Date: Thu, 1 Mar 2001 06:13:47 -0800 (PST) From: jennipher raquet Subject: Cold Nights Being Alone 2 Hey peeps. Thanks for your feedback! Thanks to it, here's the next part (a gift from me to you...aw! *hehe*) Anywayz, when writing to me, please put the story title in the subject line or i might accidentally erase it. And this story is not true, I'm not claming that I know NSYNC personally at all. I'm not implying aything. ~*~ The next morning- I woke up again the next morning after JC. He was looking around at all my posters and out the window. "Hi Josh." I said brightly. "Hi." He whispered. I sat up, and rubbed my bare arms and chest against the cold. "Ooh, it's cold. Hey, what's the matter? Do you hurt?" He shook his head. "No, I feel fine." "So what's wrong?" I put my arm around his bare shoulders. "Jennipher." He whispered. "Oh." I said quietly. "Don't you dare tell me *that* wasn't cheating on them." He said severely. "Okay okay so it was." I sighed. "So what do we do? Are you going to tell Jenni?" "Hell no. She'll never understand." He sighed. "I'm not even sure I do...I want to tell her because I love her, but now I..." he trailed off. "What?" I asked. He swallowed. "Love you..." I blinked. "Really? I love you too JC. But still...what about the girls?" "Not tell them." He said firmly. "That kind of thing is saved for deathbeds and last words and such." I laughed. "Okay. We won't tell them...are you sure you can keep that from JD?" "I'll have to." He said simply. "Okay." I yawned. "And anyway, it's cold. And six-ten in the morning. Let's go back to sleep." He shook his head. "I'm awaked. I want to get dressed." "So do it." I gestured to his clothes on my floor. He paused. "Can you...can you not look?" I gave him a funny look. "JC, after what we did last night, does it really matter if I see you?" "Please Justin. This is a very awkward situation. I'm sitting naked next to my best friend, the man I slept with last night when I'm supposed to be with the woman who's having my babies." "For you." I said, turning. "What, not for you?" "Nope, I'm completely comfortable." "Whatever." He leapt into his clothes. "Okay." He sighed. I glanced at him. "Better go comb your hair." He nodded. "Okay, I will." He turned to leave. "Um, Justin?" "Whassat?" "I'm not gay." He said. I looked at him, my JC (after what I did to and with him last night I can afford to call him mine in my own head) with his blondish hair messy and his blue eyes wide. "Okay." I said. He walked out, and promptly walked back in. "You're mocking me!" he accused. "No, I'm not." I said. He raised an eyebrow at me. "I'm not. I'm saying I heard you, I'm responding, replying, and agreeing. Okay?" I said calmly. "Oh. Okay then." He went out. I sighed, and looked out my window. The sun was beginning to rise, and it was really beautiful. Was that a sign? ~*~JC's wedding day (June 21st) I walked into the room where he was at, dressed in a black tuxedo (I was the best man. Yep. Aint I the best? J/K) JC was also ready. "Ready yet Josh?" I asked. He looked up at me. We haven't spoken of the events that took place on June 13th. We had stayed clear of each other and took precautions not to be alone together, j/i/c. But we're okay now. It's like a left behind piece of homework. Done and forgotten, never to be returned to the atmosphere. "Yep." He took a deep breath. "I'm ready. Is Jennipher ready?" "Dunno. Want me to go check?" He nodded. "Yeah." I went down to the hall of his parent's house (him and Jade wanted to get married where he grew up, (Bowie, Maryland) and went to JD's room. "Hi girls." I said. "Ready Jen?" She nodded. She was very big with twins, and very quiet the last few days. Andy told me she was afraid of when she'd go into labor, because of the pain, and because you never know when complications can present themselves. She didn't want problems with the twins. "Okay. JC just wanted me to check on you." I said. I looked over to Andy, who was in the bridesmaid's dress. "Wow. You look pretty." I said. She smiled. "And you look darling in that suit." I made a playful disgusted face. "Yuck. I hate suits." "How much longer until the wedding?" I asked. Andy checked her watch. "About fifteen more minutes. C'mon Jenni D, gotta get ready to go." She said. JD nodded. She looked great in the wedding dress. "Well, see you at the altar." I said, and walked back to where Josh was. "She's ready. Let's a go." He