Date: Mon, 27 May 2002 00:06:30 +0000
From: N D <pytn18@hotmail.com>
Subject: nick and ashley/all i need is you 11

DISCLAIMER: O-town, Backstreet Boys and N'Sync are all bands that I don't
know. I am not implying anything here. This is strictly created in my
fantasies. I wish it was actually happening but I highly doubt it. I am in
no way affiliated with Jive or J records, MTV or any other way with these
bands. If homosexual content offends you or is illegal for you to read then
please leave.

The only thing I have remotely in common with these guys is that Ashley
Parker Angel and I were born on the same exact day-August 1, 1981.

FIRST THINGS FIRST: I'm starting to get my writing legs back underneath me
and the chapters are coming out almost as quick as they used to. As June
approaches, however my calendar seems to jump out at me showing me how much
stuff I have to do in that month.  I will put out as many chapters as I
can. I should average about one a week starting then.  I will be in Spain
for the entire month of July so I will apologize in advance for the zero
amounts of updates during that month but I've got a whole month before
that.

Thank you to all who emailed me after the last chapter. Many of you felt
that it was a very emotional chapter but was very fun to read. I want to
especially thank all of you who sent words of comfort and encouragement
after I mentioned that my childhood was much like Randy and Ashley's.

I got a few emails regarding my other story "Josh's Heart". I am very sorry
that I have not been updating that story at all lately. I've got a serious
case of writer's block when it comes to that story and I have no idea where
I want to take it. I honestly never thought it was that big of a story and
since this story is really in the heat of things I'm not sure what I am
going to do with the story. Please bear with me though.


OTHER GREAT READS:
"Encountering Nick" by Kdawg (Nick Carter story)
"Josh's Heart" by me (ND) (my other story that features Josh Hartnett and
Justin Timberlake)
"Fame, Love and Reality" by Alejandro my good buddy. (Backstreet Boys story-
Nick/Kevin/Brian)
"Time Stood Still" and "Conversation on the Stairs" by Roguewolf
"Encounter in the Sand" by Jeremy


http://jcv.5u.com/all/worldofslash/ --Jayson Vascardi's website that
features my story and many other slash fiction stories. Go check it out.

Pytn18@hotmail.com for suggestions and comments.

All I Need Is You- Chapter Eleven

The Pop Odyssey Tour was over and everyone was getting back to their
individual bands.  Things went back to normal tomorrow but everyone had one
last night to enjoy their time together. This could be a time to spend with
loved ones, settle differences or enjoy new family.

Nick and Ashley had signed all the papers they needed to and Johnny was
officially their new son. They had spent all week trying to get their boy
to learn about his new fathers and simply just spending time with their
child. Nothing felt better in the world then finally becoming a family.

Donna and Ashley both moved into Nick's place in Tampa, deciding that it
was best for everyone to stay in one place in order to maintain a family
atmosphere.  There was plenty of room and Nick decided he would convert one
of the bedrooms into a room for Johnny, one that a kid would be proud of.

It had been an exhausting week and both new parents wanted to relax before
they went back to their respective tours tomorrow. Donna assured them that
she would take care of Johnny and sent them on their way to a movie. It was
the perfect place for a couple that needed privacy. As soon as the lights
went out, Nick grabbed Ashley's hand and put it in his lap, a sign of
comfort in each other.

The movie eventually let out as herds of people flooded back to their cars
to get out of the parking lot.

"Good movie huh?" Nick asked.

"Yeah I love Star Wars." Ashley said

"Yoda was nasty at the end in that swordfight." Nick said

"Yeah but Hayden Christensen sure looked good." Ashley said.

"I don't know if I can compete with a Jedi." Nick said as he stopped in his
tracks.

Ashley came up and put his arm around his shoulder.

"You don't have to baby. Dan's the one with the Canadian boyfriend." Ashley
said as both men laughed.

They were interrupted by a cell phone.

Nick took his phone out of his pocket and saw the word "Home" on the caller
ID.  Wondering if something was wrong Nick quickly answered it.

"Hey Donna, is everything ok?" Nick asked.

"Everything is fine with Johnny and the house Nick." Donna said.

Nick breathed a sigh of relief.

"There's something else wrong though." Donna said.

Nick listened for another minute or so seemingly getting some sort of
information. By this time both men had gotten into the car.

"Ok thanks Donna. We'll be right there." Nick said as he hung up his phone.

Nick put his phone back in the charger and took a deep breath.

"What's the matter baby?" Ashley asked.

"Ash...Randy's in the hospital." Nick said.


Jacob wasn't sure whether he was walking, running or crawling. He knew that
he was drifting though. He was drifting away from everything, including
everything he ever shared with AJ. They had always been the couple with a
few more arguments but they always felt that they were better for it. They
felt that they were just testing each other and everything was fine once
the arguments stopped.

