Date: Tue, 14 Nov 2000 19:58:11 -0800 (PST) From: JC Subject: Re: Jason and JC - 11 Jason and JC - 11 Alright, here is the much awaited conclusion to everything that has built up in the past ten chapters. I won't make a long speech right off. I'll just let you get to the story. But remember to write. On with the show... ******************************************************************************* Jason walked into the room after JC, who stood holding the door. Jason slowly eased over to the bed and took a seat on its edge. "So," JC announced, taking a seat beside Jason. "What's on your mind?" "I've just been thinking alot and the more I think about it..." Jason started. He knew what he was about to say was going to sound ungrateful and hurtful and all those nasty things he never wanted to be. He swallowed hard before continuing. " the more I think about it, the more I think that coming here might not have been such a good idea." JC was shocked at his statement. The expression on his face went from a smile to a frown instantly. He could feel his eyes welling up and his heart starting to throb. "What do you mean? You don't want to be here?" "No, I want to be here. More than anything in the world. It's just that I don't know that I should be here." Jason answered, trying very hard not to give away his true problem. His attraction to JC. It was becoming more and more dificult to control it. "Why would you say that? Why shouldn't you be here?" JC asked, pausing for a response. When Jason said nothing and continued to look towards the ground, JC reached over and turned Jason's head until he was looking straight into his eyes. "Talk to me Jason, It's okay. Whatever it is, you can talk to me." This last bit of genuine sincerety and caring just put Jason over the edge. Sitting there, looking into those deep blue eyes that you could get lost in forever, Jason felt an uncontrolable magnetism drawimg him towards JC. Caving in to the desires of his heart and soul, Jason closed his eyes and moved towards JC. And now the Conclusion... ******************************************************************************* Jason's lips met up with JC's and the electric shock that flew through his body was like nothing he had ever felt before. The warm feel of those soft and tender lips was like water to his thirsting soul. He opened his eyes and found JC with eyes closed as well. As the realization hit him of what was happening, one thought shot through his mind. 'Oh my god! What am I doing?!?!' Jason pulled back and broke the intimate moment that the two were sharing. He leapt up off of bed, where JC now sat surprised and bewildered and headed for the door. "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry." he pleaded JC shot off of the bed and sprinted towards the door faster than he had ever moved in his life. He had never moved so fast before because there had never been anything he wanted so badly as he wanted this. Just as Jason was opening the door, JC reached it and pushed it back to. "JC, I'm so sorry, I don't know what I was thinking. I don't know... I... I'm sorry. I..." JC put an end to Jason's stuttering by placing his mouth back onto the spot it had occupied only moments before. This time, JC reached out and pulled Jason into a tight enmbrace, craddling his back in one hand, and his head in the other. He wanted this more than anything, and he never wanted it to end. They stood there, leaning against the door, for what seemed like eternity. Oh how Jason wished it could go on forever, but he knew that it couldn't. As true in life, all good things must come to an end. Jason again pulled back from the kiss, but this time continued to look JC straight in the eyes as he pulled away. "I have wanted to do that for so long." Jason finally spoke up in a soft and gentle wisper, which was all he could stir up at the moment. JC had successfully taken his breath away. "Me too, Jason. Me too." JC whispered in reply. "Jason, I have something I have to tell you." "What's that?" Jason asked "I love you so much. I never thought that I would fall for anyone like this before, but I have, and it is incredible." JC announced, taking ahold of Jason's hands. Jason's head fell down onto JC's shoulder. His forehead was resting squarely on his shoulder as he started to cry. JC picked Jason's head up and looked him in the eyes. "Are you okay? Did I upset you?" "No! Not at all. You have just said exactly what I feel. You are my sun and moon AND stars. I want to be with you all day long. You're all I ever wanted and need. I love you too Joshua Chasez." With that loving testimony, Jason again locked his lips onto JC's and pulled him into a tight embrace. "JC..." Jason said, once more pulling himself from the object of his affection as his level- headedness reaserted itself. He moved over to the bed pulling JC by the hand. He took a seat on the bed before continuing his thought. "I love you with all my heart and soul, but do you realize how dificult this is going to be for you. It will be alot harder for you than it will be for me. I don't know that I could put you through that." JC looked at Jason, peering into his soul with those peircing blue eyes and tried to reassure him. "I know that things will be dificult. I know that. But I am willing to weather all of the storms just to be with you." JC's kind-hearted words brought a smile to Jason's face. "I'm willing if your willing." Jason responded. "I say let's make a go of it." JC said, placing his hand on Jason's shoulder. "Deal." Jason said with a laugh, and with that they fell back onto the bed. Jason placed his lips back onto JC's and moved his hand to the back of his head. He extended his fingers and ran them through the silky brown hair atop JC's head. It was so soft and so touchable. Feeling