Date: Sat, 21 Sep 2002 02:29:17 +0000
From: Lady Misterious <lionessy@hotmail.com>
Subject: i am here for you 21

CHAPTER 21 -

         Again he looked around. There was no one there and right now he
didn't feel like calling anyone.
         He sighed.
         "Thats it ladies and gentlemen, Nick Carter is b-ack." - he
smirked
         Slowly he stretched on that uncomfortable bed getting more and
more shocked with all the sorts of machines and needles and tubes connected
to his body.
         "How long have I been sleeping?"
         Nick asked himself. Right now he was asking himself so many
questions...  what happened after Taison shot him? That was the last thing
Nick could remember. Taison shooting him and Nick falling down the
stairs. After that everything went on blank. He heard some voices, but
right now he couldn't say what they had been saying.
         Nick was very unconfortable, he wanted to move, he wanted to walk,
he wanted everything, but right now his thoughts and doubts were keeping
him from calling a nurse.
         If he was at an hospital it probably meant they got there on time
to save him. And if they did this they probably found Taison. And again if
that happened where was him right now? Not that he actually wanted to
know...
         Nick thought of Taison. He didn't hate him. After all he felt pity
about him.  Taison was sick. He needed treatment. But above this he was a
criminal and Nick could only pray he was getting what he deserved right
now.
         Nick knew what had happened to him. He knew Taison had come back
and tried to kill him. He knew he went through hell again hearing all those
stuff he said trying to hurt Nick, the things he said about his little
brother...  Nick hated him for that. And only because of that. His
brother's name in his mouth sounded nasty. And that was the only reason why
Nick felt hate towards Taison.  Otherwise he didn't give a shit.
         Nick smiled again and laughed a little.
         "I'm alive!" - Nick exclaimed silly.
         He was so happy... All the pain he went through before going
unconscious didn't seem to matter at all. Nick was happy, Nick was in
peace, Nick was in love...
         Every time Nick thought about Brian his heart would get bigger
inside his chest and he would smile so widely and feel so good that tears
of joy wetted his eyes.
         He knew Brian had been there not much time ago. He could still
smell him.
         Nick remembered the dreams he had and how Brian's face had always
been there for him. First they had agony, his dreams were fulfilled with
clouds...  and slowly they turned into something passionate... that face
trying to save him, that voice, that perfum... Nick knew it was Brian. And
he realized he had dreamed of that just so many times... He began to
worry. How long had he actually been in this... coma? Had he been in coma?
         Oh, God, Nick felt an urge to catch up to the world, to know what
was going on outside that white walls, to live again!
         But, hey... Once more. If he had been there for more than one
day... maybe one week? Then the world, the press probably knew about
it. Did they know about Taison... of course, if they found him at his
house! But... did they know what Taison did to him...?
         Hell with this. Nick couldn't care less at this point. What if
everybody knew? What if people felt disgust of him? What if he lost
everything, his career, money, friends? He had the most important thing
ever! That thing Brian told him about in the country house... that
person. That feeling.
         Nick had love. He had Brian, who could ever want more?
         No matter what sort of bad things he would think right now nothing
would get to him. Nothing could get him sad. Because Brian was in this
world.
         "Oh...!" - Nick groaned.
         He just couldn't wait to see Brian again. He missed him so bad!
Nick needed to look into his eyes, he needed to tell Brian how he felt!
         Oh... again. One more thing to think about. Slowly Nick remembered
what he found out about Leighanne that night. She was the one responsible
for making Taison look for Nick... She wanted to screw with his life!
Probably even kill him!
         Nick gasped. Did Brian know that? Did Brian know what kind of
person he married? Leighanne was mean... In certain way she was worse than
Taison.  He wouldn't do anything behind your back, Taison was the one to go
to you and hurt you in front of, making everything clear... Nick
shivered. No more Taison in his life. But Leighanne... did she have blood
on her veins? She predicted it all! She sent Taison's father a letter, she
gave him his address... Nick was amazed how far could someone go because of
jealousy. Betrayal can be even worse than physical injury.
