Date: Sat, 26 Feb 2000 13:35:37 -0800
From: K_Magic@Prodigy.Net
Subject: Unseen Moments - Chapter Seven (Continuance of Not Meant to Be)

Author's Note:

Some shout outs:

     OMG...here's to Kevin...writer of "2 out of 5" who knows
     that Kyle and JC belong together, so he went and put them
     together in his story.  Thanks for the support Bro.  It's
     amazing that it's been under a month, keep up the good work.
     PBB in leather pants...not an image I want to picture.
     It's all yours.

To my IM buds:

     Rick, my friend..."The One"...get writing...no I take that
     back. Get studying...I'd rather hear that you got A's than
     read another chapter.

     Scott, Poor JC..how could you...Opps forgot about chapter
     3 of "Not Meant to Be." Hey get writing can't wait to read
     your story I like the concept, it's all you.

     Chris, Bro...why the long face. Trust your heart, it will
     lead you to happiness. Don't look for it in those not worthy.
     Run with the story idea and write for fun, that's what it's
     about.

     Joe, Thanks for the V-Day site..I enjoyed it. Oh, got some
     more b-jokes for ya.

To my little Bro's

     Lee, Eye candy's good, but concentrate and study more.  I do
     miss our deep convo's.  Stay golden.

     David, see I don't always call you Davey. You were my first,
     therefore my favorite. But try things before you talk smack...
     Sushi is the bomb.

To: Garret, Joseph, Tonny, Clive and everyone else I missed...You're
    the best, I miss ya all.

So, on with the story. Go with the flow and all that.  If you have any
comments or suggestions, I would love to hear them, so write damn it.

Send them to me at K_Magic@Prodigy.Net

Disclaimer...
This is a fictional story between a fictional character and Members
of NSYNC.  This in no way implies anything about the sexuality or any
thing else of the members of NSYNC.  This is all fiction.

That was one damn long intro...sorry about that.

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Chapter Seven
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"Fuck...fuck....fuck...." escaped my clenched teeth as the airplane
descended onto the runway in New York.  The plane taxied to the terminal
and I got off.  I grabbed my luggage and as I headed towards the exit,
there was a guy dressed in a chauffeur's outfit holding a sign with my
on it.  I walked over to him and introduced myself.  He just turned and
motioned me to follow him.  We exited the terminal and as we walked
passed all the limos, I caught up with him and looked at him closely.

I reached over to his face and tried to grabbed hold of his mustache to
rip it off his face.

"What the hell are you doing?"

"Damn it Josh, what's up with the act....hey is that real...sorry about
that."

He took of his glasses and hugged me.

"I've missed you Jay."

"I've missed you too, Sexy...where's Lance and what is with that get-up?"

"Lance was messing up the steps at rehearsal so he had to stay
after class, plus I wanted to talk to you.  And you know damn well
what is up with the disguise."

We reached the rental car and I threw my luggage into the trunk and
we took off.

"Are you hungry Jay?  We can stop and get dinner...don't worry about
the others, they're ordering pizza at the rehearsal hall."

"Let's go then, but let's stop by the hotel and let me change...So
Josh, what's with the fuzz on the upper lip?"

"I don't know...I just wanted a change...ya know."

"You look really good with it, very handsome."

His eyes started to get teary as we pulled up to the valet station
at the hotel.  We got out and grabbed my luggage.  I waved off the
bellhop and we walked to the elevator and got in.

"What's wrong Josh?"

He turned to me with tears forming in his eyes.

"I don't get it Jay, what is wrong with me...everything was going
good with Scott, then he calls last Sunday and say's he doesn't
want to see me any more and hangs up on me.  I've tried calling
him back, but he never answers his phone.  Why can't I find
happiness Jay...why?"

I pulled him into a hug as the elevator reached our floor. I pulled
him out and we walked out.  He handed me a card-key and he walked
me to my room.  We got into the room and I sat him on the bed.

"Josh, come on now...just cause it didn't work out with Scott, doesn't
mean you won't find happiness...It just means you and Scott were not
meant to be.  The right person for you will come around, just wait and
see.  You are a great guy and there is someone out there waiting for
you."

"Can I ask you something?"

I nodded yes as he looked down at his hands.

"What did he say to you...Why didn't he want to be with me."

"Josh, it's just the type of person Scott is...he need a relationship
that moves a little faster than what you two were going.  It has
nothing to do with you...It's just Scott."

"I don't know if I can move any faster...I'm not ready for that in a
relationship until I know that there's love...but if that's what it
is, I will do it...can you tell him that...please."

