Date: Sat, 16 Dec 2006 16:16:33 -0500 From: Angel J Subject: Justin's Angel -13 This is a sexually explicit story (at times) involving homosexuality. By continuing to read, you affirm under penalties of perjury that you are not a minor or in the company of a minor and are entitled to have access to this story. The following is a fictious story with no real basis or credibility.It is solely for the enjoyment of the reader.Its all just fun. It does not imply anything about the sexual preferences or lifestyle of Justin Timberlake or any other celebrity mentioned in the story. Previously In a matter of moments the two of them were locked in a passionate embrace, their arms around each other.They could both feel their lust rubbing against each other. But Michael couldn't go further,this was happening too fast.There were too many conflicting emotions running through his mind. He backed away from Justin,breaking their tender embrace. Justin sensed Michael's apprehension.His doubts and fears. Justin motioned for Michael to get into bed,Michael did as Justin asked him. Michael made himself comfortable while Justin put their clothes neatly on a chair. Michael couldn't keep his eyes of Justin's muscular form as it moved around the room,finally returning to the bed and turning off the lamp on the end table.Justin lay down in bed beside Michael. They both lay there sensing an uncomfortable distance between them.A safe distance that Justin was respecting for Michael's sake. Michael started to say he was sorry, but Justin turned to him and put his finger to his lips. "Michael, you have to stop saying that.You have nothing to apologize for.If your ever unsure of anything,tell me.Its that simple.I won't hate you for it,I will love you for it.I want you to be comfortable with me,Michael, to trust me enough to feel safe in my arms." Michael looked back at Justin.His eyes were on him, his beautiful blue eyes staring at him, and Michael saw what was in them,what he had seen all evening. Michael moved slowly towards Justin,destroying the distance between them. He put his head on Justin's naked chest, Justin wrapping his arm around Michael's naked torso. Michael could feel Justin's heart beating underneath his head.Michael's hand gently stroked Justin's chest, his skin feeling so warm and smooth. "I do feel safe in your arms,Jus.You make me feel safer than I have felt in a long time." Justin kissed the top of Michael's head,loving him even more.It felt so good to have Michael in his arms,here in bed, the two of them naked against each other,it was as if it was where Justin always wanted to be. Justin could feel Michael's hairy chest rubbing against him, he could feel his body warmth. Justin felt safe himself,safe with the person he loved. They both closed their eyes, snuggling closer,feeling safe. Justin's final words to Michael before he felt sleep overtake him were- I love you. He didn't hear what Michael replied. "I know, Jus, I know." Chapter 13 Justin was caught in a strange dream.He knew he wasn't awake,and he didn't know this place.It was a wooded area, there were trees everywhere. He was walking down a long path that was gradually rising.As he walked along he heard the wind blowing softly, almost sounding like a song, a song Justin knew. But he couldn't remember where he heard it from. But somehow he knew this song was important. It was important to someone he cared about. At the top of a gentle rise he broke through the thick blanket of trees into a clearing. Justin felt he had been here before,to this place,it brought back a distant memory. Justin walked to the far end of the clearing looking down over a high embankment into a clear sparkling lake. It was a breathtaking view, everywhere Justin looked he saw beauty and nature,harmonized in perfect colours. Justin fell in love with the place,it was simply beautiful. "Its a beautiful sight,isn't it?"A gentle voice said from behind him. Justin turned to see a young man sitting on a boulder about twenty feet away from him. "Its breathtaking,where am I?"Justin asked,sensing this man wasn't what he appeared. "You are in someone's private sanctuary,Justin.This place has special meaning to someone,someone very special in his own right." Justin felt that he was talking about Michael, that this was his special place. Was he here?Or was this a dream. The young man didn't move, he just sat still watching Justin. Justin took him to be about nineteen or twenty,latino in his looks.His hair was a soft black,it seemed to shine in the sun.His eyes were a deep brown,clear and focused.He wore a gleaming white tshirt and white pants.His outfit seemed to radiate its own glow. But what took Justin's breath away was his smile. It was a smile that warmed a soul, made you feel alive. "Who are you?"Justin asked, wanting to know this man. The young man got up off the boulder and walked up