Date: Thu, 14 Jun 2001 07:01:51 EDT
From: Angel36745@aol.com
Subject: Simple Twist Of Fate4

  Disclaimer: I do not know the BSB, nor have I ever met them. I do not
know anyone connected to the BSB. This is just a story I made up, in other
words not real.

  Warning: This story may contain sex, you know the rules that apply to
that. I'm not for sure where I'm taking this, so it could get a little
crazy. Oh, little fact it involves an Elf, I'm not going by the rules, or
mythology. Well, I might just a little but not all that much.

  Authors Note: Ok time to say thank you to those who have helped me. To
Eddi my editor and best buddy, to Chris my boi thanks for being with me.
As for anyone I may have forgotten I'm sorry, but thank you deeply. Ok the
symbols I use are as follows, *** those mean either a character change or
who I'm starting the chapter off with. Now I haven't been using ( ) these
here lately but I'm putting them in here just in case. I use those symbols
when I want to add a note or change. Ok on with the story, I'm sure your
tired of hearing me rant. Or maybe you even skipped this part, oh well I
wrote it any way. If anyone would like to write me please do so.

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***Zack***

  I stood up and looked at all of them closely, the tall blond was gone. "I
guess you don't believe in lights in this house." The short blond said to
me, even his voice I knew it from somewhere. "I'm not much of a light
person, what do you want?" He looked at like I was being rude, I smiled in
return. "Well, I don't want anything, it's Nick that wanted to talk to
you." I nodded I was guessing that Nick was the other blond. Then I
understood who they were, I almost laughed. "So that's why I keep wondering
where I've seen your faces and heard your voices. I have to admit I never
thought I would have BSB in my house." I moved to the way and hit the
switch, light filled the room. "If you don't mind waiting I need to take a
shower, if you do there's the door." I walked out of the room and entered
the bathroom. I stripped down and turned the water on, then I stepped into
the shower. I washed myself then my hair, then rinsed dried off and wrapped
a towel around my waist. I walked back to the living room not excepting to
see anyone, I was wrong. They were all sitting down on the couch, even
Nick. "I guess you didn't mind waiting, so what can I do for you?" Nick
looked up at me and shook his head a few times, then he looked to Kevin. I
shouldn't have followed his gaze it took me right back to my own daze.

  I was trapped in this mans eyes like it had been the first time. Wait,
this is the first time, isn't it I mean I've never met him have I? My head
was pounding, my vision was blurring. I refused to give into this pain to
allow it to control my mind. Then it was like opening a door to another
place I had been once before. When I opened my eyes I remembered
everything, Zell had sent us back. He didn't really have a choice, there
was more so much more. We shouldn't have remembered any of this, only Nick
would have remembered. Wait he should have died, I remembered what that
other elf had said, the evil one. I had wanted to charge up to him and kick
his ass for what he had done to Kevin. Kevin, he was everything to me and I
only wanted him to be happy. He loved Nick, he had always loved Nick. That
didn't matter, only his happiness and if that was with Nick then so be
it. There was more I was more, I wasn't anywhere near human anymore. I was
stronger, faster than any human on earth, and I had magick. Zell had
changed me, made me more like him but the other elf had tried to take that
away from me. So I wasn't as strong, I was still human, and had a human
life line. I still had the powers he had given me, but now I would die like
I was supposed to. When I regained my mental status I looked straight at
Nick.

  He was smiling like he knew what had just happened to me. "Thank you, I
needed a refresher course. Now what I want to know, is what the hell
happened to Zell?" Nick's face lit up and he started jumping around. I
looked at Kevin, and tried my best not to cry. I just hoped that Nick could
make him happy, because I couldn't. "What's wrong with you too, your acting
like you've both lost your minds?" I looked at Brain, then I understood why
Nick had looked for me. They didn't remember anything that had happened in
the other world. I shook my head slowly and tried to think of a way to make
them remember. I only came up with one idea, even if it meant going through
the same pain again. I left the room quickly and searched through my
clothes until I found my dagger. I walked back to the living room where
Nick was now sitting quietly looking at Bri and Kev. "Now I know this may
sound a little crazy, but it just might work." I held the knife up to my
hand and started to make the cut. Kevin stopped me, his eyes were full of
fear and sadness. "Zack what are you doing, you know you can't stand the
sight of blood?" I moved my hand down quickly and then cut his hand open,
then I pressed them together.