"Josh...I won't tell Scott anything.  Don't change yourself just to
please someone.  If you are not ready to take that step, the person
you love should be willing to accept that and wait for you.  Scott
is not the one for you Josh."

"But I could love him, we get along so well, if only I..."

"Josh, please stop this.  You went out with Scott for two weeks, if
you didn't feel you were ready and he felt differently...then you
either need to talk things thru or move on.  It doesn't seem to me
that Scott wants to talk, so I suggest move on."

"I just want what you and Lance have...I want to be as happy in a
relationship as the two of you are."

"Josh, Lance and I don't base our relationship on sex...it's based on
love. Shoot, most of the times we are together, we spend in each other's
arms...talking...just being with each other.  Sure, the sex is good,
but sex without love isn't a relationship...it isn't happiness...do you
understand what I'm trying to say?"

He was looking down at his hands again and nodded.  I grabbed his hand
and pulled him up.

"Come on...let's go eat."

I started to pull him out the door, but he pulled me back into a hug.

"Thanks Jay."

I hugged him back, but he wouldn't let me go.  He started crying.  All
I could do was hold him until he gathered himself.

"Are you ok now?"

He nodded and I pushed him towards the bathroom.

"Go clean yourself up."

Josh washed his face with cold water and fixed his hair and then we
left the hotel and went to a small cafe for dinner.  I tried my best
to cheer him up, it seemed to help but I could tell that he just
wasn't himself.  It was going to take some time for him to recover,
I just hope it wouldn't take him long.

By the time we finished dinner, the others had finished up at the
rehearsal hall and were back at the hotel.  We went back to the
hotel and I gave Josh a hug when we got to our floor.

"Josh, trust your heart...it will lead you to happiness."

"Thanks for everything Jay, I owe you big time."

"It's ok, I just won't set you up with anyone anymore."

"Promises."

"Shut up and get your ass to bed, remember...Rosie tomorrow."

He smiled and walked to his room.  I opened the door and smiled as I
spotted Lance laying on the bed in just a robe.

"You don't know how much I missed seeing you." I said and I walked
over the the bed and sat down.  I leaned over and kissed him.

We broke and I looked down at him.  He was smiling and I just shook
my head.

"What...why are you shaking your head?"

"Nothing, it's just that you don't know how sexy I find that smile of
yours."

"So how was your dinner with Josh...Everything good."

"Yeah...he's hurt, but he'll survive."

"How was your flight?"

"It sucked as usual, I wish I had a blond pop star to hold my hand
though."

Lance got up and walked over to his backpack, pulled out a box and
handed to me.

"And what is this for?"

"It's for next time you are on a plane and I'm not there, you now have
something that will help you remember that I am always with you."

I opened the box and in it was an gold ID bracelet.  I pulled it out
and on the front there was two interlinked hearts.  I turned it over
and the inscription read:  To Jay, my heart belongs to you.  With all
my love JLB.

A tear flowed out of my eye as he reached over and took it out of my
hand and put it on my wrist.  I pulled him ontop of me and kissed him.

"I love you Mr. Bass."

"I love you too, Mr. Martin."

I ran my hand through his hair and pulled his head down into another
kiss.

"Ok now get off me, I need to take a shower."

He rolled off me and I got off the bed.  I went to my suitcase and
grabbed a few things and headed to the bathroom.  Lance followed me
in.  I started the water and got undressed.

"Are you going to join me?"

"Nah..I'll just wait and watch."

"Why Lance...I didn't know you were such a Perv."

I took a quick shower and jumped out.  Lance was waiting for me holding
a towel up.  He walked to me and started drying me off.  Then grabbed
another robe and held it up for me.  I stepped into it and he wrapped
the belt around me and tied it.  He grabbed my hand and led me out.
We laid down on the bed and turned on the tv.  He snuggled into my arms
and before we knew it we were both asleep.

The next thing I knew, it was morning and I was being awakened by this
pain in the ass blond guy who I truly, madly and deeply love...But me
and 6am do not get along.  It took some poking, tickling and finally
some kissing to finally get me up, oh and wake me up too.

"Come on Jay, hurry up...breakfast is on it's way and the guys will be
over in a few minutes."

"Ok...ok...I'm done."  I said stepping out of the shower.  I dried
myself off and wrapped a towel around my waist and walked over to him.
He was standing in front of the mirror fixing his hair.

"It's about time, hurry and get dress."

"Yes sir."