beside Justin,looking out at the clear sparking water. "God gave us nature to stand in awe of.Beauty is measured in what you look at, what you can see. Tell me what you see,Justin?" Justin looked out at the surrounding hills and lake. "I see one of the most beautiful places I have every seen.It colours and landscape are just that,awe inspiring." The young man turned and looked at Justin. "Thats correct,Justin.God gave us this to enjoy,and to love.And he gave us each other to love, to see the beauty inside each other." Justin felt this man was talking about someone. "Can you tell me what you saw when you looked in Michael's soul?" Justin stepped back,suddenly on edge. "Who are you? Please tell me."Justin was worried. The young man looked at Justin directly in his eyes,his beautiful tender gaze easing Justin's heart. "I am one of Michael's guardians,Justin." "His guardians?You mean like a guardian angel?" The young man smiled. "Since you are a man of faith and truly believe,then yes."The young man turned back to look out again. Justin was silent, looking at this young man in a different light. "Michael has more than one guardian angel?" "Michael is very special,Justin.You have already sensed that.He has two guardians at the moment, and soon he will have a third." Justin couldn't begin to understand what he was hearing. "Why have you brought me to this beautiful place.Is this just a dream?" "No, Justin.This is more than a dream.This is for all purposes ,a meeting.A meeting between you and I.I have asked for it. I needed to make you understand.To know whats expected of you." "Whats expected of me?What are you talking about?"Justin was getting confused. "You never answered my question,Justin.What did you see in Michael's soul?" Justin sat down on the soft grass, looking up at the man.Then he lowered his head, taking a long breath. "I saw love, a love I never imagined existed.I was overwhelmed by it.It was the most beautiful feeling I have ever sensed." Justin looked again at the young man. He was shedding tears, they were flowing slowly down his cheek. He turned and smiled a heart warming smile at Justin. "You have just given me the greatest gift,Justin.You have given me hope." The young man sat down beside Justin, and started crying.Justin put his arm around him, his body felt warm and gentle. "You have to save him,Justin.You have to save Michael." "Is Michael in danger?Is he at risk?"Justin was getting worried again. The young man turned and looked at Justin. "You have to save him ,Justin, you have to save him from himself." Justin sat there, a shocked look on his face. "Michael life was on a set path,Justin,but now he is lost.The only light to guide him is you,Justin." "How did he get lost?" Justin felt he somehow knew the answer. The man looked at Justin,hesitantly,almost as if he didn't want to tell Justin. "He was hurt badly,Justin.When a person is hurt, their life passes through many choices,many paths.Michael wandered off his path,in a sense, he turned his back on himself." The young man stood up. "Michael's path was the path of unending love.He always gave his love freely,Justin.But tragically it was ripped out of him,destroyed by hatred,hatred of who and what he was.What small part he has left is bottled deep inside him.What you felt was only a small tiny piece." Justin stood up again,walking up to the hills edge. "I love him,I love him so much.I will do anything I can to make that love come out.I want that love, I need that love." The young man stared into Justin's eyes searching for weakness. "Would you hurt him, to make that love appear?" Justin backed up. "I promised Michael that I would never hurt him, that I would never." The man looked at Justin.Tears forming in Justin's eyes. He took Justin's hands in his own and looked at him. "Michael is at a crossroads,Justin.There are going to be some major difficulties ahead for him.And sadly,more pain.He has to make a choice very shortly,and what he decides will either heal him,set him on the right path again,or it will kill him." Justin felt a shiver go through him. "No, not my Michael,I will protect him." The younger man smiled. "You are his only hope ,Justin.You have to make a promise to yourself, here,today,in this place.That no matter what happens,that you will stand by him, that your love for him will never diminish,for if it does, he is lost,forever." Justin stared at the young man in front of him. "I promise on my life and on my faith in him, that I will always love him." The angel smiled a truly breathtaking smile, his whole body seemed to glow. "Then we, his two guardians, give you a gift, something you can cling to,something to make you find love again,if you ever lose it." The young man embraced Justin,looking him deeply in his blue eyes. "Always remember these three simple words." Justin almost felt that there was a third person with