Date: Mon, 20 May 2002 06:42:20 +0000 From: N D Subject: nick and ashley/all i need is you 9 DISCLAIMER: O-town, Backstreet Boys and N'Sync are all bands that I don't know. I am not implying anything here. This is strictly created in my fantasies. I wish it was actually happening but I highly doubt it. I am in no way affiliated with Jive or J records, MTV or any other way with these bands. If homosexual content offends you or is illegal for you to read then please leave. The only thing I have remotely in common with these guys is that Ashley Parker Angel and I were born on the same exact day-August 1, 1981. FIRST THINGS FIRST: I am happy to say that I'm back. I know that I promised that once I got home from school I would update more but I got really discouraged after the BBSA awards so I decided I needed some time off. I hope you all missed me. I took time off to reflect on a lot of stuff and I got a lot of time to think about stuff and get my life back together. I contemplated stopping my stories but I thought to myself that even if I affect one person's life, then I've made a difference. It's not about how many awards you win, it's about what makes you happy and I am happiest when people tell me that they've read my stories so I'm back and I'm here to stay. Getting back to the BBSA awards...Joel (writerboy69) pretty much took everything for his story "JC's Hitchhiker". I did manage to come away with a few. I tied for Best Up and Coming Author. My other story "Josh's Heart" swept every short story category, which is really cool and finally, this story won Council's Choice for "Novella of the Year". I am thankful for every award. I always said I wanted to win at least one so I appreciate it very much. During my absence from Nifty, I was privileged enough to acquire tickets to O-town's show in Connecticut. They were amazing to say the least. They gave a lot of previews to their new stuff (new album out August 6) and it's really good. If they keep putting out stuff like that they'll be around for a while. The highlight of the concert was when Ashley came out in just a wife beater and jeans and performed Third Eye Blind's "Semi- Charmed Life" :-P OTHER GREAT READS: "Encountering Nick" by Kdawg (Nick Carter story) "Josh's Heart" by me (ND) (my other story that features Josh Hartnett and Justin Timberlake) "Fame, Love and Reality" by Alejandro my good buddy. (Backstreet Boys story- Nick/Kevin/Brian) "Time Stood Still" and "Conversation on the Stairs" by Roguewolf "Encounter in the Sand" by Jeremy http://jcv.5u.com/all/worldofslash/ --Jayson Vascardi's website that features my story and many other slash fiction stories. Go check it out. Pytn18@hotmail.com for suggestions and comments. All I Need Is You-Chapter Nine JC sped down the Orlando highway letting the wind just flow through his hair and face as it glanced off the pure smile on his face. A few weeks ago it was getting ugly for this pop star. He was utterly confused with everything about himself. He wasn't sure of his sexuality. He felt like his whole life was being controlled by the group and felt the walls closing in real quick. It was getting to the point where he just needed to be alone. This was all true until one night a few days ago where he thought he was alone practicing what made him happy on stage and little did he know that he had a visitor. The irony of a guy who was also named Josh, O-town's choreographer, to come in and turn his life around was something that JC could only laugh about. He kissed a man for the first time that night and since then his life has been nothing but good. The band started to get along again, realizing that if they combine their powers with the other bands it leads to better publicity and contacts. He was beginning to feel confident in his decisions in life and he had someone that he could actually feel intimately about. JC looked at the piece of paper in his hand as he got off the exit. He made a few turns and pulled up to a fairly decent sized house with a nice open yard. He got out of his car and walked down the path to the front door. As he was about to knock, it opened and revealed a pair of deep green eyes and a smiling face that was so contagious that it brought a smile to JC's face and he felt as if he couldn't help it being there. "Hey sexy." Josh said as he leaned in and kissed JC. JC simply stared into those eyes and got lost. He wasn't sure how he fell so hard for this random person. He wasn't sure how they found each other and he wasn't sure where to go from here but he did know that it felt incredibly right. He hadn't told anyone about it yet. He didn't want to ruin it for him and Josh. It was too good to be true and he had this gut feeling that if he told someone then the dream might end, but he did need to tell someone. He decided on telling Justin tomorrow. Justin was always there for him and vice versa. As of right now though he just