Date: Tue, 08 May 2001 00:26:49 -0400 From: Susan Rogers Subject: wooing my beloved/chapter 14 Hello folks, Disclaimer, If you are underage, don't read it this is FICTION! I don't know the ppl in this story, it's all what my mind thinks on with the show! ** As the days flew by, and we moved from place to place. I noticed something strange was going on. Justin, never went out with the guys anymore after the shows. He would retreat to his room and lock the door. A few times, I had caught him talking in a whisper to someone on the phone. Whenever I questioned about his sneaky behaviour, he would just get all nervous looking and tell me to bugger off. It was really starting to piss me off, because I came to Justin when it all started with Chris. Well, actually Justin came to me but that is beside the point. I still confided in him! One night after one of the shows, Chris and I were lying in bed just enjoying the comfort of each other's arms. I heard someone knocking softly on the door beside our room. I sat bolt upright, and grinned. I quickly got out of bed and ignored Chris' both puzzled and annoyed glance. I stalked silently to the door, and opened it slowly and quietly. Just as I was about to get the glimpse of whatever the hell Justin was hiding, the door opened and the guy walked threw. I was only able to get a glance at the guy. I just saw a baseball cap, and jeans enter Justin's room. My shoulders slumped and I shuffled back to bed and the waiting arms of Chris. "Okay Lance, spill. I'm getting sick of this." Chris said giving me a look that I knew not to mess with. I stuck out my bottom lip, and said "Dunno what your talking about Chris." I thought Chris would think I was silly if he knew I was trying to spy on our bandmate. "Oh common Lance. You've been acting strange lately. You may think I don't notice you doing your Matlock act but I do! I want to know what you're so intent on finding." Chris said putting his finger under my chin and lifting my head up so that I was looking directly into his eyes. I felt really guilty. It wasn't fair that I was hiding anything from Chris. Especially something that is so petty and small. I just didn't want him to think I was interested in Justin or anything stupid like that. I sighed and decided to face the music. "I think Justin's hiding something from the group." I stated bluntly. Chris raised an eyebrow. "He is entitled to his private life you know." I nodded. "I know Chris, but this is different! He never comes out with us anymore; he always seems so distracted and sad. I don't think it is a good secret he's keeping. I can just tell that something is weighing heavily upon his shoulders, and I want to know what it is!" I told Chris firmly hoping he'd understand. "Aww love, I know you worry. I can see why you're worrying. Why don't you try and talk to Just? He might just give up information voluntarily instead of you sneaking around. And trying to find things other ways." Chris asked me softly. "I've tried talking to him Chris he just gets upset with me, and tells me to mind my own business." Lance said sadly. Chris pulled me into his arms and stroked my hair. "Baby, maybe this is something Just has to work out on his own. I am sure, that everything will all come out eventually. You just have to be patient." Chris said trying to comfort me, and it was working. "I hope so Chris. I miss the old fun Justin." I said turning my head and kissing his neck. "I do too baby." Chris said and reached over to flick off the lights. Once the room was in total blackness Chris hauled me close and kissed me softly. I knew it was his way of saying bed time, so I snuggled in close to him and closed my eyes. As I was drifting off to sleep, I wondered what was going on in the room beside mine. *** *Next Door* When I heard the knock on the door, it scared the life out of me. Who would be coming to my room so late? I knew it wasn't Chris or Lance because they were probably already sleeping. J.C never came this late, nor would Joe. When the knocking became more persistent I decided to answer it and I was glad that I did. When my love entered the room and hauled me into his arms. I felt the tears I had been holding in slip down my cheeks. These past few weeks had been so hard. We were trying to get threw everything, and get all the kinks worked out before we came out to our groups. It was very stressful and it was very hard on my nerves. I especially hated lying to Lance, because I KNEW he knew something was going on. My love stroked the back of my neck softly and made soft soothing noises into my ear. "What are you doing here baby?" I asked him softly, basking in the feeling of security I got from him. "I know, we said that after the concert tomorrow we'd tell them, but I couldn't be away from you a moment longer Justybear." He said softly to me. I lifted my lips up to his and kissed him softly. He in return kissed me back. It wasn't as passionate as kisses before had been, but a comforting kiss, his way of letting me know he understood. I felt the tip of his tongue gently wipe away the salty tears that had escaped my eyes. And slowly we moved backwards towards the bed. Once my knees hit bed I immediately fell backwards onto it. Allowing my loves weight to crush down on my gently. I