. It felt so right to hold him in my arms it made me feel complete. I had
to get to know him better, he seemed like such a nice guy. I could fall for
him in time, I just had to get to know him. I knew that he was very cute,
and that he would be a great person to spend my life with. He could be the
one to take this pain away forever. I promised myself that I wouldn't make
him wait forever. I would wait a month then maybe takes things to another
level. I would learn from my mistakes.

  We only had so much time to live, Jake proved that to me. I would let
Brian have all access to me after I knew him better. I just hoped he could
wait at least a month, I had to know if he could. If my career took off we
would be away from one another for months at a time. There would always be
the phone but you could only do so much with a phone. I stepped out of the
shower and dried off, then putting my robe on I went to get dressed. I got
my white wet shirt out and put it on, then my black leather pants. I looked
in the mirror and brushed my hair and then my teeth. I smiled the got the
rest of my stuff together, I even packed Jessie's stuff. I left our bags in
our room and walked down to Kevin's room. That seemed to be where everyone
went to eat, and I needed my coffee. I knocked on the door and waited till
he opened up. I walked in and went straight to the coffee pot. I got a few
cat call's from the guys, I let it slide this one time. Brian hadn't said
anything so far, only watched me move. I got my coffee and that world was
good, at least for now. I watched as Nick and Jessie walked in together
holding hands. I was happy for them, I only hoped Nick wouldn't brake his
heart. I sat down next to Brian with my egg's and toast. "How many week's
do you give them." I whispered into his ear, his smile was beautiful.

  I had stayed close to Brian all day long so far. He had told me that Nick
and Jessie could end up being together forever. I was happy with his answer
and smiled, that seemed to surprise him. I showed Brian some of my dance
moves and tried to teach him a few. He was a really quick learner, up until
he fell on his ass. I laughed at him while I pulled him back to his
feet. "How do you do those spins in the air and still land on your feet?" I
smiled and yelled for Jessie to come over, that took a few minutes. "Easy
we mirror one another, and we've both taken dance for the longest
time. Let's show him the dance moves to cloud nine." Jessie nodded and got
ready to mirror me. It was easy for us to do, we had been doing it all our
lives. The dance itself was pretty simple, it was only the spins that were
hard. We danced for five minutes, hitting everything so far. We didn't
really need the music, it was in our minds. We had drawn a bunch of
attention to ourselves. When we stopped we noticed a lady clapping, while
she looked at the guys. They all seemed to fear her, she didn't look all
that bad. "Very well done, and here I thought I was going to have problems
with you two." We looked at her like she was nuts, who did she think she
was?

  She walked up and looked us over really well then picked my arm up. She
looked at my hands and then Jessie's. "Nice really nice, you should be able
to hold yourselves up really good." We looked to one another and then to
the guys, they had backed away. "Who the hell are you, and why the hell are
you checking us out?" She smiled and looked back to the guys. "I'm Fatima,
and your going to be learning some new dances. Jive sent me up to give you
a hand, but it doesn't look like your going to need it." I had heard of her
on the TV a long time ago. I didn't really care who this lady was, I knew
how to dance. "It's really nice of you to come all this way for
nothing. I've already got all the dances to our music down. We know it like
the back of our hands, so your really not needed." I smiled as sweetly as
could, and she laughed at us. I looked at Brian who was getting pale really
quickly. All of the guys looked like they were scared out of their
minds. "I don't really give a damn what you think. I was sent here to do a
job and I'm going to do it. Now why don't you give me ten laps around the
arena?" I looked at her and started laughing, she really had it
coming. "Look lady, I've taken dance classes for the last ten years. I know
what I'm doing we both have majors in the art, so back off. I'm not running
anywhere, so you can shove it." She looked impressed for about ten seconds.

  All of the guys looked like they were going to pass out. I didn't see why
they were so afraid of this little woman. "It's good to know you'll pick
everything up really quickly. Now give me twenty laps and before you tell
me to shove it. Why don't you go take a closer look at your contracts?
Maybe then you'll learn that you have to do what I say, or you'll lose it."
I looked at her and smiled, Jessie grabbed my arm and pulled me
away. "Listen stop fighting with her, it's in our contract." I looked at
him and then walked back to her side. "Fine I'll do your laps, but I can't
do it in these clothes. I'm going to go change real quick." She nodded as I
walked away, let me show her what I did on new years. I walked back stage
and striped down. I then started doing my laps around the arena, it was
really nice. After the twenty laps I walked back on stage and stood before
her with my arms crossed over my chest. Her eyes were really wide so were
the guys, Jessie was laughing his ass off. "Well, I'm waiting, show me
these dance moves you were talking about." It didn't seem to click she just
kept starring at me. "I don't recall my contract saying I had to wear any
clothes. So if you please start your little session. Oh and close your
mouth something might fly in there." I smiled at her warmly then sat down
on the stage.

