Date: Tue, 30 Nov 1999 23:25:50 CST
From: Steven is Cool <kholdnavyguy@hotmail.com>
Subject: Steven and Brian 5

Hey guys, here is number five.  I want to say hey to Green Ice (Salvaged
Grace).  Go read his story guys.  If you haven't read Ryan and Lance,
Getting Reacquainted, Lucky Me, Brian and Cody, or Brian and Justin (where
have you been?), I suggest you go read them.  These are all stories I
really enjoy.

Adam-we're still cool, and to answer your question, I could think of
nothing.

OK guys, if your under 18 blah blah blah...don't read.  This isn't saying
anybody in the story is gay.  All that good stuff.  Now on with the
story...

---Steven and Brian 5---

"Good afternoon Sir."  That would be Amanda, my Stewardess.

"Good afternoon.  Could we delay take-off for exactly five minutes please."
I spoke guiding my self to the smaller sofa.

"Yes Sir.  Can I get you anything?"

"Something strong.  Really strong."

"But you never drink!"

"Just please give me what you asked for."

"Whatever you say Mr. Wright."

With that she walked into the back of the plane.  I was so angry with
Brian.  But upon thinking about it, I realized angry wasn't the right word.
I was hurt.  I didn't realize how much he meant to me until he hurt me.
But there was no reason to look back.  Maybe I was too controlling.  At
that, my ringing pocket saved me from my own thoughts.


**OUTSIDE**


"Oh God Kevin.  What have I done.  I'm so sorry I didn't mean it."  Brian
was sobbing still laying on the ground.

"Brian, how could you?  Here he is waiting on you hand and foot.  He's your
boyfriend.  He's a doctor on top of that.  He tells you to rest.  He's
gotten himself into something that not many people would.  And what do you
do?  You take it all and throw it back at him.  You hurt him Brian."

"But Kevin I'm sorry.  I didn't mean it.  Please.  Steven I...ne...need
you.  Ple..ase.  Steven please.  I'm so...sorry.  Please!"  Brian was
crying so hard he could barely talk.

"He's not here Brian.  He's on the plane.  He said he would wait for five
minutes, but after that the plane leaves whether you are on it or not.
Now, I suggest you get over this ego problem in the next sixty seconds, or
else you will lose the best thing that ever happened to you."

With that Kevin turned and walked towards the plane.  Nick and AJ walked
over and helped Brian up off the concrete.

"C'mon Brian, lets get you back where you belong."

"I can't.  He must hate me.  He doesn't want me there.  I've screwed
everything up.  It's all my fault."

"That's bullshit.  If he didn't love you, this plane wouldn't be here right
now, it would be in the air.  I agree with Kevin."

"C'mon Roc.  There is a plane you need to catch."  AJ and Nick helped

Brian onto the plane.


**BACK TO ME**


I had pulled out my laptop and was typing an E-mail while on the phone with
Anthony, the man who I placed in charge of overseeing my companies.
Apparently there was another company he wanted to take over, so we were
discussing it.  I had long ago downed the drink Amanda had brought me, and
my second sat on the table next to me.  I saw Kevin come on the plane, look
around, look at me, and then sit on the opposite end of the sofa.  I could
tell he wanted to talk, but I wasn't in the mood and I was busy.  About a
minute later AJ and Nick appeared carrying Brian.  They put Brian down in a
chair and began to look around the plane.  Nick looked like a kid going
around the plane and opening every door just to see what was on the other
side.  I looked at Brian quickly, and then resumed my typing.  I wasn't
ready to stop what I was doing to talk to him.  Anthony was still
discussing the other company in my ear.  It sounded like a good deal, so I
told him to do it.  With that, I hung up the phone, and put all of my
attention on the screen in front of me.  I hear the door close and the
plane take-off, but I rarely paid attention anymore.  Amanda came around
and got everybody's drink orders.  Brian didn't have anything as he sat
there with his head in his hands.  The part of me that loved him wanted to
rush over and comfort him, to tell him I would forgive him.  But then I
remembered how I felt when I stepped onto the plane, and that kept my
fingers moving across the keyboard.  And then I heard him.  So quiet I
could barely hear it.

