Date: Tue, 24 Feb 2004 18:37:40 EST From: Capricorn77Dude@aol.com Subject: My Night With Howie D.:Free From Within Hello Nifty Land! Its Cj and I am bringing you the spin off of My Night With Howie D. I know its been awhile and some people are probably wondering why I came back with a spin off when I ended the story so long ago. Well, to be honest, I thought the story was finished myself. I was so busy that when I tried to write I couldn't. My ideas were gone and I wrapped it. Finished right? Nope. Sometimes you write something that takes a life of its own. This is what happened. My characters started to haunt me. I would dream of them. A whole new story came to light and I wrote it as it came to me. I filed it away with all my other ideas and thought that was it. But then I started getting emails from people reading My Night for the first time, wondering if there was more. Who am I to disappoint? So I hope you enjoy this as much as I did writing it. Please let me know what you think, good or bad. Oh yeah and... Disclaimer: This story is fiction and is not intended to imply anything about the true sexuality of the celebrities mentioned or any personal knowledge about their private lives. Free From Within: Part 1 _____________________________________ January 2000 The honeymoon suite at the Hawaiian Hilton. The French doors are ajar and the sheer curtains float on the wind. Howie and me are entwined with each other upon the king size bed. After a long night of celebratory sex we had drifted off in each others arms. I started to murmur in my sleep. "I do...I do.....I do..." Howie wakes up and lifts his head to look at me. I am still asleep with a huge smile on my face and repeating "I do". Howie just takes this moment to look at his husband. He strokes the side of my cheek. Then he notices the morning light glinting off his wedding band and he smiles. "You do what?" he asks. I jerk awake and look disoriented until I see Howie's smiling face looking down at me. "Huh?" I ask. "You were murmuring 'I Do' in your sleep you doof." Howie responds. "I think I was reliving the ceremony. Wow. You know, I still can't believe that we are married. Really married." "I know, when I woke up and saw you in my arms, in this room I thought maybe it was a dream until I looked down and saw my wedding band." Howie responded. I take Howie's hand in mine and admired both our bands. At this moment I felt connected to Howie on the deepest level. This caused two stirs of emotion, one in my heart when I think of spending my life with Howie, the other in my cock when I thought of Howie's body. Without a word I push back the sheet covering Howie's torso. Standing at full attention was that beautiful latino cock I had come to love. I wrapped my left hand around it and started to stroke it, while I began to suck on Howie's already erect nipples. Howie arched his back and sighed. Savoring the feel of my tongue and hand for a moment. Then he tried to reach over and touch me. I pull up and grab Howie's hands and put them above the pillow. "Just lay back babe, let me do the work." I say with a wicked smile. With that I go back to working on Howie's cock. I get it very lubricated with my saliva. Spying the bottle of lube out of the side of my eye I reach over for it and rubbed some onto Howie's cock with one hand and my ass with the other. Howie was enjoying the sensation of his cock being stroked and had thrown his head back, eyes closed when my hand left his cock. It was replaced a second later with the tightness that he had come to know as my ass. Opening his eyes he saw me lowering myself. Watching his cock disappear into his lover was awesome. Fully engulfed within me, I leaned into Howie and gave him a deep kiss while I started to ride his cock. I expertly rode up and down and swiveled my hips to give Howie the most intense ride of his life. I increased my speed and my cock started slapping against Howie's abs. Howie reached for it and squeezed some lube onto it so he could stroke it with ease. Our moans filled the suite as we both got closer to getting off. "Howie, I'm gonna cum!" I moaned. "Okay babe, I'm right with you." While I was riding Howie as hard as I could I gripped my cock and gave it one final stroke, it erupted in a shower of cum all over his stomach, some reaching his chin. While at the same time Howie grabbed me by the hips and pounded his cock deep into my ass and shot his load. We kept that position as we panted. I looked down at Howie and smiled. He leaned up and kissed me gently on the lips and pulled me closer and embraced me while we kissed. Then there was a knock on their door. "Who do you think it is?" I asked. "Either the guys or.the guys." "Should we......?" "Nah, let's ignore it." We went back to kissing and then the phone rang. Ignoring it and wanting to start round two, Howie grasped my deflating cock. After five rings and a pause the phone started up again. Sighing Howie reached over and picked it up. "Hello." he said brusquely. "Okay we know your in there getting' freaky, but we just wanted to remind you that we're all leaving in an hour. You know, in case you wanted to say goodbye to us." AJ said. "Oh, right, my family with you guys?" "Nah they sent me up to see if you guys would see us off. Craig's family too." "Okay tell everyone we will be down in a half hour." "So umm, I interrupted right?" AJ asked. "Why?" "Well, you could hear you guys.um.you know..hehe" AJ giggled. "Alright, alright. Half hour." Howie said as he hung the phone up. He looked up at me with a smile. "Family and friends leave in an hour, think we can do it in the shower in time?" An hour later Howie and me stood surrounded by our loved ones waiting for the flight to be announced. I held a crying Dom in my arms and my mom searched through the diaper bag for the bottle. "I'm sorry Craig, I thought I had put it in here.Sel, do you have his bottle?" Debbie asked. "Yeah Mom, its right here." she said as she came over. I took the bottle and put in my son's mouth. Dom sucked hungrily on the bottle with a smile. Haoke and Paula came over with big smiles. "You look so cute with him!" Paula exclaimed. "May I?" she asked as she held her arms out to Dom. I nodded and handed Dom over. "Now remember, when you come to Orlando next week I want at least two days with my grandson." she said and she held the bottle for him. "Actually that would be great, I love baby boy but some downtime now and then is pretty cool still." I responded. "That is where the benefit of grandparents and aunts and uncles comes in." Haoke said with a smile. On the other side of the gate Howie was talking with my grandma. "I know you boys have a lot of traveling, but if you ever get the chance, come by Kansas City and give the old lady a ring." she said. "We are already planning to stop by on the trip from Orlando, Julaine." Howie said with a smile. "Flight 242 to Los Angeles is ready to board." With that all the family and friends started to congregate to the gate. Hugs and kisses exchanged. Promises to visit and calls to each other were also exchanged. Suddenly it was just Howie, me and Dom standing by the window waiting for the plane to take off. "Wow, notice when they are gone how much quieter it is?" I asked. Instead of answering Howie put his arm around my shoulders and kissed me. "We have a whole week now of just `us' time. Cause as soon as we get off this island its going to be competition for our attention from both sides. So lets enjoy just being the three of us." Howie said. "Sounds good." I said with a smile. We stood by the window and watched as the plane backed away from the terminal and started towards the runway. "Did I ever tell you about my worst nightmare?" I asked. "Worse than the one you had after