Date: Mon, 18 Dec 2006 06:49:45 -0500 From: Angel J Subject: Justin's Angel-14 This is a sexually explicit story (at times) involving homosexuality. By continuing to read, you affirm under penalties of perjury that you are not a minor or in the company of a minor and are entitled to have access to this story. The following is a fictious story with no real basis or credibility.It is solely for the enjoyment of the reader.Its all just fun. It does not imply anything about the sexual preferences or lifestyle of Justin Timberlake or any other celebrity mentioned in the story. Previously Nana put her hand on his shoulder. "Its time,Mico.Its time this was in the open.You have to tell him.He's no fool,Michael.He knows something happened to you.Especially because of what happened this morning." Michael looked up at Justin. "You told her didn't you." Michael eyes were on Justin,almost seeing into him. "Yes,Michael,she knew something was wrong.I couldn't keep it from her."Justin put his hand in Michael's.Michael grasping his hand,feeling that spark again. He looked shyly at Justin. "Please,Michael, I want to help you.Tell me what happened,I love you." Michael, took a deep breath.He looked into Justin's eyes.Those blue pools of heaven looked so full of love. Michael knew he couldn't deny Justin this truth any longer. "I haven't been good around crowds since....... since my relationship ended with Paul." JUstin's gaze never left Michael's. Lonnie was silently watching Michael also. "Why since then, Michael?"Justin's hand was still holding Michael's, his gaze still on him. Lonnie noticed Nana was starting to get visibly upset,he sensed what was coming wasn't good. "It was because of what Paul did to me.And what I had to do.I had to have him arrested." Justin sat back a bit,mild shock registering on his face.Lonnie was taken aback too. Justin still was holding Michael's hand, he felt Michael needed that connection. "What did he do that made you involve the police.Why was he arrested?" Michael slowly got up out of his chair, breaking the contact with Justin.He stood still a moment,Justin starting to get up.Michael then started walking out of the room.At the doorway he stopped,and put his hand on the frame to steady himself.He turned slowly to look at Justin, at only Justin.Justin looked like he was ready to follow him,to be there for him if he needed him. Tears were running down Michael's cheeks,his facial expression was of immense hurt, of deep hurt. Justin;s heart broke to see Michael's face like that. "I had him arrested...because......" Justin stood still,a silent terror building in his heart. "Because he raped me, Justin." Chapter 14 Justin never moved.The words registering in his mind, and breaking his heart. He stared at Michael, hoping against all odds that it wasn't true. That someone could of hurt Michael that way, that they would defile his soul. Michael never moved from the doorway, his gaze moving away from Justin, he couldn't stand to see that look in his eyes anymore. Michael thought it was the look of horror and disgust,the look of pity. But he couldn't of been more wrong.It wasn't pity, it wasn't disgust.It was the look of disbelief,anger and yes,compassion. All Justin wanted to do was hold his Michael, to tell him it was going to be alright, that the terror was gone, that he would be his forever. But Justin couldn't move, he was paralized with shock.Paralized with disbelief. Then he sensed Michael's inner feelings again. Michael was dissappointed in him,he felt Justin pitied him. But Justin still couldn't move, his own fears and uncertainty stopping him. He was surprised to feel someones hand go into his.It was Nana. Justin looked down at her,her face covered in tears, sadness so evident on her face. She rose out of her chair.Leaving Justin standing by the table. She walked up to Michael,staring into his golden eyes. She gently put her hand on his face,brushing the tears from his eyes. "Thats the first time I heard you say that word,Michael.Since the day it happened you never admitted to me what he did to you." Michael stared back into her eyes, seeing her love shining through. She clasped him in a motherly hug, his head falling on her shoulder,closing his eyes. "I have always been ashamed, that I let it happen." Nana pulled back from Michael. "Oh Mico,you didn't let it happen.he made it happen, Michael.He baited you,then lured you up there,to that cabin.He forced you,they all did,you had no chance to protect yourself." Michael knew she was right, knew it had happened that way.But his heart still couldn't see that. Nana turned then, looking at Justin,and Lonnie, who was now standing beside Justin. Justin and Lonnie could