Date: Fri, 23 Mar 2001 21:07:25 -0500 (EST)
From: maxwelllite@webtv.net
Subject: Lee and me..chapter 5

The nite of the race i couldn't sleep at all. My thoughts were filled
with what had transpired that day. There was no doubt that something i
had read about in later years called total power exchange..tpe..had
taken place.
The article stated there was really no exchange.. the dom simply takes
all power which is willingly surrendered by the sub, which sounds
exactly like what my relationship with Lee had reached that day.

While being used in that way had been degrading and humiliating, it had
also been a major turn on and that was the reason for Lee's power..it
was a turn on. Before Lee entered my life i could not have imagined such
events, although i always had more than a passing interest in Carter and
Worms relationship. I like everyone else had laughed at and denigrated
Worm, but i always secretly wondered why he allowed Carter to dominate
him, and what must it be like to be in his place, never actually
thinking that i would be. I found it notable that i never wondered what
it might be like to be in Carters place.

I thought about the way Worm had gotten on his hands and knees and then
bowed his head to make it easier for Carter to mount his shoulders and
then how i had imitated him for Lee's convenience as if i was Worms
student learning the finer points of subservience. I thought of how the
two arrogant riders dished out punishment as if it was their absolute
right and how we accepted it. But especially i thought about the way
Carter had slashed away at Worms butt and the grimaces on his face which
said loud and clear that this was not play and how he had accepted it as
the normal course of events. I as i mentioned had always disliked Carter
and did now more than ever, but as i pictured him still administering
the cruel looking welts even after the race was over i had to admire his
arrogance and superiority just as i had an even greater admiration for
Lee for the
way he had conducted himself. I remember thinking that after today there
is no limit to Lee's power over me and i'm sure he knew it as well.

i was thinking that the switch or whatever it was that Carter wielded so
skillfully, wasn't just something he had picked up at the beach. When he
put it back in his bag i realized he had brought it along for just such
an event as a race and it was probably a regular part of his beach bag
equipment. I found it interesting, even exciting that Worm had been
required to carry the bag and it's contents, knowing what was in the bag
and that it would very likely be put to use.
   Still sleepless and reliving the day's event's in my mind i suddenly
remembered something i had seen several years back in our attic.It was
an old  trunk that i had been rummaging through and an item in it.
I took a flashlight from the nite table and silently went up the back
stairs to the attic.
I actually felt relieved to find the trunk was still there and unlocked
although i think i had half hoped it would be gone. It was filled mostly
with old junk that no one had any use for and probably should have been
thrown out years ago. I took out a couple of the larger pieces and there
they were..on the bottom..a set of old slightly rusty army spurs and a
riding crop.
I felt my throat go dry and it became difficult to swallow just
imagining what use these could be put to in the right hands..in Lee's
hands.
  I was still awake as the sun came up. I couldn't stop thinking about
what i had rediscovered. Also there was something else on my mind. I had
a date that nite with my girlfriend Kay and I had been thinking a lot
lately of something really bizarre..what it might be like if i
introduced her to Lee.
We lived in a rather small town, but Kay lived at the complete other end
and went to a different school, so there was little chance that he would
ever have to meet her. Because of Lee's dominance of me and that i had
become his personal fool and flunkey i had strived to keep them apart.
But for whatever reason the thought of bringing her to him had been
growing stronger every day and was becoming almost obsessive.