you found out Jesse was positive?" "Worse." "No, I don't think so." Howie said and looked at me. "Since I was little, I was afraid of flying.you know that..but my biggest fear was that when my family was on a plane without me, that they would never come back." he said a held Dom tighter. "And just now that thought crossed my mind. All our family and friends are aboard that flight. If anything happened we would lose everyone we loved in one shot." Howie wrapped his arms around me and Dom. "Nothing is going to happen. And even if it did you have to remember that you wouldn't lose everyone. Dom and me are still here. We'll always be here." They stood like that, me holding Dom and Howie holding us both and watched our families plane take flight. "Okay?" Howie asked. "Okay." I said and smiled. "So lets get this honeymoon started!" "Sex? Again? Babe, not trying to be an old man or anything, but I'm getting sore!" "No! Not til tonight maybe. I meant, lets go have some fun." We headed back to the hotel. When we entered our room we found that all of mine and Dom's bags had been brought up. And the hotel had already set up Dom's bassinet and had also provided a changing table, stroller. While Howie phoned the desk and got taxi set up, I changed Dom's diaper and put him into a blue pair of overalls after lathering him with sun block. Howie and me changed as well. I changed into jean cargo shorts and white wife beater, with a light green short sleeved dress short. Howie in khaki cargo shorts and a colorful Hawaiian print shirt. "Looks good but let me fix something." I said. I unbuttoned Howie's shirt until only his navel was hidden. "Much better." I said with a smile. We gather up Dom's diaper bag and stroller and headed down the lobby. On our way down in the elevator an older couple got in. They stood on one side of the elevator holding hands and smiling at Dom. "How old?" the lady asked. "2 « months." Howie responded. "He's so adorable and quiet. Are you newlyweds?" the man asked. "Yes, just got married yesterday. I'm Craig and this is Howie. The little guy is Dominic" I said with a smile and squeezed Howie's hand. "I am Irene and this is Tom. This is our thirtieth anniversary. We got married here as well. We come back every year for our anniversary." she said and smiled at her husband. "Congratulations." we said. "You as well, enjoy yourselves." the man said. We all got off in the lobby and as the older couple went to the doors, we stopped at the desk. "We were wanting to see some of the sights. Can we get directions?" Howie asked. "Actually sir, your family set you up with the vacation package for this week. The car is waiting outside and you will be escorted all over the island." the concierge said. "Wow, thanks. " Howie said as he took the papers. They headed out to the door and found a black Ford Explorer and a familiar face waiting for them. "Joel!" I said. "Congratulation you two. Its mine and Uncle Jeff's gift to you. I am here to take you to all the beautiful locales that the island has to offer." Howie came over with Dom in one arm and the folded up stroller in another. "And this must be Dominic. My uncle told me he was cutie but not this cute! Okay, so lets get going!" he said and grabbed the stroller from Howie. He put the stroller in the back while we got into the backseat and found a car seat to put Dom in. Joel climbed in the driver seat and we were off. "Alright I know where all the sights are, you just tell me what your interested in and I will take you there." he said and looked at us in the mirror. "Well, what stuff would having Dom restrict us from doing?" I ask. "Nothing. If you want to surf, you can both do it and I'll sit on the beach with the little guy for you. Think of me as your driver and nanny." "Awesome, then lets do it all." Howie says. And do it all we did. Having our own tour guide/driver was cool. We experienced everything the island had to offer. We took the helicopter ride over the island. The most beautiful place I have ever seen. The volcano, lush tropical valleys, rain forest waterfalls and multi-hued beaches, so beautiful. We tried parasailing and surfing. I had minimal skill there, but Howie was a born natural. We took a kayak along the shore of Hilo Bay. Of course we spent a lot of time just at the beach getting some sun. I wanted to get a new tan line so I dropped modesty and tanned in a pair of briefs and judging by Howie's reaction that night, I think the new tan line is a good thing. Our last day there, we had Joel keep Dom for the day and we headed out to Waipio Valley on horseback. We had been told by our fellow honeymooners Irene and tom that the waterfalls were very..romantic. It had been a while since I had gone horseback, but its like a bike, you never forget. We had a blast racing each other through the valley and when we entered the greenery we rode close. Every now and then leaning over to kiss. After awhile we head the rushing of the waterfalls. We came upon the clearing and experienced the most beautiful sight. At least 30 stories high. And where the falls met the pool there were rainbows. "Look babe, its gay." Howie joked. We dismounted and the horses went to the waters edge to drink. We had taken off our shirts long ago and were sweaty at this point. We dropped out shorts and got in the water. Cool and refreshing, I dove deeper into. When I came up for air I saw Howie a few feet away from me with a smile. "What?" I asked. "I just found something that is really cool." he said as he paddled over to me. He came up to me and poked against me with his cock. I smiled as he put his arms around me and gave me a kiss. "C'mon." he said and took my hand. We paddled over to the waterfall and went through it. It was like a rainstorm, but once past it we were in a little cove just like Irene had told us. It was maybe five feet deep. Enough room to sit and well, you know. "What about the horses?" I asked. "They'll be fine. Right now I want to play with YOUR horse." I laughed. He boosted me up on the ledge and eyed my cock hungrily. I leaned back on my arms and he took me into his mouth and got me hard. He slowly worked my cock til it was rock hard and then gripped it in his fist and concentrated on just the head. He pulled off me long enough to boost himself onto the ledge and stood with his cock pointing at my mouth. "Suck my cock babe." Needing no more than that I grabbed his cock and swallowed him inch by inch. After a minute though, Howie pulled back. "What's wrong?" I asked. "Nothing, lets try something new. How about you rim me?" No hesitation I turned him around and he bent over exposing his ass to me. I spread his cheeks apart and saw his hole. I leaned forward and ran my tongue down the crack of his ass. When reached his hole he shuddered. "Right there." he moaned. I stuck my tongue out and licked around it. After a moment he started to push against me, trying to get my tongue into him. Not to disappoint I stuck my tongue in and started to move it around. He gasped and reached back to hold my head there. I kept this up for a few until he pushed me back. "Use this" he said. I looked at what he was offering me. A packet of lube. "You sure babe?" I asked. "Fuck me Craig..fuck me now." he said desperately. I took the lube and applied it to him. Working first one finger in and slowly another. By this time Howie was pushing against my hand. This boy was eager for some action. I stood and applied the lube to my cock and pulled Howie to me. I placed the head of my dick at his hole and slowly entered. He gasped and then pushed himself against me, my dick sinking in til his ass cheek were against my hips. I grabbed his hips and started to pump his ass with my cock. I leaned forward and licked his back. He was