Date: Sat, 26 Feb 2000 22:29:48 -0800 From: Christopherunknown Subject: Hearts Combining (Chapter 1) This story is all fiction and is not implying anything on the Backstreet Boys, 'N sync, or anyone else mentioned in this text. If you don't approve of gay relationships and/or are under 18 years old, please stop and leave now. If you are over 18 and approve of homosexual types of sex and relationships then please keep on reading. Hearts Combining (Chapter 1) I awoke with the sun shining on my face and a warm feeling on both sides of me. I try to stretch but there was too much resistance from the warm objects on my sides. I look up to find the reason for my situation. All I see is two people laying next to me with their arms wrapped tightly, showing no mercy. Then the night before flashed by, then the month before, then the year. I just smiled as I remembered all that had happened.... "Chris, wake up!" screamed Jen when she busted into my room to the bathroom. "Go home, it's too early!" was all I could say. "Get your ass up and get ready for school!" she screamed from my bathroom. "God you act as if you live here, you whore!" I said while laughing at her. "I do, part time. And who are you call a whore, slut boy?" she replied laughing while I slowly get my ass out of my warm bed. I walk around, as nude as the day I was born, trying to get ready. "Showing all today?" she yelled watching through the mirror. "You show me yours, I'll show you mine!" I was all I could reply. "Boy you really need to get laid by Thursday!" she said seriously while watching me through the mirror. "God, I really need to find you a man." She said with a huge smile. "Oh no you do not, the last one you set me up with just wanted my ass," I said looking her straight in the eye. "Is it your time of the month or mine?" she replied with a laugh, "Okay lets go before we have to graduate late!" "Okay, fine then." I replied walking out the door. Okay time for some explaining. My name is Christopher Dale Green. I'm 5'7, 150 pounds, not slim but not fat. I have been told that I have eye that anyone could get lost in, but I think they are the ordinary blue to hazel color (depending on what time it is). I'm also 19 years old. Okay, and the whore that has to be in this story is Jennifer Marie Green, she is my cousin and is also 19 years old. We both go to school together. As you can tell she is my best friend and only 2 days younger than I. I'm the one you would call the nerd and she would be called the whore, slut, or all-round trouble maker, but together neither one of us would get in any trouble because the other would be right there to help. Okay we have about three days until graduation and we both are dreading it to the fullest. I'm leaving for Orlando in 8 days and she is leaving for L.A. in 9 days (That's just going to make one hell of a phone bill!). I 'm going to Orlando to study Professional Management and she is going to study Professional Choreography and Stage Management. We really have plans on trying to work together on a big show liner but that is just all fantasy. Two days later. "Tomorrow is the big day for us!" Jen said while jumping up and down in her seat. "I really wish our Grandparents and my father could be here to see this!" I said with my head slowly moving down. "Why did they have to go so soon? I really wish I could see them again. I really miss them a lot." "I know, I do too. They are here with us if we realize it or not they are always with us. You just have to believe that with your whole heart." Jen said while the tears started to streak down her face. "You know I believe what you said, but it is still hard to think that they are not here all of the time with us. I really miss that support that our grandparents gave to us all of the time." "Well we will both find that support again when we find the right people." Jen said while trying to look me in the eye. "You are already have support if you think about it." "Who? Jase? No! I'm his support. He makes me want to wake up everyday and work so that he can have everything." "Like I said he is your support!" Jen said with a little giggle. "I guess your right. For the first time!" I said laughing at the faces she was making at me. "Hey, I'm right three times out of ten!" she said laughing at herself. "NO! Your more intelligent than you give your self credit for." "I'm ready to go home." I said. "Yeah, me too. Can I stay with you tonight? Mom said that she has a surprise for her two oldest children, which you know means me and you even though your not hers she still counts you as one, and I cannot stand that much pressure in the house." She said with a puppy dogface. "Well I promised Jase he could stay with me tonight but I guess you can too." "As long as he does not pee the bed then I don't care." She said with a smile. "He has not done that since last summer! God your memory is too good for your own good." "Hey, I did not mean nothing by it." "I know I was just joking with you!" "Okay what ever! Hey, when is his birthday? I know it's soon." "It's Saturday. God I can not believe it has been four years already!" "I still can not believe that bitch would do that to you!" "Well she's gone and I do not regret any part of it. Even the bad parts I really do not regret." "God I don't see how you can handle all of those pressures. School is enough for me to handle let alone raising a child!" "God, if it was not for mom, dad, and grandma & grandpa I truly think I would have killed myself at times!" I said while more tears slipped down my face. "They knew when I could handle stuff and when I could no longer take the problems by myself. But other than that I have raised him by myself." "Well after tomorrow you can leave and start your life down in Florida. Are you taking Jase with you?" "I would like to have him there, but I don't think that I can support the both of us right now. Mom said that I can leave him here until I can support the two of us by myself." "Well we really need to go to bed. It is going on 2:00 a.m. and we have to be at the auditorium by 12:00." "I can't sleep with Jase curled up in my lap like this. Can you help me move him without walking him up?" "Yeah, here you hold his head and I will move his body!" she said while maneuvering herself to left his little body. "How is that? It must be a lot better than before." "Yeah a lot better. I'm really going to miss him. I'm really going to miss you too." I said while new tears started to flow. "God you're not making this any easier for me either, you know!" "Okay enough crying tonight, lets go to sleep." I said while lying down next to Jase. Then Jase slowly snuggled into my body holding on as if I was never going to leave him for any reason. God I was going to leave him in a week. What am I going to do about him? He's my only reason to go on with life. I started crying until I finally entered sleep, slowly drifting into my dream... I'm stand with a group of people, all of whom are screaming for some reason. I'm standing in front of a stage. Then it all goes dark. Then one light, then another, another, another, and another all of which looked as if people were standing inside of them. Then one of the five caught my eye by what looked as if he was staring at me. Then the one beside him seemed to be staring at me. I did notice two other staring at the person standing next to me. I slowly turn to see whom they were staring at. There beside me was standing.... "Daddy wake up!" Jase said while jumping up and down on the bed. "Grandma said to wake you and Aunt Jen up for breakust." "Wake us up for what?" Jen said softly while still