Date: Wed, 26 May 1999 08:16:54 EDT
From: Mlnscrm@aol.com
Subject: Justin's Love

* First off, this is my first attempt at writing a story so please be kind.
Send all comments good or bad to mlnscrm@aol.com.

** Also, I have read a lot of good stories on Nifty and in my opinion, the
best ones are the ones that deal with the romance as well as the sex. So
this story will involve a lot of story line as well as sex.  Trust me, it
makes the sex a lot better and more realistic.

*** I would like to thank Nifty for helping me start my writing abilities
and getting to share them with others and I would also like to thank JM,
author of Brian and Justin. Those stories have been a great inspiration and
I hope that everyone out there finds love like he shares in his
stories. Thank you a lot!

**** This one is a must. This stories and the ones to follow are all
fiction. I am not implying anything about any member of NSYNC or other
celebrities ever mentioned. (Scratch this up to wishful thinking)

***** Last of all, you know all the legal crap so, FOLLOW IT! I'll shut up
now.

Thanks for reading!


Justin's Love
Part 1
The Meeting

	I had just finished the NSYNC album. I was very impressed. My name
is Chris. I love music. Music was always like a sanctuary to me and was
very important. And even though I was gay, I was never big on the whole boy
band thing. When I did the denial thing and was dating my now best friend
she listened to the stuff religiously. She got me hooked on a song or two,
but nothing major. They were pretty much all fine as hell, but I never
really sat down to listen to any of the music, thinking it would be either
terrible and they were getting by on looks, or it was another Milli Vanilli
scam. However, one day I was watching TRL on MTV and saw the premiere of
NSYNC's "Drive Myself Crazy". I liked the song, which was only half the
reason I bought the CD.  The other half being the god called Justin
Timberlake. As soon as I saw him I thought to myself, 'Anyone that fine, at
least deserves to be heard.' The next day I had the CD. I rushed home to
listen and loved it. I like the mixture of R&B, Hip-hop, and love ballads.
Even though it was mostly remixed material, it was done a lot better the
second time around. As soon as the last song ended I was on my computer. I
headed to the NSYNC web page to e-mail a letter saying what I thought.
When I got to the e-mail address, I saw that each member had his own
address, as did the group as a whole. I wrote to the group saying that I
loved the CD and can't wait to hear the next. The usual.  But I was too
tempted seeing Justin's e-mail address and was soon writing. "Justin, I
just listened to your CD and LOVED IT! It was a great mixture of songs and
a wonderful mixture of voices and talent. I was never into the whole boy
band thing, being a guy and all even though my ex-girlfriend listened to
y'all like she needed it more that air. LOL" The letter went on
complimenting the group and himself as a lead vocalist. (I included the
part about my ex-girlfriend mostly due to the fact that he might not really
care about compliments from a gay fan. The ex wasn't a lie, but would
probably lead him to believe that I was straight. So, it worked out)
Anyway, I knew that I wouldn't be getting any e-mail from Justin or
anything, but I also knows how it feels to a performer to hear that people
like what they are doing. So I was accomplishing something by sending
it. As soon as I sent it I was off-line and on my bed for some sleep.

	Little did I know that Justin Timberlake and the rest of NSYNC were
in California (Me being in Florida) and was not quite ready to go to
sleep. They had just got done it the studio and Justin was just checking
his mail and chatting with some friends before he rented a movie and fell
asleep on his hotel room couch. Even though Justin had turned 18, he still
was a big fan of clubbin like the rest of the guys and usually did stay in
when they went. Suddenly, he heard those 3 words we all know and love.
"You've got mail." Justin immediately minimized everything else and went to
check his mail. It knew it would probably be another fan letter since most
of them were. Only one or two a month would be from a friend he had known
since like birth that had his address. He loved the fan letters so it
didn't really bother him as much as most would believe. He opened the
letter and was suprised when he got to the third or fourth line. He learned
it was from an apparent straight guy. This was so something knew. The
letters from girls were huge, and letters from gay guys were not as
uncommon, but a straight fan. This was new. Justin was happy that their
music was getting into a new group of people. He had nothing against girls
or gay guys, I mean they paid the bills, but now NSYNC's music was heard by
another crowd. Justin didn't usually answer e- mail, in fear of mass panic
and everyone would expect to be answered, but he had an urge and started a
letter. After about 45 minutes, Justin typed his name on the bottom of the
e-mail and sent it. He felt good about the e-mail he had received, the one
he sent, and soon was fast asleep on his couch, without a movie.

