Date: Mon, 13 Nov 2000 11:13:09 -0800 (PST) From: Nick Moore Subject: Kevin & Dustin Chapters 42-45 Warning: This story contains acts of a sexual nature between Kevin Richardson and a partly fictional character. In no way is this story real. The name has been changed of my character It is not meant to reflect on Kevin, Nick, or Brian of the Backstreet Boys. If you are under 18, please leave, if homosexual acts offend you, I ask you to leave. Or if it is illegal in your town, state, country, etc. I also ask you to leave. If not, please enjoy. Some other stories about the Backstreet Boys or N'SYNC you might like to read are the following: My Night With Howie D. Brian & Justin, Just Beginning, An Angel's Wings, N'SYNC Love, Nick & Brian, Loving BSB, Boy Meets BSB, Nick & Adam, Just-JC, Rob & Lance, Devon & Lance, Brian & Cody, Bad Boy B-Rok, Bangin' B-Rok, Home, The One, Soul Mates, Nick & Justin, N'SYNC Lance & JC, N'SYNC & The Vamps, The JC Chronicles, Beryl Saga, Questions of Faith, Crash with Fame, Getting Reacquainted, Separate Lives, Show Me the Meaning, Don't Wanna Lose, All Grown Up, Escape, Choices, Whispers in the Night, Kevin & Justin, and many others. Send all comments to my new e-mail address at author_nm@yahoo.com Now just to remind you this story is completely fantasy and it is not meant to be taken for reality. I do not know what the boys are currently doing or where they are so this story will not be based on what they are actually doing in the present. Since I have depicted both Kevin and Brian as gay, I do hope you know that this is a fantasy, and in no way true. Kevin has married his fiance and Brian is engaged to LeighAnn Wallace. So I just want to wish them all the happiness in the world...they deserve it. The concert scene in the beginning of this installment has been completely made up by me. I decided the songs that would start and end the show, as well as the songs the boys would perform. This in no way reflects on how the real 'Millennium' Tour or shows occurred. So without further wait here is the next installment to Kevin & Dustin. Kevin & Dustin 42-45 Kevin & Dustin Chapter 42 By: NM For a moment I didn't say or answer him at all, and I think that made him nervous. "Dustin, is something wrong?" Kevin asked sincerely. "No...noth-nothing is wrong." I lied. "Dustin, you can tell me if something is bothering you." Kevin reminded me, while moving closer to me. "Kev...this is hard to say." I stated. "Go on, you can tell me anything." He urged. "Kev...I don't think I'm ready for marriage this soon." I confessed. When I said that I felt his hand stray from mine. I knew that I had instantly said the wrong thing, and that I might have inadvertently jeopardized my relationship with Kevin. All of the sudden I felt two arms wrap tightly around my smaller frame and pull me close. I felt Kevin kiss me gently and then slowly draw back. "God Dustin, I thought you were gonna say you wanted to break up with me." Kevin whimpered. "You mean you aren't mad?" I asked in a confused voice. "No, not at all. I don't want to push you into anything you aren't ready for." He replied. "So if you aren't ready for marriage, then we will wait until you are ready." He added. A knock interrupted our moment, and Alex poked his head through the now slightly open door. "Kev, we're waiting for you and Dustin at the circle." He announced. "We're coming." Kevin said standing and pulling me along with him. "Ready to go pray?" he asked. "Lets go." I cheered. The three of us walked to the area backstage where the rest of the guys, several technicians, and several more people who were with the crew stood around in a giant prayer circle. Brian led the prayer. All too soon the prayer ended and everyone scrambled away, going back to their jobs, while the guys all got together and prepared for their show. Kevin came up and gave me a big hug. "I love you." He whispered into my ear. "I love you too." I said holding him tight. This could be your final heartbreak I could show you what the love takes Never say good-bye, never make you cry Yea, this could be your final heartbreak Jessica ended her song, which in turn ended her set. Her dancers took a bow, and then the band members rose, bowed and exited from the stage leaving only Jessica standing at the center. She bowed and sighed into the mike. "Woah, you're a great crowd tonight!" She exclaimed. "Well thank you for your support, and now here is the group you have all been waiting for." Jessica said. She paused momentarily to hype