asleep. "Breakust!" Jase said a little frustrated. "You mean breakfast." I said while Jase sat down one my stomach. "Yeah." If you were to meet him you would think that he was five or six with the way he talks. He started to talk at a very young age and I just worked hard with him to get him to learn faster than normal children his age. "Tell grandma that we will be down in a minute or two, Okay?" I said pushing Jen off the side of the bed causing Jase to start to laugh at her. "And what do you think you're doing little boy?" I said while turning to Jase. "I laughing at Aunt Jen." Was all he could say as he ran out the door before I could go after him. "What the hell was that for?" Jen said popping her head up over the bed. "That was so that I knew that you were awake before I go down stairs to eat." "Okay little boy. I will just tell you to watch your back for now on." "Am I suppose to be worried or something?" "I'm just saying to watch your back." "Okay what ever I'm leaving." Down stairs. "Daddy said he will be down in a minute, Mama." "Okay honey sit down and eat before I beat your butt!" "Your One and Only is here now!" I said while skipping the last step on the stairs. "So where is he than?" My mommy said. "I don't know either I guess when I see him I will tell you!" I said while kissing my mother. "What time do we have to be at the auditorium tonight?" "About 6 or so I have five sits reserved for you, Jase, Mary, Judy, and Ashlund." I said. "So we leave for Orlando in six days right?" My mother asked "Yeah you two are staying for a week or so right?" "Yeah about that long. Oh before I forget do you have plans for tomorrow night?" she asked "Yeah I was going to spend it with Jase. Why?" I asked "Okay so your plans have been just cleared for tomorrow night by me, Jase, and Mary." "Why? What's going on here that I'm completely clueless about?" I asked again. "It's a surpise daddy!" Jase charmed in. "Oh is it huh. Did you have something to do with it my little intelligent one?" "Yes daddy and I was told not to tell either!" he said looking directly at my mother. "Lets go, Lets go we're going to be late again!" Jen said while running out the door. "Fine. I will see y'all later!" I said while giving my mother and Jase a kiss on the cheek. "Bye honey!" "Bye Bye daddy!" Okay so what could they all be up to? They never denied me time with Jase no matter what was going on that night. Was this the surprise that Jen talked about? Or is there something else going on? No matter what's going on I'm not going to let it stop my day. "I now present to you the class of 1999" the announcer said with a loud cheer coming from the people in the auditorium. To me this was just another day of the week. I presented the secondary valedictorian honor. I gave my short three minute speech and then announced that names of my class mates that were on my list including Jen's (I asked specifically for her section of the list). Then I did my photo shoot for all of the special people of the night (valedictorian, secondary valedictorian, top 10 academic honor students, teacher's of the year, and principals of the school). "Are you done now?" Jen asked running over to me. "Yeah why?" "Mom says that your mom and mine are ready to give up our surprises!" Jen said anxiously. "Yeah I'm ready. Jase would not even tell me what it was and you know he tells me everything!" I said trying to match her running. We finally approached our little family that was there. Mary was holding Judy's hand, which is nothing unusual. Mary has been out for about nine or so years, so this was nothing unusual. "Okay what is so private that me own son would not tell me what was going on here?" I asked a little inpatient. "For that I will not tell you two!" said my aunt with a giant smile on her face "Come on, I did not mean anything by that and you know it!" I said almost pleading with her. "You know I love to see you whine about it. Jase give your daddy and aunt Jen their envelopes, please!" "Okay aunt Mary! Here daddy. Here aunt Jen." "What is it?" asked Jen. "Well open it and you will find out." Said Judy We slowly opened our envelopes and than stood shocked at what was in out hands. "Where the hell did you get these?" both Jen and me said in unison. "Look closer at them!" said my mother Oh my god these tickets were for the first row center stage seats to The Backstreet Boys concert! Both Jen and I hit the floor all at once. Then I felt Jase jumping on my stomach trying to wake me up. "Dadddddddyyyyyy waaaaaaaake upppppppppppp!" screamed Jase while I heard my mother, Mary, and Judy laughing at us both for hitting the ground. "Okay Jase stop! Ummmmppph!" was all I could say as Jase plopped down on my stomach. "Jase get off of your father now!" yelled my mother. "Okay Mama." Said Jase as he got off of my stomach. "Are you two okay?" "Yeah we're fine. Just a little shocked at this!" I said, "and I will not ask where or how you three got these I will say thank you." "Well I just hope you meet your favorite people or at least just see them couple of feet away from you!" said Judy "I'm just happy to be in the same area that they are in!" Both Jen and I said at the same time. "Okay you three need to spend time together before you leave for your separate ways next week." Said my mother "Okay we will start now then. I will take Jase with me and we will go to dinner tonight." I said, " Would you like to come Jen?" "Are you sure? I could just go home." "Come with us, Jen" screamed Jase while still hanging onto my leg. "Alright then since you both insist." She said sarcastically with a huge smile. "Okay we're leaving then. Thank you all and we will see you Saturday night, right?" "Yeah we'll be there." Mary said. "Okay then see you then". I said "I'm really shocked from their surprise!" I said with a huge smile. "God I'm starting to believe that dreams do tell the future!" "What do you mean by that?" Jen asked "Well before that night with Amber I had a dream about exactly what had happened the next day. Then the night before she told me she was pregnant I had a dream about that. Then when Jase was born, and so forth. I had one the other night about tonight and the only thing that happened different in real life is that I could see who we were going to see and where at. I'm not making very much since with this am I?" "Yes you actually are because I have had the same dreams! Only I had one last night and I was standing with people all round me screaming. It looked like an auditorium, and then the lights go out and five beams of light come from the stage with people inside of them staring at me and the person standing next to me on my left side and when I turned to see who was there Jase woke me up!" said Jen. "No you did not! Oh my god I had the same exact dream and Jase woke me up when I turned to see who was on my right side. Do you think...No it could not be." I said a little frustrated with myself at this point for even thinking it. "I think what? That it may be the concert tomorrow?" asked Jen while I shook my head "Yes". "We need to go see Nicole tonight!" Said Jen trying to change the subject after a few minutes of silence. "Yeah since she seemed to have forgotten about us again." I said with a light laugh as I start to drive to my aunt's house. "Well Jase do you want to see if aunt Nicole is home?" I asked Jase who was dozing off in the back seat. "Yeah, but I tired." "Well we'll stay only for a little bit. So take a nap. It will be awhile before we arrive there. Okay?" I said looking in the mirror to see him asleep in the back seat. "He stays wake for no one now doesn't