         Nick was right about that. In his life everything that had made
him suffer the most wasn't caused physically, it was mind games played for
cruel people.  Psychological games of making you feel bad, fooling you...
         "Oh, damn, let it go."
         Nick didn't want to think about her. He just had to talk to Brian.
For now he would be happy only in seeing him...
         Nick wondered what time it was. He knew it should be late coz he
couldn't hear any noise coming from the hallway. From time to time someone
waked by his door.
         Nick was just too hustled to try and sleep. He just closed his
eyes and waited till someone come to his bedroom. Sleeping would be
impossible once his heart was beating faster and faster on the perspective
of seeing Brian again.


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         Brian had told AJ he was staying at Nick's house until he could
figure out where he was gonna live. He told Leigh she could keep the house
and she also got a great amount of money from their divorce. All Brian
wanted was to pack his things and go to Nick's house. From there he would
find a place to go, but that wasn't really important right now.
         Brian was sleeping in Nick's bed and the door bell began to ring.
It was nine o'clock in the morning, Brian hasn't been able to sleep and all
he wanted was to shut his eyes and ignore that noise. When he realized it
would be impossible he finally stood up, got dressed and went downstairs to
open it.
         "Kevin...? Whatcha doing here now?" - Brian asked still a little
sleepy.
         "AJ told me you were here. You just forgot you have a cousin that
likes to know where on Earth you are, right?" - Kevin seemed to be angry
before melting in a large smile.
         "What is it? What happened? Why you are here anyway?"
         "Brian!" - Kevin looked him in the eyes, a huge smile on his face
as he grabbed Brian's arms to be closer to him. - "Someone wants to see
you!"
         "Who?"
         "Nick!"
         "Wha...?"
         "Nick woke up, Brian! In the middle of the night! He's been up
since seven o'clock talking to his family, right now his parents are there
just like AJ and Howie... I tried to call you but you left your cell off, I
was so carried away talking to Nick...!" - Kevin was excited.
         Little by little Brian began to understand what he was saying.
         "Nick... is... back?" - Brian asked innocently.
         "Yes! Yes! And he is so happy, he is so fine! He begged me to find
you!  He wants to see you Brian, he can't wait to see you!"
         Brian let go a deep sigh as tears came to his eyes. He couldn't
believe it...  Nick! He is awake? He wanted to see him?
         "Oh, my God, Kevin! Take me there, please!" - Brian cried.
         "I'm going to, if only you stop crying and get a move on! My car
is right in front of us!"
         Brian smiled and followed Kevin to his car. He couldn't believe
it.  Nothing of this... He could barely control his heart as they were
getting close to the hospital. He felt like he could faint at any
moment. He felt just like some little girl that won a contest to meet the
Backstreet Boys and is now heading to her final destination to get her
prize.


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         Nick was in the room talking with his parents, AJ and Howie. Aaron
and his sisters had been there earlier, and now he was almost dying in
expectation to see the person he sent Kevin to get.
         By this time Nick knew they were close and he just couldn't
concentrate on anything his parents and friends were saying. His heart was
just beating so fast he feared it would escape his chest through his mouth.
         Nick was getting all emotional. His heart was about to explode and
those same butterflies were making it impossible to hide the silly smile
playing on his lips. He had to say something to keep himself from screaming
and singing in joy and expectation.
         Nick turned to Howie.
         "So, what happened to Taison?" - up till now all Nick knew was
that the police took him and he was condemned. - "Did you hear anything
else after the went to jail?"
         Howie grinned.
         "The police officer called me and he told the men in Taison's cell
that he had raped a kid. The policeman told me that Taison would keep the
other prisoners busy for a looooong time..."
         Nick smiled completely satisfied.
         "Taison will be their bitch." - AJ laughed and everyone in the
room followed him.
         This couldn't have been better. Taison was getting exactly what he
asked for. But talking about him was such a waste of time! Soon they
changed subject again.