"Please forgive me."

I had to run it over several times in my head before I could figure out
what he had said.  I stopped typing and looked up.  Everybody was looking
at me for an answer.

"You hurt me Brian.  I have cared for you and taken you into my heart.
Then you put me down?"

"I know!  I know I was wrong.  But please forgive me.  I'll do anything.
Anything.  Please.  I love you."  With that Brian burst into tears.  I
sighed, setting my laptop aside, I stood and walked over to the chair he
was in and took him in my arms.  He cried for a couple of minutes before I
heard a whispered "Please".

"Brian, before we go on there is something you need to know about my past.
"The last few years my parents were alive, my mom and I didn't exactly get
along.  Everyday she would yell at me over nothing.  Call me things I
thought I would never hear come out of her mouth.  But I just stood there
and took it.  I didn't really have any other option.  But I told myself
that I would never go through that again.  What you did down there reminded
me of all the times I had to deal with my mother.  You have no idea what
that did to me.  I don't show my emotions.  Nobody would have known what
you just did.  But somebody that I love, more than anybody else, just said
something like that to me.  You couldn't possibly know how that feels."
Brian who had stopped crying started again.  "Now about us."  Everybody in
the cabin of that plane tensed and took a breath.  "You hurt me.  But I
forgive you."  Everybody breathed and Brian threw his arms around me.

"Thank you.  I was so afraid I had lost you forever.  I am sooo sorry."

"Shhhh.  It's OK Brian.  Now you need to rest so I can see those beautiful
blue eyes again."  He nodded as I helped him lay down on the smaller sofa.

"Steven?"

"What Bri?"

"I love you."

"I love you too Brian."  I leaned in and gave him a quick kiss on the lips.
"Now sleep."

I returned to my laptop and began typing once again.  Before long, AJ and I
were the only ones awake.

"How do you do it?"

"How do I do what?"

"Look around.  You get Brian to sleep, and then Kevin and Nick!"

"It must be that sadistic commanding presence."  I spoke putting quotes in
the air with my fingers.  AJ chuckled at that but then became serious.

"I have a question.  And it is really hard for me to ask it."  I put my
laptop aside and turned towards him and gave him my full attention.
"Steven...how did you know you were gay?"  Man, I am sure he was finding
this difficult.

"Well AJ, I guess I noticed in high school when I found boys attractive and
couldn't see girls as anything but friends."

"Steven, I think I am gay.  I haven't told anybody else.  I'm just really
confused.  I don't know what to do."

"How about you tell the people who care about you the most."  Both AJ and I
turned to look at Brian.

"Brian, you're awake!"

"Glad you noticed AJ."

"How long have you been awake?"

"Long enough."

"Oh."

"AJ, why didn't you say something sooner?"

"I am confused about everything Brian.  And scared."

"I know the feeling.  If you ever have anything, feel free to talk to me."

"Thanks Roc."

"Well, I am going to go back to sleep so you two fairies keep it down.
Just joking Steven."

"Shut-up you big powder puff."

"OK, OK, I am going to bed before this gets out of hand.  Goodnight."

"Goodnight."  Both AJ and I said in unison.

"Well, I am going to finish what I am doing and catch some sleep myself.
And AJ, if you ever need to talk or anything, don't hesitate.  Both Brian
and I are here for you."

"Thanks man.  One more thing.  Do you think I should tell Kevin and Nick?"

"Well AJ, that's up to you.  I think it would be for you because you will
have a lot of people who really care about you to lean on while you find
yourself.  However, you shouldn't be forced to do it."

"OK, thanks man.  I hope you are around for a while."

"Oh, I plan to be."  Out of the corner of my eye I could see Brian smile
when I said this.  AJ went and made himself comfortable in a chair.  I made
it a little warmer in the cabin so everybody could sleep easier, and turned
off all the lights except the one that was right next to me on the table.
I finished my E-mail and sent it.  I think shut off my computer and went to
sleep.