he." Jen said "Yeah just like his father right?" I said "Yeah!" "Are you ready for this drive up down to Nics' house?" "What is it only 45 minutes or so?" asked Jen "Yeah something like that." I said, "We'll be back down here tomorrow night again." "Hey I wonder if Nic would let us stay with her tonight and tomorrow night?" I suggested, "I have clothes for both me and Jase there and I think you do to. And anyway she loves to watch Jase!" "You think she will let us?" asked Jen "I'm sure she will." "Well I will call her any way to find out." Jen said as she pulled out her cell phone and dialed the number. "Auntie Nikki what you doing? Oh you're at work. Oh I was going to see if we could stay with you tonight and tomorrow night. Yeah Jase is with us. I don't know let me ask." She said while turning to me. "Can we leave Jase asleep at Nics? She says that Bryan and Kristin are there and that they could watch him. She wants us to come and see her tonight at the mall." I sat there thinking about this. "Yeah I guess we can." I think Jen sensed my nervousness about the whole situation. "Yeah we'll be there in about an hour or so. Okay, Is Amanda going to let us in the office this time or is Chris going to have to break the door down again. Okay, you do that then. All right, talk to you in a bit. Bye." "Okay so what is the deal, she never works nights." I asked "A V.I.P. walked in and she is guarding them. She said that she would not tell us who they were until we were there." "Is Amanda working to night?" "Yeah! Nic said to just call her and she will meet us at the Arts." Jen said turning to me. "And what is up with your nervousness with leaving Jase with them two?" "I just don't want to leave him at all" " I can see that." "We're here. I will grab Jase. You wake those two up and let them know what's going on tonight." "All right, Nic said to put him in your bed or put him in hers it did not matter just keep him out of my bed. My back can not handle another night of his kicking." "Isn't that true." I grabbed Jase and took him into the house and laid him down in my bed. I explained the whole situation to the other two and then head to Circle Centre Mall. I pulled right next to Nics' car. The people who work here are so use to me being here that we're all on first name bases and I can get where I need without any problems. "God cannot I get one night without you here?" I heard from behind me. "Yes you will in about a week!" I said while giving Amanda a hug. "You're looking for Nic right?" "Yeah we're meeting her in the Arts. Could you page her for us?" "Sure hang on a minute!" "435 what your 20" Amanda said into her radio. "I'm in the Marady." "My boyfriend is here to see you." Okay send Chris and Jen to the Arts for me I will be a minute." "Okay see you later over." "You heard her, now go." Amanda said with a smile. "We're going, we're going! I guess will see later than. Good-bye!" I said "Where in the hell is she?" Jen asked "I have no idea! She should be here by now." "God aren't you two just a little anxious to be here tonight!" my aunt said from behind us cause both Jen and I to jump drawing attention to ourselves. "If we have anymore stress tonight then y'all be visiting us in the hospital later on." Jen said holding her chest. "So I guess that you guy got the tickets I found for y'all right!" "Yeah and I still have red marks from Jase from where he was jumping on me after I passed out!" I said rubbing my chest. "Hey, where are the V.I.P.s at that you were called in for?" "They never reported their presents in the mall, so I'm waiting for Amanda to call their security to find out what's up with them!" "Who are these people?" Jen asked a to anxious and fell to the ground. "Remember the tickets...?" She said with a smile. "Well one of my friends from the army is a security guard for them. And when he called tonight for a guard for the mall he asked for me specifically!" "Oh know you don't!" I said a little shocked at what I just heard. "You work with 'N sync the night of their concert and never came to look for me and now you're suppose to be babysitting the Backstreet Boys and never told me, I no longer like you!" I said walking away from both of them with Jen laughing her ass off about my little out burst drawing of ton of stares from the people walking by. "435 I need assistance from 385 please!" my aunt Nic said into her radio loud enough for me to hear her. I turned around and stared at her. "Why are you doing this to me?" I said finally able to talk while being interrupted by the radio. "435, Nic, what's the emergency?" "Your boyfriend is walking away from me!" "Oh hell his not! Tell him he has less than 10 seconds before I get up there to be back by your side again!" "I think he heard you because his ass is stand right next to me." "Hey, Little man, I better not hear you walking away from anyone the rest of the night!" "Yes, Ma'am!" I said. "And Nic your V.I.P.s are not at the hotel so be on the look out for them!" "I will. Is there anything else?" "Yeah, have my boyfriend come and see me before he leaves, Okay?" "I will personally, over." "You know you really did not have to do that, you know." I said while Jen was recovering from her laughing session. "I had to because you were going to walk away from me all pissed off and you know I will not have it!" my aunt said. "Hey, we need to go shopping for some clothes for tomorrow!" Jen said drawing her self into the conversation. "Chris you know how to get my mall discount right." "Yeah have them call the woman that would love to be my girlfriend." I said with a laugh that only Jen understood. "Yeah that's it!" Nic said with a laugh. "I will see you when you get home or I get home or what ever. Oh yeah can I bring Jase with me to the mall tomorrow? I got some shopping to do and have no other time to do it. And also can Jase stay with Bryan tomorrow night? I may have to work with security at the concert." "Yeah sure as long as you page me if you are in the arena!" I said "I guess I could do that. Okay see you later!" Nic said walking away "Okay lets shop until our bank accounts drop!" Jen said pulling me through the mall. We stopped at every shop in the building. But we were one store, I can't remember the name, but its one of those expensive stores that when you walk in the alarms go off before you have a chance to steal anything. This is when it all began! "Um, can I see that chain right there?" I asked "Yeah sure sir." The sales clerk said while handing me the chain I was pointing at. "Can I ask the price for this?" I asked while looking at it up close. "Well sure, it is $165 for both the chain and pendent." The clerk said while watching me and looking into her price book. "Jen what do you think? Would this look nice on Jase?" I asked "Yeah its just like the one you have. I think he would love it." Jen said while looking at the necklace and then the cabinet with the jewelry in it. "Okay I will take it! Can I have the charm engraved?" I asked hoping the answer being yes. "Yes sir, we can do that. It will cost extra!" she said with a smile that she had made a sale and would get paid for it. "That's fine. I would like to have "To Jase, daddy loves you with all of his heart!"