  I sat there for ten minutes before she closed her mouth and walked
away. She walked back ten minutes later with renewed strength. I had to
give her credit, she wasn't going to back down for even a second. "Ok I've
loaded the music to your songs, I've got the new moves for it." She started
showing us what to do and I mimicked her. I refused to put my clothes back
on any time soon. I danced for three hours straight and it was starting to
get a little cold. I didn't like the new moves all that much, they were to
easy. Everyone was starting to get use to my being naked to. Fatima stopped
and looked at me for a few seconds. "Listen I think we got off on the wrong
foot. I'm just doing my job so why don't you put your clothes back on." I
nodded and went backstage to get my clothes. I took a quick shower and got
dressed and walked back out on stage. I heard a few boo's coming from the
guys. I flipped them off and kept walking, until Kevin screamed something
out. "Any time, any place, any where you just name it and I'll be there." I
stopped for a few second's and then turned around and walked toward
him. "Run Kevin, if he gets to you man, you'll regret it!" Kevin took off
at full speed and Jessie fell on his ass laughing.

  It was a little joke that we played on people. It was good to know that
things were getting back to normal. Fatima was smiling the whole time,
maybe she wasn't so evil. "Why don't you show me some of the dances for
your music, maybe we can merge them?" I nodded and showed her some of the
moves, she looked impressed. I knew that didn't mean anything, she could be
trying to be nice. "Ok I like the spinning deal, but can you do it without
jumping in the air?" I nodded, but it was still making it easy. After a few
more hours of learning and teaching some dance moves we left. We had to be
on a plane in a few hours. I hated flying, but Jessie loved to fly, I hated
that small fact. As soon as I was on the plane I took a few pills and
passed out. When I woke up someone was caring me into a room and laying me
a bed. I looked up into his eyes, it was Brian, when he tried to leave I
pulled him to me. "Stay here tonight, I don't want to be alone." He nodded
and laid down beside me, I pulled him into my arms and held him tightly. I
fell back to sleep seconds later, I felt so at peace with myself. I woke up
the next morning feeling better than I had in a long time. I jumped in the
shower and let Brian sleep for a while. I walked out of the bathroom and
just watched him sleep. He looked so innocent, it was like years melted off
of him.

   We were now in our third concert, everything was so amazing. The fans
would scream at the end of every song. At first I thought that it was a bad
thing until we noticed that some of fan were crying. After we learned that
it was a good thing, we really started to sing our hearts out. Jive had
called telling us our single was selling out all across the US. We weren't
even in the US, we were somewhere in, well I didn't know. I slept most of
the time, we were on a plane a lot. Brian had been spending every night in
my bed, nothing happened but it felt good. I was planing on asking him out
in a few days I had everything planned. I knew that in two days we got a
day off, I wanted to invite him to dinner. I was going to set my room up
with a bunch of candles and ask him out. I just hoped he would accept the
offer. I was in love with him I knew, when he wasn't by my side my heart
ached. I wanted him in my arms every second I could have him there. I was
willing to give up anything for him. I was willing to tell the world I was
straight and involved with a girl. I would do anything to keep him with me,
to be with him. I had a weird feeling all night, I had asked Jessie if he
was feeling it, he shook his head. I let it go, if he didn't feel it there
was nothing to worry about.