***Brian's Dream***


He was at some type of concert.  Everybody was wearing black and crying.  A
woman came out on stage and announced the next song would be 'Here With Me'
by Dido.

SPEAKER: This final song is dedicated to someone who we all knew and loved.
-song starts playing- He found something that few of us find, and that is
true love.  When that person deserted him, he tried to stay strong, but
could take the pain no longer.  Rest in peace, Dr. Steven Wright.

"Noooo!"


***Back on the plane***


"Noooo!"

I woke with a start and saw Brian on the sofa.  I rushed over and began
shaking him.

"Brian, wake-up.  Wake-up baby."

He sat up with a start, drying his eyes.  By this time, everybody else had
gathered around to see what was wrong.

"Steven?"

"I'm right here Brian.  I'm right here."

"I would never leave you.  Please believe me.  I would never hurt you.  I
love you."

"Brian, quiet now.  I know.  I know.  It was just a dream."

"It was so terrible.

"It's OK Brian, it was just a dream.  Here, why don't you come lay with
me."  I helped him over to the larger sofa.  I lay down and put him in
front of me.  I wrapped my arms around him, and pulled him into me.  "You
should try to rest Brian."

"No.  Every time I sleep something bad happens."

"Well, now I am here with you.  I'll keep anything bad from happening."

"You have always been there for me."  He nodded and he relaxed a little
bit.  I looked over at the clock a noted we still had a little over a half
an hour to fly.  The rest of the guys went back to sleep in their
respective areas of the plane.  I don't think Brian ever knew they were up.

"I love you."

"I love you too Brian."  But he was already asleep.  I could feel his heart
beating where my arm crossed over it, and I was soon asleep as well.


***An hour and a half later***


"Mr. Wright.  Mr. Wright!"

"What seems to be the matter?  Oh, hi Amanda.  About time to land?"

"Yes Sir."

"OK, thank you.  I'll get everybody up."

"So who is this handsome young man?"

"My boyfriend, Brian."

"About time you found someone."

"Ugh.  Your worse than Marie."

"Well, it's only because we love you and have known you since birth."

"Well, you guys are the best.  Could I get some water please?"

"Right away."

"Thanks."  I could hear Brian softly snoring.  I carefully untangled myself
from him and got up.  I was amazed he could sleep through all that.  I
can't imagine how tired he must be.  I didn't want to wake him until it was
necessary.  I turned the lights back on in the plane and cooled the cabin
back down.  That was enough to wake Kevin.  Amanda came in with my glass of
water which I promptly downed and gave back to her.  Kevin went off to the
bathroom while I woke AJ and Nick.  I went back over to Brian and decided I
should wake him.  I leaned in and gave him a kiss.  His mouth soon opened
and his tongue tentatively moved it's way towards my mouth.  I opened and
let him in, and we were soon exploring each other's mouths.  I decided I
had better stop because I realized everybody else was getting a show.  As I
pulled away, Brian breathed a deep breath and sighed.

"This had better be Steven, because if it is anybody else, he is going to
kick your butt, and probably mine too."

This got a laugh out of everybody, including me.

"I think I should wake you up more often."

"If you're going to do it like that, I agree."

"Well hot-stuff, we are about to land so you need to sit up."

"Aww man, I have a headache."

"Your pain medication has worn off.  I'll get you some more.  Amanda, could
I get a glass of water and three Tylenol please?"  She hurried and came
back with the pills and water, which Brian quickly downed and handed the
glass back to Amanda.

"Thanks.  I just hope it doesn't wait too long to kick in."

"It probably won't take too long."

"Mr. Wright, we will soon be beginning our descent.  Please take your
seat."  Everybody found a seat and Brian took my hand.

"You OK?"

"Flying is not my favorite thing to do.  Take-off and landing are the
worst."

"Well, don't worry.  I have flown in this plane many times, and nothing has
ever happened."

"As long as you are here I am sure I will survive."  He felt the plane dip
down and squeezed the shit out of my hand.  I just smiled.  He was so cute.
Every time we lost altitude, he would grip my hand tighter.  I was sure I
was bruising.  I knew we were about to land so I got him involved in a very
powerful kiss to distract him.  It worked and I broke the kiss.