." I said while she wrote it down and then showing it to me to make sure that it was correct. "Okay sure it will be ready by 5 o'clock tomorrow. And how will you be paying for it?" "Credit card. And can I get it gift wrapped and have someone else pick it up for me?" I asked while pulling out my wallet. "Yes sir it will be wrapped and I need to know how you would like to pick it up so that no one else will." "I will be having my aunt Nicole picking it up tomorrow. She should be here at work, so I will have her stop by and grab it." I said signing my name to the sales slip. "May I ask where in the mall she works?" the clerk asked while she handed me my paper work for the engraving and the slip for someone else to pick it up. "Nicole Green that works in security." I said finishing up the paper work. "Oh then I will make sure see will get it while we're on break together tomorrow then." The clerk said with a smile. "Well you do that just as long as I receive it sometime soon." I said while turning to walk out. "Okay then I will have it for her tomorrow afternoon." The clerk said while attending to another customer. As we walked out I recognized someone walking by me but just could not put a finger on it. Then it hit me... "Oh my god! Jeff!! How dare you walk by without saying anything." I said while Jen was standing in the dark about this. "Chris is that you I haven't seen you since you visited me and your aunt while at Fort Hood." Jeff said while pulling me into a hug. Jen finally realized who this was and stood there stunned. "Well you haven't changed much. And who is this lovely young lady?" Jeff said while turning to Jen. "Where? Where?" I said turning around in circles "I'm Jen" "Hello there!" he said while grabbing her hand to shake it. "Are you looking for Nic?" I said grabbing his attention. "Yeah and No actually. Yeah because I haven't seen her in months and No because my people are in the mall without guarding!" This statement sent Jen over the edge. Jen started jumping up and down ready to scream. "Girl you better settle down before I call your mama." We heard behind us as Nic walked up. "Oh my god! I didn't expect to see you here!" Nic said as she ran up to Jeff and giving him a hug. "Okay I'm leaving you guys alone to catch up." I said while grabbing Jen's attention to walk away. "Hey I want you here to hear this since I know you're the closest to your aunt." Jeff said. And then turned to Nic. "I have talked to Amanda and she said your fired if you want this job.... He paused for a second adding drama to the scene...the guys want you to work with them again!" "Hang on one second what guys?" I said noticing the grin on Nic's face. "Hang on are you telling me that Backstreet liked working with me?" Nic said confusing me even more. "Yes they loved you when you were working with them last year and two months ago!" Jeff said. Nic stood there for a minute thinking about this and then replied. "I'm going to have to turn it down Jeff." "Your what?" the three of us said in unison. "I can't do it. I have my kids and family to worry about rather then traveling the world." Nic said with a frown. "I will tell them that but it would come out a lot better with you telling them. Oh and before I forget I have these for you two!" Jeff said turning to Jen and me and handing us an envelope. Just then Jeff's phone rang... "Hello" "Where the hell are you?" "You're where?" "Yeah she's here." "Okay hang on!" Jeff said handing the phone to Nicole and laughing. "Hello" "Help you!! Nicholas I saved you ass from her the last two times you were here!" "Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, let me talk to her." "Girl you boyfriend standing here is becoming jealous!" "Don't let them go I will be there in a minute." Nicole said before hanging up. "Well you quite calling me her boyfriend, before she starts to believe it!" I said. "Well Kevin's holding Amanda back until I get there. So we can take about an hour or so to get there, right?" Nicole asked Jeff. "And you know that Amanda is loving every moment of being held by him!" Nicole said and started to walk off. "Poor Kevin!!!" I said while running after her with Jen and Jeff close behind. As we approached I became more and more nervous, and I could tell that Jen was too. Just as we were at the door to the office, it flew open and two people attached themselves to both Nicole and me. "Where is the smart ass blonde that broke my asp!" screamed Amanda from inside of the office. "And where is the one who thought he could hold me back fro killing the blonde one!" Amanda screamed walking out of the door causing Kevin to grip my arm harder trying to hide from Amanda. Amanda noticed that both of them were behind Nicole and I. "Oh hey baby." Amanda said to me. "I'll be right with you after you turn around so I can bury these two 12 foot deep!" "Girl you can't do that!" I said wit a smile and turned around to face them, "Because their sooo cuuutte!" I said while pinching their cheeks. "That maybe true but he broke my asp," pointing to Nick. "And be protected his white ass," pointing to Kevin. "Girl you have a case of them in you desk." I said defending them both, "And besides you break one every damn night." Amanda hung her head in defeat. This allowed Brian, AJ, and Howie to walk out unharmed. "Okay you win this time, but if your boyfriends do it again, I'm going to kick their asses and then I'll hunt down yours." Amanda said with a smile. "You would love to kick my ass wouldn't you! Well you won't get the chance." I said turning to both men standing behind me. "Because you will not do it again!" "Our hero!" both Kevin and Nick said as they ran up and hugged me. Okay that did it for me; I hit the ground again tonight, causing everyone to laugh again. I woke up to Nicole kicking me. I noticed everyone standing in the office leaving Nicole, Amanda, and me alone in the hallway. "You have to quiet doing that!" Nicole said. "Well when you have 2 out of 10 of the hottest guys hug you, you see if you don't pass out!" I said still a little out of it. Then noticed what I had just said, "I mean...uhm...yeah...FUCK!" I said. "Well he finally did it." Nicole said with a smile. "Boy you know how long I have known that! When you had to have Jase, which threw everyone off track. I'm glad you finally came out to someone other than Jen!" "You knew?" I asked still shocked from what just happened "How?" "I've always known! You don't publicize it at all. I guess I know you better than you thought." Nicole said. "Why do you think you my boyfriend?" Amanda asked, " I figured it out the first time I called you that." "Why didn't you ever say anything?" I asked "We both figured if you were then you would say something or do something to prove it." Nicole said. "Oh I feel the love right now!" I said with a smile. "Please don't tell anyone yet, please!" I said looking at both Nicole and Amanda. "We promise!" they both said at the same time. Jen came running out of the office to us. "What did I miss something?" Jen asked looking at us. "Yeah, but I'll tell you later!" I said. "What do you need?" "Well while y'all were talking, the guys wanted to know if we would like to go to dinner with them." Jen said. "Yeah I guess!" I said while looking with pleading eyes at Nicole and Amanda. "Okay I will tell them!" Jen said running back into the office. Then Nick and Jeff came running out. "Nicole will you come to dinner with me?" Jeff asked holding Nicole's hand. "Yeah sure, just let me get changed." Nicole said as she and Jeff ran into the office. "Amanda will you come to dinner with me?" Nick asked mocking Jeff. "Are you going to break anything?" Amanda asked. "Yeah your boyfriends' heart there and a few other peoples, you know the usual!" Nick stated with the most beautiful smile I had ever seen. "Well to late for one of those, but yeah, I'll go with you." Amanda said grabbing my arm and dragging me into the office with Nick behind me. The strange thing is that I felt as if Nick was staring me down. "Okay where are we going?" Kevin asked once we were all in the office and ready to leave. "Italian!" Brian yelled "McD's!" Nick yelled. "You had that at lunch!" Brian yelled back. "You could have had Italian for lunch!" Nick said pushing Brian. "I could of but you wanted McD's!" Brian said pushing Nick back causing a wrestling match between the two. While they were wrestling, Nicole leaned over to me and said "Do you want to see something funny? Watch!" she said while holding up three fingers, then two, then one. When the last went down Amanda screamed at them both. "You god damn children." Amanda screamed. When Brian and Nick heard this they shoot up and yelled, "Yes mommy!" This caused everyone to laugh. "Okay lets try this again without the two of you!" Kevin said looking at Brian and Nick. "I think our guest should decide!" AJ said turning to Jen and I. "Hey don't ask me! I'm not hungry!" I said with everyone staring at me. Then as I knew she would Nicole asked, "When was the last time you ate?" I shrugged my shoulders and looked at the floor. 