Date: Mon, 19 Jul 2004 21:46:26 -0400 From: JT Poole Subject: Boybands - If I Ain't Got You 24 Warnings and Disclaimers: I don't know any of the members of NSYNC or any celebrity mentioned. I don't know anything about their sexual orientation or the orientation of any other celebrities in this story (even though I wish some of them were gay). This story is fiction and you shouldn't take it for anything else but that. This is only for entertainment value only folks. Hope you enjoy the show oh I mean reading. ====================================== If I Ain't Got You Chapter -- 24 by JT Poole and Nicole Brown // Orlando, FL -- Florida Hospital -- Justin's ICU Room // "Andrew what's going on?" JT asked walking into the room that they were putting Justin into. "Well he's stabilizing but he's still not responding to anything." Andrew spoke, as Benjamin came into the room. "Hello again Mr. Tripp, what's the new prognosis?" Benjamin asked as JT and Andrew looked at him as though he had grown another appendage to his body. "What is there food in my teeth?" "I don't know." Andrew spoke, walking towards the door. "I will be back later to check on Justin." "Alright Andrew." JT spoke looking at the interaction between Andrew and Benjamin. "What happened to this young man?" Benjamin asked. "As I said earlier he saw someone from his past and breakdown. That's all I can say right now." JT spoke, grabbing his crutches and walking out of the room too. "What is it with everyone not being able to stay in one place when I come into a room?" Benjamin asked aloud, picking up Justin's chart and reading over it. // In the Waiting Room // "Hey baby what's wrong with you?" Mark asked, wrapping his arms around JT, placing a kiss to his cheek as Lance, Marshall and Christina walked into the ER waiting room. "How is Justin?" Christina asked, sitting down next to Nick. "He's in some kind of coma." Nick spoke, hugging Christina. "Mr. Poole what's really wrong with Justin?" Marshall asked, sitting down across from JT and Mark. "Actually I don't know what's wrong with Justin. So far all the test that Andrew have run show that he's perfectly fine, well except for the fact that he's still paralyzed." JT spoke, standing up, leaning on his crutches. "Other than that he should be okay, he's just in the coma and none of us know why." "What's going to happen to him?" Nick asked. "First thing in the morning Justin will go in for a MRI and a PET Scan." JT spoke. "A PET scan? We don't have any animals." Nick spoke. "No Nick, a PET scan is actually a Positron Emission Test." JT tried explaining to Nick. "What's that?" Nick asked, standing up in front of JT now. "The PET scan is a type of scan that looks for structural damage to the body and brain." JT explained as Lance and Christina gasped. "Its just a standard test, nothing to worry about." // Seven Hours Later -- Employee Break Room // This day really started off crappy; first things with Kevin's ex-boyfriend JC accusing me of blackmailing him to sleep with me and then said boyfriend causing Justin to go catatonic. Can this day get any fucking worse? "Well look what the cats drug in." Valgina spoke, walking into the room and sitting down in front of Angela. "What da fuck do you want Valgina?" Angela asked, pushing her tray of food away, clearly loosing her appetite now. "Spoken like a true bitch." Valgina spoke, picking at the food that was sitting on the tray. "What's the matter trick, can't afford real food? What the hell is this crap? Looks like shit." "Is there something you want Val-gina?" Angela asked, punctuating Valgina's name. "Well actually there is." Valgina said, pulling something out of her pocket and lying it on the table. "Here. I came to invite you to the wedding of me and Derrick Taylor." "What!" Angela screamed out. "You are marrying Derrick!!?" "That's right I am marrying him, you should have known that since I took him from you." Valgina spoke. "The only way you took him was by being a lying deceitful bitch!" Angela shouted, hopping up out of her seat, knocking the chair to the floor. "If you hadn't lied to him and filled his head with your bullshit we would still be together!" "Yeah right, your stupid ass can't keep a man." Valgina spoke. "Especially now, you should really have proof of that since your current man left you for another man, you are really low on the bitch pole!" "Fucking bitch!" Angela screamed, punching Valgina square in the mouth, knocking her to the floor in one punch. "Ah hell naw!" Valgina screamed jumping up off the floor and grabbing Angela around the neck. "I'm gonna kill your ass for that shit!" "Not if I kill you first!" Angela spoke, panting, punching Valgina in the stomach and then using her leg to trip her, causing her to fall back to the floor. "You won't get away with