Date: Wed, 9 Jun 2004 23:31:16 -0400 From: JT Poole Subject: Boybands - If I Ain't Got You - 22 Warnings and Disclaimers: I don't know any of the members of NSYNC or any celebrity mentioned. I don't know anything about their sexual orientation or the orientation of any other celebrities in this story (even though I wish some of them were gay). This story is fiction and you shouldn't take it for anything else but that. This is only for entertainment value only folks. Hope you enjoy the show oh I mean reading. ====================================== If I Ain't Got You Chapter 22 by JT Poole // Orlando, FL -- Sunday Morning -- The Poole-Wahlberg Estates -- JT and Mark's Room // "Hello baby, how are you feeling this morning?" Mark asked, kissing JT on the cheek as he rolled over and opened his eyes. "How long have you been up?" JT asked. "I don't know, a while I guess." Mark answered. "What have you been doing?" JT asked. "Lying here watching my handsome husband sleep." Mark spoke, sitting up in bed now. "Oh that was really sappy for the morning." JT stated, laughing as he pulled himself up in the bed. "Baby are you okay?" Mark asked, looking concerned. "I'm okay, I think I overdid it yesterday and last night, my legs are paining a bit, but I guess I will be okay." JT spoke, as Mark hugged him. "Well it's Sunday baby, I will take care of you." Mark stated, kissing JT passionately. "Oh you will?" JT asked, looking at Mark strangely. "What? I'm crushed. You are my husband JT, you know I will do anything for you, I love you, I love you more than anything in the world baby, well besides Kai, but you know what I mean." Mark stated. Hey, that's my line." JT stated, laughing as Mark's expression changed to a hurt one. "Oh baby I know you love me, sometimes I don't feel it though because of your jealousy and other tantrums you throw at me." "I'm sorry baby, just please forgive me. I promise I will try my hardest to not get jealous, I know you love me." Mark stated. "That's right baby, I love you and only you. If I didn't love you, I wouldn 't be married to you and we wouldn't have been together this long." JT stated as he and Mark heard someone moan. "Okay that wasn't me." Mark stated, laughing. "Oh God, it's Steve and that guy he brought home last night." JT stated, covering his mouth, trying to contain his laughter. "Finally he got himself someone." Mark stated. "I hope he keeps this one then." "I don't know, the first time I have seen this guy." JT stated. "Well all in all, I hope he keeps this one. I hope this one doesn't run off and break his heart and leave him broke again." Mark stated, kissing JT and getting out of bed. "Well I think Steve has learned his lesson from that, I don't think he will let happen what happened between him and Cody again." JT stated, gazing at Mark's ass as he walked into the bathroom. "Baby your ass has bruises, did something happen to your ass that I don't know about?" "Bruises? I don't have any bruises on my ass." Mark spoke, turning the light on and looking at his ass in the mirror. "Baby your ass is red, redder than normal." JT spoke, moving to the edge of the bed trying to stand as his legs collapsed and he fell back into bed. "Baby are you okay?" Mark asked, running back into the room to JT's side. "Yeah, I'm okay. I guess they don't want to work for me right now." JT stated, tears coming to his eyes. "Baby everything is going to be okay." Mark spoke, wiping JT's tears away. "No it isn't going to be okay!" JT screamed, scaring Mark. "Nothing is okay! We have our problems, Kai is in the hospital because Larry's kid decided to let his evil gay side out and to top it all off your friends come here last night and make a scene! Don't tell me everything's going to be okay!" "Baby calm down, please. Don't get yourself worked up." Mark stated, as there was a knock at the door. "Are you two okay in there?" Angela asked, knocking on the door. "Yeah Angie, we're okay." Mark called out. "Are you sure?" Angie asked again. "Come on in Angie." JT spoke as Mark got back into bed covering up just as Angela walked into the room. "What's going on in here?" Angela asked, standing at the edge of the bed where JT and Mark were. "Nothing's going on, I am just having a bad moment. Not like you haven't seen me have one before." JT stated. "Well I have seen you in bad moments, but most of the time I don't hear you screaming about them." Angela