  My mind was filled with images, it was nothing like the first time this
had happened. I was seeing his dreams this time and I was in them. The last
time all I had seen was images of Nick. This time I was in those images,
only it wasn't so clear but it was getting there. The fog in his mind was
lifting and quickly, he was remembering. Then I stopped looking at his
memories and paid attention to myself. I was losing strength every second
that passed, but I couldn't stop not now. I pushed the pain that was raging
in my body away. I had to get him to remember everything, that was the
reason Nick had come to me. I was happy that he had managed to keep me in
his mind, but I knew in my heart he still loved Nick. It wasn't Nick's
fault or Kevin's for that matter it was just the way he felt. I could feel
my knee's giving way as they painfully hit the ground with a thud. I was
forced to release Kevin's hand, in more ways than one. I knew that I
couldn't take the pain anymore. Then there was the little fact that I had
passed out as well. When I woke up my whole body ached like someone had
beat my body with a hammer. There was a bright side to all of this, Kevin
wasn't in any pain what so ever. He was smiling slightly while he held my
head. "That took a lot out of you didn't it, why didn't you stop sooner?" I
smiled, I couldn't it was just that simple, I had to make sure Kevin
remembered everything.

  He was trying to help me up, but it was like picking up a dead body. I
didn't have any strength left, and I was getting weaker. My hand wasn't
bleeding it had healed just like the first time I had done this with
Zell. I didn't understand why I was getting so weak, this hadn't happened
the first time. "You've given all of us our memories back, how did you do
that?" I tried to answer but I couldn't find my voice, all I could do was
smile. Everything was starting to get dark again, it wasn't so bad
really. It was really peaceful almost like going to sleep. Only I didn't
have any control over everything that was happening, but that was ok. I
didn't mind, I had set Kevin free from what ever that elf had done to
him. I had this strange feeling that I was dying, but it didn't really
scare me. I knew that in the long run Kevin would be happy. He loved Nick
and now he had him, well at least I think he does. It was to late for
regrets now, to late for a lot of things. I wished that I had another to
chance to make things right. I had made so many mistakes, and I had hurt so
many people. I hadn't thought about it then, but now it filled my mind. I
was so full of myself that I had stopped caring for other people. Well,
that wasn't completely true, I had always cared for Kevin. I hoped that he
remembered at least that, if nothing else.

****Nick

   I couldn't believe this was happening, it just didn't seem posable. I
had thought he could help me, but I didn't think it would cost him his
life. His breathing was slowly down it was almost to point of
stopping. Kevin was freaking out, Brian looked like he was losing his
childhood friend. Then again with their memories back they were losing an
old friend. He had taken my place in the other world, so they had grown up
together. He had been the youngest member in that band, the kid that went
to Kevin late at nights. Well, I didn't know if had done what I had but
there was a good chance that he had. "Kevin, I know this is a bad time to
ask, but did Zack's mom die in the other world?" Kevin nodded slowly, but
that was all he could do. "The state had given custody to Howie, we adopted
him. Late at night we would hear him cry in his sleep, Kevin always went to
him. He was the only one Zack would stop crying for, he would latch onto
Kevin and hold tight. You two were a lot a like, only with him his
nightmares were real." Kevin was nodding while he held onto Zack's dying
body. I had never gotten to meet him in the other world. From what I knew
of him now, I knew that he had to of been a better man than I was.

  When Zack stopped breathing Kevin let a roar escape his lips. The sound
was filled with pain and loss to a degree of agony I had never heard
before. Tears streamed down his face as he whispered into Zack's ear. I had
a good feeling about what he was telling Zack. I closed my eyes and
wondered if Zack had known how much Kevin had cared for him. "It's just
like last time, I never got a chance to tell him how I cared about him. He
was gone before I could tell him, he thought that I loved someone else. It
was just that I had never been given any other choice. I didn't think I had
any other choices, I thought that my dreams were all I would ever
have. Then that night when we had formed that circle to come after you. He
had revealed his true feeling for me with his mind, I was so taken with the
idea that I couldn't speak. He had taken it as rejection, when it had only
been confusion. I had never thought he would even give me a second thought,
and I thought he was straight. Now it's happened all over again, except
this time he died. What I saw in his mind was so pure and for me and me
alone. All he wanted was for me to be happy, even if that wasn't with
him. He had hid the pain he was feeling from me until the last second. When
it took over his body I felt just how much he was willing to go through, I
couldn't have taken that much for anyone." I looked at Kevin, I had caused
this to happen one way or another, it had been my fault.