fucking shit. You was smart the last time, but this time, I am gonna beat yo' ass!" Valgina screamed as Angela's fist came flying into her mouth once more. "Keep talking that shit you pussy ass bitch! That mouth of yours is what's getting your ass beat now!" Angela shouted as another nurse walked into the break room, saw what was going on and tiptoed out. ** At the Nurse's Station ** "JT this is Jazz in ICU, can you come up to the break room please? Angie is fighting and I don't want to call security." Jazz spoke. "Yeah I'm coming, I will be there in just a moment. Be sure they don't break anything." JT spoke, talking to Jazz on his cell phone. ** Back in the Break Room -- 10 Minutes Later ** "Angie, Angie calm down!" JT had to shout to get Angela's attention. "Stay out of this JT!" Angela screamed, grabbing Valgina by the hair and slamming her face to the wall, and holding her face there. "This is between me and the body part, when I am done then I will talk to you." "Angie stop this." JT spoke as Steve walked into the room too. "Holy shit!" Steve exclaimed looking at the way things were displaced in the room. "Both of you stay out of this!" Angela screamed, kneeing Valgina in the side, causing the woman to bend over in pain. "Hit her ass harder!" JT shouted, getting into the swing of things. "That's right kick that ho's ass!" Steve stated, clapping his hands together. "I got five on Angie." JT spoke, pulling out his wallet and producing a five-dollar bill. "I kindly accept that bet." Steve spoke pulling out his wallet as Kevin walked into the room to see what was going on. "What the hell!" Kevin spoke, walking closer to the scene. "Aren't you two going to stop her?" "Nope." JT and Steve spoke in unison. "She's fighting, she could possibly get into trouble." Kevin said, pointing at the two women still tussling around. "She's not going to get into trouble. I'll see to that." JT spoke, turning around acting like he didn't see anything. "Fuck this." Kevin spoke, walking blindly into the fray of the two women fighting as he grabbed Angela as she held on to Valgina's hair. "Let me fucking go Kevin, I will handle you later!" Angela screamed, trying to get away from Kevin. "No Angie, you shouldn't be doing this and Steve and JT should be ashamed for letting this go on like this." Kevin spoke, walking out of the room with Angela in his grasp. // Down in the Chapel // "Heavenly Father, this is Nick," He started, bowing his head as tears formed in his eyes. "I know that it's been awhile since I talked to you, but I was mad at you for what you let Brian do to me. I know now that I can't blame You for what he did. I just want to ask You to please bring Justin back to me. I love him so much, and he has already suffered enough for loving the wrong man. "God, if You would just let him come back to me, I promise You that I will take such good care of him. I would love him for as long as he'll have me, and I promise you that I would rather die than to hurt him. I'll keep him safe and make sure that not one day will go by where I would forget to make sure he knows it. I know that I don't deserve it, but please, don't hurt Justin because I'm a total screw up. Thank you Father. In the name of Jesus, Amen." // Later that Night -- The Poole-Wahlberg Estates -- The Entertainment Room // "Yeah I have the new Zelda game, it's so cool." Kasai spoke as he and Aaron walked into the Entertainment room. "Cool man, is it okay if we play it now?" Aaron asked. "Sure it's cool, Daddy J won't mind, it's not like I have some place to go anytime soon." Kasai spoke turning on the television and pressing a button on one of the devices and a cd tray popped out. "Do you want something to drink or anything to eat, something like that?" "No, I am alright. I will let you know if that changes." Aaron said sitting down and grabbing a controller. "Okay, just a warning, when I start playing, I don't like to move from my spot." Kasai spoke sitting down and grabbing the other controller. "I am just like that." Aaron spoke, scooting over so he was a little closer to Kasai. "Alright lets get this show on the road." Kasai spoke pressing the start button on his controller. As the midnight hour rolled around the two young men were still in front of the television playing video games until... "You are so cute sitting here. It's taking all of my willpower to keep from touching you all night." Aaron spoke, brushing his lips across Kasai's cheek. "You are cute too." Kasai spoke, his voice trying to show his nervousness. "Damn I wish I was your lover." Aaron spoke, putting the game controller then and wrapping his arms around Kasai, placing a kiss to his lips. "Mmmmm your lips taste good." "Your lips taste good too." Kasai spoke, feeling a little bit uneasy. "I am falling for you man." Aaron