wanted to enjoy what he had. "Sit down. I made your favorite. Chicken Marsala with rice." Josh said. "How did you know that was my favorite?" JC asked "Are you sure you wanna know?" Josh said as he blushed. "Sure why?" JC asked getting confused. "I got it off a random webpage on the computer." Josh said with a smile. "Haha, wow they actually got it right." JC said with a laugh JC sat down and was about to grab his fork until he saw Josh make his way over to him. He turned around and sat down on JC's lap. He leaned in and kissed him ever so gently, barely touching lips. He then turned and took the fork and knife and cut a piece of the chicken and put it on the fork. He lifted it to JC's waiting mouth and put it in. JC tasted the sweet and savory flavor of the marsala sauce and chewed it as Josh looked on with love. "How is it?" Josh asked "It's amazing. I didn't know that you were such a good cook." JC said "I dabble a little." Josh said with a smile. Josh continued to feed JC until the meal was completely done. He did it with such care and love, unlike anything JC has ever felt before. "That was an excellent meal Josh. Thank you very much." JC said "It's not done yet. Time for dessert." Josh said. "This is too much" JC started to say but was cut off by Josh's finger on his lips. Josh got up and went into the kitchen and returned in a few minutes with a thing of ice cream. He sat back down on JC's lap and opened it up and used the spoon to dig some out. He slowly lifted it to JC's lips and offered it to him. JC gladly accepted the vanilla ice cream and savored the cold, soft flavor. He moaned out as he tasted it. Josh took a little bit of the ice cream on his finger and spread it onto JC's neck. JC flinched at the cold feeling on his skin. It was quickly replaced by a warm sensation as Josh wrapped his mouth around the covered part of the neck. He used his tongue to lick at it and wipe off the creamy substance. As he was doing this Josh slowly started to pull at JC's shirt and eventually up over his head. Josh reached back into the ice cream and put some more on his finger. He spread it on JC's nipple and down his chest. As with his neck Josh replaced his finger with his tongue and began to lap at the ice cream with his tongue. As he felt the nipple harden underneath his tongue, he began to undo JC's pants and pull them down. He pulled them down as JC lifted his ass up off the chair to allow the access to complete it. In front of Josh was a beautiful site. JC's long cock was just asking to be attended to. Josh grabbed it and began to massage it as he took his other finger and acquired some more ice cream out of the gallon. JC's eyes were closed and needless to say was very surprised when he felt something very cold on his cock. He opened his eyes and saw his penis covered in ice cream. Before it got cold enough to become out of hand Josh began to lick at the liquid. JC was in heaven. Never in his life had he felt such a difference between hot and cold and especially on his package. He began to moan loudly as Josh moved his whole mouth over his cock and began to bob his head up and down. JC was sure that no girl had ever made him feel this good. So much in fact that he couldn't help himself from running his hand through Josh's hair while his head moved up and down on his cock. It had been too long for JC and it showed with how much he was getting into it. He didn't want to hold back at all and the more Josh used his tongue the more JC felt like he was about to shoot. It seemed like as soon as Josh touched his balls as if to pump the liquid out of him he felt like the cum just flew out of him. Josh, with some experience at this swallowed it all while staring up at Josh with those green eyes that JC seemed to just find himself in. Ashley lay asleep in his hotel room with his arm over his husband Nick, or so he thought. He slowly drifted back into the real world and looked over at his sleeping partner and saw that he was holding just a pillow. Ashley quickly shot up and looked around the room to see that he was alone. Before the confusion could set in the door opened and Nick came into the room holding a tray of food. "Hey sleepyhead. I wanted to surprise you with breakfast in bed." Nick said with a smile. "I got so confused for a second." Ashley said watching his husband. "Did you think I left or something?" Nick asked "I don't know. I just didn't like waking up and you not being there." Ashley said with a slight pout on his face. Nick put the tray down on the bed and used his hand to lift up Ashley's head. He gently kissed his lips and said, "You know I'll be with you forever." Ashley kissed him back and smiled. "Good, now what did you bring me?" Ashley said with a grin. "Now that's my husband." Nick said as he opened the tray to reveal a large breakfast for the two of them. Nick lied down next to him and turned on the TV. A commercial with a