the crowd even more. If that were possible. "Here they are...The Backstreet Boys!" She screamed into her mike. She ran of the stage and the lights dimmed. The opening chords of `Larger Than Life' came blaring through the speakers and soon AJ screamed starting out the song. Brian came from the darkened stage and began to sing his part of the first verse. I may run and hide When your screamin' my name, alright Nick came and stood next to Brian as he sang his part But let me tell you now There are prices to fame, alright AJ joined the two and sang All of our time spent in flashes of light Kevin and Howie joined in on the chorus and the guys began part of their choreographed dance moves. All you people can't you see, can't you see How your love's affecting our reality Every time we're down You can make it right And that makes you larger than life Nick took the next verse and sang while moving about the stage Looking at the crowd And I see your body sway, c'mon Brian took over the next part of the verse and moved to the right side of the stage Wishin' I could thank you in a different way, c'mon AJ jumped in and re-vamped the next part. `Cause all of your time spent keeps us alive The guys all moved together and resumed their dancing as they sang the chorus. Larger Than Life ended and the lights dimmed. The stage was now dark. Show me the meaning of being lonely One by one five spotlights lit up revealing one of the Backstreet Boys in dark clothing sitting atop of a stool at the center of the stage. Brian lifted his mike and began to sing the solemn song. So many words for the broken heart It's hard to see in a crimson love So hard to breathe Walk with me, and maybe Brian slowly lowered his mike, as AJ raised his and began to sing his verse. Nights of light so soon become Wild and free I can feel the sun Your every wish will be done They tell me... Nick, Brian, Howie, and Kevin all lifted their mikes and joined AJ in the chorus. Shoe me the meaning of being lonely Is this the feeling I need to walk with Tell me why I can't be there where you are There's something missing in my heart All of the guys except for my Kev lowered their mike. Kevin smiled out at the crowd slightly. This was a sad song, and he didn't want to ruin the atmosphere the guys were trying to keep as an illusion. He looked over at me in the wings of the stage before he began singing. Life goes on as it never ends Eyes of stone observe the trends They never say forever gaze Kevin's voice was phased out as Nick's phased in and sang the next part. Guilty roads to an endless love There's no control Are you with me now Your every wish will be done They tell me Show me the meaning of being lonely Is this the feeling I need to walk with Tell me why I can't be there where you are There's something missing in my heart Howie kept his mike up as he had to sing his part. Every time he sang this part, he tensed. He still thought about Caroline everyday, and sometimes forgot she was no longer here. There's nowhere to run I have no place to go Surrender my heart, body, and soul How can it be you're asking me to feel The things you never show You are missing in my heart Tell me why I can't be there where you are Show me the meaning of being lonely Is this the feeling I need to walk with Tell me why I can't be there where you are There's something missing in my heart The sad, and somewhat depressing song on some levels ended and the guys livened things back up by performing We've Got It Goin' On, Quit Playin' Games With My Heart, and ending that part of the concert with I'll Never Break Your Heart. The guys had a quick costume change and were back on stage singing Don't Wanna Lose You Now, Back to Your Heart, and Spanish Eyes. They changed costumes again and sang All I Have To Give, The One and The Perfect Fan. The stage was dark, but soon a familiar song was coming from the speakers. It was the sound of a guitar being played. "Well people this is our last song, so we decided to end this night with the song from our new album that was the first single." Howie informed the crowd. "We hope you enjoy it." Nick said before beginning to sing his part. You are my fire The one desire Believe when I say I want it that way Brian sang strongly. But we are two worlds apart Can't reach to your heart When you say That I want it that way The remaining guys all came together at the center of the stage and joined Nick on the chorus. Tell me why Ain't nothin' but a heartache Tell me why Ain't nothin' but a mistake Tell me why I