see the strength she was giving and showing Michael.This was a determined woman,a woman determined to be there for her grandson. "Yes,my grandson was hurt and almost destroyed by the man who he thought loved him.Michael its time you told them the truth about what Paul did to you.How it happened.Everything." Michael looked at Justin.He felt something was wrong. Justin's gaze had never left him.But Michael couldn't read his eyes,they looked different somehow.As if he wasn't sure of what to do or say.As if that ever present love was gone. Michael felt alone all of a sudden. Nana released him and walked over to Justin.She looked his squarely in his eyes.She sensed his unease, his feelings of being lost.Of being unsure what to do. "You need to be here for him,Justin.Listen to him,hear him out.Don't judge him by the actions of others,judge him by his heart." Justin continued to look at Michael,still unsure of what to do. Then he felt it happen. The words flowed into Justin's mind,three simple words,the words he realized had been sent to him when he needed them most. "love conquers all" He heard them in his mind,his soul and in his heart. Yes, love conquers all, and Justin felt his heart soar with his love for Michael. He walked over to Michael,pulling him into a tender embrace.He didn't say any words,all he did was hold him,and it was enough for Michael. Michael was taken by surprise, he hadn't expected it,that this man would still be there for him,wouldn't hold back anything from him.That he wouldn't deny him what he needed most,his love. Michael put his head on Justin's shoulder,feeling that safety again,that warmth of Justin's love. "Now I understand,Michael.Your reaction this morning, what it must of done to you.I am so sorry,I didn't know,I didn't know." Justin's tears were flowing down onto Michael's face. "Oh, Justin.You didn't know,please don't think that.I just couldn't bring myself to tell you what Paul did to me." Justin pulled slowly back,still not letting go of Michael. "Never be afraid to tell me anything,Mikey.I am here for you,always." Michael smiled a tender smile at Justin. Michael pulled out of Justin's embrace, taking his hand in his again. "Then its time I told you everything.All of it.I don't want any more secrets between us,Jus." Justin let Michael lead him to the table, Michael sitting down again.Justin pulled his chair up beside Michael's. Michael put his hands on the table,Justin seeing the scar on the back of his right hand. Justin put his hand in Michael's again.Michael grasping it,feeling that continuing spark of love. Lonnie and Nana took their seats again,waiting for Michael to start. Michael sat silent for a moment, going through his thoughts, trying to find the words to make them understand what had taken place. Nana knew part of it, but not all.She had been there for him after, his anchor.Her and Uncle Silas,and Zach.Faithful,loving Zach.They had been the only ones.Even after the whole town turned against him,they were still there. He looked at her,seeing her smiling encouragement. "I am lucky,Justin.I am lucky to have a grandmother who would fight for me." Nana smiled,Justin looking at her with just as much love. Michael took a long breath, and turned to look at Justin. "When I was nineteen,a few weeks before school ended,I fell in love." Michael was flowing through time, back to his past,back to his destruction. "They say love conquers all.But their wrong,Justin.Love can destroy you." Justin was thunderstruck. Out of Michael's own mouth came the three words that ignited Justin's love,but to Michael those words meant destruction. Six years earlier Michael had been fighting a cold for about two weeks.His head was stuffed,and his ears were infected.His hearing had diminished a bit, maybe thats why fate destined him for tragedy. He was walking across the football field, trying to get to an english class,and in his current condition he didn't hear someone yelling at him.Or hear the sudden whosh of the object sailing at him. The football hit him directly on the back of the head. Michael went down in a heap. He slowly came back to reality,opening his eyes and staring up into the face of a young man.A young man with the greenest eyes Michael had ever seen. The man smiled at Michael, asking him if he was okay. "What happened,did someone hit me?" "You got a football in the back of the head.My friends were yelling at you ,but you didn't hear them.Its my fault,really.I am so sorry." "Its fine, I shouldn't of been cutting across the football field.Isn't the season over.What were you playing football for?" "Just having a fun game.My name's Paul Richards." "Michael Tavarro." Michael replied, trying not to stare