spoke. "Are you okay?" "Yeah I'm okay, okay as this body's going to get." JT spoke. "That sounds like negativity to me Mista Wahlberg, cut that shit out." Angela spoke, sitting down next to JT. "Oh hush woman." JT stated, glaring at Angela. "Don't look at me like that JT, keep on and I will make your eyes stay that way forever." Angela stated, tickling JT, making him laugh. "Stop, stop! Stop before I turn into a faucet!" JT stated, still laughing. "Okay that's enough to make me get up." Angela spoke, hopping up off the bed. "Come on downstairs guys, Nick and Justin have cooked breakfast and your friend Dean is here." "Dean? He wasn't supposed to be back until sometime next week." JT spoke, grabbing his robe and pulling it on. "We are going to wash up and we will be right down Angie." "Alright you two. See you in a few. Oh yeah, no sex, we don't want to have to reheat breakfast for you two." Angela spoke, laughing as JT threw a pillow at her. // 10 Minutes Later -- Downstairs in the Dining Room // "Good morning JT, Mark." Justin spoke, greeting JT and Mark as Mark walked into the dining room, carrying JT in his arms. "Good morning everyone." JT spoke as Steve came into the room along with his friend AJ. "Good morning." Mark spoke, placing JT in the chair that Kevin had pulled out. "Is everything okay?" Justin asked. "Yeah everything is fine." JT spoke, as Mark sat a plate in front of him. "Are you sure JT? Why was Mark carrying you? Is that like a romantic thing you two do?" Nick asked. "Yeah I am sure. Mark carried me because I left my chair down here and he only carries me when I need him to." JT spoke, forking some eggs and placing them in his mouth. "Oh okay." Nick spoke, accepting a piece of pancake into his mouth that Justin had fed to him. "Good morning. Sorry we didn't get to officially meet last night." JT stated, extending his hand to AJ who pulled the chair out next to him and was about to sit down. "Hi, I'm Alex, but you may call me AJ." AJ stated. "Nice to meet you AJ. How did you end up with ole Steve there?" JT asked, pointing at Steve, sticking his tongue out. "We met at a bar and got to talking." AJ stated, accepting the plate of food Steve placed in front of him. "We had a good time and decided to go out again last night." "Sounds cool. So do you like the big lug?" JT asked as Mark, Kevin, Nick and Steve looked at him strangely. "Yes I like him. I like him very much." AJ stated. "Good, I just want to say this." JT turned around in looked AJ in the eyes. "Don't hurt him, he's been through a lot and I wouldn't want you to become one of our patients at the hospital." "JT!" Steve shouted, walking over to JT. "What are you doing? Cut that out." "What? I am just trying to see what his intentions are." JT stated. "What are your intentions towards Steve?" "Baby I don't think that's any of your business, that's for those two, not you." Mark spoke. "Oh hush, it's just a general question." JT stated. "Yeah it may be general, but it's nosey. Drop it baby, that isn't your business." Mark stated. "Well fine." JT said. "Just don't hurt him, he's very important to us." "JT chill, AJ's cool. He's our friend and we know him. He's in the same group with us, practically a brother to us." Nick stated. "Okay okay, I will stop, but I will say this, I will have my eyes on you." JT stated, taking another bit of his food. // 1 Hour Later -- Florida Hospital -- Kasai's Room // "Good morning there. How did you sleep kid?" Andrew asked, walking into the room with the nurse. "It was okay Andy. When can I go home?" Kasai asked. "Well I don't see why you can't go home today, you have been here the required time for observation, I guess I can let you go home." Andrew stated. "Cool. I am tired of this place already. I just want to go home and lock myself in my room and just be by myself." Kasai spoke. "Kai you can't do that, your dad isn't going to let you." Andrew spoke, writing something down on the chart. "Let me call JT and Mark and get them here so I can release you okay?" "Sure. Could you tell Daddy J to bring me a jacket?" Kasai asked. "Yeah I will tell him to bring you one." Andrew spoke, walking over to the bed. "I need to examine you first to make sure everything is at least returning back to normal." "Do you have to?" Kasai asked. "If you want to go home today I do." Andrew spoke. "But Andy..." Kasai whined. "I know you don't want me to look, but