Date: Sat, 25 Aug 2001 00:56:23 +0100 From: Jose Santos Subject: Justin and Zack 2 I'm really, really, really, really, really sorry, but I was on vacation for the past 10 days and I had some problems, but I promise that I'll start updating more quickly, as usual send me your opinions to zeca_p@netc.pt. This story is a product of my twisted mind and I don't know if any of the NSYNC's guys are gay, (altought I have my suspects...), if you can't read this then don't .. Thanks for reading and enjoy the story Justin and Zack 2 -Well, we'll answer your question when you tell us why are you still on top of him?- JC said holding is laugher Justin looked at me and blushed, he then stood up and sated on the sofa with his head low, I also stood up and walked towards my sister, I grabbed her arm and dragged her to a corner of the room - What the hell do you think that you are doing?- I asked her - Look, Britney came to me telling me that she had a friend that needed to find some one that could date with him, she tough that you were up to the job and I agreed cause God knows how much you need of someone that loves you.....- she said with a maternal tone - I don't need no one to love me I'm fine on my one and I think that what your are doing to Justin isn't fair, besides the guy already pissed me off.... - Well the look on you face when he was on top of you didn't tell that! I tried to say something but she interrupted me" You are always telling yourself that you can't trust no one again, well Zack you have to start trusting people again, not everyone is like your grandparents Zack, not everyone is going to ignore you in the difficult times.... " She knew that I didn't like to talk about our grandparents, and everytime that we talked about them two things happened: or I would start crying or I would storm out of the room, well this time the second thing happened, without thinking I stormed out of the room almost making Joey fell to the ground I didn't know where I was going I just needed to get out of that room, I found myself in the backstage near the stage, I walked to the end of the stage and sated there looking at the empty stadium, I don't know hoe long I stayed there, I only come back to the real world when I felt someone tapping my shoulder, I looked to see who it was and I found Justin with an concern look - Are you ok? - he asked worried - I'll be fine....- I said turning my head again to the empty stadium - Look I wanted to apologize for being such a asshole when I hit you and for Britney's and the guy's behavior... I was going to say something but he continued" They think that since Steve dumped me I should date again...."- he said sitting next to me - I know that it isn't my business, but why did he dumped you? - Don't worry you look like someone that I can trust- he said smiling, but that smile soon faded when he started talking about his problem- Steve Brooks, we met on the Net and one day I decided to know him, you can say that one thing led to another and we started dating. At the beginning it was really hard cause I was on tour and him in Las Vegas, but then I offered a musician job at him and everything seemed ok..." He stooped and whipped a tear that started to fall, he took one deep breath and continued" Until one day he left with a letter telling me that I wasn't good enough for him and that he didn't loved me anymore..." Don't ask me why but I started hating this guy, no one had the right of doing that to someone" At the beginning it was really difficult and if it wasn't for Britney and the guys I don't know what could've happened but I managed to continue and here I am talking to you" - I'm really sorry for that, no one has the right to do that- I said giving him a reassuring squeeze at his shoulder, I don't know why, but that felt good- well since you told me your past I guess I should tell you mine.... - You don't need to do that - But I want to and I need to....besides you seem like someone that I can trust- I said grinning - You need to? - He asked confused -Until now I always forget my past and pretend that I had a normal life, but I can't continue doing that, it's not right I have to accept what and who I am He just nodded" Well I had a normal childhood, until when I was 13, that was when everything happened, my parents were always working and I only saw them at night, my sister was older than me and she had her friends, and I only had my grandparents.... they were my best friends, to me they were my 2nd parents, I spent every free afternoon that I had with them... until one day I decided to come out to my parents, I knew that I was gay since forever and I always were very mature, so I told them that and they stayed there looking at me, without saying anything they looked at each other, grabbed their keys and left, I didn't knew what to do, I just stood there until my sister arrived, she found me in the sofa paralyzed, when I saw that it was her I hugged her and cried for hours...." I stooped to look at him, he had a sad face but he was listening" I stayed there holding her until the phone rang, she picked it up and a few seconds later her face was blank, in that moment I had a bad feeling, my sister drooped the phone and with a really pale face told me that my parents had died in an car accident..." I was crying at this moment, and Justin did something that surprise me he grabbed my hand and squeezed it " A few hours later we were with my grandparents house, we had went to the hospital and returned to their house to have some sleep, my sister went to bed , but my grandparents told me that they needed to talk to me, since the moment at the hospital they were acting really strange, we sated in the living room and they told me that my mother before going at the car come home asking for advice, that she didn't knew what to do about having a gay son, I was really scared, that meant that my grandparents knew about me..." I couldn't believe that I was telling him all the story, he was the first person that knew about my past, besides the fact that he was holding my hand helped a little" Then they told me that tomorrow we could go to the church and ask the priest to make me be normal, I could only have 13 at that time but that pissed me off, I shouted that I wasn't sick and that I was already normal, they looked at each other and told me that if I wasn't going to change then they wouldn't have a grandchild named Zack, I was crying but I was so pissed off that I told them that if that was what they wanted then that was what they were getting ...." I took a deep breath" To make a short story of a long one me and my sister have been living together since then and we got away from Orlando cause that city made me remember all the bad things, I don't trust most of the people that I know cause I'm afraid that they will be like my grandparents, in fact I think that I only have 2 or 3 real friends" I said with a small laugh" but now I have to face my past and admit what I am..." I didn't know how Justin would react, I turned to face him and before I could focus on his face I felt a pair of lips touching mine... TBC...................................... Again I'm really sorry for only update now but I'd like to have some feedback, please e-mail me to zeca_p@netc.pt, and I'm also sorry for this part being so short