'Jennifer! When was the last time he ate?" "About four or five days ago." Jen said looking at the floor. "Okay that explains it!" Nicole said and then turned to Kevin, "You guys decide while I talk with my child here." "We'll let you know what we decide." Kevin said. "Okay we shouldn't be long. Amanda can we use your office?" "Yeah sure!" Amanda said while looking at Jen for answer in which Jen did not have any. "What the Hells going on with you?" Nicole asked once the office door shut. "Okay I'm not going to lie anymore. One reason, I'm depressed right now because I feel I'm leaving Jase forever! And the second is that I feel that I will never have anyone love me! I'm so lonely! I want to fill my heart, the hole in it is growing larger every day." I said with tears forming in my eyes. "This is like déjà vu!" Nicole said "Why?" I asked. "It's not important right now. All I can tell you is that you will find someone one day." Nicole said while hugging onto me. "Okay can we go back out now? I'm really beginning to like these guys!" I said with a smile "As people or just because their the Backstreet Boys?" Nicole asked "As real people. I don't freak when I'm around Britney now do I?" I asked "No because you three knew each other for a long time before then." Nicole said "Yeah what ever!" I said walking out the door. "So where are we off to?" I asked everyone. "Hollywood!" everyone said at once. We all walked out of the mall and down the street. It was a beautiful night, the stars shining and moon brightly shining through the buildings. I walked next to Nicole, while Brian and Kevin were talking behind us, Nick and Amanda were chasing each other around like little child's do, Jen walked with AJ and Howie, and Jeff walked behind all of us talking on his phone. We arrived at the restaurant five minutes later, after Nick and Amanda tried to get ran over while running into the street. "I need a table in the back for 10 people please." Kevin asked the lady at the desk. When she looked up I thought that she was going to scream, but Kevin begged her not to and well she didn't. About five minutes later we were sitting around the table talking. I had Nicole on my right, Jeff next to her, then Amanda, Nick, Howie, Jen, AJ, Kevin, and then Brian sitting back beside me. We all made our orders (with Nicole helping me with mine!) and then broke up into groups. I was talking with Brian and Kevin, and then there was Nicole and Jeff, Amanda and Nick, and last Howie, Jen, and AJ. Brian and Kevin are very interesting people! They're so much a like and yet two totally different people. Brian is shy, yet outgoing, tough, yet caring, and all in all a very lovable person. Kevin, on the other hand, is very quiet, and loud at the same time, friendly, yet professional, and also very lovable. So how we got on the subject of girlfriends and children... "Do you have a girlfriend?" Kevin asked me. "No never really had time for one." I said looking at the table. "Do you mind me asking why?" Brian asked "Well with school and all I really never tried to find one." I replied looking him in the eye. God I could be lost in them forever. Well before either of them could ask another question, our food arrived. While we were we continued to talk then Brian asked me something that really through me off. "Chris, do you ever want any kids?" Brian asked. I was caught, should I tell them or should I make something up? Nicole over heard the question and leaned over to me. "Chris tell them! It won't matter to them!" Nicole whispered and then turned back to her conversation. "Well one right now is enough for me!" I said slowly. "One right now?" Kevin questioned. "Do you have a kid?" "Uhm...Yeah...I have a son." I said looking back at the table. "You do really!" Brian asked happily. "How old?" "He'll be four Saturday." "Isn't it hard to raise a son at your age?" Kevin asked. "Yeah, but I wouldn't give him up for nothing." I said. "Yeah I would like kids one day. I love kids so much!" Brian said a little bit saddened "Yeah me too!" Kevin said. "Brian you sound as if you'll never have kids." I said looking Brian in the eye. "One day you'll find the right girl for you." I said noticing Brian's eyes turn to that of a frightened child. Kevin and Nicole heard my statement and for some reason turned quickly to look at me then Brian. Brian suddenly got up and walked away. Still not understanding the situation I get up and follow him leaving Nicole and Kevin at the table. Brian walked outside and down the street. I followed wondering where he was going and what was going on. Brian walked up to the mall doors and pulled on them, and since they were locked they didn't move. I noticed this and walked over to him and pulled out a key. I opened a little door in the wall and entered the security code. After I finished I heard the doors click, telling me they were unlocked. Brian turned to me and said "Thank you!" and then went inside. Once inside Brian stopped and waited for me to lock the doors. Once I was finished I followed him up the stairs. Growing more curious I finally asked... "Brian where are you going?" "To my favorite place here." "Where is that?" "Here!" Brian said as we walked into the Arts Garden. He walked over to the window facing the inner city and sat down. I walked over with him two and also sat down beside him. We sat there in silence for what seemed to be forever. "Chris, do you believe in love at first sight?" Brian said quickly and suddenly. "What?" I asked trying to process his question. "Do you believe in love at first sight?" Brian asked again. "I don't know. Right now I don't believe in love." "Why?" "It's a long story." I said softly. "I'm here all night long. That is if you want to tell it to me." Brian said in a calm and loving voice. "Are you sure? I don't want to bore you with the problems in my life." "Chris I want to hear this. I want to know you better, a lot better" he said the last part under his breath. "What did you say?" I asked "Oh nothing important. I'll make a deal with you. You tell me your story; I'll tell you mine! Deal?" Brian asked looking into my eyes. "Deal!" "Okay then." "Well it all started about five years ago, I was having problems with this girl at school. She had a huge crush on me, and well, she thought she would get me to admit that I liked her too. Well, I went to a party one night at a friend's house. Everyone was drinking excepted me, I can't stand to watch people drink I think its disgusting, but I was sitting there watching all of the rejects acting all stupid and everything. Well, next