  Brian was shaking his head as he dialed nine one one. "My phone isn't
working in here I'll have to take it outside." We nodded but he never made
it to the door, a woman was blocking it. She looked at Zack's body and
shook her head slowly, then she looked at me. "I'm happy to see that you
are well Nick, my son sacrificed a great deal for you. It seems a lot of
people do that for you. I wonder why so many would care about you so much,
what is it that you have?" I was a little confused I was excepting to see a
queen, not a red head. Then she dropped her guard and we could all see the
queen of the elf's. She was more beautiful than any other being I had ever
seen or read about. "He isn't dead yet, but I can't help him, only Zell can
help him. Zell hasn't been seen since he pushed everyone out for their
safety. I believe he is trapped in the realm where he fault for you. I will
not ask for your help, but I will demand that you save my son." I looked at
her, she did look powerful, but I didn't like the way she was speaking to
me. "All you had to say was that Zell was in trouble I would come running
to help him. Do you understand that, or are just like the gray elf's?" I
had hit the right button, she turned bright red, and I mean turned. Her
whole body, hair, and eyes all of it was bright red, she shook with anger.

  She held her hand out toward me, and before I knew it Brian was in front
of me. "You'll have to go through me to get to him." She smiled and then
laughed loudly, she had the evil witch laugh down pat. "Your everything I
hoped you would be, now I see why my son chose you. He made a good choice,
and I'm sorry for coming across so sharply. You have to understand the
human race and my own have never been on good terms. You are different
Nick, and smart which happens to be a plus. I don't think anyone could have
gotten to me so quickly, at least not a human." She looked normal again,
well what was normal for her anyway. She then knelt down beside Zack's
body, she started shaking her head again. "So young, and he may already be
to far gone for anyone to save him. I'll have my healers work on him, but
Zell made him this way. Zell is the only one that would be able to really
help him. I don't understand how he did what he did, no one should have
been able to lift that spell. Yet he managed to lift it off all of the
people that were involved." My heart caught for a second as Scott entered
my mind. If Zack had lifted the spell off of everyone that was involved
then Scott had to remember me. I smiled to myself and thanked him for
everything he had given up for us.

  It wasn't that I had already counted him out of action, it just didn't
look good. "I know this must be confusing for all of you. Let me explain
something about what Zack is now or was. He was a middle being so to speak,
half human half elf. When he did what he did he used all of his life force
up. All of his human life force, which means what ever is left is pure
elf. He still has a chance but it is very slim and we have to get him to
Zell. My healers may be able to keep him alive for now, but understand Zell
is the only one who can save him. I will be back shortly with some of my
people, you should get in contact with your friends." Then she was gone,
Brian quickly walked outside of the house and started dialing on his
phone. Kevin was smiling slightly, he kept his lips close to Zack's ear. I
could hear some of the things he was telling Zack, and it broke my
heart. He had so much hope that Zack would be fine in the end and that they
would be together. "Nick could you step out here real quick, Howie wants to
talk to you." I nodded slowly and walked out onto the porch. I took Brian's
phone and the first question that was asked was about Zack. I looked at
Brian, he looked like a little kid that didn't know what to say. Howie was
asking question after question, he was so hyper. Brian hadn't told him what
had happened to Zack.

  I didn't know what to tell Howie, he thought everything was fine. He
wanted to talk to Zack, he kept telling me how much he missed him. "Howie
why don't you just come down here, it would solve a lot of problems." Howie
stopped for a second, I could hear his breathing. "He isn't ok is he, I
mean you make it sound like something's really wrong. If he's hurt Nick you
can tell me, it's not like I'm going to freak out." I thought about it a
second and decided to tell him everything. Once I finished Howie wasn't
talking at all. "So he's dying, this can't happen Nick, I wish you could
understand. You weren't there when I got custody of him. Now to think that
he could die, it's unthinkable for me. He's been through so much Nick, and
in this world he went through it all alone. Listen I'm on my way there
right now, AJ's coming too." Then he hung up, I was more than a little
impressed by Zack. He had managed to get close to all the guys without
letting himself get just as close. I know that he cared for the guys, you
couldn't live with them and not care. It was just I had this strange
feeling that Zack never really let the other matter as much. Well, I had to
believe he let Kevin get that close but none of the others. I never could
have done that to any of them, then again I didn't have his life.