I ran my hands through my hair and kissed him on the neck and then
rubbed my wet hands through his nicely styled hair and then ran like
hell.

"Asshole" was heard from the bathroom, right before the door slammed.
I got dressed and finished drying my hair.  There was a knock at the
door and I opened it to find Joey.

"Hey Jay." He said walking in but stayed at the door.

"Hey Joey, you can come in you know."

"Oh...I will...it's just that JC is down the hall signing for breakfast
and is wheeling it down here...I'm holding the door for him."

Just then a cart was wheeled through the door followed by JC and Chris.

"Good morning Chris, Good morning Josh...hey what happened to the fuzz?"

"Hey Jay" Chris said.

"Well you know, got to be clean for all the fans and all."

"Too bad, you looked real sexy with it."

"Where's Lance?"  Joey asked closing the door.

"Still fixing his hair, you know him...he takes longer than a woman to
get ready."

Just then the bathroom door opened.

"You're such an ass" Lance said as he walked up behind me and messed up
my hair.  I just ran my hands through it again and it was back to what
it looked like before.

"See Lance...2.5 seconds and my hair is done....unlike your 8.4 minutes."

"Shut up....speaking of hair, where's the curly haired one."

"I don't know if he's up yet, maybe you and Jay should go wake him again."

"No way, Josh...I don't know about Lance, but I am not going near that
guy when he is sleeping."

Everyone started laughing as the door opened and Justin walked in.

"What's so funny?"

"Oh nothing, we were just remembering Lance's ice fetish." I said smiling
at Lance.

"Oh yeah...Lance that is so weird." Justin said closing the door behind him.

"Not as weird as you starting to wac..."

"Lance...here's your plate" I said throwing a plate to him interrupting him
before he could finish his sentence.  He caught it and glared at me.

"I don't see why I have to have the "Ice" fetish...just because he..."

"Lance..." I said interrupting him again.

All while this had been going on, Josh, Joey and Chris where laughing like
crazy.

Justin had grabbed a plate, filled it and sat down next to Joey.

"What is all that about."

"Believe me Curly, you don't want to know...believe me you don't want to
know the truth."

"We should just tell him, then we don't have to listen to Lance whine any
more."

"No Chris, we're fine...right Lance."

Lance just nodded his head as he began to fill his plate and sat down in
an empty chair.  No where near where I was already sitting.  We finished
our breakfast in silence and headed out. The limo ride to the studio was
also quiet.

We go to the studio and where taken into the green room.  Josh pulled
Chris, Joey and Justin out of the room and told us to talk and shut
door.  I went and sat next to Lance.

"I'm sorry Lance, it's just that I think embarrassing Justin like that
would be wrong."

"But it's ok to embarrass me."

"Come on Lance...we all know it's not true...well except Justin, but
come on...it doesn't really matter does it."

"No...but..."

"Lance...come on...please don't be mad...your pissed off face does
nothing for you...and the audience isn't going to like it very much
and neither do I."

I leaned over to his ear and started to blow in it, and then whispered
into it.

"And if you don't get over this, I'm going to strip you, tie you to the
bed and take ice to your nipples."

He started to chuckle.

"Forgiven?"

He smiled.  "Forgiven...but it doesn't mean we can't do the ice thing
tonight..."

"Ohhhh Lance is a little perv..."

I leaned over and kissed him.  There was a knock at the door and Josh
poked his head in.

"Everything cool."

We broke the kiss and nodded and the guys all came in.  About 15 minutes
before the show started I left and took my seat in the first row.  The show
was great...their first performance was "Bye, Bye, Bye and Lance made it
through without a mistake...he actually looked good dancing.  During
the interview, he looked sexy up there half hanging off his chair.  He
kept looking at me in the audience with his half smirk that I found so
sexy.

During the game show part where they were to name the song sung by a
duet, Lance, JC and Justin were teamed up against Rosie, Chris and Joey.
Lance's team was getting smeared.  Josh finally got one and Justin and
Lance had to name who sang Beauty and the Beast.  Justin thought it was
Peabo Bryson and Regina Bell...Peabo was right but they didn't know the
other.  Lance looked at me, but I didn't have a clue.  The woman sitting
next to me said Celine Dion and Lance heard it and answered it and was
right.

Then it happened, Lance was up against Rosie for the last one and it
played and Lance rang in.  He started to sing the song doing this little
dance.  When asked what the title was, he said "Oh my gosh, that like my
favorite movie" and then answered "You're the one that I want" doing his
little dance...Now if the world didn't know that Lance was leaning towards
an alternative lifestyle, they did now.  Josh was able to answer it right
and they pulled even with Rosie's team.  There was a break after that and
the guys left the stage so it could be set up for their final number.