thing I know is that Amber is sitting beside me and handing me another coke, and well, I didn't think she would try anything here so I took it. Needless to say I was walking out the door with her fifteen minutes later." "She drugged you?" "Yeah, well, she had me outside kissing her. I just stood there actually, because my body wouldn't let me move. Well I was dozing off while she took all of my clothes off. I don't remember anything from that point until Jen woke me up the next day. Well, months passed, both Amber and I avoided each other. Well one day about four months later, I was walking with Jen to the mall, I saw Amber walking toward me. I started to walk away when she yelled for me to stay. Well I stayed because Jen was there and on the prow. Well, Amber walked up to me and started talking to me about how sorry and all she was for what she did. Well I had known her long enough to know there was something else here. I grabbed her by the arm and walked her over away from Jen. Then I asked her what she really wanted. Well she broke down in tears. As soon as she done that I knew what was wrong. So as a shock to her I asked her when it was due. She told me that they were do in late May or early June. The she told me that they were mine. I lost it and Jen heard me screaming at her. Jen didn't even bother to interfere with me because she had overheard what had been said. Well a week later she told her parents. Her parents said that they were not blaming me and blah, blah, blah. Well when my parents were told they freaked out about it and then came to their senses. Well both groups came together to figure out what to do. Abortion was completely out of the question because it is an unethical. So we all decided to keep them. Well a few months past, both Amber and I grew closer. A month before she was due her family decided to disown her. Well mom moved her in with us. That was fine with me. School had been out for about a week. I had a job working in a nursing home so that I would have some money. Well with the help of my mother's best friend who runs the kitchen, when your 15 you take what you can get at the time. Well I had my work done for the time being and I was sitting around talking to people when Teresa came running in with her keys in hand and yanking me out of the chair and room before I could even say anything." By now I was crying full force while Brian is hugging me and rocking me back and forth. It didn't matter because the mall was closed and people couldn't see us from the street. "Before I knew it She was pushing me into the hospital doors. Jen was waiting for me at the front entrance. As soon as she seen me she grabbed me and dragged me to an elevator. When we finally stopped I asked what was wrong. She said that Amber was having problems. Well before I even got to her room her doctor pulled me over to the side. He told me that since I was the father that I had to make a major decision within the next or I could loose all three people. Well Amber's parents said that they could careless about their daughter or the babies, so they signed Amber into my parents care. I discussed everything with Amber, who for some reason kept saying that she was going to die. We decided for them to go ahead and deliver the babies. Well they did three hours later. Well they moved Amber back to her own room, while the doctor called me back into his office. He told me that one baby was fine and very healthy, while the other was not so good, he weight only two pounds, extremely small, and undeveloped. He said the odds of his surviving was almost none. And staying on his roll, he gave me the last bad news, one of the babies had somehow hit the heart and she was bleeding to death. Well I left there with tears flowing. My mother tried to comfort me, but was unsuccessful. Well about three hours later a woman walked in asking for me. She walked me outside and told me that Amber had died; she killed herself and then ten minutes after that my baby died. Well, I don't know what upset me the most the fact that my bay died or the fact Amber died alone. I called her parents to tell them and all they said was that they did not care. Well that just pissed me off. I spent 20 minutes arguing with her parents and ending with me hanging up on them. Well they hadn't moved Amber yet so I went into her room. I just stood there crying from everything that had happened before something caught my eye. There in her hand was a piece of paper, and since no one was around I took it and read it... Dear Chris: I know that you found this letter before anyone else. I new you would be in here to see me before they moved me. I figure that you just got done arguing with my parents'. They don't eve care do they? Chris I know that you're upset thinking that I did this because I was alone. Will you were wrong! I was in too much pain, and I just could not have anyone or the thought of my son dying before me. Chris if he dies I will take care of he for you, if you take care of Jason for me. I filled out the part of their birth certificates that the mother needs, I will leave you to do the rest. I didn't name them because I haven't seen either one. I did think of two names though, that is if you lake them. What do you think of Eric Christopher Green and Jason Brian Christopher Green? You call them whatever you want because I know you will love them more then I could ever. Chris I'm sorry for everything I put you through. I should of excepted you for who you were and nothing more. Chris I'll make sure that you find your perfect man one day. Chris when you do find him t will tell you so, one way or another. You take care of Jason for me and I will watch over the both of you. Oh before I forget I need you to do something. Call my grandmother Gene she's the only one who does not disown me. She has something for you and the baby. I love you both, and will see you along time form now. Love, Amber P.S. Chris follow your heart. And don't let people stand in your way!! I read this to Brian. Brian was still trying to comfort me. "That's how I got Jase and how my roller coaster life started." I said to Brian. "And I thought my life was hard!" Brian whispered into my ear. "You just heard the beginning of it!" I said softly looking down at my watch. "God it's all ready going on 1 o'clock." "So, do you have anything to do tomorrow?" Brian asked "No why?" I asked "Well do you know anyplace around here to find something to eat and so we can talk more?" "Well..." I thought for a moment. "Steak'n'Shake still open. We could go there." "That's cool!" Brian said standing up and grabbing my hand to help me up. Just then my phone rings... "Hello" "Where the hell are you? And have you seen Brian?" Nicole asked with concern in her voice. "He's with me and were at the Arts!" "We were getting worried when you and Brian ran out and you weren't at my house or Brian's hotel." "We're fine! We just have been talking. Well, actually I was talking and he was just listening." "Oh really! About what?" "God are we the nosey one today!" "I have to protect my little brother!" "Well what ever! I cal you before I head home! Alright?" "Okay Ill talk to you later then!" she said then hanging up. "You ready to leave?" I asked "Yeah lets go!" Brain said. As we walked through the empty mall something was bothering me. "Brain can I ask you something?" "Yeah sure!" Brian said happily "Why did you run out?" Brian looked at the floor thing in of an easy explanation. "Well I guess it was the fact that I liked you and then you said exactly the same thing as my mother." "I'm sorry! I didn't mean anything