Date: Wed, 29 Dec 1999 05:44:52 -0800 (PST) From: Francis O'Ratigan Subject: As the Last Stone Falls Chapters 4, 5 & 6 Well I guess that a lot of you don't like the ideal of Jason and Kevin Breaking up. Oh well we will have to see what happens. Yes Jason and Kevin love each other dearly but Kevin has cheated on him twice. Can we expect Jason to continue to keep letting Kevin back into his life and bed with that kind of attitude? I don't think so. Chapter 4 I awoke the next morning to the feel of someone's breath on my neck. I looked over and saw that Brian was in bed with me. He was holding me. I could feel his arms around my waist. I moved my neck and and arms. I tried moving my legs and couldn't. "Brian, up wake!" I said urgently. I was still having diffilculty with my speach. He looked up at me with sleep still in his eyes. He was so cute when he first woke up that I had to laugh. He stuck out his bottom lip to pout. "I'm sorry for sleeping with you," he at once apologised. "But you looked like you needed someone to hold you." he said shyly. "I'm not mad at you sleeping me. But want to take things real slow," I said. He got the biggest smile on his face. "Your still sound funny," he said laughing softly bending down and kissed me on the nose. "Yea, and you still look funny," I said smiling. He got this hurt look on his face. He softly untangled himself from me and stood up and stretched. The door Flies open and Nick comes charging in. "I found it!" he yelled waving a plastic ziploc bag over his head. He also had a back pack that was squirming. "What found-- found what?" I asked. He looked disapointed that my speach hadn't returned to normal. The back pack barked. He handed the zip loc bag to Brian and than reached into the back pack and pulled Scrappy and handed him to me. Scrappy snuggled up in my arms and went to sleep right away. "Poor guy he was up all night whining for you," said Nick patting his head and kissing me on the cheek. "How are you feeling?" he asked sitting in bed beside me and putting his arm around me. "Better much--Much better," I corrected myself. "Can my arms and upper body move now," I said demonstrating by hugging him. "Oh that reminds me, Kevin left you a note," he said reaching into his pocket and handing me an envelope. I opened it and took out the letter and read it to myself. "My Dearest Jason, I cannot began to tell you how sorry I am for hurting you the way I did. I still love you with every thing I have. That will never change. Know that there will always be a place for you in my heart and in my life. You came into my life and lit it up in ways that I can not explain. When I released you that light went out. I cannot bear to be here right now. Every time I see you I am reminded of the horrible thing that I did to you. (Tears began to roll down my face. I felt the arms of Brian surround me. I looked up and he wiped the tears away for me. I looked back down and continued to read.) I know that you forgive me, that was one of the things that I love about you so much is your ability to forgive. But Jason my Love, I cannot forgive myself for what I did. I allowed the greatest thing in my life to walk out. And why? Because of one night of selfishness. A few moments of meaningless pleasure. That one action destroyed any happiness that you and I might of had. It would have been so easy to say to you that I promise to remain faithful to you. But I knew in my heart that I would some day break that promise and hurt you again. And I love you to much to do that. So I let you go. Brian has expressed his love to you. Please go to him. I know that he has a good heart and would never intentionaly hurt you. Take care of him and he will take care of you. Let him watch over you because he will. That is the type of person he is. I am leaving, going back to Orlando for some time to myself. Don't worry about me my love. I will be fine. Love always Your Kevin (BABE) I dissolved into tears now sobbing uncontrolably. I realised that Kevin was gone. I would never kiss his lips again or make love to him. I would never wake up beside him or have him laugh at me for moaning his name in my sleep. Brian just held me as I cried for the loss of my love. At some point I realised that Brian was crying too. He was crying because I was in pain and he could do nothing to help. Once I realised that he was here for me I calmed down. I reached up and wiped his tears from his face and he wiped mine off. Scrappy was softly growling at Brian. I decided to lighten the mood. "Alright spill it!" I demanded of Brian. He got this confused look on his face. "Why Scrappy hate you?" I asked. Nick started laughing. Brian shot him a glare. I looked at Nick. "Tell Nick me!" I demanded. "Don't you dare Nick," laughed Brian his eyes twinkling. Nick laughed harder. I lightly punched Brian on the shoulder. "You tell!" I demanded again. Scrappy barked loudly as if to tell Brian to spill it. Brian