Date: Wed, 22 Sep 1999 17:15:59 GMT
From: Nathaniel O'Leary <nathanielstories@hotmail.com>
Subject: Question of faith part 8

Wahey another part! A big thank you to all the readers who sent me
feedback! Toby, mate, this story would never be where it is now without you
helping me and guiding me!

Disclaimer: this story is pure fiction. As far as I know none of the
members of 5ive, Nsync or the BackstreetBoys are gay. I have no
relationship or connection with the bands, the management, their family or
friends.


Question of Faith part 8

Nick stared at the tear rolling down Kevin's cheek. He reached out with his
finger and wiped it away. Kevin opened his eyes and covered Nick's hand.

'Why didn't you tell me?' He whispered.

'I was so angry. I was in so much pain.' Nick stepped closer. 'I was
confused. One day I was fine the next day I was so sick. I had no idea what
was happening.'

Kevin had to restrain himself from pulling Nick in his arms.

'I was angry with you. With the whole world, actually. Each night you did
what I love most and I would be lying in bed, alone. I don't know what I
was thinking that night. I just wanted get back at someone. Get back for
all the pain and agony I've been through.'

Nick shook his head.

'But I was wrong. All I did was push the only person that really cared
away.'

Nick lowered his hand and pulled it free from Kevin's grip. 'I'm not going
to die. With medication I should be back to my old self within a few
months. I'm sorry, Kevin. I didn't mean to hurt you.' Nick opened the door
and wanted to walk away.

Kevin grabbed his hand and pulled him back in. He kicked the door closed
and cupped Nick's face. 'Don't push me away again. Never ever.'

Kevin bent forward and kissed Nick with all he had inside. Nick whimpered
softly when Kevin broke the kiss. Kevin wrapped his long arms around Nick
and pulled the young boy close.

'Will you do me a favour?' Whispered Kevin.

He could feel Nick nod against his chest.

'Will you take me out of my misery and tell me what is wrong with you?'

Nick mumbled something.

Kevin slowly pushed him away. 'Sorry?'

'I have a disease that is related to Mono. Most of its symptoms are the
same as HIV or cancer. A very persistent stomach bug that took advantage of
my weak body caused the throwing up. It has some weird Latin name.'

Kevin hugged Nick again. 'I love you.'

Nick looked at Kevin. 'I love you more.'

Kevin started laughing. 'Impossible.'

Nick flashed his famous grin. 'Want to bet?'

Kevin cocked an eyebrow. Nick slid his hands from Kevin's broad back to the
waistband of his jeans. Kevin grabbed his wrist.

'Not in here. Brian will get a fit.' Kevin took Nick's hand and quickly
dragged him across the hall to his room. He closed the door and walked to
the bed.

'Kevin?' Asked Nick with a small voice.

 Kevin turned around.

Nick had a thoughtful look on his face. 'Do I have anything to fear from
Glenn? I mean will he ever be a threat to us?'

Kevin shook his head. 'Glenn never was or will be a person you should
fear. He is a friend. And besides I like skinny guys.'

Nick frowned. 'I'm not skinny.'

To prove his point his took off his shirt. 'See? I'm all muscles.'

Kevin bit his lip not to laugh.

Nick took off his pants. 'And look at my legs. I've been working out.'

'I can tell. Damn I love you.' Said Kevin in a hoarse voice.

He admired the young man's body for a minute and pulled him closer. His
lips closed around Nick's earlobe. Immediately Nick started to
shiver. Kevin moved his lips down to Nick's throat. He sucked on the
sensitive spot at the base of the blonde's throat. Kevin followed an
invisible trail to Nick's already hard nipple. He tugged at the bud with
his teeth. Nick wanted to move, touch Kevin the same way Kevin's hands
moved over his body but he was frozen. He couldn't even whimper. Kevin
licked Nick's stomach. He chuckled as he saw the first signs of a well
developed six pack. He dipped his tongue in Nick's belly button. Suddenly
Nick came alive. He let out a load moan.

