Date: Tue, 07 Nov 2000 19:13:08 CET From: Silver Subject: The Lonely One Hi everyone. I hope you will enjoy this story. This is my first one and please let me know what you think. Disclaimer: If you are not at least 18 or of legal age to view sexual content please leave now. If you are offended by homosexual experiences or acts this story is not for you. This story is pure fiction. I don't know if anyone in *Nsync is gay or bisexual. All the charachters in the story except for the celebrities are fiction and none existing. *The European Music Awards* -"I can't believe that we're actually here!" She screamed to me. -"Well, we won't have to struggle to get a good spot because we have our seats." I said to her. -"You're the best! You know that right? She said and then kissed me." -"Happy birthday honey! You're worth it." -"I love you, Martin!" -"I love you too, Jennifer!" She smiled and blushed a bit. I gave her a quick kiss on her forehead and pushed back her long, blond hair from her face. My god! I thought. I am the luckiest guy alive. This beatiful honey loves me of all the guys in the world. We started out as friends and after around one year of close friendship we discovered our feelings. -"They're starting to let people in now. Come on! If we get in early then can we sit down and watch all the celebreties when they're taking their seats." She said with a smile. -"Okej. Let's go then!" I grabbed her hand as I said that and we started to follow the flow inside. Once we got to our seats we saw no celebrities. But then they wouldn't be there early. They show up just in time. We sat there chatting about different things and soon was everybody inside. Then, just in time, arrived one celebrity after another. Then did *Nsync arrive. Jennifer nearly fainted when she saw that they where heading our way. They entered our row and walked past us and sat at the five seats between the path on the other side and our seats. Lance sat next to me. Jennifer whispered that she would kill me for that. I just smiled to her and whispered that I'm saving her from embarrassing herself. She tried to punch me and I flinched and hit Lance's arm with my elbow. -"I'm really sorry! I am!" I said as I turned around to him. "Please forgive me. I didn't mean anything." -"It's alright. It didn't hurt." He said to me and looked at me with those green eyes of his. For an instant, our eyes met and it was an incredible feeling. It was like he looked deeper into me, trying to get a glimpse of my soul. He smiled to me and turned his face away, looking down into his lap. I turned to face Jennifer and she just laughed. I whispered to her that it wasn't funny but this only made her laugh even more than before. We sat there watching everyone until the show started. I heard that all the other guys in *Nsync were chatting with each other but not Lance. He was dead quiet. I dared myself to look what he was doing and he just stared at thin air. Justin who sat next to Lance on his left side punched him slightly on his arm to get his attention. He had to punch him two more times before he snapped out of his trance. -"Hey, whaz up?" Said Justin to him. -"Nothing really. Has the show begun yet?" -"Nope, but you was staring at nothing. Are you shure everything is alright?" -"Pretty shure. I'm just going to buy a soda. Do you guys want anything?" Only JC wanted one so he went to the shop and bought two cokes. He arrived soon and took the other path so he only had to walk past his bandmates. He gave JC his coke and went to his own seat. He sat there for a while before opening his coke. The coke burst like an exploding vulcano. Both me, Lance and Justin was totally sprayed with coke now. -"What the f...!" started justin but was cut off by Lances Apologies. -"I'm so sorry. I don't know why it burst. I'm sorry." He said. I just looked at myself. Lucky I wore all black. -"I'm truly sorry. Please don't believe I was trying to get back on you." He turned and said to me. -"I'm okay. I forgive you. I just need to visit the restroom now." With that said I turned and looked at Jennifer who was laughing her head off. I told her that I was heading for the restroom to wash off the coke. She just nodded in between her laughs. Behind me both Lance and Justin rose to and followed me. We got there and started to wash ourselves. Lance apologized again to us. I said it was okay but Justin said nothing. Probably pissed off by Lance's action. Justin was done first and headed back. He didn't get as much as I and Lance did. -"Did I destroy any of your clothes? I can and will replace them for you if I did." He said to me. -"No. Luckily you didn't. But I guess I was the biggest victim here." I said as I turned to face him. He was leaning against the sink, whiping the last coke off his arms as he watched me. He had that smile again. I couldn't help but smile back and blush too. He walked the few meters between us and whiped some coke off my left cheek wich I had missed. -"Wouldn't want to walk out with that there." He said to me. -"Definetly not." I said to him. -"Let me help you." He started to whipe off some from my neck and my shirt. I just stood there, not knowing what to do. He cleaned up my shirt and then went down to whipe my legs off. I tried to say that I could do the cleaning myself but didn't get it out. He put his left hand on my thigh to prevent himself from falling backwards. He rose to his feet once he was done and his face almost brushed mine. He stepped back a bit and looked at me. -"I believe you're clean now." He said after a while. -"Thank you so much. You didn't have to do it." I said to him. -"No big deal. You didn't mind I did it?" -"Not at all." -"You smell good." He said and smiled even wider. -"Huh?" -"I said I think you smell good. What fragnance? Boss?" -"Yes. Thank you." I said and snapped out of my trance. I had been staring at him. And he had been staring at me. I looked away and into the mirror. He cleaned me and held his hand on my thigh. he stared at me and said that I smell good. What was he doing? What was i doing? -"I think we should get back to our seats now." I said. -"I guess you're right." He said and looked in the mirror himself. We stared at each others eyes in the mirror. I was the first to start and walk out of the restroom. Lance followed me right after. I wondered what that had happened. I finally