mother holding her little baby in a rocking chair was just finishing up. Ashley looked on seeming to get lost in the commercial. He looked at the small child and how the mother coddled him in her arms. It was a beautiful site to him. "Wanna talk about it?" Nick asked as he noticed right away what was going on. "It's not like we could have kids or anything." Ashley said upset. "Ash, there's always adoption." Nick said as he put a piece of bacon in his mouth. "I know but sometimes I wish that this damn society would just accept us." Ashley said. "Baby, I know it's hard but our careers are doing really well, especially yours. You guys are really taking off, coming out to the world would be terrible for it." Nick said. "Yeah but it would definitely make me feel better about myself." Ashley said. Nick put his arms around his husband comforting him. "Let's take a trip to an adoption agency today. Just because society doesn't know about us doesn't mean that we can't live like a normal married couple." Nick said running his hands through Ashley's hair. "You always know how to make me feel better Nicky." Ashley said as he turned around and faced Nick. "You're gonna make a great dad." Both men knew it was a large step to take but the kiss that they shared seemed to make everything better and all their doubters disappear. No one thought they would make it this far but they did. No one thought they could get married but they did. They knew that they defied the odds and their careers were still in their prime. They both felt ready to take it to the next level. "Alex, I said that I had no idea she was coming." Jacob said mid-argument with his boyfriend. "Yeah right." AJ said sitting on the bed that they shared. "I swear to you." Jacob said. "What's the matter? Did you get bored with me? Tried out being gay and it just wasn't working for ya?" AJ said. "I've never seen you act like this." Jacob said. "I'm tired of being shit on Jake. We've been fighting like it's our jobs lately. This just isn't working." AJ said "Stop talking like that. I had no fucking idea she was coming." Jacob yelled out "I know but it's probably a sign telling us something. You were with this girl since you were like 6." AJ said. "I don't care about her anymore." Jacob said. "Are you sure?" AJ asked "When you talk like this I'm just not sure." Jacob said truthfully. "We need some time apart Jake. I'm gonna go get another room." AJ said as he grabbed his suitcase and headed for the door. "Alex, what did you like the best about us?" Jacob asked as he was about to breakdown. "I saw something in your eyes that night on the balcony. I saw myself." AJ said as he walked out of the room and down to the lobby. Jacob walked out of the room and watched his boyfriend step into the elevator and head downstairs. "Trouble in paradise?" A voice came from behind him. Jacob spun on his heels and saw Howie. "I have no idea what just happened. It all happened so fast." Jacob said. "It always does." Howie said. "Wanna come in and talk about it?" Jacob looked at the offer, then turned towards the elevator and looked for AJ. He was of course gone. Jacob remembered the harsh argument, turned back around and headed for Howie's room. The elevator doors opened with the proverbial ping and made his way towards the lobby desk. "I need another room." AJ said. "Of course Mr. McLean. Will your roommate Mr. Underwood be joining you in this room change?" the clerk said. "No, I need one by myself." AJ said. "Yes sir. The only room we have left is on the same floor. Is that ok?" the clerk said. "Yeah that's fine. As long as it's not the same one." AJ said as he took the key. He turned around and headed back towards the elevator. He was about to get in but was stopped by someone running into him. He looked up and it was none other than Janie. "Hey" AJ said awkwardly. "Oh my god, you're AJ McLean. Can I have an autograph?" Janie asked excitedly "You're kidding right? He never told you huh? That's just like him." AJ said. "What are you talking about?" Janie asked "Do you wanna go for a ride?" AJ asked her randomly. "Umm sure. I've got nothing better to do." Janie said as AJ grabbed her hand and led her out to the parking lot. Nick and Ashley let go of their hands as they opened the door to the O-town house but gave a look to each other that said what they were about to do was going to make up for that. They were on their way to the adoption agency to see what they can do about making their lives as normal as it could possibly be. They were in a minor break in the Pop Odyssey tour so each member of the bands had a hotel to stay at but since they were in Atlanta most of them just went back to Orlando. "Ashley! Finally I've gotten a hold of you." A voice came from the driveway. Both men turned and Ashley gasped as he saw the same man that was raving about him being his twin brother at the airport and the restaurant. One of