felt my love get up and I looked up at him with question in my eyes. He just smiled a soft smile. "Be right back Justybear." He said softly and entered the bathroom. I heard water running and I smiled. Whatever he had planned I welcomed with open arms. After about ten minutes I heard him come back into the room, I looked up at him looming over the bed, staring down at me like an angel in blue plaid boxers. He reached down and gently ran his hands under my t-shirt and caressed the skin underneath. I purred softly at his touch and smiled at him encouragingly. I moved up slightly as he removed the t-shirt from my body. His hands slid down my chest in a comforting, but arousing manner. And he skimmed his fingertips over the top of my boxers. As he tugged them off I lifted my butt off the bed to make it easier. Once I was naked, he stood and slipped off the boxers he was wearing, and I etched every perfect part of his body into my memory. It was a sight I had seen many times, but it always took my breath away. He leaned down and scooped me up in his arms and I wrapped my arms around his neck and allowed him to carry me into the bath. I had never taken notice of how huge the bathtub was, but looking at it now I smiled. My love, gently sat me down in the warmth of the water. I hissed slightly as the cold tile of the back of the tub hit my warm back. Once I was settled my love told me to scoot forward, and I did. My love sat in the tub behind me and I leaned back against the warmth of his chest, and allowed my head to fall in the crook of his shoulder. I closed my eyes contentedly. I felt my loves hands move a washcloth gently over my body, cleaning away all the pain and stress the past few days had caused. I felt his lips gently nibble and kiss my neck, easing away the tension. His cloth-covered hands ran up and down my torso covering me in a layer of soap and bubbles. I then felt his hands run over my now slick chest. His callused thumbs gently caressed my nipples, and I let out a tiny moan of pleasure. I felt him smile against my neck, his stubble slightly tickling me. His hands then moved their way slow down my chest and over my hips. They teased my thighs that were submerged in the water with gentle soothing strokes. As much as his touch was comforting me, it was arousing me all the same. And I pressed back against him to see if he was also aroused, and the hardness I felt against my back proved the obvious. I said his name softly, trying to encourage him to stop teasing me; but he kept on teasing me. His fingertips tickled up my thighs and gently over my balls. And I gasped in air at the suddenness of his touch. His clever hands kept getting bolder, and I felt them dance up my cock and I moaned again. My love knew every touch that would arouse me. With his lips nibbling and licking, and kissing, and his hands stroking, and caressing and gliding it wasn't long before I was completely lost in sensations. However, something was missing, and I think he sensed it too, because he nudged me gently and showed me that he wanted me to face him. It took some manoeuvring but eventually I managed it. And I straddled my love, facing his beautiful face, one that brought me so much joy, and love. I leaned forward and kissed his lips softly. He returned the kiss and pulled me close. Our chests met, and rubbed and it felt wonderful. I felt his hands run down my back and over the globes of my ass and pulled me closer. I willingly moved as close as humanly possible to my love, but it wasn't enough. I needed more. Right then I needed as much closeness as possible, it had been so long since he held me that all I wanted was the comfort of his arms. I gently kissed the side of his neck and encouraged his touches and his caresses. I needed everything he could give me. I felt his fingers probe inside of me getting my ready to welcome the only thing that could bring me the closest physically. Looking into his eyes, and seeing all the emotions that raged there. From protectiveness, to love, and everything in-between. It was all there naked for me to see. Everything that was in his eyes was in our hearts, and that entwined us further. Emotionally we were connected, our breathing patterns the same. When I felt his fingers leave me, I gasped at the emptiness, but was quickly fulfilled again. With him, all of him. And at that moment, everything, all the pain, the sorrow, the love, the people who may not approve of what we had disappeared. Nothing stood between us. It was just our bodies meshing, our souls entwining. In essence we became one. And as we moved together and the gentle sound of water, and the steam that moved around us I realized something. This was not for pleasure, this was for solace, this was just to be. And as we both erupted him into me, and me into the water. Without words, we knew that nothing could ever tear us apart. And when we both came down from everything, my love picked me up in his arms and dried me gently and then carried me off to bed. I snuggled into his body, and as the world grew dark within my eyes. I knew no matter what, everything would be ok. And as the night went on... the couples of n'sync slept... peacefully Ok, i know.. it's weird but I hope you like it!! Susie Q chocolate_cow_angel@hotmail.com