rolled his eyes and sighed. "I sat on him," he admitted. Nick busted up in a fit of laughter. This of course got him a pillow to the side of his face. "Hey I had no ideal he was there," he said in deffence of himself. I picked up Scrappy and held him up. "Kevin had just got him the day after we found out that Boomer had passed away. He spent all day looking for just the right puppy. He was so small and when he put him on the bunk , my bunk, he forgot to tell me about him. I was tired and plopped down on my bunk and that is when I was introduced to Scrappy. He has never forgiven me," Brian said smiling at the memory. He started laughing. "What funny so--what is so funny?" I asked. "Well Kevin thought he wasn't breathing so he decided to try to give him mouth to mouth," laughed Nick. I thought about that and started laughing to. Pretty soon we were all laughing. Even Scrappy got into the act and started barking. Nick got serious all of a sudden. He took the zip loc bag out of Brian's hand and handed it to me. "It's the dart that hit you yesterday," he explained. "Oh yea Brian, Casey left this for you too," he said handing Brian an envelope. Brian opened it up and read it a loud. Brian, Well it was fun while it lasted. My job is done here and I must be moving along. You were the best lay I ever had. I will remember the fun sex we had. Well I must be moving along. Later Casey. I hugged Brian and he hugged me back. "I should have known it was to good to last," said Brian sadly. I rubbed his back to calm him down. He looked at me and smiled. "Don't worry Jason,I knew what I was getting myself into and he made it very clear that all he was in this for was the sex," he said. "Used you he did!" I said angrily. "My friend, used my friend!" I looked down and was silent for a while. I felt Brian's hand on my chin. I looked up at him. He bent down and touched his lips ever so gently to mine. It was the softest and gentlist kiss I had ever had. It only lasted a couple of seconds. It was a kiss that begged permission for another one. I welcomed another one. We heard a coughing noise and broke apart. Brian's eyes were so bright that I was lost in them. He got lost in mine to and we spent the next few moments looking into eachother's eyes. "Ahem!" coughed Nick. I reluctantly looked over at Nick and he was waving the zip loc bag infront of me. I reached for it and took it. "So this is the little guy that caused all of this trouble for you?" asked Brian. "Take this to Doctor Please Nick?" I asked. Nick took the bag and left the room. "Now where were we?" I asked grinning. "I uh think we were right about here," he said leaning in for another kiss. His tongue gently probing my lips I parted them to allow him in. He probed the inside of my mouth cautiously as if on unfamiliar territory. I let him explore just a little until I felt something hard pressing against my leg. I gently pushed him away. He nodded and looked down and blushed at his perdicament. I softly laughed. He looked up at me with a serious look on his face. "I've waited along time to tell you this Jason. I love you," he said with his eyes so bright. I bit my bottom lip as I thought about Kevin. "Must honest with you," I said locking my hand in his. He looked away as if anticipating rejection. "Look - at - me - please?" I asked slowly. He looked at me and I could see tears welling up in his eyes. Cry don't, to special to cry Brian," I pleaded. I waited until he calmed down. I placed my hand on his cheek. "Beautiful you are. Want this to work bad so but must understand that I still love Kevin much so." He stood up and I gently pulled him back down. "I do have strong feelings for you though," I said looking him in the eye. "Would like to try and make this work between us." He smiled at me and leaned in for another kiss. It was like he was starved for them. He broke away and walked to the window. After about five minutes of silence between the two of us I spoke up. "Penny for your thoughts?" I aksed. "How long are you going to be here?" he asked. I shrugged my shoulders. "Well it is just that Christmas is right around the corner and if you don't have any plans I was kinda wondering if you wanted to come home with me for Christmas?" "Sure I love to but we have see what the Doctor says," I spoke up. "I don't see why you can't go home Mr. Gibson," said a voice at the door. We looked up to see the Doctor standing there. "Have you found what is wrong me with?" I asked. "Well we traced the chemical to know that there is no antidote for it. But it seems to be wearing off. We don't see a need to keep you here anylonger. You will of course be restricted to a wheel chair until you regain the use of your legs," he said. After a few more moments of talking and outlining my care plan which would include hours of grueling physical thearapy the Doctor signed my release papers. Chapter 5 Facing the Music I was sitting in a chair at South Fork looking