'God, don't stop.' Muttered the young man.

Kevin hooked his fingers under the waistband of Nick's boxers and pulled it
down. He brushed the tips of his fingers past his inner thigh. Nick laced
his hand through Kevin's hair to steady him self. Kevin blew on the tip of
Nick's trembling erection. A few drops of pre cum glimmered on his swollen
head. Kevin flicked his tongue and lapped them up. He licked the shaft up
and down. He ignored the pleas of Nick to take him in his mouth. With his
hands he kneaded Nick's butt. He sucked on his balls and the little spot
between his sac and the base of his shaft. Finally he took Nick's erection
in his mouth. His tongue darted round the shaft. Kevin took a firm hold of
Nick's hips and started sucking on him in a fast pace.

'Oh god.' Whispered Nick, his voice hoarse from passion.

Kevin eagerly swallowed Nick's cum as he shot his load in Kevin's
mouth. Kevin gave a small kiss on Nick's head and caught the boy as he sank
to his knees. Neither of them heard the soft click of a closing door.
========== Brian sang happily to himself as he opened the door to his hotel
room.

'J...J..Jane.' He stuttered seeing who it was.

'Hello Brian, can I come in?'

Brian nodded.

Jane walked to the middle of the room and turned around. 'How long has this
being going on and why did I have to find out the way I did?'

'How, what?'

Jane sighed. 'I just walked into my son's room and he was getting a
blow-job. From a man.' Jane said emphasising the last word.

Brian paled. 'I don't know nothing Jane.'

Jane walked to Brian and forced him to look her straight in the
eyes. 'Don't lie to me Brian.'

Brian turned his head and stared at the wall. 'They got together when I was
in hospital. Nick never told you as he thought you wouldn't understand.'

Jane slowly let go of Brian. 'He and Kevin are involved since your
operation?'

Brian nodded, a single tear running down his cheek. He had betrayed his
best friend and cousin.

Jane sat down on the bed. 'My little boy.'

'He is not little anymore.' Said Brian with tears in his voice.

'No, Kevin took that away from him.'

Brian shook his head. 'Nick has been through so much. First I was in
hospital than he got sick and no one knew what it was.'

'Sick?' Repeated Jane.

Brian wanted to smack himself. 'I know Nick never told you this.'

Jane could only blink in surprise.

'Nick was getting very thin and tired so Kevin took him to the doctors. I
think he went to every doctor in the country. No one knew what was wrong
with him. Someone pointed out to Kevin that he might have HIV. He had the
most horrible tests. But they were for cancer. And this doctor suddenly had
a bright idea. And it turned out to be a disease related to Mono. He is
happy now.' Ended Brian his babbling.

Jane shook her head. 'He will never be happy with Kevin.'

Brian sighed. 'Fine Jane, what ever you say.'

Jane got up. 'I need to think.'

Brian opened the door. 'I understand. Night Jane.'

'Good night Brian.'


Dinner was quiet that evening. Nick was upstairs trying to get some
sleep. Even tough he had medication now he still needed his rest. Suddenly
the door opened and two police officers walked in.

'God, Lexie, lucky woman.' Yelled Scott. 'I didn't know it was your
birthday.'

Everyone started laughing.

'I only want you to strip for me Scott.' Yelled Lexie back.

The police officers made their way to the middle of the room. 'We are
looking for Kevin Scott Richardson.'

Kevin slowly rose to his feet. 'I am Kevin.'

One of the police officers walked to him and grabbed his arm. 'Kevin Scott
Richardson, you are arrest for the statutory rape of Nickolas Gene
Carter. You have the right to remain silent. Anything you say can and will
be used against you in a court of law.'

Kevin slowly turned his head to Lexie. Fear was in his eyes.

AJ jumped up. 'He never raped Nick.'

Howie pulled AJ back. 'Don't make matter worse.'

The officers handcuffed Kevin and drag him out of the room.