the O-town bodyguards came running up quickly behind the man and grabbed him. "Very sorry guys, he got past me." The bodyguard said. "Hang on a second. Let him go." Ashley said. "Ash, what are you doing?" Nick asked. "Are you sure Mr. Cart...I mean Mr. Angel?" the bodyguard said. "Yeah I'm sure. This guy has been following us for a while now. He's gone from San Diego to Orlando trying to get a hold of me. I think he's got something to tell me." Ashley said. "That's right Ashley I do have something to tell you." The man said. "Let me guess. You're my twin brother." Ashley said. "That's right." The guy said. "Dude, I don't know where you came up with this crazy stunt to meet me but it's getting ridiculous now. You don't even look anything like me." Ashley said. "Twins don't have to be identical." The guy said. "Alright pal whatever you say. Come on in and I'll give you an autograph." Ashley said as the three men made their way into the living room of the house as the bodyguard stayed outside the door. "Ash, I don't know about this. It's all kinda weird." Nick whispered towards him. "Let's hear him out at least." Ashley said. "Alright pal what's your name?" Ashley asked as he took out a piece of paper for him to sign. "Randy." The guy said as Ashley began to sign the paper. "Randy Parker" the guy finished. Ashley dropped the pen. "Alright you got my attention." Ashley said. "What's the matter Ash?" Nick asked. "His last name is Parker." Randy said. "My dad took off when I was real young and my mom remarried my stepdad so I took his last name and moved my last name to my middle name. My real name is Ashley Ward Parker." Ashley said "Ash, I'm getting weirded out by all of this so I'm gonna go. I'll have my cell phone on. Call me when you figure all of this out." Nick said as he walked out. "Hey was that Nick Carter?" Randy asked "Yeah it was." Ashley said getting very confused at all of this. "He seemed pissed." Randy said. "I'll talk to him later. Anyway, look. I really doubt you're my twin brother but I'm willing to listen to you." Ashley said as they both sat down. "Ashley look you've gotta believe me. I'm willing to take a blood test or whatever but I can prove to you that I'm your twin brother." Randy said. "This is ridiculous. There's no way it's true." Ashley said. "Tell me how much you know about before you were born." Randy said. "Well my dad took off when I was like two and I never really bothered my mom about it because I figured she just wanted to get on with her life." Ashley said. "What I'm about to tell you is not gonna be hard to accept but you're just gonna have to. Your mom, our mom had twins. We weren't identical of course but our mom didn't want anyone to know about it. Our parents always had trouble with each other and our mom figured that since our dad was already pissed about one kid he would be even worse with two. She decided that she would give one up for adoption. That one was me. She decided to keep you and send me to an adoption agency as far away from Reading, California as possible. She was looking at a map and saw Redding, Connecticut and decided that it ironically worked. We grew up away from each other and never knew about each other." Randy said. "Hang on a second. This is all crazy." Ashley said getting frustrated. "Ash, tell me that you've never felt it inside of you. Tell me that you've always had a feeling like a part of you was missing. I'm your twin brother Ashley. You just have to accept it." Randy said. "Look even if this is true. It's gonna be super hard to accept but other than that why now? Why did you find me now?" Ashley asked. "That's the second part of my news. My adoption parents died a few years ago from cancer and I had a girlfriend at the time. I got real close with her and her family and I ended up getting too close. We ended up having a kid. We decided to keep it and he's almost two years old now. We were doing good raising him but then my girlfriend and her whole family died in a car accident leaving me with Johnny to myself." Randy said as he pulled out a picture of the cutest blond kid. "I'm sorry to hear that" Ashley said as he looked at the picture. "Here's the problem Ashley and this is where the story gets real crazy." Randy said as Ashley looked up. He saw the look in his eye. "What is it?" Ashley asked. "I'm dying. I've got AIDS. After my girlfriend died, I ended up fooling around with a few guys and must have gotten it since I was being so careless with my life from depression. Johnny doesn't have it and he's very healthy but I don't have much time left. It's a lot to ask, actually it's probably the biggest favor anyone can ask of anyone else but I'm asking you to take Johnny and raise him." Randy said. Both men just looked at each other, neither sure what to do about the issue at hand but both of them knew that their lives were about to be changed. TO BE CONTINUED... <<<>>> ---ND---