moaning and arching towards me. I kissed the back of his neck as his moans intensified. I reached around and felt his hard cock. I started stroking his in time to my thrusts. "Babe, can we move?" he moaned. Without a word I pulled out of him. He turned to me and laid upon his back. He raised his legs and offered me that tight hole again. " I want to see you when you come in me" he said. I got in between his legs and he placed my cock in his asshole. I pushed in and started to thrust again. This time looking into my husbands eyes. Seeing the pleasure on his face made me even hotter. I leaned forward and kissed him. "I'm gonna shoot." "Do it." he gasped. Unable to hold back I pushed forward and slammed my cock in his ass and felt it convulse as I came. Howie ass contracted on my cock, milking out my cum. Looking down I saw his cock shooting all over his stomach, while both hand we around my back. "uh.wow, I have never come without touching myself" he said with a smile. I kissed him again. "What made this happen?" I asked. "I have been topping you for the last year now, I wanted to see what made your eyes roll back in your head." "And?" I asked. "I like it. We are definitely doing this more often." he said with a smile. We lay there for a few more moments and then got back into the water to rinse off and swim back to the shore. As we broke through the falls we saw there was another couple there. "I see you two took our advice!" Irene said with a smile. "umm, yeah we thought we would check it out." I said with a red face. I looked at the two of them and then to where our clothes were. Then I look at Howie. We exchanged a look and nodded. We grabbed each others hand and walked out of the pool. Unbelievably the two of them actually stared at our nakedness. We got into our shorts and Howie grabbed towels out of our backpack. We dried off and when we turned to look Irene and Tom were wading across the pool to the waterfall. "Babe when we get old promise we will still be this sexual" Howie said from behind me. We got on our horses and rode back. That night being our last night in Hawaii was going to be a luau. We got back to the hotel where Joel had been watching Dom for us. We invited him to dinner with us. The four of went to the luau and had a blast. The food was excellent and the dancers were unbelievable. The way they moved. Very erotic. We said our goodbyes at the hotel. We got to the room around 11. Dom had been sleeping all day so it was a night where he wasn't going to sleep. And for some reason he was restless. I told Howie I would get the packing done and keep Dom occupied, as he seemed to be nodding off on the ride home. He kissed us both goodnight and headed off to bed. I sat in the sitting room of our suite with Dom for a little while. When I knew Howie would be asleep I went into the bedroom and started packing up our stuff. I am one of those people who cannot pack that morning so it has to be done the night before. As I finished I looked over at the bed and watched Howie sleeping. He was so beautiful and now he was all mine. This feeling went through me. Even after this whole week it was still new to think that it was true. We were truly together now. Then I heard Dom from the sitting room. He had started to cry. I went in and picked him up, it wasn't urgent cries, but crying nonetheless. I checked his diaper, knew he wasn't hungry, tried burping him. Nothing. I walked around the room with him and bounced him in my arms. Not wanting Howie to wake up I tried something I had never tried before. Sing. The first song that popped in my head. "Little surfer, little one, made my heart come all undone, do you love me, do you surfer boy, my little surfer boy.." Dom stopped crying and looked up at me. I rocked him in my arms and sang again. "Little surfer, little one, made my heart come all undone, do you love me, do you surfer boy, my little surfer boy.." I looked down and he was closing his eyes. Then he was out. Smiling to myself I turned to the bedroom and saw Howie standing there with a smile. "I was wondering how long it would take for you to realize that's how you put him to sleep." he whispered. "Now I know." We walked into the bedroom and I laid our little boy in his bassinet. He fussed for a moment, but when I rubbed his tummy he settled. Putting his blanket on him I felt Howie behind me. He embraced me from behind and leaned my head back and he kissed my neck. "Time for bed daddy." he whispered to me. "sounds good." We got into bed and I put my head on his chest. He put his arm around me and we fell asleep. The next morning we work up at 7am. Our flight was leaving at 9am so we got dressed, finished packing and got checked out. We got to the airport and checked in for our flight. Found out it was on time and we would be boarding at Gate 12. We checked our baggage and made our way to the gate. Howie with the diaper bag, me with Dom in his car seat. For an early flight the airport was pretty empty. We found our gate aside from some elderly people, find its just us. We sit down and I put Dom on the floor in front of us. Howie leans against me and yawns. "Tired?" I ask. "Yeah yesterday wore me out." he said with a smile. "Well you can sleep on the plane. Cause when we get to Orlando your gonna be busy." "I know. Packing the necessities to move to Tucson, seeing family and friends who didn't come to the wedding. Hey I just realized something.we can't exactly drive the `Vette cross country. Two seats and three of us." "Do you need to bring it to Tucson? I was actually thinking that we could get another car for you here..and maybe one for me there." I said with a smile. "I like that.cause the Mustang and the Vette really aren't family cars. What do you want to get?" "I'm not sure yet. We'll just have to shop!" I respond. "Flight 213 will now begin boarding at Gate 12" "That's us babe," Howie nudges me. We get out of our seats. He picks up the diaper bag and backpack and I grab Dom. Bonus to having a kid, you get to board the plane first! We check our tickets with the attendant. Once in the plane we settle into first class. I sit next the window, Howie on the aisle and Dom in between. Baby boy is sleeping peacefully as Howie and me hold hands and gaze at each other. "You okay?" he asks. "Yeah, I just wish we weren't leaving. This last week has been amazing. And once we get out of here the real worlds' going to come crashing back in." "I know. I hate that I go back on tour in two weeks. But lets not think about that right now. " he says. I smile as he leans over to kiss me. God, I love this guy. The captain informs us that we are ready to depart. The stewardess shows us how to put on our seatbelts and what to do if we crash. We get cleared for take off and are shortly airborne. I feel Howie's hand loosen and look over to see he has nodded off. My husband and my son look very peaceful sleeping. I think I will try to do the same, but find I can't. I keep opening my eyes and looking at the ocean below us. I think back to the last week and smile. I know its going to be a transition the next few months. We are going to go from being as close as we were this week to being apart for long lengths of time with Howie's touring. I mentally start cataloguing what I need to do. Settling in the new home, finding a nanny for Dom for when I wrap up `One of the Guys'. that's the thing about us Capricorns, we're organized and sometimes so bad we can even help it. By the time I have everything situated in my head the bell dings and I am informed that we are preparing for landing in Houston. I look up and see Howie is awake and strapping Dom in his seat. "He just finished eating. You ok? You were kinda out there for awhile?" he asks. "Yeah, I was just thinking of all