out the huge bay window listening to the crackling fire place. The stereo was playing the Christmas Album from 98 degrees. Brian came walking in with a mock look of disgust on his face. "EWWW you like them?" he asked making gagging noices. "Well if you guys would come out with one I would listen to you," I retorted. "Did Nick get off to the Airport alright?" I asked. "Yea he left about an hour ago. I can't believe he is going to spend the Holidays with Justin and his family," he said shaking his head. I wheeled myself over to the mini bar and poured me a brandy and lit a cigar. He frowned at me and I just glared at him and took a drag off of it. "I wish you wouldn't smoke those things," he softly pleaded with me." "My habit!" I said rather loudly taking a large drink from my brandy and wheeling myself to the fireplace. Scrappy came trotting in and jumped up in my lap and curled up in it with a huge sigh. I went to take another drag off of my cigar and a hand snatched it away and flicked it in the fire place. I glared at him and he just smiled at me. "What time are we leaving in the morning?" I asked pissed. "The plane leaves at 9:00," he replied not catching on that I was mad at him. Kevin would've picked up on the mood change at once. 'God this kid was thick headed.' I thought to myself. "I'm going to bed!" I grumbled wheeling myself to the elevator. "What about dinner?" he asked catching on to the fact that I was mad. "Good night Brian!" I said waving at him. The elevator door closed before he could stop it. So he raced up the stairs and beat me to the second floor. As the door opened he helped me out . "What's wrong?" he asked worried. "Nothing, Brian!" I said in an aggravated tone. "Please don't be mad at me," he begged. I wheeled myself the rest of the way in my room and started the long process of getting ready for bed. "I'm not mad at you," I said smiling alittle at him. "Yes you are!" he insisted. "You're pissed because I took your cigar away!" he said getting angry too. I looked at him and started laughing. "What is so funny?" he demanded. "You are," I said smiling at him. "Your ears turn red when you get mad," I giggled. "Do not!" he argued. "Do to!" I shot back. "I am not going to win this am I?" he asked. I shook my head no. "Hey I just realized something!" he shouted. "What!" I shouted back. "You're talking normal again!" he shouted at me. "Good, it's about time!" I yelled at the top of my lungs. "UHH Jason?" he asked. "Why are we shouting?" he stepped closer to me grinning at me. I noticed that he had this naughty look in his eyes. "What are you up to?" I asked grinning at him. He just came forward and picked me up and carried me to the bed and laid me down on it. And than he laid down on top of me and pressed his lips to mine. I welcomed him at first enjoying his touch. But than it hit me as hard as stone. He wasn't Kevin. I was betraying Kevin. Tears welled up in my eyes. Tears of sorrow and anger. He picked up on it right away and looked at me. "I'm sorry," I sobbed. "I'm sorry, I just can't do this," I sobbed looking away. He slid off of me and quietly walked out of the room closing the door behind him. I looked up at the ceiling tears flowing freely. Damn you Kevin!" I screamed. "Why did you have to do this to my heart! You love me and get me to love you and than you cheat on me!" I stared up at the ceiling for the longest time. Eventually I fell asleep. Down stairs (From Brian's Point of View) "Oh Jason, I love you so much." I sobbed staring into the fire place. "Can't you see how much I love you?" I knew that I had lost Jason. He loved Kevin and would always love Kevin. I picked up the phone and dialed Kevin's number. A sleepy voice answered the other end. "Yea this is Kevin," he said sleepily. "Hey Kevin," I sobbed. "Brian, what's wrong?" he asked me worried. "It's Jason, he needs you so bad," I replied. "He doesn't want me any more," he said. "Yes he does Kevin, but like you he is to stubborn to admit it," I told him. "I tried to do something special for him and he rejected me. All because he is still in love with you and doesn't want to betray that love!" I yelled at him. "I'm no good for him!" he shouted back at me. "All I do is hurt him!" he sobbed. "EWWW God Damn it! both of you are impossible!" I shouted at him. "Listen to me you hard headed Jack Ass. You get your scrawny ass on the next flight here. If you are not here in this house by tomorrow morning loving Jason as you should than you are not my cousin!" I screamed into the phone. "But but---," he stuttered. "No buts Kevin, get here now! Jason needs you and only you, not some replacement!" I shouted at him slamming down the phone. I sat back down waiting for Kevin. It would be along wait. (From Jason's point of view) I woke feeling refreshed. I was surprised to feel pins and needles shooting down my legs. I tried moving them but found that I could not. After getting into the wheel chair