  I wished that I could understand him better, know his life like the
others. Then I thought twice about making a wish like that. A few minutes
later Zell's mother walked into the house with five men. "They will take
Zack to my castle where they will try to keep him alive." After that was
said the men formed a circle around Zack and they were gone. "We have to
collect your friends as quickly as we can. Now I believe I can collect the
one in Florida, but the others you'll have to get together." I nodded and
she was gone again, an hour later Howie pulled up in front of the house. He
jumped out of the car and ran into the house. "Where is he, I have to see
him, Nick where is he?" I walked out of the room and let Brian fill Howie
in. I had other things on my mind, like seeing Scott again. I still held
every single memoire of Scott in my mind, and now they were getting
stronger. It was like I had never stopped living in that other world, I
guess it was a gift from Zack. When I walked back into the living room
Howie had tears falling from his eyes. I understood why Kevin was so close
to Zack, but I didn't understand why Howie was so upset. I knew that he had
adopted Zack, but had they really been that close? I looked at Howie he was
getting worse by the minute. Brian was trying his best to comfort him but
it wasn't working.

  When Zell's mother returned she had Scott by her side. The look on her
face said that something was happening. "I have some news on Zack, it isn't
to good everyone should have a seat." That was all that need to be said,
everyone grabbed a seat and looked at her. Scott stayed at her side, but
his eyes stay connected to mine. "First off I'm sorry it took me so long to
return, but on the way back I was called back to the castel. Zack is
getting worse, his sprit is starting to give out. We've managed to keep him
alive so to speak, but his body is fading away. I nor any of the others
have ever seen anything like it, and something tells me he doesn't want to
live. I have looked into his mind, and all I have seen is pain. He has no
reason to live on his own, and without trying to live he will not
survive. Do any of you know anything that would give him reason to try to
survive?" Kevin stood up quickly followed by Howie and the others. "I love
him with all of my heart and soul, if he knew would it be enough?" She
looked at the doorway, she looked deep in thought. When she turned back her
face hadn't changed or even brightened slightly. "We can try, but I don't
know really." Kevin nodded and looked at Howie, it was like a silent
agreement. One way or another they were going to give Zack a reason to
live. The good queen held her hands outward. We all formed a circle, Scott
was at my side. I think it was the first time that my mind wasn't focused
on Scott.

  Then we were gone, it was nothing like traveling with the gray elf. This
was far beautiful than anything the gray elf could have done. This trip was
filled with colors and filled the heart with joy. It was like a rainbow,
but there were more colors than what you would see in a rainbow. Then it
all stopped and we were in a place filled with light, and the walls were
gold. The floor was golden with a large red carpet leading to some
doors. "Zack's sprit lies in that room before you, his body is another room
down the hall. I will stand by his body while you try to make contact with
his soul. I will warn you that when you enter that you will see everything
in that boy's mind. It will be like living his life from day one, seeing
his joy and then his pain. Now normally there would be no danger, but he
has two lives. One life that was filled with love and the other filled with
pain. When you enter the room you will both lives one at the time. For an
elf this wouldn't be a problem, for a human it could drive you insane. I
fear this will be the outcome, if you can make it through his lives you
then have the chance to help him. This is the reason I had to think about
bringing you here to try to help him. In truth I was more worried about
losing my son by bringing you here. I know in my heart that Zell would
rather you do this than save him." Kevin and Howie were already moving
toward the door where Zack's sprit lies.