reached my seat and sat down. Jennifer asked me why it took so long. I just said that it was hard to clean up but that it was done now. She startet to giggle. -"Don't start that again!" I said to her. -"Sorry. It's just so funny." -"No, it's not! How would you feel in my shoes?" -"I would feel great. I wouldn't have washed my clothes though." -"You're sick!" I said as I gave her a small kiss on her cheek. I started to think about earlier, when Lance put his hand on my thigh. What a feeling! It was like fire. That burning sensation who shot through my body. It wasn't like when I kiss Jennifer. I just feel content doing that. What was this? Love? Madness? I looked at Lance. He just sat there in silence like before. Staring off into empty space. What was he thinking off? Was he also thinking about what happened in the restroom? How did he felt when he put his hand on me? Why did he clean me? Did he felt guilty? Do I feel guilty? I am in love with Jennifer and here I sit and think about a guy!? -"Honey? Martin!" She raised her voice. -"Huh? What?" I answered. -"I'm just going to the ladiesroom." -"Okay. I'll be here." She rose and left. I looked at Lance and he looked at me. He smiled and turned his head away. Why is he always doing that? The other *Nsync guys have been talking to each other all the time and Lance had just been quiet. Lanced leaned a little towards me and for a second I thought that he wanted to whisper something to me. He only reached for something in his pocket. What a dissapointment. It was an empty piece of paper and a pen. He wrote something down and turned towards me. He offered me his right hand and I took it. -"We haven't introduced ourselves." He said. "I'm James Bass." -"I'm Martin Silver and it's a pleasure to meet you" I said. -"The same" While shaking my hand, he slipped the piece of paper to me. I took it and carefully read it. I put the note in my pocket and smiled at him. He was already smiling. Suddenly started everyone to scream as the host walked out and greeted the audience. jennifer came running now and was soon seated next to me. -"Missed anything?" She asked me. -"You didn't miss anything." I replied. I gave her a quick kiss on the cheek. -"Stop that! Watch the show instead!" She screamed to me. Everyone was screaming by now and it was loud in there. I didn't really pay much attention to the show because my mind wandered off towards Lance. What was this I was feeling? Was I having feelings for a man? And even worse, I am together with Jennifer. I love her. Jennifer she's beatiful but Lance is just perfect. Jennifer always bring out the good sides in me, she always makes me laugh. But Lance makes me feel... What does he make me feel? When he touched me it was like I caught fire. It's an amazing feeling really. I wonder what he felt? The show went on and we all sat there watching. *Nsync got their award and they thanked all the fans and so on. Everyone screamed when they returned to their seats. Lance asked me then if we wanted to attend their afterparty. We accepted it and Jennifer never got quiet that evening. We took a cab and followed their Limo to the hotel where they were staying. We all were guided into the hotels party hall. I and Jennifer took some drinks and danced for a while. I saw Lance talking some and dancing some. He looked my way many times. I had to go to the bathroom and jennifer went to talk to some people. Probably to just get some autographs from the famous people. When I got inside the bathroom I noticed that it was empty. I did what I had to do and went over to the sinks to wash my hands when someone entered the room. I didn't see who it was until he was standing behind and I was able to see him in the mirror. Lance had a huge smile on his face. I turned around to face him. -"Hi Martin." He said. -"Hi." I said. -"Are you enjoying yourself?" -"Yea. Nice party." -"Thanks. I haven't had the pleasure to dance with you yet." -"Me?" I said a little shocked. -"Yea, you." -"Well..." I started but was cut off by him. -"Listen, they're playing a slow one now." He started walking to the door as he said that. He locked it and came over to me again. He smiled even more now than before. He wrapped his arms around my waist and my lower back. He looked at me with those big, green eyes. I wrapped my arms around is upper body and smiled to him. He rested his head on my right shoulder and leaned it against my head. I rested my head against his and we started to move with the music. Soon completely lost in the rythme. Lost in each other. It was amazing. He felt so warm. He was so gentle. I was in heaven. This felt so right. The sudden urge to kiss him filled my body. When the last chorus began he stopped and looked right into my eyes. Just like earlier this evening. Trying one more time to find my soul. He raised his hands along my body and put them on my shoulders. He put his right hand behind my head and pulled me in for a kiss. I leaned my head forward to meet his lips. It was like electricity when they met. His tounge licked my lips and I opened them to let him in. Every secund turned into an hour. It was like the world stopped rotating. He held one hand on my neck and one on my butt. I held mine around his waist, caressing his lower back. When the song was over, someone tried to open the door and we broke our kiss. We stared at each other, smiling. -"Please, Martin. Be there." He said to me. -"I will." I said. -"I will wait for you." -"I promise you, I'll be there" He gave me a quick kiss on the cheek and walked towards the door. He unlocked it and let justin in. He ran to the nearest booth. I walked out before he saw me there too. I never saw Lance anymore that evening. Jennifer had collected around twenty autographs and had danced with JC. It was like she was on fire. The rest of the night went by and I and Jennifer took a cab to our hotel around four in the morning. We went straight to bed. Completely exhausted as we were we fell asleep in no time. ____________________________ Thanks for reading my story and I hope you liked it. I will begin writing the next chapter very soon. I know how the story will be written and I have a clue about how I want it to develop but I still need your help. Send me your thoughts and ideas and I will try and use them. So email me at martin_silver83@hotmail.com and share your thoughts. See ya!