the stuff I have planned." "Haha!" "What?" I ask. "You are so going to love the present I got for your birthday!" "That's right. My birthday is in a week." "Yup seven days to be exact. We should be back in Tucson the day before it." he said. The plane lands and we exit and head over to Gate 25 for our connecting flight to Orlando. Our flight will be boarding in an hour so we stay in the lounge. Paparazzi are everywhere and with Howie still in the closet and all we have to be careful. I realize that we got real careless in Hawaii with it. Hopefully nothing was going to come back and bite our asses. "Howie, I know you wanted to come out with me and I said no, but I was wondering." "If now that since we are married I would do it on my own? Well I want to. But lately Kevin has been getting a little weird. Before Christmas I brought it up and he said he would talk to management. I realize that the group is going to be affected by this, but its kinda pissing me off that I have to go through them and management before I can make a decision." "I'm sorry babe." I say and hold his hand. "Nothing to be sorry for. I got it handled. Don't worry." "Flight 369 to Orlando is ready for boarding." We boarded the flight and this time I slept til we landed. We got off the plane, I carried Dom and Howie walked beside us. We came out of the gate and saw Howie's parents awaiting us. While Paula gave us many hugs and kisses and took Dom, Haoke got our luggage . We all met up in the van and were heading to his parents house. Checking my watch I realized it was 9pm. Forgot about the time change. We pulled up to Howie's condo and went inside. Paula carried Dom who was awake and giggling at her. Haoke carried our bags into the front hall. "Now I want you to look at the nursery and tell me what you think." she said. We went up the stairs and went to what used to be the guest room. Howie opened the door and we saw Dom's Orlando nursery for the first time. The theme was Tigger. It was so cool. The crib was made of beautiful dark oak wood. The bureau and changing table were the same. A rocking chair of light oak was in the corner. There were pictures from the original Winnie the Pooh mixed with the current Disney ones. His bedding and mobile were Winnie the Pooh. A throw rug of Tigger was in the middle of the room. "Mom its beautiful." I said. "Thank you. I knew you would like it. I remembered you talking about a Tigger theme." "Hey this is our baby furniture isn't it?" Howie asked. "Yes mijo." Haoke said. "Babe, this was mine and my sibs furniture when we were babies." Howie said with pride. "That is awesome." I said with a smile. We checked out everything and Paula glowed that loved it. She reluctantly handed Dom over to me and they left for the evening. They would be back in the morning for Dom. Meanwhile the three of us settled in. I had been to the condo once before. It's cool. The bottom floor is an entry hall, living room, dining room, half bath and kitchen. The top floor has a guest room (now the nursery), bathroom, master bedroom and master bath. We put the bags in the room and went downstairs to watch a movie and unwind. While Howie was checking his messages the doorbell rang. I brought Dom with me to answer. I opened the door and found Aj, Brian and Nick on the doorstep. "We knew you were in so we thought we would come over and bug you!" Aj said. "Actually, AJ knew you were in and dragged us along so you wouldn't get mad at just him." Nick said with a smile. "And we brought movies with us." Brian said indicating the bag in his hands. "Oh! My nephew!" AJ said and busted in. I handed Dom over to AJ, who commenced to play "strange & goofy" uncle, and let Brian and Nick in. "So how was the honeymoon?" Brian asked,. "It was good, relaxing and a lot of fun." I said. "Did you guys surf?" Nick asked. "Oh yeah. And my husband here is really good." I said as Howie came over to join us. "Yeah, who do you think taught him?" Nick asked. "So what did you guys bring?" Howie asked. "Superstar, The Haunting and The Spy Who Shagged Me." Brian said. "Cool lets watch some movies." We all settled in the living room. Howie and me on the love seat. Nick and Brian sprawled over the couch and Aj laid on the floor with Dom. We watched Superstar first. During which AJ entertained Dom with his impressions and annoyed Nick. "Its just he always does this when we watch the movie!" Then we watched Austin Powers. Halfway through Dom fell asleep so I took him to his new nursery and laid him in his crib. "Good night baby boy. Daddy and me will just be a cry away." I whispered and kissed him. I turned on the baby monitor and grabbed the portable. In the hall I found AJ waiting for me. "So how goes it daddy?" "Awesome." I say with a smile. "I gotta tell you, I am very jealous. You found your prince. And have an adorable little baby. Please tell me that it will happen for me one day?" I give him a hug. "Someday your prince will come. Just have some patience ok?" We got back downstairs as Austin Powers ends. The Haunting gets popped in and we watch it. I love a good horror movie and the Haunting doesn't disappoint. Howie cringes and loves to be held during these. Which is why we cuddle on the love seat. I look over halfway through the movie and see Nick passed out on Brian. Brian starting to nod off and AJ passed out on the floor. Howie see's them and laughs. We finish the movie and as Howie sets the security system, I grab blankets from the closet and cover up the boys. Howie takes me hand and leads me upstairs. We check in on Dom and see he is peacefully sleeping. Then Howie guides me to the master bedroom. The king size bed is very inviting and as soon as the clothes are off we jump in. I put my arms around Howie as he spoons into me. "Your gonna hold me like this all night right babe?" he asks. "Movie scared you that much huh?" "Yeah mostly the fat bastard!" he says with a laugh. I hug him and close my eyes. My dreams are weird. The three movies intertwine into a trip from hell. I wake and see that its 6am. Howie is fast asleep, his long hair fanning the pillow. I get up and head to the bathroom for a piss and then to check on Dom. I walk to the nursery and stop just outside the door. AJ is in the rocking chair with Dom. "Your such a cute little man. You know you look just like your daddy and he is just about the cutest man there is. Besides me that is." I smile and head back to Howie. I know that Dom is in good hands. I get into bed and Howie turns in his sleep and embraces me. I fall asleep in his arms. We wake later in the afternoon to a note: Guys, You were sleeping so well, that we went ahead and took Dom to your parent's house. We'll be back later to help you pack. Brian We got up and showered. While I was getting dressed Howie was on the phone with his family and friends. It was decided that we would hang out with his friends tonight and his family tomorrow before we embarked on our road trip back to Arizona. As promised the guys showed up an hour later and we spent the afternoon boxing up clothes, CD's, books, photo albums, and artwork. The movers come and load it into a moving truck that will hopefully get to Tucson before us. We had decided to get a car and drive it to Kansas to see Grams for a day and then onto Arizona for my birthday. We finish packing up and The guys head back to Nick's to get ready and will meet us at the club. We shower again (only fooling around once!) and head to the club. I am nervous as I have never met Howie's friends (aside from the BSB). We get to Firecracker, cool dance club that Howie used to haunt in his single days I am told by AJ. The guys are waiting for us, minus Kevin who is in Kentucky. We enter and I am hit with the beating bass of latin music. Then