Date: Fri, 12 Jan 2001 08:54:21 From: eric leung Subject: Gay_Celebrity_Bod-band_Silver Bicycle Part 4 The following story is only fiction, I don't said that any member of 98 degree is gay or what and I don't know them personally...and if you are under 18 or you are offence by homo-sex, please leave. thanks for the people who give me the advice. thank you very much. Hope you enjoy the story. i know my english is not so good and hope you understand what i am saying. And i really need to find someone to help me to proofread. if ayone can help me, please email me. Silver Bicycle Part 4 When we got back to home, both of us were soaked. We took a really hot bath together. He washed my back and rubbed my shoulder. I enjoyed every moment. After the hot bath, I went in the kitchen and made two hot chocolate for us, Walter sat on the floor, used a cloth to clean up the bicycle. I gave the hot chocolate to him and he smiled to me. My heart was so warm when every time he smiled to me. He was so concentrate on his work; he tried to make the bicycle shine. He was so cute when he was concentrate on his work. After he finished his work, I pull him up from the floor. "I am so hungry, let's have dinner." I said. He agreed, so I started to cook our dinner and he went to Blue checked about his business. Thirty minutes later, he still didn't come back, so I decided to go down the restaurant to find him. When I opened the door, I saw Walter sat on the stairs. His face was so pale, I ask him what happened, he didn't answer me, and his body was shaking. He used his hands to wrap around his body. I put my hand on his forehead and it was so hot. I thought he got a fever after we played in rain whole day. I carried him in the apartment. I was so worry but he kept refuse going to hospital. "Please, I will be ok tomorrow, just hug me tight tonight. I don't want to feel lonely tonight." He said. He put out a candle from the washroom and ignited it. Then he turned off all the light and put the candle on the coffee table. We sat on the sofa and I hug him so tight and kept him warm. His face was so pale but kept smile to me. I was so worry but I couldn't refuse his wish. I was...so worry and I wanted to cry but I refuse. I try my best to hold my tears. "Andrew, can you smell it?" Walter asked. "Smell what, sweety" I asked "The smell of the candle." He said "Yeah, the smell is so special." "It's a candle that made by lavender. I loved lavender, it's so beautiful." "Hmmm..." Are you listening Andrew?" he elbowed me. "Yeah, I am listening" I said. "Stop worry about me. I will be ok tomorrow. Believe me." "Ok..." I said He kept talking about the lavender and finally, he fell in sleep. I watched him sleep. He looked so peaceful and beautiful. I had a feeling that Walter was hiding something. I was so worry but I esteem him because I loved him. I knew he loved me but he looked like didn't want to interrupt my life. We never talked about our future or...we didn't have future? Every time when I want to talk about our future, he would avoid the topic. He seems don't want to affect my life, my career. And he knew I have a girlfriend. I want to be with him forever. I can give up everything. But I said before, I esteem his wish. We love each other, but bot of us knew we couldn't stay together forever. I couldn't hold my tears anymore, I started sobbing and the only thing I could do was hug him tighter. I didn't want to think anymore, it was so painful... The other day, we went to the beach and we just sat on the beach whole day. We didn't talk much. He hug me so tight, and kept saying he love me. When we watch the sunset. My cell rang suddenly. "Hello?" "Hi honey, it's me. How's your vacations?" a voice came form other end of the phone. "Oh...Lea. How are you? I am good." I said. I stood up and walked away Walter. I didn't want him hears the conversation. "I miss you honey. When will you back?" Lea said. "Oh...maybe next week. I am not sure. Lea, my phone is out of battery. I will call you later ok? Bye" then I turn off my phone. I walked back to Walter. He tried to smile to me but a tear fall down from his eyes. And he couldn't hold his tears anymore. I hug him and he cried on my shoulder. And I was crying too. "I don't care anymore. I love you Walter. I can give up anything for you. Please stay with me. I will never leave you." I said. "No. We can't. You know you can't. It's too selfish." "I don't care. I only care about you. I love you." Walter tried to run away. But I hug him so tight. I didn't let him go. Both of us were crying. I forced him to look at me but he avoided looking at my eyes. I was so painful. "Andrew, please let me go. I am only a dirty shit. I had sex with lots of guys before. I am so dirty. I am not worth you to give up everything..." he said weakly. "I never think you are dirty. You are the most important person in my life." "But I can't forget my past. I am only a sex toy." "No, I don't let you go." He slapped my face suddenly and I was so shock. I could see the painful in his eyes, I let him go and he disappeared in front of me. I sat down on the beach and just looked at the sea... I didn't know how long I sat on the beach. I decided to go to the hotel and stayed a night. When I stood ups and turned around, I saw Walter stood in frond of me. "Sorry, I...I don't know why I slap you. I am so sorry. Please don't hate me." his voice is so weak. I pulled him toward me and hugged him very tight. tbc sigh...i have so many school work . i will try my best to write more next time...and Mark i am so sorry.