spoke, getting up, turning around and crawling up on Kasai. "I wish we could have sex, you are so hot in them jeans." "Sto...stop." Kasai whispered. "You are so hot you are smoking man, smoking." Aaron spoke, placing another kiss on Kasai's lips. "No...please...stop...don't..." Kasai spoke lightly as Aaron's hands starting roaming in different places on his body. "NO!!! Don't touch me! Get away from me!" "Huh? What did I do?" Aaron asked as Kasai jumped up and run to the corner, still screaming, covering his head and folding himself into the fetal position as Mark and Steve came running into the room. "What the hell is going on in here?" Mark asked, grabbing Kasai and holding him in his arms as he cried. "What did you do to him kid?" Steve asked, looking at Aaron. "I didn't do anything to him. Honest, I didn't do anything to him." Aaron spoke, standing up now. "I think it's best that you just leave." Mark spoke, holding Kasai in his arms. "Shhhh baby it's going to be alright." "Kasai I'm sorry, I didn't mean..." Aaron spoke as Mark shook his head. "Steve lock up down here, I am going to take him up to his room." Mark spoke, as he and Kasai walked out of the room. // Up in JT and Mark's Bedroom // "Is he okay?" Mark asked as JT crawled into bed after two hours of trying to calm Kasai down. "Actually I don't know. I really don't know." JT spoke, positioning himself next to Mark. "I am starting to think my baby is getting worse." "Getting worse?" Mark spoke, placing a kiss on JT's cheek. "I thought you said that if he talked to the therapist that he would be back on the right track...isn't he on the right track now?" "If tonight is any indication, then no he isn't on the right track." JT spoke as Mark wrapped his arms around him, kissing him. "Everything's going to be alright baby. I know our boy is going to be alright, he's strong." Mark spoke, as there was a knock at the door. "Yes?" JT spoke out as the door opened and there stood Kasai. "Daddy can I sleep with you?" Kasai spoke, barely able to be heard by Mark or JT. "Come here son. What did you say?" JT asked, holding his hand out for Kasai. "Can I sleep with you daddy?" Kasai asked, getting into the bed next to JT, laying his head on his chest, flinching when Mark tried to hug him. "Babyboy I am not going to hurt you." Mark spoke softly as Kasai clung to JT tighter. "He's shaken up Mark, he's just a little bit scared." JT spoke, trying to make Mark feel better. "Okay baby." Mark spoke, sliding out of bed, standing up and pulling his boxers back on. "Goodnight baby." "Goodnight Mark." JT spoke as he noticed the tears in the corners of Mark's eyes. "Goodnight babyboy." Mark spoke, getting no reply from Kasai. // Later That Night in Angela's Car // "Angie, stop it!" Kevin yelled, holding on to her arm as she fought to get free. "I'm not going to stop! Let me at that bitch!" Angela replied struggling to get loose. Kevin practically dragged her out of the hospital, heading for her car as fast as he could. "Angela... get in the car," Kevin stated, opening the door open for her. "Get in the fucking car now!" "Go to hell Kevin!" Angie replied pulling away from him but doing as he had asked and getting in the car. Kevin drove off, looking as angry as Angie felt. "Angie, what the hell is your problem?," Kevin asked, pulling over and parking on the side of the road. "This is not just about Valgina, is it? You 're upset because of what JC said at the house today, aren't you?" "Well I don't know Kevin, should I be?" Angie replied, facing Kevin as she tried to keep her irritation under control. "Let's recap today's events. Your ex whatever the hell he is shows up and scares Justin so badly that he' s catatonic. Then he accuses me of blackmailing you to get you to sleep with me. And then to top it all off, that bitch Valgina starts shit with me yet again. So now you tell me how do I feel?" "Baby, when are you going to let this insanity with Vagina or whatever her name is go?" Kevin replied, caressing her cheek gently. "As far as JC goes, you should see that for what it is. JC is pissed off because he can't have me anymore." "Are you sure Kevin?" Angie asked, unable to meet Kevin's eyes. "I mean you and JC have a past, and don't think that I don't see the longing in your eyes when Nick and Justin or JT and Mark kiss. So one more time I ask you: are you sure that I am where you want to be?" "Angie, what do I have to do to get through to you that you're the one I want?" Kevin asked in exasperation, stabbing his fingers through his hair. "Baby, why can't you just trust me? Trust what we have and let your heart be your guide." "Kevin, I want to trust you, but I'm scared that you're going to run back to JC and break my heart," Angie replied, wiping at stray tears. "There is only one thing that you