immediately overwhelmed with Howie's friends. These are the people he has grown up with. They are all cool and nice. I get introduced to many but keep forgetting names. At some point we get separated and I just chill at a table with AJ and Brian. "So how Howie said anything to you about the tour?" Brian asked. "No why?" "Well, Kevin and him have been getting into it lately. We don't blame Howie. He just got married and then has to leave you for four months. It sucks." AJ said. "Yeah but its cool, we always work it out." I say. "Craig, we're supposed to go to Europe. It's a little different isn't it?" "Europe?" I ask. "He didn't tell you. Craig I am sure he was going to soon." Aj said. "Its cool guys, don't sweat it. I got a new house to settle, the show to wrap up. I know how it is. We don't have normal 9-5 jobs. Believe me its cool." But is it? I don't get a chance to ask. Howie is in his element. Its not that he's ignoring me, its just he hasn't seen these friends for a while and the music is hot and he is busting moves. We get home at 3am and Howie passes out. The next morning we wake up and need to head to his parents house for the party they are having for us. We get to his parents house and find many cars parked along the street. We go in and I am introduced to my new family. I love it. They are as close knit as my own and they welcome me with love. We receive more wedding gifts which Paula will take care of for us. Then its time for dinner. Always a big event. This family knows how to cook. Little bit of everything. Knowing we have to leave early in the morning Paula wraps things up early on. The last hour is mostly spent with the immediate family. Paula and Haoke love having Dom that I promise we will be visiting them often and that they are always welcome to visit us in Tucson. Howie's brother John brings us home from the party. When he drops us off Howie takes Dom up to the nursery and I go to the room to wait for him. He comes in all smiles and bounces on the bed next to me. "What's up babe?" he asks and he rubs my shoulders. "Mmmm, that feels good. " "Lay down and I'll go lower." he says. I stretch out onto the bed and he sits on my butt and starts rubbing my lower back. "Howie? When were you going to tell me about Europe?" I blurt out. He stops for a moment. Then starts up again in my shoulders. "I didn't want to tell you til after your birthday. Management came up with it." "Baby, you don't need to explain it to me. It's your job. I understand." I say. "It sucks, I was hoping that after the US tour we could have a chance to settle and be a family for a bit. Now after the US tour ends we go to Europe and after that we head into the studio to record the new album. That pretty much books me as busy for almost all year." He lays back and I lay next to him and stroke his hair. "But your not going to be locked in a studio. You can come home for visits. We can go see you. Hell even in Europe we can. I knew what your life was before I married you babe, I'm prepared." "But what if something happens to Dom? And I'm a million miles away? What kind of father does that make me?" he asks. "You'll still be the awesome father you are now." "Really, how's he going to know me if he never see's me?" And that's it. That's the focal point. "Your afraid our son isn't going to know you as well as me? Howie, don't sweat it baby." "Really, look at you Craig. You resented your father til recently because he wasn't around much during your childhood. How can you say Dom isn't going to feel the same?" "Because Howie. Your not going to let that happen. I know you. You love him as much as I do and you won't. " We laid there holding one another. I don't think I resolved anything for Howie, but I knew that we would make this work out. We woke early the next morning and packed our bags and threw them in the car. Got Dom all situated and took off. Road trips can be fun and then they can suck. The radio in our car was only radio and in between Florida and Kansas you hit the Bible Belt and get the fire and brimstone preaching. So the radio stayed off and we just talked and drove. Which I think was for the better. Howie got out a lot of his feelings and I reassured him the best I could. I knew in my heart that Howie was going to be there for Dom when he needed him but it was something he was going to have to see for himself and not something that I could just tell him. We stayed the night at a hotel and Howie spent the whole night up with Dom. I was driving the next day so he had me sleep. Dom had a cough and was fussy. As much as I hate to see my little guy suffer, I was glad in a way because Howie felt awesome taking care of him. I drove the next day and they slept. The only station I could find was an oldies station. So there I was jamming to the Bee-Gee's and Donna Summer while my guys slept. We got to my grandma's house that evening. And let me tell you, Kansas City in January is COLD, everything was white from all the snow they had been getting. We pulled up to her place. She lives in this little farmhouse. Its cute. Too small for me, but perfect for her. I had called her on the cell when we hit town so she was on the porch waiting for us. Howie grabbed Dom and I grabbed the bags and as we crossed the front yard it started to snow! We got onto the porch and Grams immediately took Dom and led us into the house. We walked in and settled on the couch. Grams already had hot tea waiting for us. We sat and chatted for a while. We told her about Hawaii and the fun we had and she updated us on her condition. She is trying an experimental drug that is actually helping her breathing. They have also stabilized her medications so that she is no longer retaining fluid. We had the fire going and I told them how the only music I could get on the radio was the oldies and that there was this song I had wanted to hear but it never came on. She asked me what it was and I told her if I heard it I would remember. She had me bring down the record player (cool little thing in this wood box) and the 45's. Next thing I know its midnight and we have been listening to the oldies all night. "You know that when Craig was a baby the only way he would go to sleep was if I held him and danced with him. Especially after he broke his leg." "What do you mean?" Howie asked. "When Craig was a year old he fell down the stairs and broke his leg. They put two casts on for balance. The poor thing couldn't walk and he would get so mad. And his leg would hurt him. So I would dance with him and sing to him and he would fall asleep like that." She shared some more anecdotes from my childhood and then said she was tired. She took Dom to her room to sleep and we took the guest room. "Babe, you okay?" Howie asked. "Yeah, she's doing good. But it just makes me sad to know that everytime could be my last." "I know. When Caroline was getting sick we would get scared too. There were ups and downs. You never knew if when you kissed her goodbye would be the last time. That's why we always spent the times together like they would be our last. That way if it ever happens you have nothing left to regret." See this is why I love this man. He held me in his arms and I slept like a baby. The next morning Grams made my favorite breakfast for us. And before we left she gave me my birthday present. The record player and the 45's. "Gram's you can't.!" "I want to. You appreciate the music just as much as I do. Besides, its not like I am giving you my whole collection. Just your favorite 45's. I want you to use them with Dom. You know, keep our tradition going." she said with a smile. "And I know you don't want to hear this talk, but when I go I am bequeathing you ALL my records." I just hug her then. No words can say what I feel