never wanna hear you say I want it that way AJ stepped into the middle of the group and sang his solo verse. Am I your fire Your one desire Yes I know it's too late But I want it that way Tell me why Ain't nothin' but a heartache Tell me why Ain't nothin' but a mistake Tell me why I never wanna hear you say I want it that way My lover stepped to where AJ had previously stood and smiled out to the crowd once again. This was his time to shine for their fans, and he enjoyed it. Now I can see that we've fallen apart >From the way that it used to be, yeah No matter the distance I want you to know That deep down inside of me You are my fire The one desire You are, you are, you are, you are Don't wanna here you say Ain't nothing but a heartache Ain't nothing buy a mistake I wanna hear you say I never wanna hear you say I want it that way Tell me why Ain't nothin' but a heartache Tell me why Ain't nothin' but a mistake Tell me why I never wanna hear you say I want it that way Tell me why Ain't nothin' but a heartache Ain't nothin' but a mistake Tell me why I never wanna hear you say I want it that way Cuz I want it that way. The song ended and the concert ended. Another successful, but tiresome night. I was escorted back to the bus as soon as the song ended, while the guys remained on stage to bow. The guys soon came aboard the bus and we were off to the next city. "Good job guys." I commented as we all sat in the back lounge. "Thanks Dustin." Brian said with a smile. I glanced over to my right to see Alex glaring at Brian, and Brian had a `what did I do' look on his face. I turned away from the two and looked up at my lover. His head was resting peacefully on my shoulder and his arm was around my waist as we sat and watched the television. "I'm so tired. Wanna go to bed?" he asked yawning. "Ya, I'm pretty worn out too." I agreed. "I'd like to know how you could be worn out. You weren't on stage dancing and singing for 2 hours." He joked. "I had a busy day. It wore me out." I smiled. "Well time to get some rest." He said. He motioned for me to crawl into the bunk first and he followed. He scooted up close behind me and pulled the blanket over our two bodies and tried to snuggle closer to me. "Ugh, your all sweaty!" I groaned as he wrapped around me tightly. "You know you love it." Kevin said erotically before he licked my ear. "Hush now. Let's just sleep." Kevin ordered. "Fine by me." I agreed as I shut my eyes. "Goodnight Kev. I love you." I whispered. "I love you too D." he whispered before falling into a deep sleep. Kevin & Dustin Part 43 By: NM The bus came to a rolling stop outside of our next hotel. We all slowly walked out of the bus following the new P.R. who had arrived with Jessica, after the fortunate departure of Michael. Jessica, the guys, and I sat in the couches in the lobby while the new P.R. guy checked us in. After 10 more minutes he returned and gave us the keys to our rooms. "So which of these cuties am I gonna room with Scott?" Jessica asked the older man. "None. You have your own room Ms. Simpson at the other end of the hall." He replied. "Oh man." She frowned in a joking manner. "Anyway Jessica I don't think Nick would like you rooming with another guy." I reminded her. "Oh, that's true." She agreed. We all took the elevator to our floor and went into our rooms. A bellhop delivered our luggage a few minutes after our arrival. "Thank you." Kevin said walking the bellhop out of our room. "Your welcome Mr. Richardson." He replied. Kevin shut the door as he left, and walked back and sat down next to me. "What do you want to do now?" he asked as he laid his head on my shoulder. "I think that sleep sounds like a good idea." I replied. "Sounds good to me. Even though we slept on the bus." Kevin agreed. We got up and stripped off our clothes as we walked over to the bed. We pulled the covers back and crawled in. I scooted against Kevin and had him spoon me. We soon fell asleep. I woke up to an empty bed. I sat up and looked around the room. There was no one else present. I stood and walked over to the dresser. I pulled out a pair of shorts and grabbed one of Kevin's t-shirts. I walked to the door and opened it, and walked over to AJ's room. There was no answer. I then tried Howie's room, but it was still empty. Nick's room was empty and Brian's room was like everyone else's...empty. "Where the hell is everybody?" I asked out loud. I started walking down the hall to Jessica's room. I knocked on the door. I got no response and started walking down the