I am your doctor today." Andrew spoke. "Okay, I guess I have no choice then." Kasai spoke. "Kai you do have a choice. If you don't want me to examine you I won't. I just thought you would rather me do it then have someone else do it." Andrew explained. "I don't want anyone to see my body like this." Kasai spoke, tears running down his face. "Kai it's going to be alright. You'll be back to you in no time. These bruises will go away." Andrew spoke. "But there's no way to regain what was taken from me." Kasai spoke, closing his eyes as he cried on Andrew's shoulder. "I know fella, I know. In time, things will be somewhat normal for you again." Andrew spoke, hugging Kasai to his chest. // The Prison Ward -- Brian's Room // "Look I am in pain, can you at least get the doctor in here to check me out again?" Brian asked through his tears. "I'm sorry Mr. Littrell but the doctor isn't here." Candy, the ward nurse spoke. "Well isn't there another doctor that can see me? I can't stand the pain. I need something to stop this pain." Brian stated, crying harder now. "At the moment sir no there isn't one. You have to wait until the next one arrives on duty." Candy spoke, checking Brian's chart and the monitors in the room then walking out. "Fucking bitch! She doesn't care if I am in pain or not! No one in here cares that I am in pain, they just see me as a fucking criminal. Fuck this shit!" Brian screamed out. "Cool it down Littrell!" Bart Hayes, the Prison Ward Security Officer spoke, walking into Brian's room. "Fuck off man! I am in pain here and no one cares!" Brian screamed. "The nurse said that you had to wait for the next doctor to arrive. Now wait." Bart spoke, poking Brian with his nightstick. "This is madness! I am not a criminal! I shouldn't be treated like this!" Brian screamed. "You are a criminal man. I tell you this everyday. Get it through your head man, you raped someone, you are a criminal." Bart spoke. "I didn't rape anyone, I was the one raped! Damnit, can't you people see?" Brian spoke out just as Eric Jones, one of the Prison Ward doctors walked in. "What seems to be the problem here?" Eric asked, walking over to Brian's bedside. "I'm in pain and no one here is helping me." Brian stated. "Where is the pain?" Eric asked. "It's down there." Brian stated, pointing down in under the covers. "Are you having rectal pain?" Eric asked. "If you want to call it that. Can you stop it?" Brian asked. "I am quite sure we have something to stop it. Turn on your side and pull your gown back please." Eric stated, pulling a glove on. "Candy, could you go get me some anal gel and bring me his last x-rays and his main chart?" "Sure doctor." Candy spoke leaving the room to retrieve the items Eric had requested. "Mr. Littrell what exactly have you been doing? There seems to be a lot of swelling back here." Erick spoke. "I was raped you fucking idiot!" Brian screamed. "Calm down Littrell." Bart spoke again. "This is embarrassing. Does he have to be here?" Brian asked, blushing. "Unfortunately yes he does have to be here." Eric spoke. "As long as there is a nurse or doctor in a room on this floor, it is hospital procedure that a guard be present in the room." "Well could he turn around or something?" Brian asked. "Mr. Hayes could you please turn around so that you are not directly viewing Mr. Littrell?" Eric asked. "I guess doctor." Bart spoke. "Fucking pussy." "I heard that Mr. Hayes. That kind of talk is not tolerated, regardless of your feelings toward the prisoner, he is still a patient." Eric spoke. "Sorry doctor, but he's been complaining since he's been here. I hear the same shit everyday from him." Bart stated, turning around. "Thank you Candy, let's have a look see." Eric stated, squirting some of the jelly onto his gloved fingers and inserted them into Brian's ass, causing him to take in a deep breath. "Are you okay Mr. Littrell?" "That is very painful, I can't take it doc." Brian exhaled out. "Sorry Mr. Littrell I was checking for any obvious lumps that could be there." Eric stated, pulling his fingers out Brian's ass and removing the gloves. "Let me take a look at your chart and x-rays and maybe I can get some notion to what's going on with you." "Well hurry doc, I don't know how long I can deal with this pain." Brian spoke, taking another deep breath. "Well going over your chart and the x-rays, hmmm, looks like you are developing a case of