         "Can't believe I've been here for a month..." - Nick sighed and
looked at the white sheets.
         "A hell of a long month!"
         Nick's heart raced and immediately he turned around to see Brian
saying this to him. He looked amazing... Just as Nick could remember. His
eyes shining in joy and a little moisten from tears forming on them.
         "Brian!" - Nick half screamed half laughed.
         "Nick!" - Brian did the same approaching to his bed.
         Without anymore waste of time Nick threw his arms around Brian and
they hugged tightly for a long time. Everyone watched with light hearts as
Nick laughed and Brian cried, their heads buried into each other's
shoulders, Brian running his hand desperately through Nick's as hair, as if
to be sure he was really there with him.
         "Oh, my God, I missed you!" - now it was Nick's turn to cry. It
had been almost two months he didn't see Brian! Before the coma they hadn't
seen each other for more than twenty days...
         "Oh, Nick! Don't cry, you are back now!" - and it was Brian's turn
to laugh.
         Slowly they let go of the embrace and Nick sat again on the bed,
this time he had Brian's right hand between his, as his friend kept
standing up by his side.
         Brian looked at everyone in the room. Nick's parents were in
heaven...  He couldn't remember the last time he felt so happy, so complete
as now when he could feel Nick rubbing his hand softly between his.
         Brian looked into his eyes and Nick stared back. Although Nick
couldn't read Brian's eyes he felt that same shivers up and down his body
and he had to look away not to smile widely like a silly guy.
         Kevin was standing next to the door, and when he entered Nick's
parents said they were gonna leave and let Nick with his friends for a
while.
         As soon as they left both five guys kept quiet. They were saying
so many through their looks! Nick could read the fear of his friends in
losing him, and the happiness in seeing him back. He could also see in both
AJ and Howie that they knew what Nick went through, and their eyes were
saying they'd be always there to help Nick, just like they wish they
could've done before.
         "I love you guys." - Nick said.
         The next moment the four other boys reached for the bed and hugged
Nick at the same time.
         "We love you too." - Howie said.
         Kevin kissed Nick's head.
         "We are happy to have our little brother back..." - he said.
         Slowly they let go of the embrace and Brian pulled away too. He
was feeling all sorts of confusing emotions, he just couldn't help but
smiling at Nick.
         Nick looked back at him.
         "So, AJ said you are staying at my place." - Nick smiled. - "Thats
cool, Brian. You can be there living with me, it is gonna amazing!" - Nick
smiled widely.
         "Yeah..." - Brian agreed. - "I'm just there till a find a place to
be, ya know... Leighanne..." - Brian swallowed and looked away.
         Nick looked at him understanding.
         "I know, the boys told me. But I want you to live with me Brian!
And...  and I'm sorry about Leigh... I know you two got a divorce."
         Brian looked at Nick concerned.
         "No! Don't say you are sorry, Nick... Oh, my God! I feel so bad...
I'm ashamed to even say it... but you don't know, you have no idea what
Leighanne did to you, Nick... I can't even tell you what, but..." - Brian
sighed sadly.
         "I know, Brian. I know what she did. She gave my address to him
and sent a letter to Jordan."
         "Who told you?" - Brian looked at AJ and he shrugged. He was the
only one to know what Leighanne did.
         "Nobody. I knew. Er... Taison kinda told me... I figured it out
joining the pieces..." - Nick looked down.
         "I'm so sorry..." - Brian said coming close to him again.
         "No, Brian, I am the one who is sorry for you... I'm fine! I can
imagine how hard its been being for you..."
         "I wish we could talk... I have so many things I wanted to tell
you..." - Brian said, they were almost like ignoring the other three people
in the room.
         "Me too!" - Nick exclaimed. - "But... oh, God! I'll be leaving in
one hour and today I promised mom and dad, and Aaron and the girls that I
would spend the day with them... Ya know, go to my family's house, hang
around with my fellows..."
         Brian sighed and ran a hand through Nick's hair. He could feel how
much Nick wanted to talk to him.
         "Thats ok, I understand and I think you are right. We'll have all
the time in this world to talk!"