  The guy's ran out first, they had to get to the limo the quickest. We ran
out a few second's later, but fans were everywhere. We started signing
autographs, then two large men walked toward us. I had seen them somewhere
before, but I couldn't place it just yet. I saw a flash of light come from
one of there hands and I knew who it was. I felt the knife stab into my
side then my chest then my shoulder. He was raising the blade again but he
wouldn't make that far. I grabbed his arm and broke it at his elbow, then I
plunged the knife into his gut. I then pulled his face down as I raised my
knee, I heard the crack. I had sent the bone straight into his brain. I
looked to my left, Jessie was about to be stabbed so I threw myself in
front of him. I felt the blade enter my back, but I could stop yet Jessie
was still in danger. I turned facing my uncle, I brought an open handed
fist to his noise. I had just killed him, then I felt the ground under my
knees. I started to fall backwards but someone caught me. I looked up into
the bluest eyes I had ever seen. It was getting dark and there were so many
screams. "I love you Bri, so much, sorry it took so long to tell you." Then
everything turned black, so at peace.

*******Jessie

  I couldn't move, nothing was real anymore. Chris was bleeding and tears
were streaming down his face. Brian was holding him and screaming for
help. People were running and screaming, Brian couldn't be heard. He was
holding Chris's body tightly against his body. Two men were dead, I had
seen them somewhere else. Chris had killed them to save me, and I didn't
help him. I had froze, now he could be dying. My body and mind kicked into
high gear. I pushed people out of my way pulling Brian and Chris to the
limo. We had to get them to the hospital soon, Chris needed me. The limo
sped off toward the hospital, people were moving out of the way. I looked
at Chris he was still breathing, but there was blood coming out of his
mouth. He was coughing up blood, Brian was crying and wouldn't let Chris
go. He kept telling him he was sorry about something. Nick was trying to
help me but he couldn't, he kept saying everything would be ok. I knew that
wasn't true, this was my fault, if only I had done something. The limo
stopped and I opened the door pulling Brian and Chris out. I carried them
both into the hospital, doctors were running up to help. Then Chris was
taken away from us, I stood there with Brian by my side.

  I couldn't sit still for longer then a few minutes. All of the guys were
sitting in the waiting room with me. Chris had been surgery for the last
seven hours. Brian wouldn't stop crying, Kevin looked like someone had
ripped his heart out of his chest. Nick stayed by my side holding my
hand. He kept telling thing's would work out for Chris. That Chris was
strong and he could pull threw this. I knew that Chris was stronger than a
lot of people. He was stronger than I would ever be, I knew that now. When
he had seen that I was in danger he jumped to save me. Just a weeks ago I
was glad that I couldn't feel him anymore. Now all I wanted was to feel
him, to know he was ok. I couldn't feel anything from him now, it was like
he was already gone. Then I remembered him asking me if I had any weird
feelings. I had told him no, if I could have felt him I would have known
better. I saw the doctor walking toward us, he had blood all over his hands
and scrubs. "Mr. Darken?" I stood up and walked toward him, Nick was right
by my side. "Oh my I shouldn't have needed to ask should I?" I didn't
answer him I wanted him to start talking. "Ok here's the deal, he's in real
bad shape. Three of his wounds aren't that bad. But the one in his back, it
could kill him. We've done everything we could to keep his lungs from
filling with blood. Amazingly the knife wound to his chest missed his heart
by an inch." The doctor paused for a second then looked back.

  He took a few deep breaths then looked back toward us. "The wound to his
side missed everything, but his shoulder is damaged. I don't like to take
chances so I'm not going to, he could die to night. The police need to talk
with you, it seems they now know who it was that tried to kill you. I'm
going to send them in here in about fifteen minutes. I will be moving Chris
to an ICU room in thirty minutes. I'll send a nurse you get you as soon as
he's moved. I would also like to ask you not to take any chances, in other
words say your good byes. He's in a deep sleep, there are tubes running
threw his mouth to keep him breathing. When he does wake up he won't be
able to talk, if we can keep him alive for forty-eight hours he stands a
chance. I have to go see other families, so I bid you farewell." Then he
was gone, I let the words sank in before I fell to my knees. Chris could
die, and it would be my fault. If he hadn't moved in front of me he
wouldn't be on his death bed. He was willing to die to save me, he hadn't
even thought twice about it. I hadn't been able to move, I had froze and he
was paying the price for it. His whole life was changing, this could be it
for him, even if he lives. I didn't want to ask the doctor if he could
still sing. That would be so selfish of me to ask, but I still wondered.

