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"It appears that our little Howie has a huge crush on someone" I said. "A certain someone from a rival group. A certain someone that will be on tour in a week or so. A certain blond haired boy singer"
"Really. Has a thing for Justin does he?" Kevin asked.
"Wrong. That was my guess to. But, it's Lance." Kevin looked at me oddly. "I know. Caught me off guard too. He wants to tell him but he's scared. So, I told him that I would scope things out and let him know what I think." I said, wrapping my arms around Kevin.
"You're a good person you know. You're sweet." Kevin said and leaned up to kiss my blushing face..
We went to bed somewhat early because the guys had an autograph signing and a concert to do the next day. It would be my first real day at work. I was so excited that I barely slept at all.
We got up early the next day and had breakfast.
The guys and I got whisked to an autograph signing.
I did some taping there and walked around and interviewed some of the people waiting in line. It was mostly screaming teenage girls. Not my cup of tea, let me tell you. But, hey, they made my man popular, so it's all good. I made sure to interview the guys that were standing out there in line. I knew that I could never stick any of the gay men in the video, but it would be fun when we watch this later and see the expressions of the bsboys when some guy was screaming their name and saying how much they loved them. Except Kevin, I'll cut the ones about him out. I'm the only one that can tell him that I love him. If I ever was able to tell him.
After the signing was over, we were ushered into the limo and then went back to the hotel for some much needed rest. We all made small talk on the way back to the hotel. Kevin had a strange look on his face. I'd have to quiz him about it when we're alone.
"I'll show you guys some of the stuff that I taped after the show. Some of it's really good." I said, as we stepped off the elevator at our floor.
"Lots of screaming girls and stuff." I added.
"Woohoo. Just what I want." Kevin laughed.
"I knew you were bi." I said as I laughed and ran away from him.
"Hey. That's not true. Girls are icky" he said chasing after me.
Everyone scattered to their rooms to rest up before they had to perform tonight.
"So, tell me something" I said as we lay on the bed together. "Why did you have that goofy look on your face in the limo?"
"I guess that I was a little bit jealous. You were off talking to those men and I guess that I got a little bit paranoid. Not that I think that you'd ever do anything with them, but I was still a bit jealous. Call me silly, I know." he said.
"Awww. That's sweet. But, I was talking to them so that I could get them shouting about how much they wanted to get into all of your pants. I figured that I could freak the guys out a little, hehehe." I said, rolling over and placing my head onto his chest. He pulled me in tight to hug me.
"Trust me. You have nothing to worry about. No one holds a candle to you." I added.
He leaned down and kissed me on the forehead.
"I have another question dear. What are we gonna do when the guys from Nsync get here? Do I have to totally avoid any contact with you or are we gonna tell them ?" I asked.
"Good question. How about we feel out the situation and play it by ear? I don't think that they'll have a problem with it. Although, I haven't been around them in such a long time that I'm sure they've changed some. " Kevin said.
"Now. Shhhh. I need to rest some. I think you do too. We have a big show ahead of us tonight. There's gonna be a huge crowd there." he said, grabbing me in tighter. We fell asleep quickly, only to be woken up by the horrible ringing of the phone.
A grumble came out of Kevin as he reached for the phone. "This better be good." he said into the phone.
"It's time to get up Kevin. We have to be at the arena in an hour."
"But, Brian, we just got to sleep." Kevin said into the phone.
"It's been 2 and a half hours Kevin. Now get up!" Brian said, and I could hear him laughing.
"Ok. Ok. We'll be ready." Kevin said as he hung up the phone.
He nudged me. "Time to get up sweety"
"Don't wanna" I said, grabbing on to him and pulling him in tighter.
"But we have to. You don't want to miss your first concert do you ?" he asked me.
"If I had the choice of taping you sing and lying here with you. I'd pick this." I mumbled, my face buried in his chest.
"Me too sweety. But, we have to get UP" as he said this he yanked all the covers off the bed, laughing.
"I call dibs on the shower" he said as he kissed me on the forehead and ran to the bathroom.
Before I had a chance to protest, I heard the door close and the water running.
"Pshah. Like that's gonna deter me." I said to myself.
I slowly got up from the bed. I'm always groggy after a nap. I wandered to the bathroom and opened the door. Kevin was leaning against the counter, naked, waiting for me.
"Geez. You move like an old man. And I was beginning to think that I was gonna have to shower all alone." he said as he started to undress me.
"But, we only have time to shower. That's all. No funny business." I said to him.
"Did I mention that I get crabby after a short nap?" I said once we had stepped under the showerhead.
"No, but then that's what makes dating fun : getting to know everything about the other person."