could do that would help me feel more secure, but I know you won't want to do it." "Tell me then baby," Kevin stated, kissing her softly on the lips as he wiped her tears. "Whatever it is I'll do it. I hate seeing you so sad." "I want you to introduce me to JC," Angie replied, smiling softly. "I want to talk to him." "Are you sure that that's what you want?" Kevin replied, looking uncomfortable. When Angela's face clouded over again he hurried to explain himself. "Angie, it's not like that. I know how JC's mind works. He's not interested in getting to know you. It's more likely that he would try something to break us up." "Well then I guess I'll have to prove to him that I'm not a woman to be taken lightly," Angie replied resolutely. She looked Kevin in the eyes, not flinching or blinking. "You just make the introduction. Let me worry about how to handle Mr. Chasez." "Angie I just don't get you," Kevin said in frustration, watching her in the dimly lit interior of the car. "Why the hell can't you just let all of this bullshit go and leave JC and that Valgina person to their own private hell." "Don't you think I'm tired of all the fucking drama in my life Kevin?!" Angie shouted, eyes flashing as she finally lost it. "I'm sick and fucking tired of being Valgina's personal punching bag and of being too scared to love you the way I want to!" "Damn it Angela, don't attack me!" Kevin shouted back at her, making her jump. "I'm on your side in all of this! Baby, can't you see that you're letting all of this anger tear us apart?" "Just take me home Kevin," Angie snapped, clinching her jaw to keep her temper from exploding. "As a matter of fact, drive yourself to your hotel. I 'm too tired to deal with you tonight. I just want to go home and go to bed." "Angie, you can't run away from me every time we argue," Kevin replied, putting a hand on her arm to get her to face him. "Baby, we can't just pretend that our problems don't exist. And we can't keep on with the hit and run sex either. I want more than that, and I think you do too. Please, don't shut me out!" "Just drive to your hotel Kevin," Angie repeated, pulling away from him and sliding as far away from him as she could within the confines of the car. "It's late and I want to go home." "No," Kevin replied, his tone discouraging any further argument from her. "Fine, do whatever the hell you want then," Angie stated, tears of frustration in her eyes. "I don't care anymore." Kevin drove toward his hotel, glancing at her as he drove. He knew that he was falling for her, but he also knew that he had to do something soon before she totally shut him out. He pulled into the valet parking lane, reaching over to shake Angie awake. "Angie, wake up baby." Kevin said softly, concerned when she seemed to take longer than usual to wake up. "We're at my hotel." "Okay," Angie replied, disoriented as she got out of the car to walk around to the driver's side. Kevin took her hand in his, looking down at her tired face in concern. "Look, why don't you come upstairs and sleep in my room," Kevin said, holding her hand. When it looked like she might refuse he added, "Angie you' re tired and upset. I don't want you trying to drive like this. Nothing will happen that you don't want. I'll even sleep on the couch if it makes you more comfortable." "Alright," she replied simply, handing the car keys to the valet and grabbing her purse before following Kevin inside. They rode the elevator together in silence, each lost in their own private thoughts as they exited on his floor and went into his room. When they got inside, Angie headed straight for the bathroom, not giving Kevin the chance to speak to her. As she soaked, she thought about Kevin's words. She knew that she ran the risk of loosing him because of her insecurities, but sometimes the intensity of her feelings for him scared her. She truly felt that they could have something special, but part of her was too afraid to even attempt to open her heart to the potential heartache. Damn it, I have to stop this, Angie thought as she showered. I have to trust that he won't hurt me. I have to let go of the past before Kevin leaves me. Once she was done, she found a pair of Kevin's pajama's hanging on the back of the door. She slipped into the top, noting with a grin that the hem reached almost to her knees. She opened the door, walking out into the living room area of the suite where Kevin was waiting for her. Kevin sat in one of the armchairs, smiling as she walked farther into the room. He had lit several candles, which cast a romantic glow on the room. He reached out to her, waving her over to where he sat looking too damned sexy for his own good. "Come here Angie," He said, his voice husky in the darkness of the room. His tone, coupled with his voice, made her shiver. It