and I would probably start bawling if I did use them. So we hold that moment. It took a day and a half to get from Kansas to Tucson. But we made it around 8pm the day before my birthday. Just hit the city limits. Called the family to tell them I was home and was told to go to my house. We pull up at our new home and its all lit up. I see my mom's Escalade, Scott's Yukon and dad's BMW. We park the car on the street and get Dom and the bags and head in. we walk in to the front entry and are greeted by my family. "Now put down your bags and let me give you the tour." my mom says as she hugs us both. "Your gonna love what we did." Sel says as she takes Dom. My dad and bro just smile and nod. I look around and see the entry hall is just the basic. On the wall with the door leading to the garage is a large print a Tucson sunset. Next to the stairs is A table with a vase of flowers with an oversized mirror behind. The family room is just off the hall and we go in to find my green leather couch, love seat and chair. The coffee table is a jade green marble base and smoked glass top (rounded with no corners). The artwork is Asian in style. Potted plants. A shelf with knick knacks keeping with the Asian theme. We go in to the kitchen from there. The kitchen looked awesome as it was. Butcher block in the middle with pots and pans hanging above it. One wall with the stove and ovens. The second wall where the pantry and more cabinets were. The third wall with the side by side sub zero refrigerator and door to the dining room. And where a fourth wall would be a giant marble counter that overlooked the living room. The cabinets were all light wood with white knobs. And the theme was teddy bears: cookie jar, spice rack, canisters, towels, pot holders. We looked into the dining room and saw a solid oak dining room table that seats ten. A china cabinet with the wedding dishes and assorted finery. Another china cabinet with wine glasses. We went through the entry next to the counter in the kitchen and walked into the living room. Overstuffed beige couches, love seat and two chairs. A huge light oak entertainment center which contained our 40 inch television, dvd/vcr, and stereo system. Another entertainment center which contained all our movies and CD's. Above the fireplace was the picture from the wedding with Howie, Dom and me. The other artwork in the room are Howie's from his condo. We went into the hall that had the half bath. This was done in basic black and white. Then we went down to the study which was Howie's office. All his albums and BSB stuff were on the walls. Huge oak desk in the middle. Filing cabinets with his real estate stuff in them. The inset shelves were filled with the pictures from his condo: his family, the guys, me and him, and of course Dom. Then we went to the library which was my "office". See I am a big book collector and I have a HUGE collection. The three walls were all shelves and my stuff filled two of them. On the other wall the shelves were filled with my pictures: my family, friends, Dom, Howie. My awards were there as well. In the middle was a desk similar to Howie's with my laptop. We went back to the entry way and climbed the stairs to the second floor. When you get to the top of the stairs it's a hall. The stairs are actually in the middle of it. Behind the stairs is the master suite, but my mom pushes us to look at the rooms first. On the left side there are three doors: Dom's nursery, a guest room and a bathroom. The right side has three doors: two guest rooms and the laundry room. We look in one of the guest rooms and see it contains a queen size bed and two bureau's. Mom explains that they all have the same furniture but each room is done in a different color. One has blue bedding, walls and art, the second green and the third purple. The bath is done in nautical. Sea shells holding the soap, towels and shower curtain. The art is all beach work. We check out Dom's nursery and its his Tigger stuff from home. His crib, changing table, dressers and rocking chair. Pooh artwork on the walls along with his birth announcement, footprints and family pics. This room is also of the two (besides the suite) rooms with its own bath. My mom did it in ducks. The toiletries and stick on prints, the shower curtain, and tons of rubber duckies in the tub. At least we reach the master suite and check it out. You enter into a sitting room that is done in comfy tones. Overstuffed chairs and a small couch. Then you enter the double doors into the bedroom. The focal point is the king size dark pine sleigh bed flanked by matching nightstands . Done up with a hunter green comforter with a million (actually seven) pillows. Two identical pine dressers are on each side of the door. Next to each dresser is a closet door to each of our walk ins. A pine armoire with a television and stereo faces the bed. Then the bath. Ah the bath. You walk in on your right is a long counter with two sinks and a huge mirrored cabinet running the length of it. On your right is a door that opens into the toilet and next to that is the shower stall. Dead center is the elevated Jacuzzi tub. On its counters are bubbles, salts, and fairies! Yes, we are gay, we have a fairy figurines around our tub. "Mom, this is awesome." Howie and I say together. "I hope you liked it. I went with what you said and kinda improvised on other things." she said blushing. Howie and I pulled her into a hug. Sel stood behind us with a giggling Dom. We went back downstairs to find Scott and Dad in the kitchen drinking beers and Beth setting the table. Once we all got seated Mom and Dad brought in the Italian take out and we all dug in. I sat on my side of the table looking around me at my family. Howie next me, holding Dom. Sel next to Howie. Mom at one end of the table, Dad at the other. Scott and Beth across from me with a twin in a high chair between each of them. It was cool. After we finished Sel and Beth insisted on doing the clean up. Scott, Howie and me took the babies into the living room to play with Dad and Mom. Scott spread out the boy's blanket with their toys and we put Cary and Trey down to play. The twins were so cute. They had white blonde hair like Scott and me used to and the most adorable blue eyes. They sat down together and looked at their toys then looked at Howie laying Dom down on the blanket. On his back he looked up at Howie. The twins dropped their toys and went over. "Baby." Cary said and pointed at Dom. "Yeah that's your baby cousin." Scott said to him. "Baby cuz." Trey said. The two laughed at that and squatted on either side of Dom. He looked at them with wonder. He reached up for Trey's nose and when Trey fell on his butt Dom laughed. This made Cary laugh too. "Baby funny." he said with a big smile. Trey laughed as well, causing Dom to turn his head to look at his fallen cousin. But looking wasn't enough, he kept twisting his body til he turned himself over and was looking at Trey while laying on his stomach. "He rolled!" I yelled. "Yeah Dom!" Howie cheered. We looked at each other with huge smile and kissed. Scott laughed at us. "Ya'll are going to get that excited over rolling, just wait til he walks." Cary and Trey lay on their stomachs and looked at Dom. Cary reached for his bear and pushed it to Dom. Dom reached and grabbed it. Trey grabbed his bear and pushed it to Dom. Dom grabbed that too and banged both on the floor. This caused the twins to erupt in even more laughter. Dom giggled along with them. "Watch this." Scott said. "Boys, who's that?" They looked at me and smiled. "Unca Caig" they said in unison. "And who's that?" he asked. "Unca Owi" they said. Scott got on the floor next to Dom. "And this is Dom." "Baby Dom" they giggled. "Kinda cool how they