a bit more adventurous, Jason began to move his tounge closer to JC's mouth. He slowly ran his tounge across the outside of JC's lips, caressing them softly with it's touch. He traced the part between the two lucious twins, and JC slowly opened his mouth to allow entrance. Jason began to move his tounge ever so slowly deeper. He could feel the ridges of JC's teeth and not much farther after, JC's tounge rushed up to meet his. The feelings he felt were undescribible. The taste of this loved ones mouth was incredible. He began to roam JC's mouth with his tounge. Searching out all of the spots within, occasionally tangling with JC's own tounge within. After what seemed like days and days, Jason broke their powerful kiss. "JC..." he said, looking straight into JC's deep blue eyes. "I love you." "I love you too." JC answered. "Come on, let's get some sleep." Jason got off of the bed and found his suitcase in the corner. He pulled out his pajama bottoms and changed into them before returning to bed. JC was already under the covers waiting. Jason curled up beside JC and they slowly drifted off into a peaceful slumber, together. ******************************************************************************* Jason awoke to the sound of birds chirping on the ledge of JC's window across the room. The warm sunlight poured into the room and across the bed where Jason and JC lay together. Jason looked down at JC, who had his head resting peacefully on Jason's chest with his arm draped over his torso. He could feel JC's warm breath pass over his skin with each exhale. Jason ran his hand up and down JC exposed back as he lay there thinking of their future. JC slowly began to stir as Jason lightly traced the muscles of his back with his finger tips. His eyes flickered open and he turned his head until he was face to face with Jason. "Awakened by an angel." he said cracking the sweetest smile Jason had ever seen. Jason could only smile. JC's kind words touched a part of him deep in his heart. "You're quite amazing yourself." He said as he leaned down and placed a kiss on JC's forehead. "You know that you're gonna have to do better than that." JC informed moving his hand across Jason's chest. "Well, how about this?" Jason pulled JC up into another kiss, this time full on. Their lips met, causing them both to moan into the kiss. Jason ruffled JC's hair as he moved back and looked into JC's eyes. "I love you so much." "I love you too. I've never felt this way about anyone before. Not any girl, and definately not any guy. It's weird you know, but here in your arms, it seems so natural. Like it was meant to be" JC replied. "I know. If someone had told me a year ago that I'd be lying here in bed with a guy who had captured my heart and soul, I would have told them they were crazy. I just always saw myself with a girl." Jason responded. "But not now. Now all I see is you." "And all I see is you." JC replied, running his hand up and down exposed upper body, across his chest and tracing a line down to his abs. "Josh..." Jason forced out as he began to grin. "You might want to bring that lovely, carresing hand up a little bit." He made a motion with his eyes to the growing tent in his pajama bottoms. JC's touch was most surely arrousing him, and quickly. "Well, what if I wanted to continue south?" JC asked, as he ran his fingers around Jason's navel, teasing him even more. Jason bit his lip slightly before responding. "Then you'd have to pay the toll." Jason answered. JC reached up with his other arm and pulled Jason's lips onto his again. Their tounges tossed and rolled within the kiss as JC's hand inched lower. Suddenly, without warning, the door opened. "Hey, JC..." Lance announced, walking into the room. Finding JC and Jason lip locked, his eyes widened slightly. "Uhh... Nevermind." With that, he exited the room as quickly as he had entered it. Jason drew a sharp breath at the first sight of Lance. "Oh JC. I'm sorry." "For what? You have nothing to be sorry for." JC answered before a knock came on the door. As JC climbed off of the bed and walked to the door, Jason quickly moved off of JC's bed and to the sofa across the room. JC opened the door and Lance walked back into the room. "I guess this means you told him, huh?" Lance asked. "Yeah, I did." JC answered with a wide grin. He walked across the room to the sofa and took a seat beside Jason. "And from the looks of things when I walked in the room, you feel the same way." Lance directed at Jason. "Yeah." Jason returned with a sheepish smile. "Well, I'm happy for you." Lance said with a smile. He felt a little odd about JC's new found feelings, but he was glad that JC was finally happy. The way he had been acting the past few months had definetly given evidence of that. "Thanks." JC responded. "We're happy too." He leaned over to Jason and gave him a quick kiss. Lance closed his eyes and tilted his head away. "Sorry." JC apologized. "We'll try to keep that to ourselves." "Thanks." Lance said, as he chuckled slightly. Even in love, JC was considerate. "So where is everyone else?" Jason asked, breaking the pause. "This early, still asleep. Except for Lynn. She's downstairs fixing some breakfast." "This early? What time is it?" JC asked. "Seven thirty or so." Lance answered. "Seven thirty? Why are you up?" Jason asked, wondering why Lance was the only one up. "I couldn't sleep." Lance responded. After a short break, he added "I was wondering about you two actually?" "Wondering about us?" Jason repeated. "You knew?" Lance looked at JC then towards the ground, before returning his eyes to Jason. "Yeah, I knew." "You're surprise entrance wasn't an accident either was it?" Jason followed. Lance's face turned slightly pink. He'd been caught. "No, I'm sorry. I just couldn't take the