made her uneasy, the way he could affect her simply by, speaking, or even worse, whispering. Which was what he was doing right now. "Come here," He repeated then, locking gazes with her. Leaning back against the sofa, he stretched his legs in front of him and waited. Angie shivered when she saw the look in Kevin's eyes. She crossed the space between them, stopping in front of him. She reached out to trace his mouth with one fingertip, feeling him tremble as she drew a path down his neck and over his chest. Kevin grabbed her hands, pulling her down onto his lap and holding them in his own. "Angie, look at me," Kevin began, kissing each of her fingers, then the palms of her hands. "I know that you have been hurt. And baby, I know that I hurt you when I called you by JC`s name, and I want you to know how sorry I am for that. I never meant to hurt you. I want to be with you, loving you for as long as you will have me." When she lowered her face, Kevin put his hands on sides of her head, bringing it back up so that he could look into her eyes. "But baby I need you to trust that what I feel for you is real. I can't promise that I'll never hurt you again, but if you give me a chance, I promise that that I would never hurt you on purpose. And if I did, then I would spend my life making it up to you." "Kevin," she replied, leaning forward and wrapping her arms around him. Angie held him and cried softly, throwing caution to the wind and letting down her guard. Kevin could feel something change when she finally let go of the shadows and let him into her heart. He smiled and gently pressed his lips to hers, tasting her tears. He licked his lips as he rested one hand behind her head, brushing across her cheek and slipping around the back of her neck and up into her hair looking deeply into her eyes. "Angie, let go of everything but what you feel right now," Kevin whispered, resting her head on his shoulder and rocking her gently as Prince serenaded them in the background. They sat that way for a while, allowing the anger of the past few hours to fade away. Angie pulled back, gazing into his eyes. Kevin claimed her lips in the most erotic kiss she had ever experienced. He kissed her gently, slowly tracing her lips with his tongue before pushing past them into her mouth where his tongue traced her teeth before meeting hers. He continued to explore as Kevin slowly slid the oversized pajama top off her shoulders. "Remind me to loan you that pajama top again soon," he whispered softly, groaning when she rubbed his nipples through his shirt. He leaned in, kissing her neck up to her ears, gently sucking at her earlobes. Angie giggled softly, squirming as he worked his way down her neck slowly, the laughter turning into a sigh as he moved down the center of her chest, tracing over the top of her breasts with his tongue. Angie had her legs on either side of him, running her fingers through his hair as Kevin began licking and sucking her nipples. "Oh Kevin," Angie moaned, breath coming faster. "That feels... so good." "It gets better," He whispered, planting tiny kisses down her tummy, circling her belly button with his tongue, which made her giggle again. He lifted her up, turning and laying her on the couch so that he was on top of her. He knelt on the couch, lifting one of her legs and holding it while he gently kissed each of her calves, then laid them down. He pulled back, removing his pullover top, then slipping off his boxer briefs revealing his rigid satiny length. Angie sat up, running her fingers over the length, teasing him, smiling when his breath seemed to catch. "You are so beautiful," she whispered, caressing the broad expanse of his chest. "Not nearly as beautiful as you," Kevin replied. Kevin lifted her leg, trailing kisses over each of her calves. She moaned softly as he reached her inner thighs, brushing his chin along it, making her gasp when his stubble scraped the sensitive skin there. He smiled up at her as he licked his lips, gently spreading her open with his fingers, revealing her clit, which seemed to throb, aching for his attentions. He leaned forward, lightly flicking at her with his tongue, before taking it between his lips and running his tongue up and down over it. Angie trembled, lost in a world of sensuality. Kevin growled as he continued to pleasure her with his tongue, enjoying the feeling of her writhing and moaning beneath him. "You like that?" he whispered, licking slow circles while he watched her. "Yes!" Angie replied, panting as wave after wave went through her. She bucked and squirmed while Kevin tasted and teased, slipping two fingers inside of her. He caught her clit between his lips, squeezing it gently as he licked, sending her into an intense orgasm. Kevin savored every last drop, giving her every bit