Date: Thu, 16 Mar 2000 18:28:09 CST From: Steven is Cool Subject: Steven and Brian Chapter 11 Told you I would have some more to read! Since I just talked to you guys yesterday, I won't make this long. A quick shout-out to Chris, Chas, and Steve. The guys are awsome. (They E-mailed me). Anyway, I'll take care of the rest at the end. If you are under 18, go away, or don't get caught, I don't care. If a loving relationship between two men bugs you...how did you get here anyway? This is FICTION, meaning that this story is not written to say that the BSB, or anybody else who happens to pop-up is gay. Enjoy! Steven and Brian Chapter 11 ================================================================== I awoke to sun pouring in the large bay window across the room. The was going to be a beautiful day. I leaned down and gave my angel a kiss. "I love you Brian." "I love you too Steven." he moaned in his sleep. I smiled at that. The true way to tell that somebody loves you is when they are sleeping. I sat there for a few minutes before I decided to wake Brian up. I leaned down and kiss him again, this time a little deeper. "What a way to wake up." "Well, you will get to wake up that way whenever I'm here. Today it is going to be just you and me Brian. I promise, just you and me. Nobody else can ruin this day unless we let them, and I refuse to do that." "Sounds too good to be true. Can it really happen?" "I'm sure I can make it happen." "I don't know about you, but lying in bed all day sounds good to me." "No, because I have something planned for tonight." "Do you?" "Yep." "What?" "That's for me to know and you to find out. But first, you need to go shower and get ready while I get everythinig set up with Marie." He got up and went into that bathrooom and I heard that shower water running. I picked up the phone and dialed the number for the kitchen, and as expected, Marie picked up." "How are you feeling today Steven?" "I'm doing ok. I've planned a special day for me and Brian and I need your help..." I leaned back onto the headboard as I waited for Brian to come out of the shower. I hope he felt the same way I did. He soon emerged wearing crgo pants and a blue sweater with a red stripe across the chest. "You know, I have that same sweater." "Yep. I got it at Structure." "We got it at the same place then." "I'm going up to my bathroom to take a shower. What do you want to do?" "I'll just sit in the bedroom and wait for you." "Works for me." We both left the room and headed up the stairs. I could hear the others silently eating in the kitchen. Brian squeezed my hand a little tighter when he heard them. When we got to my bedroom I spun him around and looked into his face. "Whats wrong Brian?" "Nothing." "Yes there is something. What is it?" "Dont' worry about it Steven." "Brian Thomas Littrell, you tell me what is wrong this instant to that I can fix it and make you happy again." "I was just thinking about last night. I was so scared I couldn't think straight. And then when your heart stopped beating, the world stopped. Everything was gone except you in my arms, and I was too scared to do anything about it." With that he threw his arms around my and cried on my chest. "Shhhh. Brian, it's OK. I'm here. I'm right here. Living and breathing for you." "I know, but I will never forget those awful feelings from last night." "Why don't you watch some TV. With over 300 channels, there is bound to be something on." "OK. Don't be long, I will get lonely." "I'll hurry just for you." I went into the bathroom and closed the door. I showered for about 15 minutes, then got out and dried myself off. What to wear? I decided I would wear exactly what Brian was wearing. I fixed my hair and brushed my teeth, then looked into the mirror as I walked out of the bathroom. "Ready to go?" "Nice outfit." "Thought you might like it." "So where are we going?" "To the great outdoors." "And what are we doing there?" "That is for you to find out." "Then lets go, I want to know." He followed my down the stairs and into the kitchen. "Good morning everybody. Marie, is everything ready?" "Yes, everything has been prepared." "Thank you." I began walking out of the kitchen and into the living room to get Brian when Kevin spoke up. "Steven..." "Not today Kevin. Today is all about Brian and nothing else. I will deal with you tomorrow." With that I walked out of the kitchen. "Everything ok babe?" "Yea! Let's go." "Where are we going?" "To the stables." "Horses?" "Yea. You like horses right?" "I love them. It's been so long since I have gotten to ride." "Well, you get to a lot today. You want to pick your horse?" "Yes! Oh my gosh this is so cool! Thank you babe!" We arrived at the stables and Chralie was there waiting for us. "Good morning Chralie." "Good morning Sir. Which horses would you like to take out today?" "My usual and the horse of his choice." Brian walked down the two rows of horses talking to each one and rubbing their noses. "I want this one." Charlie began to prepare the horse while Brian came and wrapped his arms around me. "Thank you." "For what?" "For you. For loving me. For this day. For everything." I pulled him into a tighter