them.He swore he heard a female voice mixed in with this young man's. "Love conquers all." Justin awoke from his dream,sitting upright in bed.Michael fortunately had turned his back away from Justin or his sudden movement would have woke him. It took Justin a minute to realize where he was.He looked at Michael sleeping beside him, his breathing relaxed. Justin turned and looked at the clock,it was 4:06 a.m. Justin could remember his dream vividly.Was it a dream,or was it something more?He turned back and looked at Michael. He lay back down in the bed and lay there for a while just thinking about what he remembered. He was wrong, that young man was wrong.Michael wouldn't have pain again,Michael would be safe, Justin would keep him safe. On instinct,Justin turned towards Michael, spooning up against him,wrapping his arms around him. Michael seemed to lean into Justin,as if he knew it was him protecting him. Justin felt a sense of relief, that Michael did need him, and want him.He smiled a small smile as he drifted off to sleep again. Michael's eyes opened slowly,his gaze falling on the window,where the light of the new day shone through. He felt warm,toasty warm, as if he was shrouded in a warm blanket. They he realized why. Justin had his arms wrapped around him.Their bodies were spooned together against each other. Michael felt safe,protected.He hadn't had that feeling in a long time,hardly ever in fact. His eyes glistened with an inner happiness. All his life he had felt alone,doing most things for himself,independant, but alone none the less. And all he had ever been given was pain.The greatest pain coming from Paul. No,he wouldn't think about that man, not here, not with Justin here laying beside him. But could he tell Justin the truth,the truth about Paul? The horrifying truth about what Paul did to him. How he had destroyed Michael's ability to trust,and to love. Michael felt Justin's breath on his neck, a warm feeling he could get used to. But nature was calling, Michael had to get up. Gently, he slowly started unwinding Justin's armes from around him. Justin started murmuring, pulling his arms around him again. Justin definitely didn't want to co-operate,hugging him harder against him,shifting his weight around. When this happened Michael felt a heat against his ass, and a hardness.He felt Justin rubbing up against him there. Michael froze in terror. His mind flashed to a horrific day, a day emblazened in his mind. Feelings he had thought were buried deep jumped to the front of his mind. Michael screamed,pulling out of Justin's embrace,falling out of bed onto the floor.He curled up immediately into a ball,tears falling from his eyes. Justin who had been sound asleep,bolted up in bed at the sound of Michael's scream. He looked around but didn't see Michael at first. Then he saw him on the floor curled in a ball,crying. Justin leapt out of bed,at Michael's side in a flash.Michael pulled away from Justin,almost sliding under the bed, there was fear in his eyes.He didn't know where he was. Lonnie came rushing into the room, looking everywhere for them.He finally spotted Justin's head on the far side of the bed. He raced around the bed.And stopped immediately when he spotted Michael on the floor,knowing that something was wrong. "Mikey,babe, its me Justin, everything is ok, I am here.Please talk to me." Justin slowly inched towards Michael, careful,not wanting to spook him. Michael's eyes weren't focused,it was as if he was somewhere else, somewhere Justin thought was terrifying. Justin had to do something to calm him down. Justin started humming, hoping it would work again this time. Michael immediately began calming down,his eyes were starting to focus again.Justin edged closer, Michael finally looking at him,seeing him and knowing who he was. Justin opened his arms and Michael crawled into them. Justin looked up at Lonnie,giving him a look to say everything was okay. "Its okay,babe,it was a bad dream, wasn't it?" Michael looked up at Justin,realizing what had happened,that it was because of Justin's unknown desires.Justin didn't even know what he had done. How could Michael tell him that his erection rubbing against Michael in that sensitive spot, brought back terrifying memories and that was what had freaked Michael out. "Yeah,Justin.Thats what it was." Michael slowly said, he hated lying to Justin. Justin helped him up slowly back onto the bed. Justin sensed that Michael might be lying, that it was something else,something that he may of done. He immediately had picked up on the fact that Michael was keeping a little distance between them. "Is something wrong Michael?Did I do something to upset you,to make you scared.Please tell me,babe?" Michael looked up at Justin, seeing so much caring, and yes worry, worry that he had done something wrong. Michael looked shyly up at Lonnie, Lonnie