	 I slowly drug myself out of bed. I had graduated from school just
a month ago, yet I was still getting up at early hours like I was going to
school. My biological clock still hadn't adjusted to the freedom. I was
going to go to college in the fall, so instead of getting used to waking up
early I just wouldn't ever stray from it. My parents were very well to do,
so I was in no hurry to find a job until after college. I took a shower,
got dressed, and went to check my mail and chat with my friends. It was my
usual routine. I was kinda surprised to find that I had something other
than junk mail. Usually, my friends didn't send me mail until I was talking
to them. I quickly went to open it and almost died. It was from JUSTIN! It
was nothing big, just him happy to receive mail and thanking me for sending
my thoughts. But it was from JUSTIN! I sat there staring at the screen. I
then noticed a P.S. I scrolled down. "P.S.  you seem like a really cool and
maybe me and you can chat later." He gave me his screen name and unofficial
e-mail address and I added it to my buddy list and address book as fast as
I could. I saw some of my friends on and started chatting. I was about to
drive myself crazy waiting for something to come to me to write in an
e-mail to Justin's real address. Then I got the glorious sound of a new
buddy coming on my buddy list. I almost passed out trying to write
something in an IM until I got an IM from him. "Hey, I didn't catch your
name in the e-mail you sent me, but I really enjoyed reading it from a
fan. Thanks a lot. So you know my name, what's your?" I was surprised at
how normal he seemed to be. This could have been any typical conversation I
had had before. "Chris." That was all I could write. I had no idea what to
say. He must have picked up on this, "Are you there?" I shook off my trance
and started to type. "Sorry, I just never met... or at least chatted with a
star before. It's all kinda new." All I got was "LOL. So..." and that is
how it began.

	I got over the star struck thing and we chatted. We just had so
much in common and once we started talking we couldn't stop. "Damn. It has
been 6 hours since we started talking. I can't believe that!" I felt bad as
he sent that. "I didn't mean to keep you so long. I hadn't realized
either."  I figured it was over so I closed the IM box, just to have it pop
up again. "Don't apologize. I had a great time. I rarely get to just talk
with someone. I had fun. We will have to do it again, but I do have to go
now." I read excitedly. Justin was tempted to put in something about
keeping all this just between them, but for some reason he trusted
Chris. "Well, I'll c-ya around." I simply put. "Of course you will." And
then he signed off. I was happy. I had just spent all talking to Justin
Timberlake!