hall when the door opened and there stood someone I didn't know. "Can I help you?" The tall, extremely muscular man asked. "I'm looking for Jessica or the Backstreet Boys." I replied. "I'm sorry, they're busy at the moment, but I will tell them you stopped by. If you are coming to the show tonight maybe I can get you backstage and you can get their autograph." He said with an annoyed tone. "Nick, who is it?" I heard a female voice from inside the room. "Just a fan." He replied. I heard movement and another person approached the door. "Hey Dustin." Jessica said moving Nick out of the doorway. "You know him Jess?" The man I knew now as Nick asked with surprise. "Ya, he's on the tour with the guys." She replied. "Oh...oh my...God...I am so sorry." He began to apologize. "Its all right. Don't worry about it." I replied accepting his apology. "I'm Nick Lachey. Jessica's boyfriend." He introduced himself. "Dustin Richards. Friend of the Backstreet Boys." I said. I wasn't to sure if Kevin wanted him to know or not, of if he had already told him, so I decided not to say anything. "Everyone is in here. I got the biggest room, cause after all...a girl's gotta have her space." She joked. "Very true." I agreed entering her room. "Dustin's awake." Jessica announced to everyone in the room. I noticed that all the guys were here, as well as Scott, the new P.R. and Marcus, Tom, Marc, and Mike, their new security staff. "Hey Dustin." The guys greeted me. I took notice that there were no empty seats near Kevin since he was in a chair, and the only empty space was between Brian and Nick. That is not where I want to sit, so I started to sit on the floor. "Dustin, you can sit here. No one is." Brian motioned for the empty space between he and Nick. I looked around and Kevin wasn't really paying attention to the situation, but I looked over to Alex and of course there was a hint of anger on his face. After all, he knew about Brian's intentions, and what he wanted, where as Kevin did not. "Um, thanks." I said hesitantly while took the seat between Nick and Brian. "So did you get a good night sleep?" Brian asked looking over at me. "Uhmm...yes." I choked while answering. `Why is he doing this' I looked over at Alex. "I don't know D." Alex mouthed. It was as if he was reading my thoughts and knew what I was thinking. "Dustin, we went ahead and ordered you something for breakfast." AJ said in a raspy tone. "Thanks AJ." I replied. "Not feeling well?" I questioned. "I'll be all right. My vocal chords are a little sore though." He replied. "Well I hope they feel better in time for the show tonight." I said. "Ya, me too." He agreed. After a few more minutes of small talk, the room service arrived, being pushed on two carts. We all grabbed our plates and the guys began to deepen their discussion to business areas, so I moved over by Jessica and Nick, but they were too involved with themselves to notice me. I glanced around the room. The security staff were scattered around. One guy was at the door. I think he is Marc. Marcus and Tom were standing close to the guys, while Mike had moved outside to keep the halls clear of fans after I had arrived. I finished up eating and placed my plate back on the cart to be taken down later. I turned around and looked around the room everyone was involved in some type of conversation, where I didn't belong. I stepped over to the door and opened it, with a somewhat sad expression on my face. I was really beginning to feel useless here. I opened the door and headed down the hall back to our room. "Dustin, are you all right?" I heard a voice. I slowly turned around. It was Mike. He had been the guy who made sure I didn't have trouble backstage with local security, and Kevin had left me in his hands so to speak while he was onstage. Mike was a very nice guy. He may seem real tough, but deep down he has a big heart. "Yea Mike. I'm all right." I replied. "You don't look all right. Did you and Kevin have a fight or something?" He asked worriedly. "You sure do worry about me a lot." I joked. "Hey. You're a very important person to my employers...especially a certain one. And as much as I hate to admit it...you're growing on me kid." He joked with a playful punch on my shoulder. "Ya, I'm fine. But thanks for asking." I replied. "All right kid, I'm here if you need me." He said before walking back to his post. I turned around and walked through the door into my room. The sun was shining through the window and I could see the dust particles floating through the