   I ran up to their sides to catch up, soon the others were with us. When
the door opened we entered as a group. The room was in total darkness, it
was like a pit that never seemed to end. Then the room was filled with
light and images that didn't make sense. His memories were flashing before
our eyes, his birth, everything. When it started to slow down I found that
we were living his life as a BSB. He was in a church singing while Brian
stood by the doors and listened to him. He had a really beautiful voice
that filled the church. When you looked closer you could see tears falling
from his eyes. "That didn't happen, I don't remember that, he wasn't crying
I don't think." Then Zack's ear twitched slightly, he continued to sing but
he whipped the tears away. Then Brian moved to his side and started talking
to him. Then everything started moving very fast again. I watched as the
guys stood beside Zack while he said his final farewell to his
mother. Kevin and Howie had been at his sides helping him stand without it
being noticed. Then the memories sped up again this time he was
eighteen. He had pulled Howie to the side, tears trailed down his face. "I
want to thank you for taking care of me D. You were the father that I had
always dreamed of having, you've helped me so much. I wish there was a way
that I could repay you for all the kindness you've shown me." I looked to
Howie, tears streaked his face.

  I watched as Howie reached outward toward the image. "If you want to
repay me, then I think I know of a way. All you have to do is live a good
life, and let other people in your heart. Let people see what I see in you,
and that would be payment enough. By the way I think you should tell Kevin
what you told me, before it's to late." Then the memories sped up again
this time it was Kevin's wedding. Zack was looking at Kevin with so much
pain in his eyes. When he looked toward Howie I saw one single tear fall
from his eye. He whipped it away quickly and it was like ice flowed over
his body. I could feel the coldness that had taken over his heart. We were
now at a concert and Zack was singing a short solo, his voice was so
cold. It was like he no longer had any emotion left in him to put into his
voice. He put up a good front, but I watched as he slowly grew away from
the others. Then we were in his room it was dark, it was a hotel room. Zack
was sitting on his bed, tears fell one after another. "Come on Zack just
pull it together, you can do this. Just go and tell Kevin how you feel
about him, how you've loved him for years. It's not really that hard, and
if he rejects you, at least you tried. If he tries to kick you ass, you'll
get your ass kicked. Why am I talking to myself when I could be doing
something more." Then Zack stood up and left the room he walked very slowly
down the hall.

  He stopped for a minute to talk with one of the body guards. Then he
entered Kevin's room quietly, I could feel the fear in his heart. He was
making something up while he moved toward Kevin. "Kevin, is everything all
right, I could have sworn I heard you call out." I watched as his body
started shaking slightly, tears fell from his eyes. He reached out slowly
and touched Kevin's lips. He couldn't feel any air coming from Kevin's nose
or mouth. He started shaking his head, then he moved to Kevin's side. He
tilted Kevin's head back and held his nose closed. He started trying to
breath for Kevin, he was doing everything properly. "No, Kevin you can't
leave me, not now, not ever. I need you Kevin please don't leave me
alone. Help someone please help, call an ambulance!" He was screaming at
the top of his lungs. "Come on Kev, don't leave me like this I need you so
much. I love you, please I'm so sorry I never told you. Please don't go
baby, come back, could I get some help, I need help." I watched as the
other guys rushed into the room, Brian looked sick. Zack turned to them
tears still falling, he tried to speak but his voice was gone. Time started
rushing forward again, it was Kevin's funeral. Zack stood close to the
casket his whole body shook.

  I watched as he reached down and touched Kevin's face. "Everyone I love
dies, why is that Kevin, why do I lose those I love? I've loved you since
before I knew you existed, I don't know how really. All I know is that
you've always had my heart, even if you didn't want it. Every night I've
dreamed of you, only to awaken to an empty room. I know it sounds a little
silly, but it was a part of a song I was writing for you. I miss you so
much Kev, and now you'll never know how I felt about you. The guys keep
telling me that you can hear me. I don't know if that's true, but if you
can I love you. I'm sorry that I never told you before, maybe it would have
changed things. I guess I'll never know, maybe someday we'll meet again. I
promise that if we do I'll tell you one way or another." We watched as he
leaned down and kissed Kevin on the cheek. He moved away slowly, in honesty
I don't know how he did it. Time started moving again, when it slowed down
I could see Zell. It was weird but it looked like they were doing what Zack
and Kevin had done. Then everything started making sense on how Zack knew
what to do. Then slowly the room went back to total darkness.