suspense." After a brief silence, he continued. "I knew I'd only find one of two things. Either you on JC's bed or on his couch." The three chuckled some at Lance's odd display of friendship. "I think I'm going to go and see if Lynn needs any help with breakfast." Jason announced. He reached into his bag and pulled on a T-shirt before heading towards the door. "Wait, I'll come with you." JC called. "Me, too." Lance followed. JC pulled on a pair of shorts and a shirt before following Jason out of the room, with Lance tailing close behind. The three of the tip-toed down the stairs, trying hard not to wake the others. They found Lynn working hard at work in the kitchen, preparing a full breakfast. "Hi, boys. You're up early. JC, I'm especially surprised to see you up this early." Lynn announced as they walked into the room. JC was a bit puzzled by her statement but just shrugged it off. "Whatcha cookin' good lookin'?" Lance joked as he peered over the stove. "You know, one of these days, you're going to get you nose burned doing that." JC joked. Lance only stuck his tounge out in reply. "What can I help you with this morning?" Jason asked, walking up to the stove, noticing all of the great food Lynn was preparing. "Can you watch this a second?" she answered. "Sure." Jason responded. "JC, can I talk to you for a second?" Lynn asked, motioning JC into the living room. JC followed Lynn and Jason watched them disappear into the adjacent room. "Now, what do we have here?" Lance wondered aloud. "Eggs, bacon, sausage, hash browns, waffles, biscuits. A regular breakfast buffet." He picked up a biscuit off of the cooling rack and began to chow down. As he did, a crumbs flew everywhere and scattered on the counter. "You're a pig, you know that?" Jason joked as he grabbed a cloth from the sink and began to clean up Lance's mess. He couldn't help but wonder what JC was up to in the next room. Lynn had seemed so adament. Meanwhile, in the next room... JC followed Lynn into the living room and took a seat next to her on the sofa. "Joshua, we need to talk." 'Uh, oh.' JC thought to himself. He had heard this beginning before. It always preceeded a major discussion about something serious. "OK." he replied, with a slight hesitation. "Um... I was about the house last night and I, well, was going to ask you something. I can't even remember now what it was, but I stuck my head into your room and..." JC knew instantly what was troubling her. She saw. She discovered him sleeping in Jason's arms. "And you found something you hadn't expected?" he finished. "Yes." she replied. "I had no clue." "Neither did I. But the more I thought about it, the more I was sure. I love him. I don't completely understand why, but I do." "You mean, you just realized..." she asked slightly confused. "Realized that I'm gay?" JC asked. "Well, yes." "I guess so. Now that I look back though, things have never quite seemed right in my life. I have never felt anything like this before. I mean, the few girls that I have been with have never come close to making me feel like this. I think I have just been trying to hide it from myself, denying it." JC answered thinking aloud on his situation. He had not actually taken time before to think about it. He had never really felt right partying and dating. It had always made him feel awkward, but now, he felt something more. Something complete. Lynn sat silently as JC poured out to her. When he had finished she sat looking at him for a moment before replying. "You know, Joshua, that I believe in doing whatever makes you happy. But have you thought about the consequences that this could have for you and the band, and the dificulties that it could create?" "I know, Lynn." JC began. "It isn't an easy road. But it isn't something that I can change. The way I feel about Jason is so deep and so natural that is is impossible to change, and I would never want it to. It is a road I am willing to and have every intention of traveling." "But you won't be traveling it alone." Jason announced from the doorway behind the two, where he had been standing, listening to JC's confession. "I will be there with you every step of the way." JC hopped up off of the couch and ran over to where Jason was standing. He threw his arms around Jason's neck, nearly hitting Lance, who was standing closely behind. "Oh Jason, I love you." and with that JC pressed his lips onto Jason's and kissed him deeply. "Ahem." Lance announced from the living room where he was now standing. JC released Jason and stared into his eyes. "I said that we would try not to. I tried and couldn't resist." he informed Lance, never breaking eye contact with Jason. Lance and Jason laughed at JC before Lynn again spoke up. "Well, apparently Lance already knows, but you're not going to be able keep this a secret from Chris, Joey, and Justin for long." Lynn warned. "I know. And I need to tell them I know, but it's not quite that simple." JC answered. "I'm here for you, you know that. And whenever you're ready to tell them, we'll tell them. No sooner." Jason consoled. "They're your friends. You're all like brothers. You need to let them know." Lynn informed. "Let us know what?" ******************************************************************************* Uh, oh. Another cliff-hanger. Darn. I guess you will just have to come back then. I finally made it though. Jason and JC are together, and with any luck they will have a long road ahead of them, with a few interesting turns and twists along the way. I hope you enjoyed this edition and I do hope that you come back for future installments. As always please write with your opinions and comments. I can be reached via email at a41a14a@yahoo.com, ICQ at #76118280, and now on AOL Messenger screen name:a41a14a2000. Have a great day all, JC.