to much at this handsome guy. Paul helped Michael up to his feet, making sure he was okay. "Well,if your okay, why don't you just sit here,and maybe when we are done I can take you out for a coffee or something to make up for all this." Michael smiled at Paul."Ok, that would be fine." Michael completely forgot about classes.He sat down on the seats, watching Paul go back to his friends.He joined a group of two other guys, they started talking,each one casually looking over at Michael. They went back to their game, playing for about another half hour. Michael watched Paul play,watching his young athletic body move and dart as he ran back and forth.Michael couldn't take his eyes off this young guy. When they had finished,Paul seperated from his friends and went back over to Michael. "If your feeling okay, lets go for that coffee I promised." Michael got up and followed Paul out of the stadium and they hopped into Michael's car. They drove down to McGrady's coffee shop and soon found themselves at a table,talking like old friends. Paul told him all about himself, he was twenty one,his family had lived in the small town for eight generations.His father was the mayor of the small town.Michael already knew who Paul was, he had seen him around high school,although he had already graduated two years earlier. Michael assumed he had a girlfriend at the school. They chatted for over an hour, talking about each other's lives, Michael telling him about his grandmother,but not about his early troubled life. After two cups of coffee and lots of laughter and talk, Michael sensed a new friend in Paul.Maybe more than that. Paul asked what Michael was up to that evening. Nothing much,replied Michael. Paul seemed a little nervous,Michael wasn't sure why. Michael invited him to go fishing with him that evening,if he wanted to. "That would be great,I love to fish." Paul quickly replied, Michael smiling at him. Paul practically beamed back at him.His face taking on a real nice sexy look. Michael feel stirrings in his heart for this man. They arranged to meet at Michael's place for 6:30 that evening. Michael drove Paul back to his waiting car. All afternoon Michael couldn't concentrate on school, his thoughts turning to his date with Paul that night. It wasn't really a date, Michael knew that,but he kept thinking of it like that. Michael secretly hoped that Paul might be gay, if only that were true. Michael rushed home right after school,doing his house chores and his homework. Nana noticed a lighter step in Michael,almost like he was really happy about something. Paul drove up promptly at 6:30,introducing himself to Nana, and lightly chatting with Michael. Nana liked the boy, he seemed genuinely nice.And very good looking.Nana knew Michael was gay and watching him,she felt he was having some strong feelings towards this boy. Nana inwardly smiled to herself.Michael needed someone to love him. They drove off about twenty minutes later, talking away on the ride down to the lake. Michael's grandfather had bought a large tract of land in the early forties,the land surrounding a large lake.It was a beautiful place to fish and relax. There was a large cabin, with a beautiful view of the water. Paul and Michael spent a few hours fishing off the dock in front of the cabin,both catching a couple of good size bass. After cleaning and packaging the fish, they settled down on the dock,their feet dangling in the water. Paul seemed like he wanted to ask Michael something. Michael had been chatting by himself for the last few minutes,Paul silently looking at him. "What, do I have something on my face.Why are you staring at me?" Michael asked,shyly. Paul leaned in quickly,kissing Michael on the lips. Michael's heart did a back flip. Paul put his arms around Michael,kissing him deeper. Michael returned the kiss,it felt so wonderful,like something had been missing from him. Paul pulled away slowly breaking the kiss. "I have been wanting to do that for an hour.Your so sexy and beautiful." Michael blushed shyly,trying not to look at Paul's green eyes. "I'm gay Michael,and I think your the sexiest guy I have ever met." Michael blushed even more. "I think your sexy too,Paul." Paul smiled a beautiful smile,wrapping his arms around Michael.He started to put his hand in Michael's lap,inching his hand up his inner thigh. Michael got nervous,the touch exciting him. "Paul,I am gay, but I am not experienced.I have never been with a man before." Paul looked tenderly into Michael's eyes. "I want to be your first Michael.Would you like me to be your first." Michael smiled back at Paul. "Yes, but I need to get to know you better first.I don't believe in just hopping into bed with