by it." I said trying to explain myself. "You didn't do anything! It's my fault. I should have told my mother." Brain said with tears falling. I just put my hands on his shoulders for comfort. We finally reached the doors that would lead us across the street when I noticed Amanda standing by the doors with a weird look on her face, and then turning into a smile. "I forgot you were still here. Nic called you didn't she?" I asked "Yeah after she called you. She yelled at me!" Amanda said laughing causing Brian to finally smile. "Why?" I asked. "Why don't you think that anyone came walking through the Arts?" "You Knew?" "Yeah I knew exactly where you two would go and think. I know you two better than you think." Amanda said. "And anyways Brain saw me!" "Hey I had nothing to do with it." Brian said trying to defend himself. "Well what ever. Lets go before it gets later than it is." I said "Okay lets go then." Brian said before Amanda grabs him to ay something. "Brian tell me the truth do you like him for more than a quick fuck?" Amanda asked Bluntly "Amanda you know that I wouldn't treat anyone like that! I'm still a virgin for one point. And to answer your question, yes I do like he for more than a quick fuck." "Brian I'm sorry for that. I didn't mean for it to come out that way. I do trust you enough to know that you wouldn't hurt him, but you need to know two things: One is that he comes with a lot of baggage, some of which will take awhile for him to tell you. And second is that there are only three people who know everything about hi so if you need anything you just call Jen, Nicole, or me. Okay?" "Yeah I'll try to but I would prefer to find everything out myself." "Brian would you like this to work?" "Yes I would. I feel something with him that goes farther than friendship, but not just all lust." "Brian I think that your future husband is waiting." Amanda said glancing over at me patently waiting by the door. "Okay I guess that I will see you later then. Bye." Brian said leaning into her and kissing her on the cheek and then heard her scream... "Oh my god! Oh my god! Brian Littrel kissed me!" Amanda screamed jumping up and down. "Girl you're a nut!" Brian said walking out of the mall "What were you two discussing?" I asked "You!!!!" Brian said softly "Me? Why?" "It's warm out here how about we just walk over to the river." Brian said trying to change the subject. "I would kike to know why you were talking about me." "Chris I will tell you here in a few minutes okay?" "Yeah I guess." I said wondering what they had discussed We walked talking and joking with each other. I felt as if I had known him forever. The more we walked and talked, the close we grew. In the back of my mind, I could tell that my brain and heart were showing the same thing; I'm falling in love, but does he feel the same way?" We both walked in silence the last block or so. We were both deep in thought. "What would they have talked about? Is there something wrong?' I kept asking myself. 'God how am I going to tell him? How will he react? Does he feel the same way?' Brian thought. We walked down the steps to the river. I walked over and sat down on a bench. Brian walked over to the edge of the river. He then turned around and stared me in the eye. I could tell there was something else on his mind. I scooted over and signaled for Brian to sit down. Brian thought for a second and finally walked over to me and sat down staring at the ground. I know something is wrong with him then. "Brian look at me!" I asked softly. Brian did not move. So I asked again. Brian will you please look at me." Brian hesitated then finally looked at me. He had tears streaking his face. I then looked him in the eye. I was shocked at what I saw.... I could see into his soul. I could feel the tears falling form my own eyes. Then something crossed my mind.... "Brian I do!" I said softly "What? What are you talking about?" Brian asked looking me in the eye confused by my statement. "When you asked me if I believed in love at first sight. I do!" I said looking back into his soul. "You do?" Brian asked unsurely. 'Could he actually like me?' Brian thought. My next action is really what messed up my heart. Here we are 2 o'clock in the morning staring into each other's souls. And for some reason it seemed as if we were moving closer to each other. Then before we knew it we were face to face. I could feel his breath on my face. Then it happened, our lips touched. It was gentle and jet full of passion from both ends of the kiss. I felt as if the world had stopped. We finally broke the kiss, but yet still had our eyes shut trying to make the moment last forever. I opened my eyes to find him staring at me with a smile on his face. I swear I could see heaven through his eyes. "Chris I have one question?" Brian said quietly. "Would you believe me if I said that I love you?" I sat there for a minute absorbing everything that has just happened. "I don't know! What would you say if I said I loved you too?" "I would say could this work?" Brian said with confidence. "I don't know but I would like to try." I said never breaking the stare. "I would like to, too!" Brian said grabbing my hands and holding on tight. "When do you guys leave?" I asked "Monday for Orlando. You could come with me!" Brian said with even more confidence. "I'm leaving Monday morning for Orlando too, but I'm flying Hey you could come with me!" I said excitedly. "How there's no way we could we could get tickets this late!" "Do you want to bet you can! I'll talk to the pilot. "How?" Brian asked still confused. "Hang on for a moment while I talk to the pilot!" I said. I moved away from Brian and started a two-way conversation with myself... "Hey you! Is there anyway I could get five tickets for a flight?" "Yeah under one circumstance. You have to he going out with one of the cute ones, like Kevin or Nick, just as long as its not hat Brian guy." "Why?" "Because if his the one than he may have to fly the plane because I'd be staring. He's beyond cute I just wished he's single!" Hey I don't think you have a chance with him!" "And why is that?" "Because I'm going out with him!" "Yeah right as if you've met the Backstreet Boys!" "I didn't! I meet five interesting people in which I could careless as to who they are!" "Yeah what ever! They can go and could you tell that cute guy sitting beside you to shut his mouth before I have to fill it with something." "Shut up and go away all ready." Brian was rolling in his seat after my discussion with myself. "You know I do that all the time and the guys think I'm going crazy." Brian said still laughing. "Did I answer you question about the tickets?" "Yeah I since I figure that you're the pilot!" "Yeah I have been since I was 16. I could fly before I could drive." I said in a matter a fact way. "I don't think that I could do that!" Brian said "Why?" "Because I'm afraid of heights and flying." Brian said softly "You know what! I'm afraid of the same things. I got my pilots license to try to over come my fear." I said looking down at my watch. "I think I need to get you back to the hotel, before Kevin tries to kill me." "He wouldn't do that because he likes you." Brian said and then a short silence and Brian started again. "Chris does Nicole, Amanda, and Jen know that you're gay?" "Yeah Jen knew before Amber messed up my life. And Nic and Amanda outed me tonight. Brian who knows about you?" "Kevin and Nicole!" Brian said, "But I think that Amanda figured it out because she asked me if I liked you." "So that's what you guys were talking about," I said, "What did she say?" "It's not