	Well, this continued. Justin and me had kept in touch. At first, I
didn't talk to Justin until l almost two weeks after out first chat.
However, each chat after that came closer and closer together. Soon, we
were talking everyday. Justin had a busy schedule, but always made time to
come on, even for just a second to chat. It felt great to have someone like
that. I was in heaven.  Justin felt pretty much the same way. Other then
the guys in the group and the few friends he still kept in touch with,
Justin had never made many friends. Ever since he had turned like 16 he
shied away from friendships or anything to close, at least without serious
consideration. It felt nice to have someone who was always there. We had
chatted for almost 4 months when the IM hit me.  "So, we are throwing a
concert at the Orlando Arena. Are you coming? 'Cause I was thinking maybe
we could met if you did." I was thrown. I didn't really want to meet him. I
hated to admit this, but after all the time spent talking to Justin... I
was falling in love. Which felt great, because this was something
different. Most loves get caught up with acts and lies and all, but we had
nothing to act or lie about. We had never even met! Why lie? We had a
friendship based on actual friendship. So to met Justin, I mean I didn't
want to ruin the best thing I had going. "Actually, I can't. Sold out show,
you know. What can I say, y'all are quite popular." I tried to tell myself
I wasn't really lying, which I wasn't, the concert was sold out, but I felt
so bad. "Well, I hate to tell you this, but I think I could possibly,
maybe, chancing it, I could get a ticket. LOL" I could tell he was treating
me like a child, which was kinda cute. "This might sound stupid, but I
consider you one of my best friends, and you are one of my best friends
because of you. Not NSYNCer Justin Timberlake. Talking a ticket would make
me feel like I was using you or something." I felt stupid saying every word
of that. "But, you are not using me. I know that. I wouldn't think you
were." I knew that it would be tough to get out of this, and it was. After
much battling, we decided we would meet sometime before or after the
concert. We continued chatting until all hours of the morning like usual
and then got some sleep.

	"Hey! Wake up Curly!" Justin heard JC's voice yelling. Justin
slowly woke up to JC's shaking and yelling. "What is it?!?!" Justin was not
morning person. "You over slept. We already had breakfast in Joey's room
waiting for you to show up. Why are you so tired?" JC sounded more like a
father than a friend did. "I was just...." Justin tried to recall what he
had done. "Oh, I was just chatting with Chris." JC almost flinched when he
said that. "More of this Chris. All we have gotten out of you for 4 months
is a name. Who is this Chris? You are always running to talk with him. Must
be some friend?" JC said wanting to know everything. "He is. A great
friend." JC just smiled. "Well, than I suppose that is great." He sounded
happy. "Well, come on. We have to get going. It's time we did some work."
JC joked as he left. Justin got up and got ready. He was about to leave
when he forgot something. He zipped up his laptop to chat with Chris on
break and headed down.

	I woke up the next morning to my alarm clock blaring the radio
station I had preset. The song ended and the DJ came on as I came
to. "Well, here it is. The news on the NSYNC signing.  Virgin Record Store
in Downtown Disney had announced that on Thursday night, well really Friday
morning at 12:00AM if you buy the NSYNC CD you will get a wrist band
guaranteeing your place in line to get it signed by the group the day
before their concert." They continued to talk, but I zoned out after
that. I was still worried to see Justin, but I would have to anyway. I
couldn't run away forever. At least I would get to surprise him. If we were
going to meet I suppose I would prefer it to be on my terms. I quickly got
ready for tomorrow night. I would be in that line. I guess in all the rush
I forgot about our daily conversation. I didn't turn on my computer the
whole day. I wasn't even home. I didn't mean to, but I had totally
forgotten about talking to Justin, I was to busy planning to meet him.

	On every break Justin ran to turn on his computer and check his
mail or look at his buddy list, and disappointed every time. Chris and him
had gone a day without talking since that first week they talked. It was
weird, the friend that was always there for him was, no where to be found.
Justin was not in the best of moods that day and let everyone know it.

	I stood in line. Luckily, in the front of the line, to get my
second copy of NSYNC and then my wristband to have it signed. I was proud
of myself that I was doing all this. I was truly happy that I was going to
meet Justin. And for once I stopped. I stopped analyzing everything as I
had done so many times before. I knew how I felt for once and I was
happy. I was in love, but would only get friendship in return. Most people
I knew would be depressed and sad, but I was so much in love, I would
settle for friendship. I knew I couldn't stand the
alternative... loneliness. What would I do without Justin? I dismissed the
thought as fast as it had come. I would never find out that answer. I would
make sure of it.

