Date: Sun, 2 Dec 2001 19:35:20 -0800 (PST)
From: Mike James <jamesbeck18@yahoo.com>
Subject: to be or not to be (chapters 3-5)

This is totally fiction need I say more, I do not
claim to no the members of Nsync or there sexuality it
is just fiction...now on with the story, Feedback is
greatly appreciated. Jamesbeck18@yahoo.com.

chapter 3

The beam came close to an inch from hitting Jc in the
head as he pushed Justin out of the way.  They laid
there on the ground for what seemed like forever just
holding on to each other.  Everyone was making sure
the others where okay.

Later on that day they were all at the hospital
getting checked for there minor scraped and bruises.
The Media was outside stalking the entrance to the
hospital hoping to catch glimpse of one of the members
of Nsync.  Justin was lying in his hospital bed while
Jc, was sitting next to him holding his hand.  He
looked into Justin's eyes and new that there was no
one else on the planet that he wanted more, Not now
Not ever.

"Justin, baby..." Justin's hands cut him off.  His
fingers were out lining Jc's massive jaw.  " Shhh, Jc.
 You saved me back there; if it wasn't for you I would
probably be dead right now.  I owe you my life.   I
owe you so much.   You could of died today while you
decided to grow balls and get me out of the way.  For
that I owe you this much.  I hit you, which in my book
is unforgivable.  I no it seems really strange of me
to hit you and love you all in the same hour but it
are.  I have always loved you but for you to tell me
that I lost it.  I couldn't believe that you hid that
from me.  Then I thought I hid it from you to.  I will
never let you go now Jayce.  I can't and I won't."
Justin said while bring tears to Jc's eyes.

" Baby, (He reached into his pocket bringing out a
small black velvet box) I am glad you said that.  I am
very glad you said that. "  Jc grabbed Justin's hand
and got down on his knee.
" I want to be with you always and forever, for death
do us part and all that.  I don't want to ever loose
you Justin.  After today I realize how close we came
to doing just that losing each other and I won't let
it happen again.  I want to be your rock.  I want to
be your husband, so I guess what I am asking you here
is, Justin marry me.  You will make me the happiest
man on the earth if you say yes. " Jc said while he
slipped the ring on Justin's finger.

Justin looked down at the white gold ring with
diamonds and smiled, a tear running down his cheek to
be caught my Jc's thumb and whipped away.

" I love you, and you think that I will make you the
happiest man, well you are a little later there
because you just made me the happiest man alive. So
the answer is yes, yes I will marry you." He said as
he took Jc into a long embrace.

Justin leaned in and placed a soft gentle kiss on Jc
moist wet lips.  His hands tracing the outline of his
fiancee's masculine body... * Fiancee I love the sound
of that Justin thought to himself* As the newly
engaged couple was exploring each other body's they
heard somebody and turned around to see Lynn, Justin's
mother, standing in the doorway with a wide smile on
her face.

" Well it is about time you two found out that you
were in love with each other.  I thought I was going
to have to learn to accept Brittany as My Justin's
mate. " Lynn said as she walked over to the young
couple and gave them a hug.

" Are you two okay though, nothing serious here I
hope. " She said with motherly concern.
" No we are fine mom, but I guess we should tell you
something.  First off though how did you know about
us, I mean the fact that we thought and hoped there
would be an us at all." Justin said wondering.

" Well you too were always very close, but after a
while I noticed that you to were getting a little to
close for you to too stay friends for much longer.  I
knew sooner or later you two would find your way into
each other's arms." Lynn added.

" Well Mom, I am glad that you except us because we
are getting married" Justin said as he flashed the
ring at Lynn.

" What the hell are you talking about, getting married
I didn't even no you all were together," A familiar
voice added.


Chapter 4


Chris walked over to them.  " Well are ya all going to
say something?" He said with a smirk on his face.