of pleasure he could before gently laying her back on the couch. "Baby, are you okay?" Kevin asked softly, licking his way back up to gaze into her eyes. "I am so much better than okay," Angie replied, smiling as he claimed her lips again. She could taste herself on his tongue, heightening the eroticism of the moment. She sat up, teasing his nipples. "But now it's your turn Mr. Richardson. Stand up." He moved to stand in front of her gazing deeply into her eyes as she looked up at him, stroking him and circling his head with her tongue. Kevin reached down, brushing her hair to the side, fascinated by the way her eyes glowed in the candlelight. She sucked his entire head into her mouth while continuing to stroke his shaft, massaging his balls. Kevin watched her intently, sucking his bottom lip. She plunged his entire cock into her mouth, deep-throating him and sucking hard. Kevin trembled, watching himself disappear into her mouth, her eyes burning as she watched his reaction. He squeezed her head as he felt himself loosing control. "Oh! Shit--- baby stop. I'm gonna cum." but Angie ignored him, her hand taking up the same rhythm her mouth had set, needing to give him the same kind of release he had given her. She looked up, watching his face as he tried to hold on. "Cum for me Kevin," she demanded, smiling when he groaned, spilling his seed all over her hand. "God baby, where the hell did you learn to do that?" Kevin smiled as he collapsed next to her. Angie just smiled, wrapping her legs around him so that he could lie down in between them. "Honey, all of my male friends are gay--- it goes with the territory." she replied, fingers touching his lips. "Kevin, I want to make love with you." "You want me to make love to you?" he asked looking at her. "No." she replied with an enigmatic smile. "I said that I want to make love with you." "Angie, are you sure?" Kevin asked, eyes shining. "You want us to make love--- not just have sex?" "I think that for the first time in a long time, I'm sure." Angie whispered, tracing the planes and angles of his face. "Oh baby," he whispered, sliding his hands up the sides of her body, holding her face as they shared a gentle kiss. He pulled away long enough to grab a small foil packet out of his pants pocket, ripping it open before she stopped him. "Let me," she said softly, her gaze smoldering as she applied the condom to him, teasing him with her fingers, squeezing him gently before he pushed her back. When Prince began to sing "Adore", Kevin's tongue slipped into her mouth while he slid easily into her. She wrapped her legs around him while he slowly moved in and out of her, continuing to kiss her deeply. He pushed deep inside her, groaning as she squeezed him, milking him. Kevin stilled, enjoying the sensations that were tearing through his body. He lifted his head breaking their kiss, and gazed into her eyes. "You feel so good. How do you want it? Tell me how I can make it good for you Angel." Angie swallowed hard and surprising herself she when she replied, "Kevin, make me yours." "Say it again Angie," he whispered as he held her, thrusting one time. "Make me yours," she panted, trying to make him move inside of her again and make the ache that she was feeling go away. "Kevin, please--- I need you." "Shhh," Kevin said softly when she began to move frantically underneath him, holding her close while he rained kisses on her forehead, face and chest. "I want to make this good for you baby." "You always make it good for me," Angie whispered breathlessly, gasping as he pulled himself almost out of her before plunging back in. "So damned good." With that Kevin started pumping faster and harder stopping every few thrusts while deep inside her to grind his hips. Angie matched his rhythm perfectly, squeezing him tighter with every thrust. He sat up, still thrusting in and out of her and started fingering her bud, making her see stars behind her closed eyelids. "Open your eyes Angie," Kevin rasped out, his voice sending shockwaves through her body. "Look at me baby." "Kevin!" she gasped, eyes locked with his as they moved together. He stopped just before she came, slamming into her fast and hard. He rammed deep inside her as they both exploded, screaming each others name. She could feel herself throbbing around him while he pulsated, filling the condom. He collapsed on top of her, trying to catch his breath as she stroked his sweat covered back . "I believe you Kevin." Angie whispered, holding him. "And I love you." "I love you too baby," Kevin replied softly, rolling onto his side and gathering her in his arms. TO BE CONTINUED... Comments or Suggestions Contact Information E-Mail: jtpoole9@nctv.com Website: http://12.158.100.94/hosted.htm Yahoo: johntpoole AOL/AIM: swainsboroguy2@aol.com ICQ #: 146925768