Things were a little different lately. It used to be so easy. It used to be
that a simple kiss could fix it. That didn't seem to work anymore. Jacob
came upon a door that looked a little rougher than a room door. He opened
it and found a balcony.

It wasn't his first choice but it was a good way to get away from
everything. He leaned over the balcony looking into the Atlanta night.

"Want a cigarette kiddo?" AJ asked from behind him.

Those words rang through Jacob's head as if he'd heard them before. This
whole situation seemed a little bit too familiar. He pinned it back to New
Year's Eve. It was the same words that AJ had said to him that night on the
balcony after Jacob had been contemplating his own sexuality along with
AJ's.

"Jake, I just talked to Howie." AJ started. "He told me that you guys
didn't do anything.  I'm sorry for not believing you."

Jacob didn't answer but just took a drag out of the cigarette that AJ had
lit for him. The taste of the Marlboro light brought back memories of all
those late night conversations the two of them had together.

"Nothing happened with Janie either. Probably for the same reason that
nothing happened with you and Howie. I want to fix things Jake. I hate
being away from you and I can't breathe when you're not there when I wake
up." AJ said as he spoke from the heart.

Jacob just didn't know what to do. He wanted to be with AJ so much. He
missed him every night and every morning. He missed the way he would just
hold him and he could forget about everything else. No matter how hard they
fought it was ten times harder to be alone after having such a good
boyfriend.

AJ could sense Jacob's tenseness and saw that he was about to break
down. AJ swung his arm around to rest on Jacob's shoulder and pulled him
into his chest. Jacob resisted at first but couldn't help himself and
eventually caved in and cried against AJ's chest. He felt as if there was
nothing else he could do but cry. He broke down as AJ simply comforted him.

"I'm sorry Jake." AJ said as he held his boyfriend.


Justin Timberlake stood in the recording studio in downtown Orlando that
Nsync was using with a pair of Adidas warm up pants and a wife beater
on. He had headphones around his ears that were held closer to his head
with his hands. Usually this is where Justin excelled in life and where he
felt most comfortable but today it all seemed so wrong.

He felt as if there was something missing in his life and he knew what
started these feelings. He couldn't get the kiss with JC out of his head.
The taste was on his lips and he just couldn't shake it. He and Britney had
broke it off, which had hit the media very hard causing even more stress on
the band, but Justin didn't care.

He had always had a thing for JC, but the friendship was too close for him.
JC was always there for him but apparently Justin had never returned the
favor. JC rejected him for some reason and he could feel it already. It was
strangely awkward between the two and Justin wasn't sure if he could take
it.

A figure looked on through the glass in the dark hallway. He made sure that
no one could see him because he just wasn't in the mood to deal with anyone
yet. JC looked on and saw Justin putting his heart into every song just
like he always did.

JC thought back and remembered when he first met him. Justin was just a
little boy and JC felt a need to always watch over him. He felt compelled
to protect him. Over the years he felt as if he did a good job but he never
ever thought that Justin would want to get that close to him. They had
drifted a little once girls got into the picture but now things seemed to
just be miles apart. JC felt him losing a friendship and he knew he had to
do something about it.


Nick and Ashley swung the hospital doors open and walked towards the desk,
well Nick did at least. Ashley seemed to just drift as was the case every
time he stepped into a hospital. It seemed that he couldn't shake the
thought of the week he spent here after almost dying. He remembered the
cold nights that were warmed with Nick by his side holding his hand. He
remembered how hard they fought to gain his parents' respect. The white
scene of the hospital brought it all back and Ashley felt like his legs
couldn't move.

Nick immediately recognized this and after getting the room info came over
and put his arm around him. Things were rough since that day in Chicago.
There were a few adjustments that had to be made. Nick remembered how he
had to be extra gentle with Ash on certain occasions and also to help him
get his life back together. That was a long time ago but Nick realized that
it may take years for Ashley to get over it so he was of course there to
help.

"C'mon Ash it'll be ok. We've come a long way since Chicago. Randy needs us
now. You gotta be strong for him." Nick said encouraging Ashley as both men
walked towards the room that the nurse told them.

They both walked in and saw Randy sleeping in the bed. He looked so
peaceful and calm in the white hospital sheets. Ashley simply smiled at
looking at his long lost brother and as he looked he could have sworn that
he was beginning to see the resemblance.

As they walked closer Randy stirred a bit and opened his eyes. Upon seeing
the couple a small smile came to his face. Ashley responded with a smile
that seemed to scream out the fact that they were brothers. Ashley reached
over and took his hand and sat down next to the bed.

"How are you feeling Randy?" Ashley asked.

"I've been better." Randy said but as always with a smile.

"What are they telling you?" Ashley asked.

"My THC count is down. It doesn't look good." Randy said as the smile
finally seemed to fade.

"I'm so sorry." Ashley said as he put his head down.