air. I moved across the room and sat down slowly on the bed. I pulled the pillow up into my lap and curled up against it. The pillow still had Kevin's scent on it, so I inhaled deeply imagining it was him I was curling up against. I was startled from my daydream by a knock at the door. I removed the pillow from my lap and placed it down on the bed and stood up. I stretched and walked over to the door. "Hi." He said. "Hi yourself." I replied. "Are you mad at me?" he asked with a small frown. "Because if you are I apologize for whatever I may have done to upset you." He said empathetically. "No, not really." I replied. "I just don't know how to act around you anymore." I said letting my guard down. "Can I come inside?" he asked. "Sure." I said opening the door completely and allowing him to enter. "Dustin we need to talk about whats going on between us." He said. "Brian, I don't know whats going on between us." I confessed. "Well I think I do." He said. "We are two people, who have just been in our first real serious relationships, and I am no longer in mine, because I learned that Nick wasn't the one I truly loved." He said. "I know something is happening between us. Something `has' already happened between us." Brian said. He exhaled slowly and moved around behind me. "Maybe something that shouldn't have." He said quietly. "I think you're right." I agreed in a whisper. "But we both know there is something between us other than friendship, right?" He asked for a confirmation. I was hesitant at first to give him an answer, but I slowly nodded my head yes in response. "So," he said wrapping his arms around my waist from behind, "now that we know how each of us feels." He paused. "Perhaps we should not be afraid to explore those feelings." He whispered into my ear. "Maybe we should be afraid." I said turning to face him while still in his embrace. I felt a tear trickle down my face. "I try so hard not too, but I cant." I whimpered. "I love Kevin, but then there's you." I gasped. "And I don't know who I feel for more." I said through my tears. "Shh...Dustin, everything will be all right." Brian said trying to soothe me. His hands ran across my right hand gently, while his left arm was still around my waist. I was clutching him to me tightly not wanting to let go. "Brian..." I began to speak. "Dustin..." He said at the same time. "Go ahead." I said quietly. "I want to kiss you." He whispered. "I think I want that too." I confessed. He gazed into my eyes and then as if some unspoken voice cued us, we began to move our heads closer together until our lips were touching gently. The kiss was sweet, and unlike the other I had previously shared with Brian. The previous kiss between the two of us was more forceful and aggressive this one was gentle. I then realized that I was enjoying this kiss more than I had the others. In fact I hadn't really enjoyed them at all, purely because I was cheating on Kevin, but at this moment all I could think about was Brian. The kiss intensified and we began walking towards the bed. I pushed Brian down onto the bed and crawled up on top of him and continued the kiss that had begun our treacherous deeds. My treacherous deed to my friend and fiance, and his to his cousin. I felt his hands going down my back and groping my covered ass. My hands were running all over his body as I moved and began to kiss and suck on Brian's neck. Brian became more risky, and placed his hands inside my pants and began to gently massage my ass. His fingers were playing on virgin territory to anyone else except Kevin but I didn't care, at that moment I wanted Brian. After a few minutes I looked up from his neck, satisfied with the hickey I had created. I ran my hands down his chest and under his shirt and lifted it over his head. I massaged the muscles in his pecs while we continued our onslaught of kissing. All of the sudden, I began to smell a familiar smell. All of the sudden flashes in my mind of Kevin, and the two of us together. Some of the images were just of us having fun others were more intimate and that's when it clicked inside my head. `This isn't my fiance. This is not Kevin.' My conscious finally got through to me. "Oh god." I whispered out loud as I sat up. "What, what babe, whats wrong?" Brian asked in a panicked voice as he sat up beside me. "This!" I said motioning to the two of us. "This is wrong." I said. I removed his hand from my shoulder and stood up from the bed. "I have to go." I said slipping on a pair of shoes. I grabbed my wallet and