Denise was the first to speak again. 'Please tell me I am dreaming.'

Brian shook his head. 'It is all my fault.'

Chris and Joey stood up. 'We are not hungry anymore.' They shot the
remaining backstreet boys a pair of dirty looks.

JC stared at the other table. 'Kevin raped Nick?'

Lexie stood up. 'I need to take care of some business. I'll be back later.'

She quickly kissed JC and ran off. She decided to take the stairs to the
fifth floor. Without knocking she flew into Nick's room.

Nick shot up in bed. 'Where is the fire?'

Lexie sat down on the bed. 'No fire Nick.'

Nick sensed something was wrong. 'Lexie? What it wrong?'

Lexie stared at her hands. 'You need to come with me to the police
station.'

'Why?' Nick was getting very worried.

'They arrest Kevin for raping you.'

Nick jumped out of bed. He grabbed his sneakers and walked to the door.

'Let's go.' Lexie walked to him. 'He will be okay.'

Nick looked at her with tears in his eyes. 'He is gay Lexie. God knows what
they will do to him.'

=============== Kevin sat in front of the police officers that arrested
him.

'I am going ask you one more time. Did you rape Nick Carter?'


Kevin shook his head. 'I am not saying a word until my lawyer gets here.'

The man snorted. 'Who would like to defend a fag like you?'

Kevin knew they were trying to get him angry in order to get a confession
out of him.

One of the police officer walked to him and grabbed his hair and pulled his
head back. 'You know Mr. Richardson. You may be famous but we still don't
like fags around here. Now answer the question and you can go to bed or we
have to take other measures.'

'I am not saying a word.' Hissed Kevin.

'Wrong answer!' And the police officer slammed his fist in Kevin's
stomach. The pain caused Kevin to black out for a few seconds. 'Now be a
good fag and answer the question.'

'No.' Whispered Kevin.

Again the officer hit him in his stomach.

'I'll sue you for this.' Managed Kevin to say before he passed out.

The officer let go of his hair. 'Useless fag.'

He smiled at his colleague. 'Get a bucket of water. I want to have some fun
with him here.'

============ 'Nick slow down.' Lexie grabbed his hand. 'You are sick. You
are no help if you pass out on me.'

Nick slowed down his walking speed. Together they climbed the steps to the
police station.

'Now let me do the talking, okay?'

Nick nodded. He opened the door and let Lexie in. She walked to the
reception.

'Hello, I am here to see the chief please.'

The man eyed Lexie up and down. 'And who can I say is here for her?'

'Lexie Gately.'

The man sniggered and continued his work.

'Excuse me?'

He looked up again. 'Yes Madame?'

'One of my friends got arrested today and I am here to pick him up.'

'And he got arrested for what?'

 'Statutory rape.'

The police officer started laughing. 'Forget it missy. He is not coming
home today.'

Lexie slammed her fist on the desk. 'I am his lawyer and I demand to see
him or to speak to your chief.'

Nick looked at Lexie with a surprised look on his face. 'You are a lawyer?'

 ' Not now Nick.'

The man grabbed a phone and made a few phone calls. 'The chief will be down
in a few seconds.'

As soon as he said those words a tall dark haired man walked down the
stairs. 'Lexie Gately?'

Lexie turned around. 'Daniel.'

'How can I help you?'

'I am the lawyer for the Boys on Tour tour and one of the members got
arrested today.'

Daniel smiled at her. 'Shall we continue this in my office?'

Lexie nodded. 'Come on Nick.'

They walked to the man's office in silence.  Daniel motioned Lexie and Nick
to sit down. 'Tell me the whole story.'

'Kevin was arrested for statutory rape.'

Daniel whistled through his teeth. 'That is serious.'

Nick opened his mouth.

'I am doing the talking Nick.'

Daniel looked at Nick. 'And who is he?'

'That is the man's boyfriend. I can get you several witnesses who can claim
Nick was never raped.'

Daniel looked confused. 'Now tell me the whole story again.'