Kevin washed my body and I washed him. It was sensual without being sexual.
We met the others about an hour later and once again climbed into the limo and headed for the arena.
I was getting more and more excited as we approached the arena. I could see the mobs of girls (and a sprinkling of guys) already waiting to get in and there was still a couple of hours left before the show even started.
"Ok. I'm getting geeked now. This is gonna be the first time that I actually get to see you guys sing live. I doubt that I'll get any good footage out of this one. I'll be too busy watching."
"Once you see a couple of shows, you'll get tired of hearing and watching us. Well, except for Kevin I bet." Nick smirked.
I blushed and nodded. "It'll be a long time, if ever, that I get tired of seeing him."
Kevin leaned over and kissed me. I knew that this was all the affection that I was going to get until we were back at the hotel tonight, so I savored the kiss. Apparently we had kissed longer than I thought because A.J. was snapping his fingers at us to get us to stop. "Hey. You two love birds. Snap out of it. I'm getting ill."
Kevin broke out of the kiss, turned his head and said, "Sorry. It's just that I won't be able to do that all night and I have to get the good stuff in while I can." True to form, I blushed.
"Finally, we're here." I said, trying to recover some semblance of dignity as the limo pulled up to the gate.
We all got out and the guys went their way and I had to go mine. I went and grabbed my gear and started to wander around the arena to get my bearings. I had the riggers set up some stationary cameras in the rafters. I wanted to get periodic shots of the arena as the people started to fill in.
I got some stage shots as the crew was finishing the set.
The first couple of shows were mostly gonna be me walking around with a camera taking video and snapshot images.
Later, I'd make sure to have some running cameras mounted onto the set so that I could just sit back and control them from the booth.
Being the goof that I am, I had to wander to the front row and sit in the very center seat. I just wanted to see what it was like to look up at the stage from the front row.
"You know. I can get you those tickets any time you want." Kevin said sneaking up from behind me.
"Ahhhh. Shouldn't you be getting into costume or exercising your voice or something? Instead of scaring the crap out of me?" I said quickly.
"In all due time. I came to give you something." he said, handing me a badge.
"But, I already have a backstage badge. What's this ?" I asked him looking at it.
"It's a pass to get into the dressing room. We've had to start handing these out too after we found some fans in our dressing rooms a few months back. You can't get in there without it. That and I wanted to tell you that I hope you enjoy the concert. I have a special reason to sing tonight, my baby's watching," he said, kissing me on the cheek.
"Kevin, we need you back in wardrobe." came over the loud speakers.
"Guess that's my cue to exit. Bye bye until later darlin'" he said as he headed toward the backstage area.
"Have a great concert honey." I said, still sitting in my chair. I started to stare at the stage again.
I heard people start coming in, so I went and took my place backstage and filmed little bits and pieces of the crew. I wanted to get all aspects of the boys' concerts. And, after all, without them, it's just the guys singing on a bare stage.
The concert started as the opening group went on stage to a thunderous screaming. I have never heard such a noise in all my life. I winced a little. Noticing this, a stage hand walked up and handed me some ear plugs.
"You'll need these. It gets kind of deafening sometimes. They cut out most of the noise, but you can still hear people near you." he said to me.
"Thanks. I was beginning to wonder how you all did this time after time." I said, putting in my plugs. "Ahh..much better." The roar of the crowd went from deafening to tolerable.
As the opening band finished, I knew it would be time for them to come out soon.
I steadied my camera and they appeared on the stage. Well, appeared is a bad term. They flew onto the stage as 'Larger Than Life' started. A.J.'s laugh was barely heard over the screaming. The guys landed on stage and finished the rest of the song. I swear the crowd never stopped screaming. I made sure that I was always within eye contact of him and we smiled at each other constantly. The guys made sure they smiled at me once or twice too. I was touched. I couldn't believe what a great concert they put on. They were great.
They started to move through the rest of the album and one or two old songs and finally came to the song that I was dreading hearing. Well, not the whole song, just a certain part of it. Hearing Kevin's words in 'I Want It That Way' was no easy task for me. I couldn't even look at him when he sang it. He sings about him and another that have 'fallen apart from the way that it used to be.' For some reason, I just couldn't watch him, or even film during those lines.
Three encores later, the concert was finally over and I'm sure the guys were exhausted.
I wandered back to the dressing room and showed my pass to the incredible hulk that was guarding the door.
I walked in and closed the door behind me. The guys were all sitting around drenched with sweat, wiping themselves with towels.
"Oh my God. That was amazing. You guys put on one hell of a show." I said, sitting down beside Kevin.
"Thanks. Glad that you liked it." Brian said, wiping his forehead.
