Date: Mon, 20 Dec 1999 13:27:27 EST From: Hanhm16@aol.com Subject: Lances Love Disclaimer: If you are not at least 18 or of legal age to view sexualcontent please leave now. If you are offended by homosexual experiences or acts this story is not for you. I am not implying that anyone of the group N'SYNC are gay or Bi sexual. This is strictly fictional, all of the characters are also fictional and for the entertainment of you, the readers.Let's Get It On ......... Lances Love part 10 "Please don't cry for me. I really don't deserve that. I am no one special." I said as I scooted over towards him and gave him a hug. I pulled back and wiped the tears away from his face. "That's the pr oblem you are some one very special to me. I love you and I am not saying that just to make you feel better I do. I don't want to leave you. I just want to stay in your arms forever." Lance said as he hugged me tighter than he ever has. I leaned f orward to kiss the love of my life. I wanted to stay with him forever but I knew it wouldn't last, and couldn't last. His lips tasted so sweet. I love him so much. Why must all of this happen all of a sudden. I must forgot about the future and think about right now. I pulled away from the kiss and grabbed his hand. I slowly led him to the bedroom. Lance shut and locked the door behind him. He then gave me a devilish look and took his shirt off. We met again with a kiss. That one kiss could have stopped all time and it did for me. We stood there and just kissed nothing more but yet the kiss was more. So much more than any kiss I have ever had. Lances mind swelled with all that has happened in the past couple of days. Why must all this be happening. Relationships are hard enough without adding the fact that I am in love with a guy. But yet he isn't just a guy he is my guy. I wish that I could just stop the whole music business without pissing the guys off. All that matters right now is that I am with him. I am about to lose my virginity to him but can all this work. Oh hell who cares I want him so bad. Lance lost his train of thought at that moment. All he could think about is how much he wanted to go all the way. It just so happens that I was the one he wanted to go all the way with. Finally Lance broke the kiss. The first thing he did was take my shirt off. Then he pushes me on to the bed and pounces on top of me. Then he sat on top of me and flashed me one of those smiles of his that just make me melt. I wanted him but I also wanted to take it slow. Lance's hands felt so cold but comforting as they ran up and down my chest. They stopped when they reached the button of my pants. He looked into my eyes as if he was asking my permission, as I would say no. I nodded and he continued to undress me till I was in my boxers. "That's not fair you have on more clothes than I do." I said with a smirk on my face when he took his pants off. "Better" "Much, much better now come here." I leaned up and grabbed him by the waist. I kissed his stomach then I stood to kiss those soft lips of his. We eventually fell back to the bed. Lance finally got the courage to let his hands roam. First my smooth chest. On to my stomach, back, legs, and finally my round ass. He massaged my ass and pulled me closer to him. My cock had been hard for some time now but to feel his rubbing on mine was simply orgasmic. It took all I had to hold back my love fluid. I had to though due to the fact this was his first time with a guy or anyone for that matter. I just want this to last and never end. "Chris" "Yeah baby, what's wrong" "I am scared, is it gonna hurt." "OH well yes it does at first, but you're not ready for that. Lets just lay here in each others arms." "But I do want to I am just scared." "Listen baby if you are sca red then you are not ready so we can wait a little longer to go all the way. I can wait trust me I can wait. I will wait for you as long as it takes." I said as I laid my head on his chest and fell asleep. He is so good to me. Waiting till I am ready. This is what love is. The true meaning of love is right here in my arms. Lance thought to himself as he finally fell asleep. A dream, it was only a dream but it seemed so real. I have never had a dream seem so real. Lance was leaving me and told me never to talk to him again. Depression seeped in and I couldn't control myself. I tried to call his cell and the number was changed. I wrote and I got a court order in the mail ordering me to stop harrassing Mr. Bass. Depression set in more than ever. I locked myself in the house for a month till all my bills were due. I had to get a new job but I couldn't be happy. I tried to start my life over but nothing was the same. I didn't talk to anyone or do anything. I sat and stared at pictures of the two of us together. I never dated anyone else because I knew he was my soulmate and we were destined to be together. Maybe he was regretting it too. Regretting the fact that he treated me so horrible and was sincerely sorry and wanted me back. I decided to write him one more time. And it read as follows: Dear Lance, I just had to write this one last time. I still don't understand how after two months of us being in heavenly bliss that you could never want to see me again. We are destined for each other don't you understand that. It has been two