someone." "Thats cool,Mike.I respect that." Paul removed his hand and the two of them sat there until after dark,just talking and lightly kissing. Paul drove him home,walking him to the door.They parted with a tender kiss. Michael walking into the living room,Nana on the couch,sewing a patch into a pair of Michaels pants. "How was your evening,honey?" Nana smiling at Michael. Michael jumped down onto the couch, telling Nana everything that had happened,except for the private details. Nana sensed a new happiness in Michael,and she also was glad that he had the sense to not jump into any real physical relationship right off the bat. She knew Michael was caring and loving,and that he wouldn't be just into casual sex. They chatted for a while,Michael finally taking his leave and going upstairs. When he opened his bedroom door,Zach was laying on Michael's bed. Zach always snuck into Michael's room through the window,the two of them constantly dropping in on each other. "Where ya been all night,Mikey." Zach looking at him with interest."Out with the boyfriend?" Michael looked at Zach with an open mouth. zach started laughing, holding his sides.Michael shook his head. "Relax,Nana told me where you went." Zach jumped up landing in Michael's lap,sending him sprawling onto the floor.They wrestled around for a bit,until Michael had pinned Zach and was tickling him. Zach gave in,calling Michael the king. Michael laughed,getting up and laying on the bed. "So did you do the deed?" Zach asked with interest. Michael smiled."No, we are taking it slow." Michael knew he could tell Zach anything,he was his best friend,there was nothing he would keep from him. Zach knew Michael was gay,had since they were 15.That didn't change their friendship,even though Zach was straight. "I am happy for you,Michael.you deserve to be happy.Always." Michael hugged Zach, knowing he meant everything he said. Later that night after Zach left,Michael lay in bed ,thinking about Paul. He was so cute.Blond,tall,smooth build,muscular.What did he see in him? Michael always had doubts about his own looks,even when others said he was good looking. Michael sighed,thinking about a life with Paul.His eyes closed and sleep over took him. For the next three weeks Michael and Paul spent every free moment together, never far from each other.They budding romance was in full bloom. Paul was openly gay to his family,his parents were for the most part fine with it,but they wanted him to be discreet.His father was mayor after all. Michael liked his mom,she seemed like a kind person.His father on the other hand didn't see eye to eye with Michael. Michael had always shown his feelings openly, he wasn't ashamed of who or what he was.Paul's father didn't really approve of that.He told Michael to keep this discreet,he didn't want to hear that his son's boyfriend was bragging all over town what a catch he had. That didn't sit well with Michael.Paul didn't say anything. Later that night,after they were alone together,Michael asked why Paul didn't come to his own defense,let alone Michael's. Paul told him that he was afraid of his father,that he always wanted his approval,he couldn't go against him. Michael couldn't understand it,but he didn't pressure Paul. Michael realized he was falling in love with him. It had been almost a month since they had opened up to each other's feelings. Michael felt the time was right. "I will always be here for you,Paul.You can decide when and how you want to be open with everyone.I love you enough to not push you." Paul looked back at Michael,there was kind of a shocked look on his face. "You love me?Really?" Michael shyly smiled at Paul. "Yes Paul.I love you." Paul leaned into Michael,kissing him with a renewed passion.Their lips spread apart and tongues devoured each other. Paul hands were on Michael's chest,moving under his shirt,finding his nipples.Michael could feel himself hardening in his tight white jeans. Michael pulled back. "Michael,I need you." Michael felt whole, felt so alive. "I want to spend the weekend with you Michael.Just you and me.My father's cabin is free this weekend,its up at Wolf lake.We could spend all weekend their,showing each other how much we need each other." Michael felt so much love for Paul. "All right,Paul.I want that too.I just want you to realize that this is my first time." Paul rubbed his cheek softly. "I will make it something you will never forget." Paul kissed him again,Michael feeling his heart soaring. The two of them walking together home. All week Nana could sense a new Michael, a new hope.Michael was in love, she was sure of it. But something was nagging at her, a feeling that something wasn't quite right.She