"For what?" Randy asked

"For not being there. You've been through so much more than I was. I should
have been there to help you through it." Ashley said. Nick could feel the
guilt running through him and wanted to just pick him up and hug him and
tell him it was all going to be ok but he knew he had to stand back. This
conversation had to be had.

"Ash, it's not your fault. I don't hold anything against you at all. The
important thing now is that you're here and that Johnny has a good place to
live." Randy said.

"I just feel like there's so much that we've missed out on. There's so many
things that I want to tell you." Ashley said.

"Well, I'm not going anywhere and your flight doesn't leave until tomorrow
afternoon. Let's catch up." Randy said as the smile returned.

"That'd be great. Where do you wanna start?" Ashley said as a smile crept
to his face.

"How about you start by telling me about your life with this stud over
here." Randy said as he flagged Nick over, who sat down in a chair on the
other side of the bed.

"Oh god, where to start. He met me when I had barely any clothes on."
Ashley started as everyone laughed.

The three men talked the rest of the night away. Nick and Ashley filling in
their new found brother on all of the adventures and experiences they
shared with each other. They all knew that their time together was short
but it was refreshing to know that there was someone out there who shared a
piece of you.


"Justin, you home?" JC screamed out through Justin's house. Both men had a
key to each other's house in case something happened. JC had rang the bell
a few times and no one answered but he knew Justin was home after seeing
his car in the driveway.

There was no answer to his call however. The house seemed a little extra
quieter than usual. JC had spent so many days and nights here relaxing,
having fun and just spending time with his best friend. It was practically
his house too seeing as he had a room here. They were as close as any two
friends could be but not lately and that's what JC was here to fix.

It was nighttime and JC was starting to get worried about where Justin was
since he was nowhere to be found in his house. He walked into Justin's room
and saw his clothes everywhere as always. Seeing no sign of Justin he was
about to walk out until he caught a glimpse of someone out on the balcony
connected to the room.

JC lightly scolded himself for not remembering all the heart-to-heart talks
they had out there. He walked over towards the door and slowly opened it as
to not startle Justin. Justin didn't flinch at all as if he knew exactly
who it was.

"Just, we gotta talk" JC said out loud finally breaking the silence.

"You made it pretty clear how you felt about the situation Jayce." Justin
said still looking out over the Orlando night.

"Justin, you've gotta listen to me. Please." JC pleaded with him.

Justin finally turned to him with those deep blue eyes that JC always loved
to look into. He wanted to tell him everything about Josh, which was the
original plan from the beginning. He wanted to share how happy he was that
he finally found someone to share his life with but for some reason he just
couldn't. He didn't want to hurt Justin, it would be too much for him to
bear.

"I don't wanna lose you. I care for you too much. I do have feelings for
you. It's just that..." JC started but was cut off by Justin's finger on
his lips.

That finger was soon replaced by his lips. It was a kiss and a curse at the
same time but JC loved the way Justin's lips felt on his. It gave him a
sense of security and a sense of such undying love like nothing else he's
ever felt.

Both men stumbled their way inside as they continued to kiss. Eventually,
JC fell back on the bed with Justin on top of him. Justin worked his way
down around his neck and came up to his ear.

"I love you so much Jayce, I always have. Please let me make love to you. I
want to show you how much I love you." Justin whispered ever so softly in
his ear.

JC wasn't sure what to do. He knew what the right thing to do was and he
knew that he was already overstepping that invisible boundary but Josh was
the last thing from his head right now.

"Yes Justin. Make love to me." JC whispered back.

Justin, as if working against time so that JC wouldn't change his mind
began to strip his new lover. He took off his shirt and began to work on
his nipples while taking down his pants. Justin's dick was about to jump
out of his pants and practically did as he undid his zipper and lowered his
jeans and boxers.

Clothes were half-on and half-off thrown to the side. Justin now had access
to JC's beautiful hole however. He licked his fingers as much as he could
and then spread it over his cock. Before the saliva dried off Justin began
to poke his head at the hole and eventually pushed his way in until JC
could feel the patch of light brown pubic hair rubbing against his ass.

All of it was done out of pure lust as Justin began to pound his way in and
out of JC's ass. It's not that the two didn't care for each other but
Justin was so eager for this day that when it finally happened he was
overly exciting and was working it without even caring about anything but
how good it felt.

It felt good to JC but it just didn't feel right. He wasn't even in the
mood to jerk himself off because all he cared about was Justin and making
sure he didn't lose him as a friend. If this is what it took to keep him
then this is what JC had to do. Justin was too much of a friend to lose. He
just had no idea what he was going to do with Josh. It was all so confusing
to JC that he didn't even notice that Justin had finished until he felt the
hot cum inside of him.

It was meaningless sex to JC but it meant the world to Justin. Justin
collapsed on top of JC.

"I love you so much Jayce." Justin said semi-lying.

JC just stroked the short hair on Justin's head and stared at the ceiling,
even more confused about his life then when he started this little
adventure.

TO BE CONTINUED...

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