getting the message. "Since your okay Michael, I will leave you two alone, and start breakfast, a little early,but thats okay." Justin looked at the clock, it was 7:30. Lonnie left them alone, glancing back, wondering what had terrified Michael.He nodded slowly at Justin who was looking at him.He hoped Justin was able to draw it out. Once Lonnie had left Justin looked at Michael,hesitant about what to say to him. "Please, Michael, you can tell me what happened." Michael looked up at Justin,feeling that he could tell him.He was amazed at how this man could make him talk. "Yes, Justin.You did something.Something that you didn't even know your were doing.Its not your fault.Its mine, mine for being foolish enough to dream." Justin gaze never left Michael's face.He saw the tear falling and gently wiped it away. "To dream,Michael?" Michael looked at him, at Justin. "To dream that I could be happy with you.That I could trust someone again." Justin's heart did a backflip. Michael had been thinking about being happy with me? Then maybe I have reached him.Maybe I have had an effect on him. "You thought you could be happy with me?Is this true,Mikey?" "When I woke up you had your arms wrapped around me, I felt so warm and safe.I wanted to stay like that forever,it felt so right." Justin smiled, remembering he had felt the same thing last night. "But nature was forcing me to get up.If you know what I mean." "You needed to use the washroom?" Michael blushed, and nodded. "I tried to get your arms apart to get up, but you kept grumbling and pulled me back against you." Michael lowered his head,trying not to look at Justin. "And...?" Michael was silent,saying nothing. Justin rubbed his nude shoulder, sending a relaxing vibration down into Michael's chest,into his heart.. "You...pulled me against you...and... I felt your erection pushing against my ass...It brought back a terrifying memory." Michael started crying. Justin was in shock, he couldn't believe that he had done that to Michael,that he had come on to him. Yes, he was like any normal man, he had morning wood,and he had those type of dreams,but to do that to Michael, when he needed his trust, when he need his protection. Justin was mortified, his own tears starting to fall. "Oh Michael, please forgive me, I am so sorry.It wasn't me,it was my subconscious, it had to of been a dream." Justin sank to his knees on the floor, between Michael legs facing him,tears flowing, and a sob beginning in his throat. "I am sorry,I can't believe I did that.Please forgive me." Michael looked at Justin with such sadness, he was so hurt, Michael couldn't stand to see him like this. "Oh,Justin,I forgive you, I know it wasn't intentional,it wasn't really you.you were asleep." Justin looked up at Michael.He still couldn't get his emotions in check,he continued to cry.Michael had to calm him down. Michael leaned into him, and kissed him tenderly on the lips,hugging him while stroking his hair. Justin immediately calmed down,looking at Michael calmly. "I forgive you,Jus.If you'll forgive me." "Forgive you,for what?You are not at fault here,Michael." "It was my fault.I shouldn't of slept here last night,somehow I excited you." "Oh, Michael, I wanted you to stay here last night.Didn't you want to be here,with me?" "Yes, Justin.I did.Because I feel safe when I am with you.I have never felt so safe." Michael was looking at Justin now with a beautiful look on his face. Justin smiled back. "Okay, then I will forgive you for being so easy to fall in love with." Justin smiled a big grin. MIchael couldn't help but laugh. Justin laughter following his.Then Justin's face took on a somber look. "So will you forgive me?" Michael brushed his hand through Justin's short hair. "Yes, I forgive you." Justin got back up and sat beside Michael again on the bed. "I'm sorry that my doing that brought back the memory of when your dad sold you to that bastard." Michael didn't say anything,his eyes were off in another time. "Thats what it was, wasn't it,babe?" Michael turned back,Justin seeing something else in his eyes. "No, Justin, its wasn't that at all." Michael got up and walked towards the bathroom,slowly closing the door behind him. Justin just stared after him, a puzzled look on his face. Justin heard Michael using the toilet.Then silence for a few moments. Then he heard the shower starting. Justin lay back on the bed, putting his arms behind his head,thinking. What memory,what horrifying memory did that bring back? It was something traumatic, Justin was certain of that.why else would Michael react the way he did.Whatever it was had terrified him.It terrified him then, and it still terrifies him now. And the more Justin thought, the more he began to believe it centered around Paul. Justin lay there for a few minutes,listening to the shower, then hearing the water being shut off. He got up, retrieving