ran out of the room. Kevin & Dustin Part 44 By: NM I ran and ran. I ran down the hall all the way to the stairwell on our floor and began running up the steps skipping two or three at a time. I ran all the way to the top of the roof. I reached the top and forced open the door. A rush of cold air hit me and caused me to shiver. I walked over the threshold and felt the wind blowing across my body. I walked slowly over to the edge of the building and looked down. I could see the people walking around on the street and the cars driving on the streets. Everything seemed to be moving in a slow motion. I saw images, things from my past flash in my mind. "Are you ok," said a strong deep male voice. "ya," I said my head still on my knees. "Well you don't look alright. Come on," the man said. "Where are we going?" I asked perplexed. "To sit down over at that table, and then your gonna tell me why you were crouched in between buildings starting to cry." "But I don't even know you," I said seriously. "I'm Kevin, and you are?" he said politely. "I have something for you. Its a graduation present you could say. But I wanted to give it to you alone," he said looking into my eyes. "You didn't have to get me anything," I told him. "I wanted to," he told me. Kevin got down on one knee, and began to speak. "Listen Dustin, I've known since I first saw you almost a year ago that I wanted to spend my life with you. I can only hope that you feel the same way about me. So I guess what I'm asking you is that if someday would you marry me," Kevin asked looking up into my eyes with nothing but hope. "I know what I have to do." I said quietly to myself. I stepped a little closer to the edge and looked down. "Dustin." I heard a voice from behind me. I turned my head around slowly and looked at the person who had found me. "Dustin, what are you doing?" he asked in a panicked tone. "I don't know anymore." I said breaking down. "I'm just so confused about everything." I whimpered. "Please step back from the edge, you're scaring me." He pleaded. I slowly stepped away from the edge and moved closer to him. "Please help me, I don't know whats going on anymore." I pleaded. "I'll help in any way that I can." He replied. I fell to the ground and lost it. I was crying heavily now, and was incoherent to everything around me. The last thing I remember was feeling two arms wrap around me and pull me into a tight embrace and tell me over and over that everything would be all right. Kevin & Dustin Part 45 By: NM When I woke up there was no light coming through the window and the room was completely dark. I looked around and noticed that the layout of this room was different. I sensed a presence in the room with me so I carefully turned around and peered into the dark room. I heard someone moving across the room heading over to the balcony. I saw the drapes being pulled back allowing the moon to cast an errie glow through the room. I saw my savior step slowly into the light. The moon glistened off his face and reflected off the earrings in his ears. "Dustin, what were you doing up on the roof?" He asked sitting down next to me on the bed. "I don't want to talk about it." I said. "Well I do, and you owe it to me to let me know whats going on." He demanded. "I was with Brian." I confessed. "After I left breakfast I came back to my room. Brian came in a few minutes later, we talked...then he said he wanted to kiss me." I said starting to lose it again. "And I said I did too...and we did." I said starting to have trouble breathing. I felt two hands on me, one was rubbing up and down my back trying to help calm me down, while the other was gripping and holding my hand tight. "Go on, you can tell me." He urged. "Well we kissed, and everything started to get real intense. I eventually came to my senses and realized he wasn't Kevin, and bolted. I headed for the roof. And then you found me." I said explaining everything that had happened. "God, Alex what am I going to do." I said crying on his shoulder. "Oh my God, what does Kevin think happened, does he know, please tell me you didn't tell him, I need to tell him." I said starting to freak out again. "I didn't tell him, and neither did Brian." He said calming me down. "He said he went to his room and was leaving when he saw you running down the hall. He came to us and said that and we all went looking for you." Alex explained. "Where's Kevin?" I asked. "He must be worried sick." "He is very worried, but right now I don't think you should see him." Alex advised