My cell started to ring.

"Hello"

"Hey Jay...this is Josh."

"Hold on a sec."

I got up and walked out into the hallway.

"Hey Josh...what's up."

"So, how did you like your boyfriend out there."

"Well, I think that the whole world will now know that there is a possibility
that he has a boyfriend."

"Yeah, we been teasing him about that since we left the stage....Hey, I just
wanted to tell you this next song is for you from Lance."

"Why isn't he on the phone telling me this."

"Because he knew that he would get emotional and that isn't what we need.
Especially after his little homo giggy out there, we don't need him breaking
down and crying during the song.  Just know that we are singing this for you
from Lance, ok."

"Ok"

"I'll talk to you after the show."

"Thanks Josh."

I went back to my seat and waited about 5 minutes and then Rosie came back
from intermission. Then the guys started singing a new song that I hadn't
heard before.


    (Justin)
When visions around you
Bring tears to your eyes
And all that surround you
Are secrets and lies
I'll be your strength
I'll give you hope
Keeping your faith when it's gone
The one you should call
I'm standing here all alone
    (all)
And I will take you in my arms
And hold you right were you belong
    (Justin)
Til the day my life is thru
This I promise you
This I promise you
    (JC)
I've loved you forever
And life times before
And I promise you never
Will you hurt anymore
I give you my word
I give you my heart
This is the battle we won
And with this vow
Forever has now begun
    (all)
Just close your eyes
With each loving day
And know this feeling won't go away
    (JC)
Til the day my life is thru
This I promise you
    (Justin)
Every word I say is true
This I promise you
I promise you


As they finished the song, Rosie came out and said something to them,
but I didn't hear a word she said.  I just sat there with a tears in
my eyes remember how Lance would look at me and smile during the song.
It was such a beautiful song.  I wanted Lance in my arms...I couldn't
wait to get back to the hotel and be with him.  I didn't feel like
sitting through the rest of the taping, so I went and waited in the
limo.  I sat there in my own little world, replaying them singing the
song over and over again in my mind for about 30 minutes.  The door to
the limo opened and Justin popped his head in.

"Here you are, we've been searching all over for you...I'll be back in
a sec."

About a minute later, all the guys jumped in the limo.  Lance sat next
to me and kissed me on the cheek.

"What did you think of the song?"

"I loved it...It is so beautiful."

I grabbed his hand and kissed it.

"Thank you."

"Geesh, as if he sang the song by himself."

"Ok Justin, thank you for singing such a beautiful song and thank you
too Josh...you put so much emotion in the song, I had to leave before
I started to cry." I said as I pretended to wipe the tears out of my
eyes.

"Shut up." he said as he kicked me in the leg.

"Seriously Josh, you sang it so beautifully.  I didn't realized what a
great voice you have...I am so jealous, I wish I could sing that good."

"I wish you did too, so we could get rid a the big bozo the clown looking
fool and have a group of good looking men."

"Or Chris, we could get rid of you and have a group of young good looking
men."

They both started to push their shoulder up against each other, trying
to push one another against the side of the limo.  Unfortunately, Justin
was sitting on the other side of Chris.

"Hey, knock it of you assholes."

As soon as Justin said that, they both stopped.  They looked at each
other, nodded and both at the same time slid across the seat pinning
Justin between Chris and the side of the limo.  Joey put his feet up
against the other side and added leverage to his push.

Justin's face started to turn red and he couldn't talk.

"Say uncle Curly." Chris said, starting to turn red himself.

"No way, promise to wash both our cars for a month."

"Come on, hurry up...Joey's killing me here.

"HIIIII Prommmmisssse" Justin managed to force out.

"Ok Joey get off."

"No way Chris, promise that you'll come mow my lawn for a month."

"Fuck you."

With that Joey straightened both his legs adding more pressure.

"Promise."

"Hooookaaaaay...get off."

Joey got off and Justin and Chris both called him an asshole at
the same time.

"Okay you two, be over this Wednesday, my parents are coming in
for Thanksgiving and I want my car to be shining and the grass
to be trimmed."

They both just snarled at him.  Josh, Lance and I kept our comments
to ourselves.  We didn't want to end up doing Joey's laundry or
vacuuming.  We got back to the hotel room and I headed to the room
while the guys went over to Kenny's room.  I laid down on the bed
and my pager started to go off.  I looked at it and it was the
number 600.