couldn't put her finger on what it was. Her gift wasn't telling her what she wanted to know.She had always been able to sense love, she felt it in Michael,but she couldn't sense it yet fully in Paul. Of course she hadn't been around him much,Michael and him spent most of their time away,down at the lake or at other places.Michael had told her about the coming weekend,their trip away. After he got back she was going to talk to Paul,find out his real feelings towards Michael. Zach also was feeling some apprehension. He had talked to Michael that friday afternoon,and something just didn't feel right. Michael wouldn't listen to him, he was certain of Paul's feelings towards him. Zach wanted him to be sure,to be honest with Paul if he wasn't ready. Michael knew that Zach was only looking out for him,and he truly appreciated it.He hugged him, telling him not to worry. Zach and Nana were both there that evening when Paul stopped to pick Michael up. He was ready to go,and kissed Paul when he opened the car door for him. Zach,Uncle Silas and Nana all stood in the driveway watching Michael leave,his hand waving goodbye. Present Michael sat still remembering that day,remembering how that weekend started with such promise,the promise of love. Justin sensed Michael was wrestling with his inner emotions,needing guidance on how to proceed with this tale. He leaned in and kissed Michael on the cheek,looking deep into his eyes. What Justin saw terrified him. He saw a frightened child staring back at him,a child who had been hurt,hurt beyond salvation. Michael was there,lost in his own torturous soul. Justin squeezed his hand,starting that spark again,that spark of his love. Michael blinked and focused on Justin's eyes. Those wonderful deep pools of love, blue with the skies of heaven. They were his life line,his salvation in a sense. Michael took a deep breath and continued on. Back to the Past The two hour trip up to the cabin was the greatest,happiest trip of Michael's young life.Paul was so sensitive to his needs,touching him lightly,small kisses, and tender caresses. Paul on several occasions asked Michael again if it was true that he was a virgin,never having been with a man. Michael wondered why he keep asking it, didn't he believe him? Paul keep saying he just wanted to be Michael's first,that he felt honored to be the one. Michael keep quiet for a while,not quite sure what Paul had in store for him. He got a strange feeling deep inside, a sense of impending danger. Then Paul gently kissed him on the cheek.Staring into his green eyes Michael's defenses vanished. He trusted him completed,after all Paul said he loved him,didn't he? Michael couldn't remember him saying it. No, of course he said it.You told him you loved him and he said the same. After a short drive up around a small lake, they pulled into a large cabin lot.A two story chalet type cottage overlooked the lake. Michael noticed another car parked beside their own. Paul told him it was his father's ,that he leaves it up here for running around in. Michael didn't make the connection. His thoughts were clouded with love,especially with the looks Paul were giving him. Paul put his arm around Michael's shoulder leading him up the steps to the front door. Paul opened the door, allowing Michael to walk through first. Michael gave him a big genuine smile, and turning around,walked into hell. As soon as he was through the door,Paul closed it on them. Walking into the large living area, Michael was met with a sight he couldn't believe. Laying on the couch was two young men in the middle of having sex. Both were naked,the one on top feeding his cock into the hungry mouth of the other man. Paul started laughing. "Man you guys just couldn't wait for us, could you." The two men got up immediately walking towards Michael.Both of their cocks were hard and leaking precum. Michael backed up a bit, totally shocked by what was in front of him. Paul put his arms around Michael, resting his chin on Michael's shoulder. "Surprise ,Michael.My friends wanted to meet you.They love fresh meat." Michael turned around staring at Paul. Paul was laughing,starting to remove his shirt. "Its party time, Mikey, and your the guest of honor.When my friends found out you were a virgin,we all drew straws to see you got you first.I had to be fair to them,after all,I have been fucking them both for years." Michael couldn't believe what Paul had said to him.He was having sex with these guys.And he wanted him to have sex with them too. "But don't worry, I won.I am going to be your first,just as I promised.I am also the biggest,so you should start with the best." Paul pulled his pants down revealing a nine inch cock,hard as