I wheeled myself out of my room and into the elevator. I glanced at my watch and saw that it was almost 7:00 in the morning. "Oh shit we need to hurry!" I said aloud as the elevator stopped. The door opened and I wheeled myself out. It was still dark down stairs. But I heard some music playing. I wheeled my self in the direction of the music. It was coming from the Living room. I pushed the door open and wheeled my self in. It was than that I smelled him. I smelled his clean fresh scent. I hoped beyond hope that he was here. I paused and looked around. I saw him leaning against the fireplace. He was gorgeous. He had on a black suit with a red silk tie. He smiled at me. I smiled back though my first instinct was to tackle him in a hug and kiss him to death. The door was shut behind me. I heard Brian's voice behind the door. "You two stay here until you are back together where you belong," he ordered. I looked at Kevin. "You look nice," I said. He came to me and sat in the chair next to me. "You are sounding better," he said. "Feel better to. I can move everything from the waist up. And this morning I felt pain in my legs," I said excitedly. His eyes lit up and my heart ached for his touch. "I still love you," he said so softly that I almost didn't hear him. I looked over at him and saw tears falling down his cheeks. I reached over and put my hand on the side of his cheek. He leaned into my touch and kissed my hand. I closed my eyes savoring the feeling of his touch. "And I love you too," I said to him. "I want you back so much." "You can have me, all of me," he begged. "Can I really have all of you Kevin?" I asked looking him in those green eyes of his. "Are you ready to take that step?" I asked hoping beyond all hope. He dissolved into tears laying his head in my lap. "Yes," he sobbed. "I miss you so much. I don't ever want to loose you again." He looked up at me and stared into my eyes. "I make this oath to you. I will remain faithful to you for as long as I live. Please Jason, take me back?" he pleaded. I looked deep in his eyes and saw only love. I pulled him into a hug and held him while he sobbed into my shoulder. After awhile he calmed down and looked up at me. "Yes Kevin, I will take you back. I'm still upset by what you did and we are going to talk about it. But I believe the love we have is strong enough to get through this," I said looking at him. He smiled and leaned in for a kiss. It wasn't a go for it kiss with everything you have. It was a soft and gentle kiss as if asking for permission to do so. I gave him permission by parting my lips and sliding my tongue in. He moaned softly as our tongues continued our endless battle for control. When we finally broke apart we were breathless. We heard the door opened and Brian stuck his head in. I waved him in and he cautiously entered. Kevin and I busted up laughing. "Don't worry Brian, it's safe to come in now," said Kevin getting up to hug his cousin. After they broke apart Kevin laid his hands on Brian's shoulders. "Thank you for knocking some sense into this thick skull of mine." Than Brian did something that surprised the hell out of me. He slugged Kevin in the jaw. Not too hard but hard enough to knock him on his ass. Kevin laid there rubbing his jaw. "That is a warning Kevin, you've been given a second chance. Screw this up and you will loose him forever," he said extending his hand and helping his cousin up. He nodded rubbing his jaw. "Ok, now that we are all made up what time to we leave?" I asked. "I'm leaving now," said Brian. "You and Kevin are catching a later flight tonight. It leaves at 10:00 tonight," he said giving Kevin a quick hug. He than came over to me and looked at me. "Are you happy?" I nodded yes. "Don't let him hurt you again," he warned. "Don't worry Brian, I think he has learned his lesson," I said giving him a hug. In a moment he was gone on his way to the airport leaving Kevin and I alone in the house or so we thought. I heard the door bell ring. I wheeled my self to the door and opened it. There standing there was Nick! And he was sporting a black eye. "Let me guess, Justin," I said. He nodded yes. I was mad and turned around and stormed into the living room and grabbed the phone and dialed Justin's number He answered. "Hey Justin!" I shouted at him. A hand was placed on my shoulder and I looked at Nick. He shook his head no. "But he hurt you!" I complained. "And I hurt him worse. Please Jason let it go," he begged. "Hello Jason is that you?" Justin asked on the other line. "Hello any one there?" he asked again. "Ok I'm hanging up now," "Hey Justin," I said. "Sorry about that but Nick and I were talking." "I'm not going to listen to anyone who is taking Nick's side!" shouted Justin. "Don't get hostile on me Justin. I'm not taking his side, but I am his friend," I spoke quietly into the phone. "How the hell can you remain friends with him after he cheated with Kevin?" shouted