important!" Brian said turning back to continue the walk. The ten-minute walk to the hotel was quiet. I was falling asleep while walking and Brian noticed because he put his arm around me to keep me from falling. Before we arrived at the hotel Brain was almost carrying me. He dragged me into the hotel and to the elevators up to his floor. As soon as the doors shut on the elevator he picked me up and waited for the elevator to stop. As the elevator jerked to a stop on Brian's floor, I smuggled closer into him. Brian sighed lightly and started to his room. Just as soon as he got there Kevin walked out of his own room and saw Brian carrying me. "Did anyone see you?" Kevin asked. "No, I didn't carry him until we were in the elevator." "Brian you like him don't you." "Kevin I don't ever want to let him go. Kevin I think I'm falling in love with him." "Hang on. Lets put him down and then we can talk." Kevin said reaching into Brian's pocket for the key. Kevin unlocked the door and held it open for Brian. "Where are you going to put him?" "On my bed. I can sleep on the couch tonight!" Brian said laying me down on this bed, ever so lightly so not to wake me up, then pulled the covers over me and walked over to the couch where Kevin sat. Brian reached into his pocket and pulled out his phone. And dialed a number... "Hello" "Nicole its Brian." "Hi, Where's Chris?" "He's asleep!" Brian said "I was calling to tell you that he could stay with me tonight." "Oh okay! Brian what happened tonight?" "Girl you'll find out later." "Well you're just babbling with a lot of information." "Yeah right. I'll have him call you in the morning. I'll talk to you later. Bye." Brian said knowing Nicole fell asleep on the phone. Brian turned to Kevin and just stared for a moment and then turned towards the bed. "Brian what's wrong?" Kevin asked "Kevin, I'm scared! I've never felt this was before." "Brian is that you want you want to be with him forever or is it that you are lusting for him?" "I have no desire to have sec with him. I just want to be beside him and make him happy. Kevin just from what I've heard of his life, I can tell that ours seems like a piece of cake." Brian said with a tear escaping his eye. "Kevin we're leaving Monday right?" "Yeah Why?" "Well we have a flight to catch!" "What? Where to?" "Orlando! Where else?" "We're supposed to be riding the bus back!" "I know but I know this pilot and well he is insisting on us going down with him on Monday." "Who?" "Chris! He's leaving to go down there for college. He's going to stay with his aunt until he can find a house." "Oh is he! Well depending on how this weekend goes, I may have a solution to his problem." "How?" "By offering he to stay with us. We just bought that house and we have three extra bedrooms, not counting Nick's and AJ's. And it would save us from having to find someone to watch the house." "That would be nice, but I don't he'll do it." "Why?" "Because I think that hw wants his son to move down there. I don't think that he'll want to move in and don't you think that this would be kind of sudden for him?" "Well do you have a problem with his son there? We keep Nick around don't we!" "Yeah we do keep Nick don't we! I would love to have his son with us." "Well we could ask him, what would that hurt?" "I guess it won't hurt anything." Just then my cell phone rang. Brian and Kevin both checked theirs, but it wasn't theirs. Brian got up and walked around listening to where it was coming from. Brian finally realized that I was ringing. He felt my pockets until he found it. He then debated on answering it, but decided to so not to wake me up. "Hello? Chris's phone, Brian speaking." "Hello is Chris there?" a girls voice said from the other end. "Yeah but he's asleep! Can I take a message?" "Uhm, yeah, tell him Britney called. And also tell him to call me at home." "I will as soon as he wakes up." "Thank you bye." "Bye." Brian hung up and wrote everything down so not to forget. Kevin got up to leave after Brian hung up. Brian walked Kevin out of the room. Little did Brian and Kevin knew, but I had been awake during their discussion. Brian walked back in and locked. Brian started to walk to the couch when he noticed me moving around. Brian walked over to the bed to make sure that I was okay, when I finally spoke... "Brian did you mean what you said about me and Jase?" Brian stood there shocked, then finally answered. "Yeah I did! Your different from anyone I've ever met." He said sitting down on the edge of the bed. "Brian you don't know me that well. We met less then six hours ago." I said looking at the bed trying not to look into his eyes. "Brian there's a lot that you don't know, there's a lot of extra baggage with me that I wouldn't give to anyone else to take." ""Chris I'm not asking for it, I'm taking it. I want to help, I want to stand by your side." Brian said looking into my eyes. I could see that he meant ever word of it. I laid there looking into his eyes and there I seen something that I had never seen before, I was scared yet I was excited to see it. "Chris can I ask you something?" "Yeah what?" "Will...will...will you be my boyfriend?" I was stunned. Deep down I wanted to say yes, but my mind said no! "Brian I can't answer you! Can I do this though? Can I wait to see how this weekend goes, because this is kind of sudden you know! You may not even want to be with me after you meet my son." "Chris I don't see that happening. Can I ask you one more thing? Who's Britney?" "She's my best friend. Brian I lied about how many people who know about me! There's actually six total." "Why did you lie?" Brian asked hurt from my statement. "I actually didn't lie, I more of forgot that they know." "How can you forget something like that?" "I guess because they've known for so long that I don't think anything of it." "Chris are you going to tell her about us?" Brian asked scared of my answer. "Brian if I do, I guarantee that you can trust her. I've known her for ever ten years so don't worry!" "Chris I trust you!" Brian said suddenly and with full of meaning. "Okay Brian. You need to get some sleep." Brian started to walk over to the couch when I yelled at him. "Brian you sleep in the bed and I will sleep on the couch!" "No you'll sleep on the bed and I'll be on the couch." "Okay I know how to solve this, we both can sleep on the bed!" Brian stood there shocked from my statement. Hell I was shocked from my statement. Brian hesitantly got into the bed. Both Brian and I were staring at the ceiling. "Brian do you think that I'm just here because I'm a fan?" Brian looked at me. I swear that I could see heaven in his eyes. "No I don't. Why?" "Well I was just thinking about how I was acting earlier. I mean every time someone would mention your name, I would freak." I said as another tear slipped from my eye. "Brian I feel...I feel...I feel scared! I'm scared, I feel alone." When Brian heard this and wrapped his arms and tried to comfort me again. You know what. I could get use to him holding me like this. I felt so safe, like no one could ever hurt me while I was wrapped in his arms. Brian pulled my head up and laid it on his chest. I laid there still crying until I slowly creped into a deep sleep. Brian noticed that I had settled down, and my breathing had evened out. Brian looked down and seen why. I had fallen asleep. Brian rubbed my forehead with his thumb. He looked up at the ceiling and closed his eyes. Then he whispered, 'God protect him, and forgive me for my feels. Lord if he's the one please give me a sign.' Brian prayed, and then slowly drifted to sleep. "Oh my God!!!" Nick yelled.