Justin looked up at him with a curious face and just
said, " Chris man I am so sorry we didn't tell you
sooner, we were going to but then all this shit
happened. Lance and Joey already know.  Well they know
that we are together, they just don't know that we are
going to get married."

Jc grabbed Chris's hand and just smiled, " So are you
okay with this man".  He looked into Chris's eyes
worried about what he was about to say to him.  What
was this man going to say about the only love that he
has known, the only love that keeps him going.

" Man I am totally cool with it, I am just out 50
bucks that's all." Chris said with a smile.

" What the hell! You all bet on this. I think you need
to find a new hobby," Justin said as he punched Chris
in the shoulder.

The other guys came into the room and looked around
not really knowing what just went on the room while
they were out doing what they had to do.  Lance just
looked at Jc and Justin and smiled, he new.  He new
that the two men he looked up to at the moment were
going to further their relationship, and he new that
Chris owed him 50 bucks.

Lance looked towards Justin and laughed, " So when is
the wedding, o and Chris I want my money."
" Damn it man how do you do that.  How the hell do you
know what we are thinking and what we did before we
get to tell you?  This just isn't right man." Justin
said jokingly.

" I don't know, I can just tell some things, but only
about you all.   And I want my money." Lance said
opening out his hand as he had done to Joey earlier.

Joey let out a slight laugh and looked at Chris
handing Lance a 50-dollar bill.  Lynn was sitting down
smiling at her son and soon to be son-n-law.  Then she
turned and looked at how supportive the other band
mates were and she new everything was going to be just
fine.  She new that these boys had a strong support
circle, and that she didn't have to worry about what
was going to happen to Justin while he was out on the
road any longer.  He baby boy was all grown up and
going to get married.

The following morning, Lance and Chris where in the
front of the bus talking about the change in there
friends and the events that have taken place the past
few weeks.

" Man I can't believe that they are actually together.
 What the hell is Johnny going to say when he finds
out about this shit, you know that right?  He is going
to fucking flip." Chris said.

" Yeah but at least they are happy together.  Who are
you with? No one, that's who, Most of my time is spent
with Meredith now a days and Joey, well what can you
say about Joey.  He is just Joey." Lance added with a
smirk.

They continued their conversation unaware that Justin
wasn't far from them and could here is band mates
defend his new relationship with his life long friend
and companion Joshua Scott Chasez.

"Guy's I can't take it anymore, I am just totally
surprised at all this.  Why is it that you all took it
so well?  I was totally expecting something out of one
of those fan fiction stories ya know, like where you
totally freak out and the band is on the verge of
break up." Justin was interrupted by Lance. " Hold up
curly, this isn't fiction this is real, and we are
your real friends and we love you man.  You can't do
anything that is going to change that."

" Thank you man" Justin said as Jc walked up behind
him embracing him.
He let his arms reach around the front of Justin and
just hold him smiling into his neck.  He kissed the
soft flesh that was near the collar of his baby blue
button down shirt and worked his way to kissing
Justin's lips as the other two men in the room sat in
awe.

They're coo's in the room that made the young lover's
blush out in the open for the first time causing Chris
to just loose it.

" You two are just way to fucking cute together, and I
am totally jealous.  I want that, I want a man of my
own." He stopped realizing what just same out of his
mouth.  He looked around at the dropped face around
the room and just awaited the comments that he new was
going to come at him.