Coccydynia." Eric stated. "What is that doc?" Brian asked, getting a confused scared look on his face. "Well that's the name of an ailment caused by pain in the coccyx or the tailbone." Eric spoke. "From looking at your x-rays, it seems that your tailbone is fractured and that could be the cause of your pain right now." "Can that be fixed doc?" Brian asked. "Sure it can, but with your case, we have to do some more test and see what we can do to fix." Eric stated. "I will be right back with something that should help with the pain. Sit tight Mr. Littrell, I will be back in just a bit. "Okay doc." Brian stated, turning back over on his stomach. // 3 Hours Later -- Back at the Poole-Wahlberg Estates -- Out on the Patio // "So when are you two planning on doing this?" Angela asked, sitting down across from Nick and Justin. "Well we are going to have the actual wedding after Justy is able to walk down the aisle with me, but we are going to fly out to someplace in Vermont and get married since the law around here isn't right for us yet." Nick explained, taking a sip from his drink. "When are you two planning on going to Vermont?" Angela asked. "We haven't decided yet, but it's going to be sometime soon." Justin stated, kissing Nick on the cheek. "Yeah, we can't wait to get hitched." Nick stated, kissing Justin on his cheek. "Oh God, you two are just two mushy." Angela stated, laughing while making faces at Nick and Justin. "Kevin why aren't you being mushy with her? If you were mushy, she wouldn't be making those ugly and annoying faces at the two of us right now." Nick stated, licking his tongue out at Kevin. "Well we have our moments, but we don't want to end up like you two, you are just toooooo mushy for us." Kevin spoke. "You tell'em handsome." Angela spoke, kissing Kevin on the cheek and licking her tongue out at Nick again. "I'm going inside to get a refill. Anyone want anything while I am inside?" "Sure, could you bring me some water?" Justin asked, rummaging around his belt pack looking for some pills. "What are you looking for baby?" Nick asked. "I'm looking for my pain pills. I think me and Steve worked out a little bit too much, I can actually feel pain in my back and arms." Justin explained, rubbing his neck. "You can feel pain in your back?" Kevin asked, looking at Justin strangely. "I thought you were not able to feel pain in your back at a certain area." "Well it seems I can feel pain everywhere above my waist, and I can fell other things." Justin stated, kissing Nick passionately as Kevin turned his head away, remembering how he and JC used to be. "So is that a sign then?" Kevin asked. "If you can feel pain, then isn't that a sign that the nerve damage is repairing itself?" "No not really. JT says that it's normal for us pp's to feel things, in spite of pain, we can feel other things, just doesn't mean the nerves are healed or healing to make us better." Justin explained as Kevin stared at him. "PP's? What does PP mean?" Kevin asked. "PP means paraplegic." Angela stated, sitting down next to Kevin as she passed the bottle of water to Justin. "Thanks Angie." Justin stated. "Is JT and Mark back yet?" "No not yet, they probably are spending family time together or something, knowing JT and Mark, they are probably at Disney with the boy." Angela stated, laying the house phone on the table. "Back to the discussion at hand." "Yes?" Justin asked. "So you two are going to someplace in Vermont to get married, and you haven' t decided on a date yet for that, then you say you two are going to have a ceremony after Justin is capable of walking down the aisle with you correct?" Angela asked. "That's right, you have a memory like an elephant." Justin laughed. "Hey now, don't be implying that my woman is an elephant." Kevin spoke as his cell phone rang. "This is our time, whoever it is can wait." Angela stated as Kevin picked up the phone and looked at the caller id. "You are right, they can wait." Kevin spoke, seeing JC's number flash across the screen. "Baby I am getting tired, are you ready to go back in for a nap?" Justin asked, moving around in his wheelchair. "Sure baby, I am still sleepy, I can use a nap." Nick spoke. "Oh yeah, I bet you two are tired." Kevin stated. "Angie they are leaving us all alone at here." "So, that means we have the pool to ourselves." Angela stated. "Why don't we go in and change." "I don't have anything to change