Justin. "God, you're a bigger ass than Nick is!" "You don't have to result in calling me names Justin. Let's just say that Kevin and I are working on our problems and leave it that," I yelled back. Kevin went to grab the phone out of my hand but I held up my free hand to signal no. He stulked over to the fireplace and started poking it. Nick went over and turned on the stereo and scrunched up his nose when the 98 degrees Christmas CD came on. He quickly turned it off. "Ok I'm sorry Jason," Justin apologiesed. "I heard about what happened to you. How are you doing?" "Well I got my speech back. But I am still in the wheelchair. The doctor says it could take months before I can walk again," I explained. I heard silence at the other end. "Justin, are you still there?" I asked. "Yea Jason," he sniffled. "Please don't cry Justin," I said. "I'm going to be alright. The Doctor says that it will take time but I should return to normal in a few months." "I can't help it," he sniffled. "You are my friend and I care about you." "Well thank you for caring. But trust me Justin. I am being well taken care of," I said winking at Kevin. He got up and walked over to me and started kissing me on the neck. I started giggling. "What are you guys doing?" demanded Justin on the other end. "I am being attacked by Kevin," I said laughing. "EEEEW!!" he shouted. "I don't need to hear this. Glad you're feeling better Jason. You have a good Christmas," he said laughing. "Yea you have a Merry Christmas to Justin. Say hello to the rest of the guys for me. Oh Justin one quick question. How is JC doing?" I asked. "He is still in therapy. But he is getting better. He is carrying around alot of guilt over what happen. He also wants sue Brittney," he told me. "Well I am glad he getting the help he needs. Let him know that I am thinking of him. Bye Justin," I said hanging up the phone. Kevin moved from my neck to my lips sliding his tongue into my mouth. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him close. "Hellooo!" yelled Nick. "I'm in the same room as you two. Do you want me to leave?" he asked. We broke apart and looked up and smiled at Nick. "Hey, I just thought of something," I spoke up. "What are you going to do for Christmas?" I asked. "I don't know," he mumbled looking down. "My family is in London this year." "Well why don't you tag along with us?" offered Kevin. "I couldn't do that," replied Nick. "Yes you can Aunt Jackie would love to see you and besides it's Christmas," convinced Kevin. "OK I'll go along as long as I am not to much trouble," relented Nick. While Kevin was making additional reservations I pulled Nick off to the side and started making plans for some last minute Christmas shopping. "Alright Aunt Jackie. Nick wanted to make sure it would be alright. I'll tell him that you would love to have him, see you late tonight," he said hanging up the phone. He spotted us talking in the corner with mischiveous looks on our faces. "Alright you two, what are you planning?" he asked walking over to us. "Us?" asked Nick feigning surprise. "Planning something?" I asked shocked. He just smiled and shood his head as he walked over to me and picked me up and carried me up to "our" room and laid me on the bed and climbed in and wrapped his arms around me. The feel of him laying next to me filled my heart with such warmth and security that I was soon sleeping. Chapter 6 Miracles can Happen The flight was uneventful and the ride over to Brian's house was a quiet one. I slept on the way over. Kevin held me in his arms and Scrappy laid his head in his lap. Nick was napping in the seat across from us. The car stops and Kevin gently woke me. "Jason, Babe, come on wake up," he said quietly in my ear. "Were home." After getting the wheel chair out and me in it he wheeled me up to the door. Scrappy had found a cat to chase up a tree. Poor Nick was tasked with catching him. Scrappy had of course chossen that moment to be naughty and he ran from Nick. Kevin and I softly laughed at poor Nick who was chasing Scrappy down the long drive way. The door opens and a lady met us. She looked down at me and smiled and gave me a hug. "You must be Jason," she said. "Yes Mrs. Littrel," I said formaly. She made clucking noises at me and shook her finger at me. (so that was where Brian got the finger shaking thing at). "You call me Jackie," she said smiling letting us in. After Nick had caught Scrappy and deposited him in my lap were shown to our rooms. Once in side we stripped and climbed into bed. Scrappy had of course chossen to sleep right inbetween Kevin and I. I looked at Kevin's face and busted up laughing. I picked up Scrappy and placed him at the foot of the bed. Kevin laid ontop of me and started kissing me. I of course welcomed him with open arms. It was as if nothing had happened or at least that was the impression that I was left with. For some reason I started to get mad again. I clamped my mouth shut and refused