some boxers,a pair of pants and a golfshirt from his closet. He waited patiently by the door, until Michael reappeared ,wrapped in a towel. "Here are some clothes for you to wear,Michael.Your soiled clothes haven't come back yet from the laundry." Michael nodded,and quietly thanked Justin. "Well I should pop into the shower too.I will be out in just a few minutes." Michael nodded waiting for Justin to go into the bathroom. Justin closed the door behind him,and leaned against the back of the door. Oh, Michael, please tell me what is going on,I want to know how I can help. Justin shed his boxers, and hopped into the shower,it was still steamy from Michael's shower.He started the water, soaking his head and began lathering his toned body. Justin wasn't really paying attention to what his hands were doing,all his thoughts were on Michael.Before he realized it the water was starting to turn cold.He had been standing still for over ten minutes lost in thought. He turned the water off, looking around,remembering the last time he was in here,with Michael,holding him while he cleaned him up. He sighed and stepped out,toweling himself off and then wrapping the towel around his waist. He walked back into the bedroom ,finding it empty. Michael must be out in the kitchen with Lon. Justin quickly lost the towel and put on a pair of white boxer briefs.He picked out a pair of khaki's and a blue pullover sweater.He changed quickly,putting on cologne and deodorant. He ran his fingers through his wet hair.Then headed out to find Michael. Michael was sitting in the living room, talking on the phone to someone. He kind of turned away from Justin, not looking at him.Justin sensed he wanted some privacy. He walked out into the kitchen.Lonnie was at the table drinking coffee. Breakfast was ready and fully laid out. He looked up at Justin,smiling,but sensing that Justin was worried about Michael. "So whats going on?" Justin looked back into the living room, Michael was still on the phone. Justin quickly told Lonnie what had happened to Michael,and how it was his fault. "Just, don't take it to heart,sounds to me that Michael doesn't blame you, he has forgiven you." "Then why is he keeping distance between us, and what did he mean that it wasn't what happened with his dad.What was it then?" Lonnie sat looking at Justin. "When Michael is ready he will tell you.Your so good at drawing these things out of him Justin,I believe your right.Your soul is part of his.I think thats why he talks so easily to you.Give him time." Justin smiled at Lonnie, he was such a good friend. They hugged briefly. "Always remember, love conquers all." The dream.Justin had forgotten the dream.Lonnie had said the exact words. Justin remembered what the young man had said to him. Always remember those three words. Justin was about to start telling Lonnie about it, when he heard Michael hang up the phone rather loudly. Michael walked into the room, in a better mood. "Everything fine, Michael?" Lonnie asked getting up to get the coffee pot. "I just got off the phone with my literary agent.My book has moved up the charts.It went from number 156 to 100.That puts me on the top one hundred best sellers list." Justin jumped up,hugging him,feeling Michael tense up a bit a first then return the hug. "Oh Mikey, thats fantastic!" But Michael seemed a bit nervous. Justin was realizing he could sense things about Michael. "What does that mean in the long run.Will your next book be out soon?" "The first one has already sold 125,000 copies.I can't believe it, neither can Ryan,my agent.Its really picking up steam,he thinks it could hit 500,000 copies at this rate." Michael sat down at the table, his mind on something. Justin and Lonnie were about to sit down,when someone knocked on the door.Lonnie went to get it while Justin sat down. In a few moments Nana came into the room,followed by Lonnie. Michael got up,hugging his grandmother, while she gave him a kiss,Justin following right after. They all sat back down, Justin informing Nana of Michael's news. Nana clasped Michael's hand,she was so happy for him, this was what he had worked so long for, to be a recognized writer.But she sensed he was worried about something. "You should be happy Mico, whats wrong?" "I am happy about the book,its just some other things Ryan said." Justin put his hand on top of Michael's other hand. "What did he say, Michael?" "I have to go to New York to meet with the publishers and marketing people,and it looks like there may be a promotional tour." Justin was really happy for Michael, but he couldn't understand why Michael wasn't happier. Michael looked him in the eyes finally,Justin seeing a bit of fear in them. "I've never been good around crowds,Justin.I get bad stage fright.Have ever since I was younger." Michael didn't elaborate. Justin sensed there was something more. Michael hesitated