me. "Alex, please I need to see him." I begged. "All right, but I want you to stay here tonight." Alex ordered. "While Kevin, is in here, I'm going to go straighten Brian out once and for all." Alex said rising from the bed. "No Alex!" I screamed. "No, I've got to do that. If I don't, then all of this will still haunt me. I have to tell him no and never again." I said. "Please?" "All right. I'll go get Kevin, and I'll be right outside, all right?" he said. "Ok." I said. I stood from the bed and stretched. "Alex?" I said softly. "Yes?" he said turning around. I walked slowly toward him and wrapped my arms around him. "Thank you." I whispered. "For everything." I said kissing him on his cheek in a gesture of friendship. "Your welcome D." he said ending the hug and heading to the door. I saw a figure pacing outside the door when he opened it, but Alex closed it so quick I didn't get to see who it was. After a few minutes the door opened and I was pulled against a familiar body into a strong and affectionate hug. I felt a pair of lips connect with mine and help relax me. After a minute, I pulled back and looked at him. "Kevin..." "What were you thinking?" he asked in a worried yet angered tone as he approached me. "I don't know." I replied quietly. "What do you mean you don't know?" he yelled. "Dustin, AJ found you on the roof. He said you were standing right next to the edge with a lost look on your face." He said trying to keep himself together. "Please, just tell me what happened?" He asked more in a more quiet tone, but still demanding. "I just want to know why you thought that that would solve all your problems. You know you can always come to me." He spoke while sitting down next to me on the bed. "Sweetheart....please....tell me what happened?" he begged. "Kevin, I need more time. Please just give me that." I pleaded. "All right. I'll give you 2 days, then I want an explanation." He said. "Thank you Kevin." I said softly. "Come here." He motioned. I scooted closer and felt his arms wrap around me and hold me close to him. It took every ounce of strength I had not to break down once again and cry in front of him. I know if I did, it would only cause him to make me tell him now, and that is something I wanted to avoid at this moment. "Come on its late, lets go to bed." He said starting to pull me up with him. I slowly pulled my hand out of his, and at that moment it took all I had left to keep it together. "Whats wrong?" He asked confused by my actions. "Kev, I think I want to stay here tonight." I whispered. His face showed shock, "Why?" "I just need to sort everything out, and I want Alex to help me do it." I told the truth. "Well come back to our room, and I will help you sort everything out." Kevin suggested. "Kev, please, I need time, and I'm going to tell you all of this later, I promise...but right now I need to talk it over with Alex." I explained in a whisper. "Fine," Kevin gave in, "Do you want me to bring you anything from our room?" he asked. "No, I'll come get what I need later." I replied. "Ok." He said dejectedly. "Kev...I..." "Don't, all right. You need space," he paused, "So, I'll give it to you." He said walking backwards. "I'll see you whenever I see you Dustin." He said opening the door and walking out shutting it past him. As soon as the door was shut the tears started to flow down my face. The door opened again, and Alex walked over the threshold and shut it once again. As soon as the door clicked shut I lost it. Alex was by my side in a second holding me and slowly rocking me against his chest whispering that everything would be all right, and it would all work out. "Alex, what if it doesn't work out?" I asked through my tears. "I have to tell him everything in 2 days. What if he hates me after it?" I questioned. "I don't think he could ever hate you Dustin." He whispered. "And I think you know that too." He added. "But..." "Sshh...no buts." He said quietly. "Just get some sleep." He said helping me into bed. He pulled the covers around me and I saw him walk across the room and shut off the light. I could see motion moving across the room to the couch where Alex sat and slowly went to sleep. To Be Continued??? Send all comments to author_nm@yahoo.com I hope you have enjoyed this new installment of Kevin & Dustin. I know I had a wonderful time writing it. Is Alex more involved than we realize? So, will Kevin find out whats really going on? Will Dustin confront Brian once and for all? I guess you will just have to wait and find out.