"I got some great footage too. So, I'm assuming you guys are gonna get showered and all. So, I'll just wander around a bit. Come get me when you're all ready." I said, getting up.
"Just a second mister. Can I talk to you for a minute?" Kevin said, getting up and walking to the door with me.
"I always have time for you honey", I said, kissing his cheek.
We walked toward the stage and took a seat in the middle to get out of the way of the crew.
"You don't like that song do you ?" he asked me once we had sat down.
"Which one ?" I asked him.
"I saw you looking at me during every song but one. And I think it's because of what I sing. Trust me dear. It's not anything to worry about." he said, running his hands up and down my back.
"Was I that obvious?" I asked him.
"Uh, yeah. Every time I looked over at you, you were smiling at me, I looked over during 'I Want It That Way' and you had your face down and didn't look at me again until it was over. Those are words in a song. And only words" he replied.
"I know. It's a bit silly of me. But, I can't bear the thought of you feeling that way about me" I said, looking toward the floor.
"I love you sweety. Always remember that." he said, pulling my face up to look me in the eye.
He was expecting a 'ditto' from me I guess, because I caught him off guard with my next statement, "I love you too Kevin."
"I guess that I always have. I was just afraid of saying it. Something bad seems to happen once I let myself say those words. But, I wanted you to know how I feel." I said, staring into those green eyes.
"You've made me the happiest that I have ever been. I..I'm not sure what to say. I mean, I imagined what it would be like to hear you say those words to me, but I just...." he didn't finish his sentence. Instead, he pulled me into a hug. I could feel him crying.
"Boo. Come on. Don't cry. You're gonna make me start too." I said, rubbing his back.
"Sorry, it's just that I'm at a loss for words and I just needed to do something. They're tears of happiness you know." he said to me as we started to get up.
"I know. I know. Now, let's get you showered. You stink." I said, pushing him toward the dressing room.
The rest of the guys were showered and waiting for us to get back.
"Sorry, we were talking guys. I'll just be a few minutes." Kevin said he headed toward the shower.
"Josh, is something wrong? Kevin looked like he was crying." Brian asked.
"He was crying." I replied.
"Did something happen? Are you two alright?" Nick said.
"I told him something. Something he wasn't expecting is all. But everything is fine between us. Thanks for your concern though." I said, pulling Nick into a hug.
They all stared at me, waiting for me to continue.
"What?" I questioned them.
"Well, what did you tell him ?" It was A.J.'s turn this time. God these guys never let up sometimes. I laughed to myself.
"I told him...I told him..." I turned to see Kevin emerge from the bathroom fully dressed.
"He told me that he loves me. God you guys are nosy." Kevin said..
"Aw. That's sooooo sweet." Howie said.
"Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Let's roll. I need some sleep" I said, getting up and opening the door.
We rode back to the hotel in relative silence. Everyone was nodding off. Kevin had his head in my lap and I was running my hand through his hair.
Stumbling up to our rooms, we all yawned a good night and headed to bed.
The guys from Nsync arrived the next day and the guys all went to lunch with them. It was a business meeting, so my presence wasn't needed, as one of their managers put it when Kevin asked if I could come along.
"I'll be fine. I'll order some room service. Don't worry about it." I said, kissing him.
I ate lunch, reviewed some footage that I took at the concert and got a little nap in by the time that they returned.
I was still asleep when Kevin came in and curled up beside me.
"Mmmm. Back so soon sweety ?" I asked him, half waking up.
"It's been over 3 hours, sleepy head. Have you laid here all afternoon ?" he asked me, snuggling up close.
"No. I ate and looked at some stuff from last night and just laid down to rest a little." I replied.
"Well, the guys from Nsync are all coming here in like 30 minutes. The 10 of us are gonna have a get to know you meeting. Some of us know one or 2 from each band, but we felt that we needed to really know each other being that we're gonna be on tour and all. And management highly suggested it too. Besides, I want them to meet you," he said, poking me in the side.
I started to laugh a little. "Stop that."
We soon heard a knock at the door. Kevin got up to get it and I headed to the bathroom to get rid of the 'bed head' look that I am sure that I had.
I walked into the room and everyone stopped to look at me.
"Um, guys, I'd like you to meet Josh. He's doing the stuff for our new video. Josh, this is Lance, Chris, Joey, Justin and J.C."
I shook hands with them all and we exchanged hellos.
We all sat around talking for a little while and Kevin suggested that we play a game.
"How about truth or dare ?" I asked. "That's a good get to know you game."
"Ok. Any rules y'all want to have?" I asked.
"Um...no nudity please." Justin said.
"No one wants to see your naked ass anyway Just", Joey laughed.
