Date: Wed, 16 Aug 2000 18:36:10 -0400 (EDT)
From: Jessica <nsyncness@webtv.net>
Subject: If You Only Knew 1

Disclaimer: This is purely a work of fiction.  I don't know Nsync nor do
I know if they are gay. This just came out of my strange little mind,
nowhere else.


If You Only Knew  Ch.1
By Jessica

Lance screamed....

He woke up in a cold sweat. The white wife-beater he wore was completely
soaked and all he could think about was the horrible nightmare that had
just woken him up.

He pulled off his wet shirt and threw it on the floor in frustration.
He rolled over and looked at the clock on the nightstand.  It read 4:30
am and Lance sighed, "Great, the one morning I get to sleep late and I
wake up now, go figure."

After trying to get back to sleep, Lance gave up and decided to watch
some TV.  As he flipped through the channels, he suddenly realized what
today was.  "Valentines Day," Lance murmured, "I totally forgot."

Seeing that nothing good was on, Lance decided to hop in the shower and
get a start on the day.  It was 6:00 when he got out and he suddenly
realized how hungry he was. He figured no one else was up yet so he'd go
catch an early breakfast by himself.

As he left, Lance noticed a small, unmarked red envelop taped to the
outside of his hotel room door.  He grabbed the letter and walked toward
the elevator, thinking to himself it was probably just another crazed
fan proclaiming their undying love to him on such a loving day as this.

As he sat down in the secluded booth, Lance couldn't help but
sarcastically think what a perfect place to open his mysterious letter.
But then  he suddenly began to feel a nervousness grow in his stomach,
he became very anxious for no feasible reason.  Slowly he pulled out a
small piece of pink paper from the red envelop and as he began to read,
he quickly discovered that his feelings would never be the same, about
anything, ever again.

My Dearest Lansten,
               If you only knew,
               what you mean to me.
               I would tell the world,
               so you could plainly see.
               In words you'll never know,
               the way I truly care.
               Only wishing to be there,
               in your arms where I would stay,
               near your side where I would pray,
               to never leave you there alone,
               and keep you safe with my love,
               set in stone.

                             With all my love,
                                     -J-

P.S.    I can't tell you how hard it's been to keep
such a secret from a "brother" as close as you are.

 "Sir...excuse me, sir," the waitress interrupted.

Lance jumped, "Yes?"

"Are you ready to order?"

"Umm..." Lance sighed, " No thanks, suddenly I'm not so hungry any
more."

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TBC..........

Please tell me what you think!!!!!!

                            Jessica