Lexie told him everything she knew. Occasionally Nick would nod in
agreement.

Daniel crossed his arms. 'Hmm. Let me get Mr. Richardson in here.' He
picked up the phone and dialled a number. Suddenly he started
cursing. 'Lexie, can you come outside with me for a second?'



Lexie turned around to face Daniel as soon as they were outside.

'You can't see him tonight.'

'Why not?'

'It seems my officers had a bit of fun. I apologise for that.'

'Fun?'

'It is an old state. People live by the bible, Lexie. They don't like gays
here.'

Lexie muffled a cry. 'Can I see him?'

Daniel shook his head. 'No Lexie.'

'Daniel!'

Daniel grabbed her arm. 'Lexie, your father and I may have been friends but
that doesn't give you any rights.'

'So I should just leave while Kevin is somewhere in here, alone facing the
mercy of your officers.  Let me see him or you have to face the biggest
claim you have ever seen in your whole life.'

Daniel couldn't help but smile.

Lexie heard a soft whimper behind her and turned around. Nick looked at her
and fainted.

Lexie slowly turned to see what caused the flicker of pain on Nick's face
before he fainted. Two officers held Kevin in between them. Blood and
saliva dripped from his mouth.

Lexie gasped. 'Let him go.'

The two police officers dropped Kevin on the floor and Lexie ran to him.

'Kevin? Kevin, can you hear me?'

Lexie looked up at Daniel.

'We are not done here.' She hissed.

Lexie pulled out her mobile phone and called for an ambulance. Lexie turned
Kevin on his back and cried when she saw his face. Blood oozed from a cut
above his eyebrow. His left eye was swollen and a deep cut ran over his
lips. Lexie brushed his hair out of his face. Kevin stirred and opened his
right eye.

'I didn't say a word.' Whispered Kevin.

'I.. I...Nick is here.'

Kevin closed his eye. 'I love...'

Kevin drifted back in unconsciousness. Lexie jumped to her feet and grabbed
Daniel. She shoved him against the wall and prevented him from doing
anything by blocking his win pipe with her arm.

'My father may have been good friends with you but I hate you at this
moment. There will be a lawsuit so big and ugly you'll be patrolling the
streets again before you can say what the fuck just happened.'

Lexie stepped away and kneeled down next to Nick. She cradled his head in
her lap and waited for the paramedics to arrive.


========= 'So.'

Chris looked at the other four band members. Justin was curled up in a ball
at the end of the couch Lance sat on. JC and Joey sat on the two chairs
opposite of Chris.

'We have two things to discuss. First of all, the backstreet boys.'

Chris paused a second.

'I have no plans of touring with queers. And if Nick and Kevin are each
others ass buddies who knows what the rest of them are.'

Justin shivered. He didn't know Chris hated gays. He glanced over at JC. He
was almost expecting JC to blurt out his secret.

'Can we just ignore them? I mean we don't have to spend time with them?'
Lance looked at Chris.  'I've seen the others take girls up to their room
all the time.'

Joey nodded in agreement.

'I never knew normal guys like Nick and Kevin would be gay.' Said JC,
speaking for the first time in days.

Justin cringed. Those words hurt him.

'Yeah.' Said Chris and Joey in unison.

'But didn't you like them before you knew they were gay?' Asked Justin in a
small voice.

Chris sighed. 'No Curly, that has nothing to do with the matter. What if
they come after you at night? Huh? God the thought of that makes me so
sick.'

Justin turned his head. He couldn't bare the look of disgust in Chris'
eyes.

Joey emptied his can of coke and burped loudly. 'Now to the next
matter. You, JC, and you, Justin both told us you wanted to leave the band
after this tour. We'd like to know if you still plan to do that.'

Justin stared at his hands. He didn't want to say anything until JC said
something.

'I'm willing to stay as long as I don't have to work closely with him.' The
hate and anger was very clear in JC's voice.