"Hey, I have a cute butt thank you" Justin said, defending himself.
We all laughed at that comment.
"Ok. That's one rule. Any others ?" I asked looking around at the group. No one said anything more.
"No? Well, I have one. Barring nudity, anything dared has to be done. And, if it involves another person, they have to cooperate too. Deal?" I asked the guys. They all nodded and agreed. I looked at Howie and smirked. He looked at me in an odd, panicked way.
"Since it was my suggestion, I get to go first. Hmmm...let's see.....Kevin. Truth or Dare ?" I said, turning to face him.
"Truth. I'm scared of you." he laughed.
"Fine. Chicken." I thought for a moment and came up with a good one, hoping to catch him off guard a little.
"Kevin. Are you dating anyone and what's her name?" I asked him, grinning from ear to ear.
He got the funniest, shocked look on his face and I could hear chuckles coming from the bsb guys. I wanted to see mister smooth get himself out of this one.
"I can't believe that he just asked me that. Fine. He wants to play. I'll play" Kevin thought to himself.
"Well, I am dating yes. But, I'm not sure for how much longer. I'm thinking about ending it. It's getting a little stale and old." Kevin responded with a dead pan, serious look on his face.
My jaw dropped. A.J. and Howie busted up. Brian looked at Kevin the same way I was looking at him. Nick just smiled, knowing that Kevin was joking.
J.C. looked at A.J. and Howie and said, "Guys. I think that we're missing something. Fess up. What's so funny?"
I looked at Kevin. My eyes said, Well, you gonna tell them ?
"Ok. Well, since this is an ice breaker session, I suppose that this is as good a break as any. Umm..Josh here was playing with me. You see... Well...It's like this...I don't really have a girlfriend. But, I'm not single either." Kevin explained.
"Oh Geez. Tell them already." Howie said.
"I'm getting there. I'm getting there." Kevin answered.
"Well, guys, it's just that....." Kevin hesitated for a minute. The Nsync guys looked at him a little strangely, not getting why it was taking him so long to explain.
"Josh and Kevin are dating." A.J. interrupted. "God. Was that so hard?"
"I hope that it doesn't bother you guys. We're pretty good at not doing anything that would embarrass anyone or make them uncomfortable." I said, looking at them.
"Nah. We're all good with it. We've had to deal with it already ourselves. But, then, that's a truth or dare question to find out who." J.C. smiled and laughed.
The game had gone on for a couple of hours. I had been subtely watching Lance the whole time, like I told Howie that I would. No bells or whistles went off. So, I decided it was time to take matters into my own hand.
So far there weren't many dares and I had just answered a truth question so it was my turn to go.
"Howie, truth or dare? And please say dare, I'm getting bored with all this truth." I pleaded with him.
"Ok. Dare." Howie said.
"Sucker." I said, as I got an evil look on my face.
"Uh oh. Be nice to me Josh. Remember, no nudity." Howie said, waving a finger at me.
" I remember that rule. But, does everyone remember mine?" I asked. They all nodded.
"Fine. Howie, I want you to French kiss Lance." I said, smiling at Howie.
I kept staring at Howie, but out of the corner of my eye, I see everyone's heads moving from me to Howie to Lance and back to me.
No one said anything. They all just waited to see what Howie would do.
Howie's eyes got wide and he finally said, "I cannot believe that you just dared me to do that."
I finally glanced over at Lance and he was blushing and looking at the floor.
"I can't embarrass Lance like that. Make me do something else." Howie said.
"Ummm." Lance spoke up and everyone looked at him. "A rule's a rule." he said, looking Howie in the eye.
Kevin grabbed my hand and I turned and smiled at him. He gave me the 'you're evil' look and smirked.
"Are you sure? You don't have to do this." Howie said, looking back at Lance.
It was Chris' turn to speak up. "We all think he does have to do it. So, get with the smooching so we can continue on with this game."
Howie got up and walked over to where Lance was sitting and pulled him up off the floor.
They both just stared at each other for a minute.
Howie said, "Are you sure that you wanna do this? I mean, it's just a ga...." Lance grabbed Howie's face and pulled him into a kiss. Not just a quick kiss. It was a full out, neck grabbing, eyes closed, tongue swapping kiss.
After a couple of minutes of kissing, and some howling and hooting by the rest of us, they finally parted.
"Does that answer your question?" Lance asked Howie, smiling.
"Um. Yeah. I guess...I just...Wow..I...uh..yeah....Damn..." Howie was babbling. We all started laughing at him.
"Guess that answers who you guys had to deal with being gay in your group" Kevin said and they all nodded at him.
Lance sat down and pulled a dazed looking Howie down with him.
End of Chapter 10.
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