looking at his grandmother, she looking at Michael with a sad smile, her hand rubbing his hand some more. Nana sensed that something was up between Michael and Justin, that something had happened. "Michael dear, could you go back to my suite and get my reading glasses, I want to read Lonnie's newspaper." "Sure thing Nana." Michael got up quickly,going into the living room and exited the suite going down the hall to his grandmother's room. "Whats going on Justin, what's happened?" Nana said to him the moment she heard the suite door close. Justin sighed a little,and then proceeded to tell Nana what had taken place that morning,trying to be discreet about the sexual part. Nana tensed up a bit, Justin's sensing she knew something about this. "Oh my, thats terrible.He hasn't talked any more about it since you showered?" "No when I was done and came out he was on the phone with his agent." Nana sighed a long breath,then put her hand on Justin's. "Justin,I believe Michael wants to tell you, but he's afraid.Afraid of what it might do to your relationship." "Our relationship? You feel it too,don't you.Michael does have feelings for me." Nana smiled."Yes, Justin I have sensed a change in Michael,a change for the better.He has feelings for you,strong feelings,I sense it in him." "What's going on has to do with Paul,doesn't it?" Nana's smile faltered a bit, her eyes looking down. "You know don't you?You know whats going on,what happened between them." A single tear was falling down her cheek. "I am afraid I do,Justin." Just then Michael came back into the suite closing the door. He walked into the kitchen sensing that they had been talking about him.He didn't say anything. He sat down, handing Nana her glasses which she thanked him for. Justin felt he should continue the conversation. "So, Michael.You never finished your last bit of conversation.You said you had bad stage fright,ever since you were younger?" "Yes, I don't do well with crowds,I feel closed in,like I need to breathe." "Hey man, I still get that some times, when I am overwhelmed at a signing or public forum." Justin said,putting his hand on Michael's shoulder. MIchael smiled at Justin,feeling his support. "I know a few tricks that can help you, make you feel calmer.I will show you whenever you need to." Everyone smiled,knowing Justin was trying to encourage Michael,to keep him going. "Did something happen to you in a crowd once, did it make you frightened?" Michael tensed a bit, looking at Nana again. Nana put her hand on his shoulder. "Its time,Mico.Its time this was in the open.You have to tell him.He's no fool,Michael.He knows something happened to you.Especially because of what happened this morning." Michael looked up at Justin. "You told her didn't you." Michael eyes were on Justin,almost seeing into him. "Yes,Michael,she knew something was wrong.I couldn't keep it from her."Justin put his hand in Michael's.Michael grasping his hand,feeling that spark again. He looked shyly at Justin. "Please,Michael, I want to help you.Tell me what happened,I love you." Michael, took a deep breath.He looked into Justin's eyes.Those blue pools of heaven looked so full of love. Michael knew he couldn't deny Justin this truth any longer. "I haven't been good around crowds since....... since my relationship ended with Paul." JUstin's gaze never left Michael's. Lonnie was silently watching Michael also. "Why since then, Michael?"Justin's hand was still holding Michael's, his gaze still on him. Lonnie noticed Nana was starting to get visibly upset,he sensed what was coming wasn't good. "It was because of what Paul did to me.And what I had to do.I had to have him arrested." Justin sat back a bit,mild shock registering on his face.Lonnie was taken aback too. Justin still was holding Michael's hand, he felt Michael needed that connection. "What did he do that made you involve the police.Why was he arrested?" Michael slowly got up out of his chair, breaking the contact with Justin.He stood still a moment,Justin starting to get up.Michael then started walking out of the room.At the doorway he stopped,and put his hand on the frame to steady himself.He turned slowly to look at Justin, at only Justin.Justin looked like he was ready to follow him,to be there for him if he needed him. Tears were running down Michael's cheeks,his facial expression was of immense hurt, of deep hurt. Justin;s heart broke to see Michael's face like that. "I had him arrested...because......" Justin stood still,a silent terror building in his heart. "Because he raped me, Justin." End of Chapter 13 Well was that a surprise, or did you all suspect it? The truth shall come forth shortly.Keep reading. Thanks to all of you well wishers for encouraging me to continue with this,I am so happy you all like the story. Please feel free to comment or make suggestions. And as always, keep the faith. Angel.