Justin looked up. 'I don't want to leave the band.' He tried to hold back
his tears but one escaped.

'Cry baby.' Muttered JC under his breath.

Justin looked at him. 'What did you just say?'

JC got up and walked to Justin. 'I called you a cry baby.'

'I'm not a cry baby.'

'Oh no, I forgot. You are a murderer.'

Justin rose to his feet. 'When will you forgive me?'

JC shook his head. 'Listen Blondie. I will never forgive you for killing my
child.'

Justin surprised him self with his next move. He pushed JC away and tried
to get to the door.

JC pulled him back. 'Listen to me you bastard. You are so damn lucky I
don't file charges against you. For all I care you belong on death row.'

JC shoved Justin hard. Justin lost his balance and fell on his back. He hit
his head on the corner of the coffee table. Lance gasped in surprise. Joey
kneeled next to Justin. He had his eyes open but he didn't seem to see
anything.

'Just?' Joey carefully shook his shoulder. 'Justin?' Joey looked up. 'I
think he is unconscious.'

JC paled. 'God, tell him I'm sorry.' And he ran out of the room.

============ With a little persuasion on Lexie's side the doctors released
Kevin the next morning. Nick and Lexie helped him get upstairs without the
others seeing him. Lexie gave Kevin his painkillers and turned to Nick.

'Are you sure you can manage until I return? I'm down the hall if you need
me.'

Nick nodded.

Lexie hugged him. 'You've been strong Nick. Don't blame your self for
this.'


Nick nodded and stared at Kevin. He sat down on the edge of the bed. He
reached out and brushed a lock of hair out of Kevin's face. Kevin fluttered
his eyes open and tried to smile but the stitches in his lips prevented him
from doing that.

'Sh, don't say anything.'

Kevin grabbed Nick's hand and squeezed it.

'God, Kevin, who would do this to us?'

'I would.'

Nick swirled around. His mother stood in the middle of the room.

'Mum? What are you doing here?'

Jane looked at her son. 'I wanted to surprise you. But you surprised me.'

Nick didn't look at his mother. 'Did you file charges against Kevin?'

Jane nodded.

'Why?' Cried Nick. 'I love him.'

Jane shook her head. 'Nick, you don't love Kevin. This is a phase you are
going through.'

'No, mum I really love Kevin.'

Jane sighed. 'He took advantage of you when you were in an unstable
emotional state. He raped you and made you think that what you were feeling
was love.'

Nick rose from the bed. 'How can you say something like that? Kevin took
care of me when I was sick.'

Jane snorted. 'I heard you were sick. How come we didn't know? Did he tell
you to keep it a secret?'

Nick shook his head. 'No, I never wanted to tell you because I thought you
would make me stop touring.'

Jane walked to her son. 'You are right about that. Kevin didn't think. He
forced you to perform while you were sick.'

'Stop talking about Kevin like he isn't in the room.' Shouted Nick.

Jane ignored him. 'Can't you see that he tried to estrange you from your
family? I want to know something Nick. And don't you dare lie.'

Nick raised his head and looked at his mother.

'All those times you had to be in Orlando. Did you have some promotional
thing for the band or did you go to Kevin.'

'I went to see Kevin.' Mumbled Nick.

Jane raised her arms. 'He made you lie to us, he took away your
innocence. He doesn't love you.' Said Jane bitterly.

 Nick looked at Kevin. Kevin stared at him with a defeated look in his
eyes.

'I'm giving you a choice here Nick.'

Nick looked back at his mother.

'If you continue to believe that man loves you, I won't let you see the
family again. Ever! Or you can chose for your family and forget Kevin.'

Nick sank to his knees. 'Don't do this mom. I love him.'

'Your family or him, Nick.'

'What about the band?'

'I'll make sure he will never touch you again as long as he lives while you
are in this band. Tell me what your choice will be, Nick.'

Nick closed his eyes and realised no matter what choice he made he would
end up hurting someone he loved. He stumbled to his feet and told Jane his
decision.

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