   It was starting over again and this time I had an idea it wouldn't be
anywhere near as good. This time it went straight to when Brian had first
seen Zack in the church. Then quickly moved past that area. We watched as
Zack stood beside his mothers casket all alone. When his knee's hit the
ground no one came to his aid, he cried uncontrollably. We watched as a man
walked up behind Zack and pulled him away. I knew that it wasn't his father
they looked nothing a like. Time passed quickly but not as fast as it had
before. Zack was in a court room standing before what looked like a
family. He looked so sad and lost, then time started moving quickly
again. Zack was standing in a dark room, he was naked and shaking. When the
lights came on a man was standing before him with a belt. My heart started
beating quickly, I wanted to turn away but I couldn't even close my eyes. I
watched as the man beat Zack till he was bleeding and laying on the
floor. The man laughed at him then kicked him a few times. He left Zack
laying on the floor, Zack didn't move for a little while. When he did it
was very slow movement, filled with pain. Time flew by, night after night
we watched as Zack was beaten. There was never a scar left but the bruises
and whelps on his body looked so painful.

  When time sped forward again it stopped in a dark ally. Zack was standing
in a dead in with five guys moving toward him. He had to be at least
sixteen, he looked a lot stronger. When the guys moved in closer Zack
turned around and smiled. He pulled a dagger out from behind his back. It
was the same dagger he had used today, but I don't think he was trying to
help anyone this time. He kicked the first guy then sliced another guys
chest wide open. The other three started running he chased after them
yelling loudly. Time moved forward to Zack sleeping under a bridge in the
middle of winter. He looked so cold, but his eyes looked colder than the
harshest winter. His hair was long and he looked almost like a beast. The
clothes he was wearing looked old and torn beyond repair. Then he stood up
slowly and moved downward until he was facing a police offerer. He smiled
coldly and held his hands outward, the offerer just walked away. Zack
laughed and walked back under the bridge to lay down. Time started moving
again, this time Zack was in a house. His hair was cut and he was doing
push ups, then he was kicking a large bag. His whole body was perfectly
toned in every single area, but his eyes held no life. They were stone
cold, he was like a man made of stone.

  Then everything went dark, in a far off corner a blue light was
shining. It was an amazing color, so bright and, but still dark. I moved
toward the light, the others were right behind me. When we reached the
light, it no longer looked like a light at all. It was Zack and he looked
so weak and tired. He looked up at us with the saddest eyes I had ever
seen. "I didn't think I would ever see any of you again, it's good to see
all of you." His voice sounded something like the wind, and it was getting
weaker. "Are you happy with him Kevin, I hope so, you deserve
happiness. Nick promise me you'll always keep Kevin happy, he loves you so
much. I think he's always loved you, it's in his heart, I've seen
it. That's ok, it's just a part of life, you live and sometimes you find
love." Zack was starting to fade away, Kevin was stepping forward. "Zack,
if I had only known that you had loved me. It's true I did love Nick, but
that was only until I knew he couldn't love me back. It opened my mind to
other things, to other people. Then I found that you loved me with all of
your heart and soul. For the first time in my life, I was loved by someone
for the right reasons. You didn't love because I was famous, or because you
thought I was cute. I didn't think I would ever have that until you, then I
fell so quickly." Zack looked at Kevin, his eyes filling with tears.

  He stood slowly then reached out and touched Kevin's face. "I love you,
and I think that I always have, I just couldn't see it." Zack was getting
brighter by the second then he faltered. "It's to late for that Kevin, I'm
dead, or I will be soon. I wish that things could have worked out
differently, my times up. I give up Kevin, I don't want to live with any
more pain, I've had enough." Zack turned away and tried to move away only
Howie stopped him. "How can you just give up after all you've been
through?" Zack turned on him with these cold gray eyes. "Why would I want
to go on after everything I've seen, after all that's been done to me?"
Howie looked at Zack like he didn't know him anymore he looked
saddened. "You don't me Howie, you never did, you knew a dream. That's all
that life was a dream that ended. It doesn't matter anymore, look at me
Howie, I'm just a ghost." Howie looked away for only a second, then he
looked back with tears trailing down his face. "Does that mean you never
cared about me, that everything we went through was for nothing?" Zack
looked at Howie with confusion written all over his face. "Don't you get it
D, it was just a dream a wish, a simple twist of fate. None of it was real,
none of it was ever real. You never saved me from a world of pain, you
didn't really raise me. It's all a dream that was far to sweet to be real,
even with the large amount of pain." Zack was shining brightly, brighter
than ever before.

  To Be Continued