hug, showing our love for one another." "Doctor, the horses are ready." "Thanks Charlie. Lets go babe." We pulled apart as we mounted our horses and rode them at a comfortable slow speed, leaving the house behinde. "It's beautiful out here." "Yes it is. This land has been privatly owned by my family for years. Some day, I will pass this land on, I just don't know to who. It's obvious I won't be having children." "You could always adopt." "The person I love would want to have a child as well." "I want to have a kid." "Really?" "I've always wanted to be a father." "Do your parents know about you?" "No, but they will soon." "Why is that?" "Because I want them to meet the man who has saved me over and over again. The man who loves me. The man I love. You Steven. I want them to meet you." "Brian, I don't want you to feel that you need to do this. How would they take the news?" "They won't like it at all. I have very low expectations." "Then please don't tell them. I don't want to be the reason you hurt the relationship with your parents." "It's their choice how they act, but I have already made up my mind to tell them." "Do you know when?" "Before I go back to work, I would like you to go home with me so that we can tell them together." "No matter what happens, I will be there for you." "I love you so much Steven. I will give up my family to be with you." "I love you too Brian." We rode along in silence, simply enjoying being alone together. I could tell Brian was really enjoying himself, i had never seen him this relaxed. I knew how it could be to be so caught up in life that you forget to notice the beautiful things around you. I looked away from Brian and headed over to the large oak tree and Brian did the same. I could see the basket sitting next to the tree, just as I had asked. Brian and I dismounted and I took his hands in mine. "Brian, this has been my place of escape ever since I was a small child. I have never shared it with anybody. I want to share it with you now." "It's beautiful." "Well, come on, sit down. Lunch is here. Nothing fancy I'm afraid." "I don't need anything as long as I am here with you."I turned back around and drew him into a hug. "Just when I thought it wasn't possible to love you anymore, you have to go and prove me wrong." "I love you so much Steven. Please don't ever leave me." "I would never leave you Brian." "I think of all you have, and I wonder what I have to offer you." "Brian, don't think like that. All I need from you is you and your love." "You have me and my love as long as you will have them." "Then I have then forever." We remained in the embrace for several more minutes, basking in the feel of our love and each other. Eventually we broke it with a small kiss, and sat down to our lunch. Marie had fixed us sandwiches and fruit for lunch. We sat and ate in silence, observing our surroundings and each other. We quickly finished our lunch having never eaten breakfast. "Steven?" What Brian?" "I know I have already asked a lot of you. Steven, I love you, and I don't want to go on without you. I need you. In a couple of weeks I have to go back on tour and I want you with me. Will you come with me? Please?" This was the moment I had been dreading. "Brian, I want to be with you. You know that. But my life and job are here in Houston." "I knew somehow you would say that. I am going to be away for a long time and I don't want to lose you. I wish I didn't have to be a friggin' Backstreet Boy. It's going to keep you away from me. It always gets in the way of the most important things," "Come here Brian." We both stood and I took his hand in mine, placing it on my chest over my heart. "What do you feel?" "Your heart beating." I took out hands and moved them to his chest. "Now what do you feel?" "My heart beating." I took his fingers and placed them right infront of my lips. "Now what do you feel?" "Your breath." I placed his fingers infront of his lips. "And now?" "My breath." "You see Brian? We are both the same. Nothing has changed because you are a Backstreet Boy. We are both living people. If we try hard enough, nothing can come between us." "I love you so much. You always know just what to say to me." "I love you too Brian." We mounted out horses and continued up towards the house. "We need to go back. We have dinner reservations." "You amaze me." "Why?" "It's totally amazing. You give me so much and ask nothing in return." "Love is like that." We rode up to the stables and gave Charile our horses. We managed to get in the house and up the stairs without anybody stopping us. "What is the dress code?" "Think really nice, but not a suit and tie." "Where are you taking me?" "You will just have to wait and find out loverboy." Brian entered the bathroom down the hall, and I entered mine. So far today had been the perfect day. I warmed the water in the shower and stepped in. This night was going to be perect. TBC... =============================================================================== What is going to happen tonight??? Well, there is was. I hoped you liked it. As always, please E-mail me. I like knowing that people are reading. E-mail: kholdnavyguy@hotmail.com ICQ: 14263546