into baby, I didn't bring a bathing suit or anything..." Kevin stated as Angela put her fingers over his lips. "Who said you need a bathing suit?" Angela asked, kissing Kevin passionately as he started blushing. "I wasn't trying to embarrass you handsome." "I was just thinking of what you said. Are you saying that you want to go into the pool naked?" Kevin asked, looking at Angela intently. "Well if you don't have a bathing suit, I guess that's the most logical choice, go into the water naked." Angela stated, winking at Kevin as she got up and motioned for him to follow her as the two of them walked into the pool house. // Back at the Hospital // "Where the hell could he be? I am fucking pissed with him! He's not answering his phone and he hasn't been to any of the places we normally hang out. Where the hell is Kevin?" JC spoke aloud, walking down the hall towards Justin's old hospital room. "May I help you sir?" The nurse asked. "Yes you can. What happened to the guy that was in this room?" JC asked. "He was released a few days ago." The nurse stated. "Released? Why would he be released? Isn't it too early for a person in his condition to be released?" JC asked. "I can't give out that information sir." The nurse spoke, continuing to arrange things in the room. "If you will excuse me, I am expecting a new patient in just a moment." "Oh, okay, thank you ma'am." JC stated, walking back out of the room and back down the hall. "Now Justin is gone too. Oh great, is there anywhere I can go to get some sexual release?" // Prison Ward Floor -- Brian's Room // "Okay Mr. Littrell how are you feeling?" Eric asked, walking into the room. "I feel a little bit better. The pain seems to be going away." Brian answered. "That's good. Brian you need to tell me why you are here." Erick spoke. "Why I'm here?" Brian asked. "Yes I need you to tell me the reason why you are here at the hospital on the Prison floor." Eric said, pulling out his pen as he open the folder he was carrying. "Why?" Brian asked. "Well since I am the hospital's on call prison doctor and therapist, I have to talk to you to find this stuff out so we can do a Psych evaluation on you." Eric answered him. "Is this really necessary?" Brian asked, turning away from Eric. "Yes it is necessary Brian. Any time a person commits a crime against another person, it is always necessary to evaluate them. In your case since you committed the crime here in the hospital against a patient, a patient that was said to be your best friend. I feel it is necessary that we get this done and get to work with you." Eric explained. "We were more than friends and I didn't rape him! I didn't do anything to him that we haven't done before. I love him, I would never harm him, he wanted it." Brian clarified. "Brian are you sure that's what he wanted?" Eric asked. "Yes I'm sure!" Brian screamed. "We were lovers! He wanted sex, he always wanted sex." "At anytime did he say no or stop?" Eric asked, as he wrote down some comments in the folder. "Well ahhh...ummm...well he said it, but all the while he was still doing things with me." Brian stated. "What do you mean Brian?" Eric asked. "He was still doing the sexual stuff with me. Every time he said `no' or `stop' he continued to...you know...he was riding my dick and moaning the whole time. If he didn't want it he wouldn't have been going through the motions like we used to." Brian depicted to Eric. "So you are saying that the guy acted in a way that he acted when you two normally had sex?" Eric asked. "Yeah." Brian answered. "Did you engage in rough sex with him often?" Eric asked. "Rough sex? We didn't have rough sex." Brian stated, looking at Eric strangely. "Could you explain to me then, how you had sex with your friend that day? Tell me, were you forceful or were you in such of a hurry that you didn't realize that you were hurting your partner?" Eric asked, looking at Brian, waiting for the answer to his questions. "I don't want to talk anymore. Leave me alone." Brian stated. "You have to talk, you are required to answer these questions Brian." Eric stated. "Well tough, I am tired of talking about this. You are trying to make it sound like I hurt Nick. I didn't hurt Nick, I love him." Brian stated. "Well if you love him why did you hurt him?" Eric asked, taking a defensive tone now. "I didn't hurt Nick!" Brian screamed, sitting up in bed now. "We were talking and he was mad