"C'mon babe, time to get off."

"But how could we...oh you."  Then a little louder as if to the pilot he
said, "Can we land again?"  We all laughed.

"Well, it worked didn't it?"

"Yes it did.  Thank you."  We all stood and I picked Brian up in my arms
and carried him to the awaiting car.  After we sped off, Brian again fell
asleep on my shoulder.

"Aww...who brought the camera?"

"Oh shut-up Nick, you're just jealous!"

"Sorry man.  I don't bat for my own team."

"You know you want this hunk of a man to fall asleep on your shoulder."

"A hunk am I."

"What are you doing awake?  And yes, you are a hunk."

"I'm your hunk."

"Forever."

"I think I'm gonna be sick.  You two need a room."  I stuck my tongue and
my middle finger up at Nick.  "No thanks.  Save all that for Brian."

"What an idea Brian.  Why wait.  Lets have our first time right here in the
limo.  Right now."

Brian began playing along.  We explored each others bodies while we engaged
in some heavy kissing.

"Oh yea baby!"  Brian moaned and made small noises.  I joined in.

"Oh!  God Brian!  Yea!"  The rest of the car was silent, and as I joke I
reached and fumbled with Brian's belt.

"Oh my eyes!  My poor virgin eyes!"  cries Nick, and soon the others joined
in.  Brian and I could no longer hold our laughter as we pulled apart and
sat back laughing.

"I think you get Brian Jr. a little excited there Steven."

"Well Kevin, I guess I did.  It looks like Brian Jr. isn't so Jr. anymore!"

Brian blushed as he tried to cover his erection which clearly showed.  I
patted his knee, turned, and gave him a small kiss.  He then turned and
made himself comfortable on my chest, and fell asleep.

"Now isn't that a pretty picture?"

"Shut-up Nick, they look good together."  AJ came to my rescue.

"Hey, I think it is rather cute.  I was just teasing him."

"Don't worry Nick, I take no offense."

"So where are we going anyway?"

"Well, my cabin is in the mountains.  We should be there in about half an
hour.  When we get there you should call your management and tell them
where you are."

"Right as usual."

"I'm flattered."

"You should be."

"I know."

"And he's modest folks."

"If you've got it, flaunt it.  I'm great and I know it!"

"Wow, I wish I could be juuuust liiiike Steven.  He is sooo dreamy!"  Nick
spoke in a high-pitched teenage voice with his hands clasped together while
he batted his eyes and looked upward.  I just laughed as things quieted
down inside the car.  We sat in silence while the guys looked out the
window as the beautiful, snowy landscape passed by.  I chose instead to
look down at the beautiful man resting on my chest.

"You know he really loves you."  I looked over to see AJ right next to me.

"Does he?"

"Yes.  I know he really upset you earlier, but once he realized what he had
said and done, he was devastated."

"I forgave him AJ."

"Do you love him?"

"Yes."

"What does love feel like?"

"It's indescribable.  You are light headed.  Almost floating.  Every time
you look at the person you love your heart beats faster.  Your breath gets
stuck in your chest.  Everything is blocked out except thoughts about
them."

"Sound powerful."

"It is very powerful.

"I hope someday I will find something like that."

"You will."

"I'm not so sure.  I'm really...well, you know."  He spoke with a lowered
voice.

"AJ, you have a lot of people to support you in this difficult time.  I
personally think you should tell them.  Let them know.  That way you don't
box yourself in because nobody knows."

"You give great advice.  So how do I do it?"

"Well, just tell them.  It doesn't require a big long speech."

"Well, I have a lot to think about.  Thanks for your help."

"No problem.  Just don't think about it so long it weighs you down."

"Don't worry.  I should know soon.

With that, the cabin came into view.


============================================

OK, no cliffhanger.  :o) Now, on the last chapter, I only got two E-mails.
Give me some feedback.  I need to know to keep this going or not.  Well, in
the next chapter, look for Brian and Steven to get to know each other.  And
Howie will shock you again.


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