nodded. "Okay." And walked towards the door. "Wait." I caught him by the shoulders. He looked up at me, in my no longer innocent blue eyes. "I-" I paused. "Are you going to let me give you a wedding day kiss?" He glanced around, and seeing that we were alone, sighed. "I don't think so Justin. You can't imagine how I feel, so guilty cause of Jennipher. I swore to myself that I would never let it happen again. And I have to stick with that. So no, I won't let you." He wriggled from my grip and began to walk down the hallway. "You said you loved me." I called after him. He stopped, and sighed. He came back over, and looked up at me. I smiled. He put his hand on the back of my head, stood on tiptoe, and kissed me, pressed his lips to mine, no tongue. He let me go. "I do." He whispered. He laid his head on my chest a moment. "And it's tearing me apart." I put my arms around him. "Shh, it's okay." "Hey ya'll, ready to go?" Joey's voice said from behind us. "Whatcha doin?" Lance asked. JC let me go. "A hug to settle my nerves. I'm a nervous wreck." Joey put his arm around his shoulders. "Don't worry li'l cuz, everyone says that this is supposed to be the happiest day of your life." "Not bloody likely." He muttered as we walked, but only I heard. We stood in our places, and waited for Jennipher to show. The bridesmaid's (Andy and an old friend of Jenni's, Andy Lakewood) followed the flower girls (JC's nieces) and the organ player composed 'Here Comes The Bride'. We saw Jenni come in, smiling. She stood next to JC. She was so big he had to stand a little off to the side. I hoped she wouldn't go into labor during the wedding. "Dearly beloved, we are gathered here to witness blah blah blah yakity smelling elephants and a dry porpoise on land." "What?" My head snapped towards the minister. "Just checking to see if you're paying attention." He said, winking at Jennipher. I snorted, sounding like a pig on steroids*. That was just like Jennipher to get that set up. Anyway, the minister said the blessing for real. Before I knew it, he was saying, "I now pronounce you man and wife, you may now kiss the bride." JC lifted the veil over JD's face. Everyone stood up and clapped. I clapped JC on the back. "Way to go Josh!" I said. He smiled at his audience, with his arm around Jenni's waist. The reception was normal, and then JC and JD went to our house (JC's and mine). I was going over with Andy to spend the night. When we got there, Andy threw herself into my arms and kissed me. "Was up Andy?" I sighed. I could tell she wanted something. "Well...don't you think it's great JD and JC are having babies?" I shrugged. "Sure. Kids are great." "Well..." she sighed and blew her hair out of her face. "I aint one to hold back on the point. I want to have a baby too, Justin." I blinked. "A baby?" "Yes. Jade's so happy she's going to have a child, and she says it makes her so happy that there's human beings growing inside her, and that she's having the babies with the man she loves. I want that too." "I don't know Andy." I said doubtfully. "A baby is a big responsibility." "So? JD is younger than me and she's doing it!" "Jennipher and JC didn't exactly plan their expectancy. It just sorta happened. And JC is older than me." "That means he can help you! And their children will be older than ours, so everything that happens to us they've already experienced and can give us advice. They'll help. Come *on* Justin!" she pleaded. I sighed. "Well, if it's what you really want...okay." She smiled. "Ooh, good! C'mon." she pulled me towards her room. "Whoa, what's this?" I said. She stopped, and gave me a Look. "How else do you expect me to get pregnant, you PICKLE PICKLE PICKLE!" I cracked up. (Some apparent inside joke between her and Jennipher and their friends). Then, I sighed. "You want a kid NOW?" "Duh! C'mon." she pulled at my hand. I followed, dazed. ~3 wks later Andy and I had moved into a big house, and Jade and JC moved next door to us. They had a lot of preparing to do before their babies came. Andy still wanted to get pregnant, and she had a doctor's checkup to see if she was. JC went bowling with Joey, Lance and Chris, so I was home alone and Jennipher Chasez (she loved that) was home alone too. I was playing Nintendo quietly when the phone rang. "Yello?" I greeted. Clunk. "Ah! Justin! Help me." I familiar female voice cried. "Huh? Jennipher? What's wrong?" "Babies want to come out!" she whined. "Ok, hold