at me for marrying someone else. We talked and we had a fuck." "You married someone else?" Eric asked. "Yes, I married a woman to keep up with public appearances. She doesn't mean anything to me, I love him." Brian stated. "So your friend, Nick was it? Nick was mad at you for marrying someone else instead of him?" Eric asked. "Yes his name is Nick. He was mad, he said that I had abandoned him when I married her." Brian explained. "So did this Nick do anything to express his anger?" Eric asked. "Well he pushed me away from him and kept walking away from me while I was trying to explain to him." Brian stated. "What were you trying to explain?" Eric asked. "I was trying to explain to him that I didn't abandon him and why I got married." Brian stated. "He was mad and wouldn't listen to me. I tried to stop him and...and...we ended up in this room and we started having sex." "While you were having sex, again, did Nick say `no' or `stop' to you at anytime?" Eric asked. "Yeah, but I told you why." Brian stated.\ "From what you have told me here today, you are guilty of rape Brian." Eric stated. "I didn't rape him, ask him, he will tell you the truth!" Brian shouted, struggling with his restraints getting agitated now. "Brian calm down. If you don't calm down, I will be forced to sedate you." Eric stated. "I will not calm down. I need to get out of here!" Brian screamed as Bart got up and walked over to him. "Mr. Littrell calm down." Bart stated, trying to hold Brian in the bed as Eric injected him with medication to sedate him. "No, No!!!!!!!!!!!!!" Brian screamed out as the medication started working on him and the sleep soon overtook him, causing him to fall backwards onto the pillow. // Back at the Poole-Wahlberg Estates -- Justin and Nick's Room // --- Justin's POV --- I am lying here in bed completely naked waiting on Nick to come out of the bathroom. He had been complaining earlier that he wasn't feeling well. I asked him over and over again what was wrong but he wouldn't tell me. And as of last night he did more tossing and turning in the bed, I don't think he got any sleep at all. I know something is bothering him but he won't tell me. "Hi baby." He says coming back into the room. "What's on your mind?" "You are Nicky." I tell him as he gets in bed, pulling the covers up over us. "I am so happy you think about me so much." He says kissing me on the cheek as he draped his arm across my chest. "I love you so much Justin Timberlake." "I love you too Nick Carter." I tell him as he lays his head on my chest and cuddles up closer to me. I wish he would just talk to me. I want to ask him what's going on, but I am scared he will get upset and I don't want to upset him. "Baby, baby you asleep?" I ask him. "No, not yet baby. What's wrong?" He asks me. "Why don't you tell me. Baby why are you sleeping?" I ask him. "What are you talking about?" He asks sitting up in bed now. "I am talking about last night that you woke up around two and didn't go back to sleep until five." I tell him, pulling myself up. "How about all the tossing and turning? You did the same thing in the hotel room. What's eating at you Nicky?" "Justin I...I don't want to talk about it. Can't we just take our nap, please?" He asks me, tears forming in his eyes. "No baby, talk to me please. I know something is eating away at you. I can feel it and it's not good. Please baby, let me help you." I tell him, reaching out to him as he let me hug him. "No baby you can't help me with this. I can't talk about this." He tells me, turning away from me crying as I wrap my arms around him. "I'm sorry baby. I shouldn't have tried to force you. I'm so sorry. Can you forgive me for this?" I ask him, rubbing his back. "Yes I can forgive you. I'm the one that should be sorry though, I shouldn' t be closing you out like this." He tells me, wiping his eyes. "Justin I don't want to talk about it because it deals with the things that Brian did to me. Can we just not talk about this? I don't want to remember everything he did to me." "Oh baby, I'm so so sorry. We don't have to talk about this. Come here baby." I tell him, pulling him close to me, remembering what I was told about what Brian did to him. How could I be so stupid trying to pressure him into talking about something that is hurting him. What have I done to my precious baby? TO BE CONTINUED... 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