"What the hell?"

Just then the phone started to ring.

"Hello."

"Jay, grab your stuff and head over to Kenny's room."

"Why, what's going on."

"I'll explain later...forgot what the 600 code was didn't you."

"Shut up Lance."

"Ha...I'll see you in a bit."

"Bye, you blond spawn of the devil."

"I'll tell my mom you speak so highly of her."

I hung up and grabbed my stuff and headed over to Kenny's room.
Lance opened the door for me.

"Hey Jason."

"Hey Kenny...remember...it's Jay."

"Sorry, I hate to do this to you, but we are getting visited by
some of the execs from Jive Records and they want to meet individually
with the guys in their rooms, they will be here in about 2 hours and
will probably be here real late.  They don't know about Lance and you,
so we decided to play it safe and have you bunk over here."

Lance walked over to me and hugged and kissed me.

"I'll make it up to you, I promise."

"You bet your sweet ass you will."

"Ohhh so you have tasted his ass...just like candy huh."

"I knew it...see Lance, I told you Joey's been watching your ass, now
he even wants a taste."

"Ewww Jay, that is pretty gross.  I think I'll pass on that one."

"So Jay, what time is your flight tomorrow?"

"At 1 pm, do I get a boyband escort to the airport tomorrow."

"Sorry, I doubt we'll get to see you at all tomorrow.  Lance didn't you
tell him?"

"Well gee Justin, thanks...I was waiting until we were alone to break
it to him."

"Oh shit, I'm sorry Lance...."

"Tell me what?"

"Well Jay, we kinda have to go back to Rosie's studio at 8 am tomorrow to
record a song for her Tv Christmas special, then we are flying out for
a concert in Toronto at 11am."

"So I won't be able to see you tonight and I might catch a glimpse of you
tomorrow."

"Sorry, like I said...I'll make it up to you on Thanksgiving...I promise you."

I walked over and sat next to Kenny on the couch.

"It's cool Lance, I'll just take this time to get to know the other man in
my life...Hey what is the trade in value on a slightly used blond boy band
singer who tends to be real annoying in the morning."

He pouted his lower lip out and then ran over and jumped onto my lap.

"Sorry, no trade in's allowed."

The guys got up and left and Kenny went to run a errand.  Lance and I just
sat there on the couch in each other's arms for the next two hours until
the people from Jive came.  Kenny and I watched a movie and headed for
bed.  He offered to share the bed, but I decided to take the couch.
I woke up at 7 to see the guys off and say my good bye to Lance.  Then
they were gone again and I was alone.

"Price of fame" I kept reminding myself over and over again on the plane
ride home.  My mind was to distracted to worry about the take off and
landing.  I got home and just laid there on the couch.

About 4 pm, Scott came home.

"Hey Jay...can we talk."

"Scott...What's up?"

"I know you think I'm a total ass for what I did, I'm sure you heard. I..."

"Listen Scott, I do not judge people...You did what you thought was best
for both you and Josh...I'm fine with it...Just next time, can you be
a little more gentle with people's emotions."

He nodded...but kept quiet.

"Is there something else."

"Um sorry to do this on such short notice, but I'm moving to New York...
I'm leaving on Friday.  My agent got me a audition for a play and I got
the lead...it's a 5 month run.  I'm moving in with one of my cousins.

"That is so cool...I am so happy for you Scott..."

"Thanks"

"I'm going to miss you Scott."

"Hey, I'm here for a few more days...We still have Thanksgiving...
you cooking."

"Yeah."

"Cool...Is Lance coming."

"Yeah."

"How about Josh."

"I don't think so."

"If you want him to come, I can..."

"Don't you even finish that sentence, I am not missing the chance
to spend the final day with you in this house."

"Cool, but..."

"Dude, no buts..Josh will understand."

"Thanks, I got to go finalize things at work, I'll talk to you
later."

"Ok...Later."

Scott went to his room, changed and left.  I just sat there thinking
about how my life had changed in a few short months.

I picked up the phone and dialed.

"Hello"

"Hey Bro...What's up?"

"Hey Jay, not much...how's the life of a big time model."

"Same-o same-o...hey got any plans for the 30th."

"What is that a Tuesday?"

"Yeah."

"Not much...I took this week and next off. Why?"

"Cause I'll be out in Cali, can you make it up to Sacro in the A.M."

"Sounds cool, sorry to cut this short Bro, but I gotta get going.
I'll catch you then."

"Ok...see ya then."

"Bye"

"Bye"