on, I'll be right there." I said. I ran next door and opened the front door. "Jenni where are you?" I called. "Owww...in here!" she yelled. I ran to the kitchen where she was lying on the floor. "I'll call 911." I said. I did, and then got her bag and waited with her for the ambulance. "Where's JC..." she whimpered. "I want him..." I hugged her. "Yeah, believe me, so do I." I had called him on his cellphone, but he wasn't here yet. The ambulance came, and she asked me to stay behind to tell JC they'd gotten her and to ride with him there. They took off and I waited. After about four minutes, JC raced in the door. "Jennipher?" "The ambulance came and took her to the hospital." I said. "Oh. C'mon. Where's Andy?" "Doctor's. Had an appointment. She wants to get pregnant and went to see if she was yet." "Okay. C'mon." We jumped into my car and raced to the hospital. He ran to the delivery/waiting area, and I stood outside the door of Andy's doctor's office. She came out. "Ah! Justin! What are you doing here?" "Jennipher's having the twins now. Me and Josh just got here too. I thought I'd meet you here and take you down to where they were." "Oh. Okay." She sounded awfully quiet. "What's wrong shorty?" I asked. She usually gets mad when anyone calls her short except me. She don't mind me or Jennipher. She shook her head. "No baby yet. Doctor thinks there might be something wrong with me. I've scheduled an appointment for next Tuesday, to get a thorough examination with the gynecologist." "Oh. What could be wrong?" "The hell do I know. Where's Jace and Jennipher?" "Oh. This way." I led her to the waiting room. Me and her sat down, and waited for four hours. "Guess what!" JC yelled in our ears and scared us. "Ah!" I yelled. "Eep!" Andy said. "Oh. Sorry. Anyways, guess what?" he said, smiling proudly. "Chicken butt." I said proudly. He gave me a dark look. "No, I got sons! Three of them!" "What the hell happened to twins?" "Baby hiding." "Oh." "What are their names?" Andy inquired. "First baby Joshua Scott Chasez jr. Second baby Sawyer DeLane Brian Chasez, and the baby who was hiding is Chandler Joseph Hercules Chasez." "What!" I burst out laughing. "You heard me. Chandler. Joseph. Hercules." "You named your son Hercules?" Andy said, wide-eyed. He shrugged. "Sure, why not? Just his second middle name. Besides, you were the one to suggest it." "I wasn't serious!" "Well, it's funny. Jennipher insisted, so I caved." "Is that *really* the kid's name?" I asked doubtfully, knowing JC's joking nature. "Yep. Scout's Honor." "oh, okay. Too bad you were never a scout." I said. He shrugged. "Oh well. You're the only one besides Jade who caught that in three years." "Can we see Jennipher?" Andy asked. "Not till they move her to a real room." "How long will that take?" "Not too long?" I asked. "An hour, probably. They need to give her some painkillers and stitches and stuff." He shrugged. "Andy, can you run over to our house and get her little teddybears she packed for the babies? She left them behind. They're on our dresser." He said, handing her a key. She nodded. "Okay. Be right back. Don't wait up." When I turned back to JC, he was looking me hard in the eyes. "What?" I said. "No more." He said seriously. "No more what?" "Kisses. Sex. No more." I shrugged. "Fine." He shook his head. "No. Not enough. No more, Justin." "Okay, no more." I said. "I heard you the first time. I get it." "Good." He said solemnly. "I'm married now. I'm a father now. I *do* love you, but now only as a friend. No more anything." I swallowed. "Kiss goodbye?" He glanced around. "Later. There's too many people around." "There were people around when you said we had sex in June but you don't hear me complaining now do you." I sighed. "Well, people can see what they can't hear." "Okay okay. Later. Promise?" I asked. "Okay, I promise." He said, exasperated. "Okay then." He sighed. "I'm going to check on JD. I'll be out in a minute." "What! And leave me all alone..." I stuck my lower lip out. "Grow up. I said I'd be right out." He rolled his eyes. "Okay, fine." I said, frowning, and he went into the delivery room. I made a mental note to ask him why he was mad at me and snapping at me. Was it because I'd requested a goodbye kiss? Well excuuuuuuuuuuse me if I was in love. Then I froze. IN love? IN LOVE? That is *so* much different than love. Uh-oh, was I falling for my best friend? Turns out, uh-oh was right.