get along isn't it." Beth said from the kitchen. "Yeah, we definitely have to baby-sit for one another now." I said. And that is how we spent the evening. The adults watching the babies play. Dom fell asleep and the twins were getting groggy, so everyone left saying they were coming back in the morning for my birthday. Seeing them all out, we locked up and set the alarm and walked around turning off lights. We went upstairs and put Dom in his nursery, taking the monitor with us to our room. We stripped and got into our new bed and kissed. "How does it feel to be home baby?" Howie asked me. "Great. And I love our home. " "Me too, but you know what I love more?" he asked. "What?" I said with a grin. "You." I smiled as he laid his head on my chest. Within minutes I was out. The drive has worn me. I dreamed. The running dream. You know the one where you run and run from nothing and then something appears and you can no longer run. Your stuck, like in molasses. At some point I half awoke and heard Dom crying, I sat up but then heard Howie through the monitor soothing him and I drifted back to sleep. The next thing I felt was a wet sensation on my cock. I opened my eyes and saw Howie kneeling between my legs with my cock in his mouth. He looked up at me with it still in his mouth and winked. He pulled up and kissed me. I wrapped my arms around him and ran my hands down his back. He sat on top of me. He continued to kiss me and grind his bare ass against my hardening cock. "Ready to break the bed in?" he asked. "Definitely." He reached over to the nightstand and sure enough lube was in the drawer. He pulled it out with a smile. "Your mom definitely is the coolest." He swiveled so his ass was in my face. He grabbed my cock and started sucking. I licked my middle finger and when it was wet ran it down his ass. "Yeah babe, get me nice and lubed." he moaned. I lifted my face to his ass and started to lick his hole. When I got it wet I started to work my finger in. He swallowed my cock and moaned. I started to finger fuck his ass til he pulled off and faced me. "Your gonna make me come like that..I want the real thing first." He lubed my cock and gripped it and then started to slowly lower himself onto me. When my head first entered he winced a little and then relaxed and slid all the way down. He sat there for a moment and smiled. Then he started to lift himself up and down. I laid there and enjoyed the ride. He leaned over and kissed me. I embraced him and held him in my arms and started to thrust myself. Soon we were slamming against each other and I knew I was going to lose it. "Cum with me" he said. He wrapped his hand around his cock and jerked twice and I felt his ass contract. Needing no more, I let loose just as he did. As I filled his ass with my cum, he covered my chest in it. "Happy Birthday baby." he said. "Thanks." I held him close to me and lifted him out of the bed. I carried him to the bathroom and set him on the counter. "Let me clean up while you get Dom." he said. I went to the nursery and found my little man staring at the Tigger mobile and giggling. "morning baby." I said leaning over the crib. He looked up and me and said," Ga!" I laughed and tickled him making him giggle more. I lifted him out of the crib and held him up in the air above me. He smiled and drooled into my eye! I carried him over to his changing table and took of his pajama's and diaper and carried him naked to our bathroom. Howie had just finished filling the tub and was sitting chest deep in bubbles. "I thought baby boy could take a bath with us." I said with a smile. "Right on!" he said with a smile. I handed Dom to Howie and climbed in myself. Dom loved the water. Howie held him facing out from his chest and Dom smacked the bubbles. I looked at my baby and husband and smiled. This was love. We played with Dom for awhile. He had a fascination with the fairies. We got him cleaned up and Howie held him while I cleaned. Then the two of us got out so Howie could finish. I looked and saw that the blinds were wide open. "Uh oh babe, we gotta remember to shut these next time." I said as I closed them. "You think someone could really see in?" he asked. "Never know." I wrapped a towel around myself and got a second one for Dom. "I'm gonna get breakfast started." I said over my shoulder. We went down the stairs to the kitchen and I started to get a bottle ready for Dom. Then the doorbell rang. So I went to answer it, forgetting I was only towel clad. Opened the door to find Britney. "Craig!" she said and bum rushed me with a hug. "Hi Brit." I said, juggling Dom and hugging her. She closed the door behind her and grabbed Dom from me. "So how was the honeymoon? I wanted to call you, but figured you wanted some privacy." she said and kissed Dom on the nose. "You know you could have called. Anytime Brit. You eat yet?" I asked and led her to the kitchen. "Had some cereal before my run this morning, but watcha making?" "Was thinking French toast." "Sounds good. Hey where's Howie?" she asked. "Right here beautiful," he said from the doorway. She smiled at Howie in his robe. Then looked at me in my towel. "Oh crap! Did I interrupt?!" "No, we just took a bath together. Dom's first one" "Oh I bet that was so cute. Here, you guys go get dressed and I'll start breakfast. And happy birthday Craig" "Thanks Brit." I said as Howie and me walked out of the kitchen. We went upstairs and threw on sports shorts and muscle tees. We went back down and had some excellent French toast with Brit. Around noon my family arrived along with caterers. My dad directed traffic while Howie and I went upstairs to change. I put on some jeans and a green sweater Howie had got me for Christmas. He put on jeans and a purple pullover I had got him. Seeing each other we laughed. I went over to him and pulled him close and kissed him. "I love you so much and I just want you to know that this is already the best birthday I have ever had." I said. "I love you too baby." he said. We went downstairs and saw that Britney and Sel has dressed Dom up in Guess overalls with a green/purple striped rugby shirt. We went out to the back yard and saw that the caterers has set up banquet tables and that my parents had tied up balloons and streamers to every available surface. The guest started arriving at one. My family and friends in town. We gave everyone tours of the house. We had music going on the patio and the TV playing in the family room. The twins and Dom were in a playpen in the living room and every stopped to talk to them. Just when I thought everyone had come the doorbell rang again. I left Howie in the kitchen and went to answer it. I pulled the door open and there stood my four fave guys: AJ, Brian, Kevin and Nick. "Surprise!" they all said. "I didn't know you guys were coming!" I said. "That's why it's a surprise!" AJ said and hugged me. The other guys all joined in and we stumbled into the entry hall. The noise brought Howie out and he laughed. We showed them in and of course gave them the tour. Everyone had been eating throughout, no actual sit down eating so it wasn't until four that my mom called everyone into the house. We walked in and the lights were lowered and my parents came out of the kitchen with my birthday cake. Everyone started singing "Happy Birthday". I blew out the 22 candles and everyone cheered. The cake was cut up and everyone started eating. Then Sel pulled me over to the table with the gifts. "Time for presents birthday boy." I sat down and started to open them. Cary and Trey were right besides me playing with the bows as Howie held Dom. I got some cool gifts. Clothes, CD's, books, gift certificates. Then I came to my parents gift. "You both got me something after all this?" I asked. "Yeah, we