rock. Michael backed up against the wall, fear entering his heart. "No,Paul, this isn't what I wanted.I wanted you,only you,not these creeps." Both of the other guys were laughing. "Look,Michael.You don't get a choice in this." Paul had finished removing his clothes.He too was now naked in front of Michael. All three men had cornered Michael. Michael couldn't believe this.His fear had risen greatly.He felt trapped.All he could see were the three hard cocks in front of him. The two other men were on him in a flash,grabbing both his arms.Micheal was pushed up against the wall,held there. Paul was smiling,licking his lips. He walked up,pushing his body against Michael. "Your mine,Michael.Mine to fuck,and use.Your nothing more than a piece of ass to me.Did you really think I could love you.After this weekend,you'll be nothing more than a whore." Both men started licking Michael's cheeks.Michael was in a state of panic. "All three of us are going to fuck you Michael,take your ass again and again.You'll please us, do what we tell you,and you might as well enjoy it." Paul ripped Michael's shirt off his chest. Michael started crying,and begging Paul to stop. Paul laughed and started unbuckling Michael's pants.Michael kicked him right in the balls.Paul went down, clutching his middle. Michael broke free trying to get past Paul. "Grab that shit." Paul screamed. Michael made it to the couch before one of the guys tackled him.The guy was on top of him,punching him in the back,Michael's face pounding into the floor. Paul got up from the floor,his temper fuming. "Good work,Pete.Stop hitting him.Put him on top of the ottoman,and you and Frank hold him down. BOth guys did as Paul instructed. Michael was trapped.Both guys were holding him down on his stomach. Paul walked up behind Michael. "You have to do it the hard way,don't ya,Mikey.Here I was going to be gentle.Well you earned this pain." Paul knelt down between Michaels legs pulling off his pants.Michael was now nude. MIchael struggled to free himself,feeling Paul spread his legs.Michael couldn't move. And then he felt an intrusion,a hard intrusion between his ass cheeks.And then pain,mind spliting pain. Michael screamed,and screamed,his screams being silenced by a fist in his face. Present Michael sat at the table,his face devoid of emotion. Justin still sat at his side,holding his hand.His head was lowered,tears falling freely from his eyes. Lonnie and Nana were emotional ,tears present on both their faces. Justin looked up,staring at Michael,hoping he would get angry,feel something.But Michael sat still,not moving. He turned again,looking at Justin. "They used me Justin,for two days they used me.They used my body for their pleasures.They fucked me, they raped me,they shit on me,they did it all.They beat me, they threw me in the shower,they cleaned me up,and then they used me again.All weekend." Michael stood up then.Justin tried to hold onto him, but he pushed him away. "I was their whore,Justin.For two days I was their whore.Then they drove me home,throwing me out naked into a ditch about three miles from my home.They left my car in a parking lot in town." Justin got up facing Michael,wanting to hold him,to make him feel safe. "They threw me into a gutter,Justin.Like trash.Because thats what I was.Trash.They made me a whore." Justin was crying,feeling Michael's pain. He didn't know what he could say to make Michael feel safe. Michael finally focused on Justin's face. He saw the pain there, the hurt,and the love.He still saw love on Justin's face. Michael was confused. How can this be, how can he still want to love me. "Michael, oh my darling."Justin put his arms around Michael. Michael tensed, not wanting this,feeling he didn't deserving this. "How can you still love me,Justin.How can you love me when I am a whore." Michael pulled out of his arms, running out of the room,grabbing his coat and leaving the suite. Justin collapsed into Lonnie's arms,crying.Nana was beside him also,rubbing his shoulders,knowing how much Justin wanted to run after Michael.She also knew how much Justin loved him. Her gift was shining through,feeling his love.And yes she could feel Michael's love trying to break through. But Nana knew Michael needed space,he needed to sort out what Justin meant to him. He needed to come back on his own. End of Chapter 14 Another good chapter. Well now you know most of Michael's past. Now we can get on with Michael and Justin's future. Lots more to come. Hopefully I can squeeze out a couple more chapters before the holidays. P.S. Did you see Justin on Saturday Night Live ,saturday night? Wow, he was all clean shaven,sexy,stylish and buffed. The man is hot. Peace out. Angel.