to respond in any way. He noticed right away. He slid off of me and walked to the window. I could hear him wimpering softly. It broke my heart to see him go through that. "Kevin?" I asked softly. He looked at me with tears streaming down his face. "I do love you, you know?" I asked. "And I love you Jason. What do I have to do prove it to you?" he asked walking back to the bed and laying down beside me. I wrapped my arms around him and held him for a change. I gently stroked his hair while I held him until I could feel his breathing become slow and regular. I knew that he was asleep. It had felt good to just hold him for a change. For most of our relationship it was he that held me. As he slept I thought about our relationship. I thought about all the times that he had been there for me. I thought about all of the special little things that he had done for me. I realized that all though I had loved him that I had done little to demonstrate that love. Yes I made love to him. But what else had I done? There were nights when he cried himself to sleep when I didn't hold him because he was to busy holding and comforting me. There were times when I pushed him away to be near a cold grave marker for comfort while he stood alone grieving for me. There was the time when I blamed him for turning to J.C. when I was in a coma and he had no one to turn to for comfort. Tears welled up in my eyes as I realized that I too was selfish and had a hand in almost destroying our relationship. I realized that I was guilty of the sin of pride with the knowledge of that I was faithful to Kevin and he wasn't and I was using that to hold over him. Kevin may have fallen to temptation but I was so caught up in the fact that he was the one that was wrong that I failed to see the man that I loved was hurting and needed my arms to hold him and care for him. I started sobbing into my pillow muffling the sound so as not wake Kevin. It was late into the night before I fell into an uneasy slumber. The next morning I awoke to an empty bed. Kevin was no where to be seen. The pains and needles had returned. The pain was so bad that I cried out in pain. The door flew opened and Kevin came rushing in. "Are you alright Babe?" he asked worried. I looked up at him. He had a towle wrapped around his waist and he was drying his hair with another towle. God he was sexy. "Yea, I'm fine," I lied. He looked at me as if to say he knew better. "It's just my legs. They hurt real bad this morning," I admitted. "Is there some thing I can do to help?" he asked sitting down beside me. I reached over and kissed him on the lips. I also slipped my hand under his towle and gently stroked his cock. He moaned and closed his eyes and stretched out over me grinding his crotch into mine. I looked into his eyes they were filled with love and they twinkled. "What are you doing?" he asked gently removing my hand from his growing cock. I stuck out my bottom lip to pout which he caught in his teeth. I tried to recapture my elusive prey only to find out that his hand was there to stop me. "Can Kevin come out to play?" I asked grinning. He laughed and stood up and slipped on a pair of boxers. "Man are you fiesty this morning," he said sitting in the chair by the window. There was a knocking at the door and Nick stuck his head in. "Hey, are you guys going to come down to eat. Come on we're starving down here," he whined at us. Kevin and I laughed as he closed the door. "Crazy love birds," he grumbled. We laughed all the harder. "I want to do some shopping this morning," I spoke up. "Ok you and I can hit the mall after breakfast," Kevin volunteered. "Uh Uh loverboy," I scolded him. "You don't get to come because I am buying for you," I told him smugly. "Well maybe Brian will go with you," he said. "Nick said he would go with me," I said. He nodded as he help me get dressed and carried me down stairs and placed me in my wheel chair and wheeled me into the dinning room. After eating Nick and I skinned out to hit the mall as early as possible. Once inside we began the task of buying gifts for Kevin's family. I had no ideal what to get but with Nick's help we managed to cover it. Finally all that was left to buy for was Kevin. I had no ideal what to get him. "So Nick, what should I get Kevin?" I asked. He shrugged his shoulders. "Oh, you are a huge help," I laughed. As we passed a jewelry store some thing caught my eye. "Nick wait!" I shouted. He stopped and followed me into the store. I went up to the sales person and bought what I had seen. Nick agreed that It was perfect. (Sorry readers but you have to wait just like Kevin does.) Once we were done we headed back home. Kevin was of course waiting by the door for us. "What did you get me?" he asked peeking in the bags. I swatted his hand away. He pouted and I laughed. "Pleease just a hint?" he begged. "Uh Uh, no hints, you have to wait until tonight," I teased him. He pouted some more. I was