figured after the house and decorating that we would go in together on your birthday" my dad said. I picked up the box, it was heavy. I ripped it open and found two boxes. The first one was a bronze pair of baby shoes. I held them up. "Those are Dom's shoes that he grew out of last month." my mom said. I opened the second box and found a familiar looking pair of bronze shoes. "And those are yours. I figured you could put them both in your office." my dad said with a smile. I jumped up and hugged them with misty eyes as everyone cheered. I sat back down and saw three boxes left. One from Brit, one from the guys and one from Howie. I opened Brit's first. It was a silver heart pendant like the one I gave Howie, I opened it and saw a picture of Howie holding Dom the first day home from the hospital. I smiled at her. "Howie helped me with it" she said. I opened the gift from the guys next. It was a gold and silver embossed wedding album. But instead of all wedding pictures it was pics from their personal stashes showcasing mine and Howie's relationship to the wedding. And then the wedding shots. "Oh guys this is awesome!" I said. "But how come it is everyone but us has pictures of our wedding!" Everyone laughed at that. "Honey, we have all your pictures and the wedding video for you, we just thought that you guys might want to enjoy the honeymoon first." my mom said. Leaving Howie's gift. He came and sat beside me. "I hope you like it," he whispered into my ear. I opened it and found a palm pilot. I threw my arms around him. "Baby I love it! Now I don't have to keep everything in my head!" "But wait, there's more." he said with a smile. "Where?" I asked looking for another box. "Lucky!" he called. Confused I looked around. Then I heard a scuffling on the tile and saw a golden lab puppy running around the corner. It came through the living room and heeled in front of Howie. "Baby, this is Lucky. He's been in training since November." he told me. I stuck my hand out and Lucky sniffed it and then licked it. He was so adorable. Still a puppy but humongous paws. Scott saw me looking . "Those paws mean he's gonna be a good size dog. Perfect for kids and protection." "You know Scott he looks like a golden version of Smokey." I said referring to Scott's dog. "That's cause he's Smokey's son. Your looking at the runt of the litter from September! Howie saw him and wanted to get him for you. We put him in training school so he's completely housebroken and trained." Scott explained. Totally cool! The rest of the evening we spent playing with Lucky and socializing with everyone. Once the party ended and my family left it was just us and the guys. We had invited them to break in our guest rooms. Kevin and Nick would take separate rooms and Brian and AJ would share one. We popped in the wedding video to watch. Everyone sprawled on the couches. Howie lay on the floor with Dom on his chest and I lay next to them with Lucky curled up next to me. We had the fire going to take the chill off. Looking back at the ceremony we laughed. You could see how nervous the two of us were in the interviews before the ceremony and pinpoint the exact moment we lost that nervousness. When our eyes met at the altar. It was so cool to look at it all now. It had all been a blur and now I could actually see what happened. It ended at 11pm and we were all yawning. The guys head to the rooms,: Nick in the green, Kevin in the blue, Brian and AJ in the purple. We put Dom in the nursery. Instead of following us to the bedroom, Lucky lay next the crib. "He already knows who the master of the house is." Howie said with a smile. We look at Dom laying there peacefully and just stare at him for us minute. Then Howie takes my hand and leads me into our room. We get undressed down to our boxers and climb in bed. Cuddling up we fall asleep. The next few weeks fly by at an amazing speed. The guys hang out with us as we get settled into our new home. Britney's little sister Jamie is down and they are both other as well. We baby-sit Cary and Trey so they can get to know Dom and to give Scott and Beth a break. Dom's birth certificate, social security and documents come in the mail causing a mini celebration when Howie see's his name on them. On top of rolling, Dom is holding his head up and when rolled onto his stomach is attempting to scoot himself. We all fly to LA for the premiere of my movie "Ghost Town". We reconnect with Jennifer and Elijah. Jennifer goes crazy over Dom. Something about babies seems to do that. Howie and the guys spend the last few days before they leave hammering out last minute details and start shooting around ideas for the new album. I prep to go out the LA and finish up my role as Aric on "One of the Guys". During all this Howie is stuck to Dom like glue. I love it, but I get sad at the same time because I know that I would hate to be away from baby boy myself. The day the guys leave Dom is especially crabby, not even Howie can get him in a good mood. We have our goodbyes at home. When the guys leave Dom is fussy the rest of the evening despite mine, Brit's and Sel's best efforts. Before Howie left we arranged for a maid service. I had Jeff draw up privacy papers, as we couldn't exactly have our housekeeper running and telling everyone that Craig Bingham and Howie D were gay lovers. We had one slight incident when the papers found out Howie was in Tucson with me. We played it off as all the guys were crashing here before tour and Howie was a roomie of sorts. Our big source of concern was also Howie's pride, Dom's documents. Public record, it would be a matter of someone doing a little digging to find out that Howie was on the birth certificate with me. I was set to leave for LA, Dom was going to stay with Mom and Dad. At the last minute I changed my mind and decided to bring him with as Britney volunteered to come along as nanny. We arrived in LA on January 25th. When I wasn't on the set doing my scenes, Brit and me took Dom out on shopping spree's. My final scenes took three days to wrap and as soon as it was finished we jetted to San Francisco. Awesome time. Since coming out I had been approached by many magazines for interviews and shoots (a lot requesting nudes), it seems I had become something of an icon in the community. So while in San Fran, Brit and me were given royal treatment. I was on the phone every day with Howie. He had only been back on tour for a few weeks and already he missed us badly. I would hold the phone to Dom's ear so he could hear Howie. One day while listening to Millennium, Britney noticed something, Dom would perk up when Howie's voice came into play. He was recognizing his father! This made Howie very happy and kinda took away a little bit of his guilt complex. We got back to Tucson on January 31st and I had to admit that the new year had started off great. I was hoping the rest of the year would go as smoothly. The next morning I got woke up by the phone. "Hello? I groggily answered. "Craig? Did I wake you?" "Yes Brit." "Sorry, ummm, I just picked up my paper and ummm.." "Brit spit it out." I then heard some noise. Unsure of what, I got out of bed while Brit stammered on the phone. Stepping up to the window I peeked through the blinds and saw my front lawn covered with reporters! "Brit! There's reporters all over my lawn!" "Yeah.that's what I am trying to tell you..ummm front page of the paper Craig...Howie's been outed." "WHAT?!" "Turn on your TV." I grabbed the remote off the nightstand and clicked on the TV. MTV came on with the news. "....from startling photos and video we have proof that Backstreet Boy Howie D. married Craig Bingham of TV's One of the Guys and the recent Ghost Town. Join us at ten to the hour for the full story.." Oh shit!