Date: Sun, 13 Aug 2000 17:12:53 EDT
From: VegasDevo@aol.com
Subject: N*college chapter 4

****disclaimer****

If you're under 18 please don't read this.  I don't know/own/affilaited/
with any members of N*sync.  Nor do I own the name N*sync

****author's note****

Ok I'm sure you've heard this a million times, but this is my first time at
doing this, so please be aware!  I plan to make this a long story, so I
hope you enjoy it!

BTW, incase ur wondering where I got this "Brett" character...well it's
basicaly based on me really.  Almost all of Brett is true except the name
and I'm not at UNLV, yet :)

sorry this chapter took sooo long!! i truly am sorry, I just had writers
block and a lack of enthuaism! i'll try to keep up though!!

enjoy..

Chapter 4

	I had the most incredible time with Justin that night.  The both of
us knew it was a date, but he kept it very discreet, which I understand
why.  Good thing the tables had long table cloths, because we were playing
footsie the entire nite.  After dinner we took a romantic walk by the
hotels lushish fountains.  It was amazing..it was like something out of a
movie.

	"Dinner was perfect" I said breaking the silence.

	"I'm glad you think so.."Justin replied back.

	"What's wrong?" I asked.

	"Uhh...just stuff, I'm confused really.." Justin said dejectedly.

	"Well....if it makes you feel any better, we can be confused
together" I said.

	"It does.."Justin laughed back. "I just haven't done the
relationship thing.  I've never been really committed to someone before.."
Justin trailed off.

	"Are you a virgin Justin?" I asked spontansously.

	Justin was a little taken back at that.  I thought, however, it
applied to the direction the conversation was going in.

	"To tell you the truth...no, I'm not" Justin said lowering his
head.

	"It's ok Justin..I was just curious..the way you were talking, just
made it sound like you weren't.." I explained.

	"Oh..are you?"Justin asked me.

	"No..never came close, ever" I said while blushing 10 shades of
red.

	"That doesn't mean anything Brett, it doesn't happen to people all
the time." Justin told me.

	I didn't quite grasp what he was saying but I just nodded my head.
We continued our walk in silence.  We walked side by side..it was rough not
being able to act on the way I felt about Justin out in public.  But all of
a sudden he grabbed my hand and we walked with our hands intertwinded.  It
only lasted a minute before he let it go.  He must of saw some people up
ahead.  He just gave me a sympathzing look.

	He got into his car and the second the doors were closed his lips
were forced onto mine.  Thank god for tinted windows.  The kiss was so
passionate, it summed up the whole entire night.  The waiting to show some
sign of affectionate to each other.  The kiss lasted for a couple of
minutes.  I told Justin we better get going.

	We got back to our room where the kissing began again.  Justin
slighty pushed me back onto his bed.  He got on top of me and strandled my
chest while he kissed.  I hope he wasn't going to take this too far, before
we were ready.  He started feeling my chest under my shirt.  Before I knew
it he was grabbing at the waistband of my pants. I had to stop this.  I sat
up aburptly and just looked at him.  He had a confused look on him.

	"..no" was all I could say.  Justin looked hurt.  I just got up off
the bed and went over to my side of the room and ducked under my covers.  I
don't know why but I slowly started to cry..I figured I blew my chance with
Justin because I wouldn't put out.  I was such an idiot.  I heard the
bathroom door open then close, I assumed Justin went in there....


	I awoke next morning and and looked over to the other side of the
room at Justin.  He was still sleeping, his back towards me.  I didn't know
what to think about last night.  I didn't want to think about it.  I got up
and headed off to class avoiding any conflict that might arise if I stayed
too long in the room.

	I got back from class and found Justin wasn't in the room.  I felt
like something in me was missing when he wasn't around.  I was bored and
lonely. I went over to my bed and just fell backwards onto the bed and just
layed motionless for a long time. I looked over to the clock and decided I
should get ready for dance class.  I got my stuff together and wrote Justin
a note:

	Justin,

		went to dance class.  be back around 3.

	Brett


	Dance class was fun today.  It was friday so that ment it was
combination day, where the teacher taught us a combination and thats all we
did for the class. The combination was fun and a little challenging but I
was able to get it.  While we were doing it, I had the funny feeling I was
being watched.  I started looking around and to no avail, no one was
watching me in the room.
	I kept dancing and turned and while I was turning, I swear I saw
Justin.  And there he was, watching me.  He was up on the viewing balcony.
I gave him a sly little smile and he returned it.  He stayed for the rest
of the class just content on watching me dance.

	Class was over and went over to my on-looker.

	"See anything you liked Mr.?" I asked.

	"Sure did, you're a really excellent dancer Brett."Justin
complemented me.

	"Why thank you.." I replied back to Justin. "About last night
Justin..." I started to say

	"I'm sorry....I was acting like a jerk.  I'm sorry, frogive
me?"Justin asked.

	"of course..you weren't acting like a jerk..I guess I just gave off
the wrong signals.  But before we go any further..I have to tell you I like
to practice absistence." I explained.

	"oh..."

	"well it's not like I'm waiting for marriage, because that really
doesn't happen ya know? I'm just waiting for the right time and right
person.." I furthur explained.

	"well I respect you for that Brett.." Justin assured me.

	"thanks..." I said before I sighed.

	"well I have to go to class Brett..I' see you later today."Justin
said.

	"bye Justin.." I said as Justin walked away. I wanted so badly to
kiss him good bye, but I knew that wasn't happening anytime soon, sicne we
were in public.

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Well thats it for chapter 4.  I wasn't expecting to get this far into the
story line so quickly.  Oh well!  There's lots more to come.  Just remember
that prologue..

E-mail me at VegasDevo@aol.com for any questions/comments/suggestions/ good
or bad or medicore.