chapter 5

Justin was the first one to speak up when Chris let
the fact that he wanted a man slip out of his mouth.
" You want a man, wow.  I guess that is another one
for our side baby" Justin said looking at Jc.  " There
are a lot of men out there Chris I am sure you can
find one" Justin added before kissing his lover again.
" Yeah man there is plenty out there, none that look
as good as my man but there out there." Jc said
smiling at Justin.
" What do you want?" Justin said.
" What do you mean, I was just stating the obvious,
that's all" Jc added. They where to busy in there own
thing to hear Chris say that there is a man that he is
already in love with, but when he said it again they
both looked at him.
" Who is it Chris, do we know him" Said Justin.
" Well, yeah.  You two do know him. He is really
close." Chris said smiling.
" O my god, please don't tell me it is Joey." Came out
of Jc's mouth very fast.
Lance was looking at all three of them astonished by
the fact that they forgot he was in the room, but
Chris did not.  Chris new that the man he was in love
with was in the room, but he also knew the man that he
loved was in love with a woman.  He had been trying to
get rid of the feelings for Lance for years now, but
they just won't go away.
" Is it me?" Lance said, turning every head in the
room towards his deep voice, well every head but
Chris's.  Chris didn't want to answer the question at
all.  He didn't want to tell Lance yes for Lance to
get all weird on him, and quit coming to him when he
needed someone to comfort him when he was upset.
" What if it is Lance, what if I am hopelessly in love
with you, what if I live for every time you lay your
head next to mine, what if I love to look at you
sleeping next to me with your head on my chest.  What
Lance, what then?"

Lance just looked at Chris, and Justin and Jc looked
at each other.  None of them had excepted any of this,
and they really didn't believe that he would admit
that he liked Lance let alone that he loved him.  Then
Chris looked at Lance one last time put his hands to
his face and ran out of the room crying. The first
time he ever let the other guys see him cry.

Jc speaks up, "I will go and talk to him."  Then he
whispers to Justin, " Talk to Lance and see what he
thinks about all this, we can't let them get all
wierded out over this."

" Okay baby, I will see what I can do."

With that Jc had left the room and walked towards the
back of the bus to find Chris in his bunk still
crying.
" Chris man, are you okay.  You can talk to me you
know.  I've been there; I know how hard it is to tell
someone that you are in love with them.  Shit you know
how Justin first took the news, he punched me in the
face." Chris just opens the curtain that blocked him
from Jc and looked at him with red puffy eyes.
" I can't take it anymore Jayce, I have tried to get
rid of the feelings but there just there you know, and
I know that he is always with that Meredith girl.
There is no way he loves me, "that way" ya know."
" No I don't, First off he isn't with her, he just
manages her, I have never heard him talk about girls
at all, and actually I think he might be gay.  I can't
say that he is in love with you Chris but you know
Lance, nothing is going to change here, he will still
have you as his best friend won't he."
" I could never stop talking to Lance Josh, I love him
to much not to talk to him anymore."

	*	*	*	*	*	*

Mean while...
Justin was talking to Lance and Joey was still in the
back sleeping.
" So Lance, what do you think about what you just
heard, huh, what do you want to do? Do you want to
punch him, kiss him, stop talking to him, kill him,
what.  What do you want to do with this information
Lance."
" I want to know why?  Why does he love me Just, I am
nothing special.  I am just me, I am Lance.  The back
up singer that can't dance right."
" Where the hell did you get that fucked up idea from
Lance, you are not a back up singer and you can dance
when you practice, your apart of this group Lance, we
couldn't of made it this far with out you.  Hell,
Chris is in love with you so you must be doing
something right." Justin said kind of aggravated with
what Lance had just said.

" Justin, what if I told you that, that I want to try
this thing with Chris.  That I want to tell him that I
love him too, but I am to big of a coward."

" There is nothing to be scared of Lance, you already
no that he loves you"

Lances tears interrupted him.  Lance just started
crying and then looked at Justin and then down at the
floor.
" I don't want to tell Chris that I love him and I
don't want Chris to love me, if we try this thing, as
much as I want to, I have nothing left"

After that Lance got up and walked away leaving Justin
to wonder what the hell just happened there...

TBC
I hope you all liked that I figured I would give out
three chapter's this time, it is easier this way.   I
have a few more chapters done but you will have to
read this part first...I will send it out soon yall
aright!  Feed back is always good no matter what it
is...peace out yall. . . . . . . ANGEL