years since you left me. I loved you then and I love you now even more than ever. I also need you even more than ever. Lance I beg you to please come back to me. Make me happy again. Please I miss you. Sincerely, Christopher Well I didn't hear from him but from his lawer. Lance was pressing charges for stalking and harrassment. During the trial he wasn't even there. I got sentenced to two years of jail. Everyday I thought of him day in and day out. I finally got out and went to a new apartment and stayed there for three months. I didn't eat all I did was sleep and cry. I died after those three months. I had a very beautiful funeral. My whole family was there. All my friends who I ingnored and wouldn't let get close to me were even there. And to my shock so was Lance. He stood still and quite. I didn't understand that someone who claimed to love me those few years ago didn't seem to care. when everyone started to cry he stood there laughing at them. He spit on my coffin and walked off laughing. And then I woke up with the sun to him in my arms and finally realized that it was all just a really bad dream. He was still in my arms happy, I was happy. I decided to get up and make a good breakfast for everyone. I slowly got up and did it with out disturbing my baby. I went in the kitchen and started to fix a great breakfast. I started with some coffee. I made french toast, eggs, grits, toast, cream of wheat, bacon, sausage, and fresh OJ. Slowly the smell woke everyone up with growling stomachs. I set the table and everyone found there way there. The food didn't last long. Jamie and Nicole went home to get some clothes and take care of some things. Erin had to go as well. So it left Heather with all the guys. We decided to go and do a little shopping. When everyone got to the Cordova mall. They really didn't need any disguises because it was a Monday and well school was in session. We all split up JC and Justin went on there way. Me and Lance were inseperable. Heather, Chris, and Joey went off together. I wanted to get some new clothes because I really wanted to take the guys out dancing. I always went and bought new clothes when I felt like I needed to. I really wanted to look good for my baby. So we went to Gadzooks. I ended up picking out a skin tight shirt to show off my chest which I am very proud of. I really didn't see any pants that would really work with the shirt so we went on I way to do more shopping. We ened up at JW's where I found the perfect pair of pants. The outfit was all black but it made me look good. I wanted to have some fun so Spencers was the next stop. Spencers is a huge novelty store that is funny and enjoyable to look around. "Hey baby wanna try this out tonight." I said as I held up a ten inch neon blue vibrator. "That is coming no where near me. Besides the only thing I want in me is you." Lance said blushing a little. "That's true you might breakup with me for the dildo anyway." I said as I placed it back on the shelf. "Let me look at it again." "No way I will be so much better than it could ever be." "We will see." Lance said as he grabbed my ass. "Baby what about people seeing us and you doing that sort of stuff. I mean aren't you at all worried." "I love you and I really don't care what anyone says about it." "I love you to baby." While in Spencers we ran into Heather and the guys. We all decided to go and get a snack. while in the food court we saw Justin and JC sitting down and eating. We joined them and enjoyed some good food. "Have ya'll enjoyed yourselves," I asked everyone as they just sat there looking at each other. "I have had a blast" Heather says while sipping on her Mountain Dew. "Got some new CD's so I am happy." JC said with a smile. "They don't have anything vinyl here." Chris said disappointedly. "Unlike you these people aren't in the Stone Age." Justin said right before he busted out into laughter. He wasn't alone we all couldn't help ourselves it was funny. "Hey everybody how about a movie." I said as I noticed the theatre across from us. "Sure what does everyone want to see." Joey said. "I wanna see Sleepy Hollow. I won't get as scared with my man with me so I want to go see it while I can." Lance said grabbing my hand and giving it a little squeeze. "Sounds good to me" Justin said. The movie was great. The theatre was empty except for about four or five other people. When we went to the car I realized that school was out and had been for about forty- five minutes. We reached the doors to go outside when we heard it. "OH MY GOD!!!!! IT'S N'SYNC." At the sound of that we started a mad dash to the car. We all jumped in and started the engine as fast as we could and drove off. I thought that it was extremely funny. They didn't and expressed there thoughts about me at that particular moment. Well we finally got home and everyone was really tired and ready for a nap. Me and Lance walk into our room to find Jamie crying in our bed. TBC......................... I am so sorry that it took me so long to write this other chapter. It was a combination of moving, work, computer problems, and writers block. But there are some people who kept urging me to continue and I did. This is to all those people that emailed me to continue Lances Love. Email me your thoughts about my story at Hanhm16@aol.com. LEE