  We had already spoken with the police, Brian was in with Chris right
now. He didn't want to leave his side once he was by it. I couldn't face
him, even if he was asleep it was to hard. Our past had come back to haunt
us in a big way. It was our uncle and our cousin that had attacked. I had
no doubt that Chris knew who it was, that's why he killed them. News lines
were flying all across the world, my brother was a hero. So many people
were praying for him. I had never really had any faith in God, I found that
I was the only one that wasn't praying. Brian was walking toward us his
eyes were puffy and red. "Code blue to ICU room five, code blue for ICU
room five." We all turned toward Chris's room, that was his room. Nurse's
and doctors were running in, we all froze looking to his room. I didn't
know what a code blue was, but it couldn't be good with that many people in
there. "His heart must have stopped, oh God no!" Brian screamed running
back toward his room. Kevin had stopped him, Brian was fighting him with
everything he had. Nick had his arms around me, hold me tightly. "It's all
my fault, if he had just looked out for himself, this wouldn't have
happened. He's dying for me, and theirs nothing I can do to save him." I
wanted to move to his side now, I had to say good bye.

*********Chris

   The pain was leaving my body and I was filled with light. I was in a
beautiful place, everyone was so happy. I could see my parents standing in
front of me, they were crying. Then I could see Jake not to far off and he
was walking toward me slowly. I jumped into his arms, he held onto
me. "It's not your time Chris, you have to go back." I shook my head, go
back where. This was where I could be happy and never have to worry about
pain. My mother and father walked toward me, I took them in my arms. "I've
missed you so much, all of you. Now we can all be happy together, I need
you all so much." My mother had tears streaming down her face as she kissed
my cheek. "My little baby, I've missed not being there for you. You can't
stay here my little one, your brother needs you." I didn't remember having
a brother, he had cut his ties to me. I knew that now, he had been happy
that he couldn't feel me anymore. I would miss Brian and instantly I felt
guilty. I was here with Jake but he didn't look mad, he smiled. "I want you
to be happy Chris, I never wanted you to stop because of me." He turned me
around and I could see Kevin holding Brian back. Jessie was on his knees
reaching out to me, he looked so lost. I could still feel him, even here in
this place of happiness.

  His pain and loss filled me with the need to help him. I wondered if he
could still feel me where he was. I wanted him to know that I wasn't in
pain any more. Then it was like his eyes lit up and he could see me. I
smiled at him, he started crying harder. What was he crying about, I was
happy now. Then I saw the doctors walked toward him slowly. "What's wrong
mama, why is he crying?" She looked sadder than before all three of them
did. "Your dead Chris, the doctors are telling your friends and Jessie that
they couldn't save you. You can still go back, but it'll be harder and
it'll hurt you. You have three minutes to decide what you want to do." I
looked into her eyes, she was fading away so was my father. I looked to
Jake, he was still here with me. "You didn't leave me Jake, I knew you
wouldn't." I held onto him he, I could feel tears on my shoulder. "I would
never leave you, I love you Chris and I always will. I want you to go back,
you haven't got a chance to live yet. They need you in so many ways my
love. Look at them, their crying for you to come back. Jessie's even
praying for you now, he's screaming to trade places with you. Brian loves
you so much, and you love him. It's ok I'm happy that you found him, he's
been alone for so long. Go to him Chris heal both of your hearts." I
watched them, I still had two minutes to decide.

  Brian was beating on Kevin's chest while he cried. He kept asking him
why, his tears touched my heart. I could feel them, I really could it was
like each tears made my heart beat. Jessie was hiding in Nick's arms his
eyes closed tightly. Kevin was asking why it had to happen, he was
questioning his faith. He started asking questions about his father and
me. I couldn't hear him clearly, then I noticed that he wasn't talking. I
was hearing his thoughts, how could hear his thoughts? "We can always hear
the thoughts of our loved ones." I turned to see a man with dark hair
talking to me, he looked like Kevin. "Every time they think of us we hear
them loud and clear." I nodded and looked back to the image, it was getting
darker. "Your time is running out Chris you have to chose now." I looked at
Jake he was at my side again. Brian was standing by my body, he was telling
me he loved me. They had taken the tubes out of my mouth. Brian was holding
my hand, he was telling me he was sorry. He was sorry that he hadn't told
me when I could hear him. "I can hear Brian, I love you to, do you hear
me?" Jake was by my side his hands on my shoulders. "He can't hear you
Chris, your gone, but you can go back, But you have to chose now their
coming for you, the angels." I looked back at Brian, could I leave this
place and go back?

To Be Continued