	As the guys rode to the hotel in the limo, Justin was quiet as he
started out the window.  Why hadn't Chris been on all day? They had talked
everyday since that first week and now... Justin didn't know now. He
thought about the last conversation they had had. Did he make Chris mad?
Maybe he shouldn't have offered him the tickets. Did he think it was like a
test or something? Justin knew when he got to the hotel he would write
Chris and try to patch things up. He didn't want to lose Chris. He felt
something with Chris that he didn't feel with anyone else. He was closer to
him than even the guys. That kinda scared Justin, but he knew he would be
even more scared if he had to face life without him. All the guys looked
towards JC as they began to notice Justin's behavior.  JC was the closet to
Justin so it always fell to him to look after the 'baby' of the group. Even
JC didn't know what to do now. I mean, Justin had been in trances for the
past four months and now was looking depressed. He didn't get it, and from
what was said that morning Justin didn't really want to talk to JC about
it. JC knew, however, that he would have to press the matter if things got
much worse. When the guys got to the hotel, they all packed and got ready
to leave. Justin went on- line and still no mail. He felt like he should
write Chris, but the ball was in his court so he would let Chris make the
first move. He gathered his stuff and went to meet the guys. They were soon
in first class heading to Orlando on a flight out of LA. All the guys had
spread out and fell asleep except Justin and JC. JC had sat next to Justin
and tried to start a conversation, but failed. More than once. "Alright
Justin! Talk to me. What is up?" This caught Justin's attention. He turned
to see JC's eyes and burst into tears. He buried his head on JC's shoulders
and cried himself to sleep.  JC comforted him as best he could until he too
fell asleep with Justin.

	I was in line. (I seem to be there often) This time I was in line
with my CD to have it signed. Unfortunately, I was in the back this
time. Almost dead last to have my CD signed. That was ok though, it would
get signed and surprise Justin. That was what was important. I stood there
for two hours before I realized I was wrong. I would have much rather been
in the front of the line!  I hated waiting to see Justin, and then there
were all those pre-teen girls. Most of them were barely in middle school,
yet they were ahead of me at 2:00 in the morning. Imagine that! Around 2:45
however, my turn came. I walked up and was saddened to see Justin turned
around looking out the window. Not that he would have recognized me or
anything, but still, he could have been looking.  Chris was the first one
to take the CD. "So, a guy. This is new. Who should I make it out too?"
Chris said jokingly. I just smiled and, "You could just autograph it." He
looked at me puzzled until I clarified. "The name's Christopher. You can
just make it out to Chris." He smiled and started signing. It slowly made
its way down the table until Justin. JC held out the CD while signing
another, but Justin didn't notice. He was starting out the window behind
him. When JC saw he still had the CD, he turned to Justin. "HEY JUST! You
mind signing somethings while you sit?" He said only half kidding. Justin
quickly came to. "Oh sorry. What was the name?" He was looking right at me
now. I just pretended to frown. "I'm hurt. You don't even know you're best
friend? And after I waited all day and night to get here too. You can just
sign it Chris." I pretended to sob. I was just kidding, but JC overheard
and thought otherwise. I saw him getting up to say something before Justin
jumped up and put his arms around me from behind the table. I was startled
but put my arms around him too. "Nice to see you too." I said laughing.
"Chris! I can't believe you are here. You wouldn't take tickets, but you do
autographs huh?" He said smiling that breath-taking smile. I thought I
would faint. "Yeah, well. I had to get in a couple of favors."  Justin
quickly pulled up a seat for me and told me to sit and wait, and we would
go out and do something after they finished. Justin and me talked the whole
time we sat there just as we had everyday on the computer.  But now, it was
much better to be face to face.

	As soon as they were done, Justin grabbed me and pulled me away to
his Mercedes. I laughed as we got in. "Is all this over? I would think you
didn't want me to meet your friends." I said looking at him. He just
smiled. "This isn't over. It's just beginning." I smiled as we drove off, I
trusting him completely as to where we were going.


TBC ~ Sucks doesn't it. To be continued, I mean. Anyway, hope you liked
it. I plan on continuing this, unless the e-mail is just that bad. lol
Please e-mail though. Good or Bad. I really am interested to know how
everyone liked it. Thanks a lot!

8^)