Date: Wed, 17 May 2000 06:46:41 EDT From: Dillon Smith Subject: The Newest Backstreet Boy - Chapter 4 This story is totally fiction. It, in no way, implies anything about the sexuality of anyone in the Backstreet Boys, NSYNC, or any other characters in the story. If your under 18, or it is illegal in any way for you to read this ... DON'T! ***Hi Everyone. Xander again. Thanx for the E-mails people. I'm really sorry about the loooooooooooooong wait. OK...I got suggestions for putting more in about Ashley and Amanda. I did on chapter 4a. But...my PC got a virus and I lost EVERYTHING! It's sucked. And I don't really feel like writing all that again...sorry...but I want to keep on the story at hand...not the past. If you wanna nominate me for the story awards...although I know I'm not good enough yet (key word, YET...I have a ton of good ideas...I just had to get the story started) I won't mind (Wink, Wink). Keep the feed back coming...good or bad, ideas, anything, send it to Xanders_a_hotty@yahoo.com And without further ado... The Newest Backstreet Boy - Chapter 4 Me and Brian went back to the bus. I stepped inside and was hit with a bombardment of questions."Are you OK "s and "What happend"s came from all direction. Brian yelled ay them, "Leave him alone for a minute ... jeez." I just crawled into my bunk. I was thinking about Amanda. Thinking about Ashley. I had been friends with them since the beginning of High School. I was thinking of them when I nodded off to sleep. I woke up to someone knocking outside my bunk. "Dillon?" It was Nick. I didn't really want to talk...but I'm not going to ignore him... even if I *AM* going through what I'm going through. I peaked my head out from behind the curtains,"Yea?" "I just wanted to let you know that we're here at the hotel...and that *I'M* here...if you need to talk or whatever." "Thanks Nick." Nick was great. I knew that he's gonna make an awesome friend. "You can stay in here for as long as you want...I can get your stuff and bring it in." "Thanks Nick, but I can make it. I know that Amanda and Ashley were coming out to help me in LA. I also know that they're probably watching right now...and that they don't want to see me moping around all day." Did that just come out of my mouth? That's not really what I was thinking, but if you say something like that, people will usually leave you alone. And like I said before...I didn't really want to talk about it...yet. So I got out of the bus with my duffle bag...got my one suitcase from the storage compartment and made my way to the hotel. I got inside and a bell boy asked to take my stuff up to my room. I gave it to him and he told me were to go. We(everybody) had a meeting in the VIP lounge. I followed his directions and came to the lounge. I walked in and there was everyone. Christina, Britney, NSync, and my group. I looked around to find a place to sit and noticed that Brian was waving at me. He patted a seat right between him and Justin from NSync. I went over and sat down. I tried not to look out of it so I started a conversation with Brian. Well...tried to. Right then some guy from management came in. The man was wearing a black suit, he was kinda pudgy, he was a typical 'Bigwig'. He told us that this is wear we are going to be staying the next two weeks. Then he told us about the living arrangements. We all had to share a room. I was hoping I'd get to share it with Brian. I don't know....but something about him just always makes you feel better when your around him. He said Britney and Christina would room together. And by the looks of how they were chatting away...that would be fine. He then said that instead of a BSB member boarding with another BSB member...or the same with NSync...one NSync member shared a room with a BSB member. He said that this would all help us 'bond'. He said the oldest from BSB with the oldest from NSync would share a room, the youngest from both groups, and ect. I was trying to think of who was the youngest of NSync. I remembered it was Justin and was turning around...going to introduce myself...when I saw him walk over to Nick. He was talking to Nick and then I saw this confused look on his face. Then he looked at me, smiled, and walked on over. "Hi, I'm Justin Timberlake." "Hi, I'm Dillon Hunt. Nice to meet you." "I guess we're going to be roomies," he said. He's adorable, I thought. Then I thought to myself....your friends just died...and your thinking about guys already. I must be a terrible guy. I guess the sadness showed on my face to, because Justin said,"Are you ok?" "Yea...I'm fine." "So...you wanna go up to our room now...I think everything else is leaving." I looked around and everyone WAS leaving...I didn't even see that management guy leave. So me and Justin went to our room. You'd think they could give us suites because of who we are and how long we're staying here. But noooo. Anyway...it was nice. You walk in and there are two bed's on the right side, with a tall dresser next to each, a TV on the left, a closet next to that, a little desk against the far wall, and a little hallway that led to the bathroom next to the desk. Justin must have read my mind. "Kinda small isn't it." "Yea." That was my response. Wow, either Justin thinks I'm the most boring person in the world, or, the most unpearsonable(I forgot if it was im- in- or un-). We went to our beds and started to put our stuff away in our dressers and the closet. Justin was done in a flash and told me was going to go for a swim in the pool. "See ya'." Justin's cool, out of all the guys in NSync, I'm glad I got him to share a room with. I started to unpack again and was putting some pictures I had brought with me from home. I got one of my family and put it on the dresser. I got the next one out and was putting up and looked at it. It was a picture of me, Amanda, and Ashley. I just stared at it and didn't realize I was dropping it...well...until it was too late. It shattered all over the ground. "CRAP!" I yelled. I bent down and started to pick up the pieces. "Ow!" I had cut myself. I went into the bathroom and went into the medicine cabinet. Good, I thought, they have peroxide. I got some, put it on a cotton ball, and wiped it on my hand. It stung really bad. I also found some band aids and put one on the cut. While I was putting the band aid on I thought of something. They were the only ones that new I was gay. I was going to have to go through life bottling my true feelings, not letting anyone know I thought this guy was hot, or him. I was going to have to keep it inside. I didn't know if I could do that again, like I did in high school before I met Manda and Ashley. I hated it...sometimes I would slip... and not know if anyone heard me. I started to cry. I don't want to go through that again. I was looking at a bottle of aspirin. That would be the best way out, I thought. I wouldn't have to deal with all this. I could over dose on pills and everything would go away. I took the bottle down and poured it into my hands. With the handful of pills in my hand I put the cap back on the bottle and put it back in the cabinet. **There. I know it's not that long, but the next chapter is coming, and If I put them together...it would have taken a while for it to come out and I didn't want the people reading this story to forget about it. Ya know? Anyway...Next chapter should be out soon...and sorry for the long wait. *XANDER*