tired so Kevin and I headed up to our room for a nap. I slept soundly. Kevin gently untangled himself from me and headed down stairs. (From Kevin's point of view) I headed down stairs to find Brian. I found him putting ornaments on the tree. I walked into the room and pitched in to help. "Brian?" I asked. "Yea Kevin," he answered. "Jason is Catholic right?" I asked. "Yea I think so," he replied. "Does our Catholic Church have a Midnight Service?" I asked. "Mass," Brian said. "What?" I asked confused. "It is called Mass, and yes they do. I called this morning," he said. "Do you think he would like it if I came along with him?" I asked worried. "Why don't you ask him?" Brian asked back. "Thanks Brian," I said giving him a quick hug heading back up to the room. Jason was still asleep. I slipped into bed and wrapped my arms around him. (From Jason's point of view.) I awoke to Kevin staring down at me with goofy grin on his face. I reached up and stroked his face. He leaned into my touch and kissed my hand. I would never grow tired of his touch. "Jason, I have something to aske you?" he said worried. "And that would be?" I asked back. "Would you like to go to Midnight Mass with me?" he asked smiling hopefuly. "I would be honored to go with you," I said smiling back at him. It was cold out and Kevin made sure that I was bundled up to the hilt. I even had a wrap over my legs. Kevin insisted that I needed it. On the way to the church I slipped the gift box in his hand. He opened and tears filled his eyes. "Oh Jason, I love it," he said as he lifted it out of the box and held it in the light. It was a hand holding a heart in the palm. It was solid 24 carat gold on a 24 carat gold chain. I helped him put it around his neck. "That is my heart that you are holding in the palm of your hand," I explained to him. "I'll never break it, I swear," he said leaning down to kiss me. I felt some thing slide over my finger and looked down. It was the ring. Only it was different. The Saphires had been replaced with rubies. "Will you mary me?" he asked. I nodded yes and kissed him again. The car stopped and Kevin helped me out. He was right it was cold out. As he wheeled me down the side walk I noticed a little boy standing by himself shivering. "Kevin wait," I said urgently. I quietly wheeled myself over to him. "Little boy?" I asked softly. He turned around. He was no older than four. "Where is your mother?" I asked. He looked down at his feet and tears streamed down his face. I turned to Kevin, "Kevin could you run inside and get the Priest?" I asked. Kevin nodded and took off. I turned back to the boy. "You are cold, here let me help you," I said taking the blanket the Kevin had wrapped my legs in and wrapped around his shoulders. He smiled at me and than what happen next could only be explained as a miracle. He began to glow with a soft golden light. His appearence changed to the point that I could no longer make out his features. He began to grow in height to. He reached out and took my hand. The warm feeling that radiated from him penetrated me as well. I could see Kevin coming back alone. He stopped and stared. The Being spoke. "My son, stand and walk!" I stood and took a couple of steps towards him. "For many years I have come here to find one person who would show some compasion. For one person to comfort me in my time of need. I have found that person. That person came here tonight in a wheel chair. That person was you. Remember when I told my people to clothe the naked and feed the hungry and give drink to the thirsty?" he asked. By this time I was kneeling in the cold snow hiding my face from him. "Look upon me my son," he spoke softly. "You have done well tonight. Now go and be with Kevin and love him as I have taught you!" I raised my eyes to look upon him. "My Lord and My God," I spoke. He nodded slowly and placed his hand on my head in a blessing. I don't know how long I remained kneeling. But when I came to my sences Kevin was kneeling beside me. I looked around for the little boy but he was nowhere to be found. I slowly stood up and walked to the church. It was dark. I turned to Kevin. "Kevin, what time is it?" I asked "It is after three in the morning," he said. He stood up and walked towards and wrapped his arms around me and pulled me close. "You mind telling me what that was all about?" "That was our special Christmas Miracle Kevin," I whispered in awe. "Was that ---?" he asked afraid to finish. "God comes to us in many forms Kevin. And yes that was Him," I said walking back to the car. "You comming?" I asked. "Man the guys are not going to believe this," he mumbled. "Hell I don't even believe this. OPPs sorry about the hell thing God," he said smiling sheepishly. **************************************************************************** I would like to take this time to wish all of my fans a Blessed Christmas and A Happy New Year. Feed back? e-mail me at frnceso@yahoo.com