         Nick smiled at him and they looked to the other guys.
         "Thats it. All the time in this world." - Kevin said.


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         Brian went back to Nick's house after having lunch with Kevin,
Howie and AJ. He could barely wait to see Nick tomorrow, once he would
spend all this day with his family. More than fair, but still Brian wished
he was there.
         The guys offered to stay there with Brian but he said he'd be ok.
He needed to straighten up the house, it had been almost like a total
mess. Not that Nick would mind... He definitely wouldn't! But Brian wanted
everything to look good when he came back.
         It was three o'clock, the sun was shining bright but it wasn't a
hot day. The breeze was wonderful, and although Brian had a light T-shirt
he could shiver at the chill brushing on his skin at the terrace of Nick's
house.
         Brian sat on one of the chairs there and looked at the sea. He
sighed. He was happy. Happy and at the same time completely torn... this
feelings were fighting inside of him.
         "What you thinking, Frick?"
         Immediately Brian turned around to see Nick bringing up a chair
and heading to where he was to sit by his side.
         "Oh, God, Nick! What are you doing here?!" - Brian's eyes widened.
         "Hey, you want me to leave?" - Nick joked. - "I thought this was
my house..." - Nick giggled.
         "No, of course, its just that... I thought you'd be spending the
day with your family..."
         "Oh, sure. I was there with them, I missed Aaron and the girls,
but they saw in my eyes I wanted to be somewhere else. I mean, we'll have
all the time to be together, but right now I had only one person I really
wanted to be with." - Nick finished with a large smile.
         "Awwww!" - Brian pulled Nick into his arms and stroke his hair. -
"Thank you so much! All I wanted was to be with you right now..." - Brian
said letting go of Nick as he sat beside him, being able to stare at the
sea too.
         "Me too." - Nick said.
         Brian buried his head on his hand and began to cry.
         "Oh, oh, oh! Whats it buddy? I'm here, Brian, please don't cry!" -
Nick said running a hand over his back.
         "I'm sorry, Nick... I'm just so happy you are back! I mean, you
are my best friend and the best thing in my life right now... It's been
being so hard the break up with Leighanne! I can't believe she could be so
jealous about me and you..." - Brian sobbed and Nick quietly Nick ran his
hand through his back and the back of his neck. - "I thought I loved
Leighanne, Nick... I did everything to make her happy, I devoted my life to
her because I thought she was the one... You remember what I told you in
the country house?"
         "Yes..." - Nick nodded.
         "Well, I married Leighanne because I knew she was this person, she
was the one that I was meant to be with! And I failed Nick! The most
important thing in my life was to find that special person, I told you, the
one who would make me forget about rules, about life, about
everything... The one who would give me love... And the one I'd love till
my life is through... I gave my all to Leighanne... I loved her, I did
everything and now look what happened! Its all ruined..."
         Brian lifted his head and looked at the sea.
         "It was killing me inside, first not having you, and then knowing
that the thing I wanted so bad in my life and that I was actually living
for, knowing that this person betrayed me... That she wasn't the one... I
feel terrible, Nick... do you understand what I'm saying?"
         "Yes, Brian..." - Nick did understand. The most important thing to
Brian was to find the love of his life, that special and magic person that
would make his world complete, that would make everything else fade because
he was loving and being loved back. And now Leighanne did this to him, and
Brian felt like she was all he had. Brian felt like Leighanne was this
person.
         "I'm broken, Nick... I couldn't find love... My life was in
vain..."
         "Don't say that!"
         "But its true, Nick! I know nobody will agree with me, but deep in
my heart, all the money, fame, dreams I made come true, all this is nothing
once I couldn't find my soul mate... What I wanted the most was to find the
one, and I failed. I couldn't find that person, Nick, I failed."
         Nick's heart was hurting. He couldn't stand it anymore.
         Softly he cupped Brian's chin and made him look at him. Nick
stared into those blue eyes reflecting his own.
         "Maybe you didn't, Brian..."

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